Chapter 9 Chapter nine

I never took the initiative to contact Ruan Jinji again, not because of narrowness among rivals in love, but because I didn't know how to deal with such a woman who had countless connections with my love, how embarrassing it was. When I was bored browsing posts on the computer or in a daze in front of the window, I would always feel melancholy when I thought of her enchanting and proud face, but I couldn't be calm and comfortable with her as a friend without any grievances. Ruan Jinji, on the other hand, seems to have really let go of all her past, changed her mind, and wants to start her life again. Not only did she take the initiative to call me, but she also kept her voice very low. She didn't want to lose my friend. The meaning is sincere but never humble.

She told me about her mother, a single woman who never married. When she was a child, her mother always held her hand. On the side of the road, she pointed to a man from a distance and said: That is your father. Remember, it is This bastard lied to your mother, he planted the seeds and ran away, throwing us like a pile of garbage. The little Ruan Jinji always looked at him blankly, envious of the little boy who could be held by him and walk on the street, he could call his father loudly, and he could ask him for toys and ice cream. She quietly practiced calling her father, her voice was small, she called over and over again, the quilt covering her face was wet, and no one answered her.

She hated her mother, hated her incompetence, how could she not be able to keep her father, so that she was often called an illegitimate child with broken shoes by jealous female classmates. In the fourth grade, she once ran to the man's house, stood under a tree, waited for him carefully, watched him come out of the corridor, ran over, and timidly asked: Are you really my father? The man froze for a moment, looked at her with a frown, and then said coldly, "Who said that?" my mother.She lowered her head and whispered, very sad and desperate, she thought he should be like the father in the movie, holding the child who had been separated for many years in his arms, crying.

But, he didn't, he just looked at her coldly for a while, shook his head, and left, as if she was a little beggar in Lu Yu, making unreasonable demands on him. She cried all the way home. Since then, she no longer has any illusions about this man.She said to me: You don't know how much I hate him. When I watched him play games with his son in the community, when I watched him appear on TV with a high-sounding appearance, I wanted to rush up and tear him down. Hypocritical painted skins, they live a life in heaven amid the envy and praise of others, but my mother and I are like mice living in the ditch, and we have to be pointed at by people when we walk on the street.

Showing the ugly scars of life is not necessarily frank, but more often, it is to win sympathy votes for oneself and to make the listeners feel trusted. Now Ruan Jinji is, for a woman who grew up in cold and hurtful rumors, There is too much cold in her heart, and she needs a lot of warmth to warm her cold heart.What Ding Zhaoyang gave her was disappointment and hurt, and it was Ding Chaoyang's fault. However, I know that when a man is an animal, when lust breaks out, all moral principles will fail.A female writer once said: It's not that I don't believe in love, but that I don't believe in human nature.

Ruan Jinji said, "Wu Dou, I have always regarded you as a friend." Ruan Jinji said: "Pea, all these years, I have not had a real friend, I am just a clown who is laughed at." Ruan Jinji said: "Wu Dou, no one has ever treated me as well as you, so I don't want to be called by the name I used to be. I want to have a warm and peaceful life different from the past, so even if you already know my real name, I am still I would like to be called Ruan Jinji, because when I was called Ruan Jinji, no one knew about my past, no one laughed at me..." ... No heart can withstand such a sad and soft call.Of course I can.However, I have many questions, and only Ruan Jinji can answer them.

We chatted and went shopping together as usual, and when we were with her, I always felt that she was smiling, faintly, hidden in the depths of her eyes. "What are you laughing at?" She opened her hands, shrugged and said, "Where did I laugh?" Seriously, she widened her eyes and brought her face close to let me look at it. She was indeed not smiling, and was even serious.I thought, maybe I have a demon.Just touch her smooth face and smile. I still can't do it. When I face her, I don't want to remember that she was with Ding Chaoyang, and even some illusory and lively scenes, one scene after another, silently passed through my heart.

I know, even if she is still the same Ruan Jinji in the past.Those old things that I know have become like a hard and transparent wall between me and her, which cannot be passed through.Let her and I only look at each other, and we can no longer be intimate. However, it seems that we are closer than before, and that kind of mutual understanding and tolerance is a manifestation of hospitality. Ding Zhaoyang asked: "Didn't you say that we invited your friends to dinner together? Why is there no movement?" My heart sank, a little uncomfortable, thinking of his past with Ruan Jinji.

After knowing these origins, I definitely can't let them sit together.Some things, if you say let go in indifference, you will let go, and then witness it, it is a reminder, and it will evoke all kinds of possibilities. Just tell him that my friend is very busy, and I will talk about it when I am free. He stopped asking questions, and leaned on my shoulder, like a bored big kid. I adjusted the TV channel at random, and the legal channel was broadcasting a traffic accident news. The vehicle was pulled out from the vast crowd. Ding Zhaoyang raised the corners of his eyes: "Why don't you change it?" He doesn't like to watch the regular channels, but likes to watch the science and education programs of the Central Ten.

I continued to change the channel, but I was thinking in my mind, Ruan Jinji Beauty Salon is at the edge of a crossroad, there should be a camera, right?Thinking of this, my heart trembled, and I felt ashamed when I thought of Li Changfeng. Li Changfeng has a deep friendship with me, but I always think of him when I need his help. Ding Chaoyang was concentrating on watching TV. Since Ruan Jinji died down, he has returned to his usual calmness and capableness. He goes to the company every day in a hurry, and is affectionate at home. Many times, some words that came to my lips were difficult for me to swallow, and I watched him silently in dejection. I don't care how he failed Ruan Jinji. When dealing with her own love, women seldom use a sense of justice. All he cares about is who does he love more?

Although I am sure that he loves me more than Ruan Jinji, Ruan Jinji who is not loved by him is his criminal record. In his midnight dream, did he think of a woman named Zhu Jin? When he thought of her, his heart was like Isn't it a little bit sad? Ding Chaoyang suddenly looked sideways at me: "What are you thinking?" I smiled lightly: "A lot." "For example..." He turned around and sat upright facing me. "Like...well, in the future." He smiled: "Do you need to think about it in the future, it's just you and me, let's get married." I smiled with the corner of my mouth, his smile, like a gradually extinguished light, slowly faded: "I shouldn't have said that." I know he's reminded of his own invisible handicap that wouldn't allow me to be a mother.He doesn't know, what he cares about is not what I care about, he doesn't know what I care about. I care about the fact that he once hurt a woman so much that he still can’t let go of his hatred for him after six years. I also care about Xu Zhilan who disappeared. , Xu Zhilan is dead, not missing, but this is her guess, as long as I haven't seen Xu Zhilan's tombstone, I firmly believe that she is still living in a place that I can't see. Such chaos is not what any woman is willing to face. Even at that time, I was already his legal wife, but feelings are fragile crystals, and ten thousand imaginary strengths cannot withstand a small pebble of the truth. Life is so cruel, all if is not used to comfort you not to cry, but a kind of heart-piercing pain.If, Xu Zhilan returns, even if I use ten thousand ifs, I won't be able to return to the harmless past. I hugged his waist, put my face on his chest and looked at the ceiling: My ideal is to grow old with you. He touched my face and said I did too. I asked Li Changfeng out for dinner, and I didn't make a fool of him. When I saw him, I said, "I invite you to dinner for a purpose. You have to be mentally prepared. If you are willing to be used, sit down and eat. If you don't want to be used There is still time to turn around and leave." Li Changfeng intentionally made a shocked expression, and quickly sat down: "Zhou Yu hit Huang Gai—I wish I could." Deliberately dragging the chair loudly, said: "I just like your strength, never falsely say old classmate, long time no see, let's have a meal and talk, but the fact is that I want to ask you to do business." I pursed my lips and smiled, pretending to accept his compliment. While waiting for the food, I asked him if he could help me find the surveillance video of a certain intersection on a certain month and night, and Li Changfeng laughed jokingly: "I remember you have always hated the use of privileges." I cheekily ignored his teasing: "People, to put it mildly, have a sense of self-service. To put it bluntly, who is not selfish? I occasionally get selfish and break the rules a little, so please forgive me once." .” "Of course, I also used power for personal gain once." Li Changfeng said with a serious face, "You must be hiding what I'm investigating, because the people you follow are very unusual." Seeing me pondering, Li Changfeng straightened his face and said solemnly: "If you don't tell me the truth, I won't help you this time, not for anything else, but for your safety." I don't want to tell him that the real origin of this incident involves the disappearance of Ding Chaoyang and Xu Zhilan, for fear that he will try his best to investigate for me and mess things up. He looked into my eyes intently, I hummed, and said, "The camera is just opposite Ruan Jinji's beauty salon. I want to know if she was in the beauty salon that night?" "So what if you're here? So what if you're not here? Besides, didn't I help you to verify the thief's statement? There was indeed no one in Ruan Jinji's office that night." He continued to ask. "I know, but seeing is believing. I have to see with my own eyes that she was not in the beauty salon that night, because an acquaintance I knew had an accident that night. Before the accident, I heard him swearing. I suspect he was swearing." The person is Ruan Jinji, but she said that she has been staying in the beauty salon." I spread my hands and said, "If she was really in the beauty salon that night, then I am purely delusional." Li Changfeng said ok with a solemn expression. "Except for helping me watch the video, you don't need to intervene any more. I'm just trying to verify whether the intuition of a suspense novel author is correct." He nodded and grinned the most: "I just hope you are safe." "I understand." I smiled: "Thank you." Li Changfeng took me to the monitoring data center of the traffic police, and quickly called up the monitoring data of that night. The front face of Ruan Jinji Beauty Salon was indeed within the monitoring range. We looked forward little by little. The window facing the street in the courtyard was opened from the inside. Ruan Jinji stepped out of the window cautiously. She looked at the window hesitantly, and then closed the small security net door. She ran to the side of the street, took a taxi, and left. . "Stop!" I yelled.Li Changfeng asked why he was so shocked? "Help me see the license plate number of the taxi. I have a new destination in my heart." As long as you find the taxi driver, you can find out Ruan Jinji's destination that night.Li Changfeng looked at me silently with doubts, and helped me to fix the license plate number on the tail of the taxi. After leaving the traffic police monitoring center, Li Changfeng said suddenly: "Stop playing adventure games, I will help you find out everything you want to find out." I said no, I can still do this little thing. Li Changfeng glanced at the cars on the street and closed his eyes: "If you need anything, call me as soon as possible." I nod.Say thank you. Finding a taxi driver is not as easy as I thought. I first found out the company the taxi belongs to, and then went to the company to look for it. The company gave me the driver's phone number, but he refused to see me because he couldn't remember it. What good deed did I do, I need to be thanked in person (in order to find the driver smoothly, I lied to the rental company, saying that the driver helped me one night, I want to thank in person.). On the phone, he was very resistant to me, and later, he simply stopped answering my calls. I'll just have to put it aside for now. Li Changfeng often sends me text messages, nothing wrong with them, they are widely forwarded jokes, I read them, mostly laughing, and don’t delete them, until Ding Chaoyang saw him one day, holding his mobile phone, his eyes full of doubts: who is thisTexting you so often? I took a look and said my classmate. He oh once, then put it down, frowning slightly. Ding Chaoyang is quite broad-minded in other respects, but, perhaps because Xu Zhilan's lesson from the past has hit him too hard, he is not considered an open-minded person when it comes to relationships between men and women. I didn't want to make him feel like there is no money here, so I didn't explain it to him. After more than ten days, Li Changfeng suddenly called me and asked if I had found the taxi driver. I dejectedly said no. He pondered for a while and said, "Don't scold me for being troublesome." I said no, and then paused: Did you find him? He, well, said that the taxi driver remembered what happened that night very clearly, because he saw Ruan Jinji climbing out of the window from a long distance away, and wondered if it was a thief. After she got in the car, he looked at her clothes and conversation When Ruan Jinji asked him to stop at the seaside, he said too much that it was very dangerous to go to the seaside alone at such a late hour.Ruan Jinji said that a friend was waiting for her here, and thanked him for his kind reminder.He didn't care and left. Then, Li Changfeng suddenly said: "I already know. That night, at the beach where Ruan Jinji got off the car, a person died, that is, Gu Fuli, the security guard of your apartment. Tell me the truth, did he die by murder or suicide? , what does it have to do with you?" "You should have known a long time ago that I am a curious person. I always feel that his death was not suicide." "Pea, do you know? When you think you are someone's good friend, but in the end you find that the person you consider as a friend doesn't trust you, it's very painful." I whispered, "Yeah, it's not what you think, really." He said hope.Preoccupied and hung up the phone. If Gu Fuli was really pushed into the sea by Ruan Jinji, why would she do this?Why would Gu Fuli call her an insidious and despicable woman? She must still be hiding something from me. A bunch of questions made me dizzy. I simply went out to catch my breath. I was walking aimlessly on the street when I suddenly heard someone calling me in a low voice. When I turned around, I smiled: "Little Yezi, why are you here?" Xiao Ye Zi poked her head out from a beauty salon, smiled at me, and asked me where I was going. I said it was fine and just walked around, and Xiao Ye Zi pulled me in to sit. There are two beauty beds, and a row of beauty equipment stands against the wall. She dragged me a chair, looked at me and smiled, and said you don't want to know why I'm here? "Do you even need to ask? The salary here is high." I pretended not to know that she was fired by Ruan Jinji. Xiao Yezi pouted her small mouth: "Cut, the high salary can't be as high as this kind of small roadside shop. Manager Ruan fired me for no reason. I don't know which nerve she made wrong." Then she said that she didn't find a suitable one. To work, I will temporarily live in this small shop opened by a fellow villager. I also pretended not to know why Ruan Jinji quit her, and talked to her one after another. After a while, Xiao Yezi said angrily: "Don't look at Manager Ruan's sunny face and scolding people, that's called it." Ruthless, what are you scolding for being ugly?" "Call you?" "She doesn't scold us. A few times, when I passed by the door of her office, I heard her swearing on the phone, scolding so hard, scolding people are born cheap, and I don't know who answered the phone. How can I bear it? Is she scolding like that?" I smiled and listened to her talk, Xiao Yezi became more and more eloquent, using this to vent the depression of being fired, saying that several times, a man came to her, the appearance of that man was so ridiculous, she scolded her like a mourner Like a dog, she drove him away, but he stayed there, saying that she would be responsible for the current situation. From what he meant, it seemed that the man loved someone very much, and Manager Ruan set up a trick to mess him up. The person involved didn't know about it, and this man insisted that Manager Ruan help her save the situation, otherwise, he would tell the person involved. After finishing speaking, Xiao Yezi looked at me seriously and asked, "You are Manager Ruan's friend, so you must know the secret of it?" I shook my head and said, "I really don't know." Xiao Yezi looked at me disappointedly: "I'm just a little curious. It feels like I've read a serial novel. I really want to know the next story. Unfortunately, I'm not working there anymore, so I don't have a chance to know." I Leng Ding asked: "Is that man about 1.75 meters tall, with a thin body, and his eyes are downcast when he looks at people, as if he is very scared?" Xiao Yezi became excited again: "Yes, yes, you also know him?" I smiled and said, "I've seen it once or twice, it seems like Manager Ruan's friend from long time ago." "Well, it must be. The man said that it's useless for Manager Ruan to hide, even if he has plastic surgery and looks like a foreigner, he can recognize it. It seems that we have known each other for a long time." Xiao Yezi's words made my mind full of guesswork, but I couldn't find a clue, and my head sank even more. I simply asked Xiao Yezi to do a deep facial cleansing.She couldn't be happier, and said with a smile, she hoped that I would come here often. Although the appearance here is simple, the beauty effect is not worse than that of the big store, and the price is fair. The big store sells the appearance, while the small store sells the service. As I watched, my fingers slid back and forth across my face. After finishing my makeup, it was getting late, thanked Xiao Yezi, went out, and bought some vegetables when passing by the vegetable market. After dinner, Ding Chaoyang drove me to the radio station, and when the show was over, he saw a text message on his phone, which was from Li Changfeng, saying that he was waiting for me outside the radio station and wanted to tell me something. I looked out the window and saw that Ding Chaoyang's car was there, and remembering his expression when he saw Li Changfeng's text message, I quickly texted him back and told him to wait for me downstairs today, another day. The first half of Li Changfeng's text message sent me out of my wits: Okay, we'll see you tomorrow, you have to be mentally prepared, Ruan Jinji is Xuan Lingxiao's half-sister!Her real name is Zhu Jin. I was so distraught by this news that I sat in the director's room for a long time before I regained my composure. The director joked, "Look at you, maybe the two boats under your feet collided with each other?" I said go, can't you think of something advanced?Just as he was talking, Ding Chaoyang called. He was probably waiting for me in the car listening to the show. After half a day after the show, he didn't see me coming out, so he called to remind me. I picked it up in a hurry, and before I could speak, it automatically shut down due to lack of battery. My heart suddenly felt a little guilty, thinking that Li Changfeng’s text message hadn’t been deleted yet, so I ran down in a panic. Ding Zhaoyang had already opened the car door. , poked my head out of the car window, looked straight at the steps in front of the Radio and Television Building, and asked as soon as I sat down, "Why can't I get through the phone?" "The battery is out." I shook the phone at him. He put on his seat belt: "In the future, I will bring a spare battery with me. In case of an emergency, the mobile phone falls off the chain at this time, so worry." I giggled: "I have a bad memory, I always forget to bring it." Ding Zhaoyang's face froze, and he said in a child-threatening tone: "If something happens to you, just learn a lesson and remember it. After finishing speaking, touch my face: I will be responsible for replacing the battery you replaced in time. Charge it up and check your bag for a spare battery every morning before heading out." "Heh, why are you so jittery?" He didn't answer me directly, but said: "From now on, as long as you don't go on business, I will pick you up every night." OK.I said with a smile, and then asked: "Are you afraid that I will be robbed by a pervert?" He hummed: "That's right, there's a man who has been wandering around for a long time, and he doesn't look like a good person when he looks all over the place." I thought it might be Li Changfeng, but I didn't want to explain to him, so I put my face on his face: "Thank you for treating me so well." He slid the tip of his tongue over my face and started the car. After returning home, I thought about finding a battery to replace and deleting Li Changfeng's text messages. I have always been delicate and sensitive to the point of worrying about gains and losses, and I am used to assuming the worst of any details.I'm afraid that Ding Zhaoyang will accidentally see that text message and know that the Ruan Jinji I know is the Zhu Jin who makes him dislike him. I reasoned that my head was a little dizzy and I wanted to rest for a while, so I asked him to take a bath first, and he went into the bathroom, I quickly found out the battery, replaced it, turned it on, and was deleting text messages in a hurry like a thief. When I came out of the bathroom, I let go of my hand and the phone fell to the ground. My panic made him puzzled, and he muttered that he forgot to take a change of underwear, and picked up the phone for me, looked at it over and over again and said, "Fortunately, it didn't break." Put the phone back in my hand, I went to get my underwear and went to the bathroom. I clutched my chest and panted for a few big breaths. My God, I am a courageous person, but I was so scared by this text message. It can be seen that compared with ghosts or ghosts or even the most terrifying things, secret killings is the biggest. No wonder, in many novels and movies, so many people pay the price or even their life for a certain secret. In a peaceful and peaceful life, the secret is the most powerful devil. It was so easy to expect Ding Chaoyang to go to the company. I got up quickly, washed up quickly, and called Li Changfeng. He seemed very busy and said that we would have lunch together. Asking you out for coffee, I don't want to kill your boyfriend halfway, my timely retreat is very interesting, right?" I was focused on knowing what happened to Ruan Jinji and Xuan Lingxiao, and I was not in the mood to joke with him, so I just urged him to come out early, so don't delay too long. "It would be great if I could only be so impatient to see me." I didn't say a word, and he said haha: "Are you kidding me, so scared? See you at noon." I had nothing to do all morning, and suddenly remembered that I hadn't visited the next door for a long time, so I locked the door and opened the door next door.The floors are clean.I didn’t find anything new, and I couldn’t understand why he cleaned up the room so clean. I looked out from the stainless steel fence door leading to the balcony, and there were a few more tools, hammers, chisels, etc., I wondered Well, Ding Chaoyang is a pampered person, and he prides himself on being respectable. This kind of work that requires the use of iron tools is basically done by outsiders. I looked at what else was piled up in the corner of the balcony, but the stainless steel guardrail door was locked, and I searched the whole house but couldn't find the key. The appointment with Li Changfeng was approaching, so I had to give up. As soon as we met, Li Changfeng directly said that he found the information of Ruan Jinji's mother through the household registration file. At that time, Zhu Meiyu's unmarried first childbirth was a sensation in the whole neighborhood. For this reason, she was kicked out of the house by her parents, and she did not get along with her natal brother and parents. contacts. "Then how do you know that the child she gave birth to is Xuan Lingxiao's father?" I asked anxiously. "Learned from you. I worked as a private detective and visited some of her mother's old neighbors." It is said that Zhu Meiyu, who has a flamboyant personality, has been telling everyone that she is in love with a rich man with an inheritance in the United States since she got married with Xuan Lingxiao's father. Her parents believed it and urged her to bring him back to have a look. She brought him back, but she didn't tell Xuan Lingxiao's father that she was taking him home to meet his parents as a boyfriend, she only said that he would accompany her home to pick up things.As a result, Xuan Lingxiao's father smelled something wrong as soon as he entered the door, so when Zhu Meiyu's father asked about his family situation, he answered truthfully, and Zhu Meiyu's parents turned their faces at that time, saying that he was not a good person , is already married and is the father of the child, and is still flirting with his own daughter. Originally, Xuan Lingxiao's father was a little annoyed because Zhu Meiyu introduced him to his family as a boyfriend, and was criticized by her parents. He was even more unhappy, and quarreled with them without suppressing the fire. At that time, Zhu Meiyu lived in a shantytown with more than 20 families living in a compound. Zhu Meiyu's parents argued and pushed Xuan Lingxiao's father away, calling him a shameless hooligan and telling him to get lost. All the people in the courtyard put down their jobs and came out to watch the excitement. Soon, Zhu Meiyu's belly grew bigger, and she walked in and out of the courtyard with her growing belly, showing no sign of shame, the street director almost broke her leg, she just refused to let go of the abortion, her parents I felt that having such a shameless daughter in my family was really shameless, so I simply kicked her out. Until many years later, the story of Zhu Meiyu is still being talked about by old neighbors. Ruan Jinji's life experience makes me feel uncomfortable. After knowing this, when I think about her appearance, I feel a little pitiful. Li Changfeng raised his chin and looked at me: "Are you satisfied with the information from the old classmate detective?" "Thank you." I laughed, and then desperately thought, what did Ruan Jinji do at the beach the night Gu Fuli died?I know she has been listening to the program I host, why is she so afraid when she hears Gu Fuli's confession in the program?Why stand up and stop him from speaking? Li Changfeng shook his hand in front of my eyes: "Hey, what are you thinking about? So engrossed." I forced a smile. Li Changfeng looked at me and smiled meaningfully: "Do you suspect that Ruan Jinji murdered the security guard?" I was in a daze and didn't deny it. "What is she doing to murder a security guard when she has nothing to do? You can't be crazy about writing novels, right?" I hesitated for a while, and decided to reveal some news to him: "Because Xuan Lingxiao is her brother, because the security guard had a homosexual relationship with Xuan Lingxiao." Li Changfeng opened his mouth wide in surprise: "How do you know?" I smiled at him secretively: "I'm just imagining that Gu Fuli has always had fantasies about Xuan Lingxiao, and he often goes to him. Xuan Lingxiao is almost annoyed by him. Maybe, Gu Fuli's endless pestering makes him Ruan Jinji couldn't stand it anymore, so... I was just imagining..." Just as I was talking, my phone rang. It was Ding Chaoyang who asked me what I was up to.I say eat out with friends. Ding Chaoyang said that he signed up for a Tibet tour group for me, and it will start next week. During this period of time, I am hosting programs and writing articles. It is too hard, so I should relax completely. I told Ding Chaoyang a long time ago that I really wanted to go to Tibet to experience Tibetan culture, and he also said that he would take the time to go with me. However, there were many things in the company and he was always busy, so he delayed it. "What about my program?" I was a little worried. Ding Zhaoyang said loudly: "You just go, I greeted the station for you just now, and asked them to ask someone else to replace you for ten days, they said it's okay." I said that's fine. Although Tibet is what I have always yearned for, traveling at this time makes me feel reluctant.Ding Zhaoyang smiled slightly and said, "Why do you feel that you are a bit reluctant? I know you are a playful child." "It's not forced, it's just too sudden." "Which friend are you having dinner with? Don't ask me." Ding Zhaoyang's voice was a little teasing, but I could feel his slightly puzzled curiosity. I stood up, walked to the side, and teased out of the question: "You are so beautiful, such a thing as being accompanied by two beauties for dinner, I will definitely not let you take the wheel." He laughed aloud on the other end, and then took the line. Li Changfeng tilted his head, looked at me with a smirk: "Have you checked the post?" "Am I the kind of person who can't be trusted?" I gouged him out. After eating, we chatted for a while, and parted, Li Changfeng warned: "It is very dangerous to be a hero in the face of a murder case, I will help you to find out slowly, don't act rashly, let alone alert Ruan Jinji who is suspected by you. " Before leaving, I made several phone calls to Li Changfeng. He is making an unannounced visit and has no clues for the time being. He wants me to go to Tibet with peace of mind. I may not be sure. I will have an answer when I come back. I told him to be careful and try not to disturb the person involved. , let alone alert the group of detectives in the criminal police team.He said yes, don't worry. In a trance, he and I seemed to have become partners with a tacit understanding. Although I didn't tell Ruan Jinji about going to Tibet, she still knew about it.As soon as I arrived in Lhasa, she called me to invite me to have dinner, and I said let's go another day. She insisted that there was a new Indian restaurant in Taitung, and the seats were already reserved, so it was impossible not to go. I had no choice but to tell her that I really couldn't go and that I was in Tibet.She groaned, and was silent for a while, and said she would not talk to me when she said she was going to Tibet.It can be heard that she was a little disappointed and said goodbye to me in a complicated tone. The beauty of Tibet cannot be described in secular language, but I can't bear this beauty. The severe altitude sickness forced me to return early on the fourth day. I didn't tell Ding Chaoyang that I returned to Qingdao early, not to surprise him, but I vaguely felt that he asked me to go to Tibet to drive me away and do something that I didn't want to know.During the few days in Tibet, I called Ruan Jinji whenever I had anything to do, not her mobile phone, but only the beauty salon or her home landline, and told her about the sky of Tibet, the folk customs of Tibet and the Tibetans who worshiped piously all the way. Even eating a unique Tibetan snack has to be described to her for a long time, and at night I will tell her about the stars in the blue sky of Tibet. She listened patiently, never interrupting. I know very well that calling her is no longer simply about sharing happiness with my friends. Every call I make is to spy on whether she has harassed Ding Chaoyang while I was in Tibet, even though she has repeatedly stated that , let go of all grievances and grudges, and started a happy life that has nothing to do with Ding Chaoyang. However, I know better that when it comes to emotional entanglements, women often cannot keep their vows. In the afternoon when the plane arrived in Qingdao, the sky was gloomy. My body had not yet woken up from the altitude sickness, and I felt light and dizzy. Take the airport bus to the city, take a taxi to go home, the people on the street and the smell of sea water in the air make the body and mind warm up at once. I took out the key and opened the door, but I couldn't open it. It seemed that it was locked from the inside. My heart sank suddenly, as if my guess had been verified all of a sudden. I called Ding Chaoyang, but the phone didn't answer, and he wasn't in the company. I stood blankly at the door, thinking about going back to my mother's house, but I didn't want to. I simply sat on the suitcase and leaned against the door to see what happened. Boredom can make people sick, but my boredom is so vigilant that I can even hear the swishing sound of the elevator not far away and the sound of the damp sea breeze sliding slowly against the stairs of the apartment. About an hour later, my cell phone rang, and it was Ding Chaoyang, who said in a sleepy voice, "Little Pea, did you see something interesting again and want to report it to me?" I said weakly: "I have severe altitude sickness, so I came back early." Ding Chaoyang seemed taken aback, and asked where I was, and I said the door. After a while, the door opened.He pulled me up, looked up and down, muttered in his mouth, lost so much weight in just a few days?Blame me for not letting him pick me up at the airport. I smiled weakly: "I'm afraid you're worried, isn't it, I'm back too." Then, I walked into the living room, he dragged the suitcase in, hugged me from behind and said, "I feel very tired today, I just plan to sleep at home, but I don't want to sleep you back." I muttered, but my eyes quickly scanned every corner of the house. The floor was clean, as if it had just been wiped, and everything else remained the same. A few magazines he liked to read were scattered on the sofa, and a few books were piled up on the coffee table. Most of the half-baked food was beef jerky and cashew nuts. Ding Chaoyang probably used them for dinner during the few days I was away. I can bear the messiness of things in the house, but I can't bear to describe the food as messy, always feeling dirty, and I don't care about rest, so I start to tidy up. Ding Zhaoyang grabbed the rag and said while tidying up I wanted to clean up the day before you came back, but I didn't expect you to come back early. I deliberately annoyed him: "I'm not welcome back? Why did you lock the door?" "I think about you every day. Is the door locked? Why don't I remember." He scratched his head, like someone suffering from amnesia trying to recall a crucial detail. After a while, he said to himself Speaking bluntly, it may be that it is habitual to lock it when you go home.As I said that, I threw away the things in my hand and came over to hug him. I smiled and hit him: "I'm exhausted, and you're still making trouble." Ding Chaoyang smirked: "Let my brother help you relieve your fatigue." His lips were covered.While kissing and hugging me, I walked to the bathroom, stood under the shower, turned on the shower suddenly, and the warm water splashed down, I yelled that my clothes were wet, he smiled: "It's just right, even the clothes are washed together gone." He threw the clothes out of the bathtub one by one, washed my hair tenderly, and chatted while washing. The wind in Tibet is so hard that it dries your hair. The kumiss in Tibet is very nourishing... Then we slept like two drunken drunks. Ding Chaoyang changed the door lock of the next room! The next day, after he went to the company, I couldn't open the door of the next room no matter what.钥匙还是那把钥匙，它一直被我放在厨房的煤气表盘后，他绝无可能发现并换掉。 锁还是原来的款式，但，确实是换过了的。 难道丁朝阳知道我曾进去过？我鼻尖上渗出了一层细汗。什么都没心做，到处翻，连垃圾桶都不放过，我拎起垃圾袋，在垃圾袋和垃圾桶之间，有些沙子状粉末，捻了捻，是从建筑物上弄下来的那种粉末。 家里的任何一面墙壁都没有被动过的痕迹，除了我进不去的隔壁！ 这些粉末是从哪里来的？ 我找了只纸袋，把粉末小心翼翼地倒进去，放在煤气表盘后。 中午，给李长风打电话，告诉他我回来了，他有点意外，说中午请我吃饭，算是接风。我笑他小题大做，几天而已，接哪门子风。 李长风郁郁说：“你们女人啊，就不能对暗恋你们的男人慈悲点？多少解点风情。” 他一贯地开着玩笑说真话，也就是调侃而已，不会顺杆往上爬，我玩笑着道：“是我不好，成了吧？” 这还像那么回事。又说了吃饭的地点，就收了线。 李长风说：“你不要再继续多疑下去了，古福利确实是自杀。” "How to say?" 李长风点了支烟，慢悠悠说：“一个经常在那一带出没的流浪汉告诉我的，那天晚上他就在附近海边，看见过古福利，他坐在一块礁石上边打电话边哭，后来，来了一个女的，他们就吵起来了，吵着吵着，女的好像恼了，抡起手包砸男人，被男人一把夺了去，摔在了礁石上。” 我想起了阮锦姬LV包上的口子，可能就是这样被礁石上锋利的牡蛎壳划破的。“然后呢？”我问。 李长风眯着眼睛，冲着窗子，长长地吐了口烟：“然后，女人开始骂他，骂得很难听，类似与人渣什么的，看着他就恶心，说如果他再这样没完没了她早晚有一天会把他做掉，男人好像被骂懵了，突然大喊他这就死给她看，女人嘲笑了他几句，大约是像他这种人，活着也没多大意思，还不如快点死了呢，男人说着说着就做出真要往波涛汹涌的海里跳的样子，女人骂他是个疯子，不知怎么的，男人好像真跳进海里了，女人吓坏了，还喊了几声救人，见没人回应，就匆匆跑了。” 见我不语，李长风笑着说：“这个结果让你很失望是吧？” “要嘲笑我自作聪明？”我乜斜他。 “错了，是佩服你的聪明，不过，说真的，虽然阮锦姬没有亲手谋杀古福利，她至少也要对他的死承担一半责任，如果不是她用话语激他，他可能不会有决心跳海，还有，古福利跳海后她应该拨打求救电话，她没有，或许，她要的就是这个结果，我就不明白了，即使她是为哥哥好，想让古福利离他远点，也不至于这么激烈吧？会不会另有隐情？” “宣凌霄对她是很好，她是在别人的冷嘲热讽中长大的女孩子，一旦有个人对她好，她会恨不能以命相报的，你们男人不会理解女人是种多么注重感情的动物。”我不想让李长风过度深入这件事，想把他的思路，拦截在这里。 李长风意味深长地看着我，半天，才说：“其实你并不信任我。” “怎么说？”我做嬉笑状。 “阮锦姬，对，也就是朱槿，曾在你男朋友的公司工作过一段时间，你不会不知道吧？” 我心下一寒，脸上却故做轻描淡写状：“我当然知道，但，她在我男朋友的公司做过事，不等于她这个人有更大的问题。” “一个没问题的，清白的人，为什么要用化名？”说完，李长风并不等我回答，宽和地拍拍我的肩：“就当我没说。” 我怔怔地看着他，面对李长风眼中不被信任的淡淡感伤，刹那间不知说什么才好。 李长风兀自招手埋单，起身，在我肩上扶了一下：“老同学，你好好地快乐，是我唯一的心愿。” 他走了，背影萧条早初秋的风里。 我的眼睛有点潮湿，在这个世界上，并不只有披荆斩棘的爱情才令人动容，还有一种期而不得的爱，终被岁月淘练成了沉默无语的关怀，不期望峰回路转，只有祝福。 秋高气爽里，我却有些萎靡，每晚从电台回来后就悃意沉沉，连丁朝阳的求欢都顾不上搭理就一头扎到床上，夜夜沉睡如石，早晨醒来，头还昏着，一个白天都提不起精神，丁朝阳也是，常常是吃着吃着早饭就哈欠连天了。 现代人都是因为压力过大而失眠，我们可倒好，反而得了嗜睡症。我对丁朝阳说：“我们要不要去看医生？” 丁朝阳哧地笑了一下：“春悃秋乏么，正常现象，看什么医生，有好多人想睡还睡不着呢，能睡是福，美女是睡出来的。” 我无力地趴在餐桌上，懒洋洋地看着他：“万一我睡成白痴怎么办？” “那我就娶个小白痴做老婆。”他隔着桌子捏捏我鼻子：“我不爱你脑子里的智慧，我只爱你这个人。” 我暖洋洋地笑着看他收拾停当，出门，才大大地伸了个懒腰，给母亲打了个电话，说起最近嗜睡的事。母亲听了，就说：“傻孩子，你该不是怀孕了吧？” “不可能！”接着母亲的话，我脱口而出，又猛地掩住了嘴巴，丁朝阳没生育能力的事，母亲并不知道，也不想让她知道，怕她为我伤感。 幸亏母亲没对我刚才不假思索的脱口而出有什么疑惑，只一个劲地絮叨，女孩子要懂得爱惜身体，没打算要孩子前，一定要监督男人做好防护措施，男人都是些贪欢顾不得疼女人的东西，别指望他们次次周到，也别侥幸，不然，身体受了苦再后悔就晚了…… 我说好啦好啦，我记得啦。 母亲又絮叨道：“觉是外财，越睡越来，你越睡越想睡，别整天闷在家里写文章，常出去走走，晒晒太阳就好了。” 窗外阳光很好，放下母亲的电话，我换上运动装，想去海边跑会步。 正要进电梯呢，楼下邻居从另一部电梯里迈出来，见我要进电梯，忙忙喊住我：“李小姐，你等一下，我和你说几句话。” 楼下邻居是位赋闲在家的中年女子，自从我做保险代理员去她家坐过一次后，每次在电梯里遇见了，都会点头笑笑。 “呵，黄太太有事找我？”我撤出迈进电梯的一只脚。 黄太太面带难色，小心问道：“李小姐，你们每天凌晨敲打墙做什么？” “不会吧？最近我们都睡得很早，再说，没事我们敲打墙干什么？会不会是别人家的声音，你听错了？” “没错，就是你家丁先生，我轻度神经衰弱多年了，晚上有点声音就睡不着，我起来听过，声音就是从你们家传来的，每次都是敲一两个小时，敲打完了，你们家的门就响了，好像有人出去了一会又回来了。” 猛然地，我有些明白，向来精力充沛的我，为什么会在最近嗜睡如命，而丁朝阳的哈欠连天，是因为夜夜无眠……