Chapter 9 Chapter Nine I Let You Go
Han Haoxuan didn't realize that the storm was coming, because all he could think about was how to make him and Ruolin reconcile as before.
He pretended to be a mysterious person and sent flowers to her office, but Ruolin told him, "Don't do such childish things as sending flowers again"; he forged a fake marriage certificate and secretly put it on the table in Ruolin's room , but Ruolin angrily said to him, "Do you think I'm a three-year-old child? You need two people to get a marriage certificate together"; , closed her room door and turned on the computer stereo loudly...
In short, no matter what he did, no matter how he tried to please her, she ignored him and turned to him with a cold face.
Although he kept her, although the two still lived in the same room, they were already strangers.
He knew that he had gone too far this time, but he had already apologized and tried to please her, but she was still indifferent.How could she forgive him?
"Let's talk." After the Cold War, this was the first time Ruo Lin took the initiative to talk to Han Haoxuan. Although Ruolin's expression was quite serious when she spoke, Han Haoxuan felt that this was an opportunity to attack. After all, she gave him the opportunity to speak, and he was still complacent in his heart. "You've paid off Xin Yu's money for me, right? Do you want me to say thank you?" Ruo Lin didn't beat around the bush, and said straight to the point. Ruolin's words were beyond Han Haoxuan's expectation. He thought she was here to talk to him about his future relationship, but he didn't expect that the content of the conversation had nothing to do with it. "Yes." Han Haoxuan didn't intend to deny it either. "Then, have you paid off the money I owed Mu Jingyan?" Ruolin continued to ask. "I wanted to pay it off, but he didn't give me a chance, and he rejected me directly, saying that it was between you and him, and told me not to intervene." "You are so kind. I should thank you for thinking of me everywhere, right? Changing 'Fang Ling has an appointment' to 'Ruolin has an appointment' has something to do with you, right? Why don't you just explain everything you have done for me?" , I will also thank you." Ruolin said calmly. "Why bother? I just hope you can relax a bit and don't feel too much pressure." "My work is really related to you?" Ruo Lin suddenly raised her voice. "So what? We are boyfriend and girlfriend, I should help you share some troubles, why are you so serious?" Han Haoxuan didn't intend to deny it.After all, paper can't contain fire, even if he doesn't explain now, Ruolin will know one day in the future.Instead of letting others tell her, he should tell it himself.He didn't intend to tell any lies to Ruolin. "You should have consulted with me before doing these things, right? Do you know that what you do is no different from arranging my life? I don't need others to arrange my life! I thought I was working because I worked hard I just got it. I’m still thinking that my hard work has finally paid off. I don’t think there is another reason behind it. Do you know? What you do will only make me lose my head in front of other colleagues. They say that I I don’t care if I become a phoenix after catching a wealthy son-in-law, but I care if they say that I am secretly trying to get a job!” "Don't be so excited, this matter is not that serious, at worst, change jobs." Han Haoxuan took Ruolin's hand, trying to calm down her emotions. "What's the big deal? You always say it so lightly. Because you have a capable father who can't worry about food and clothing since childhood, right? But do you know how much I love my current job? This is my dream job as a writer. I thought I am advancing step by step, so the treatment in the unit is getting better and better. I never thought that my work is related to you, and I really never thought about it." Ruo Lin shook her head and said, feeling extremely disappointed in her heart, " Yes, it’s also my fault for being too stupid, there is never a pie in the sky, how could my salary increase so much, how could my position be promoted so fast? I am too confident in myself.” "Your ability is worth so much salary, you are worth it!" Han Haoxuan said. "Tell me, is there any part of my salary that you personally contribute?" Ruo Lin looked into his eyes. "..." Han Haoxuan's expression was very painful. He didn't want to lie to her, but it was so difficult to tell the truth. "Yes, right?" Ruolin stared at him. Han Haoxuan sighed and nodded heavily. Ruolin smiled wryly, and then said, "You are pitying me, you treat me like a beggar and give me alms, right?" "It's not like that, I just don't want you to live so hard." "But why didn't you ask me if I would like it before you did it?" "I thought you wouldn't want to." "Not necessarily. If you said you would lend me money and act sincerely enough, I might accept it. But if you 'help' me in this way now, not only will I not thank you, but I will hate you even more you!" "I told you before that I wanted to help you pay back the money to Mu Jingyan, but you didn't agree, so I thought you wouldn't want me to lend you money..." "I didn't agree, but didn't you still go to Mu Jingyan to pay back the money in spite of my obstruction? However, Mu Jingyan was right. The money I sent him was between me and him. Where is the turn?" How about you intervene?" "It's not up to me to intervene in the matter between you and him? Hey, when you said this, your tone was almost exactly the same as his. What a tacit understanding!" Han Haoxuan sneered, he always felt that the relationship between Ruo Lin and Mu Jingyan was different generally.He wanted to help her pay back the money to Mu Jingyan, didn't he want Ruo Lin to have less contact with Mu Jingyan? "I've known him for so many years, of course we have a tacit understanding!" Ruolin deliberately angered Han Haoxuan.Because she has already made up her mind, so she doesn't care about it when she speaks. "Oh? Really? Is it more tacit understanding than being with me?" Han Haoxuan felt a tingling in his heart. "Yes, I am much happier with him than with you. At least, he and I don't need to lie to each other." Ruo Lin said cruelly. "Is being with him really happier than being with me?" Han Haoxuan's heart seemed to be stabbed hard, and the bloody pain hit instantly, "Is being with him happier than being with me?" ?” "Yes." Ruolin said without hesitation, "I have no burden being with him. So I would rather borrow money from him than owe you money." If you want to leave, you have to speak harshly and decisively Bar?Although Ruolin's heart hurts when she said these words.But she knows the truth that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain.During the time with Han Haoxuan, there were sweetness, but more sadness. His mother put pressure on her, and she worked hard to get through it, but he kissed his ex-girlfriend and lied to her that he was with a client. He even made her As a tool to vent her desire, she violated her against her will!Not only that, but he also wanted to help her arrange her life. He quietly arranged her work and helped her pay back the money, and he didn't disclose anything before doing these things.If we continue to live like this, there will only be more and more conflicts and rifts between the two in the future, right?If the ending of the story is destined to be separated, why not withdraw early? Han Haoxuan didn't speak any more, he lowered his head and leaned on the sofa dejectedly. After a long time, as if he had made up his mind, he raised his head and said to Ruo Lin: "If you are sure that you will be happier with him, then I will let you go."
It was very late at night, and the office was suffocatingly quiet, except for a pale lamp hanging from the ceiling. The ashtray on the desk was full of cigarette butts. Han Haoxuan smoked one cigarette after another, and he didn't know how many cigarettes he had smoked. In the end, he choked so much that he coughed again and again, before he extinguished the cigarette in his hand. He didn't leave work early today to pick her up at Ruo Lin's get off work as usual, but stayed alone in the office smoking a cigarette after the employees had left. Sometimes, smoke is really a good thing, it can numb the nerves.
It's not that he didn't want to keep Ruolin, but he felt that he couldn't keep her, so he didn't dare to go home until now, he was afraid that Ruolin would have left after returning home. He really couldn't face the empty house for a while. Although, recently, he and Ruolin hardly talked when they stayed in the same room, but as long as she was in the room, he would feel at ease. He couldn't imagine how he would live without Ruo Lin.
It was already two o'clock in the morning when he got home, Han Haoxuan took out the key and opened the door, when he opened the door he found his hands were trembling. After turning on the light, he went straight to the guest room, and the door opened with a slight push. He had a bad feeling. When the light in the guest room was turned on, Han Haoxuan didn't see Ruolin's figure, and most importantly, her luggage bag beside the bookcase was also gone!Moreover, the ring he gave Ruolin was lying quietly on the table at this moment, the little starlight usually looked brilliant when worn on Ruolin's finger, but now it hurt his eyes. Next to the ring is the key to the house.It seems that she left resolutely this time, and she even returned the key to him.
He ran to the living room, looked at the refrigerator, looked at the dining table, looked at the coffee table, but did not find a small note. Ruolin didn't leave a single word, just disappeared from his life! Upon realizing this, Han Haoxuan fell powerlessly on the bed. He didn't turn on the light in the bedroom, leaving himself in darkness.
He did say to let her go, but that was not his intention, Ruolin should know. God knows how determined he was to say that. Where is she now?She should be looking for Mu Jingyan, right? Thinking of this, Han Haoxuan had a headache.Why does he treat her so well, but she still feels unhappy, unhappy?
Ruolin talked to the editor-in-chief once after she got to work. She planned to resign and leave, but the editor-in-chief persuaded her in every possible way, saying that she was good enough to take up the position of editor-in-chief. He also said that although Han Haoxuan told him to take care of her, But what he valued more was Ruolin's ability. "Except for the bonus, Haoxuan paid a little out of his own pocket, and everything else was obtained by your own efforts, so don't be burdened. Although you broke up with Haoxuan, you are still my good employee. You should stay with me. Do a good job here, and it will definitely get better and better. If you leave, it will be a loss for the magazine." The editor-in-chief Fang Qiang said that, and Ruolin couldn't say anything else, otherwise she would appear too hypocritical. After thanking the editor-in-chief, Ruolin decided to stay in the magazine and work harder.
After Mu Jingyan learned that Ruolin had broken up with Han Haoxuan, he was not happy, but felt a little guilty. He thought that Han Haoxuan had misunderstood him and Ruolin, and told Ruolin to explain to Han Haoxuan for her. "No need. I broke up with him not because of you, but because of my disagreement with him." When Ruolin spoke, her tone was very calm, as if she didn't care about her relationship with Han Haoxuan. "Oh." Mu Jingyan vaguely felt that the breakup between the two of them was not just a simple personality disagreement, but it was a matter between Ruo Lin and Han Haoxuan, and it was not convenient for him to ask about the specific details, nor did he want to. "Going home during the Spring Festival?" Mu Jingyan saw that Ruolin's face was not looking well, so he started to change the subject. "Of course I want to go home." "Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan are getting married. The wedding will be held on the sixth day of the first lunar month. Are you going to attend?" "Huh? The two of them are going to get married. I really didn't think of them getting together before." Ruo Lin was a little surprised.Both Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan were her high school classmates. She felt that both of them belonged to the taciturn category, and there was no sign that they liked each other. "I also find it quite strange, because there are not many high school classmates who get married. But it is not without miracles." Mu Jingyan also hopes that miracles can happen to himself and Ruo Lin. "Then I must go to witness the miracle. Wang Mengmeng hides it so deeply that she hasn't revealed anything to me." "For people with an introverted personality, the more they love, the more they hide." Mu Jingyan himself has a deep understanding of this.The class knows that there are not many people who like Ruolin. "By the way, on my birthday, didn't you say that you once loved someone? I'm actually quite curious about who that person is." Ruolin felt that Mu Jingyan also belonged to that kind of restrained person.She has been with him for three years, and now she has been in the same city for so long. She still doesn't know who the girl he said he fell in love with is. "What if I say this person is you?" Mu Jingyan laughed. "Why do you always make fun of me? You know that I just broke up with you and you intend to make things difficult for me?" Ruo Lin didn't take Mu Jingyan's words seriously at all. "Then you are welcome to join the singles club, and I will appear less lonely." "Why are you not serious? Dare I fall in love, but you are psychologically balanced. You are not gloating or something." "What's the point of falling out of love? It's his loss if he doesn't know how to cherish you. No matter how bad you are, I'm still by your side! If you really don't want anyone anymore, I'll marry you. We are old classmates after all, and we know each other well." Mu When Jing Yan said this, his expression was very serious, not as if he was joking. Ruolin gave a dry laugh, and then asked, "Do you not mind the things that others have used?" One sentence actually stopped Mu Jingyan from asking.Because he really can't say "I don't mind", he is a traditional man, he is a bit emotionally clean, although he loves Ruolin, does he really not mind the fact that Ruolin and Han Haoxuan lived together? "Can't you answer? Amu, I told you not to joke with me! If you joke too much, you have to be responsible." Ruo Lin pretended not to care, and said with a smile. Such a smile made Mu Jingyan feel very uncomfortable. He despised himself in his heart. Since he loves her so much, why should he care about her past?If she can really be with him, what he cares about is every day she spends with him. "If a man really loves you, he won't care about your past. So, Ruolin, don't feel that you are different from before. In my eyes, you will always be that innocent and romantic girl." Mu Jing Yan said seriously. "Thank you, Amu." Ruo Lin was a little moved, "However, if what you said was not a joke, I would like to say that you deserve a better girl." "Ruolin..." Mu Jingyan was about to confess his true feelings. "Don't say similar things in front of me anymore. I don't want to talk about love now. I think we are more suitable to be good friends, good friends who have nothing to do with love." Ruolin interrupted Mu Jingyan. Love is a bit disheartened, and my mind is still in chaos.In this state, she didn't have time to digest Mu Jingyan's words. She didn't know whether Mu Jingyan said these words as a joke or because she, like him, was a lovelorn and felt sorry for each other. Mu Jingyan didn't speak any more. Could this be the answer Ruolin gave him?A good friend who has nothing to do with love? Could it be that the relationship between him and her can only stay in the position of good friends?
On the eve of the approaching Spring Festival, there was a heavy snowfall in City D. The whole city is covered with snow, as if it looks brand new. It is rare to meet a snowy day, and everyone is very excited.Xin Yu asked Ruo Lin to eat hot pot together after get off work, so Ruo Lin went back later than usual that night. When Ruolin walked to the aisle of her apartment building, she stomped her foot, the sensor light was on, and she was about to take out the key to open the door, when she suddenly found a black shadow curled up at the door of her house! She plucked up the courage to squat down and look carefully—that black shadow turned out to be Han Haoxuan! He was wearing a thick leather jacket, squatting at the door of her house, his eyes were slightly closed, and he was still muttering to himself. "Hao Xuan, why are you here?" Ruo Lin asked in surprise. "Ruo Lin, is that you?" Han Haoxuan woke up when he heard Ruo Lin's voice, as if he had gained strength, he immediately stood up and hugged Ruo Lin.He had been waiting here for her for a long time, almost falling asleep, but fortunately, he got her. A familiar smell came with a strong smell of alcohol. Did he drink?In fact, this kind of embrace makes Ruolin miss him very much, she often misses his hug in the dead of night.But rationality told her not to be greedy for the warmth and hugs of her old lover.So Ruolin broke free from him: "We've already broken up, there's no need to be so entangled." "But, I will always think of you. I can't bear to let you leave me like this. Let's make up." Han Haoxuan wanted to hug her again. "No, I already...I already have a boyfriend." Now that we broke up, don't be so disconnected.Now that you choose to leave, you have to retreat completely. "Who is it? Is that Mu Jingyan?" Han Haoxuan asked. Ruolin didn't deny it. "You go back. I have nothing to say to you." Ruolin said. "Okay." Han Haoxuan spat out this sentence lightly, and then he fell down all of a sudden. "What's wrong with you? Hao Xuan?" Ruo Lin was frightened, she touched Han Hao Xuan's forehead, it was very hot, and then touched his hand, it was cold. "It's okay." Han Haoxuan replied weakly. He must have been waiting here for too long to catch a cold?Ruolin suddenly feels distressed. "I'll take you to the hospital." Ruolin said. "I won't go, I just want to be by your side. Just let me stay by your side for a while." Han Haoxuan held Ruolin's hand and said in a pleading tone. "Then go into the house, there just happens to be antipyretics in the house." "Finally you didn't drive me away." Han Haoxuan smiled like a child.
Han Haoxuan must have drunk a lot of wine, and he still staggered when he stood up and walked.Ruolin helped him into the room and let him lean on the sofa in the living room. "Ruolin, I thought you would never talk to me again. Are you willing to give me another chance?" Han Haoxuan grabbed Ruolin's hand. "I took you in just because you have a cold and a fever, and I don't want your condition to get worse. It has no other meaning." Ruolin quickly pulled out her hand.After finishing speaking, she went to the closet to find the medicine box. "Let's be together again, okay?" Han Haoxuan's tone was a little pleading. "Don't be silly, broken pieces of the puzzle cannot be put together. We have already broken up." Ruolin reminded him. "But, I regret it, I don't want to break up." "..." Ruolin didn't speak. Han Haoxuan suddenly remembered a sentence that he didn't know where he read it, roughly: It only needs to be said by one person to break up, but two people need to confirm it to be together. As long as Ruolin doesn't agree to get back together, it's impossible for them to get back together.However, has the relationship between him and Ruo Lin really reached an irreparable point?
"You won't have a boyfriend so soon, right? You lied to me just now, right?" Han Haoxuan asked unwillingly. "Don't worry about it so much. Whether I have a boyfriend is not your concern. Your first concern is your body." Ruolin found a box of cold medicine from the medicine cabinet, poured water, and poured the medicine Put He Shui in front of Han Haoxuan: "Take the medicine, rest after taking the medicine, don't think so much." "Physical illnesses will be cured, but mental illnesses are difficult to cure. In fact, you are my best medicine." Han Haoxuan looked at Ruolin and said. Han Haoxuan's haggard face made Ruolin feel distressed when she saw it, but she tried her best to restrain herself and not let herself show it. "It's snowing, Ruolin. As I said, I will take you skiing when it snows. Can this promise be fulfilled?" Han Haoxuan asked quietly. "Take the medicine first, and wait until you recover your body." Ruo Lin didn't answer, and put the medicine directly into Han Haoxuan's palm.
After Han Haoxuan took the medicine, he said some nonsensical words, and then fell asleep on the sofa. He didn't know whether it was the alcohol or the cold medicine that had the effect. Ruolin helped him cover the quilt, sat beside the sofa, listening to his regular and shallow breathing. He still remembered the promise to take her skiing in snowy days, the moment he said it, Ruolin was almost shaken, almost threw herself into his arms.But she tried her best to suppress her emotions, pretending not to hear. Han Haoxuan's face was still so vivid and charming under the soft light, Ruolin couldn't help reaching out to touch his face, but her hand was still hanging in the air after all. It's over, it's all over.She couldn't allow herself to stay in the past time anymore.She and he are already passerby A and passerby B.
The next day, when Han Haoxuan woke up, it was already noon, and Ruo Lin had already gone to work. "The cold medicine is on the table, you can take it home, remember to take the medicine on time. Don't come to me again. You will disturb my life. I want to live a peaceful and happy life, and you can't give me such a life. Ruolin. "There is a sticky note on the refrigerator, the words are clear and glaring. Han Haoxuan's heart cooled down little by little. After Ruolin left, he worked crazily, trying to cover up the pain of losing love with being busy, but every night, he suffered from insomnia, so that for a long time he had to use sleeping pills to fall asleep. Before, he also suffered from insomnia when he broke up with An Xi, but it was not so serious. He went to see a psychiatrist, and the doctor said that he was too preoccupied and couldn't let go of many things, which kept accumulating in his heart.He tried hard to let go, he smoked, he drank, and he picked up the bad habits that Ruolin didn't allow him to do before. No matter how miserable he was, he never thought of coming to Ruo Lin again, because he wanted her to be happy, and she said that she was not happy with him, so he no longer interfered in her life, and pretended that Ruo Lin had never existed in his world. Lynn has been here. But in such a snowy day, he suddenly couldn't control his thoughts, he missed Ruo Lin like crazy.In order to dissolve this longing, he sat at home in a daze while drinking.He didn't know exactly how much wine he had drunk, but when he realized that his head was a bit confused, he made a decision, he was going to find Ruo Lin.He had promised Ruolin that he would take her skiing when it snowed, and he had to keep his promise. He couldn't drink and drive after drinking too much, so he took a taxi directly to Ruolin's residence. Ruo Lin was not at home, so he stood at the door of her house and waited. When his hands and feet were cold, he still waited there stubbornly.He firmly believed that he would wait for her. However, what can Ruolin do when she finally waits?Her attitude towards herself can be described as "indifferent", and she even told him that she already has a boyfriend. He wanted to ask, but she seemed very impatient. Then maybe the alcohol played a role, his head became groggy, and he fell asleep.
While Han Haoxuan tried to recall everything last night, he regretted why he didn't communicate with Ruolin more last night? He opened the curtains, and the sun was already shining outside. The snow outside the window was gradually melting, but Han Haoxuan's heart was like an ice cellar in the cold winter months.
Han Haoxuan intends to write a note for Ruo Lin, but he just wants to write some hypocritical words like "I wish you happiness". In the end, when he was looking for a pen and paper, he discovered Ruolin's secret—a notebook that recorded Ruolin's emotional diary. It is just an ordinary notebook, the only difference is that the cover is wrapped in newspaper, obviously the owner cherishes this notebook very much.Maybe it's because I haven't read it too well, the book looks a little old. Out of curiosity, Han Haoxuan turned a few pages and read it. Han Haoxuan read the diary tremblingly.She had such a meticulous mind to like a boy, and she did not reveal it after liking it for so long.However, that boy was not him. Except for the interview that was published in the magazine, she didn't write a word for him.But she wrote so many words for another man, and every word is true. It turned out that the ending had already been doomed. Han Haoxuan was so angry that he threw the diary on the ground, still not relieved, then stepped on it, and ravaged the diary a few more times.A good book suddenly changed beyond recognition. He threw the dilapidated notebook directly into the trash can outside the community.
In the end, Han Haoxuan left Ruolin's house without leaving a word. Just like when Ruolin left his house, she left nothing behind, the only thing left was her own heart.
Time is really the best healing medicine, no matter how big the wound is, it will gradually heal. As time went by, Ruolin's wounds in her heart no longer lashed out, and her mentality became much calmer.
At 10:30 am on the sixth day of the first lunar month, the wedding of Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan was held as scheduled in a four-star hotel. After signing in, Ruo Lin walked into the wedding hall slowly. Before the wedding officially started, the hall was already filled with joyful atmosphere. Heart-shaped patterns made of pink balloons are hung around the hall, the aisle is covered with a big red carpet, and the stage in the middle is even more carefully arranged. Two cupids holding arrows are hung on both sides of the background painting, with Glittering, the curtain on the side of the stage shows the sweet wedding photos of the bride and groom in a loop... Ruolin took a glance and found many familiar faces, almost all her classmates from high school came. "Ruolin, come here!" Tian Jing waved to Ruolin, motioning for Ruolin to sit at the table beside her. Ruolin looked over and found that Mu Jingyan was also sitting in front of that dining table. He was wearing a dark blue suit today, which set off a chiseled face, handsome and charming.Maybe it's because he seldom wears a suit, but at this moment he looks a little more mature and stable than usual. Mu Jingyan also saw Ruolin and smiled at her.His smile is always as warm as a warm spring breeze. In the past, his smile was Ruolin's poison, making her addicted to it. "Ruolin, you are really beautiful today. This dress is so pretty." As soon as Ruolin sat down, Tian Jing stared at her dress. Mu Jingyan also looked at Ruo Lin, and could hardly move his eyes away.Her mental state looks good today, she must have come out of a broken relationship, right? The dress Ruolin was wearing was bought by Han Haoxuan for her before, she just smiled without saying a word. "Where did you buy this clothes?" Tian Jing suddenly caught a glimpse of the clothing brand LOGO on Ruo Lin's clothes, and then she was speechless, "Is this clothes expensive? How much?" "I don't know the price very well, it was given by someone else." Ruolin replied. "Mourinho, did you buy this dress for us Ruolin?" Tian Jing asked Mu Jingyan. Mu Jingyan smiled awkwardly and shook his head: "No." "The clothes were given to me by a female friend. Besides, Tian Jing, A Mu and I are just ordinary friends, and he has no obligation to buy clothes for me." Ruolin poked Tian Jing with her elbow.She did not tell others about herself and Han Haoxuan.She is a low-key person herself, she doesn't like to show off, and if she took the initiative to tell others, as if she seemed to be showing off, she would not do such a thankless thing. "Really?" Tian Jing looked at Ruo Lin incredulously, "Mourinho is so nice. Didn't you always like him? Why didn't you take good care of him?" "I don't have this blessing." Ruolin said casually. Mu Jingyan could only hear the two of them chirping, but couldn't make out what they were talking about. "Are you speaking ill of me?" Mu Jingyan approached and asked. "No. We're talking about why the wedding hasn't started yet." Ruo Lin hurriedly said.
Accompanied by the sacred "Wedding March", the groom Li Guangyuan led the bride Wang Mengmeng's hand and walked in from the hall door, followed by two flower girls. The bride and groom took oaths, exchanged rings, kissed, cut the cake and a series of procedures were carried out step by step. What moved Ruolin the most was the swearing-in process. In the melodious and soothing background music, Wang Mengmeng held Li Guangyuan's hand, looked at him affectionately, and said seriously: "...I have some shortcomings, and I also have some bad tempers. Sometimes I am in a bad mood and even get angry with you, but But you never lost your temper with me, and always treated me with a tolerant heart. In the past few years of dating, you have always thought of me, never made things difficult for me, and gave me ample freedom to let me do everything You can make up your own mind. This way of getting along makes me feel very relaxed, and makes me feel that you are someone who can be trusted for life. Today, in front of all relatives and friends, we are married, let us build a home of love together, in the castle of marriage We will grow up together. When we have children in the future, I believe we can proudly tell our children that we are the happiest parents in the world, because we are the couple who love each other the most and get along best." After saying these words, Wang Mengmeng was a little choked up. Ruo Lin's eyelashes filled with tears when she heard these words.Every woman hopes that the person she marries is worthy of entrusting her life and giving herself enough tolerance and space.Even without the obstruction of Han Haoxuan's family, Han Haoxuan is not her ideal marriage partner. There is still a difference between marriage and love. Two people who love each other do not mean that they are suitable for living together.This is why everyone keeps saying that "being in love is easy and getting along is difficult".
The final procedure of the wedding was the bride and groom toasting the guests. When Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan came to Ruolin's table, classmate Lin Qi asked how Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan got on good terms, because in her impression they were not in high school. How did you strike up a conversation.This may be the doubt of most of the students, and everyone booed and asked them to answer in detail. Wang Mengmeng was embarrassed to speak, but Li Guangyuan helped to excuse her, saying, "Actually, I have liked her since I was in high school." "I really didn't see it." Lynch said, then, with a smile, he continued, "Later, didn't you realize that you kid, and confessed your love to Wang Mengmeng?" "What's wrong with being a man, I didn't say it at the time because I was afraid of delaying my studies. Besides, you don't know that our head teacher is not a fuel-efficient lamp. If you catch someone in love, you will call your parents. We He ruined the beautiful love of youth." Li Guangyuan said generously and passionately, paused for a while, and then said happily, "Fortunately, I was considered acquainted at that time, otherwise I would not be able to marry such a beautiful daughter-in-law today. It's over." After speaking, Li Guangyuan embraced Wang Mengmeng beside him, and smiled at her. At this moment, Wang Mengmeng spoke up and said, "Don't listen to him. If he really liked me in high school and was crazy about it, he would chase me then and use the class teacher as a shield." "Hey, Mengmeng, don't say you don't blame the head teacher. If it weren't for his coercive policy, I would probably be standing next to you now." Ma Jian, who always likes to joke, said in a serious manner. He also made a gesture that he used to like to smack his lips. "Then you know..." Just as Tian Jing wanted to shake out Ruo Lin's little thoughts in high school, Ruo Lin hurriedly tugged at her hand and gave her a wink not to say anything.Although everyone was happy today, chatting about the past, but when she had to talk about her secret thoughts in front of so many people, she felt that the pure past in her heart would be eroded by others, and she was extremely uncomfortable. Ruolin didn't want Tian Jing to speak out, she just wanted to keep the good memories of her youth longer.She was afraid that when the innocence she had hidden when she was young was no longer a secret, it would be boring to remember. Tian Jing looked down at Ruo Lin's expression, then raised her head to look at the classmates who were staring at her, and said coyly, "No...it's nothing." Everyone thought that Tian Jing had some breaking news, but after hearing these words, they couldn't help feeling a little discouraged. Suddenly, a voice sounded: "I tell you something, you must not know." This person was Zhang Tianliang, the most active member of their class at that time. Everyone's eyes lit up suddenly, and they looked at Zhang Tianliang in a row. "Do you know that the handsome guy in our class, Mu Jingyan..." Zhang Tianliang suddenly stopped talking, and looked at Mu Jingyan, his eyes were bright and bright, and his hidden smile was unpredictable. Mu Jingyan suddenly raised his downcast eyes and looked at Zhang Tianliang with a trace of surprise in his eyes. "Hurry up, you're deliberately teasing us." Someone muttered. "He likes a girl in our class." Zhang Tianliang said mysteriously. Everyone was in an uproar. Who would have thought that Mu Jingyan, who has been studying and studying, would have someone he likes?Mu Jingyan is the most handsome boy in the class, and his grades are also very good. When he was in high school, there were many girls in the class who fancied him, so when he heard that the girl he liked was actually from his class, some female classmates couldn't wait to ask: "who is it?" At this time, a large table of high school classmates were sitting together, and Ruolin couldn't help but recall her high school days, and her memories went back to the past. She seemed to be the same as before, the one who had a crush on Mu Jingyan.This "who is it" grabbed her heart and made her very nervous.Because she suddenly remembered the half-truth and half-false words that Mu Jingyan said to herself: "What if I say this person is you?" Is the person he likes really herself? The surprise in Mu Jingyan's eyes intensified, and he didn't know what to say. After a while, he calmed down, but then how could he think that Zhang Tianliang would know the little secret in his heart? He remembered that he had never talked to Zhang Tianliang. Dawn revealed. "Unexpected?" Zhang Tianliang said triumphantly like a serious gossip reporter, "What Mu Jingyan likes is—" He paused, and then he was satisfied to see the urgent expectation in everyone's eyes, and then said Say the most crucial words, "Shen Ruolin." After hearing this, Mu Jingyan was stunned, lowering his eyes slightly, not daring to look up at Ruolin.虽然自己也对若琳说过喜欢她的话，但若琳都当成了玩笑话不予理会，这次从旁人的口中得到了证实，若琳会怎么想呢？ 若琳的心更是猛地跳了一下，不可置信地抬眼望着穆景言，他低着头，若琳看不清他脸上的表情。 “如果你真的没人要了，我就娶你。”穆景言曾对若琳说的话突然蹦入她的大脑，难道他说的不是玩笑话吗？他真的从高中时就喜欢自己了吗？
“若琳？”先是若琳身边的田静怔了怔，心想，怎么会这么巧，两个人竟然在当时互相暗恋着对方。 随后，一众人都露出不可思议的眼神，望着穆景言，他们都知道那会儿穆景言都几乎不跟若琳说话，然后，有人开始起哄。 “没有这回事。”穆景言抬起头，没有底气地解释，看起来一副心虚的样子。 “我觉得，我们更适合做好朋友，与爱情无关的好朋友。”穆景言依稀记得若琳跟他说过的这句话，所以自那之后他又强迫自己掩藏了对若琳的喜欢。没想到此时此刻，心底的小秘密却被张天亮揭穿了。 “我可不是睁眼说瞎话，我是有证据的。”张天亮嘻嘻笑道。 穆景言觉得这事越来越奇怪了，不说话，听张天亮的下文。 “有一次，我无意间看到穆景言的枕头下竟然放着一张若琳的一寸照片。”张天亮用手比画着。 穆景言这下是没法解释了，仿佛人家揭了他的老底一般，神情难堪，然后，脸上浮现一抹不自然的笑，对大家说：“那都是以前的事了。”
那张一寸照片穆景言还记得是他有次扫地的时候捡到的，大概是若琳不小心掉下的。当时，他还环视了教室一圈，幸好，扫地的人少也没人看他，他就赶紧将照片塞进了裤兜。自那以后，那张照片就被他压在了枕头下面，当他在宿舍看书看累了总会拿出来看上几眼，看着照片上若琳迷人的微笑，他的心里充满了小小的快乐，学习也不显得那么累了。 以前那些细小的片段开始集聚起来，像零散的图片般，一块块拼接好，在穆景言脑中涌现。 穆景言还记得第一次注意到若琳的时候，是新学期伊始，大家互不认识，班主任就要求每个人都来一段自我介绍。穆景言本来就少言寡语，自己介绍完后，基本就不抬头看别人，直到听到一个清脆的声音，像黄鹂的歌声那般好听。他这才抬起了头，顿时他就被眼前的女孩迷住了，脸庞清秀美丽，皮肤白皙润泽，像邻家小妹妹，给人的感觉很亲切。他注意到她说话有点哆嗦，声音中还带点颤音，一副紧张的样子，他在下面都为她捏一把汗，但最终她还是在断断续续的颤音中完整地介绍了自己。 以后的日子里，穆景言就会时不时地关注若琳，他发现她的性格没有他想象中的那么内向；他发现下课后她很爱转过头跟后面的人说话，而那时，他往往都是隔着前面空空的座位用余光看向她；他发现她还会跟别的男孩说话可就是从不跟他说话；他发现她的成绩一直徘徊在中游，不上不下。当时，他的成绩已经好得没话说了，他很想帮帮她，帮她补那差得不行的数学，可是，他知道不行，他还有远大的理想，他怕自己一旦陷入泥潭就无法自拔。 不过，若琳的那张照片穆景言一直保留着，即使毕业了，仍然视为贴身物品般。
若琳听到穆景言的话时，心不由得“咯噔”了一下。他曾经喜欢过自己，而她全然未知，他亦是不知道她的想法，现在依旧不知。难道是一场缘分的错失？若琳苦笑了下。但是又想，如果他真的喜欢她，为什么她在他生日那天给他留了纸条，他没有赴约？ “那就让以前变成现在。”张天亮说道。 “就是，看看人家李广源，当初没有表白的感情现在不是有了结果。”有人附和道。 “对了，穆景言，你申请去D市工作不会就是为了沈若琳吧？”张天亮问。 穆景言只是笑了笑，并不否认。 若琳抬眼望向穆景言，他真的为了自己调到D市吗？ “我就说嘛，你在这里不是挺好的吗？GTR财务总监的油水应该不少吧？怎么要主动请缨去D市做新产品的宣传拓展呢？那不是成心跟自己过不去嘛！原来是为了美人舍弃江山啊！够能耐啊穆景言。”张天亮拍拍他的肩膀。 “其实我是想趁年轻多锻炼锻炼自己。熟悉各方面的业务，为以后发展打下基础。”穆景言怕若琳有心理负担，忙说是为了自己的事业着想。 “这话没错，以你小子的头脑，将来自己开公司不是问题啊！到时候当董事长了别忘了老同学才好。不过，沈若琳和你，我怎么越看越般配呢？要不，我做媒人，成就你俩的金玉良缘？”张天亮依然没放过拿穆景言和若琳开涮。 “这还得问问人家若琳的意思吧，你可不能自作主张。”有同学打趣道。 “等等，我有话要说！”马建像是想起了什么似的，面部表情有些夸张地说，“经大家这么一说，我倒想起了一件事。” “什么事？”众人好奇地问道。 “……”马建做了个深思熟虑的表情，咂了咂嘴，不说话。 众人不解地望着马建，张天亮笑了笑，说：“你这小子不会有什么惊人情报吧，咱班的事还不是数我知道的事情最多。” “这事你还真不知道。”马建又咂了咂嘴，做出一副得意的样子。 “那你赶紧说，到底是什么事，或许我也知道呢。”张天亮说道。 “那我说啦。”马建微微咳嗽了声，四下同学们都不说话，屏息。马建看这静下来的氛围正是他想要的，脸上浮现笑意，说：“我们班有个女生喜欢穆景言。” 田静暗暗高兴，心想马建说的这个女生莫非就是若琳？既然他们两人都曾互相暗恋过对方，现在又有什么不好说的，说不定捅开这层窗户纸一切就明朗了，真的如张天亮所说的成就一段金玉良缘呢。这不，她不说，还是有人要说出来。田静转头看了看若琳，发现若琳满脸怔忪。 “喜欢穆景言的女生多了去了，这不稀奇。”张天亮不以为然地说。 “但是主动给穆景言写情书的女生不多吧？”马建说。 “情书？谁写的？”众人马上来了兴致，两眼放光地问道。 “其实我也不知道是谁写的，因为情书的末尾没有署名，不知是不是在座的哪位。”马建望向在座的众女生。 若琳闻言有些心虚地低着头。但是又安慰自己，他说的是情书，她的那张纸条写得那么含蓄，那么简短，充其量就是几句表白，称不上情书吧？ 田静愣了下，马建竟不知道是谁。想归想，但她现在并不急着说。 “不会是你随便杜撰的吧？怎么可能写了情书不署名呢？”张天亮不解地问。 “我有这个必要杜撰吗？有一次，你们都出去打球了，教室里就剩我一个男生做深刻的思想检讨。那时不是跟隔壁班的张震打了场架吗？班主任罚我写份三千字的检讨。写作文本就不是我的强项，我写得那叫一个累啊！写完检讨，打算出去玩的时候，路过穆景言的座位旁，我瞥见了地上有一张纸条，上面不仅有对穆景言深情的表白，还写着约会的时间地点。不过……”马建摸了摸头，有些不太好意思往下说。 “不过什么？”大家追问。 “不过介于当时本人刚写完检讨心情不爽，而且又一直嫉妒穆景言太有女生缘，所以，我就把那张纸条撕碎扔进了垃圾桶。”马建难为情地说。 “马建，你真缺德啊！”有同学替穆景言打抱不平。
若琳听后，才知晓那日穆景言为何没来的真正原因，那时，她心中曾有过很多猜测，比如，他不喜欢她所以不来的，他不想耽误她的学业所以不来的，可是，众多猜测中她唯独没有想到这个。 暗恋的那种情愫只留在了回忆里，若琳忆起来虽清晰如昨，却只成了回不去的曾经。她的心翻涌起来，万般滋味尽在其中。 如果早一点和他在一起，她的感情生活就不需要那么坎坷曲折了吧？她也不需要经历那次相亲，也不会认识韩皓轩，更不会有后面跟韩皓轩相爱到分手的短暂经历。不过，世界上从来就没有“如果”，只有“但是”。 但是，她从来都没有后悔过认识韩皓轩并跟他相爱。虽然结局是这样的无可挽回。 她也想过，她和韩皓轩之间究竟存在什么问题，为什么她现在就是说服不了自己接受韩皓轩呢？是害怕和他在一起会承担太多的生命不可承受之重吗？他像高高的大树上结出来的金色果子，而她像树下的小孩子，尽管想吃果子，却觉得果子离自己太远，爬上去采摘会摔倒。他们之间隔着太多的东西——家庭、前女友、不信任、谎言。 这些东西统统都是从爱情通往婚姻的路上不得跳过的栅栏。 她对自己没有那么大的信心，她觉得自己跳不过去，光是家庭和前女友那两关就已经让她累得气喘吁吁了。
“马建真会编故事。”张天亮笑了笑，不太相信马建的话。 众人也都跟着笑了起来，突然有个声音响起，说：“是有个女生一直喜欢穆景言，还给他写过情书没错。” 众人的笑声戛然而止，看向田静。若琳也被立马从回忆自己跟韩皓轩之间的矛盾打回到现实中，顿时惊了惊，用手肘碰了碰田静，示意她不要把自己抖出去。 但是田静却不理会若琳，她一心想促成一桩良缘，她指了指自己身旁的若琳，笑道：“那个喜欢穆景言给他写情书的女生就是沈若琳。我可以作证。” 若琳再也无处躲藏，脸上的笑容有些僵硬。 她微微抬头看了看穆景言，发现他也正望着她，他的眼神变得很温柔，嘴角含着一抹笑，轻轻淡淡的，却不难看出是难得满足的笑。若琳急忙低下头，看着面前的碗筷，心里一片混乱。今天不是别人的婚礼吗？为什么大家把注意力都集中在自己和穆景言身上了呢？她颇为烦恼。 “咱们来听听若琳的想法吧，看她还一脸不好意思。”王萌萌笑道。 “我……”若琳一时间真不知说什么，嘴角扯出一抹笑，半晌，说，“都是些陈芝麻烂谷子的事了，就别再拿出来说了。” “哎哟，你看咱们把人家说得脸都红了。”张天亮在一旁开始起哄，随后，这一众人都纷纷起哄，更有甚者还起身要跟穆景言换座位，特意让他坐在若琳的旁边。 这起哄声最后在李广源的发话下停止了，他看这情形，不由得说：“今天是我的婚宴还是你们的起哄宴啊，还不赶紧收住话题，看看你们面前的酒，就光顾着说话，也不喝酒啦，看看刚才谁说话最多，现在就罚谁。” “啊？”张天亮轻轻苦叫了一声，情不自禁地低下了头，唯恐别人会把他拉入提名的行列，而事实是，他不仅被提名还直接入围了。
接下来，席间觥筹交错，一片热闹。 到了新郎新娘喝交杯酒的时候，场面更是热闹非凡。在一群人热闹闹的吵声中，王萌萌倒有些不好意思起来，含情脉脉地望着李广源，脸上有少女萌发爱意时羞涩的表情。然后，两人竟不约而同地将手臂交叉在一起，将手中的酒杯放在了各自的面前。 看着他们两人恩爱甜蜜的样子，不知哪个机灵鬼提议让穆景言跟沈若琳也喝上一杯，若琳闻言，简直呆住了，亏那个同学想得出来，交杯酒是要结为夫妇的人举行的一种仪式，而她跟穆景言算什么呢？ 这一帮老同学没有放过他俩，几乎每个人都说了一个让他们这么做的理由，就这样在众同学的软磨硬泡下，若琳只好无奈地就范。 刚开始，若琳一个劲地推托，并用各种理由搪塞，但都无济于事，而一旁的穆景言却不吱声，她就不断地给穆景言使眼色，可穆景言又不会说话，就算会说也敌不过那么多张嘴啊。最后，她想想，不就是喝交杯酒嘛！喝了又不会死人，喝就喝呗。 两人拿起了桌上的酒杯，然后将手臂交叉在一起。若琳的眼神有些恍惚，盯着两人交缠的手臂，她觉得看起来有些别扭，像缠绕的藤蔓一般。 若琳端着酒杯，有些迟疑，而穆景言已经跷起手肘喝起了自己杯中的酒，若琳只好顺势低下头喝酒。穆景言个子比较高，他微微弯下腰，此刻，他和若琳的脸离得那么近，他甚至能感觉到她脸颊的温度和轻浅的呼吸。 若琳不太会喝，轻啜了一小口后，抬眸，看了看穆景言，在灯光的映照下，他脸上的轮廓异常分明，好像被精心裁剪过一般，若琳盯着他的眼睛不再游移，像是回到了高中时代，她还是以前的她，正看着自己喜欢的男孩，心旌微微摇动。 当穆景言抬起眼眸时，与若琳的视线撞了个正着，他拿开杯子，嘴角露出一抹笑，像是一点也不介意他们喝交杯酒，眼中似乎还闪烁着无数的光点。 若琳突然回了神，尴尬地笑了笑，移开杯子。 气氛一下子变得十分活跃，有人还跟他们开玩笑，说：“什么时候请我们喝喜酒啊？” 若琳被说得脸上泛起一抹红晕，几欲无言，她看了看穆景言，他却一副无所谓的样子，任别人怎么说，他只是一笑置之，并不开口跟别人争辩。 直到新郎新娘到下一桌去敬酒，菜也陆续上来，大家才开始将对穆景言和若琳的注意力转移到饭菜上面。
这家酒店的“狮子头”一直被人们津津乐道，这道菜刚上来，就被大家瓜分一空。若琳以前也很喜欢吃“狮子头”，可是今天刚咬了一口，却有种想吐的感觉。她忍住了，再咬了一口，没想到马上就“呕”了一声。 她捂住嘴，尽力遏制自己想吐的欲望，然后离开座位，匆忙去了盥洗间。 对着马桶，若琳吐了个彻底，刚才吃的菜、喝的酒全都吐了出来。 她突然有种不良的预感，紧接着意识到“大姨妈”好像好久没光顾了，再想起电视里面每到女主角怀孕时总会以“呕吐”作为先兆，心马上就提到了嗓子眼，不会是已经…… 以前每次和韩皓轩发生关系，他总是会做好防范措施，难道那次她被他侵犯时他没有做防范措施吗？ 若琳越想越担心，这次还真怪她太疏忽大意了。不过也难怪，和韩皓轩分手后，她总是有些魂不守舍的，肯定考虑不到其他方面的事情。
若琳有些虚脱地从盥洗间走了出来，没想到迎面就碰见了穆景言，只见他神色紧张地问：“若琳，你怎么了？有事吗？” “没事。”若琳摇头。 若琳刚才在饭桌前的异常反应都被穆景言看在了眼里，所以在若琳离开座位后，穆景言也跟了过来。他一直站在盥洗间外面的走廊里等她。 卫生间门的隔音效果并不是很好，他在外面都能听到若琳撕心裂肺般的呕吐声，他听得心都疼。他在外面等了很长时间，他以为她是喝醉了，都差点要去请女同学进去看看她了。 “你的脸色看上去不太对劲，喝醉了吗？”穆景言又问。 “嗯，是有点醉，我不会喝酒。”若琳回答。 “那待会儿就别喝了。早知道你滴酒不沾，刚才那杯酒我就帮你喝了。”穆景言回想起刚才喝交杯酒的那一幕仍旧有些脸红心跳。 “没关系，现在好多了。”若琳挤出一丝笑意，“阿穆，谢谢你这么关心我。不过，你不会告诉我你会出现在这里就是因为跟踪我吧？” “不是，我是刚好要来洗手间……”穆景言本想找托词，却发现越抹越黑。 “不用解释了，我知道。走吧，不然我失踪这么久，大家该等急了。”
回到座位时，穆景言和若琳免不了又被好事的同学开涮一番。 “你瞧瞧人家穆景言护花使者当得多称职，连沈若琳上趟洗手间也要护驾。” “那是应该的，这么多年的缘分啊！这叫什么来着的……众里寻他千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在灯火阑珊处。” “多么美妙的感情啊，真叫人羡慕。” ... 若琳一直埋头吃饭，并不理会这些话。 穆景言也没答话，只是一边吃饭一边用余光去看若琳。她不仅脸色不对劲，而且看上去有心事。是因为同学们把他俩撮合到一块，她不高兴吗？他暗自揣摩。 那些同学见穆景言和若琳两个当事人一副无动于衷的样子，也觉得有些自讨没趣，便不再往下说了。
若琳发现自己一碰荤菜就有股想吐的冲动，所以她净挑素菜吃。 “若琳，你是属兔子的吗？怎么只吃素的啊？”眼尖的田静一下便看出了若琳吃菜的规律。 “过年期间我吃不了太荤的菜，因为家里也是大鱼大肉的，吃腻了。”若琳有些心虚地回答。 “哦。”还好田静没有打破沙锅问到底，若琳不由得松了口气。
好不容易挨到婚宴结束，跟同学们匆忙告别后，若琳连忙走了出去，她想尽快确认一下自己有没有怀孕。 “若琳，我送你吧。”穆景言在若琳身后喊她，又补充了一句，“我爸刚买了新车，我今天开他的车过来的。” “我自己坐公交车回去就好啦。”若琳回过头，对他说。她并不是不想坐免费车，而是她想去药店买早孕试纸，当然要避人耳目。 “若琳……我有话要对你说，可以陪我去一中走走吗？”穆景言有些犹豫，但终究还是开了口。参加高中同学的婚礼，又激发了他的勇气，他对她的喜欢孕育得太久，也隐藏得太久，一直积压在心里，平时以为掩藏得很紧实，但只需要一个出口，便像泉水一般涌了出来，一发不可收拾。 若琳顿住了脚步，看了看表，下午两点钟。这块表是韩皓轩送给她的那块，她只是把戒指还给了韩皓轩，却没有把手表还给他，她想的是，虽然做不了他的新娘，但是至少可以保留和韩皓轩在一起的幸福回忆。幸福有时是短暂的，转瞬即逝的，但是只要心中有爱，就会成为永恒。 “不会耽误你太久时间的，我只是想要完成自己的一个心愿。”穆景言怕她有急事，忙说。他喜欢她何必通过别人的口来复述呢？他一定要趁自己此刻鼓足勇气的时候郑重地告诉她，他爱她，并将他之前为她准备的生日礼物送给她。 “好吧。”仿佛下了很大决心一般，若琳答应道。
"Let's talk." After the Cold War, this was the first time Ruo Lin took the initiative to talk to Han Haoxuan. Although Ruolin's expression was quite serious when she spoke, Han Haoxuan felt that this was an opportunity to attack. After all, she gave him the opportunity to speak, and he was still complacent in his heart. "You've paid off Xin Yu's money for me, right? Do you want me to say thank you?" Ruo Lin didn't beat around the bush, and said straight to the point. Ruolin's words were beyond Han Haoxuan's expectation. He thought she was here to talk to him about his future relationship, but he didn't expect that the content of the conversation had nothing to do with it. "Yes." Han Haoxuan didn't intend to deny it either. "Then, have you paid off the money I owed Mu Jingyan?" Ruolin continued to ask. "I wanted to pay it off, but he didn't give me a chance, and he rejected me directly, saying that it was between you and him, and told me not to intervene." "You are so kind. I should thank you for thinking of me everywhere, right? Changing 'Fang Ling has an appointment' to 'Ruolin has an appointment' has something to do with you, right? Why don't you just explain everything you have done for me?" , I will also thank you." Ruolin said calmly. "Why bother? I just hope you can relax a bit and don't feel too much pressure." "My work is really related to you?" Ruo Lin suddenly raised her voice. "So what? We are boyfriend and girlfriend, I should help you share some troubles, why are you so serious?" Han Haoxuan didn't intend to deny it.After all, paper can't contain fire, even if he doesn't explain now, Ruolin will know one day in the future.Instead of letting others tell her, he should tell it himself.He didn't intend to tell any lies to Ruolin. "You should have consulted with me before doing these things, right? Do you know that what you do is no different from arranging my life? I don't need others to arrange my life! I thought I was working because I worked hard I just got it. I’m still thinking that my hard work has finally paid off. I don’t think there is another reason behind it. Do you know? What you do will only make me lose my head in front of other colleagues. They say that I I don’t care if I become a phoenix after catching a wealthy son-in-law, but I care if they say that I am secretly trying to get a job!” "Don't be so excited, this matter is not that serious, at worst, change jobs." Han Haoxuan took Ruolin's hand, trying to calm down her emotions. "What's the big deal? You always say it so lightly. Because you have a capable father who can't worry about food and clothing since childhood, right? But do you know how much I love my current job? This is my dream job as a writer. I thought I am advancing step by step, so the treatment in the unit is getting better and better. I never thought that my work is related to you, and I really never thought about it." Ruo Lin shook her head and said, feeling extremely disappointed in her heart, " Yes, it’s also my fault for being too stupid, there is never a pie in the sky, how could my salary increase so much, how could my position be promoted so fast? I am too confident in myself.” "Your ability is worth so much salary, you are worth it!" Han Haoxuan said. "Tell me, is there any part of my salary that you personally contribute?" Ruo Lin looked into his eyes. "..." Han Haoxuan's expression was very painful. He didn't want to lie to her, but it was so difficult to tell the truth. "Yes, right?" Ruolin stared at him. Han Haoxuan sighed and nodded heavily. Ruolin smiled wryly, and then said, "You are pitying me, you treat me like a beggar and give me alms, right?" "It's not like that, I just don't want you to live so hard." "But why didn't you ask me if I would like it before you did it?" "I thought you wouldn't want to." "Not necessarily. If you said you would lend me money and act sincerely enough, I might accept it. But if you 'help' me in this way now, not only will I not thank you, but I will hate you even more you!" "I told you before that I wanted to help you pay back the money to Mu Jingyan, but you didn't agree, so I thought you wouldn't want me to lend you money..." "I didn't agree, but didn't you still go to Mu Jingyan to pay back the money in spite of my obstruction? However, Mu Jingyan was right. The money I sent him was between me and him. Where is the turn?" How about you intervene?" "It's not up to me to intervene in the matter between you and him? Hey, when you said this, your tone was almost exactly the same as his. What a tacit understanding!" Han Haoxuan sneered, he always felt that the relationship between Ruo Lin and Mu Jingyan was different generally.He wanted to help her pay back the money to Mu Jingyan, didn't he want Ruo Lin to have less contact with Mu Jingyan? "I've known him for so many years, of course we have a tacit understanding!" Ruolin deliberately angered Han Haoxuan.Because she has already made up her mind, so she doesn't care about it when she speaks. "Oh? Really? Is it more tacit understanding than being with me?" Han Haoxuan felt a tingling in his heart. "Yes, I am much happier with him than with you. At least, he and I don't need to lie to each other." Ruo Lin said cruelly. "Is being with him really happier than being with me?" Han Haoxuan's heart seemed to be stabbed hard, and the bloody pain hit instantly, "Is being with him happier than being with me?" ?” "Yes." Ruolin said without hesitation, "I have no burden being with him. So I would rather borrow money from him than owe you money." If you want to leave, you have to speak harshly and decisively Bar?Although Ruolin's heart hurts when she said these words.But she knows the truth that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain.During the time with Han Haoxuan, there were sweetness, but more sadness. His mother put pressure on her, and she worked hard to get through it, but he kissed his ex-girlfriend and lied to her that he was with a client. He even made her As a tool to vent her desire, she violated her against her will!Not only that, but he also wanted to help her arrange her life. He quietly arranged her work and helped her pay back the money, and he didn't disclose anything before doing these things.If we continue to live like this, there will only be more and more conflicts and rifts between the two in the future, right?If the ending of the story is destined to be separated, why not withdraw early? Han Haoxuan didn't speak any more, he lowered his head and leaned on the sofa dejectedly. After a long time, as if he had made up his mind, he raised his head and said to Ruo Lin: "If you are sure that you will be happier with him, then I will let you go."
It was very late at night, and the office was suffocatingly quiet, except for a pale lamp hanging from the ceiling. The ashtray on the desk was full of cigarette butts. Han Haoxuan smoked one cigarette after another, and he didn't know how many cigarettes he had smoked. In the end, he choked so much that he coughed again and again, before he extinguished the cigarette in his hand. He didn't leave work early today to pick her up at Ruo Lin's get off work as usual, but stayed alone in the office smoking a cigarette after the employees had left. Sometimes, smoke is really a good thing, it can numb the nerves.
It's not that he didn't want to keep Ruolin, but he felt that he couldn't keep her, so he didn't dare to go home until now, he was afraid that Ruolin would have left after returning home. He really couldn't face the empty house for a while. Although, recently, he and Ruolin hardly talked when they stayed in the same room, but as long as she was in the room, he would feel at ease. He couldn't imagine how he would live without Ruo Lin.
It was already two o'clock in the morning when he got home, Han Haoxuan took out the key and opened the door, when he opened the door he found his hands were trembling. After turning on the light, he went straight to the guest room, and the door opened with a slight push. He had a bad feeling. When the light in the guest room was turned on, Han Haoxuan didn't see Ruolin's figure, and most importantly, her luggage bag beside the bookcase was also gone!Moreover, the ring he gave Ruolin was lying quietly on the table at this moment, the little starlight usually looked brilliant when worn on Ruolin's finger, but now it hurt his eyes. Next to the ring is the key to the house.It seems that she left resolutely this time, and she even returned the key to him.
He ran to the living room, looked at the refrigerator, looked at the dining table, looked at the coffee table, but did not find a small note. Ruolin didn't leave a single word, just disappeared from his life! Upon realizing this, Han Haoxuan fell powerlessly on the bed. He didn't turn on the light in the bedroom, leaving himself in darkness.
He did say to let her go, but that was not his intention, Ruolin should know. God knows how determined he was to say that. Where is she now?She should be looking for Mu Jingyan, right? Thinking of this, Han Haoxuan had a headache.Why does he treat her so well, but she still feels unhappy, unhappy?
Ruolin talked to the editor-in-chief once after she got to work. She planned to resign and leave, but the editor-in-chief persuaded her in every possible way, saying that she was good enough to take up the position of editor-in-chief. He also said that although Han Haoxuan told him to take care of her, But what he valued more was Ruolin's ability. "Except for the bonus, Haoxuan paid a little out of his own pocket, and everything else was obtained by your own efforts, so don't be burdened. Although you broke up with Haoxuan, you are still my good employee. You should stay with me. Do a good job here, and it will definitely get better and better. If you leave, it will be a loss for the magazine." The editor-in-chief Fang Qiang said that, and Ruolin couldn't say anything else, otherwise she would appear too hypocritical. After thanking the editor-in-chief, Ruolin decided to stay in the magazine and work harder.
After Mu Jingyan learned that Ruolin had broken up with Han Haoxuan, he was not happy, but felt a little guilty. He thought that Han Haoxuan had misunderstood him and Ruolin, and told Ruolin to explain to Han Haoxuan for her. "No need. I broke up with him not because of you, but because of my disagreement with him." When Ruolin spoke, her tone was very calm, as if she didn't care about her relationship with Han Haoxuan. "Oh." Mu Jingyan vaguely felt that the breakup between the two of them was not just a simple personality disagreement, but it was a matter between Ruo Lin and Han Haoxuan, and it was not convenient for him to ask about the specific details, nor did he want to. "Going home during the Spring Festival?" Mu Jingyan saw that Ruolin's face was not looking well, so he started to change the subject. "Of course I want to go home." "Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan are getting married. The wedding will be held on the sixth day of the first lunar month. Are you going to attend?" "Huh? The two of them are going to get married. I really didn't think of them getting together before." Ruo Lin was a little surprised.Both Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan were her high school classmates. She felt that both of them belonged to the taciturn category, and there was no sign that they liked each other. "I also find it quite strange, because there are not many high school classmates who get married. But it is not without miracles." Mu Jingyan also hopes that miracles can happen to himself and Ruo Lin. "Then I must go to witness the miracle. Wang Mengmeng hides it so deeply that she hasn't revealed anything to me." "For people with an introverted personality, the more they love, the more they hide." Mu Jingyan himself has a deep understanding of this.The class knows that there are not many people who like Ruolin. "By the way, on my birthday, didn't you say that you once loved someone? I'm actually quite curious about who that person is." Ruolin felt that Mu Jingyan also belonged to that kind of restrained person.She has been with him for three years, and now she has been in the same city for so long. She still doesn't know who the girl he said he fell in love with is. "What if I say this person is you?" Mu Jingyan laughed. "Why do you always make fun of me? You know that I just broke up with you and you intend to make things difficult for me?" Ruo Lin didn't take Mu Jingyan's words seriously at all. "Then you are welcome to join the singles club, and I will appear less lonely." "Why are you not serious? Dare I fall in love, but you are psychologically balanced. You are not gloating or something." "What's the point of falling out of love? It's his loss if he doesn't know how to cherish you. No matter how bad you are, I'm still by your side! If you really don't want anyone anymore, I'll marry you. We are old classmates after all, and we know each other well." Mu When Jing Yan said this, his expression was very serious, not as if he was joking. Ruolin gave a dry laugh, and then asked, "Do you not mind the things that others have used?" One sentence actually stopped Mu Jingyan from asking.Because he really can't say "I don't mind", he is a traditional man, he is a bit emotionally clean, although he loves Ruolin, does he really not mind the fact that Ruolin and Han Haoxuan lived together? "Can't you answer? Amu, I told you not to joke with me! If you joke too much, you have to be responsible." Ruo Lin pretended not to care, and said with a smile. Such a smile made Mu Jingyan feel very uncomfortable. He despised himself in his heart. Since he loves her so much, why should he care about her past?If she can really be with him, what he cares about is every day she spends with him. "If a man really loves you, he won't care about your past. So, Ruolin, don't feel that you are different from before. In my eyes, you will always be that innocent and romantic girl." Mu Jing Yan said seriously. "Thank you, Amu." Ruo Lin was a little moved, "However, if what you said was not a joke, I would like to say that you deserve a better girl." "Ruolin..." Mu Jingyan was about to confess his true feelings. "Don't say similar things in front of me anymore. I don't want to talk about love now. I think we are more suitable to be good friends, good friends who have nothing to do with love." Ruolin interrupted Mu Jingyan. Love is a bit disheartened, and my mind is still in chaos.In this state, she didn't have time to digest Mu Jingyan's words. She didn't know whether Mu Jingyan said these words as a joke or because she, like him, was a lovelorn and felt sorry for each other. Mu Jingyan didn't speak any more. Could this be the answer Ruolin gave him?A good friend who has nothing to do with love? Could it be that the relationship between him and her can only stay in the position of good friends?
On the eve of the approaching Spring Festival, there was a heavy snowfall in City D. The whole city is covered with snow, as if it looks brand new. It is rare to meet a snowy day, and everyone is very excited.Xin Yu asked Ruo Lin to eat hot pot together after get off work, so Ruo Lin went back later than usual that night. When Ruolin walked to the aisle of her apartment building, she stomped her foot, the sensor light was on, and she was about to take out the key to open the door, when she suddenly found a black shadow curled up at the door of her house! She plucked up the courage to squat down and look carefully—that black shadow turned out to be Han Haoxuan! He was wearing a thick leather jacket, squatting at the door of her house, his eyes were slightly closed, and he was still muttering to himself. "Hao Xuan, why are you here?" Ruo Lin asked in surprise. "Ruo Lin, is that you?" Han Haoxuan woke up when he heard Ruo Lin's voice, as if he had gained strength, he immediately stood up and hugged Ruo Lin.He had been waiting here for her for a long time, almost falling asleep, but fortunately, he got her. A familiar smell came with a strong smell of alcohol. Did he drink?In fact, this kind of embrace makes Ruolin miss him very much, she often misses his hug in the dead of night.But rationality told her not to be greedy for the warmth and hugs of her old lover.So Ruolin broke free from him: "We've already broken up, there's no need to be so entangled." "But, I will always think of you. I can't bear to let you leave me like this. Let's make up." Han Haoxuan wanted to hug her again. "No, I already...I already have a boyfriend." Now that we broke up, don't be so disconnected.Now that you choose to leave, you have to retreat completely. "Who is it? Is that Mu Jingyan?" Han Haoxuan asked. Ruolin didn't deny it. "You go back. I have nothing to say to you." Ruolin said. "Okay." Han Haoxuan spat out this sentence lightly, and then he fell down all of a sudden. "What's wrong with you? Hao Xuan?" Ruo Lin was frightened, she touched Han Hao Xuan's forehead, it was very hot, and then touched his hand, it was cold. "It's okay." Han Haoxuan replied weakly. He must have been waiting here for too long to catch a cold?Ruolin suddenly feels distressed. "I'll take you to the hospital." Ruolin said. "I won't go, I just want to be by your side. Just let me stay by your side for a while." Han Haoxuan held Ruolin's hand and said in a pleading tone. "Then go into the house, there just happens to be antipyretics in the house." "Finally you didn't drive me away." Han Haoxuan smiled like a child.
Han Haoxuan must have drunk a lot of wine, and he still staggered when he stood up and walked.Ruolin helped him into the room and let him lean on the sofa in the living room. "Ruolin, I thought you would never talk to me again. Are you willing to give me another chance?" Han Haoxuan grabbed Ruolin's hand. "I took you in just because you have a cold and a fever, and I don't want your condition to get worse. It has no other meaning." Ruolin quickly pulled out her hand.After finishing speaking, she went to the closet to find the medicine box. "Let's be together again, okay?" Han Haoxuan's tone was a little pleading. "Don't be silly, broken pieces of the puzzle cannot be put together. We have already broken up." Ruolin reminded him. "But, I regret it, I don't want to break up." "..." Ruolin didn't speak. Han Haoxuan suddenly remembered a sentence that he didn't know where he read it, roughly: It only needs to be said by one person to break up, but two people need to confirm it to be together. As long as Ruolin doesn't agree to get back together, it's impossible for them to get back together.However, has the relationship between him and Ruo Lin really reached an irreparable point?
"You won't have a boyfriend so soon, right? You lied to me just now, right?" Han Haoxuan asked unwillingly. "Don't worry about it so much. Whether I have a boyfriend is not your concern. Your first concern is your body." Ruolin found a box of cold medicine from the medicine cabinet, poured water, and poured the medicine Put He Shui in front of Han Haoxuan: "Take the medicine, rest after taking the medicine, don't think so much." "Physical illnesses will be cured, but mental illnesses are difficult to cure. In fact, you are my best medicine." Han Haoxuan looked at Ruolin and said. Han Haoxuan's haggard face made Ruolin feel distressed when she saw it, but she tried her best to restrain herself and not let herself show it. "It's snowing, Ruolin. As I said, I will take you skiing when it snows. Can this promise be fulfilled?" Han Haoxuan asked quietly. "Take the medicine first, and wait until you recover your body." Ruo Lin didn't answer, and put the medicine directly into Han Haoxuan's palm.
After Han Haoxuan took the medicine, he said some nonsensical words, and then fell asleep on the sofa. He didn't know whether it was the alcohol or the cold medicine that had the effect. Ruolin helped him cover the quilt, sat beside the sofa, listening to his regular and shallow breathing. He still remembered the promise to take her skiing in snowy days, the moment he said it, Ruolin was almost shaken, almost threw herself into his arms.But she tried her best to suppress her emotions, pretending not to hear. Han Haoxuan's face was still so vivid and charming under the soft light, Ruolin couldn't help reaching out to touch his face, but her hand was still hanging in the air after all. It's over, it's all over.She couldn't allow herself to stay in the past time anymore.She and he are already passerby A and passerby B.
The next day, when Han Haoxuan woke up, it was already noon, and Ruo Lin had already gone to work. "The cold medicine is on the table, you can take it home, remember to take the medicine on time. Don't come to me again. You will disturb my life. I want to live a peaceful and happy life, and you can't give me such a life. Ruolin. "There is a sticky note on the refrigerator, the words are clear and glaring. Han Haoxuan's heart cooled down little by little. After Ruolin left, he worked crazily, trying to cover up the pain of losing love with being busy, but every night, he suffered from insomnia, so that for a long time he had to use sleeping pills to fall asleep. Before, he also suffered from insomnia when he broke up with An Xi, but it was not so serious. He went to see a psychiatrist, and the doctor said that he was too preoccupied and couldn't let go of many things, which kept accumulating in his heart.He tried hard to let go, he smoked, he drank, and he picked up the bad habits that Ruolin didn't allow him to do before. No matter how miserable he was, he never thought of coming to Ruo Lin again, because he wanted her to be happy, and she said that she was not happy with him, so he no longer interfered in her life, and pretended that Ruo Lin had never existed in his world. Lynn has been here. But in such a snowy day, he suddenly couldn't control his thoughts, he missed Ruo Lin like crazy.In order to dissolve this longing, he sat at home in a daze while drinking.He didn't know exactly how much wine he had drunk, but when he realized that his head was a bit confused, he made a decision, he was going to find Ruo Lin.He had promised Ruolin that he would take her skiing when it snowed, and he had to keep his promise. He couldn't drink and drive after drinking too much, so he took a taxi directly to Ruolin's residence. Ruo Lin was not at home, so he stood at the door of her house and waited. When his hands and feet were cold, he still waited there stubbornly.He firmly believed that he would wait for her. However, what can Ruolin do when she finally waits?Her attitude towards herself can be described as "indifferent", and she even told him that she already has a boyfriend. He wanted to ask, but she seemed very impatient. Then maybe the alcohol played a role, his head became groggy, and he fell asleep.
While Han Haoxuan tried to recall everything last night, he regretted why he didn't communicate with Ruolin more last night? He opened the curtains, and the sun was already shining outside. The snow outside the window was gradually melting, but Han Haoxuan's heart was like an ice cellar in the cold winter months.
Han Haoxuan intends to write a note for Ruo Lin, but he just wants to write some hypocritical words like "I wish you happiness". In the end, when he was looking for a pen and paper, he discovered Ruolin's secret—a notebook that recorded Ruolin's emotional diary. It is just an ordinary notebook, the only difference is that the cover is wrapped in newspaper, obviously the owner cherishes this notebook very much.Maybe it's because I haven't read it too well, the book looks a little old. Out of curiosity, Han Haoxuan turned a few pages and read it. Han Haoxuan read the diary tremblingly.She had such a meticulous mind to like a boy, and she did not reveal it after liking it for so long.However, that boy was not him. Except for the interview that was published in the magazine, she didn't write a word for him.But she wrote so many words for another man, and every word is true. It turned out that the ending had already been doomed. Han Haoxuan was so angry that he threw the diary on the ground, still not relieved, then stepped on it, and ravaged the diary a few more times.A good book suddenly changed beyond recognition. He threw the dilapidated notebook directly into the trash can outside the community.
In the end, Han Haoxuan left Ruolin's house without leaving a word. Just like when Ruolin left his house, she left nothing behind, the only thing left was her own heart.
Time is really the best healing medicine, no matter how big the wound is, it will gradually heal. As time went by, Ruolin's wounds in her heart no longer lashed out, and her mentality became much calmer.
At 10:30 am on the sixth day of the first lunar month, the wedding of Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan was held as scheduled in a four-star hotel. After signing in, Ruo Lin walked into the wedding hall slowly. Before the wedding officially started, the hall was already filled with joyful atmosphere. Heart-shaped patterns made of pink balloons are hung around the hall, the aisle is covered with a big red carpet, and the stage in the middle is even more carefully arranged. Two cupids holding arrows are hung on both sides of the background painting, with Glittering, the curtain on the side of the stage shows the sweet wedding photos of the bride and groom in a loop... Ruolin took a glance and found many familiar faces, almost all her classmates from high school came. "Ruolin, come here!" Tian Jing waved to Ruolin, motioning for Ruolin to sit at the table beside her. Ruolin looked over and found that Mu Jingyan was also sitting in front of that dining table. He was wearing a dark blue suit today, which set off a chiseled face, handsome and charming.Maybe it's because he seldom wears a suit, but at this moment he looks a little more mature and stable than usual. Mu Jingyan also saw Ruolin and smiled at her.His smile is always as warm as a warm spring breeze. In the past, his smile was Ruolin's poison, making her addicted to it. "Ruolin, you are really beautiful today. This dress is so pretty." As soon as Ruolin sat down, Tian Jing stared at her dress. Mu Jingyan also looked at Ruo Lin, and could hardly move his eyes away.Her mental state looks good today, she must have come out of a broken relationship, right? The dress Ruolin was wearing was bought by Han Haoxuan for her before, she just smiled without saying a word. "Where did you buy this clothes?" Tian Jing suddenly caught a glimpse of the clothing brand LOGO on Ruo Lin's clothes, and then she was speechless, "Is this clothes expensive? How much?" "I don't know the price very well, it was given by someone else." Ruolin replied. "Mourinho, did you buy this dress for us Ruolin?" Tian Jing asked Mu Jingyan. Mu Jingyan smiled awkwardly and shook his head: "No." "The clothes were given to me by a female friend. Besides, Tian Jing, A Mu and I are just ordinary friends, and he has no obligation to buy clothes for me." Ruolin poked Tian Jing with her elbow.She did not tell others about herself and Han Haoxuan.She is a low-key person herself, she doesn't like to show off, and if she took the initiative to tell others, as if she seemed to be showing off, she would not do such a thankless thing. "Really?" Tian Jing looked at Ruo Lin incredulously, "Mourinho is so nice. Didn't you always like him? Why didn't you take good care of him?" "I don't have this blessing." Ruolin said casually. Mu Jingyan could only hear the two of them chirping, but couldn't make out what they were talking about. "Are you speaking ill of me?" Mu Jingyan approached and asked. "No. We're talking about why the wedding hasn't started yet." Ruo Lin hurriedly said.
Accompanied by the sacred "Wedding March", the groom Li Guangyuan led the bride Wang Mengmeng's hand and walked in from the hall door, followed by two flower girls. The bride and groom took oaths, exchanged rings, kissed, cut the cake and a series of procedures were carried out step by step. What moved Ruolin the most was the swearing-in process. In the melodious and soothing background music, Wang Mengmeng held Li Guangyuan's hand, looked at him affectionately, and said seriously: "...I have some shortcomings, and I also have some bad tempers. Sometimes I am in a bad mood and even get angry with you, but But you never lost your temper with me, and always treated me with a tolerant heart. In the past few years of dating, you have always thought of me, never made things difficult for me, and gave me ample freedom to let me do everything You can make up your own mind. This way of getting along makes me feel very relaxed, and makes me feel that you are someone who can be trusted for life. Today, in front of all relatives and friends, we are married, let us build a home of love together, in the castle of marriage We will grow up together. When we have children in the future, I believe we can proudly tell our children that we are the happiest parents in the world, because we are the couple who love each other the most and get along best." After saying these words, Wang Mengmeng was a little choked up. Ruo Lin's eyelashes filled with tears when she heard these words.Every woman hopes that the person she marries is worthy of entrusting her life and giving herself enough tolerance and space.Even without the obstruction of Han Haoxuan's family, Han Haoxuan is not her ideal marriage partner. There is still a difference between marriage and love. Two people who love each other do not mean that they are suitable for living together.This is why everyone keeps saying that "being in love is easy and getting along is difficult".
The final procedure of the wedding was the bride and groom toasting the guests. When Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan came to Ruolin's table, classmate Lin Qi asked how Wang Mengmeng and Li Guangyuan got on good terms, because in her impression they were not in high school. How did you strike up a conversation.This may be the doubt of most of the students, and everyone booed and asked them to answer in detail. Wang Mengmeng was embarrassed to speak, but Li Guangyuan helped to excuse her, saying, "Actually, I have liked her since I was in high school." "I really didn't see it." Lynch said, then, with a smile, he continued, "Later, didn't you realize that you kid, and confessed your love to Wang Mengmeng?" "What's wrong with being a man, I didn't say it at the time because I was afraid of delaying my studies. Besides, you don't know that our head teacher is not a fuel-efficient lamp. If you catch someone in love, you will call your parents. We He ruined the beautiful love of youth." Li Guangyuan said generously and passionately, paused for a while, and then said happily, "Fortunately, I was considered acquainted at that time, otherwise I would not be able to marry such a beautiful daughter-in-law today. It's over." After speaking, Li Guangyuan embraced Wang Mengmeng beside him, and smiled at her. At this moment, Wang Mengmeng spoke up and said, "Don't listen to him. If he really liked me in high school and was crazy about it, he would chase me then and use the class teacher as a shield." "Hey, Mengmeng, don't say you don't blame the head teacher. If it weren't for his coercive policy, I would probably be standing next to you now." Ma Jian, who always likes to joke, said in a serious manner. He also made a gesture that he used to like to smack his lips. "Then you know..." Just as Tian Jing wanted to shake out Ruo Lin's little thoughts in high school, Ruo Lin hurriedly tugged at her hand and gave her a wink not to say anything.Although everyone was happy today, chatting about the past, but when she had to talk about her secret thoughts in front of so many people, she felt that the pure past in her heart would be eroded by others, and she was extremely uncomfortable. Ruolin didn't want Tian Jing to speak out, she just wanted to keep the good memories of her youth longer.She was afraid that when the innocence she had hidden when she was young was no longer a secret, it would be boring to remember. Tian Jing looked down at Ruo Lin's expression, then raised her head to look at the classmates who were staring at her, and said coyly, "No...it's nothing." Everyone thought that Tian Jing had some breaking news, but after hearing these words, they couldn't help feeling a little discouraged. Suddenly, a voice sounded: "I tell you something, you must not know." This person was Zhang Tianliang, the most active member of their class at that time. Everyone's eyes lit up suddenly, and they looked at Zhang Tianliang in a row. "Do you know that the handsome guy in our class, Mu Jingyan..." Zhang Tianliang suddenly stopped talking, and looked at Mu Jingyan, his eyes were bright and bright, and his hidden smile was unpredictable. Mu Jingyan suddenly raised his downcast eyes and looked at Zhang Tianliang with a trace of surprise in his eyes. "Hurry up, you're deliberately teasing us." Someone muttered. "He likes a girl in our class." Zhang Tianliang said mysteriously. Everyone was in an uproar. Who would have thought that Mu Jingyan, who has been studying and studying, would have someone he likes?Mu Jingyan is the most handsome boy in the class, and his grades are also very good. When he was in high school, there were many girls in the class who fancied him, so when he heard that the girl he liked was actually from his class, some female classmates couldn't wait to ask: "who is it?" At this time, a large table of high school classmates were sitting together, and Ruolin couldn't help but recall her high school days, and her memories went back to the past. She seemed to be the same as before, the one who had a crush on Mu Jingyan.This "who is it" grabbed her heart and made her very nervous.Because she suddenly remembered the half-truth and half-false words that Mu Jingyan said to herself: "What if I say this person is you?" Is the person he likes really herself? The surprise in Mu Jingyan's eyes intensified, and he didn't know what to say. After a while, he calmed down, but then how could he think that Zhang Tianliang would know the little secret in his heart? He remembered that he had never talked to Zhang Tianliang. Dawn revealed. "Unexpected?" Zhang Tianliang said triumphantly like a serious gossip reporter, "What Mu Jingyan likes is—" He paused, and then he was satisfied to see the urgent expectation in everyone's eyes, and then said Say the most crucial words, "Shen Ruolin." After hearing this, Mu Jingyan was stunned, lowering his eyes slightly, not daring to look up at Ruolin.虽然自己也对若琳说过喜欢她的话，但若琳都当成了玩笑话不予理会，这次从旁人的口中得到了证实，若琳会怎么想呢？ 若琳的心更是猛地跳了一下，不可置信地抬眼望着穆景言，他低着头，若琳看不清他脸上的表情。 “如果你真的没人要了，我就娶你。”穆景言曾对若琳说的话突然蹦入她的大脑，难道他说的不是玩笑话吗？他真的从高中时就喜欢自己了吗？
“若琳？”先是若琳身边的田静怔了怔，心想，怎么会这么巧，两个人竟然在当时互相暗恋着对方。 随后，一众人都露出不可思议的眼神，望着穆景言，他们都知道那会儿穆景言都几乎不跟若琳说话，然后，有人开始起哄。 “没有这回事。”穆景言抬起头，没有底气地解释，看起来一副心虚的样子。 “我觉得，我们更适合做好朋友，与爱情无关的好朋友。”穆景言依稀记得若琳跟他说过的这句话，所以自那之后他又强迫自己掩藏了对若琳的喜欢。没想到此时此刻，心底的小秘密却被张天亮揭穿了。 “我可不是睁眼说瞎话，我是有证据的。”张天亮嘻嘻笑道。 穆景言觉得这事越来越奇怪了，不说话，听张天亮的下文。 “有一次，我无意间看到穆景言的枕头下竟然放着一张若琳的一寸照片。”张天亮用手比画着。 穆景言这下是没法解释了，仿佛人家揭了他的老底一般，神情难堪，然后，脸上浮现一抹不自然的笑，对大家说：“那都是以前的事了。”
那张一寸照片穆景言还记得是他有次扫地的时候捡到的，大概是若琳不小心掉下的。当时，他还环视了教室一圈，幸好，扫地的人少也没人看他，他就赶紧将照片塞进了裤兜。自那以后，那张照片就被他压在了枕头下面，当他在宿舍看书看累了总会拿出来看上几眼，看着照片上若琳迷人的微笑，他的心里充满了小小的快乐，学习也不显得那么累了。 以前那些细小的片段开始集聚起来，像零散的图片般，一块块拼接好，在穆景言脑中涌现。 穆景言还记得第一次注意到若琳的时候，是新学期伊始，大家互不认识，班主任就要求每个人都来一段自我介绍。穆景言本来就少言寡语，自己介绍完后，基本就不抬头看别人，直到听到一个清脆的声音，像黄鹂的歌声那般好听。他这才抬起了头，顿时他就被眼前的女孩迷住了，脸庞清秀美丽，皮肤白皙润泽，像邻家小妹妹，给人的感觉很亲切。他注意到她说话有点哆嗦，声音中还带点颤音，一副紧张的样子，他在下面都为她捏一把汗，但最终她还是在断断续续的颤音中完整地介绍了自己。 以后的日子里，穆景言就会时不时地关注若琳，他发现她的性格没有他想象中的那么内向；他发现下课后她很爱转过头跟后面的人说话，而那时，他往往都是隔着前面空空的座位用余光看向她；他发现她还会跟别的男孩说话可就是从不跟他说话；他发现她的成绩一直徘徊在中游，不上不下。当时，他的成绩已经好得没话说了，他很想帮帮她，帮她补那差得不行的数学，可是，他知道不行，他还有远大的理想，他怕自己一旦陷入泥潭就无法自拔。 不过，若琳的那张照片穆景言一直保留着，即使毕业了，仍然视为贴身物品般。
若琳听到穆景言的话时，心不由得“咯噔”了一下。他曾经喜欢过自己，而她全然未知，他亦是不知道她的想法，现在依旧不知。难道是一场缘分的错失？若琳苦笑了下。但是又想，如果他真的喜欢她，为什么她在他生日那天给他留了纸条，他没有赴约？ “那就让以前变成现在。”张天亮说道。 “就是，看看人家李广源，当初没有表白的感情现在不是有了结果。”有人附和道。 “对了，穆景言，你申请去D市工作不会就是为了沈若琳吧？”张天亮问。 穆景言只是笑了笑，并不否认。 若琳抬眼望向穆景言，他真的为了自己调到D市吗？ “我就说嘛，你在这里不是挺好的吗？GTR财务总监的油水应该不少吧？怎么要主动请缨去D市做新产品的宣传拓展呢？那不是成心跟自己过不去嘛！原来是为了美人舍弃江山啊！够能耐啊穆景言。”张天亮拍拍他的肩膀。 “其实我是想趁年轻多锻炼锻炼自己。熟悉各方面的业务，为以后发展打下基础。”穆景言怕若琳有心理负担，忙说是为了自己的事业着想。 “这话没错，以你小子的头脑，将来自己开公司不是问题啊！到时候当董事长了别忘了老同学才好。不过，沈若琳和你，我怎么越看越般配呢？要不，我做媒人，成就你俩的金玉良缘？”张天亮依然没放过拿穆景言和若琳开涮。 “这还得问问人家若琳的意思吧，你可不能自作主张。”有同学打趣道。 “等等，我有话要说！”马建像是想起了什么似的，面部表情有些夸张地说，“经大家这么一说，我倒想起了一件事。” “什么事？”众人好奇地问道。 “……”马建做了个深思熟虑的表情，咂了咂嘴，不说话。 众人不解地望着马建，张天亮笑了笑，说：“你这小子不会有什么惊人情报吧，咱班的事还不是数我知道的事情最多。” “这事你还真不知道。”马建又咂了咂嘴，做出一副得意的样子。 “那你赶紧说，到底是什么事，或许我也知道呢。”张天亮说道。 “那我说啦。”马建微微咳嗽了声，四下同学们都不说话，屏息。马建看这静下来的氛围正是他想要的，脸上浮现笑意，说：“我们班有个女生喜欢穆景言。” 田静暗暗高兴，心想马建说的这个女生莫非就是若琳？既然他们两人都曾互相暗恋过对方，现在又有什么不好说的，说不定捅开这层窗户纸一切就明朗了，真的如张天亮所说的成就一段金玉良缘呢。这不，她不说，还是有人要说出来。田静转头看了看若琳，发现若琳满脸怔忪。 “喜欢穆景言的女生多了去了，这不稀奇。”张天亮不以为然地说。 “但是主动给穆景言写情书的女生不多吧？”马建说。 “情书？谁写的？”众人马上来了兴致，两眼放光地问道。 “其实我也不知道是谁写的，因为情书的末尾没有署名，不知是不是在座的哪位。”马建望向在座的众女生。 若琳闻言有些心虚地低着头。但是又安慰自己，他说的是情书，她的那张纸条写得那么含蓄，那么简短，充其量就是几句表白，称不上情书吧？ 田静愣了下，马建竟不知道是谁。想归想，但她现在并不急着说。 “不会是你随便杜撰的吧？怎么可能写了情书不署名呢？”张天亮不解地问。 “我有这个必要杜撰吗？有一次，你们都出去打球了，教室里就剩我一个男生做深刻的思想检讨。那时不是跟隔壁班的张震打了场架吗？班主任罚我写份三千字的检讨。写作文本就不是我的强项，我写得那叫一个累啊！写完检讨，打算出去玩的时候，路过穆景言的座位旁，我瞥见了地上有一张纸条，上面不仅有对穆景言深情的表白，还写着约会的时间地点。不过……”马建摸了摸头，有些不太好意思往下说。 “不过什么？”大家追问。 “不过介于当时本人刚写完检讨心情不爽，而且又一直嫉妒穆景言太有女生缘，所以，我就把那张纸条撕碎扔进了垃圾桶。”马建难为情地说。 “马建，你真缺德啊！”有同学替穆景言打抱不平。
若琳听后，才知晓那日穆景言为何没来的真正原因，那时，她心中曾有过很多猜测，比如，他不喜欢她所以不来的，他不想耽误她的学业所以不来的，可是，众多猜测中她唯独没有想到这个。 暗恋的那种情愫只留在了回忆里，若琳忆起来虽清晰如昨，却只成了回不去的曾经。她的心翻涌起来，万般滋味尽在其中。 如果早一点和他在一起，她的感情生活就不需要那么坎坷曲折了吧？她也不需要经历那次相亲，也不会认识韩皓轩，更不会有后面跟韩皓轩相爱到分手的短暂经历。不过，世界上从来就没有“如果”，只有“但是”。 但是，她从来都没有后悔过认识韩皓轩并跟他相爱。虽然结局是这样的无可挽回。 她也想过，她和韩皓轩之间究竟存在什么问题，为什么她现在就是说服不了自己接受韩皓轩呢？是害怕和他在一起会承担太多的生命不可承受之重吗？他像高高的大树上结出来的金色果子，而她像树下的小孩子，尽管想吃果子，却觉得果子离自己太远，爬上去采摘会摔倒。他们之间隔着太多的东西——家庭、前女友、不信任、谎言。 这些东西统统都是从爱情通往婚姻的路上不得跳过的栅栏。 她对自己没有那么大的信心，她觉得自己跳不过去，光是家庭和前女友那两关就已经让她累得气喘吁吁了。
“马建真会编故事。”张天亮笑了笑，不太相信马建的话。 众人也都跟着笑了起来，突然有个声音响起，说：“是有个女生一直喜欢穆景言，还给他写过情书没错。” 众人的笑声戛然而止，看向田静。若琳也被立马从回忆自己跟韩皓轩之间的矛盾打回到现实中，顿时惊了惊，用手肘碰了碰田静，示意她不要把自己抖出去。 但是田静却不理会若琳，她一心想促成一桩良缘，她指了指自己身旁的若琳，笑道：“那个喜欢穆景言给他写情书的女生就是沈若琳。我可以作证。” 若琳再也无处躲藏，脸上的笑容有些僵硬。 她微微抬头看了看穆景言，发现他也正望着她，他的眼神变得很温柔，嘴角含着一抹笑，轻轻淡淡的，却不难看出是难得满足的笑。若琳急忙低下头，看着面前的碗筷，心里一片混乱。今天不是别人的婚礼吗？为什么大家把注意力都集中在自己和穆景言身上了呢？她颇为烦恼。 “咱们来听听若琳的想法吧，看她还一脸不好意思。”王萌萌笑道。 “我……”若琳一时间真不知说什么，嘴角扯出一抹笑，半晌，说，“都是些陈芝麻烂谷子的事了，就别再拿出来说了。” “哎哟，你看咱们把人家说得脸都红了。”张天亮在一旁开始起哄，随后，这一众人都纷纷起哄，更有甚者还起身要跟穆景言换座位，特意让他坐在若琳的旁边。 这起哄声最后在李广源的发话下停止了，他看这情形，不由得说：“今天是我的婚宴还是你们的起哄宴啊，还不赶紧收住话题，看看你们面前的酒，就光顾着说话，也不喝酒啦，看看刚才谁说话最多，现在就罚谁。” “啊？”张天亮轻轻苦叫了一声，情不自禁地低下了头，唯恐别人会把他拉入提名的行列，而事实是，他不仅被提名还直接入围了。
接下来，席间觥筹交错，一片热闹。 到了新郎新娘喝交杯酒的时候，场面更是热闹非凡。在一群人热闹闹的吵声中，王萌萌倒有些不好意思起来，含情脉脉地望着李广源，脸上有少女萌发爱意时羞涩的表情。然后，两人竟不约而同地将手臂交叉在一起，将手中的酒杯放在了各自的面前。 看着他们两人恩爱甜蜜的样子，不知哪个机灵鬼提议让穆景言跟沈若琳也喝上一杯，若琳闻言，简直呆住了，亏那个同学想得出来，交杯酒是要结为夫妇的人举行的一种仪式，而她跟穆景言算什么呢？ 这一帮老同学没有放过他俩，几乎每个人都说了一个让他们这么做的理由，就这样在众同学的软磨硬泡下，若琳只好无奈地就范。 刚开始，若琳一个劲地推托，并用各种理由搪塞，但都无济于事，而一旁的穆景言却不吱声，她就不断地给穆景言使眼色，可穆景言又不会说话，就算会说也敌不过那么多张嘴啊。最后，她想想，不就是喝交杯酒嘛！喝了又不会死人，喝就喝呗。 两人拿起了桌上的酒杯，然后将手臂交叉在一起。若琳的眼神有些恍惚，盯着两人交缠的手臂，她觉得看起来有些别扭，像缠绕的藤蔓一般。 若琳端着酒杯，有些迟疑，而穆景言已经跷起手肘喝起了自己杯中的酒，若琳只好顺势低下头喝酒。穆景言个子比较高，他微微弯下腰，此刻，他和若琳的脸离得那么近，他甚至能感觉到她脸颊的温度和轻浅的呼吸。 若琳不太会喝，轻啜了一小口后，抬眸，看了看穆景言，在灯光的映照下，他脸上的轮廓异常分明，好像被精心裁剪过一般，若琳盯着他的眼睛不再游移，像是回到了高中时代，她还是以前的她，正看着自己喜欢的男孩，心旌微微摇动。 当穆景言抬起眼眸时，与若琳的视线撞了个正着，他拿开杯子，嘴角露出一抹笑，像是一点也不介意他们喝交杯酒，眼中似乎还闪烁着无数的光点。 若琳突然回了神，尴尬地笑了笑，移开杯子。 气氛一下子变得十分活跃，有人还跟他们开玩笑，说：“什么时候请我们喝喜酒啊？” 若琳被说得脸上泛起一抹红晕，几欲无言，她看了看穆景言，他却一副无所谓的样子，任别人怎么说，他只是一笑置之，并不开口跟别人争辩。 直到新郎新娘到下一桌去敬酒，菜也陆续上来，大家才开始将对穆景言和若琳的注意力转移到饭菜上面。
这家酒店的“狮子头”一直被人们津津乐道，这道菜刚上来，就被大家瓜分一空。若琳以前也很喜欢吃“狮子头”，可是今天刚咬了一口，却有种想吐的感觉。她忍住了，再咬了一口，没想到马上就“呕”了一声。 她捂住嘴，尽力遏制自己想吐的欲望，然后离开座位，匆忙去了盥洗间。 对着马桶，若琳吐了个彻底，刚才吃的菜、喝的酒全都吐了出来。 她突然有种不良的预感，紧接着意识到“大姨妈”好像好久没光顾了，再想起电视里面每到女主角怀孕时总会以“呕吐”作为先兆，心马上就提到了嗓子眼，不会是已经…… 以前每次和韩皓轩发生关系，他总是会做好防范措施，难道那次她被他侵犯时他没有做防范措施吗？ 若琳越想越担心，这次还真怪她太疏忽大意了。不过也难怪，和韩皓轩分手后，她总是有些魂不守舍的，肯定考虑不到其他方面的事情。
若琳有些虚脱地从盥洗间走了出来，没想到迎面就碰见了穆景言，只见他神色紧张地问：“若琳，你怎么了？有事吗？” “没事。”若琳摇头。 若琳刚才在饭桌前的异常反应都被穆景言看在了眼里，所以在若琳离开座位后，穆景言也跟了过来。他一直站在盥洗间外面的走廊里等她。 卫生间门的隔音效果并不是很好，他在外面都能听到若琳撕心裂肺般的呕吐声，他听得心都疼。他在外面等了很长时间，他以为她是喝醉了，都差点要去请女同学进去看看她了。 “你的脸色看上去不太对劲，喝醉了吗？”穆景言又问。 “嗯，是有点醉，我不会喝酒。”若琳回答。 “那待会儿就别喝了。早知道你滴酒不沾，刚才那杯酒我就帮你喝了。”穆景言回想起刚才喝交杯酒的那一幕仍旧有些脸红心跳。 “没关系，现在好多了。”若琳挤出一丝笑意，“阿穆，谢谢你这么关心我。不过，你不会告诉我你会出现在这里就是因为跟踪我吧？” “不是，我是刚好要来洗手间……”穆景言本想找托词，却发现越抹越黑。 “不用解释了，我知道。走吧，不然我失踪这么久，大家该等急了。”
回到座位时，穆景言和若琳免不了又被好事的同学开涮一番。 “你瞧瞧人家穆景言护花使者当得多称职，连沈若琳上趟洗手间也要护驾。” “那是应该的，这么多年的缘分啊！这叫什么来着的……众里寻他千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在灯火阑珊处。” “多么美妙的感情啊，真叫人羡慕。” ... 若琳一直埋头吃饭，并不理会这些话。 穆景言也没答话，只是一边吃饭一边用余光去看若琳。她不仅脸色不对劲，而且看上去有心事。是因为同学们把他俩撮合到一块，她不高兴吗？他暗自揣摩。 那些同学见穆景言和若琳两个当事人一副无动于衷的样子，也觉得有些自讨没趣，便不再往下说了。
若琳发现自己一碰荤菜就有股想吐的冲动，所以她净挑素菜吃。 “若琳，你是属兔子的吗？怎么只吃素的啊？”眼尖的田静一下便看出了若琳吃菜的规律。 “过年期间我吃不了太荤的菜，因为家里也是大鱼大肉的，吃腻了。”若琳有些心虚地回答。 “哦。”还好田静没有打破沙锅问到底，若琳不由得松了口气。
好不容易挨到婚宴结束，跟同学们匆忙告别后，若琳连忙走了出去，她想尽快确认一下自己有没有怀孕。 “若琳，我送你吧。”穆景言在若琳身后喊她，又补充了一句，“我爸刚买了新车，我今天开他的车过来的。” “我自己坐公交车回去就好啦。”若琳回过头，对他说。她并不是不想坐免费车，而是她想去药店买早孕试纸，当然要避人耳目。 “若琳……我有话要对你说，可以陪我去一中走走吗？”穆景言有些犹豫，但终究还是开了口。参加高中同学的婚礼，又激发了他的勇气，他对她的喜欢孕育得太久，也隐藏得太久，一直积压在心里，平时以为掩藏得很紧实，但只需要一个出口，便像泉水一般涌了出来，一发不可收拾。 若琳顿住了脚步，看了看表，下午两点钟。这块表是韩皓轩送给她的那块，她只是把戒指还给了韩皓轩，却没有把手表还给他，她想的是，虽然做不了他的新娘，但是至少可以保留和韩皓轩在一起的幸福回忆。幸福有时是短暂的，转瞬即逝的，但是只要心中有爱，就会成为永恒。 “不会耽误你太久时间的，我只是想要完成自己的一个心愿。”穆景言怕她有急事，忙说。他喜欢她何必通过别人的口来复述呢？他一定要趁自己此刻鼓足勇气的时候郑重地告诉她，他爱她，并将他之前为她准备的生日礼物送给她。 “好吧。”仿佛下了很大决心一般，若琳答应道。