Chapter 44 Chapter Forty-Three Oranges in Huainan

"I have never put fat on the stool, nor have I said that to the hostess." "I haven't practiced eating with three chopsticks either. It's just because I like you and heard about you that I ran to try it." "I was in the dormitory during the heavy rain that year. You asked me if I was trapped by the rain, so I ran out." "What other lies did I tell you that I can't remember now. I think I should apologize to you." "But I lied, just because I like you, and I hope you like me." Luo Zhi hugged him tightly, her cheek pressed against his chest.With her eyes closed, all the stories accumulated in her heart for many years surfaced one by one at this moment, like lights, not inferior to the night in Beijing.

"Before I met you in high school, I always thought, I must be better than you, so that my mother will not be angry again. I imagined you as the son of a particularly ferocious villain. My grades are better than yours. I have to learn Many talents that can be displayed must be more famous and outstanding than you in the future, so that my mother will feel that God has eyes. But the more I think about it, the more I can remember when you came to play with me and told me, God is in charge, I want marry you. "But your name still appeared in the newspapers. It was rumored. Excellent young pioneers, outstanding class body speeches, and gold medals in competitions. I still remember that one day I saw in the newspaper that you participated in a very short section of the Hope English Contest. interview, I was so frightened that I threw the whole bundle of newspapers downstairs, almost hitting someone.

"Thank God, I did very well in the senior high school entrance examination, and your name is not in the top ten in the whole city. It makes me happier that you failed the exam than I did well. "It wasn't until later that I met you. "I know everything, but I still like you." He didn't say anything, just hugged her tightly, rubbing his chin against the top of her head. "Luo Zhi, I really hope that I can become the Sheng Huainan you liked before." Luo Zhi was stunned. She kept talking about how excellent her former friend Sheng Huainan was, and how she stubbornly approached that excellent Sheng Huainan, but she couldn't convince the current him that she would still persevere in this love.

future. "Thank you for loving me like this." "Not ever." She corrected aloud. "It's the same now. But it may not be in the future. I can't guarantee that I can still be the person you like. If you like this person so much now, it may not be the case in the future. I don't want you to regret it." She knew that what Sheng Huainan said was right.If his family hadn't collapsed, he would definitely have to study abroad after graduation. What she would face was the barriers of family and distance. She wasn't afraid at that time, but now, the natural moat was clearly in Sheng Huainan's eyes.

She wanted to promise him, but she couldn't say it.The gap and hardships are clearly there, no matter how rich the past is, it can't comfort him now. Is it enough to just say I will always love you no matter what?There are too many people who break their promises. Luo Zhi thought of Zhu Yan and said, you young people have faith because of your innocence. How she wished they were innocent and young. They stood right in the center of Beijing, and the tall buildings in the southeast and northwest rose from the ground, engulfing everything with radiance. The Gulou Street behind it is like a Y-shaped blood vessel, and the car lights are interspersed, dazzling.The city is dilapidated and prosperous, lazy and restless.

I don't know how many nights, how many frustrated people stood on this mountain where the emperor returned to his soul, watching Beijing crawling under his feet pretending to be docile. They still didn't say anything after all. Three days later, Sheng Huainan flew out of Beijing. Luo Zhi didn't go to see him off.She sat in the office and was anxiously adjusting the PPT needed for the afternoon meeting. When she looked up, it was ten fifteen minutes past, and the person she loved had already flown away for fifteen minutes. She didn't know how high she could fly in fifteen minutes, and whether she had passed through the clouds.

"Sheng Huainan, goodbye." Luo Zhi muttered, telling the printer. Luo Zhi found that she wasn't too sad.She has spent a whole year without Sheng Huainan, he appeared in a glimpse, and then disappeared, like a dream one night, and the next day after waking up, she stood on the subway and smelled the car full of leeks and eggs The taste of pie and the sadness are as fake as a playbook. Her love began as a secret, and when the secret was revealed, the love ended. However, on the afternoon when he left, when Luo Zhi, who had finished her work, stepped on her high heels and wearily walked through the garden behind the library, she suddenly felt an indescribable dull pain lying on her back, following her steps , wobbly.

That garden was once full of various masters, but now it is gradually empty because of the passing of old people.Stepping into the world separated by low walls from the bustling campus, the impetuous summer outside suddenly dissipated, and the lush trees shaded the scorching sun. Old houses stood in the quiet past, missing their owners. In the past, she and Sheng Huainan used to hold hands and passed the garden all the way, while looking at the house numbers to identify which scholars and masters lived here, telling old news, and passing by leisurely.Luo Zhi saw a stray cat, jumped up the fence nimbly, and looked behind her.

Luo Zhi also turned around. Through the low wall behind, Luo Zhi saw a green screen door half open, an old woman standing at the door, revealing the overcrowded corridor due to the high pile of books.In the yard, an old man was sitting on a bluestone slab. When he saw his wife open the door and come out, he stood up, walked slowly to the door with a cane, and tremblingly handed over a blooming lilac. Under the reflection of the setting sun, lilacs are as white as snow. The grandma smiled slightly and took it. Luo Zhi watched, her eyes blurred with tears. But she went to a professor of law school with a double degree. During the "Cultural Revolution", he was the stinky old nine of the intellectuals, and he got his wife involved.At that time, there were so many divorced people. In such an era of twisted human nature, insignificant individuals could do anything to avoid disaster, and divorce was nothing.

However, the wife has not agreed. "She told me at the time that we only thought about being apart to be good for each other, and never thought about how good it would be for two people if we were together." When Luo Zhi heard this sentence, she took out her diary and wrote it down earnestly, but Sheng Huainan sighed on the sidelines, it's a pity that too many people are not the ones who can share weal and woe. Luo Zhi and Sheng Huainan are just "too many people". She traveled through more than ten years, left behind the entanglements of the previous generation, broke through the barrier between hearts, and finally became "too many people".

He believes that her love comes from looking up and admiring, so when he feels unworthy, her love also loses color.She only knew that she couldn't use uncertain empty promises to keep him. She only knew that it was good for him to beg Zhu Yan to take him away, so that he could be liked by the whole world again, even if she couldn't meet again. They never imagined what would happen if they really carried it through together. When she finally dared to promise, he was already thousands of miles away, and he would never have the chance to stand up in his yard when he was seventy years old, and handed her a flower tremblingly. She just watched dryly at the door of someone else's house, like a child who couldn't eat candy. "Luo Zhi." She turned her head, and the boy she had been thinking about was standing under the mottled shadow of the tree, with fragments of sunlight on his shirt, and his schoolbag thrown under his feet, looking at her and smiling. Smiling like she never left, like she was dreaming. why are you here. Luo Zhi didn't ask, she was afraid that the answer would be that the flight was cancelled, and she would leave tomorrow. "I'm not leaving." He said. Luo Zhi threw herself into his arms, weeping uncontrollably.He patted her on the back lightly, as if laughing at her losing her composure. She turned her head and saw two old men in the yard looking at them, smiling kindly and encouragingly, but she couldn't control it and cried even more. loudly. "When you asked me what I was doing this year, I didn't dare to answer you. In fact, after my mother recovered from her illness, I went to Zhongguancun to work while preparing for the SAT. A brother I knew always wanted to be with friends. I opened a company specializing in student computers, but my friend went to study for an MBA. I have been helping him for more than half a year, contacting the computer associations of various schools as an intermediary, and recently I plan to help him build a website to try digital products. online sale……" He paused: "However, this kind of thing is too risky, and in my mother's opinion, it is not the right way. Of course, what she thinks is not the main thing. The main thing is that I found that in my heart, I never thought that I was not right. The prestigious schools, scholarships and everything associated with them are now shining brightly. "Actually, your diary is in my hands. I asked for it from that female classmate Ding or something. When I was most sad, I just looked at it, read it one by one, and saw the old self between the lines. Myself, and you. After the application has taken shape, I am very happy, and feel that the person in that diary has returned." He took out the dilapidated notebook that Luo Zhi was very familiar with from his bag. "I think in a few years, I will regain my strength, be an excellent person again, walk on the 'right path', give my mother some confidence, and more importantly, I can have the confidence to show up by your side again, and you will find that everything is right. It hasn't changed, your boyfriend is a person who is popular everywhere he goes." He joked narcissistically, but his eyes were full of sincerity. "But before I got on the plane, I realized that I could never be the person who lives with my cleverness and sense of superiority. More importantly, I hope to be with you. Although I don't want to drag you down, you don't necessarily hate me for dragging you down." you?" Luo Zhi desperately shook her head. "I remember the night before I went to see you, I carried a 24-inch display screen and a main box and walked to Zhongguancun by myself. I was so tired that I was about to collapse, so I stood on the overpass to rest. At that time, I saw the blackness of the intersection and waited. The crowd on the road, the surrounding buildings that have nothing to do with me, suddenly miss you very much. At that time, I thought, no matter what kind of virtue I have now, I must ask you if I would like to..." He stopped and smiled embarrassedly: "I saw you, but changed my mind again, and felt that I was not qualified to accept your expectations for so many years." "What am I expecting?" Luo Zhi suddenly shouted angrily. From the moment this feeling was born deep in the dark heart, all she expected was to be with him.He was Sheng Huainan, the Sheng Huainan who had poured her affection for many years.It was Sheng Huainan who dropped out of school, and it was still Sheng Huainan who became a poor boy. No matter how weak you are, you are still you, and no matter how strong others are, they are still others. She tugged at his collar, tears rolling down her face like she didn't want money. It took Sheng Huainan a long time to say in a difficult voice: "Let me remind you, I have nothing." Luo Zhi smiled. "Fortunately, everything I like is still there." Though she still doesn't know what that "everything" really is. He hugged her gently, and told her about his future plans, saying that Zhu Yan supported his decision, and also agreed to lend him money to let him buy shares, about his thoughts on student computer network sales and campus agency, about his mother I heard that he passed out again after he stopped going to Singapore, saying that his biceps were very strong when he moved the computer... There is no end to the world. Luo Zhi listened contentedly, watching the setting sun disappear at the end of the fence, the sky fell silent, and the cat jumped up and down from the fence. It seems to be able to hear forever. However, the end of time is not an easy task. Bravery and innocence are twin brothers forever. She doesn't know whether the opportunity he gave up will prove their bravery or innocence in the end, but she is willing to believe that when two people are together, they will eventually turn the wrist of fate. After raising all the real sorrows and facing all the objective despair, they are still determined to go on together. No matter how far two pairs of legs can go, the eyes of love are looking forward to eternity from the very beginning. Sheng Huainan noticed Luo Zhi's silence, and asked her worriedly, "What are you thinking?" "I'm thinking about us." Luo Zhi said with a smile.Embracing the diary in her arms that announced her secret to the world and returned after traveling around the world, it was like embracing all the returning teenage years. "I was thinking, if possible, I must run back and tell that lonely girl in high school, don't be sad, grow up quickly, and when you grow up, you will be able to meet me." I am here, and the boy you like is also here. I became a good person, and then pulled him along to become an even better person. Come and find us. (full text)