Chapter 41 Chapter Forty: Remembering Marianne

Luo Zhi heard that Sheng Huainan had dropped out of school, and she never saw him again. As soon as the final exam was over, she went to that law firm for an internship and didn't go home for the whole summer vacation. Because the location of the internship is far from the school and the transportation is inconvenient, she has to get up at six o'clock every morning, put on a little makeup, put on formal clothes on a hot day, step on the high heels that she is not used to, and rush into the crowd like a soldier Like canned sardines, they were transported to Xidan by the subway, and they stepped onto the ground with the turbulent crowd, and saw the light of day again.

It was a completely different life.She has been a student for more than ten years, and she is familiar with all the skills and difficulties.However, from now on, she needs to become another person in a short period of time, with a different way of thinking, a different way of getting along, and everything else. The strange thing is that after studying at school all day, she can still read interesting books at night, but even though she is still leisurely in the office, when she treks all the way back to the dormitory, her head is already swollen, except for mentally handicapped TV series and variety shows Shows, and other activities that activate brain cells do not want to do it.

You may not be able to learn every minute and every second at work, but in the office, directly next to your boss, even if you have nothing to do, your nerves will be tense.Usually, there are trivial things to fill up, including replying "will do (ok)" to every email, which consumes her mind unconsciously. In this way, Luo Zhi, who squeezed through the rush hours of the evening shift and returned to the dormitory, naturally looked like a robot with a leak. This is naturally a great thing for her. She actually relied on the dullness and fatigue brought about by this job to resist the surging memories and wild thoughts.

Zhu Yan reassured her, so she was really relieved.If there was a big rock hanging in my heart, then when it hit the tip of my heart fiercely, I rolled over in pain, but I was at ease, and I no longer needed to raise my head in panic. The internship work did not end until the third year of university. She still went to the law firm three days a week, and she definitely had to work on Saturday and Sunday afternoons.Luo Zhi was taking a double degree course in law, seriously considering whether she should start reviewing for the CPA and bar exams. These two exams are generally recognized as difficult, so it's better for her to prepare early.

Just working overtime like this, I was too busy to be distracted, and I seemed to go back to a year ago in a trance. It's early autumn again, and the persimmon trees overhead are ready for another bumper harvest.Life is reincarnated in such a safe way, and the persimmon tree will never be sad because of the joys and sorrows that have gone down the mountain under the cover of green leaves. Luo Zhi also met Zheng Wenrui when she was in the law double degree course. Luo Zhi didn't understand at first that Sheng Huainan had dropped out of school, why Zheng Wenrui would still appear in this class; after thinking about it, she was relieved that Sheng Huainan might not be the focus of Zheng Wenrui's entire life, even though her attention and understanding of him had already It has reached the level of perversion, but no one can use Sheng Huainan to explain everything about Zheng Wenrui.

Maybe she really came to this double degree out of her original intention, she thought. As the mid-term exam was approaching, Luo Zhi walked to the edge of the podium after class to listen to the professor in the crowd answering questions. A girl squeezed out from inside and bumped into her shoulder fiercely. She was looking up and copying what the professor wrote on the blackboard. Case, no time to look at the girl, hurriedly said: "I'm sorry." "fraud." Luo Zhi lowered her head and copied two words before recovering. When she turned her head to look, Zheng Wenrui's figure had disappeared at the door.Just like when she bumped into that person at the entrance of the supermarket shyly and anxiously, because she wanted to keep up with Sheng Huainan's pace, she also apologized to her without even looking at him.

For some, the same thing happens over and over again, year after year. She called her a liar. At this time, Luo Zhi finally understood the reason why Zheng Wenrui sent her an old email from February on an ordinary night in July. She wanted Luo Zhi to be touched and feel guilty.Because the next day, Luo Zhi would know about Sheng Huainan's loss of his degree. However, Sheng Huainan's disappearance finally fulfilled Zheng Wenrui's inner thoughts.Luo Zhi is a liar, so is Ye Zhanyan, and so is Xu Riqing, everyone is a liar, so people only like Sheng Huainan's glamorous side, only Zheng Wenrui also loves his gloomy hypocrisy and everything he can't bear.

Zheng Wenrui may not get Sheng Huainan, but Zheng Wenrui's love for Sheng Huainan must be 100% number one. While writing quickly in the notebook, Luo Zhi silently paid her dumbfounding respect for her paranoia in her heart. On Singles' Day, Zhang Mingrui invited her out to celebrate the festival together. "Have a meal, and then go sing all night together. There are about sixteen or seven people. It's lively, how about it?" "It's fine to sing all night. I have already promised my roommate to go to KTV to sing together, but there is no problem with eating."

In October, Luo Zhi received an email from Zhang Mingrui. The attachment was a large video file. It took three hours to download it on the fragile campus network. I heard a group of boys screaming and booing, it seems that this video is a gang crime. Then she saw Zhang Mingrui, riding a bicycle with his hands off the handlebars, eating leisurely with a bowl of instant noodles in his hand, every time he struck up a conversation with a girl, the group of buddies behind the video cheered. Knowing that Luo Zhi saw herself in the video, carrying a black schoolbag, looking at Zhang Mingrui on the sidewalk, smiling while watching.

When Zhang Mingrui also saw her, he suddenly tilted his body and sprinkled beef noodles all over his body. Almost all the boys behind the video rushed towards him, and the screen became shaky as they ran. The photographer ran to Zhang Mingrui and faced her. He and the bicycle on the ground took a quick photo, and everyone was screaming and laughing. For a moment, the camera was focused on the sky, and the sudden passing sun made Luo Zhi's eyes shine. Then the picture went black. There is only one sentence in the email: "When I was sorting out my things, I realized that I had seen you a long time ago. I just found out."

Luo Zhi felt overwhelmed, watched that video many, many times, and suddenly had a lot of things she wanted to say to that Luo Zhi from a year ago. But she didn't respond to emails. During the meal, Luo Zhi suddenly felt emotional, no matter how long they were apart or what twists and turns they had experienced, she and Zhang Mingrui would always be able to talk happily in detail, without embarrassment or suspicion, chatting about everything as if nothing had happened. "By the way, I have never understood why boys are so cold about Singles' Day? Are you so afraid of the festival?" "No," Zhang Mingrui shook his head, "I'm not afraid to celebrate this festival." Luo Zhi nodded, and put half a plate of lettuce into the bone broth pot. "I'm afraid that someone is out of season." She froze for a moment, then raised her head. Zhang Mingrui spoke casually, but looked at her seriously. Luo Zhi laughed, and beckoned to the waiter, "Can you help me get some soup?" Zhang Mingrui changed the topic to talk about the popular "Lust, Caution" recently. Originally, he was laughing ghostly, but when Luo Zhi actively and seriously said that he cried while watching it, he couldn't help but retreat, shouting that girls are really perverted. After dinner, Luo Zhi planned to say goodbye to him, but Zhang Mingrui took her to the door of Haagen-Dazs instead. "The first time I invited you to eat, we went to DQ, right?" "That's right, to be precise, DQ is the place I chose, you see how considerate I am." "Then let's make up Haagen-Dazs today. Although everyone says it's from a foreign supermarket, it's really a bit expensive." "What to eat it for, I don't think it tastes better than DQ." "But the brand is so deeply rooted in the hearts of the people," Zhang Mingrui said pretending to be deep, "If you love her, take her to eat Haagen-Dazs." "What?" Luo Zhi smiled, "It's just a slogan." "It may also be a confession." Luo Zhi turned to look at him, Zhang Mingrui's smile faded from the joke at some point.She let out a breath of white air slowly, and at some point, there was no sense of autumn in the suso wind. Winter is coming. Luo Zhi didn't know what to say for a long time, until Zhang Mingrui lowered his head, then raised it quickly, patted her on the shoulder with a laugh and said, "Look, I scared you, I'm teasing you." I am kidding you. When Luo Zhi pushed open the door of the KTV, Jiang Baili pointed at the customers queuing up in the lobby and said, "If sister hadn't planned ahead, you would be one of them now." It's just a reservation for a private room, Luo Zhi scolded, she never thought that Singles' Day would be so popular. Luo Zhi heard that Chen Mohan broke up with Gobi after all. It's not even heard of.Last month, Jiang Baili sat on Luo Zhi's bed and used her laptop to surf the Internet. When she ran out to use the toilet, the computer screen was still on, MSN was full screen, and it was difficult for Luo Zhi to ignore Gobi's words. Thanks to Luo Zhi, on the day Gu Zhiye disappeared, Jiang Baili, who was drunk and drenched in the rain, fell seriously ill, but this time Gobi didn't bring her porridge and side dishes.After recovering from her illness, Belle went to Guizhou to support education during the summer vacation, joined a social organization for AIDS patients in the new semester, and went to a home for the elderly on the outskirts of the city to do volunteer work every Saturday. Luo Zhi once teased her and asked Jiang Baili if she had spread her love to the whole society, but Jiang Baili replied very, very solemnly: "This kind of thing makes me feel at ease." "A grandmother I take care of is already ninety years old. Whenever she has the opportunity, she will show me photos of her wife and tell them about them. I will rehearse the chorus for them, and I will be thanked for every little thing I do for them. Seeing tangible results, you know, I've never had this kind of down-to-earth happiness." Luo Zhi was not usually moved. Although two weeks later, when she was dragged to participate in an AIDS awareness campaign in Dongdan Park, she saw a boy with a happy smile on Jiang Baili's face, causing the other party's tall image in her heart to be discounted by 20%. However, when she learned that she had suspended her studies and decided to spend half a year with a boy to teach in Qinghai, Luo Zhi still agreed.Because she knows that it is not the same thing that Belle learned to smoke and study constellations because of love boredom.The boy has not responded to Jiang Baili so far, but it is definitely not a lie that Belle does not get happiness from helping others. "However, you might as well apply when you are in your senior year. At that time, you can participate in the school's teaching project for one to two years, and you can change to another graduate student. It is very cost-effective." Luo Zhi laughed and teased. "Shallow!" Jiang Baili screamed immediately, smashing everything from the upper bunk to the lower bunk. Therefore, Jiang Baili only responded with four words when Gobi dissuaded Belle on MSN: "I wish you happiness." I wish you happiness. Luo Zhi looked at the overlord's microphone, shouted hoarsely at the girl in Linkin Park, and silently called her name in her heart. Belle. "Although the name is written very ordinary and a bit vulgar, but when you read it, the mouth shape at the end of the word '丽' is very beautiful, like a smile." Luo Zhi remembered that Jiang Baili had explained each other's names in such a frightened manner not long after the first year of freshman year.Although Luo Zhi kept nodding, she still felt a little far-fetched. "And you?" "Me? There is an orange orchard in my mother's hometown. It was originally called Luoju. It was said to be very pleasing, but it was changed by the fortune teller, saying that a humble name is easy to support, so that it can survive the calamity." Jiang Baili asked in a daze: "It's a great feeling, so what's the result?" Luo Zhi was helpless: "I'm not yet nineteen years old, yet you actually asked me for the result." Fortunately, it is not the end. But what about the ending?When Luo Zhi and Jiang Baili tremblingly supported each other across the road to go back to school at four o'clock in the morning that day, seeing the quiet road and the three red lights piercing through the fog, they forced their numb hearts to beat again. Is this the end? Graduate, get a job, make money, find someone similar, get married and have kids. Is this the end? Luo Zhi raised her head to look at the moon in the sky, only to notice that today's moon is also hidden behind a thin cloud, with a faint brilliance like a rainbow emitting from all around. Such a familiar moon. However, what she remembered more clearly was not Sheng Huainan, not the promise, not the kiss, not every word she said that night, not the wind blowing on the fence. It's the moon that disappears suddenly, the missing cloud, and the whereabouts of the cloud. Luo Zhi supported Jiang Baili, who was drinking heavily, and while walking forward with difficulty, she suddenly and softly recited a poem. Like the fear of waking up from a dream that has already woken up.