Chapter 4 3. Is he okay?

In the days without Xiao Yuan, my heart also became empty. I shut myself in the room and listened to music all day long, and sometimes I cried while listening to it. My mother was afraid that I would get bored at home, so she took me for a walk in a nearby park, which caused blisters on her feet. Seeing her soaking her feet at night, I said distressedly: "Mom, let's not go out all the time, I'm fine, really!" Later, I never dared to show any emotions in front of my mother, lest she always worry about me. After another two weeks, the interview unit called me to go to work, and my attention was diverted to some extent, and I stopped stubbornly thinking that Xiao Yuan would come back in the next moment.

On the first day of work, I was very excited. The leader asked me to say a few words to everyone, but I stammered, "I am... honored to be able to work here!" Looking at the many unfamiliar faces around me, I was nervous for a moment, and a thin layer of sweat was secreted all over my body, which was damp and cool, and I couldn't help shivering.I hurriedly bowed, indicating that my speech was over. Xiang Jie, who was also a newcomer, remained calm in front of strangers, and delivered a wonderful speech with a mouth so red and purple.I roughly said that when I first came to Guibao Land, please take care of me, then I introduced some of my advantages, and finally I sang a song for everyone, but the director stopped me, "Comrades still have to work, next time I have a chance just sing!"

I looked at her who was still not happy, and I admired her so much that she was a heroine! Why is there such a big gap between people?Why can't I bravely stand in front of strangers and speak fluently like her? Sticking out his tongue secretly, he concluded that Tian Kele might be socially phobic. There is a driver in the unit, also surnamed Tian, ​​who is young and has a baby face. Everyone calls him Xiaotian.Now that I am here, it would be confusing to call me Xiaotian again, so the director asked, "Do you have another name?" "The police station didn't say to have two names!" I also scratched my head.

"In order to distinguish you from our drivers, everyone will call you Coke in the future." The director's tone of voice was very gentle, without putting on airs, which made a good impression on people, so I just expressed my thoughts directly. "Coke? Wouldn't it be a bit funny. Do you think, if colleagues shout "Coke, Coke" every day, will it feel like entering McDonald's or KFC?" When the director thought about it, he also found it funny, but he was too embarrassed to laugh too much in front of the new subordinates, so he kept holding back a half-smile.

"At home, my mother calls me Coco, if you think it's appropriate, you can call me Xiao Ke!" I suggested. The director thought about it, and felt that the name Xiao Ke was much more elegant than Coke. Afterwards, the director called me Xiao Ke when he saw me, and my colleagues also called out Xiao Ke's name. Forgot my original surname Tian. When I first went to work, because I was afraid that Xiao Yuan would not be able to fall asleep when I was sleeping, I would buy sweet cakes to divert my attention. This trick really worked, but seeing my weight go up, my whole body seemed to be blown up.

Xiang Jie, who entered the unit with me, looked at me puzzled, "Xiao Ke, it's not good for you to ruin your image like this. You came to the unit because of this face, and now you look like a steamed bun. How can you please the leader?" ?” "Before the leaders speak, you have no right to control me!" I have never had any contact with Xiang Jie, and her guard and hostility towards me have always made me feel uncomfortable. I have been waiting for Xiao Yuan's call, and sometimes I pretend to be indifferent and ask my mother: "Is there a classmate calling me?" My mother always shakes her head.

One day when I came home from work, my mother told me that there was a problem with the cable nearby, and the old phone number at home could no longer be used, so she applied for a new one. She wrote the new number on a piece of paper and put it in my bag so I wouldn't forget it. Looking at the brand new combination of numbers, I knew that I would never receive calls from Xiao Yuan again. Sleeping with teddy bears in my arms, my mother would take them away in the middle of the night, "This toy is too old, let's throw it away!" I thought, since Xiao Yuan is gone, it would be futile to keep him.

Going to and from get off work every day, my life has gradually become more regular. I no longer think about Xiao Yuan every day, no longer use those sweets to divert my attention, and I have returned to the original silly girl who loves to talk and laugh. But is everything really as good as before? Why is there always a lingering sense of sadness in my heart in the dead of night... I am not sociable, and I only recognized the names of more than 40 people in my unit after I took a class for one year. The director is good to me, let me be an idler in the office.He occasionally gave me some work, and he didn't hold me accountable for doing good or bad.On the contrary, the section chiefs below often showed disdainful expressions, I just pretended not to see them.

Sometimes, I will be sent out by the unit to hold some boring meetings, because no one wants to go, and young people will be assigned. I am the youngest and easy to talk, so whenever this happens, I bear the brunt of it. For this meeting, I have to live outside for two days, and no one else in the unit is willing to go, so they found me. I smirked, what a beautiful errand, there is food and shelter, and you can play, just go! When it was time for the conference affairs group to report, I obviously got the room card and looked at the house number, "601, Building No. 3." I recited silently, fearing that I would forget, and kept bending three fingers.

But when I got to the gate of 601, I couldn't find the room card, so I went to the service desk with my luggage.The lady at the front desk asked me to provide my ID, otherwise I couldn't open the door for me. When I touched my pocket, even my ID card was gone. Fortunately, the phone and schedule of the conference team are in the bag.So I asked the waiter to call the conference affairs group for me. Finally, someone answered the phone, but said that the person in charge was not there, so I had to sit in the lobby and wait. The hungry Gulu Gulu screamed, but no one from the conference affairs team came over.

I reluctantly took out the small biscuits I carried with me and put them in my mouth piece by piece, "No wonder the leaders don't want to come to this kind of meeting, it's like herding sheep, organized and undisciplined!" I whispered, I knew This is also an excuse not to come! "What is organized and undisciplined? What kind of sheep are herding? What are you mumbling about here?" A familiar voice sounded above my head, and when I looked up, I felt dizzy surprise, "Squad leader!" "It's because you lost your room card and ID card?" Zhang Cheng looked at me and smiled, with long-lost kindness and joy in his eyes. I let out a long sigh of relief, "It's just my bad luck!" He yawned, "Someone is more unlucky than you. After working for two days without closing his eyes, he just fell asleep and was woken up again, saying that a comrade lost his room card and ID card. Tell me, what's the matter?" "The little girl feels extremely guilty for disturbing the squad leader's rest!" Although he said so, he did not show any embarrassment in action. Instead, he laughed and asked him to help me move my luggage to the room. Who made him our omnipotent monitor? I haven't seen him for two years, Zhang Cheng has changed a lot, his lines are clearer, and he is much more handsome. It's strange that there is no strangeness between me and him. "I didn't expect you to work in the Central Government. I haven't heard from you since graduation!" The squad leader saw that I had too much to say, but I protested, "What kind of shit are you doing? You're making people hungry!" He smiled embarrassingly, "Seeing that I was so busy talking, I didn't ask you if you had dinner!" Zhang Cheng took me to the fishing ground. Looking at the delicious food on the table, my eyes glistened, my mouth watered, and I didn’t want to say anything. "It's the squad leader who understands the suffering of the people. The younger one hasn't eaten fishy-smelling food for more than half a year!" I was so excited holding my round stomach. "You know you're poor!" Zhang Cheng didn't eat much, and looked at me patronizingly, maybe my eating appearance frightened him. But, that's not the case, didn't they often sit and eat together when they were in college? So I came to another conclusion: he wasn't hungry at all! "What is this meeting about? If it's really boring, I'll retreat at Midway Island!" I wanted to find out some news from the squad leader. "Energy! Hosted by Xiao Qianguang!" He said while looking at my expression. "Who is Xiao Qianguang?" I asked. He paused, lit a cigarette, "Energy has something to do with everyone!" "Since when did you smoke?" I remember that the squad leader didn't smoke! "I've been smoking it all the time!" He took a puff of smoke, saw my frown, and quickly extinguished it, "You don't know Xiao Qianguang?" "Is he the chairman of the country? When was it changed? Why didn't anyone notify me?" I laughed and joked with him. "He is the Minister of Land and Resources and Xiao Yuan's father!" The squad leader's last sentence made me stunned on the spot. Xiao Yuan, as soon as this name hidden deep in his heart was mentioned, a lot of sadness emerged. It has been more than two years, and during these long days, although there is no contact, the thoughts in my heart are not missing. How is he? Seeing that I hadn't said anything for a long time, Zhang Cheng asked softly, "Have you forgotten him?" "Does it mean that you can forget it if you forget it? My first love!" I twisted my face so that I wouldn't look too pale. "This meeting, he will follow." The squad leader looked at me seriously.