Chapter 3 2. That day I knew you were leaving

The first time I dated Xiao Yuan was in the lotus pond of Q University. One summer afternoon, I was sitting by the lotus pond watching the green lotus leaves dancing in the wind, Xiao Yuan was watching me from the side. He was holding a half-drunk bottle of iced Coke in his hand, looking at me and at it, as if thinking about something. I smiled at him and said, "Don't associate me with this drink!" Xiao Yuan thought for a long time, then said awkwardly: "I think you are indeed similar to this drink." "Xiao Yuan." I meant to warn him to shut up. But he ignored me and continued: "Look at this color, it's like your dark brown eyes, clear and crystal clear; and this smell is like your dimple when you smile, very sweet..."

He deliberately shook the bottle, and a lot of air bubbles were generated in the bottle, rising and accumulating, rushing towards the mouth of the bottle. Xiao Yuan looked at me and smiled, "You know? You feel like this bubble, happy, happy, warm, sweet... People can't help but want to get close and share your emotions." I opened my mouth wide and almost dropped my tongue. It turned out that Xiao Yuan was praising me! "Hehe, keep talking." These words were so sweet, I couldn't help feeling light. "Stupid, the cutest thing about you is that you don't know how cute you are!" Xiao Yuan said, pointing my nose.

"Criticism again!" is a far cry from those complicated Coke theories. Seeing Xiao Yuan and I sitting together eating, Zhang Cheng shouted in shock: "You two still have time to eat here?" "Eat when you're hungry, what do you want to have a leisurely time?" I wondered what frightened the squad leader, so the words didn't convey the meaning. "The whole school is rumored that Xiao Yuan and you..." "What happened to Xiao Yuan and me? This is not very good, there is neither a cold war nor a hot war." "The whole school is spreading the word—Xiao Yuan is chasing you!" Zhang Cheng said tentatively.

"There's nothing wrong with that, do you think it's normal to tell me that I'm chasing Xiao Yuan?" I asked the monitor back. Zhang Cheng froze for a moment, "Could it be true?" "Of course it's true!" Xiao Yuan said firmly. Walking with Xiao Yuan almost won the envy and jealousy of all the girls in the school. Someone even came to my door and questioned me: "Why are you with Xiao Yuan?" "You have to ask Xiao Yuan this question." I'm not good at dealing with this sudden accusation, and I always kick the ball to him.

Of course, there were people who were dissatisfied with Xiao Yuan, and they came to me, "Tian Kele, why did you fall in love with Xiao Yuan? How am I inferior to him?" When encountering such people, Xiao Yuan is always angry and anxious, pointing at them and shouting: "Please go and look in the mirror first!" Xiao Yuan waited for me to have dinner with Zhang Cheng after class as usual. Zhang Cheng muttered something to Xiao Yuan while walking, and both of them laughed.I couldn't help but blush when I heard it from behind. I knew they were talking about the basic law class.

In fact, I can't blame me for this matter. It is really because the teacher's talk is too hypnotic, and I fell asleep unconsciously. I can swear that no less than one-third of the class is sleeping, but the old professor just picked me up and said, "Tian Kele, explain what the Miranda Declaration is all about?" I am truly unlucky Egg. Didn't attend class at all, God only knows what the Miranda Declaration is all about! I racked my brains and thought about it, but I still don't know what to say. Behind me, Zhang Cheng kicked my chair and whispered how many pages there were. I stood there for a long time, feeling upset, so I turned around and said to Zhang Cheng, "Enough is enough, I have the right to remain silent!"

The old professor took off his glasses and looked at me carefully, "That's right, I know how to apply what I have learned!" Zhang Cheng laughed first, and then the whole class laughed. I hate Zhang Cheng, it's okay to laugh enough, why are you still talking to Xiao Yuan?Let him laugh at me too. "You didn't see the old professor's expression at that time, his small eyes almost popped out, and he kept praising Coke as a model for applying what he learned." Zhang Cheng was already laughing so much that his stomach hurt, but it didn’t stop. Xiao Yuan took my hand and said proudly: "Our Coke is a baby!"

I shook off Xiao Yuan's clutches with all my might, gritted my teeth and said, "I'm in a hurry with whoever is called Coke!" The first time I quarreled with Xiao Yuan was because of Zhang Cheng. Our class organized an autumn outing and lived in a farm outside the school for two days. When I arrived at the farm on the first day, everyone went to pick. I was surrounded by wasps in the orchard. Zhang Cheng saved me despite the danger, but he himself was stung several times. Everyone played cards all night at night, and his hands and arms hurt, so he couldn't play together, and he couldn't sleep well even if everyone quarreled.

So, I went to chat with him in his room. After returning to school, Xiao Yuan somehow found out about it, and asked me what Zhang Cheng and I had talked about without hesitation.Why are you talking so late? What made me angry was not the questions he asked, but that he actually asked his classmates to look at me. Could it be that he has no confidence in me? I rolled his eyes at him, curled my lips and said, "Want to know? I have nothing to say here!" At noon, because I was angry with Xiao Yuan, I sat down with the class monitor Zhang Cheng and ate together, telling jokes while eating.

"Squad leader, I should give you ten yuan so that you can buy something yourself if you want to eat?" I teased him. The ten-dollar joke was told by a boy in the class when we went to the farm to visit the pig farm, and it went something like this: At that time, I joked with my classmates who told jokes, "Since this is the case, why don't you hurry up and give the class monitor ten yuan and let him buy what he wants to eat!" Among the girls in the class, I have the best relationship with Zhang Cheng, so I dare to joke without scruples.Of course, there are reasons for Xiao Yuan in this relationship, after all, Xiao Yuan and Zhang Cheng have always been like brothers.

It is precisely because of this joke that the allusion of "ten yuan" circulated in the class. Seeing that I was talking poorly to him, Zhang Cheng tapped my dinner plate with his chopsticks and said, "While playing, it's all your fault. Let everyone who sees me give me money!" Of course Xiao Yuan, who was sitting opposite, didn't know what I was having fun with Zhang Cheng, so he took his plate and left angrily. Xiao Yuan stopped going to our class for self-study, and he didn't eat with me and Zhang Cheng after class. At first, we all felt that it didn't matter, but after a long time, we couldn't bear it. If you like someone in your heart, how can you tolerate him turning a blind eye to you? Zhang Cheng and I moaned and complained: "I really pissed off Xiao Yuan!" Zhang Cheng played his basketball and didn't care about what I said at all, "If you get angry, you will get angry. If he can endure it for a week, he won't be Xiao Yuan." "What if he can bear it?" I was quite afraid that Xiao Yuan would ignore me just like that. "If you can bear it, you can bear it! He ignores you, why don't we make do?" Zhang Cheng deliberately teased me. "Squad leader!" I yelled at him, "Let those fans of yours hear me, they will hunt me down!" Zhang Cheng hugged the basketball helplessly, "Then I can't help it!" Xiao Yuan could really bear it, and ignored me for a week. Seeing that I couldn't sit still, Zhang Cheng said, "I'll invite Xiao Yuan to dinner tonight, do you want to come?" Of course, how could such a good opportunity be missed. The monitor for that meal didn't show up at all, and when I went, I only saw Xiao Yuan ordering food by himself. After the two finished their meal awkwardly, Xiao Yuan took my hand and said, "Tonight is the first time I am in the mood to eat." "why?" "You ignore me!" "It's you who ignored me, right?" He was obviously the one who was angry with me, but he actually said that I ignored him. After a meal, I reconciled with Xiao Yuan, and when I came back, I was still wondering, "Obviously the squad leader said please eat, why didn't he come by himself?" "What's the matter with him? I told him to say that!" Xiao Yuan laughed wickedly. "Really, use our monitor!" I feel sorry for Zhang Cheng. In order to thank the class monitor for allowing me to reconcile with Xiao Yuan, I was thinking about what gift to give him, and Zhang Cheng's birthday is coming soon, so many students in the class remember to celebrate his birthday for him, it's hard to ignore it. At that time, cross-stitch was just popular, and I chose a teddy bear mobile phone chain to practice, but Xiao Yuan laughed at me for embroidering black bears instead of teddy bears. "A teddy bear is far from a black bear!" I yelled at him with my neck straight. "Okay, it's a teddy bear!" Xiao Yuan finally admitted, "However, please help me embroider a black bear in the future!" Dare to say that my embroidery skills are not good enough, I was angry, looked at Xiao Yuan and said: "I see you look like a black bear after plastic surgery, why do you need me to embroider!" At that time, Zhang Cheng helped the school organize a school-wide plush toy sale, selling teddy bears. Pulling Xiao Yuan and looking at it together for a long time, looking at the fluffy teddy bear toy, I realized that the embroidery I did not really look like. "What? Do you like it?" Xiao Yuan asked me. "Hehe, Xiao Yuan, why don't we buy a collection? This little thing is so fun." Seeing that I like it, Xiao Yuan hurriedly asked Zhang Cheng, "How do you sell this bear?" When Zhang Cheng saw me and Xiao Yuan, he rolled his eyes and said, "Others buy a sixty-one set, but Coke only needs to pay the monitor three kisses." "Fulfill your spring and autumn dream!" Xiao Yuan was almost in a hurry with Zhang Cheng. I grabbed Xiao Yuan and said, "It's just three kisses, I bought something, monitor, you should keep the account first, and you can just ask Xiao Yuan later!" Xiao Yuan looked at Zhang Cheng with a half-smile, "Fight with our Coca-Cola, you're still young!" Xiao Yuan and I walked away with the teddy bear in our arms, grabbing the teddy bear as we walked, "Baby bear wants to sleep with me!" Four years of university passed by in a hurry. When I sat on the school playground with Xiao Yuan and Zhang Cheng and looked back at the past, I felt that everything seemed like yesterday. The days of singing together, watching movies together, eating together, and studying together have just passed away, leaving only fragments of memory. Perhaps one day in the future, on a sudden whim, I will cut, copy, and paste again, and then make up the silhouettes of those times that belonged to us. Both Xiao Yuan and Zhang Cheng looked at me, "What are your plans for graduation?" I giggled, "Looking for a job! How about you?" Xiao Yuan's eyes were flickering, but he quickly turned to the sky, "In July, the sky will be bluer than now, right?" Zhang Cheng threw him with the beer can he had just emptied, "What are you thinking, you?" Xiao Yuan stood up, took my hand and said, "Go, run around twice!" Then, the figures of the three of us separated one by one on the 400-meter standard runway, and no one caught up with the other! When graduating, Xiao Yuan chose to go abroad for further studies. I worked harder and passed the national civil servant exam. On the day of the exam, Xiao Yuan was going through the formalities for going abroad. I helped him copy various documents and materials, but he was late.If the invigilator was not so talkative, I probably wouldn't be able to enter the examination room. The squad leader knocked on my head and said indisputably: "You just mess around, why haven't you made any progress for so many years?" "Who says it's not long? I was 1.65 meters when I was a freshman, and now I'm 1.68 meters. If you don't believe me, you can measure it with a ruler!" Rebutting confidently, the squad leader was so angry that I almost vomited blood, so he had no choice but to walk away. When I received the civil service examination results, Xiao Yuan's admission letter also arrived. He said he invited me to eat boiled mutton, and the two of us ate six plates of meat in one sitting. Xiao Yuan said, "You can eat so well, who can afford you in the future?" I was taken aback for a moment, and then laughed, "My mother said that she will support me for the rest of my life!" "Stupid, that's just talking!" Xiao Yuan laughed at me. "It's true, she can't leave me!" How could my mother live without me?She divorced my dad, and brought me up alone, and I was her reliance, her lifeblood. "One day, you will leave her and have your own home!" Xiao Yuan said seriously. I dare not think so far into the future. "On the day you left, I happened to have an interview, so I won't send you off!" Xiao Yuan kept silent, hugged my shoulders tightly, "I won't go, stay with you!" "I don't need it, and I'm not a child, do I need someone to accompany me?" I got rid of his restraint. "But, I want to be with you very much!" He kissed my cheek. All this time, he only kissed my cheek. "Why don't you kiss me on the lips?" I asked him. "I'm afraid that once I kiss your lips, I won't be able to leave! I just want to stay by your side for the rest of my life!" He said faintly. "You can't, you have wings, and you will fly sooner or later!" I held his hand tightly and didn't dare to let go, for fear that if I didn't pay attention, he would never appear in front of me again. He brushed away my cold fingers, turned his head and took out a small square box from his satchel, "Open it when you get home!" There is a sandalwood piano model in the small box, which is delicate and delicately carved, and it is also a precious thing. This model has been with me for a long time, watching my love with Xiao Yuan. On the day Xiao Yuan left, it was raining heavily. After the interview in the morning, I took a taxi and hurried to the airport, and the flight had already taken off. Even though I knew he wouldn't wait for me, I was still disappointed. He was reluctant to take a taxi back. Poor students didn’t have much money, so they could only wait for the airport bus. Because they didn’t bring an umbrella, they ran around the airport looking for a car. Sitting in the bus, through the car window, looking at the chaos between the world and the earth in the distance, my heart is also confused, humming an old song in a daze: When I got home, I told my mother: "Thanks to you, you have made me a little more beautiful, and I have done well in the interview. Waiting for the notification to go to work!" My mother saw that I was drenched in the rain, and quickly took a towel to help me wipe it. Before I could dry it off, I had a high fever—39°8. This was the first time in my life that I had such a high temperature, which made me, who was not very smart, even more confused. I don't know how much medicine I took, how much sweat I sweated, how many times I fell asleep and woke up, and woke up and slept again. My mother has been watching me, talking to me, nagging, endlessly. This is my mother, who loves me unconditionally, thinks of me wholeheartedly, pays for me wholeheartedly, and does everything for me. I always feel that Xiao Yuan has not left, but is still in this city. Maybe tomorrow, maybe the day after tomorrow, he will appear in front of me again, with a bright smile on his face, like a clear sky in July. However, when I was sober, I realized that all this was my fantasy. Xiao Yuan left, took my heart with me, walked to the ends of the world, to a place I can never see again. Every time I think of this, I fall asleep again and don't want to wake up. Xiao Yuan called, but I didn't answer any of them. I just vaguely heard my mother say to him: "Aren't you at home, I went on a trip with my classmates... come back? I don't know."