Chapter 17 Chapter Seventeen

After that quarrel, Li Ya restrained a lot: during the day when Sun Wan went to work, she would sleep with her head covered like a vampire; at night when Sun Wan came back, she would nestle on the sofa and watch a movie.Like a severe narcissist, she spent most nights watching Abigale, which she starred in, over and over again. Between watching movies, she would occasionally talk to Sun Wan, and the topics mostly revolved around the marriage between Sun Wan and Zhuo Lincheng. Sun Wan didn't want to expose her scars, and most of the time she just mentioned them vaguely.But it didn't take long for Li Ya to piece together the truth of the matter from her fragmented answers.She searched for Yu Xiaofei's photos on the Internet, looked at a few with a blank face, and said flatly: "Don't be stupid, Zhuo Lincheng doesn't like this one."

Sun Wan glanced at her sensitively, "How do you know?" Li Ya lit a cigarette and puffed greedily, "You are his wife, and you don't even know what he likes, no wonder you got divorced." Sun Wan looked down at the computer keyboard and remained silent for a long time. By the way, Li Ya found the "bed photo" of that day, zoomed in on it, and suddenly poked the screen a few times, "There is a problem, your husband seemed to be drugged that night." Sun Wan looked up at her, her expression froze a little bit, "What." Li Ya zoomed in on the photo again, pointed at Zhuo Lincheng's neck, "Look carefully, there are many red rashes here."

Sun Wan has always kept this photo of the bed secret, and has never looked at it since she glanced at it that day. Now that she is speaking seriously, she can't help but move closer to the screen and look intently.The light in the photo is very dim, if you hadn't looked closely like this, you wouldn't have noticed that there was really a strange rash on Zhuo Lincheng's neck. "This is a typical drug allergy. He has no allergies, how could he have such a rash." Sun Wan stared at the photo thoughtfully, trying to recall Zhuo Lincheng's appearance that day.But apart from the content of the quarrel that day, she couldn't even remember his face at that time, let alone whether he had allergic symptoms on his neck.

"I saw with my own eyes that someone drank red wine mixed with hallucinogens, and immediately got this kind of rash." Li Ya sucked the remaining cigarette into her cavity, squinted her eyes and slowly exhaled, "People in the entertainment circle, Where can't you get something like this? You've been tricked." Sun Wan glanced at her sensitively, as if wondering where she got so much knowledge of the "dark system", "What will happen if she is really drugged?" Li Ya smiled strangely, "It may be promiscuity, or it may be coma. If it is the former, your husband should remember something, but if it is the latter, he will lose a small piece of memory instead."

Seeing that Sun Wan frowned and said nothing, Li Ya added another sentence: "You are too ignorant, you can find out this matter as long as you go to the hospital for a blood test the next day. I guess you are rushing to play the Qiong Yao drama that day Yeah, never thought about it at all." Sun Wan thought about everything before and after, and gradually became convinced, "If he is really drugged, will there be any sequelae?" "It's okay once or twice. If you use it in large quantities for a long time, you will get mental illness." Li Ya twisted her mouth and made a grimace while talking, "It will change like this in the future."

Sun Wan laughed with a complicated mood, "It looks like a ghost!" Li Ya yawned, "If this matter is false, there is probably something wrong with the child's matter. You should find a chance to reconcile with Zhuo Lincheng." Sun Wan was a little puzzled, "Isn't that right? You used to want to find fault with him, but now that he has a moral crisis, why do you bother to help him make up for it?" Li Ya lazily stood up, walked to the bathroom, and half-truthfully said: "You two are separated like this, what good is there for me? You two are reconciled, and he still has to hold a lot of RMB to curry favor with my sister-in-law."

"It turns out that you have already sold me to pieces!" Sun Wan said half ashamed and half annoyed. "Think whatever you like." After speaking, Li Ya slammed the bathroom door shut. Sun Wan was no longer in the mood for work, she stood up from her chair and wandered around the room without thinking.Her brain was spinning at high speed, guessing, proving, and counter-proving non-stop.It wasn't until her brain was almost overwhelmed by various inferences that she forced herself to calm down, and then called Zhou Ya. Zhou Ya's husband is a well-known private doctor in the city, maybe she should meet him and let him testify to what Li Ya just said.

After receiving Zhou Ya's reply "My husband is at home, welcome to visit", Sun Wan hurriedly shut down the phone and put the notebook in a bag.The moment he turned the doorknob, he suddenly wondered whether he should also call Li Ya.Thinking of Li Ya, she glanced at the still closed door of the bathroom, and glanced at her watch in surprise: She actually stayed in the bathroom for forty minutes! Sun Wan walked to the door of the bathroom and knocked, teasingly said, "Li Ya, you must be breaking out of prison." Seeing that there was no sound inside, Sun Wan said again: "Could it be that you have already crawled along the pipe to the opposite building."

At this time, Li Ya's voice in the bathroom said faintly: "Go to hell with you." Sun Wan was not in the mood to bother her anymore, "I have something to go out, you stay by yourself." After that, she hurriedly walked out the door. Zhou Ya's home is not far away, Sun Wan soon met Zhou Ya's husband Chen Zheng.It was already abrupt to come to the door at night, so Sun Wan stopped being polite and explained the matter concisely, then turned on the computer, enlarged the photo and asked him to verify it. Chen Zheng lowered his glasses, looked down at the photo, and at a glance, he let out a surprise.

Seeing his gaze on Yu Xiaofei's face, Sun Wan couldn't help but wonder, "You know her." Chen Zheng hesitated for a moment, but still admitted: "I've been doing pregnancy health care for her recently." Sun Wan smiled wryly, "The world is really too small." Zhou Ya brought Sun Wan freshly brewed black tea, "What are you talking about?" As she said that, she bent down to look at the computer screen, saw Yu Xiaofei's bed photo, and looked at Sun Wan in surprise, "You don't want to do such a deep investigation on the guests, do you?"

Sun Wan regretted that she took out the bed photo rashly without doing something about it, and she said awkwardly, "It has nothing to do with Ms. Yu." Zhou Ya looked at Zhuo Lincheng for a while, then hesitated to say: "This gentleman is very kind..." Sun Wan pursed her lips and said awkwardly, "This is my husband." Zhou Ya covered her lips and smiled awkwardly, "Is that so. I remembered that he always seemed to be waiting for you near the company some time ago." Seeing that she was obstructing their conversation here, Zhou Ya said empathetically, "I'll go to the kitchen to look at the soup, you two can talk slowly." After Zhou Ya left, Chen Zheng zoomed in on the picture and took a serious look at the strange rash on Zhuo Lincheng's neck.After a long time, he carefully said: "It seems to be caused by drug allergies, but I can't say that the allergens are hallucinogens. Does your husband have a history of allergies?" "No." Sun Wan said firmly. "That doesn't rule out the possibility that he took some kind of unconventional drug." Chen Zheng answered carefully. Sun Wan sat back on the sofa in disappointment and stared blankly for a while.Seeing that she couldn't get a definite answer from Chen Zheng, she thanked her repeatedly and took her leave. Seeing that it was late, Zhou Ya did not force her to stay, but insisted on driving her back.In the car, Zhou Ya changed her graceful attitude at home, and sympathetically scolded Yu Xiaofei for being a shameless mistress, but she was even more excited than Sun Wan, the person involved. One day, Sun Wan was proofreading the blue paper when Zhuo Lincheng suddenly called and asked her to accompany him to the hospital to see his sister-in-law who had just given birth to a daughter. Since he asked everyone to be quiet a month ago, he hasn't shown up again, and he seldom even calls.Sun Wan once thought that he was going to withdraw from her life completely, but a brief phone call brought each other back to the original track - they still had obligations to each other. After Sun Wan asked which hospital the sister-in-law was in, she replied, "I'll take a taxi there when I get home and change my clothes." "I'll pick you up from your side." Before Sun Wan could answer, Zhou Ya put a stack of materials on her desk, "Sister Mei asked you to help her finish the soft announcement of 'The Peony Pavilion' before next week, she said that it is best to learn from the modern cultural significance of Yuan Opera cut in." Sun Wan didn't care about Zhuo Lincheng's call, so she answered casually and hung up hastily.She roughly flipped through the materials Zhou Ya brought, and then went to the personnel department to ask for leave. When she got home, Sun Wan saw that the bedroom door was still closed, she couldn't help shaking her head and sighing. She threw the bento she bought for Li Ya on the dining table, and pushed open the bedroom door, "Sleepy...cough, cough!" The bedroom door was opened, and a pungent smoke rushed towards Sun Wan's face. While fanning the smoke with her hands, Sun Wan said angrily, "I told you not to stay in the bedroom..." What Sun Wan hadn't finished speaking was stuck abruptly, as if someone had choked her throat.She opened her eyes wide and stared in horror at the scene in front of her - Li Ya lay crookedly and limply on the smoky bed, trembling all over, her chest heaving sharply, as if she was indulging in some extreme excitement.Her jaw was raised high, her mouth wide open and shut like a goldfish.Her black pupils were clearly facing Sun Wan, but she turned her eyes upwards continuously, revealing a large and terrifying white of her eyes. Sun Wan's eyes slowly moved to the bedside table, where methamphetamine, lighters, and tin foil were scattered... She took a step back, then took another step, and softly hit the refrigerator behind her.She tightly covered her lips, as if pressing on a wound that was about to bleed.Moments later, hot tears and cold sweat rolled down her face.She stumbled out of the living room like a ghost, and locked the door from the outside. She leaned against the door panel, panting like drowning, and instinctively took out the phone, but she didn't know where to call, so she could only hold the phone tightly. At this moment, there was a ding sound from the elevator entrance, and Sun Wan was so frightened that she looked over there in panic. Seeing Zhuo Lincheng coming out of the elevator, she felt that the world that was falling apart suddenly stabilized, despairing and panicking , Pain burst out from the bottom of my heart as if I had found a breakthrough. She stumbled and ran in front of Zhuo Lincheng, and suddenly stretched out her arms to hug him, threw herself into his arms and wailed, "What should I do? What should I do." The mobile phone in her hand fell to the ground, and she grabbed his clothes tightly, as if she had just woken up from a nightmare, crying in despair while asking the phrase "what should I do" over and over again. Zhuo Lincheng hugged her falling body tightly, kissed the tears on her face in a panic, and asked nervously: "Wan Wan, what happened." "Yaya... Yaya is taking drugs!" She clenched her trembling teeth and squeezed out the words. Zhuo Lincheng gasped, "Li Ya is back? Is she with you? Does she take drugs? Does she smoke marijuana?" Sun Wan nodded vigorously, then shook her head vigorously, "It's methamphetamine!" Hearing this, Zhuo Lincheng's expression suddenly changed, "How long has it been?" Sun Wan whimpered and said, "It's been a month since she came back, and I haven't noticed at all! I'm simply the most stupid person in the world!" Zhuo Lincheng reached out to support her shoulder, "Don't be afraid, it will be fine. I promise you, no matter what the cost, I will help her quit drug addiction." Sun Wan hugged him tightly with trembling lips, and it took a long time before she calmed down. Zhuo Lincheng slowly let go of her, wiped away the tears and sweat on her face, and took the key chain hanging on her index finger, "I'll go in and have a look, you wait for me outside." Sun Wan nodded mechanically, suddenly grabbed his hand with both hands, and looked at him pleadingly. Zhuo Lincheng patted her hand, "Don't worry, I know how to deal with it." Sun Wan stood where she was, watching him open the door and enter the room, her tightly clenched hands were unconsciously covered with a layer of cold sweat.She moved her footsteps, but did not dare to step forward.At this moment, she admitted her cowardice, unable to muster the courage to go in and face Li Ya, she could only pin all her hopes on Zhuo Lincheng. Their conversation came intermittently through the half-covered door of the living room, and Sun Wan listened intently, holding her breath, the passage of time slowed down, and the dull air weighed heavily on her heart like a big stone. After an unknown amount of time, the sound of things falling to the ground, Li Ya's screams, and the sound of chasing and tearing suddenly came from the room.Sun Wan couldn't control it anymore, rushed to the door quickly, and pushed the door open vigorously, only to see Li Ya with disheveled hair was tightly held in front of her by Zhuo Lincheng's arms behind her back, Li Ya screamed, struggled, Kicking and beating, completely disregarding the possible harm to each other's bodies. The moment she saw Sun Wan, she didn't know where the strength came from, and suddenly broke free with one hand, and reached towards Sun Wan, she struggled violently, and begged with a distorted expression: "You save me, I won't go to the drug rehabilitation center !I'd rather die than go to rehab!" Sun Wan was so frightened by her demon-like hideousness that her scalp was numb, she stepped forward hesitantly, and held her cold, curled right hand tightly, "Yaya, calm down, we won't hurt you." Li Ya cried hysterically: "No! I can't bear that kind of suffering, you are killing me!" Sun Wan held her hand, looked up at Zhuo Lincheng, "Lincheng, is there no other way?" Zhuo Lincheng paused, "It's not that there is no other way, but sending her to a drug rehabilitation center is the best choice." Li Ya stiffened her neck and moaned in despair: "No, if I go there, my future will be over! Zhuo Lincheng, I beg you, for the sake of the past, let me survive." As the excitement brought about by the drug gradually subsided, Li Ya's resistance weakened a little bit, she stopped struggling, and her knees slid limply towards the ground. Zhuo Lincheng pulled her up from the ground, brought her to the sofa and pressed her down.He took a deep breath, wiped off the sweat dripping from his forehead, "I just want to save you!" Li Ya leaned back on the sofa exhausted, and murmured threateningly: "I will commit suicide as soon as I enter the drug rehabilitation center, and I will make you live in nightmares for the rest of your life..." Zhuo Lincheng's face changed slightly - he and Sun Wan had already had Yu Xiaofei's nightmare, and there must be no more such a haze.He pursed his lips, settled his mind, and said angrily: "Who made you willing to degenerate and walk on the road to death? Now half your life has been buried in the gate of hell. If you want to come back, you have to work hard to live." Climb on the road!" Sun Wan gently tugged at his arm, reminding him not to irritate Li Ya with aggressive words.She took out a cup of hot milk from the takeaway bag on the table, handed it to Li Ya, and said softly: "Yaya, be obedient, endure for a year and a half, come out and start a new life, okay?" Li Ya waved the milk in her hand, and sneered resolutely, "I know better than you whether I have a chance to be a new person. Let me say it again, if you insist on sending me to a drug rehabilitation center, you will immediately become the one who drives me to death." murderer." Her venomous words were like a gust of cold wind blowing through the hearts of the two of them.The room suddenly fell silent, and the three fell into a silent confrontation. After a long time, Sun Wan silently brought a wet towel from the bathroom, leaned over to wipe off the embarrassment on Li Ya's face, and straightened her disheveled hair.In the end, she made a compromise, "Lincheng, I can resign and take care of her at home." "No, I don't agree." Zhuo Lincheng flatly refused. "Otherwise, what else can I do? Just watch her die." Zhuo Lincheng silently sat down on the sofa at the side, resting his forehead wearily, "Once her drug addiction kicks in, you can't control her at all." Sun Wan squatted down in front of him, put her head on his knee lightly, her face was ashen, "Lincheng, I can only do this." Zhuo Lincheng finally discovered that there are things in this world that he can't do anything about.He sighed, and reached out to stroke her hair, "You come home with me, and I'll arrange someone to come here to take care of her twenty-four hours a day." So far, this is the best compromise they can think of.Sun Wan closed her eyes and nodded silently. After Sun Wan moved back home, Zhuo Lincheng hired a retired female soldier and a drug rehabilitation expert to take care of Li Ya with a high salary.In order to ensure that Sun Wan's mental health is not affected, Zhuo Lincheng only allows her to visit Li Ya once a week, and it must be after Li Ya's drug addiction has passed. When Sun Wan went to see Li Ya for the first time, as soon as Li Ya heard her voice, she cursed at the top of her voice.She is like the most obscene woman in the market, insulting her and Zhuo Lincheng with extremely dirty and filthy words.Until the nurse who took care of her couldn't listen anymore, she stuffed her mouth with a cloth strip. Looking back a week later, Li Ya has lost the power to curse.Through the bedroom door, she kept banging her head against the door panel, begging Sun Wan to let her out, or give her some "white goods". When I went to see her for the third time, she seemed to have passed the most difficult time. Instead of insulting or begging, she kept Sun Wan in the name of chatting, and told her the whole process of taking drugs: her Under the coaxing of her Jewish boyfriend who is a drug addict, she tried marijuana lightly.She claimed to be sober, and hadn't touched that thing for a long time.But after Abigale started filming, she found that the crew she was in, from the director to a small actor, had the habit of playing this.Sometimes while filming, the director would suddenly call it a day, take out the hookah, and ask the main creators to smoke it together.She originally thought that this was just a common problem of B-grade movie crews, but after a few crews, she found that most people in the film and television circle were playing this in a grandiose manner, as if it was no different from cigarettes and chewing gum. As the film progressed, after the director asked her to go to the red light district to find inspiration, he suggested that she get some real marijuana while acting.She refused, and was scolded by the director for "not fitting in".The director pointedly pointed out that it is because of this "anachronism" that Asian talents will never break into the mainstream of Western culture. Because she cared too much about this movie and wanted to prove herself too much, after weighing the pros and cons, she accepted the proposal.Later, marijuana became a pastime in her spare time. After getting used to marijuana, Li Ya lost her fear of drugs.She even thought that the propaganda about the dangers of drugs was false and exaggerated.She no longer resisted the "high-end goods" her boyfriend gave her, and it didn't take long before she changed from passive acceptance to active demand, and then became a prisoner of drugs without accident. "After I got addicted, I quit. I kept quitting, but I really couldn't quit. Before the movie was released, he dumped me and cut off the investment in promotion and distribution. I stayed in Los Angeles for a few months and saved The money ran out quickly. When I was addicted to drugs, I even sold myself once. After waking up, I knew it would be the end of the game and I had to go back to China. After all, the law and order in China is better than that in Los Angeles, and the risk factor is much lower. " When Li Ya said this, Sun Wan's heart seemed to be bleeding.Tales like this are corny, but when they fall on someone close, corny tales become allegorical parables. At the end, Li Ya suddenly begged in a low voice: "Old Sun, I'm so lonely. Come in and let me see you, even if it's just for one glance." Sun Wan immediately reached out to unlock the door, but was pushed away by the female nurse watching them, "It's dangerous, you can't go in!" Sun Wan broke free from her stubbornly, "Let me go in and have a look at her. She is a human being, not a beast, let alone a devil! She also has emotional appeals!" The female nurse from a military background is naturally more stubborn than her, "You can't be so self-righteous!" When the two were at a stalemate, Li Ya's heartbroken sobs came from behind the door again.The cry broke through Sun Wan's defenses like a magic voice, and she unreasonably opened the nurse's fingers, "This is not in the army, you are not following the command of the commander. Please respect my wishes. Because he paid Half of your salary is mine!" Such words already carried some insulting meaning.The female nurse finally let go of her hand and slowly retreated behind Sun Wan. After winning the tug-of-war, Sun Wan couldn't wait to unlock the door, pushed the door in and said, "Yaya, are you feeling better?" At this moment, Li Ya, who was hiding behind the door, rushed towards her, but Sun Wan couldn't dodge it, and was thrown to the ground by her, hitting the back of her head heavily on the hard ground.Li Ya straddled her body, showing a piece of sharpened ceramic tile with a ferocious face, stabbing viciously at Sun Wan's neck. Not one second earlier, not one second late, at the moment when the porcelain piece was about to pierce Sun Wan's artery, the female nurse restrained Li Ya.She lifted Li Ya from the ground effortlessly, threw her back on the chair, and quickly tied her up with a leather rope. She approached slowly, and said to Sun Wan who was still in shock, "See? Don't talk about humanity with a drug addict!" At the same time, there was the sound of Li Ya's teeth chattering behind her, and her addicted screaming: "It's cold! It hurts! Give me medicine! Give me medicine!" The female nurse ruthlessly pulled the pale Sun Wan up and led her out of the bedroom, "Please go out now!" Sun Wan turned around without saying a word, and left in embarrassment. Sun Wan returned home in a daze, and saw Zhuo Lincheng reading a book in front of the French window, feeling inexplicably sad and inexplicably angry. She walked quickly to the wine cabinet, took out a bottle of strong brandy from it, poured a large glass into her mouth. Seeing this, Zhuo Lincheng put down his book, walked behind her, and reached for the wine bottle in her hand. Sun Wan pushed him away coldly, "Go away!" Zhuo Lincheng frowned, "What's wrong with you?" His expression and the subtle word "again" aroused Sun Wan's anger. She poured the wine for herself with shaking hands, swallowed it recklessly, and then put the glass on the bar table with a snap, "The whole world is here!" You made me miserable, but you hid here to enjoy the peace of this world!" Zhuo Lincheng read the truth from her eyes, "Have you gone to see Li Ya? She is not in good condition." Thinking of the thrilling scene just now, Sun Wan's eyes were a little wet. She held back the turbulent emotions and looked at him coldly, "You come to ask me? Why don't you go and see it with your own eyes? Don't you forget who did it yourself? sent her to America." Zhuo Lincheng looked at her incredulously, "I sent her to America, but that doesn't mean I have to pay for her life. If the whole world judges my actions according to your logic, I will Shouldn't it be hanged?" "You still think you're innocent? If it weren't for you, Yaya might never have the chance to go to the United States, let alone touch those damn drugs!" "Why don't you just ask Li Ya's parents why she was born into this dirty, evil world? Otherwise, wouldn't she have the chance to touch the damn drugs." The alcoholism of the brandy began to attack, Sun Wan's throat tightened, and her head became hot, "I didn't ask you to bear all the blame, I just want you to know that you should bear part of the responsibility. You will never realize that because you get whatever you want, you will give it to others. what a terrible effect on their lives." "Your money, power, and high IQ put you in the clouds, overlooking us and belittling our lives. You think you have the ability to bestow on us a brighter future, so you have no scruples to tamper with our lives. I've heard it before A joke, someone wanted to be a hero, so he quietly pushed a child standing on the shore into the water, and then jumped down to save him righteously. Gradually, I realized that you are actually doing this to the people around me thing--" "You used Li Ya to deceive her feelings, pushed her into the abyss of being abandoned, and then picked her up, and gave her the opportunity to go to the United States, so that she could not hate you even though she was covered in bruises; you sent Xiao Xun away, let I struggled with the loss of my lover, and then picked me up and treated me tenderly..." Zhuo Lincheng listened calmly until he heard the word "Xiao Xun", a cloud suddenly filled his eyes.His usual calmness suddenly disappeared. He leaned forward and grabbed her wrist heavily, "You still miss him." Sun Wan pursed her lips and struggled fiercely, "Yes, I still miss him! Do you dare to say that you didn't send Xiao Xun to America on purpose? I will never mind you making my first love die so ugly!" Zhuo Lincheng laughed back angrily, but the arms that imprisoned her became stronger because of despair, "You always thought that I ruined your first love? You hate me because of this, so you tortured me like this." Sun Wanye had lost her mind, and answered loudly: "Yes!" Zhuo Lincheng sneered silently, put his lips on her ear, and said cruelly: "I just gave him another choice in life. He has a choice. No one forced him to go to the United States. He can choose to stay for you." , but he didn't choose that way! Sun Wan, not everyone will be as cheap as me and value you so much!" Sun Wan heard her choking. "I might as well tell you one more thing." Zhuo Lincheng's voice became strange due to heavy breathing, "Do you still remember Zhao Yiting? I told you that in order to make Xiao Xun a trader as soon as possible, he had privately paid a huge sum of money. Help him make a position. Guess why he helped Xiao Xun like that? Because he is gay! He fell in love with your Xiao Xun!" Sun Wan raised her head suddenly as if struck by lightning, opened her mouth slightly, and looked back at him slowly. "It's no secret that Zhao Yiting likes men in the company. If Xiao Xun didn't promise him any conditions, with Zhao Yiting's character, would he help him so selflessly? I sent him to the United States because I felt pity for him. Do you know that, If it wasn't for me, your first love would have died even uglier!" Everything was quiet, the only sound in the room was his breathing. Sun Wan stared at him blankly, her eyes blurred. Falling from the peak of anger, Zhuo Lincheng began to regret.How could he tell such an ugly truth? "I'm sorry." He let go of her and reached out to touch her thin face.A warm tear fell on his fingertips without warning. Sun Wan raised her hand to signal him not to speak.She forced herself to go to the sofa and sat down slowly.Zhuo Lincheng stood on the spot and hesitated for a while, but followed her and sat down next to her. After a long time, seeing that she no longer shed tears, he said with a sigh: "Maybe you are right, our marriage has been covered with original sin from the very beginning. It may not be that I am swallowing the consequences for this situation." After a while, he gently pulled her to his chest.He lowered his head and put his face on the back of her neck, and said in a buzzing voice: "Sun Wan, can you share with me some of your mercy and forgiveness for others? Even if it's just a little bit."