Chapter 16 Chapter Sixteen

After the new year, they seem to have returned to the time when they were most harmonious again, and they began to date tepidly.Every evening, he went to the magazine office to pick her up for dinner on time, and then sent her home on time.They often go to the movies, listen to concerts, and drink coffee together, but they will never appear at friends' parties together. Every weekend, Zhuo Lincheng and Sun Wan would go back to Li Meijing's place for dinner.Li Meijing wholeheartedly matched them, and did not hesitate to spend "a lot of money" to replace the hardwood bed that Sun Wan slept on for more than 20 years with a double bed.A few times, she even hid outside to play mahjong all night, but there was no sign of what she was expecting to happen.

After the weather warmed up, the magazine office also had more and more work. In addition to being busy writing various topics, Sun Wan also assisted Zhou Ya to take charge of the "Subculture Cultural Night" activity initiated by Melissa.On this day, Sun Wan and Zhuo Lincheng had a routine date, but they received a temporary call from Zhou Ya, asking her to send her the confirmed guest list immediately.Sun Wan pushed the dinner plate aside, found the computer and folders from the bag, and checked the list of guests page by page. Zhuo Lincheng's mood for eating was ruined, and he looked at her several times while hesitant to speak.Probably due to the influence of her new boss, her dressing taste has risen sharply. The light blue suit outlines her figure very well. Her long hair, which was always tied up casually before, is now neatly coiled, revealing a beautiful curve. neck.He doesn't like women who are too capable, but if the object is changed to her, he thinks it's not bad for a woman to be more capable.

After finishing the meal in a leisurely manner, seeing that Sun Wan was still buried in her work, he finally said displeasedly, "I almost thought I was dating Wendi Deng." Sun Wan looked up from the pile of documents, "Deng Wendi won't just get a monthly salary of 8,000 yuan." Seeing Zhuo Lincheng pick up the lemonade thoughtfully, but did not speak, Sun Wan asked again: "What bad idea are you thinking?" "I'm thinking about buying the magazine and spending a little time teaching your boss how to run the company more efficiently without exploiting your employees' spare time."

Sun Wan was speechless, "I hate the exploiting class like you who stand up and talk without pain in your back." A smile flashed in Zhuo Lincheng's eyes, he reached out to take a piece of material she had just put down, and looked through it carefully, "Your new boss really likes to take the edge of the sword." Sun Wan instantly grasped the offensive keyword, and stood on Melissa's side with great loyalty, "Where is it wrong?" "Isn't it the world of mass culture now? She prefers tired, down-and-out subcultures." "What's wrong with the subculture? At least it's to my taste."

Zhuo Lincheng sized her up with the eyes he had met her for the first time, "It turns out that you have such strong tastes. If I didn't look at the things you made, I couldn't believe that you, who are so well-dressed, are paying attention to gay groups, Hooligan writers, promiscuous entertainers and sadomasochistic culture..." Sun Wan almost choked to death, reached out and snatched back the guest list in his hand, and said righteously, "If you can replace those words just now with Danmei culture, post-modern creation, and pioneer performer, I will thank you even more."

Zhuo Lincheng wiped his hands with a wet towel, and said solemnly: "It seems that I not only want to teach your boss how to operate efficiently, but also help you regain the correct three views—" After finishing speaking, he made a gesture of stroking his forehead Posture, "This is really a long way to go." Sun Wan glared at him unceremoniously, "Don't tell me, you are serious." "I am not serious about things related to you." Sun Wan gave him a sideways look, and refused to answer his words. On Friday, the phone rang suddenly. Sun Wan thought Melissa was calling urgently, but when she answered the phone, a familiar yet unfamiliar voice said, "Miss Sun, hello."

In less than a second, Sun Wan recognized the other party's identity, and unconsciously tightened her hand holding the phone, "Ms Yu, hello." "Didn't expect the world to be so small. Melissa came over and invited me to your club's 'Subculture Night', and I was surprised to find your name in the event planner. I'm a curious bore, so I asked for Your phone number, call to confirm." Sun Wan lowered her head and brushed the hair that was hanging down her face behind her ears, "Then have you confirmed it? If there is nothing else..." "I would like to invite you to have a cup of afternoon tea."

"Sorry, I don't have time for afternoon tea." "Miss Sun, I promised Melissa to join your 'Subculture Night'. As the person in charge, you should be obliged to come and communicate with me beforehand." Sun Wan is very aware of the media influence that Yu Xiaofei agrees to join the "Subculture Night", and she is also very aware of how much effort Melissa may have to make in order to make her humble.After pondering for a while, Sun Wan asked, "What time and where will we meet?" Yu Xiaofei set the meeting place at a hotel near the magazine office.When she saw Sun Wan, a meaningful smile appeared on her crimson lips, "Miss Sun, you must really don't want to see me."

Sun Wan sat down across from her, and handed her the printed event briefing in a matter-of-fact manner. Yu Xiaofei pushed the briefing aside, picked up the black tea and took a sip, "About you, I just wanted to say sorry to you." No matter how she looked at it, Sun Wan couldn't see traces of guilt on her face, she concluded that she was teasing her, but she didn't get angry, "I really care about my husband's cheating, but I don't care who he cheated with. So you don't have to say sorry to me." Yu Xiaofei looked at her intently through the brown lenses, "You are such a good and reasonable woman."

It was obviously a very joking sentence, but it was interpreted very sincerely by her tone. Yu Xiaofei lit a women's menthol cigarette, squinted her eyes and said, "Want to hear the story between me and him?" Sun Wan took back the process briefing, stood up and said, "I don't want to." "Don't want to or don't dare?" Yu Xiaofei blew out a smoke ring and looked at her provocatively. "Miss Yu, I don't want to spend time listening to your one-sided words. If the purpose of your appointment today is to apologize, then I accept your apology. Goodbye."

"That photo leaked a few months ago, it wasn't an accident. I did it on purpose." Sun Wan paused and looked back at her.She never thought that Yu Xiaofei would admit it to herself. Yu Xiaofei dusted off the cigarette ash, looked out the window, "I want you to divorce him by doing that." Sun Wan sat back on the sofa and looked directly at her calmly. "Like all mistresses, I had no desire for him at first." Yu Xiaofei met her gaze and said expressionlessly. The word "mistress", like a big hand, suddenly squeezed Sun Wan's heart. "After a long time, I became greedy. I didn't want another woman to share him, and I lost the consciousness of being a thief. Whenever he came back to you, I would be jealous and resentful like crazy, thinking about you all the time. What are you doing, will he be acting out our past intimacy with you..." Sun Wan interrupted her abruptly: "Stop talking!" Yu Xiaofei's bleak eyes grabbed her like a hook, "When the pain of wanting nothing reaches the peak, I want to die in the past, I want to murder you, I want to die with him. After calming down, I think of using that There is no way to force you to leave. Because this is the fairest for us, after all, you don't love him that much." Sun Wan's chest rose and fell, and a chill of fear and disgust bloomed on her skin. She couldn't help but wondered again in her mind how deep their entanglement was before, which made her have such an extremely strong love. hate to come. Sun Wan lowered her head and warned herself not to look into her eyes.Soon, she calmed down again, realizing that she might have fallen for her, "Why do you love him?" Yu Xiaofei thought for a moment, "I love him flawlessly. Let me tell you a secret that is not a secret. I have experienced countless men. At the beginning, I always tried to find some good things in every man, even if the things I found were trivial. But then As my experience increased, I stopped deceiving myself and others. I began to understand what kind of man I wanted and what I didn’t want. I became picky. I didn’t like men who weren’t handsome, men who didn’t have money, and men who were too straight. I don't like those who are too flirtatious... I thought I would never fall in love with anyone in this life, but Zhuo Lincheng appeared." "A perfect man who doesn't love me quickly piqued my interest. I knew he had a wife, and at first I just wanted to play around. But you should know very well that a man like him has nothing to do with opium Separation, smoking is a lifetime addiction.” "I don't know that I'm a scumbag. I thought about letting go, really!" Speaking of this, Yu Xiaofei suddenly stifled the half-smoked cigarette between her fingers into the ashtray, "But not long ago, I found out that I was pregnant with his child." Everything around suddenly fell silent.Sun Wan's heart trembled heavily, and she looked at Yu Xiaofei's abdomen in a dizzy manner. Yu Xiaofei raised her right hand and unbuttoned the cashmere cloak one by one until her swollen belly appeared in Sun Wan's sight. "It's been five months, and I haven't told anyone, not even him. I have to give birth to this child, because the doctor told me that this is my last chance to have a child." Yu Xiaofei had a weird smile on her lips meaning. She obviously won a complete victory, but there was no trace of joy in that smile, but a specious desolation. Sun Wan stared at her lower abdomen, as if struck by lightning. "I plan to raise this child alone...Miss Sun? Miss Sun." Sun Wan waved her hand to Yu Xiaofei, then stood up abruptly, she mechanically grasped the documents in her hand, and walked towards the door in a nonchalant manner.Along the way, she saw the hotel's Roman columns, relief murals, and beaded curtains of chandeliers shaking and upside down. The moment she walked out of the hotel, she saw so clearly that the gray sky above her head turned into a cloud of gray pigeons, stumbling and flying. into her eyes. In the evening, Zhuo Lincheng came to pick up Sun Wan from get off work, and saw her sitting by the fountain outside the magazine office.Her head was lowered, as if she was lost in thought. Zhuo Lincheng parked the car, walked up the steps quickly, and pulled her up from the side of the fountain, "Why are you sitting here? Isn't it cold?" He frowned and tucked her drooping hair behind her ears, then raised her face.I don't know why, but her face has no luster, and it looks haggard like ashes.Zhuo Lincheng's heart tightened suddenly, "What's wrong." Under his gaze, Sun Wan slowly raised her eyelids. She seemed to have just returned to reality from a heavy and painful world. She looked at him blankly and said slowly, "You are here." Zhuo Lincheng could tell from her expression that something must have happened, he held her hand tightly, "Let's go home first." Sun Wan obediently followed him down the steps and into the car.She didn't say a word, she just leaned her head against the car window weakly.A strong melancholy breath permeated from her body, quickly filling the entire carriage. Zhuo Lincheng drove out of the city at the fastest speed while watching her closely from the corner of his eye.She was clearly by his side, but she seemed far, far away from him.Zhuo Lincheng felt that under her calmness, there was something more terrifying than the storm.He speculated about what might happen, and without any hesitation, he set his target on Yu Xiaofei. After that embarrassing morning, he never saw Yu Xiaofei again.She also seemed to have disappeared from his life, causing him no trouble at all.He suspected that she colluded with Xu Tao to design him, but he couldn't get any evidence.He was convinced that nothing happened that night, but he couldn't argue with it.During the most tormented period, he even thought about prying Yu Xiaofei's mouth open by all means, and let her tell him the truth, but her silence gave her a kind of awe-inspiring and inviolable power.Because she was silent and had nothing to ask for, she seemed to be an innocent and forbearing victim in this incident. He had no choice but to pay more attention to Yu Xiaofei than ever before, like a trapped beast paying attention to a hunter, waiting for her to attack again all the time.Right now, it seemed that he finally had her trump card. The car stopped downstairs at Sun Wan's house.Sun Wan left him as soon as she got out of the car, and went straight upstairs. Her gait was very steady, her posture was decisive, as if she had gathered some strength again after the rest just now. The two entered the door one after the other. Li Meijing, who was setting the table and chopsticks, saw that the faces of the two of them were serious. The smiles they just showed froze for a moment, and then burst into bloom again, "I'm counting the time, you should be back." She smiled and cast suspicious eyes on Zhuo Lincheng, Zhuo Lincheng also confirmed her suspicion with his eyes.Li Meijing understood and turned to Sun Wan, "I made pigeon soup for you... What's wrong with you? You're depressed again." Sun Wan stroked her hair and said lightly, "I'm too tired today." Then, she went to the bathroom, washed her hands and ate as usual. The meal was very peaceful, Sun Wan's brows and eyes were silent, Li Meijing winked and asked Zhuo Lincheng to bring her food, Zhuo Lincheng obeyed, and Sun Wan didn't resist at all. At the end of the meal, Sun Wan put down the bowl and chopsticks, "Mom, after staying at home for so long, it's time for me to move back." Li Meijing was stunned for a moment, then looked at her puzzledly, and then at Zhuo Lincheng.Zhuo Lincheng's eyes sank, and he vaguely guessed her intention. "I'm already married, so it's not good to bother you at home all the time. Besides, it's too far away from the work, so it's convenient to move back." What she said was reasonable, Li Meijing couldn't find anything to stop her for a moment, she turned to Zhuo Lincheng awkwardly, "You guys have discussed it." Zhuo Lincheng pondered for a moment, then nodded slightly. "In this case..." Li Meijing looked at Sun Wan in confusion again, "Then when will we move?" "Move now." Sun Wan got up, without looking at Zhuo Lincheng, but ordered him: "You come and help me." After entering the bedroom, Sun Wan dragged out the box from under the bed and put the clothes in the box on her own.Zhuo Lincheng stood at the door, looking at her hesitantly. Sun Wan's luggage was always simple, and within ten minutes, everything was packed.She pushed the box in front of Zhuo Lincheng, and said softly, "Please help me carry it down." After that, she opened the curtain and went straight out the door.Zhuo Lincheng pursed his lips and stood on the spot, lost his mind for a while, and finally followed her with the suitcase. Once downstairs, Zhuo Lincheng held her back in the cave, "You really want to go home." Sun Wan shook her head, "No, I just want to move out." "reason." "I want to be alone recently." "If you just want to be quiet, there is no need to move outside. How about this, you move home, and I will live somewhere else temporarily." Sun Wan gently broke away from his hand, dragged the luggage, and walked slowly towards the car, "To be precise, I want to go to an environment that has nothing to do with you... to live a life without your intervention, without the first The three intervened in the new life of my mind." "Tell me, how long do you plan to maintain this brand new life." "I don't know." Sun Wan opened the car door and got into the co-pilot. Zhuo Lincheng put his luggage away, returned to the car and sat down, "You might as well tell me directly, you still want to divorce me." Sun Wan looked directly at him from the side, with clear determination in her calm gaze, "Yes, I want a divorce, maybe the court may never hear our divorce case - you should know why better than me. Since This road won’t work, so I have no choice but to choose to separate from you first, and we will wait two years to discuss everything.” Zhuo Lincheng stared at her, and said for a long time, "I thought you had put that matter aside." "I thought so too. But can you really let it go? Zhuo Lincheng, why are you still kidding yourself?" "I repeat, I never betrayed you, and I never thought of betraying our marriage. That incident was a premeditated frame." "You said that Yu Xiaofei framed you, and that you were just ordinary friends. Then you can tell me why a woman sacrificed her image, reputation, and future to frame an insignificant ordinary friend." "She has her purpose." "Zhuo Lincheng, what happened between you and Yu Xiaofei is no longer important to me. I try to let go of the past, try to trust you, try to start over with you - I can do it for you I have made all the compromises. I can no longer lower the bottom line for you. " "What's your bottom line?" Sun Wan was quiet for a moment, "Sharing my husband with others is enough without dignity. Do you still want me to share his father with other people's children?" Zhuo Lincheng suspected that his ears had misheard, and looked at Sun Wan in disbelief, "What did you say?" Sun Wan looked out the car window, "Yu Xiaofei is pregnant with your child." Zhuo Lincheng's pupils suddenly shrank, and he resolutely said: "That's impossible!" After a pause for a few seconds, Zhuo Lincheng frowned and said in great disappointment, "It's also something that has no evidence. You'd rather believe Yu Xiaofei than me." Just a few words, like cold water pouring over her head, splashed Sun Wan half awake. The car became quiet, and she felt that his eyes looking at her were as sharp as a sharp edge, as if he had the strength to penetrate her.Such a him made her feel strange, and a little chill rose from the bottom of her heart, squeezing out her confidence little by little.She was defeated by his eyes, and she hardly dared to meet his eyes. His eyes fell between her brows and eyes, and he whispered after a long time: "It seems that the series of 'trying' you just said are all self-deceiving words, you are just pretending to let go, pretending to believe, and pretending to start over with me Pass……" He stopped talking, started the car, and slowly drove the car out of the narrow alley. When the car drove on the main road, Zhuo Lincheng's tone returned to calm, "Before this matter is completely dealt with, maybe everyone should be quiet for a while." Sending Sun Wan to the hut she just rented, Zhuo Lincheng sat down politely for a while. While Sun Wan was making tea, he looked around the room.This is a typical old-fashioned one-bedroom house. Although it is a bit outdated, it is clean and has complete living facilities. He secretly evaluated the safety factor of her new house, and seeing that there was nothing wrong with it, he bid farewell.Sun Wan escorted him off the elevator, and the two expressed their concern to each other very calmly, and initially reached some consensus on living apart.For example, they are obliged to visit the elders of both parties together during important holidays; each other shall not neglect the normal contact with each other for any reason. Although all the words were polite, Sun Wan still said tactfully that before Yu Xiaofei's child was born, he had better not come to see her. Zhuo Lincheng couldn't promise this, so he didn't respond positively until he left. When the car drove out of the community, he took out his mobile phone and called Yu Xiaofei's number.Hearing that he wanted to go and see her, Yu Xiaofei was not surprised at all, and only replied meaningfully, "I'll wait for you". After arriving at the community where Yu Xiaofei lived, Zhuo Lincheng found a parking space to park. He didn't rush up, but took out a cigarette, leaned on the back of the chair and smoked slowly. Halfway through the second cigarette, as if he had finally figured something out, he pressed the cigarette hard into the ashtray and got out of the car. The moment the door opened, Zhuo Lincheng saw Yu Xiaofei's swollen abdomen at first sight.She was only wearing a translucent nightdress, as if to make him see more clearly. As if sparks had splashed into his eyes, Zhuo Lincheng's pupils shrank suddenly.He stood firmly at the door, staring at Yu Xiaofei.Because of her pregnancy, Yu Xiaofei's unpainted face was a little swollen, and her expression was a little haggard. Looking at him, her eyes looked like an unfathomable tunnel, but at the end of the tunnel, there was a sad, pitiful white light. "Come in and sit." Yu Xiaofei turned around and walked towards the sofa. Zhuo Lincheng closed the door, still standing at the door, "What do you want." Yu Xiaofei half-lyed back to the sofa, pointed to the coffee on the coffee table, "I made you Blue Mountain, why don't you have some?" Zhuo Lincheng frowned, "What the hell are you..." Yu Xiaofei interrupted him suddenly and said, "I want you to sit down first." Zhuo Lincheng nodded, showing a compromised expression, and sat down opposite her.Yu Xiaofei stretched out her index finger and pushed the coffee in front of him, "You've lost weight." Zhuo Lincheng stared at the dark liquid in the white porcelain cup, with a sneer on his lips, "What will you add this time? The hallucinogen or potassium cyanide." Yu Xiaofei looked at him expressionlessly, "I don't understand what you're talking about." Zhuo Lincheng looked at her sharply, "Why do you need to act again? There is no jury for the Golden Horse Awards here." Yu Xiaofei was silent for a few seconds, then lowered her eyes and smiled, "When did you become so serious? I'm not used to it." "What about you? Then when did you become so unscrupulous." "What you taught me: as long as you keep a person by any means, one day, you will find a way to break her." "Such an analogy doesn't make any sense. Sun Wan is a dull person. I have to use this method to let her find that she loves me." "I don't mind spending ten or twenty years for you to gradually discover that you love me." "I don't have time to play such a long game of cultivation with you." "How dare you say you never loved me." "Never." "Then how do you explain how you have been meticulous and patient to me?" "Didn't the man before you teach you that those are just men's tricks?" A tear suddenly rolled down from Yu Xiaofei's eyes, "How can you say such nasty words." Zhuo Lincheng sighed and said, "I'm sorry. I'm not a saint. Sometimes I'm no different from those men you think are bad. If you have to find a difference, I'm only slightly better than them." His words made Yu Xiaofei's heart feel like a knife, and her face was contorted from crying, "I don't allow you to talk about yourself like that." Zhuo Lincheng frowned, and looked at her apologetically, "Xiao Fei, I don't deserve what you do for me. You are still young, and you will have many opportunities to find true love in the future." Yu Xiaofei buried her head on her knees, and after a long time, she reached out to wipe away the tears on her face, and looked up at him, "If it's just to be loved, why should I wait until the future? There are thousands of people out there waiting to love me, What do I care for? I only want you, all the nations of the world, all living beings, I only want one of you!" Zhuo Lincheng was stunned for a moment, his eyes dimmed a little bit, "Xiao Fei. A man who doesn't see you at the first sight will never have you in the future. All the countries in the world, all living beings, I only love Sun Wan in this life. You let it go." Us, okay?" Yu Xiaofei sneered with tears in her eyes, "That's also impossible. Since you have moved my heart, don't think about getting out so easily." She looked down at her belly with a dazed expression, "What is love? Family members are the most inseparable in this world. Although she won your love, she lost me a step in this. In the days and nights to come, as long as If she thinks that another woman has your flesh and blood, she will definitely not be able to get real peace." "Let's go, the baby and I are tired. You don't have to visit me in the future, but one day you will come back to me with everything I want." Zhuo Lincheng was exhausted by her torture, he got up wearily, "You can wait, but that day will definitely not come." After moving out from home, Sun Wan was depressed for a few days, and she also showed fatigue at work.Fortunately, the Ching Ming holiday would soon be here, and Sun Wan asked the personnel for an extra two days of leave according to the leave application strategy on Weibo, and made herself a seven-day holiday. After boarding the plane, Sun Wan bid farewell to the gray Beijing and arrived in the blue sea and silver sand in Sanya after only taking a nap. Sanya in April is more pleasant than other times. The ultraviolet light is not so strong, and it is bright and warm almost like summer. There are much fewer tourists than in the peak season, and even hotels and restaurants are much cheaper. Sun Wan spent a quarter of her savings to enjoy all the activities in Sanya, and the haze in her heart faded a lot. One day, Sun Wan passed by the famous "Haijiao" stone, and after getting on the tour bus, the conversation of a young couple with literary and artistic accents suddenly reached Sun Wan's ears. "Why do those people in costume movies always say 'let's escape to the ends of the earth'." "Maybe they thought fleeing to the ends of the earth was bad enough." "What's wrong? This place sounds miserable, but in fact it is a vast sea and sky, and it is like spring all year round. It is simply a paradise on earth. It can be seen that those who are planning to escape to the ends of the earth are actually the most cunning and self-loving people." Hearing this, Sun Wan couldn't help bursting into laughter, and she quickly took a big mouthful of coconut juice to cover it up.This couple is really interesting. Such an ordinary conversation was actually uttered by them with the taste of Zen. At this time, the tour guide sitting near Sun Wan pointed to the distance and interjected, "There was a general who was defeated in a battle. After staying here for a while, he erected a monument of 'survival from a desperate situation' behind the Cape Rock. It is used to remind future generations that there is no end to life, and whether or not there will be prosperity." Sun Wan nodded silently.As they say, is there any insurmountable end in life?After looking away in this way, most of the troubles in recent days have disappeared. The next day, Sun Wan was packing at the hotel when she suddenly received an email from Li Ya, which contained only a flight number and arrival time.Sun Wanzheng was at a loss, and Li Ya's long-distance journey across the ocean was about to arrive. "Old Sun, I'm going back to Beijing tomorrow, pick me up at the airport." Li Ya's voice was hoarse and tired, without emotion. The news of the old man's return was no less than a shot in the arm for Sun Wan at this time, her voice suddenly raised, "Really? I'm still doing business when I come back for vacation." "I won't leave when I come back." The voice over there was still very cold. "Huh?" Sun Wan was stunned for a moment, this answer was obviously beyond common sense.Li Ya tried so hard to take root in the United States before, but now that Broadway has entered, she has a rich boyfriend, and a low-budget movie starring in it has also been released. No matter how you look at it, she has no reason to return to China for a long time during the rising period. "We'll talk about it when I come back." Li Ya heard her doubts. "Okay. Anyway, it's a great thing that you're back." Sun Wan still wanted to catch up on the old days, but Li Ya seemed to have no interest in talking, so she hung up the phone hastily.Sun Wan threw away the phone with some displeasure, stood in front of the bed full of clothes and shrugged. At two o'clock in the afternoon the next day, Sun Wan, who hurried back to Beijing, stood on tiptoe in the bustling airport hall.It's been a long time since I saw Li Ya herself, and she can't guarantee that she can recognize her, the ever-changing queen, at a glance.Perhaps because she was overly excited, her judgment dropped drastically, so much so that her blood boiled every time she saw a single tall, thin and beautiful woman. Seeing that 20 minutes had passed since the plane landed, Sun Wan, who had not yet waited for Li Ya, was a little anxious, so she couldn't help but took out her mobile phone and lowered her head to dial Li Ya's number.At this moment, she heard a familiar voice say: "Sun Wan." Sun Wan looked up abruptly, and saw a tall woman with fiery red hair in a lotus-colored dress, a pair of big sunglasses, walking towards her.Just as Sun Wan raised her hand to greet her, she suddenly stopped—although the beauty wore big glasses, no matter how she looked at her, her exposed lips and chin did not look like Li Ya.Could it be that Li Ya has undergone plastic surgery to this extent? While in a trance, a thin figure in a white jacket and a mask walked up to Sun Wan, stretched out his hand and waved in front of her eyes, "Here." Sun Wan met her eyes and blurted out: "Oh! My god!" Then she reached out and hugged her tightly. Li Ya let her hold her without moving.When Sun Wan touched her bony back, she was startled, and touched her hard a few times, "Why are you so thin?" Li Ya gently pushed her away, reached out and took off the mask, revealing her unpainted face, "The character needs it." Her face was horribly thin, bluish-white, and dull-looking—she was still herself, but as if she had undergone a brutal dehydration process. Sun Wan looked at her puzzled, frowned and asked, "What role needs to make people like this?" She took her luggage distressedly, "Hurry up to my place, I'll make chicken soup for you." Walking a few steps side by side, Sun Wan suddenly remembered something and said, "Why didn't your parents come to pick you up?" "I didn't tell them I was back." Li Ya said with a cold expression. "Then what do you plan to do?" "Live at your place first. You should have no shortage of rooms." Sun Wan smiled shyly, "I separated from him, and now we live outside, if you don't mind, you can go to my place to raise him for a while." "Oh." Li Ya lowered her head and yawned.Seeing Sun Wan glance at her, she said calmly, "Jet lag." After getting into the taxi, Li Ya put on her mask without saying a word, curled up in the back seat and began to take a nap.Sun Wan glanced at her several times, and a sense of loss enveloped her heart like a dark cloud. After arriving home, Sun Wan finally couldn't help but ask her: "Yaya, is something wrong?" Li Ya lowered her eyes and blew on the chicken soup Sun Wan served her, "What could happen?" "Don't lie to me, no matter how hard the filming is, it won't change a person's spirit. Are you..." Li Ya suddenly raised her head and stared at her vigilantly, "What is it?" "Are you broken in love?" Li Ya was stunned for a moment, her tense expression slowly relaxed, she lowered her head dumbly, and wrote lightly: "Forget it." Sun Wan patted her on the shoulder empathetically, "It's quite painful. It'll be fine in the past." Li Ya didn't respond. She didn't say anything until she finished drinking the chicken soup in the bowl, "The soup is too weak." Sun Wan snorted, took a spoon and put a little into her mouth, "Isn't it light? Is your mouth getting heavier? Have some more." "No need." Li Ya wiped her mouth, looked up at Sun Wan, and suddenly smiled, "Old Sun, how much savings do you have?" Sun Wan stretched out four fingers. "Fourty thousand." "Where do I get four hundred thousand?" "Forty thousand? Why is Zhuo Lincheng so mean to you?" Sun Wan felt a little uncomfortable, "It has nothing to do with him." "Are you in a hurry for money recently? Lend me if you're not in a hurry." Sun Wan paused, "Okay, do you want all of them?" "Yes, both." "Then I'll pick it up for you later." After getting a satisfactory answer, Li Ya's stiff smile suddenly mixed with some old enthusiasm, "Old Sun, you are the only one who treats me sincerely in the whole world." Sun Wan's heart warmed, and she almost didn't give away her 20,000 fund. After drinking the soup, Li Ya went back to her room and fell asleep with her head covered.After Sun Wan cleaned up the mess, she washed and dried the clothes she had changed. In the evening, Sun Wan saw that Li Ya hadn't woken up yet, so she made a special trip to pack hamburgers and fried chicken and came back to wait for her to have dinner.It wasn't until eleven o'clock in the middle of the night that Li Ya walked out of the room like a ghost.Seeing Sun Wan suddenly, she showed a dull expression similar to that of a hangover, as if she didn't know why she saw her. Sun Wan, who was revising the manuscript, stretched, "There is food on the table, go to the kitchen to heat it up." Li Ya ate the cold hamburger without saying a word, then opened the suitcase, found out her cosmetic bag, and then it was a long change of clothes. "Go to a nightclub right after you come back? Can you bear it?" Sun Wan reminded kindly. Under the warm light, Li Ya, who puts on heavy smoky makeup, presents a gothic weird beauty.She chuckled and said, "I'm used to it." As she spoke, she put on a miniskirt on a black fishnet stockings jacket, took out the Fifth Avenue perfume, and mechanically pressed the nozzle on herself a few times. Sun Wan pinched her nose and said in a low voice, "Why are you dressed like this?" Li Ya winked at her evilly, "Abigale is dressed like this." "It's not in the play yet." This is the name of Li Ya's last character.Last Easter, the film Abigale, cast by Li Ya's ex-boyfriend and starring Li Ya, was released in North America, but for some reason, the box office of this film was very poor, and the word of mouth suffered from Waterloo. A day trip is hurriedly off the file. When Sun Wan saw this film, it was the low point of her divorce with Zhuo Lincheng, so she didn't like this film full of blood, violence, and erotic elements, and she didn't like Li Ya's performance of Abigale Therefore, she has never given Li Ya a positive comment on the film. "Yaya, it's good to be a celebrity like you walked over." Li Ya snapped the makeup mirror shut, "I like the street girl style now!" Sun Wan blushed, she lowered her head and raised her hands in surrender, "Okay. Come back earlier." "What about the money?" Sun Wan pointed to another paper bag on the table, "It's in there." Li Ya took out a stack of banknotes, said "Don't wait for me", and went out the door without looking back. That night, Li Ya didn't return all night.In the early morning of the second day, Sun Wan, who was rushing to work, met her at the elevator entrance. She was leaning against the wall with a fascinated expression, her eyes were empty after excitement. That look made Sun Wan's heart tremble heavily, and her mood that had just improved became gloomy again.She intuitively felt that something more serious than a broken relationship must have happened to Li Ya.She was worried, but could not find a way to penetrate her heart. We can only leave it to time, Sun Wanru comforted himself.But she forgot one thing: Time can heal the wound, but it may also make the wound fester further. In the next half month, instead of showing any signs of improvement, Li Ya turned black and white more and more, and stayed away at night.Sun Wan tried to persuade her from the standpoint of a friend, but she agreed on the surface, and then turned around and ran to the bar and nightclub as usual. Sun Wan couldn't stop her, so she could only hope that she knew how to protect herself.But such self-deceiving "hope" can't make her truly peaceful. Every night when Li Ya is not at home, she tosses and turns, either in a daze and mistakenly thinking that she is back, or dreaming that she is in danger outside. Finally one day, Sun Wan couldn't help following Li Ya.她藏在迷离昏暗的灯光背后，看厉娅在群魔乱舞的男女中游走，和不同的男人大跳贴身舞；又看着她来者不拒地喝酒，毫无禁忌地同人拥吻……她闷着点儿狠气看她到底能放纵到哪种程度。直到厉娅醉醺醺地跟着一个男人出了酒吧，她终于捺不住地追上他们，将她从那男人的副驾驶座上生拖硬拽下来。 第二天，她们爆发了有史以来最大的一次争吵。孙菀将她胡乱扔在家里的衣服、丝袜、化妆品一股脑扔进箱子，指着她声嘶力竭地吼：“你要继续这样混日子，就给我滚！别在我眼皮子底下瞎胡闹！” 厉娅抱着箱子尖叫道：“我就喜欢这样过，你凭什么管我！” 孙菀气急，拽着她的手臂往门外拖。厉娅反抗不过，便拿尖利的指甲往她皮肉里抠，孙菀任她抓挠，最后用力将她搡出了门外，“滚！别让我再看见你！” 厉娅站在铁门外看她，鼻子一皱，一滴眼泪慢慢从眼眶里滚落，“我这副样子，你让我往哪里滚。” 孙菀本来还气咻咻的，听她这样一说，也怔怔地落下泪来。 良久，她打开铁门，“能做到不去夜店就进来，做不到趁早消失。” 厉娅含泪怒视了她一阵，气冲冲地拖着箱子返回客厅，闷头坐回了沙发里。 孙菀咔嗒一声将门锁上，走到她身边坐下，“干点什么不行？你想出去糟蹋钱，我的卡随你透支；你想找人喝酒，我可以陪你爆肝；你想从头开始，我可以鞍前马后当你经纪人。就只有一条，以后别去那种地方混了。” 厉娅抽噎了一下，将头枕在孙菀肩上，喃喃说：“来不及了……什么都来不及了。” 孙菀握着她的手，“杰西卡·坦迪80岁才被奥斯卡封后，你20岁就当女主演了，有什么来不及的。” 厉娅紧紧闭上眼睛，只是机械地摇头，“你不懂。” 孙菀怔怔看着她，心一点点沉下去。