Chapter 11 Chapter Eleven The City Will Fall, Love Will Begin
As the wedding day approaches, Sun Wan inevitably suffers from premarital phobias.At first, she was just inexplicably worried about her future life, and later, when she heard "marriage", she felt a panic when she saw something red.
She began to miss Xiao Xun crazily, the degree of fanaticism far surpassed the time when she broke up with her.Because at that time she was determined to wait for him, her longing slowed down, but now she had to let go, her longing surged.
She felt that the love between herself and Xiao Xun should not have ended like this.Like all women who lost their first love, she has been secretly depicting the scene of reunion in her heart: either on the subway, or in a coffee shop at a corner, or on the roof of the library where they kissed deeply...
As long as Xiao Xun doesn't come back for a day and personally tell her "we are completely over", Sun Wan will always have the illusion that his first love is not over.Hu Lancheng once said to Zhang Ailing: If you don't come, how dare I grow old.For people like Sun Wan who are still waiting, the scariest thing is not waiting without hope, but not exhausting their energy to wait until the end.
The idea of "running away from marriage" is getting stronger and stronger, but Sun Wan is an ordinary person after all, too many constraints of reality make her dare not act recklessly.Finally one day, she couldn't help but call Li Ya across the ocean, begging her for an explanation.
After all, Li Ya is old and hot. After listening to her babbling, she hit the point with one sentence, "It's not so much that you don't believe that Zhuo Lincheng loves you, but rather that you are afraid that he will not love you one day."
Sun Wan was immediately annoyed, "That's not true."
Li Ya smirked through the phone, "Are you trying to hide the truth from a quasi-psychologist? Have you ever heard of the 'Marx Brothers thinking'? You have the same thinking as the Marx Brothers, longing for love but not accepting it. Because you are too afraid to see the other person's true self one day and be disappointed. You don't believe that Zhuo Lincheng's love can last long, so you are very afraid that once you fall in love with him, you will be completely hurt one day. "
Sun Wan was silent for a while, then said sleepily: "Isn't it? I still don't understand why he loves me."
Li Ya was also silent for a long time before she said, "Maybe he doesn't know it himself. Montaigne said that love is just a crazy longing for those who run away from us. For people like Zhuo Lincheng, love It's just a direction, but it's not the end of that direction. Once he reaches his goal, that love will disappear by itself. Old Sun, you are a sober person, and because you are sober, you suffer."
Sun Wan's heart sank into the abyss because of her words, and she asked dryly, "Then what should I do?"
"It's better to marry him and satisfy his desire to conquer. After he gets it, he will get bored and tired, and then let you go free, maybe."
Sun Wan had a splitting headache, holding the phone receiver and muttering, "Why does he torture me like this?"
"With his strength, with his iron fist Thunder. Admit it."
Before hanging up, Li Ya added meaningfully, "Old Sun, guard your heart. If a woman loses her heart, she loses everything."
Sun Wan heard that her limbs felt cold, she nodded silently, and curled up on the sofa.It took a long time before she forced herself to get up from the sofa - if that's the case, then marry, if he still doesn't let go, she can afford to torture him for the rest of her life.
The wedding of Zhuo Lincheng and Sun Wan is more complicated than ordinary people, and it will be completed in two days. The first day is in a traditional way, in a remodeled palace to worship and entertain the relatives of both parties; the next day is to go to the hotel for a formality , Feast leaders and friends from all directions.
The night before the wedding, Sun Wan stayed up all night without sleep, and the next day her eyes were as swollen as walnuts.The makeup artist arranged by Zhuo's family saw that she had a headache, so she had to find ice cubes to help her massage.
Sun Wan sat in front of the mirror in a daze, watching the make-up artist toss her head and face, and at the end, she specifically told her: "Make up thicker, the thicker and stiffer the better."
It's best to just take a mask and cover your face completely.
"You're so humorous." The makeup artist smiled, opening the dowry that Zhuo's mother gave to Sun Wan, took out a pair of emperor green earrings, and carefully put them on her ears.
In fact, Sun Wan thought too much.On the first day of the wedding, as a bride, she didn't need to show her face and force a smile at all, she just waited for the auspicious time in the bridal chamber.After worshiping heaven and earth, she will be sent back to the bridal chamber.In just a few minutes, no one could see clearly whether her stiffness came from the heart or whether her makeup was too thick.
After worshiping, Sun Wan was thrown into the bridal chamber decorated with lights and festoons.The bridal chamber is full of ancient charm, the red sandalwood carved bed is covered with a big red satin dragon and phoenix quilt, and the quilt is sprinkled with "jujube osmanthus seeds" in the old fashioned way. If a pair of red candles are inserted in front of it, it can be directly used as an ancient costume film set.
The Zhuo family's three relatives and six family members add up to no less than a thousand people, and the wedding banquet outside the door is going on like flowing water.Human voices, laughter, and music sounded endlessly, falling on Sun Wan's ears, which was empty in her belly, which really made her feel a little sad that "the crown is covered with flowers, but the man is alone and haggard".
It was about 7 o'clock in the evening when the wedding banquet completely dispersed, and the Zhuo family's nanny brought a bowl of dumplings for Sun Wan to eat.After sitting for nearly five hours, Sun Wan lost her appetite, so she barely ate two and asked her to take it away.
After a while, heavy footsteps and men's laughter came towards the bridal chamber, Sun Wan straightened her back suddenly, and looked out the door anxiously.Fortunately, Zhuo Lincheng blocked those people at the door and refused to let them in to make trouble.How can those men who drink too much want to see the bride so easily?After arguing at the door for half an hour, he was sent away by Zhuo Lincheng's promise.
After the door opened, Zhuo Lincheng, who was on the verge of collapse, leaned against the door in a daze for half a minute, and then opened his eyes to look at Sun Wan.Seeing her wearing a bright red cheongsam, with a pale face and scarlet lips, she couldn't help laughing.
Sun Wan sat awkwardly on the big bed, looking at him nervously, clearly in a mess, but refused to give in, "What's so funny."
Zhuo Lincheng walked up to her and sat down, and rubbed his index finger heavily on her pink face, "I almost thought it was a period drama. It was the kind of robbery of women."
How could Sun Wan be flirtatious and playful with him, so she had no choice but to keep her mouth shut, and when she was about to leave, she did not forget to give him a sidelong glance.
Zhuo Lincheng moved one hand behind her waist to support her, and put the other hand on her, wrapping her in his arms, looking down at her, just looking at her.
Both his shirt and his breath were stained with the smell of alcohol, which made Sun Wan very uncomfortable, and the expression on his face changed from uneasiness to embarrassment.She frowned and asked coldly, "What are you looking at?"
Zhuo Lincheng quickly pecked her red lips, and said in an ambiguous voice, "I'm looking at where it's better to start—the makeup is too thick, the collar of the cheongsam is too high, and the stones on the ears are too obstructive...Go, put it on." Makeup removed."
Sun Wan turned her face away abruptly, and told him with gestures: No.
Zhuo Lincheng sighed, "Twist."
Seeing that Sun Wan ignored him, he played with the emerald earrings on her ears childishly, "I used to think that you were so feudal and conservative, and thought you knew the three obediences and four virtues, and would be more docile to me after marriage. It seems that I was wrong."
As he said that, he lazily fell on the big bed behind him, lying motionless, completely ignoring the scorching red dates and lotus seeds under him.
Only then did Sun Wan realize that he was actually extremely drunk.
Relieved, Sun Wan went to the bathroom to carefully remove the heavy makeup on her face, and rinsed off the hairspray on her head under the shower head.She deliberately waited for time, wishing to take this bath until the end of time.
After taking a slow shower, she opened the cupboard and saw that there was a women's bathrobe in it, but the red gauze was as thin as a cicada's wings. No matter how you looked at it, she felt ideologically bad, so she had to put on the cheongsam just now.
After blowing her long hair until it was half dry, Sun Wan reluctantly moved back to the outside room.Seeing that Zhuo Lincheng was still lying down like before, seemingly asleep, she leaned over and gently took off his shoes and socks, then kicked off the slippers, climbed onto the bed, picked out the dried fruit under his body, and swept it aside.Seeing that his feet were dangling outside, she could only half kneel on the bed and drag him up with difficulty.After finally moving him to the pillow, Sun Wan heaved a long sigh and was about to get up when Zhuo Lincheng, who had been pretending to be asleep, suddenly stretched out his hand, dragged her wrist and pulled her down into his arms.
Zhuo Lincheng closed his eyes, grabbed her right hand, and led it to his tie, "Untie it for me."
Sun Wan bit her lip, "I won't. I'm afraid I might accidentally strangle you to death."
Zhuo Lincheng's eyelids moved slightly, "I don't care if the peony flowers die. Just let your new husband die in the bridal chamber, and you won't be too imaginative."
Sun Wan didn't care about her demeanor anymore, grabbed a handful of lotus seeds and hit him.
The corners of Zhuo Lincheng's mouth curled up, "Chew the red antler, and spit at Tan Lang with a smile..."
Sun Wan had no power to fight back, so she complied with him, leaned beside him, and lowered her head to untie his tie.However, Sun Wan had never come into contact with this thing in her lifetime, and she didn't know how to solve it for a while, which almost strangled him to death.
Her slightly wet hair fell on his face and neck, and lightly swept his body inadvertently.Zhuo Lincheng's throat twitched, he took her hand that was loosening his tie indiscriminately, turned over and pressed her heavily on the bed.
The soft big bed seemed unable to bear the weight of the two of them, and sank down with a groan, and Sun Wan was crushed by the solid fruit shell under her body and cried out in pain.Zhuo Lincheng slowly opened his translucent phoenix eyes, his slightly drunk face glowed with peach blossoms, he tore off his tie several times, threw it aside, leaned over and sucked her lips, and unbuttoned her cheongsam with one hand , covering her white and silky calf with one hand.He kissed her unrestrainedly, and moved his hands along the slit of the cheongsam, until he kissed her cold tears, and then suddenly opened his eyes like waking up from a dream.
Seeing the tight face of the person under him, and the twitching of his jaw, he slumped and buried his head on the pillow behind her neck.After a long time, he let go of her, turned over, and fell asleep soundlessly to the other side.
The western-style wedding banquet the next day was indeed as Li Meijing wanted, and it was set at a top hotel in Beijing.
Sun Wan wore a white gauze, and under the arrangement of the master of ceremonies, she took Zhuo Lincheng's arm and went through all the procedures in the sea of lights.When they exchanged rings, the pigeon eggs prepared by the groom were exchanged for a murmur, which even drowned out the bride's voice of "I do".
The next thing is endless drinking, table by table like a wheel war.Since most of the guests were well-known people in the capital, Sun Wan couldn't escape, so she had to drink the wine downright.
Sun Wan finished toasting the two hundred tables of wine almost relying on Zhuo Lincheng's forcible hold.
Next, Sun Wan endured the churning and discomfort in her stomach, and Zhuo Lincheng saw off the guests at the door.Several times, Sun Wan wanted to vomit on the faces of those guests who insisted on taking her for a group photo and greeting, and then fell to the ground.
After watching the last group of guests go downstairs, Sun Wan finally couldn't hold back, and ran to the bathroom behind with her dress skirt.She hastily locked the door, lay down in front of the golden pool, and vomited profusely, until her liver and gallbladder were tearing apart and tears flowed down her cheeks.
Zhuo Lincheng knocked on the door and asked, she whimpered and said, "It's okay, just spit it out, you can go back."
After finishing speaking, she turned the water to the maximum and poured all her emotions into the sound of rushing water.
When the last thing that could be vomited in her body was finished, Sun Wan slid angrily against the sink and sat on the bare floor.
On the LED screen on the wall of the bathroom, an MV of an old song is playing. A man and a woman are performing a plot that Sun Wan cannot understand. However, the hotel's sound system is so good that every word in the lyrics can be clearly conveyed. Into her ears, "For how many years, we have thought about growing old together, but we have someone else..."
Two lines of tears fell down her thin face without warning, and the song she sang softly made her burst into tears suddenly.
She had really endured for too long, was tired for too long, and the grievances that had accumulated for too long burst out at this moment.She knew that she had lost her composure, and she was afraid that the wooden door would not be able to cover her crying, but even though she firmly dug her ten fingers into her palm, she still couldn't suppress the sharp pain in her heart.
When she was crying dizzily, she heard the sound of someone breaking into the door, and felt herself falling into a firm and strong embrace.With teary eyes wide open, she raised her head to look at the man's face. The moment she saw his face clearly, she was completely stunned—how could she see Xiao Xun in this situation?She must be drunk, but at this moment, she would rather believe that she is sober.
She stared at his face, grabbed the collar of his shirt tightly, and swallowed the sobs with her neck stuck. After trembling for a long time, she begged with tears, "Don't go to America. Please, don't leave me behind." .”
Zhuo Lincheng's raised hand slowly fell, and he froze on the spot motionless.His throat moved, and the lowered eyelids suppressed all the emotions in his eyes, as if there had never been anything there.
The next day, Sun Wan slept until the afternoon before waking up.On the big bed in the hotel, there were only traces of her sleeping, and the heart shape made of roses on the quilt could still be seen.
Trapped in bed, she tried her best to recall yesterday, but all she recalled was the endless drinking and the comings and goings of people with blurred faces.
Thinking about it this way, the most profound thing left to her during the two-day grand wedding was the blisters on the soles of her feet that were worn away by the high heels.
After the wedding, it was the honeymoon period. Unexpectedly, as soon as Zhuo Lincheng vacated the honeymoon schedule, he received the news that his grandmother was critically ill.His grandmother loved him the most in the past, and her only wish when she was dying was to see him serve the sick bed.Sun Wan should also go to visit with her, but Zhuo's mother understands the old man's thoughts very well. At this moment, the old man may not want to see other women share the care and love of Zhuo Lincheng, so she politely refused.
It had been more than half a month since Zhuo Lincheng left, and when Sun Wan saw him again, it was already at her grandmother's funeral.Naturally, their honeymoon can only be discussed after autumn.However, they never mentioned the honeymoon again.They were all too busy. Zhuo Lincheng was busy acquiring an A-share listed company and expanding Wanhua's industrial chain, while Sun Wan was busy preparing her graduation thesis.
After marriage, Sun Wan has been living in the school dormitory, and occasionally went back to her and Zhuo Lincheng's home on Saturdays and Sundays.Zhuo Lincheng was away most of the time, and whenever she stood in an empty home, Sun Wan felt at a loss.She couldn't enter the identity of Mrs. Zhuo, nor could she find a sense of belonging in this cold mansion.
Zhuo Lincheng occasionally goes home to have a meal with her or watch a movie with her.If she behaved nervously, he would find an excuse to go out and go back to the hotel or stay in his hotel; if he happened to meet her in a good mood, he would stay in the upstairs bedroom for one night and leave the next day .
What Sun Wan was worried about never happened.
After the wedding, Zhuo Lincheng's enthusiasm for her cooled down inexplicably, and Sun Wan could tell from his detached but not indifferent attitude.When pursuing her, although he was so well-mannered, gentle and thoughtful, but Sun Wan could always easily smell his sanctimonious and ulterior motives.
Of course, apart from seeing each other rarely, Zhuo Lincheng did not lose his duty as a husband at all.He opened an unlimited supplementary card for her, and carefully selected a luxury car for her.During holidays, he would personally bring gifts home to accompany her.Although there is no phone call between each other every day, his assistant Holly will send her his daily itinerary on time to ensure that Mrs. Zhuo can grasp Mr. Zhuo's movements in real time.
Because she had made psychological preparations before getting married, Sun Wan's psychological gap was not too big, which actually confirmed Li Ya's conjecture: Zhuo Lincheng's love for her was just an obsession that couldn't be desired, once the goal was achieved, His obsession will wake up - it's just a matter of time.
After graduation, because she had to take care of Zhuo's father and Zhuo's mother's emotions, Sun Wan had to give up the postgraduate entrance examination and took the entrance examination for the family newspaper step by step.It happened that the newspaper office was not far from their wedding room, so Sun Wan packed all her luggage and moved in logically.Before that, Sun Wan's scope of activities was limited to the bedroom, kitchen, and bathroom, completely in a three-point-one-line style, like a sojourner.After officially moving in, Sun Wan gradually went to the upstairs study and sun room to sit for a while. When she was bored, she played a record, walked upstairs and downstairs with bare feet, and hummed.
After that, she added things to the house on her own initiative, sometimes it was a pot of poppies, sometimes it was a set of cute teacups, and sometimes it was an oil painting from Songzhuang and 798.
One evening, while listening to the Oscar golden song faintly coming from downstairs, she sang and sang to trim a jasmine plant, but she was bumped into by Zhuo Lincheng who came back along the way.After that, he ordered someone to install a sound system at home so that she could enjoy her favorite music in any corner of the house.Not long after, nearly a hundred pots of famous flowers from the gardening company were added to the sun room. After such a visit, the originally cold house gradually improved, and it was no longer like their cold marriage in a pool of stagnant water.
If Li Ya's profile picture hadn't flashed up on MSN, Sun Wan was afraid that she would drown in endless memories this afternoon.
She raised her head resting on her lap and clicked on the dialogue box.Li Ya asked: "Just after the first anniversary, we will be divorced."
Sun Wan avoided answering, and asked, "Why haven't you slept so late?"
"Just at a party in California. Guess who I saw."
"Could it be Schwarzenegger."
"If the answer is correct, add ten points."
In the past, when they talked about topics related to Zhuo Lincheng, Li Ya would always pursue them to the end, wishing to gossip about trivial matters and interpret them in ten thousand words.But today, she didn't even talk about such a hot topic as divorce, so she must be excited about something at this time.
"Aren't you going to ask me how I met him?" Li Ya added.
"All ears."
"There was a political parade in California yesterday, and I went too. That's not the point. The point is that I only wore a newspaper besides a pair of T-pants."
"Aren't you going to die, what kind of political parade are you going to participate in? Still dressed like that!"
"You are stupid! This kind of parade is definitely the headline news in the United States. Going to that kind of place to perform is easy to shine. There are at least a hundred shots of me today, and Zhang Ziyi is not so beautiful when she goes out on the street!"
"So you were fell in love at first sight by the governor, and you are going to compose the reality version of "Unbelievable Love" together?"
"That's not true, but after the parade, a small driver who drove a Maserati offered to buy me a drink. After drinking a drink, he took me to a party of high-class people. I didn't know he was a certain media after I got the business card. The second generation ancestor of a wealthy family. The most important thing is that he is a shareholder of Taeinc himself, which is more expensive than diamonds. I will give you his name, and you can go to Google to find his information."
"And then? Don't tell me this time, you are still in California."
"And then we went horseback riding for the weekend. Don't worry, I'm in my own house with all my tail. I'm not stupid enough to have a one-night stand with a guy like that and then fuck off with a Cartier the next morning."
"I Googled him, Jew, be careful not to be sold and help count the money."
"Do you think he's handsome? A bit like a younger version of Adrien Brody."
"...", Sun Wan wanted to say, that kind of neurotic gloomy expression was indeed a bit similar.But both of them were past the age to speak ill of each other, and women's friendships were often torn apart by an inappropriate remark.After thinking about it, Sun Wan added, "You fell in love with him."
"That's right, I love that he can show me Schwarzenegger, the new high heels he bought me, and even more that he can cast me as the heroine in a B-movie! Grandson, I'm so excited, It feels like I'm living in a movie. I can almost write the script for Pretty Woman 2 right now."
"That kind of movie is a lie. 'Sex and the City' is real."
"Married women really are the most boring group in the world."
Sun Wan glanced at the clock and quickly knocked it down, "It's very late, go to bed early, staying up all night is not good for your health, you are no longer a teenager."
"No, it's a pleasure to live a hundred years and lose half a lifetime. I'm going to sing on the balcony tonight."
"Where did the fallacies come from?"
"It's not speculative, just half a sentence, married woman, I'm going to take a bath."
Sun Wan didn't even have time to say "goodbye" before the profile picture over there went dark.She stayed in front of the computer for a while, lazily opened the D drive of the computer, and found an American youth comedy to watch.She has watched this movie several times, not because the plot is interesting, but because Li Ya plays a more important role in it-the Asian best friend next to the heroine's love rival.
Almost all American comedies will find a stunner with blond hair and big breasts to be the heroine's love rival, and then find several Asian and African faces to complement that stunner.In the movie, Li Ya put on a heavy face and made exaggerated expressions, but even this did not conceal her beauty in the slightest.The box office of this movie was very high in North America, so Li Ya took it as a representative work and sent her resume everywhere, and gradually received some roles in TV dramas: prostitutes, strippers, waiters in Chinese restaurants...
Sun Wan is not an actor, and she doesn't understand "Actor's Self-cultivation" at all, so every time she sees Li Ya's passing face in these films, she will feel an unspeakable sense of desolation.Afterwards, she would have some resentment towards Zhuo Lincheng—even though she knew that the resentment was unjust.
After the idea of divorce popped up, it kept lingering in Sun Wan's mind, which disturbed her unbearably.She is not a person who doesn't know what to do, since she got married, Zhuo Lincheng has never put any pressure on her, on the contrary, he has given her a lot of consideration in a proper way.If it were someone with rough lines, she might enjoy it, but Sun Wan's intuition reminded her all the time that there must be some hidden problem between her and Zhuo Lincheng.Like the insomniac who waited for the last shoe to fall to the ground, Sun Wan's heart would not be truly at peace if this problem did not erupt.Therefore, rather than saying that she wants a divorce, it is better to say that she wants to let the "shoe" hanging above her head fall quickly through the matter of divorce.
Of course, she knew better than anyone else that she had no initiative to divorce.As long as Zhuo Lincheng doesn't let go, she will never be able to really get rid of it.What's more, she couldn't find a valid reason for divorce, so it's not easy to tell the world in court that the reason for divorce is long-term unfounded worry, right?
Before Sun Wan had time to think deeply about this matter, she was disrupted by a conference.The annual conference is an important hurdle for major newspapers and periodicals to pass, and all media are actively staging an "arms race".During the conference, due to insufficient manpower, the chief editorial office transferred Sun Wan and other newcomers to the night shift.For more than half a month, Sun Wan spent every night in the newspaper office looking for sideshow pictures, looking for data, and changing text, and returning home at two or three in the morning was commonplace.
After surviving the conference, the leaders of the newspaper organized a seven-day trip to Jiuzhaigou in a very humane manner.But that trip, apart from being tiring and tiring, did not bring Sun Wan any more gains.
As soon as she returned to Beijing, Sun Wan asked the newspaper office for two days of sick leave, and stayed at home motionless to nourish herself.After going through the turmoil, Sun Wan realized how precious stability is in this world, so she suppressed the idea of divorce for the time being.
Today, Sun Wan was doing a phone interview in the office, and Lao Xia who just came back from the outside beat her chest and put a weekly magazine on her desk.
Sun Wan made a "shh" gesture to him, hurriedly finished asking the questions in the interview notes, hung up the phone and asked, "Mr. Xia, what's wrong with you."
Lao Xia grabbed the weekly magazine and shook it again, "The headlines were snatched up."
"What headlines?"
"The one from Yu Xiaofei! I've been following it for more than a month, but I didn't catch a hair, and it was missed by others."
Hearing the word "Yu Xiaofei", Sun Wan's heart skipped a beat for no reason.
"Yu Xiaofei's scandal still broke out. Look..." Lao Xia shook the weekly magazine away in front of Sun Wan, "The last time that man went to see her, it was exposed by ignorant reporters and even appeared on the cover .”
Sun Wan saw at a glance that the cover of the weekly magazine was written in exaggerated bold letters: The mysterious rich man visits Yu Xiaofei at night, and sends porridge to the boudoir, which seems to be a close friendship.
The picture on the cover is the back view and blurred profile of the "mysterious rich man".But Sun Wan only glanced at the accompanying picture, and then recognized the familiar figure, and silently withdrew her eyes.
"This reporter looks like he's going to leave, but the copyright fees for those photos alone are enough for him to pay for several years." Lao Xia sighed a few times, and threw the weekly magazine on Sun Wan's table, "It's okay to see That report was really well written, learn from it."
Sun Wan hummed, and said lightly, "Look at it when you have time."
After finishing speaking, she got up and walked towards the bathroom.When she walked to the bathroom, her tense shoulders unknowingly loosened, she leaned against the doorway for a while, and washed her hands slowly before returning to the office with vigor.
In the office, Old Xia was leaning on the sofa chair to make a phone call, smoking a cigar leisurely, shaking his feet rhythmically on the desk, and said vaguely: "It's not easy to gossip recently, Yu Xiaofei's popularity won't dissipate for a while...I'm not saying you're not as popular as her, but I'm saying that you're pure and pure, and you haven't had scandals in your debut for a few years, so there's something interesting about it. You're sexy, so it's time to explode a few photos. Give me photos that are not too salty, it's hard to attract any attention... Afternoon tea? Okay, I happen to be free right now."
Lao Xia sat up from the chair energetically, grabbed his bag, and went out the door without looking back.
When the door slammed shut, Sun Wan, who was writing furiously, subconsciously stopped the tip of the pen, resting her forehead with one hand, and mechanically drew horizontal lines on the paper with the tip of the pen.After a long time, she put away the fountain pen in her hand, picked up the weekly magazine that was set aside, turned to the headline, and read it word by word.
After returning home from get off work, Sun Wan simply took a shower and took out a bag of instant noodles from the kitchen to soak in it.While waiting for instant noodles, she lazily leaned on the edge of the counter, biting her chopsticks and staring blankly.Before three minutes had arrived, there was the sound of keys turning the lock at the door.
She stood up straight, turned her head to look at the door, and just in time saw Zhuo Lincheng pushing the door in.
After changing his shoes, he took off his formal coat and hung it up, walked to the kitchen door, and asked calmly, "What's for dinner?"
Sun Wan lowered her head and looked at the instant noodles intently, "I didn't know you would come, I didn't prepare your meal."
Smelling the smell of instant noodles, Zhuo Lincheng frowned, "Don't eat this."
Sun Wan said casually: "I have to work overtime at night to catch up on drafts, so I really don't have time to do other things. Or you can go out to eat."
Zhuo Lincheng walked behind her, gently pressed her hand to serve instant noodles, "Go outside to watch TV, I'll make it."
Sun Wan didn't want to argue with him on such a trivial matter, so she nodded and went back to the living room.
Zhuo Lincheng opened the empty refrigerator, picked out the fresh chicken breast, found a bag of shiitake mushrooms from the cabinet, and skillfully cooked the porridge on the induction cooker.
The TV program at the dinner stall was really hard to watch directly. After changing the channel around, Sun Wan nestled listlessly in the corner of the sofa, holding the remote control to her chin, and glanced at Zhuo Lincheng in the kitchen from time to time.He rolled up his shirt sleeves neatly, and patiently diced chicken breast and shiitake mushrooms, and finely shredded ginger.
He still vividly remembers the embarrassment he cooked longevity noodles for Li Ya a few years ago, and in the blink of an eye, he has been trained by Li Meijing to become a qualified cook.
Sun Wan secretly likes to watch him do housework.One is because it is rare, and the other is because he can always handle the messy and trivial housework cleanly, efficiently and quickly.
The news network was still broadcasting global current events, and Zhuo Lincheng had already put the chicken porridge on the table.He set the dishes and chopsticks, called "Sun Wan", and seeing that she was not moving at all, he walked up to her, took her arms and dragged her up from the sofa, brought her to the dining table and sat down.He sat down at the main seat, and pushed a bowl of juicy and shiny porridge in front of Sun Wan.
Sun Wan scooped up some porridge and put it into her mouth. The delicious and delicate taste made her suddenly unable to swallow, so she put down the spoon wearily, "Eat it by yourself."
As he was about to get up, Zhuo Lincheng looked up at her, "It's not to my liking."
"I simply don't want to drink porridge."
Zhuo Lincheng paused for a few seconds, found the phone, and dialed out, "Old Chen, go to Huayuan to pack—"
While speaking, he turned to look at Sun Wan, "What do you want to eat?"
Sun Wan was a little annoyed, she pushed away the chair, but her tone was very calm, "I don't want to eat anything, I just want to stay quietly for a while."
Zhuo Lincheng glanced at her, said "no need" to the other end of the phone, hung up the phone, and started drinking the porridge without saying a word.After finishing the porridge, he went to the master bedroom on the second floor to take a shower as usual.Sun Wan thought that he would leave after taking a shower, but unexpectedly he went downstairs in his nightgown, apparently intending to stay overnight.
Seeing Sun Wan nestled in the corner of the sofa unhappily, he walked up to her and leaned down, holding the armrest of the sofa with his left hand, and gently scratched the bridge of her nose with his right index finger, and said in a low voice, "You look like this, it's very difficult." Like a grumpy cat."
Fresh water vapor and the aroma of red maple came out from his clothes, and there was a heart-pounding aura in his eyebrows and eyes.
Sun Wan stretched out a finger and pushed him, "You blocked me from watching TV."
Zhuo Lincheng sat down beside her with a good temper and watched TV with her.Sun Wan deliberately switched the TV to a certain variety show on satellite TV that he hated the most, and let the exaggerated and harsh laughter deal with him.
Zhuo Lincheng watched with her patiently for more than ten minutes, and finally couldn't help reaching for her remote control, and lowered his voice, "Are you hungry now? Why don't I go make you hot porridge."
As soon as Sun Wan heard the word "porridge", she felt a little uncontrollable, and blurted out sarcastically, "Not all women in the world like to drink porridge."
Zhuo Lincheng nodded knowingly, and completely muted the TV, "Why vent your anger on the food? If you have any questions, you can ask me frankly."
"Where did I get angry?" Sun Wan moved her legs curled up on the sofa to the slippers, and said while putting on her shoes, "I just don't like to work overtime when I get home, it's as simple as that."
"Can you listen to my explanation? Our company recently collaborated with Ms. Yu on a film, so I can't help but have some work contact with her."
"Forgive my ignorance, I don't know what kind of work contacts, including things like 'sending porridge to the boudoir'."
As soon as the words came out, even Sun Wan herself felt the sour smell in the air, so she stopped the car in time and changed the topic, "You don't need to explain anything to me, as I said, I don't want to ask about your work dealings at all."
A smile flashed across Zhuo Lincheng's eyes, but his tone was very sincere, "Some time ago, due to a mistake made by a technician in our company, Ms. Yu broke her arm while filming and stopped work to go home to rest. I came back from Hong Kong the day before yesterday and heard that After the news, I decided to take Holly to see her. Seeing her eating potato chips at home alone, I felt a little bit unbearable, so I left Holly to accompany her, and went nearby to pack porridge for her. That’s how it happened.”
Sun Wan sat there stiffly for a while, her tone subconsciously softened a little, "What's none of my business? I'm going to write a manuscript, you can do it yourself."
Zhuo Lincheng stretched out his hand in time to pull her back to the sofa, his right arm naturally wrapped around her waist, and hugged her into his arms.He pressed his lips against the tip of her ear and asked, "Are you sure making up gossip is more important than being with me?"
In the year since their marriage, they have never gotten along with this scale.Sun Wan felt that his enthusiasm for her had suddenly revived, and she couldn't help shrinking a bit, pretending to be calm, "If I can't make up that gossip today, I will die a miserable death at the conference tomorrow. Mr. Zhuo, smash it!" A human job is like killing one's parents, are you sure you want to forge such a sworn feud with me?"
Zhuo Lincheng's hand slowly moved along her back, "Since you like gossip news so much, why don't you sit down and listen to me tell you some exciting things slowly."
Sun Wan grabbed his wrist and pressed his palm tightly, "Will it be more explosive than the night spy actress?"
Zhuo Lincheng paused, opened his mouth and bit the tip of her ear.
Sun Wan stretched out her hand to push him away, cast a sidelong glance at him, got up and went to the second floor.
Sun Wan sat lazily at the desk, flipping through a movie magazine. On the computer screen, there was only a symbolic introduction in the white Word document.In fact, she didn't have any manuscripts to rush at all, she just used this as a shield to escape from Zhuo Lincheng.
Perhaps it was because the lumps in her chest disappeared. After sitting for half an hour like this, Sun Wan felt a little hungry, and the gradual emergence of hypoglycemia made her unable to concentrate on doing things.Bored, she clicked on a revenge-themed stand-alone game hidden in the D drive, and started playing it intently.The protagonist of the game is a humanoid rabbit who can fight. After the family was wiped out, this rabbit embarked on a long road of revenge.All the player has to do is to control the rabbit with the mouse and keyboard, and kill more and more powerful enemies with eighteen kinds of weapons.
Sun Wan has already forgotten the original intention of playing this game. Perhaps this theme can vent her inner unhappiness. After more than half a year, she can gradually assassinate a squad of enemies by herself.It's a pity that with her reflexes, the road to revenge has been stopped on a grassland.
Suppressing the discomfort in her stomach, she spent half an hour letting the rabbit pass through the checkpoint in the desert and enter the deadly grassland.The wolves on the grassland bared their teeth and rushed at the rabbit. Sun Wan couldn't handle it and had to run away.Fortunately, the game has an escape system, as long as you run out of the enemy's sight, you have a chance to survive.
At the critical point of escaping for his life, Zhuo Lincheng's knocking sound suddenly came from the door.
Sun Wan minimized the game in fear, still pressing the escape direction key with one hand, and grabbed the magazine just now and covered it on the keyboard with the other.
After the door opened, she just turned her head to ask a question when she saw the bone china soup bowl in Zhuo Lincheng's hand.
Zhuo Lincheng put the bowl on the desk, "Huayuan's abalone juice maw, drink some as a midnight snack."
见他的目光往电脑屏幕上瞟去，孙菀啪的一声急急合上电脑，用小匙挑了一片花胶放进口中，用鲍汁送下。
卓临城嘴角一挑，定下神来，随手从书架上抽了一本外版书，倚坐在书桌上，垂首翻阅起来。
一盅老火高汤下去，孙菀腹中饥渴全消，原本苍白的脸上云霞蒸蔚，透出些动人的艳光。
孙菀记挂游戏，见卓临城似乎不急着离开，清了清嗓子，说了句贴心话，“这种光线看书，貌似对眼睛不好。”
卓临城眼皮略掀了一下，将书翻过一页，不动声色地说：“怎么，我打搅到你做什么事情了吗。”
“没有。”刚喝完人家的靓汤就立马过河拆桥的事情，孙菀到底做不出，她讷讷补了一句，“你看你的。”
她打开电脑，装模作样地在Word里敲了几句流行音乐的歌词，又假装没有灵感，走到一旁的杂志架上翻查起来。
卓临城抬头看了她几眼，终于忍不住问：“你在找什么。”
“在找一篇软文的资料，主人公是做时装设计的，要求我们要用大段文字赞美她的设计，刚好这种大段的赞美不是我擅长的。”这倒是实话，所以孙菀说来一点都不费思量，“我记得有本杂志曾经做过一个设计师专题，想翻来借鉴下。”
“何必这样麻烦？”卓临城指着书架顶端的某一格，“如果我没记错，那里附近有一本拉尔夫·劳伦的传记。”
“谢谢。”孙菀从一旁搬来人字梯，爬到顶端，手指从那排专业书籍上滑过，“没有。”
卓临城扶着梯子，十分肯定地说：“在里面那层。”
“好吧，再信你一次。”孙菀将外面那层书一本本取出来，递给下面的卓临城，嘴里念叨着，“拉尔夫、拉尔夫……找到了！”
就在这时，梯子上的孙菀忽然咦了一声，将另外一本书抽了出来，“居然还在。”
卓临城瞄了眼那本书的封面，一时没有说话。
孙菀从梯子上轻轻跳下来，将书举到他面前，“你怎么把它收在这么隐蔽的地方。”
那正是当年孙菀送给卓临城的见面礼，书的塑封已经被撕了，从封面上的折痕不难看出，卓临城曾翻看过。时隔多年见到旧物，孙菀倍觉亲切。那上面的法文她虽一个也不认得，但还是很有兴致地翻着。
见卓临城眼里似有微妙的笑意，孙菀不禁掩了书，半真半假地说：“连我送你的书都要束之高阁……你既然这样不待见我，又何必大费周章和我在一起。”
卓临城眼底的笑意越来越深，似乎有往唇上蔓延的趋势，仿佛她刚说了什么好笑的话。
孙菀有点恼，将书丢去一旁，抿唇去看那本拉尔夫传。
卓临城抽掉她手里的书，扳过她的身子，强忍着好笑说：“假如你认识法文，我想你也绝不会把它放在众目睽睽之下。”
孙菀隐隐意识到了点什么，脱口问道：“这是什么书。”
“亨利·米勒的……”
“啊！不要说了！”一听到这个名字，孙菀如被烫伤般低低尖叫了一声，脸刷地红了。虽然从未拜读过亨利·米勒的作品，但孙菀绝对知道该作者的作品因“肉欲”“露骨”被禁十数年。送他的书给初次见面的男人，不如直接送本色情大碟好了。太糗了，无怪当时卓临城会用那种眼神看她，此情此景下，孙菀恨不得马上找条地缝钻进去，永永远远不要出来见人。
“很高兴这还是最原始的未删节版。知道我收到这本书的第一想法是什么吗？”卓临城目不转睛地盯着她番茄似的小脸。
“我不要听。”孙菀掩住耳朵，连脖子都红了。
“我在想，这真是很高明的挑逗。”
孙菀想也不想，抬手就去堵他的嘴，“不许再说了。我根本没有那个意思。”
卓临城借势将她裹入怀里，含混地说：“没有那个意思是吗？不幸地通知你，你的无意之举，成功地挑起了我对你的……”
“啊！”孙菀踮起脚，双手用力捂严他的嘴，难堪得要死。
卓临城深沉的眼眸里透着星点亮泽，他放任她捂着，目光炽热地在她涨得通红的脸上游移。不知是那盅花胶的功劳，还是太过羞涩，连她的唇上都透出冶艳的胭脂色，平日里过于冷静的眼睛湿润得好像要哭出来。自认识以来，他从未见过她如此含羞带怯的小女儿情态，一时起了坏心，想去触她的底线看看。
他一口咬住贴在他唇上的她的无名指，柔软的舌头纠缠着她的指尖。
她触电般松开手，含着点怒意，戒备地仰望着他。
卓临城喉头一动，贴着她往身后的书架压去。他故意转移她的注意力，一边紧紧抵住她的双腿，将她禁锢在自己和书架之间，一边拿起那本小说，翻到其中某一页，在她耳边念了起来。
优雅动听的法文小蛇般钻入她耳朵里，不安地蠕动，引得她耳朵一阵酥麻。她难受地躲开他的呼吸，拼命往后缩着，恨不得缩进书架里。
卓临城本意只是捉弄她，不料念完那段文字，真正被挑起的反倒是他自己。他将书抛落在地上，捧住她的脸，低头吻在她玫瑰花般的唇上。一股沐浴露的味道混合着她身上的淡香钻入他鼻端，变本加厉地催开他心底的欲望。
他温柔地厮磨她的唇瓣，一只手小心翼翼地探向她的后背，在她光滑的脊背上缓缓游移。彼此鼻尖相触，他在她的唇上吐气，“需要我帮你翻译吗？去寻找我们爱巢的这天，我们都非常兴奋。每到一幢楼前按响门铃后我总是拥抱着她，一遍又一遍地亲吻她……”
他的声音低下去，开始一遍一遍亲吻着不停颤抖的孙菀。他的手缓缓解开了她睡裙的带子，徘徊在她最敏感的腰窝处。
孙菀一次次避开他的唇舌，又一次次被他攻陷。到了最后，她所有的反抗都变成了孱弱的哀求，“卓临城，不要这样。”
他再一次将她垂下的脸抬起，撬开她的牙关，舌尖绕着她的唇齿打转，将她吻得天旋地转，“那这样好吗。”
孙菀做“濒死”前的挣扎，然而，在他的掌控下，这挣扎只是让自己的睡衣越来越快地滑下。他的手毫不迟疑地沿着她后脊玲珑的曲线滑到她的胸口，在那团柔软处轻轻揉捏。很快，她的身体忠实地对他做出回应，他闷哼一声，双唇随即贴在她的胸口上，在她的乳尖上吸吮舔舐。
孙菀紧张得连脚趾都绷紧，她的头颈、肩膀靠在书架上，身体与书架形成了一个怪异的弧度，赤裸的胸口在他的唇下剧烈起伏着。她哑着嗓子，用自己都陌生的声音呢喃道：“不要……”
卓临城抬起头，目光深深地看着她。他的脸红得厉害，额上布满了细密的汗珠，表情像是在极致的痛苦和快乐中煎熬着，“来不及了……不要怕，这是很快乐的事。”
他抬手抹去她眼角的泪珠，固执地将她的睡裙全部褪去地上。
骤然而来的裸露让孙菀重重颤抖了一下，双手本能地掩住胸口，望着他摇头。
卓临城有那么一瞬的犹豫，但也只是一瞬，汹涌的情欲便将他的意志冲溃。他深吸了一口气，将她打横抱起，快步走向自己卧室的大床。
如果说之前他的动作还是有预谋的挑逗，接下来便只剩下本能。他幼兽般深浅不一地在她脖子、胸口、纤腰、大腿内侧啮咬着，一只手准确地在她周身的敏感处爱抚、揉捏。
孙菀迷乱地陷在他的床上，除了喘息，再发不出别的声音。她的眼睛是湿热的，身体内外也是湿热的。在极度的混乱里，她的脑海里呈现出一些奇特的想象，她觉得自己此刻像粘连在蛛网上的小虫，而他就是那以她为食的狩猎者，他用他的唇齿麻痹了她，再用有毒的体液将她融解，最后一点不剩地将她吸食成一只僵硬的空壳。
他在她奇异的联想中进入她的身体，低头将她的痛呼声吸入腹腔，只叫她随着他的节奏发出压抑的呻吟。
来势汹汹的冲撞与密不可分的肢体纠缠让孙菀数度濒临窒息。她的身体里，所有感官都在消退，只剩痛感与快感相互交替。到最后，她的身体渐渐适应了他的磨砺，便连那点痛也消退，只剩下让她羞耻的快感在四肢百骸里激荡。
“菀菀，叫我。”他在极致的兴奋里下令，额上的汗珠滴落在她白得透明的身体上，“快。”
孙菀十指在他的腰上抓出红痕，万分纠结地叫道：“卓……”
报复性的冲击几乎将她碾碎，她闷哼一声，叹息似的呻吟道：“临城……临城……”
所有的激情和欲望在她的声音里炸开，他从快乐的巅峰跌落，慢慢伏在她湿透的身体上。世界终于冷却了下来，静得只有他们的呼吸。
不知道过了多久，卓临城从她的身体里退出，轻轻在她唇上落下一吻。见她一动不动躺着，他双手探入她的腰下，将她从床上抱了起来。
他将她抱去浴室，轻轻放在浴缸里。热水从浴缸龙头里流出，他随手往热水里倾入一些缓解疲劳的精油。见她弱弱地抱膝瑟缩在一角不动，仿佛中了妖怪的定身法，他且是好笑且是爱怜，于是也跨进浴缸，在她身旁躺下。
水漫至胸口时，他挤出一团沐浴乳抹在她潮红未退的后背上，正要帮她擦洗，仿似入定的孙菀终于鼓起勇气抬眼看他，嗫嚅说：“我自己来。你先出去。”
声音虽纤细，态度却很坚决。
卓临城深觉挫败，这样快她就恢复了过河拆桥的本性，急着将他从身边踢走。
他嘘了口气，从舒服的热水里跨出，走到花洒下，将身体简单冲净擦干，如她所愿，套上浴袍出了门。
孙菀目送着他离开，缓缓舒展开身体。她低头望着水面，身体一点点往水下滑去，直到整个人都沉入热水里。
她闭气平躺在宁谧的水里，只有这样，才能控制自己的心绪，不去想刚才发生的事情。但无论她怎样回避，身体里若有若无的痛楚，以及体肤里经久不褪的亢奋都在提醒她，很多东西都变了。
洗完澡，孙菀着实在浴室里扭捏了好一阵，才找到出门面对卓临城的状态。打开门，却见卧室空无一人，她匆匆瞥了床一眼，被单、床单都换了新的，全然没有刚才的凌乱。
她原准备偷偷摸回自己房间，走到楼梯口时，还是忍不住退回到书房门口。手在门把手上停滞了几秒，她推开房门，朝里面望去。
只见换了白色睡袍的卓临城端坐在电脑前，抱着她的本子，聚精会神地玩着被她暂停的那款游戏。荧幕的反光照得他的侧脸线条冷峻利落，而他的眼神里又有一种孩子气的专注，配上略有些凌乱的半干头发，像是年轻了十几岁。
感觉到孙菀在身后，他目光往这边一斜，却没有急着做声。他鼠标频点，将兔子的长棍换成匕首，手起刀落干掉一个近身偷袭的敌人，才开口，“过来。”
声音里有点让人无法抗拒的温柔。
孙菀脚不听心地朝他走去，装模作样地找碴，“干吗乱动别人东西。”
“看你逃得太狼狈，有点不落忍——都快逃到地图尽头了。”卓临城几乎在颊边笑出一只酒窝，“害我费很久才走回来。”
孙菀尴尬道：“促狭鬼。”
卓临城很快打完一关，回过头来，“再过来一些。”
孙菀作势要走，“困了，没心情观战。”
却被卓临城拦腰抱住，他将她拉到自己腿上坐下，抬手将她圈抱在怀里，一手握着鼠标，一手按着键盘，专注盯着屏幕，“不用太久。难道你不想第一时间看到自己大仇得报。”
孙菀回头反驳，“我哪有什么大仇。”
“既然没有，何必整天让我看到你那么苦大仇深的样子。”
“有吗？”孙菀还要狡辩。
“卓太太，麻烦把头靠在我胸口，你挡我视线了。”
孙菀有点想和他翻脸，但终究没有那样做。也许是被他抱在膝上的感觉太好，好到让她想起幼时被爸爸宠爱的感觉。她倚在他胸口，静静听着他的心跳，“这是在哪里？好多狼！”
虽是游戏，但玩得多了，孙菀不免对被狼群咬得血肉模糊这种事心有余悸。
卓临城下巴抵在她的头顶，漫不经心地说：“不用怕，其实很好对付，先去引一只狼来追你，等它追到你身后时，忽然按住Shift不放，再按鼠标左键，就可以给它一个致命的回旋踢。不过操作要快，起码要这样快——”
说话间，他飞快出手，屏幕上，兔子在一个漂亮的回旋踢后，快速拔出腰刀，在敌人身上补了一刀。收起腰刀后，兔子几个纵身，飞去地方的哨塔，干净利落地暗杀掉所有放哨的敌人。
孙菀屏着呼吸看他操作，短短几分钟，他不断变换战术，毫无滞意地干掉整排敌人。过关的音乐响起，屏幕提示马上进入最后一关，孙菀不甘地问：“以前玩过。”
“没有。”卓临城姿态优雅，在游戏里杀敌不眨眼。
“骗人。第一次怎么玩得这样好。”
“主页面写着操作说明。”
孙菀忍无可忍，“不公平。以后再也不玩了。”
卓临城十指灵活闪动，操控着那只浴血奋战的兔子，慢吞吞地回道：“以你的反应力，我比较推荐你玩推箱子或者数字九宫格……”
孙菀转头，隔着浴袍在他肩上咬了一口。
卓临城不闪不避，从容飞出几把飞刀，躲开蜂拥而来的敌人，“大敌当前，夫人还是不要红袖添乱。”
孙菀无言以对，嘴角轻轻一撇，老老实实窝在他怀里看他在虚拟世界里横扫千军。
一番精彩的厮杀后，激昂的通关音乐响起，卓临城低头轻吻她的头发，“满意了吗。”
孙菀勉强地点头。
他微笑着伸出手合上电脑，将孙菀抱去了隔壁房间。