Chapter 66 4. Meeting for farewell

Memory is a way of meeting, forgetting is a form of freedom. —— Gibran (one) Lu Shi discovered that from the beginning of studying abroad until now, she has been traveling all year round, and she has an inexplicable sense of intimacy with the airport no matter where she is. Domestic airports often change a lot. A certain airport will suddenly be under construction. After a while, the driver asks whether to go to Terminal 1 or Terminal 2, and she will be a little confused for a while; a certain airport is so old that time stagnates The feeling of feeling, only to see the old look changed again when I come again.The waiting room, which was once crowded and filled with handicrafts and souvenirs, has been transformed into a spacious, bright, and impeccably modernized room. Wandering in it, she just felt that it was neat and tidy, without any sense of intimacy.

Foreign airports are relatively fixed. In a certain airport, she would consider it lucky that she did not encounter luggage loss or airport staff strikes; moved. No matter where she is, when she hears that the flight is delayed due to various reasons, she is not as anxious, irritable or even angry as other passengers, she just sits quietly, as if she is among strangers, away from the trivial matters of the family, and ignores the paperwork in the office Lao Xing is a rare time for her to relax personally. She tried hard to recall when this mentality started, but she clearly remembered that she went on a honeymoon trip in the year of marriage, and when she was waiting for boarding at Dubai Airport, she suddenly had an uncontrollable urge to smoke.She said hello to her husband, Su Jie, and walked alone in the terminal decorated with palm trees. Her eyes were full of men in togas and sleeves and women with tight coverings. After walking a few hundred meters, she found a smoking room. There was no one of the same gender as her, so she could only withdraw in embarrassment...

In a blink of an eye, her marriage has passed the so-called seven-year itch smoothly.Taking care of her family and career, she is a successful woman in everyone's eyes. However, the sore back of her neck makes her feel tired and tired at the moment.Meeting a nagging acquaintance in the VIP room disturbed her even more. She found an excuse to come out, went to the basement level of the terminal building, opened her laptop to process an email, and then read the magazine she just bought. The phone rang, and it was from my five-year-old daughter, who asked softly where she was and when she would be home.She also softened her voice to answer her, and reported her itinerary seriously: "Mommy will go to the city where your uncle works for two days first, and after finishing things, you can go home to accompany the baby."

Putting down her mobile phone, she felt slightly melancholy, and planned to discuss with Su Jie after returning home, to take off part of the work and spend more time at home with her daughter. "Little yes." A voice called her softly from one side, and she raised her head in surprise. Standing in front of her was a tall man, wearing a black T-shirt, showing a healthy figure, with a backpack on one shoulder, and handsome eyebrows. The room is slightly weathered. Lu Shi had to hold the laptop on his lap with his hands to stabilize his mind. She once recalled him, every time he was at the airport, sitting alone, waiting for a flight that was either on time or delayed. I can indulge my mood.

What she didn't expect was that they had such an indissoluble bond with the airport. They broke up at London Heathrow Airport and would meet again at Guangzhou Baiyun Airport. "Shaokun—" she called his name, and then fell silent. Greet each other, are you all right?Do you want to ask each other about the next trip? She felt that it was inappropriate, and she had thousands of words, choked in her throat, but she didn't know what to say. Shang Shaokun broke the silence, and smiled at the little girl with curly hair that appeared on the screensaver of her notebook: "Is it your daughter? She looks so much like you, so cute."

"She is five years old, and her nickname is Baby." The two were silent again, and at the same time remembered that he had also called her baby. The daughter’s nickname was given by Su Jie. At that time, Lu was in the pain and weakness after giving birth. Hearing him bend over and call the pink baby baby, her heart was so full that she didn’t have any thoughts or ideas. objection. It wasn't until her daughter grew up that she vaguely remembered that there was a man who was four years younger than her, but called her baby during intimate moments, with infinite love. She was acutely aware that her youth was gone forever.

(two) Lu Shi met Shang Shaokun when he was twenty-five years old, and he was only twenty-one years old at that time. He is a tall and handsome boy, casually dressed, with short-cut hair, free and easy, he walks with long strides, but has a lazy posture when he is still, with an unruly personality, as if he keeps an eye on the world around him distance. Her heart was hit immediately, and she felt the throbbing that she thought she would never be able to feel.She had received a strict family education since she was a child, although she was a bit indulged in fantasies, she hid it very well, and always maintained a ladylike demeanor, never indulged in capriciousness, never overjoyed and sad, only in front of him, she could not help showing a childlike air.

Those were the three years in her life that she would never repeat. The first time they were together was after Shang Shaokun returned home from the funeral.He was apparently devastated by the sudden and untimely death of his uncle, and was kept in a house in the suburbs of London. She is not good at comforting people, she just cooks for him every day after get off work, drinks with him, and listens to his stories about the past that he doesn't usually mention. He lost his parents one after another when he was young, and was adopted by his distant uncle.The cousin takes pity on him and treats him as his own, and the cousin who is slightly younger than him also has a good relationship with him.Subconsciously, he had already regarded his uncle as his father.

When he hugged her drunkenly, she could sense that such a need was not pure passion, but she didn't want to refuse at all. If he wanted to let go of grief by letting go of the body, she wanted to let go of the body by letting go of pity. They became an unpopular couple. Wearing his sweater with the sleeves covering the back of his hands, he took him to drink beer in the middle of the night; visited notorious nightclubs with him in a not-so-safe area of ​​London; braved the severe cold to accompany him to watch the match between Manchester United and Liverpool , knowing nothing about the rules, but cheering with the crowd; driving a second-hand car, speeding on the English country roads.

There is no past, no future, no goal, no plan... This is the first time she lives like that, and while enjoying it, she is contradictory. The four-year age gap wasn't a problem as he wrapped his strong arms around her and called her baby in her ear.However, with a little distance, the feeling of heartbeat gradually calmed down, and she couldn't help but think about her future life.Her parents have always been inclined to let her go back to China, and she slowly began to hate marriage, hoping to have a more stable and calm life, no matter where it is: there is a house with a garden, roses and herbs, and a dog; kissing her husband goodbye every day , go to work separately; when the time is ripe, have at least two children; and then slowly grow old together...

She didn't think she was greedy, but it was obviously not what Shang Shaokun wanted at his age. His uninhibitedness is not only manifested in actions, but has always been somewhat rebellious.Halfway through my university studies in China, I ignored any advice, dropped out of school and came to the UK with no intention of further study. I worked in a company run by a Chinese, doing small-scale import and export intermediary business. Some enterprises avoid policy and tax system risks.In her opinion, after graduating from a prestigious school, she is not really a business student.In his spare time, he travels all over the world. What he loves is calling friends and having fun, but he is not keen on enjoying reading, listening to music and cooking food at home, which she prefers. Lu is able to accept differences, and believes that personality differences may be the key to attracting each other.Family background is not the focus of her consideration.She even thought that as long as the two reached a consensus, it would be a big deal to marry abroad first, and her parents would still bless her later. The only problem is that Shang Shaokun has no intention of getting married at all. He is even more resistant to children, bluntly saying that he does not want to bring them into this turbulent and unsafe world without asking for their opinions. Seeing that he, who loves life, excitement, and crowds, has such a pessimistic side, she had to be surprised, and tried to comfort him: "You are not the first person to be pessimistic about the world and the future. From the lost generation to the hippies, they all think that there is no hope in this world and that it will end sooner or later. But you see, everyone continues to live in the same way, and as long as they are not demanding, each can find his own fun." "I've never been too demanding on the world, so I don't think it's difficult to have fun, but I'm not sure about myself. It would be nice if I could make my uncle not too disappointed in me. I'm afraid I can't bear the burden of having a child and growing up with him properly. Big responsibility." "Is it your purpose in life not to disappoint your uncle?" "That's one of them," he thought for a while, and she was full of expectation that she could become one of the other ones, but what he said again was, "When I first came out, I still wanted to pretend to be a fake, so that my aunt would not see it." Flattered me. But after two years of maturity, I realized that I was really naive. She didn't actually look down on me, but we are two types of people, and we can't make each other agree." She thought, did she occupy a place in his heart?Two people are already so close, how can they not plan a future that belongs to them?Is this man really as mature as he thinks he is?Are he and she also two types of people, and it is difficult to find an identity? If there are doubts in a relationship, it will be difficult to maintain sweetness.During this period, they had a friendly and frank conversation, tried to separate, and were ready to retreat back and be good friends.But it didn't take long for her to realize that this idea was a joke. What her foreign classmates and colleagues could easily do became an impossible task for her.She couldn't be content with being friends, and seeing other girls strike up a conversation with him and completely withdraw from his life circle, she couldn't see it, she couldn't bear it. She couldn't restrain her desire to be with him: if being well-mannered and well-bred can't save a person from the pain of falling out of love, then it's not a sin to give in to him. No matter how insensitive Shang Shaokun was in such a dilemma, he could still feel the struggle of the road. Finally one day, Lu Shi saw him talking and laughing with another British girl, acting like no one else was there. He clearly saw the pain in her eyes, but he refused to back down at all, and his hand was still on the girl's shoulder. Lu knew that he rejected her and made the decision for her. In an instant, she also made a decision—to resign from her job and return to China, across an ocean, to a different continent, and to cut off all greed and reluctance. Shang Shaokun went to Heathrow Airport to see her off.Although it is known as the busiest airport in Europe, Terminal 5 is still considered quiet. It was a rare day when the weather was fine and there was no mist affecting the take-off and landing of planes. Everything is running step by step, and no one cares whether a woman is saying goodbye to love here or rushing to a new life. He accompanied her to check in her luggage in an orderly manner.She originally wanted to show him a handsome back, and stop worrying about her thoughts, but she still couldn't help holding his hand: "Shaokun, have you ever loved me?" He stared at her with rare gentleness: "I have always loved you, I just couldn't love you in the way you expected, I'm sorry." She tried her best to hold back the tears with her eyes wide open, and told herself that she could wave goodbye, her lips moved, but she was afraid of choking, so she could only walk towards the security check in a hurry, and when she was about to go in, she turned around again. He was still standing there looking at her. Just watch. She once rented TVB dramas with her friends, and knew that at such a moment in the TV series, those who left would struggle to escape even after passing the security check, and those who stayed behind would definitely book a flight to catch up. However, she clearly knew that it was someone else's plot, they would not do this, and they would forget each other in the rivers and lakes. (three) "Xiaoyes, which city do you live in now?" "I live in Shenzhen. How about you?" "I still travel all over the world. I have spent more time in Brazil in the past few years. However, I bought an apartment in downtown London, which is my only real estate." Lu Ye clearly remembers that she yearned for a house with a garden and a rural life, but for the convenience of going to work, she could only rent an apartment in the city; he was so lively that he rented a house with a garden in the suburbs , but have no intention of taking care of it at all, and even attracted complaints from neighbors.She couldn't help laughing: "I thought you didn't like London." "London in the summer is nice." Once the conversation begins, it ends in generalities, from the status quo to the weather when the Englishman has nothing to say.Both of them realized this, but they were helpless. Facing this still handsome man, Lu Shi didn't feel much joy in his heart, he had mixed feelings, and he truly realized that the fleeting time is changing, time is ruthless, and the most clear thing is sadness. Shang Shaokun changed his standing posture. Lu Shi was always sensitive, so he immediately took his mind off: "Are you in a hurry?" He showed her the boarding pass in his hand. He was going to the capital city of a province adjacent to her destination. The plane took off half an hour earlier than her, so it was indeed time to go through the security check. "Actually, I sat there for more than an hour, and went to the bookstore to look through all the books that weren't an eyesore. I passed by you once, and only saw you when I heard you answering the phone just now. Damn it." "It's good if you don't know each other." She smiled.Baiyun Airport is not too small, and the terminal hall on the basement floor is also very large. There are so many people coming and going in such a hurry that they don’t have time to look around. It’s also fate to stop for a voice, “After all, we haven’t seen each other for many years, and I’m getting old too.” "Nonsense, you are not old at all." She accepted this compliment with a smile, knowing that at the age of thirty-six, she was still in pretty good shape, and hadn't shown the slightest sign of decline.Is this a stealing consolation?There was a hint of self-deprecation in her smile. "Go and board the plane." "I'm planning to go back to China for a while, and I haven't bought a mobile phone yet, so give me your number." Lu Shi shook her head slightly, and finally she was able to clearly reject him once: "No, Shaokun, if there is fate, I hope we can meet again. But if you call, you and I probably don't know what to say." Shang Shaokun also smiled: "It makes sense. Goodbye, Xiaoye." Seeing that tall figure walking towards the escalator, Lu thought, the airport is really a good place to say goodbye. Everyone is here just for a while, coming and going.No matter how bad the weather is, no matter how serious the delay is, it will not cause a panic that will linger forever. This person whom I haven't seen for many years has a mature and melancholy attitude, and he is no longer the unrestrained big boy when he fell in love with her.The image living in her memory suddenly became blurred, and she was not happy to see him again, nor was she disappointed that he disappeared into the sea of ​​people again.Who can tell whether the reunion is a good thing, who can face the closest person who has ever been closest to appearing in front of him with a strange face? The way is to pick up the laptop bag, step on the escalator, follow the flow of people into the security check, and walk to the boarding gate. There is another journey after one journey, passing by countless people, including him. In the end, they all have their own destinations. (Four) Lu Shi came home from a business trip and accidentally saw Su Jie sitting on the floor with the baby building blocks.Seeing her, the baby cheered, got up and rushed towards her, bringing down all the built blocks. Baby Xuxu told her what happened in the kindergarten and at home: "The new foreign teacher is Jane, with a pair of green eyes"; "Luo Luo put sand in my hat again, and was criticized by the teacher"; "Xiaoqi accidentally broke the globe, and the teacher said it's okay"; " Dad took me to see a circus performance the day before yesterday, I like that white tiger"; "I'm going to have a little brother" ………… Lu Shi was enjoying the sweet and soft taste of his daughter, and was suddenly frightened by this sentence. Su Jie, who had been silently looking at them, smiled: "Baby, maybe it's the little sister." He turned to his wife , "Yi Min is pregnant. Su Zhe told the baby the news. She was so excited that she probably told every child in the kindergarten." Su Zhe is Su Jie's younger brother and Bao Bao's uncle, and Yi Min is his wife.Lu Shi breathed a sigh of relief, raised his eyes, and saw the playfulness in Su Jie's eyes, he couldn't help being embarrassed.Of course, he was aware of her instant misunderstanding just now. Lu Shi cooked the kitchen himself, made a dinner, told the baby a story, finally put her to sleep, and then went to the study to answer emails, but was a little absent-minded for a while. Su Zhe is Su Jie's half-brother. When she met him for the first time, she was taken aback. Su Jie was already considered a handsome man, but he couldn't just be described as handsome.He has an exceptionally outstanding appearance, and the uninhibited look between his brows made her think of someone involuntarily. When Su Jie talked about his younger brother, he hated iron and steel similarly to his father.She laughed, not everyone is suitable to use a secular standard to measure value. This tolerance can only come from her memory of the man she loved.She secretly admitted that there is a type of man who really cannot be restrained, and women can't help pampering them. However, Su Zhe gave up his freedom and began to fall into a long and tortuous love affair. Unlike her and Su Jie, who each have a good family background, they can be called a good match, and their parents are optimistic about their success.The girl named Shao Yimin came from a divorced family. When Su Zhe dated her, his father expressed his clear disapproval.However, Su Zhe's attitude was equally clear, and he said calmly: "No matter what you think, she is the person I want to live with for the rest of my life." Such a free-spirited uncle, admired by many girls, always has an indifferent attitude towards everything, doesn't care about losing his father's favor, doesn't care about being separated from the huge family property, suddenly acting so persistent and serious, shocked Lu Shi. Love can change a person in this way, and she failed to make another person change for her.She knew the comparison was meaningless, but she was still melancholy. She couldn't help but pay attention to their marriage, and to the quiet and humble girl. They are so in love. Once she came to this conclusion, she had mixed feelings when she thought about her marriage. Just like Su Zhe's elder Shao Yimin was seven years old, Su Jie happened to be seven years older than her, but she had never acted like a little girl in front of him.Of course, when we met for the first time, she was a mature woman who was nearly twenty-nine years old. When two sensible people decided to marry, they didn't seem to put interest in the first place. She only knew from other people's chats that Su Jie was known as a prodigal son when he was young, but his absurd time ended at a certain period of time, and then he calmed down and devoted himself to work. She didn't ask who he changed for and why he changed.She thought that since she decided to bury a relationship in her heart, she didn't have to rummage through other people's secrets, and everyone probably adapted to life in different ways. She was not without fear, and even wanted to sneak away on the eve of the wedding.Of course, it was just a thought, which was suppressed in the end. They got married smoothly, with a grand occasion and numerous guests, far better than Su Zhe and Shao Yimin's later small and low-key wedding. But she couldn't help but think that if she had a choice, what she wanted might just be like Su Zhe and Shao Yimin: to be stared deeply by a pair of eyes, to be held tightly by a pair of hands, and to be witnessed by the closest relatives. She had to restrain her mind and remind herself not to be distracted. In a blink of an eye, she and Su Jie have lived together for seven years, have a lovely baby, and can be regarded as a harmonious couple in both career and life. that is it. Putting a hand on Lu Shi's shoulder, she turned her head and Su Jie looked at her. "are you tired?" "A little bit. I think I should slow down a bit and focus more on the baby." He nodded: "The baby will be very happy. By the way, I will hold the meeting the day after tomorrow. You can spare time to attend the opening ceremony of the art exhibition." She was slightly surprised: "How do you know that I want to attend that opening ceremony more?" Su Jie smiled: "When you were discussing the opening ceremony with the curator, I was by the side, and I know how much thought you put into it." He was so careful, she felt a warm feeling in her heart: "Azhe must be very happy, right?" "Happy and nervous, when eating, Yi Min leaned over to get a tissue, and he kept saying 'I'll come'." Su Jie shook his head with a smile. She could imagine the way Su Zhe looked at Yi Min, and she couldn't help smiling and lost in thought. "Maybe we should have another baby." She froze, and asked after a while, "Do you want a son?" "Boys and girls are fine." He replied succinctly, "I remember that when my stepmother gave birth to Azhe, I was also happy. I feel less lonely when I have another child in the family." Having two children was once part of her dream, but this man had the same idea.She sighed slightly, smiled and said, "I'll think about it." Even if there hadn't been love and passion between them in time, what bound them now was something stronger, she thought. Fortunately, she has been through it, and she still has all the good memories. Thank you for having each other in your life; Some encounters are just fragments of life; Having some memories is another way of meeting; If you forget each other, it is also a kind of relief, no regrets.