Chapter 37 Chapter 83: The Wind Blows into the Cold and the Sound of Pines Since Ancient Times

In the cold night of late autumn, Shen Zhenzhu followed Li Yu back to Chang'an, got off the carriage, changed shoulders and entered the palace city. The entire East Palace shook.Bright lights outside the Mingde Gate, hundreds of officials, servants, and court ladies gathered and waited. Zhang Hanruo was wearing his usual purple skirt and brocade peepers, combing a bun with a veil of leaves and walking up, glamorous and luxurious. Seeing Li Yu dismounted, he was far away. She greeted him with a smile, and said coquettishly: "Your Highness is finally back, but I worry about it day and night." While speaking, he stepped forward to pull Li Yu back.

Li Yu smiled slightly, then stepped back a few steps, and helped Shen Zhenzhu off his shoulders. Zhang Hanruo froze for a moment, and couldn't help stepping back, Shen Zhenzhu's abdomen swelled slightly, anyone could tell that she was pregnant.She was stunned for a moment, then immediately took Shen Zhenzhu's arm and said with a forced smile: "Sister, you are back too." Shen Zhenzhu felt her fingertips trembling slightly, and couldn't help feeling sorry for her, holding her hand, and said softly: "Han Ruo Sister, you are more and more beautiful." Zhang Hanruo's eyes were dim, and he passed Li Yu's body inadvertently, but Li Yu looked at Shen Zhenzhu alone, his eyes were unbelievably gentle, as if there was a foreign object faintly cruising in her heart, and his face was still smiling brightly, " Your Highness doesn't say anything, but misses my sister all the time in my heart, it's good that my sister comes back!"

Li Yu clung to Shen Zhenzhu's hand, and said: "It's very windy here, don't worry about talking, it's not too late to go back to the palace and talk about the past slowly." Just as he was speaking, he saw someone striding towards Fenghua Gate from a distance, In a blink of an eye, she came to Shen Zhenzhu, threw herself together, knelt down under Shen Zhenzhu, hugged her knees tightly, and cried loudly: "Miss, miss! You are finally back!" It was Su Ci. Shen Zhenzhu forcibly lifted Su Ci up, and wiped away her tears: "My good sister, why do you have to give such a big gift, I haven't thanked you yet—thanks to you for taking care of Shier these past few years." Looking carefully at Su Ci, Depressed and haggard, in two or three years, he seemed to have aged several years, and felt even more apologetic.

Hearing Shen Zhenzhu say "Shi'er", Su Ci hurriedly wiped away the tears on her face, turned her head and waved: "Bring Xiao Shizi quickly." Behind her was an old nun and several court ladies, just because she was walking without her Go fast and lag a little behind.The old mother held a boy in brocade clothes by her left and right hands.The one on the left is a little taller, while walking, turning those extremely bright and huge eyes, staring at Shen Zhenzhu curiously; the one on the right is a little younger, blinking his eyes and looking around, then lowered his head shyly .

Shen Zhenzhu just glanced at the boy on the left and knew that he must be her suitable son.He is more than five years old, looks like Li Yu, and has her charm in his eyebrows and eyes.It has been nearly three years since she cruelly abandoned him, and he will definitely not recognize his mother, and the corners of his eyes can't help but shed tears. When he got close, Li Shi caught a glimpse of Li Yu, and immediately called "Daddy" cheerfully, let go of his feet, and slammed into Li Yu's arms.Li Yu lifted him up high, and after a long period of intimacy, Fang let him down, pointed to Shen Zhenzhu and said, "Shi'er, your mother is here, call your mother quickly."

Shen Zhenzhu squatted down, called "Shi'er" with a choked voice, and wanted to embrace Li Shi into her arms.But Li Shi moved his small body, broke away from Shen Zhenzhu's arm, fluttered his eyes, and timidly leaned on Suci, and asked in a childish voice: "Auntie, who is she? I don't know her." Shen Zhenzhu's heart was pierced, and Su Ci said: "She is your mother. She left the palace when she was very young, and now she is back." Li Shi was very serious, "Then why did she leave the palace? Isn't it the palace? , or does she not like Shi'er?" Li Yu bent down and said, "Neither, your mother left you temporarily because of something very important. Look, isn't she back now?" He stretched out his hand to caress Li Shi's The little head melon said, "Hey, call me mother."

Li Shi shook his head, squeezed directly on Su Ci, and shouted: "I won't bark, I won't bark! Everyone else has a mother, and brother Jiong also has a mother, but I don't have one. Everyone laughs at me. I don't want a mother, I don't want this mother!" Li Yu was a little angry, raised his hand and said: "If you are so disobedient, Daddy will beat you!" Shen Zhenzhu hurriedly pressed Li Yu's hand, tears streaming down her face: "It's because I haven't fulfilled my responsibility as a mother, don't Force Shi'er, take your time." Li Shi had already burst into tears, Li Yu let out a long sigh, waved his hand, and ordered the nanny to take Li Shi back first.Suci led the young boy up again, and said, "Jian'er, kowtow to your mother." Shen Zhenzhu then knew that this was Suci's child, named Li Jiong. Although Suci had not been named, the boy had already Recognized by the Royal.Li Jiong was extremely obedient, immediately stepped forward and knelt down, and earnestly kowtowed three times to Shen Zhenzhu.

Because it was late, Li Yu saw that Shen Zhenzhu was quite sad, so he told him to rest early, and Zhang Hanruo and Su Ci went back to their residences. Li Yu arranges Shen Zhenzhu to live in Yichun Palace, and immediately takes Xiuying to Daming Palace to meet Suzong. Yichun Palace is in the northeast of the East Palace, adjacent to Yichun Beiyuan. Zhang Hanruo has lived in Yiqiu Palace since he was accepted as Liang Di, facing Yichun Palace from east to west. Su Ci and the other three concubines Teng It lives in the Ming Fuyuan next to the Dianshan kitchen. Shen Zhenzhu wandered around the Yichun Palace for a while, the giant mica flower and bird screen, the apricot pillars, and the purple gold brocade curtain hanging down from the ceiling, everywhere was rich and prosperous, which made her a little uncomfortable.

The moonlight pierces through the gaps in the forest, embracing each other with the shadows of trees outside the palace, black and white intertwined, criss-crossing.Shen Zhenzhu thought of Shi'er, what she owed her child was a huge debt that was not cleared, and she had to do her best to make up for it, maybe it's not too late. Lying on the couch and slowly falling asleep, I don't know how long it took before I heard a slight sound on the side of the couch.Since she was pregnant, she had a very light sleep and was easily frightened. She would go to sleep and wake up several times every night, half-closed her eyes, and it was indeed Li Yu, who smiled at her and said, "I woke you up, go to bed quickly." Still sleepy, turn around and go back to sleep.

After waking up again, Li Yuwu leaned on the side of the couch with his clothes on, looking at her tenderly, seeming to have deep meaning.Shen Zhenzhu smiled, put her arms around Li Yu's neck, raised her head and said, "What are you thinking about?" Li Yufang came back to his senses, and said with a smile, "I was thinking, how can I get Shi'er to call you mother." Shen Zhenzhu thought for a while, She said in a low voice but resolutely: "Don't worry, I am his biological mother after all, as long as you love him and love him, you will eventually recognize me."

Li Yu saw her eyes flickering and her cheeks glowing under the shadow of the candle, he couldn't help being moved, he supported her waist, and slowly kissed her lips, unable to restrain himself for a while, Li Yu caressed her gently. Her abdomen, "Does it matter?" She blushed and shook her head gently... When he woke up the next day, he was lazy and sleepy, and Li Yu was not on his pillow.Shen Zhenzhu opened the curtain, it was already daylight, and Li Yu sat in front of the table with his back to the bed.She stared blankly at his back for a while, but he still sat still. Shen Zhenzhu got up quietly, and walked slowly behind Li Yu, feeling her heart stagnate.On the white jade case, there was the dagger she carried with her, the sheath glowed with a black and cold luster, just like silently sipping the gray and unruly figure.Li Yu's eyes remained fixed on the dagger. "Cu", she always only called him by his old name, and put her hand on his shoulder. Li Yu suddenly stood up, and suddenly overturned the white jade case, making a "tong" sound, and the footsteps of the servants outside and inside flocked, but no one dared to knock on the door and come in.Shen Zhenzhu backed away in fear, Li Yu took a deep breath, stared closely at him, and shouted angrily: "Hello, you are fine! You hid the things he gave you next to you, since you have followed me back to the palace, why do you still have that in your heart?" Him?" His voice was so loud that the four pillars trembled. He continued to sternly: "A woman like you, I will never pay any attention to you again!" After speaking, he turned his head away from her, and walked out without hesitation. Shen Zhenzhu was dazed at first, but at this moment she rushed forward, ignoring that her skirt was dragging to the ground and almost tripped, she fitted her body and hugged most of his body. Li Yu took a step, but did not look back. She said: "Why do you want to deceive others and yourself? I am pregnant. Are you afraid that I will be sad again?" His body trembled slightly, but he still said solemnly: "What are you talking about?" "You clearly know that I have never empathized with him. Why did you say that on purpose today? You seemed furious when you overturned several cases, but you were actually cautious, and you were afraid of accidentally hurting me; when you scolded me loudly, you were actually bluffing. There is no real anger at all; you just turned around and were about to leave, you couldn’t bear to look at me again, for fear of seeing me sad..." Shen Zhenzhu turned around, met his gaze, and said slowly: "What are you afraid of? ? You caused a discord with me and let everyone in the palace hear it. Did you do it on purpose? You came back so late last night. What do you know? You are afraid that I will be hurt again, so you deliberately provoked me today?" Seeing her gazing at him tenderly, Li Yu's beautiful eyes were like gems, and there was even more calmness in the gorgeousness. He couldn't bear it anymore, and stretched out his arms to hold her tightly in his arms, and said, "Pearl, I'm the one who can't help you!" , you can bear with it for a few months. Now that the emperor is critically ill and the empress holds great power, I am afraid she will do everything to me. If she knows that I am still the same as before, and I value you the most, she will definitely start against you I'm very worried, I'm afraid I won't be able to protect you well, I can only watch you quietly in the past few months, you must take care of yourself." Shen Zhenzhu rested her head on his chest for a long time, Fang shook her head and said, "I'm not afraid." Startled, Li Yu straightened her body: "What did you say!" Shen Zhenzhu smiled lightly, and then said firmly: "Chu, since I am your wife, I must retire with you at such a time, how can I hide quietly by myself. Of course I can't help you, but I can't help you." Wishing to be with you day and night, I finally got together with you and Shi'er, I have missed too much, I don't want to live up to the time." A kind of tenderness like water flowed from her eyes, penetrating into his heart bit by bit, but he still said anxiously: "But, you know the Queen's tricks, even if I add more guards, I'm afraid it won't work." It's impossible to guard against." Shen Zhenzhu said: "What should come will come. Besides, the empress is so cunning, you may not be able to hide her from your actions today. Why should we waste so much time for her!" Li Yu was still waiting to say more, Shen Zhenzhu had already covered his mouth, leaned against his chest slowly, and said: "There is no need to say any more, just let it be like this." Because Su Zong was seriously ill, Li Yu and Shen Zhenzhu didn't snuggle together for a long time, and hurried to Daming Palace again. Shen Zhenzhu picked up the dagger, wiped it carefully, and put it in her arms. Mo Yan sips, I can only miss you in this way, for the rest of my life, that's all. Just about to go to see Li Shi in the Women's Hospital, the maid came forward and reported: Someone outside Guangyuan Gate asked to see him. She has an unexpected guest. Murong Linzhi. Murong Linzhi always seemed to come and go like the wind, and suddenly appeared when she didn't expect it. This time, Murong Linzhi was wearing a green robe and a plain scarf, looking at him from afar, he looked like a handsome man.As soon as they met each other, Shen Zhenzhu turned away from the left and right sides, and said with a smile: "What a handsome scholar, why do you dress up like this?" Murong Linzhi turned around in a circle and said with a smile: "I have no other choice. I want to see you, but I am afraid that people in the palace will recognize me and force me to treat your majesty's illness." Shen Zhenzhu was surprised, "Why not treat His Majesty's illness?" Murong Linzhi disapproved, and smiled contemptuously, "I am a doctor, not a Buddha or Bodhisattva, and I am not willing to heal everyone." His eyes quickly swept away and settled on Shen Zhenzhu's abdomen, his complexion changed slightly, "You are pregnant body?" Shen Zhenzhu nodded peacefully and happily. Murong Linzhi had already held Shen Zhenzhu's hand, frowned slightly, and said: "Come on, let me take your pulse." Shen Zhenzhu was exactly what she wished for, so she sat down with Murong Linzhi and let her listen to the pulse. However, Shen Zhenzhu saw that Murong Linzhi had been feeling his pulse for a long time, at first he was concentrating on it, then he pursed his lips tightly, his two beautiful eyebrows were furrowed tighter and tighter, his cheeks turned white.Murong Linzhi's medical skills are superb, and today he showed such an expression, which made Shen Zhenzhu's heart skip a beat, and she asked in a low voice as if inquiring, "How is it? Is the fetus okay?" Murong Linzhi still put his hand on her pulse, and remained silent as if in a trance, Shen Zhenzhu was so anxious that she asked repeatedly: "What's wrong?" After asking several times, Murong Lin Zhifang slowly raised his head, with tears in his eyes, as if full of sadness, he was speechless for a while.Shen Zhenzhu was a little panicked, thinking that she was seriously ill on the way back to Chang'an, although she rarely felt unwell in recent months, but looking at Murong Linzhi's expression, could it be that the fetus will not survive?In the midst of impetuosity and anxiety, Murong Linzhi had already stood up, tightly grasping her pair of bright wrists, tears streaming down her face: "Why are you pregnant? How can you make yourself pregnant again?!" Shen Zhenzhu didn't understand what it meant, she said in a daze, "What did you say?" Murong Lin Zhi fell back on the seat, hid his face for a while, finally raised his head and said to Shen Zhenzhu: "I can't lie to you, I'd better tell you the truth—" Shen Zhenzhu knew that the situation was very bad, but her heart calmed down, she raised her head calmly, and said: "Lin Zhi, tell me, after all these years, no matter what the result is, it will not be a serious problem to me." Murong Linzhi choked up, "It's all my fault. I didn't tell you and Li Yu when I was treating you back then—you were very sad back then, and you suffered a major setback. Your body needs to be recuperated." Shen Zhenzhu said: "Isn't my illness cured back then? Besides, in the past two or three years, I have not had any discomfort, and some minor ailments have recovered very quickly." After a fever, only taking ordinary medicinal materials can reduce the fever and recover. I told Murong Lin in detail. But Murong Linzhi jumped up against the case, frowning in pain, "This is the most dangerous thing. You don't know how you have spent the past two or three years, especially how you have tried to support yourself in the past year - look at your body. It looks tough, but in fact it is strong on the outside, but on the inside, it must be known that a person's life is like a lamp, which can only be dimly illuminated by adding ointment and continuing the flame from time to time. But you—” Shen Zhenzhu lightly pressed her abdomen, gritted her teeth and asked, "How about me?" Murong Linzhi turned his head to the side, shook his head and did not speak.Shen Zhenzhu said loudly: "Lin Zhi, tell me!" Murong Linzhi raised his head to look at her with tears in his eyes for a long while, and finally spit out eight words: "burn the ointment to continue the sundial, and the lamp will dry up when the oil is exhausted." Adding insult to injury." Shen Zhenzhu has been in danger countless times, and she survived from a near death, which is almost a miracle.Unexpectedly, death came to her in such an unexpected way. When she finally realized the myriad phenomena of life and the true meaning of love, it struck her like a landslide, and came to her mercilessly. She forced a smile: "It looks like you can't do anything about my illness." Murong Linzhi shook his head, tears streaming down his face, "Even if the gods come down again, they will be powerless to save the people who have lost their chances of life." "How long can I live?" The two remained silent for an unknown amount of time before Shen Zhenzhu asked quietly. Murong Linzhi thought for a while, "It's only three to five months. If you're not pregnant, maybe you can last a little longer: a year, or even longer." Shen Zhenzhu breathed a long sigh of relief, "It turns out that without this child, I can only live a little longer. It seems that this child came at the right time, it is not a mistake!" Murong Linzhi wept and said: "It has come to this point, why are you still talking about the fetus in your womb?" Shen Zhenzhu took Murong Linzhi's hand, and said solemnly: "Lin Zhi, I beg you for two things, you must help me." Seeing that Murong Linzhi was listening, she continued: "The first thing, I beg you You help me, let me live until the day I give birth to the child. No, live to three months after giving birth, I know that with your medical skills, I can still do it, right?" Murong Linzhi burst into tears, nodded and said, "Okay, I'll help you, I'll stay in Chang'an right now, and treat you all the time." Shen Zhenzhu said again: "The second thing is, don't let Li Yu know about this!" Murong Lin felt dejected, and just said: "Why do you have such good intentions." Shen Zhenzhu said: "He has been very sad for me, I can't bear it." Murong Lin thought to himself: No matter how unbearable it is, there will be a day. "Although I can use medicine to save your life for a few days, but the longer the pregnancy, the weaker you will be. You must be careful not to show your weakness in front of him." Shen Zhenzhu nodded, "I'll save it." Forcing a happy face to change the topic, "I forgot to ask you just now: Why do you miss me all of a sudden and want to come to Chang'an to see me?" Murong Linzhi took out the incense towel and wiped away the tears on his face, and said, "This is quite a coincidence. I was practicing medicine in Xiliang country three months ago, and I met a girl named Xue Hongxian, she was very lively and lovely. , I hit it off with her at first sight. What's more, she said that she had a very good relationship with you. Thinking that we haven't seen you for several years, I invited you to come to Chang'an to look for you last month. For some reason, I was in Chang'an After waiting for a month, not only you are not in the palace, but even Miss Xue has never shown up. This morning, I heard rumors in the market that the prince and princess are returning to the palace, so I hurried to look for you." Shen Zhenzhu also missed Xue Hongxian very much, and after hearing this, she felt a little joy in her sorrow. At this point, Li Yu hurried in with the famous imperial physician.With sharp eyes, he recognized Murong Linzhi at a glance. Seeing that both of them were tear-stained, he joked, "You sisters meet, why are you so teary-eyed. Lin Zhi, since you are here, why don't you stay for a while longer?" , you are like a ranger, you have to leave and don't know when you will meet again." Shen Zhenzhu forced a smile and said: "Who said she wants to leave? Lin Zhi intends to stay in Chang'an forever, and will leave only after I give birth to the baby." Li Yu was overjoyed when he heard that, he waved the imperial doctor to step down, and said excitedly: "Thank God that there is no need for other doctors when you are looking at Pearl!"