Chapter 16 Chapter fifteen

There is no place in this world that can be warmer than his embrace. His breath and his heartbeat will be my best memorial. Qi Shuli didn't eat lunch at home, he went out to socialize.I couldn't eat, and sat in the garden alone in a daze. I couldn't see the lake under the hillside through the dense forest, but my eyes never left there.I knew he didn't dare to come up, and I didn't dare to see him, but it was only ten minutes away, but it seemed like a world away. Finally, in the afternoon, Monica called and asked me to play in her new apartment, saying that Cui Yingzhu was also there.They are my friends in Seattle, I met at Seattle University, and the three of them are often crazy together. Monica is French. After graduating from Seattle University last year, she worked as a translator in a French-owned company. Choi Young-joo is from South Korea. She studies design and is still studying for a master's degree at school.Because of our similar personalities and our interest in each other's cultures, we are always happy when we are together.I have learned a lot of French with Monica, and my daily spoken English is no problem, but I am still half-baked at English after two years of learning. They laugh when I speak English. Except for Qi Shuli, probably few people understand my English.Cui Yingzhu often made kimchi for us, but she didn't look like a traditional Korean woman at all. She had a fiery personality, very aggressive, and talked with fists and kicks at every turn.Among the three, Monica is the most elegant, good at dressing up, full of femininity, and brings us perfume every time I come back from France. Under her influence, Choi Young-joo and I both like to use perfume.And I asked someone to bring small gifts from China to them every now and then, which was also very popular with them.

Monica's new apartment is on Parliament Hill Street, not far from my place, and it takes half an hour to walk there without taking a car.As soon as I entered the door, they hugged me and kissed me. Yingzhu even grabbed my neck and pushed me against the wall, asking me why I let her dove several times.My God, don't you say that Korean women are gentle and virtuous?Why do I look like a dominatrix?I saw her strangling my neck, and simply kicked me over, because I had already taken off my shoes before entering the room, and my damage was not strong, so she picked me up by the waist and fell to the ground, and the two of us were on the wooden floor." Hit" up.Ever since I met this dead girl, I have been affected by it and have a serious tendency to violence. The two of them often "hands and feet" before they can say a few words.

Monica's new apartment is very beautiful, with wooden floors, panoramic floor-to-ceiling windows, European-style furniture, and the French romance is perfectly interpreted here in Monica.Generally speaking, the bathtub is placed in the bathroom, but this young lady actually put the bathtub in the bedroom. Yingzhu and I asked why, and Monica replied in French: "Oh dear, who said that the bathtub must be placed in the bathroom , don’t you think it’s more romantic to put it in the bedroom?” I shook my head with Young Joo. "Imagine," Monica coaxed, "when I'm dating Polk and I'm in the tub and he's lying in bed admiring, he can see me and I can see him. Either in bed or What a romantic passion in the bathtub, I tell you, I moved into this apartment because of this bathtub."

I see!Yingzhu was fine, but I was blushing and heartbeating. Monica's boyfriend Polk is from Norway. He is in the watch business. I have met him twice. He is a very elegant gentleman. This afternoon we went shopping first, then cooked and ate in the apartment when we came back, and drank some wine that Monica brought back from France. Three crazy women were barefoot, holding wine bottles around, Dancing, singing, and making noise until late at night. I think I drank too much. When I staggered to my home in the Lake District, I fell on the grass in the garden before I entered the door. The grass was soft and comfortable, and the sky was full of stars. I fell asleep right away. , voices came from beside me in a daze, Julia's first, "Sir, Sir, come here. Miss Cathy is here!"

"Cathy, Cathy, wake up!" Someone slapped my face, like Qi Shuli.Then I was carried in. I have no memory of how I got upstairs or how I fell asleep on the bed. When I woke up in the morning, the room was full of sunlight, my head hurt a little, and my memory came back little by little.I felt a little suspenseful in my heart. Qi Shuli must be unhappy when I came back so late after drinking last night. Normally I can mess around, but he doesn't like drinking.I washed up nervously, and went downstairs, Geng Mochi was already waiting on the sofa, he was wearing a navy blue shirt and white trousers today, with an air of elegance and nobility blowing across my face.

His employer, Qi Shuli, was sitting next to him with a stern face, smoking a cigarette on his own, and when he saw me going downstairs, his face became even uglier, "I thought you couldn't get up, you drank like that, do you still need to learn the piano today?" "Of course I have to learn." Before I could speak, Geng Mochi said first, "As long as I have breath, I will not let my students be lazy!" He got up and walked to the piano, pointed to the piano bench and said, "Come here, Play the tune I taught you the day before yesterday." The tone is completely commanding, without any emotion.

I obediently went over and sat down on the piano bench, lifted the piano cover, and started playing without daring to look at him.He pulled a chair and sat down next to me, watching me play with a serious face.Qi Shuli, who was sitting behind us, didn't make a sound, watching all this silently.With my back to him, I couldn't see his expression, but I could still feel his sharp eyes piercing my chest from behind.The atmosphere was a little stiff. I peeked at Geng Mochi, frowning, and my face was stiff.But he is very patient. When he made a mistake, he didn’t hit my head or pull my ear as usual, but he corrected it with his hands. He spoke softly, and his questioning eyes were very gentle, which made me feel a little uncomfortable. It also made me feel the unspeakable sadness of each other.

And those eyes behind me always make me feel like I'm sitting on pins and needles.Today is not the weekend, why doesn't he go to work?Did he spy on us on purpose?This made me feel inexplicably humiliated, and I believe Geng Mochi did too, but he didn't show it. Two hours passed quickly, and I saw that Geng Mochi's face turned pale, and suddenly realized that he hadn't taken his medicine, so I quickly ordered Julia to get some water. "How are you? Take your medicine quickly." I took the cup from Julia's hand and handed it to him. "Thank you." He took the cup and quickly took out the medicine from his pocket. I noticed that his hands were shaking, obviously he had reached the limit. I watched him take the medicine in a daze, my heart was bleeding from the pain.

But as soon as he finished taking the medicine and put down the cup, Qi Shuli gave the order to evict the guest, "Are you ready? It's time for today." His tone was as cold as iron. Geng Mochi stood up and retreated in embarrassment, his face turned pale, and his steps were a little messy. "I'll see you off." His appearance made me very worried. "No need, I can go back by myself." After he finished speaking, he left the living room without looking back. Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, his figure swayed weakly in the sunlight, gradually drifting away.I also sat weakly on the sofa, tears rolling in my eyes.

"You don't need to look like this, it's like parting from life to death." Qi Shuli looked at me coldly. I gave him a sideways glance, "He's a sick man!" "Really? What about me, am I considered a sick person?" His eyes were like thorns, piercing my face unceremoniously, "I have been sick since the year I fell in love with you, and have been sick until Now, when did you pay attention to my condition with such a moving look?" "What look? What nonsense?" "The way you looked at him just now made me very sad..." "I'm suffering too now! I'm tired, I'll go upstairs to rest!" After I finished speaking, I went upstairs angrily, and he said coldly behind me: "Love is selfish, Kaoer..."

He called me "Kawer" again, not Cathy! I know how he feels, when he calls me "Cathy" I live in the present, when he calls me "Cathy", I go back to the past.In fact, he doesn't understand, since he thinks his love is selfish, he should also think that my love for Geng Mochi is the same, it's like a thorn in my heart, it's already attached to the flesh, it hurts, but I can't pull it out , how can I love others again? In the evening, Qi Shuli saw that I ignored him all day, and seemed to want to repair our relationship. After going to bed, he hugged me very tenderly. I reacted coldly and felt numb.Then simply turned his back to him. "Kao'er, don't be like this..." "His time is running out, his body is already like that, what else can he do?" I choked up and grabbed the quilt tightly. "I know, but I just can't control my jealous heart, I'm really jealous of him, I hate why I'm not him!" He reached out and pulled my shoulder, trying to make me face him, and I pulled his hand away.He didn't care, and hugged me directly, "Kao'er, don't be like this, can't I be wrong? I really love you!" He kissed my cheek and ear emotionally, and his breathing became short of breath... When he got up to go to the bathroom, my tears dripped silently on the pillow.Soon he fell asleep.And I was still awake, the pain in my body was far less than the pain in my heart.I don't know why, but now every time I make out with him, I feel very painful. A woman's heart and body are one.After Geng Mochi appeared, I couldn't pull my heart back from him, and facing Qi Shuli again, I was left with a dry body. It's late at night, and I still can't sleep.The slight snoring by the pillow disturbed me, so I got up and went to the balcony to breathe.The wind on the balcony was very strong, there was no moon in the sky, but the lights on the shore of the lake in the distance were still flickering, illuminating half of the sky. I looked closer, and suddenly, I found a man sitting on the bench across the road downstairs. The street light shone on him, and I couldn't see his face clearly, but I could feel his loneliness that was colder than the night.I knew it was him, and almost cried while covering my mouth! He had obviously seen me, his eyes caressed my face through the dark night, and a gust of wind blew, and I smelled his unique menthol tobacco.Yes, he was smoking, and the flickering light of the cigarette butt was like his feeble heartbeat, which hurt my eyes especially in the night.I gestured to him, telling him to leave, the wind is so strong, why is he still sitting here alone. He was indifferent to my gestures and looked straight at me... In the early morning, Qi Shuli went to the company, and I didn't even eat breakfast, so I came to the bench across the road to feel the breath he left last night.A pile of cigarette butts under the chair.I counted roughly, no less than twenty.There must be his breath on the cigarette butt!I took out my handkerchief, picked up the cigarette butts one by one, wrapped them up, and put them in my pocket. He comes to class on time every day and never stays too long, only two hours.He taught very seriously, and I also studied very seriously.Qi Shuli has never been there to "watch" again, and he also knows that staying at the scene will only make the scene embarrassing. It's God's kindness to get along with each other for two hours, and I'm already very satisfied. Every time Geng Mochi leaves, he always leaves a few cigarette butts in the ashtray.I always secretly put away his cigarette butts and hid them in an iron jewelry box.I cherish what he left behind so much, just want to keep a little more of his breath.One day he is really gone, these breaths can become my most expensive "oxygen", so that I can continue to breathe and live strong.For me, those cigarette butts are better than any expensive jewelry in this world, better than all my treasures. Qi Shuli saw that we had always been "regular", and his attitude towards Geng Mochi was much better. Sometimes when he was at home, he would chat with Geng Mochi after class, and even keep him for dinner when he was in a good mood.The two men were talking and laughing happily at the dinner table, and I seldom interrupted. People who didn't know would think that they were such harmonious and close friends. That day, I took out the jewelry box again, opened it, and counted the cigarette butts inside as usual.I think I'm really sick, what's the point of guarding this box of cigarette butts, can I keep him with these cigarette butts? "What are you looking at?" Qi Shuli's voice suddenly came from behind. I was so scared that I quickly closed the lid of the box, holding the box to my chest in horror. "No, I didn't see anything." I tried my best to make my expression more natural. "Then why are you panicking?" He looked at me suspiciously, and his eyes fell on the jewelry box, "Can you show me?" "There's nothing to see, just the jewelry you gave me before..." "Give me!" "Frank!" "Give me!" I looked at him with pleading eyes, but this obviously irritated him even more. He came over to snatch it without any explanation, with great strength, and snatched it in one go.The moment I opened the box, I realized sadly that I was done with him! "What is this? Cigarette butt? Whose cigarette butt?" He stared at me in surprise. I lowered my head and remained silent. "Say!" I still didn't make a sound. He forced out two words with a trembling voice: "...His?" I understand everything!He held the box of cigarette butts and his face turned pale. At this moment, no explanation was possible. He was so angry that he slammed the box down, and the cigarette butts scattered all over the floor.This stimulated me, "No—" I rushed over, desperately picking up those cigarette butts, crying while picking them up.This angered Qi Shuli even more, he yelled at me: "Don't pick it up!" I didn't listen to him, I was still picking them up one by one while weeping.I just keep a little of his stuff, and leave a little memory of my humble and poor love, isn't that okay? "I said don't pick it up! Did you hear that, don't pick it up!!" Qi Shuli was already roaring. I don't care about it, I only have these cigarette butts in my eyes, this is the only thing Geng Mochi can leave me, even if love is dead, let me miss his past existence, but this man in front of me doesn't understand, he is just angry, very angry anger! He stepped on those cigarette butts. I screamed and watched him crush those cigarette butts. I knelt on the ground and hugged his feet, begging him not to step on them. I became powder, and I lost control, and my screams turned into screams. The last cigarette butt was by the bed.He and I both saw it at the same time, and then rushed to the cigarette butt at the same time. I moved a little faster and grabbed the cigarette butt, but his foot stepped on my hand. "Let go!" he snarled at me viciously, his eyes were red. I lay on the ground and looked up at him stubbornly, but I didn't let go. "I tell you to let go!" He became completely strange, he looked like he was going to eat people, he was gnashing his teeth, without a trace of mercy, I almost heard the sound of finger bones shattering. But I didn't cry, I said that my fingers were connected to my heart, but the pain was so extreme that I became numb instead. I only saw dark red blood oozing from his feet, staining the white carpet red, my eyes went dark, and I passed out. In the morning, Geng Mochi came to teach as usual. I went downstairs and sat down at the piano without saying a word.My face must be ugly, he frowned and looked at me, "What's wrong with you? Why is your face so ugly?" I quickly covered it up, "It's nothing, I didn't sleep well last night." He pulled a chair and sat next to me, half-believing in my words, "Play the etude the day before yesterday again." I sat still. "Didn't you hear it? Do you want to repeat it again?" I stretched out my hand tremblingly, but I could hardly lift my right hand, the fingers were all black and blue.He grabbed my hand, "What's going on? What's going on here?" "No, nothing." "It's okay to look like this?" He held up my black and blue hand, his eyes were cramped, "Do you know that for a piano player, hands are life?" "I don't have this life, I can't become a pianist." "you have not answer my question yet!" "Don't ask, I don't want to say anything." "Kaoer!..." God, did you hear me clearly, he called me Kaoer again!It’s been so long since I’ve been in Seattle, this is the first time he calls me that. Only his calling can make me so intoxicated and heartbroken. I’m willing to suffer anything for him. "Mochi!" I grabbed his shoulder, tears streaming down my face, "Take me away, far away from here, even if I die with you, please take me away..." "Stop talking silly." "No, Mochi, for so many years, I have been trying to erase you from my life. Every time I almost succeed, I finally find that I can't live without you. If I leave you, I will die!" "Kaoer, listen to me. I'm a man. Although I'm not a good man, I still have the basic principles of being a man. You are his man now. If I take you away, what will I become? Besides, the doctor said I can only live for one year. What will you do after one year? Die with me? No, Kaoer, I don’t want you like this, I want you to live well, live for yourself, and live for me... " "No!" I threw myself into his arms, hugged his neck tightly and cried loudly, "Mochi, I don't believe what the doctor said, he's scaring you! I can't live without you, you should know, Mochi!..." "Kao'er!" He was also emotional and hugged me tightly. This is the love we fight for with our lives. Even if we are as humble as the dust, God will not favor us at all. Even if we are thrown into the deserted wilderness, as long as we can be together, even if we die in his arms, it will be fine. .There is no place in this world that can be warmer than his embrace. His breath and his heartbeat will be my best memorial.However, I overlooked that we are not in the wilderness, we are in the mansion of Qi Shuli in Seattle, this man, this man is right behind us... "What are you doing—what—what!" I only found out about Geng Mochi's admission to the hospital the next day, when his assistant called and told me.I knew it would be like this, when Qi Shuli scolded Geng Mochi, he didn't treat him as a patient at all, his heart couldn't be stimulated even a little bit, and his face turned pale at that moment.I cried and begged Qi Shuli to stop scolding him, but I was slapped, and half of my face is swollen to this day. Qi Shuli pointed at Geng Mochi's nose, the flames in his eyes almost burned the weak man in front of him to ashes, "You are really nothing, I accept you so tolerantly and let you be her teacher, but you still let me Disappointed, don’t you just want to die? You just die, what’s the big deal! Tell me to die now, I can do it too, I treat you as a gentleman in vain! Since you are going to die quietly, why bother you? Qing! You know she can't let you go, but you still come to pester you, what do you want? Do you want her to die with you? She is mine! Life is my person, death is my ghost, don't dream that I will make it happen you!……" These words came out of Qi Shuli's mouth, it was very harsh, I couldn't stand it, let alone Geng Mochi.He didn't even refute, and when he left sadly, he staggered, and Qi Shuli chased him to the door and yelled at him: "Don't enter my house again, don't let me see you in Seattle, get out! Get out of here, never again return!!" I was very confused about what happened next, and my mind was buzzing all the time. I didn't wake up until Geng Mochi's assistant called me at night, and hurried to the hospital in downtown Seattle. Geng Mochi was still in a coma. I met his assistant outside the intensive care unit, who was very young and capable. He told me that Mr. Geng was sent to the hospital in the afternoon, woke up for a while in the evening, and kept calling my name.The assistant found my number on his cell phone and called to tell me. "How is he doing?" "Very bad, I have to send it back to Japan." "Back to Japan?" "Yes, there is his intensive care doctor there, who understands his condition." "when are we leaving?" "Wait until his condition stabilizes." I have been lying on the glass window of the intensive care unit watching him, with an oxygen tube inserted in my nasal cavity, and I have to use a machine to breathe. "I'm sorry!" I begged his forgiveness in my heart, it's all my fault, my fault! When Geng Mochi woke up, it was already the evening of the second day.I lay down beside his bed, he couldn't speak, he could only look at me helplessly, and stretched out his hand tremblingly to caress my red and swollen face.I told him not to say anything, and I told him that I decided to leave Qi Shuli and stay with him till the end.He sighed and shook his head.I kept watch until midnight, and didn't go home until he fell asleep. Qi Shuli sat on the sofa in the living room, watching me go upstairs. "I'll find the best doctor for him," he said behind my back.I stood on the stairs and looked back coldly, "Forget it, it's over, I'll leave in two days, and go to Japan with him." "you dare!" "There's nothing to dare. You ruined all of this. Originally, I wanted to live with you. It seems that I can't. Please respect my choice, and please respect yourself." After saying this, I went upstairs to sleep, not in the master bedroom, but in the guest room.What he held in his arms was still the box of broken cigarette butts.I hope that I can give him the heat of life with my own temperature, even if I lend him my heartbeat, I can do anything, as long as I can keep his footsteps away! When I woke up in the morning, I saw Qi Shuli sitting by the bed as soon as I opened my eyes. The sunlight pouring in from the window behind him made his backlit face even darker.His eyes were fixed on the jewelry box in my arms.I was afraid that he would snatch it away again, so I hugged him tightly. "Get up, I'll take you to the doctor, your hand seems to be infected." He said softly. Infected hands?I stretched out my hand from under the quilt, and was startled. The entire right hand was swollen, the hair on the fingers was black, and the broken skin began to fester.I had been ignoring it before, but only now did I feel the heart-piercing pain spreading from my fingertips to my whole body. Qi Shuli looked at me wearily and helplessly, "I'm sorry! I didn't do it on purpose, you should know." "I don't blame you, you are not wrong, because I know you love me, love is not wrong! And I love him, I am not wrong, the fault is that I should not accept your love, which makes you fall into the current difficult situation Extricate yourself, just like I can't extricate myself, so don't waste time on me, I'm not worth your sacrifice, and I won't sacrifice myself anymore, just to stay with you..." "No, no, Kao'er..." He called me "Kao'er" again, and he clearly heard the determination in my tone, "I said it was my fault, I can change it, I will do anything according to you, As long as you don't leave me, Kao'er! Kao'er, you can't leave me!" Qi Shuli nervously got up and sat on the edge of the bed, stroked my face, and looked at me with a kind of pleading eyes that he had never seen before. He said a lot to me, trying to save me, but I was determined, the more he talked The more I feel that this mistake should end, I can't hurt him for the rest of his life! After I went to the hospital by myself to get bandaged, I packed my luggage when I got home. I couldn't move my right hand, so I could only rely on my left hand.After stuffing a few clothes into the box, he was ready to go downstairs with the box of cigarette butts in his arms.Qi Shuli stood at the top of the stairs, his gaze finally turned cold after he had exhausted his pleas to stay, he looked at me with no emotion in his tone, "Think about it, it's easy to get out of this door, but difficult to come in again .” "I'm starving to death outside and won't come in again." "He won't take you to Japan." "Why do you say that?" "I know him. If he takes you away, he will put himself in an unkind situation. He is not such a person." "It doesn't matter if you don't take me away, I can live alone." "What do you live on? You don't even have a place to live." "I'm temporarily staying at a friend's place, I'll be looking for a job..." "Then good luck to you!" Qi Shuli was really predictable, Geng Mochi did not take me away, and went straight back to Japan while I was busy moving.Send me a text message before leaving: Don't be angry with him anymore, go back. I rushed to the hospital in a state of desperation, and just happened to meet his assistant who was paying the medical bills. He handed me a bunch of houseboat keys, saying that Geng Mochi had given me the instructions, and asked me to take care of them. "Is he back?" I asked the assistant. "Should be, if he recovers well." "Oh, that's good, I'll just wait for him." It's really nice, I don't have to squeeze Monica's apartment, her boyfriend is often in and out of the apartment, it is really inconvenient for me to live there.I then moved my luggage to the houseboat by the lake.The inside is very tidy. Obviously, someone cleans it every day. Geng Mochi doesn't know how to clean it, maybe it's a part-time worker.The houseboat is divided into upper and lower floors, the downstairs is the place for meeting and dining, and the upstairs is the bedroom and study.I've only been here once and never been upstairs. What a big bedroom!Occupying half a floor, the room is covered with thick brushed carpets, and one side of the wall is full of floor-to-ceiling windows, facing the lake. It must be very beautiful to appreciate the dim lights on the lakeshore at night.I can't understand Geng Mochi very well. He has high requirements for life, and this doesn't change everywhere. Look at this luxurious, huge wardrobe in the dressing room full of new clothes, some of which even still have labels. No matter how bankrupt, only a fool like me believes what he said.I originally wanted to call Monica and Yingzhu to come to visit, but I thought that Geng Mochi is a person who likes to be quiet and has a cleanliness habit. Monica is fine. It’s no wonder that the crazy girl Yingzhu didn’t mess up the house when he came. I’m afraid Geng Mochi will come back. Will peel off my skin. For dinner, I made a mix of Chinese and Western mixed rice, which is to stir-fry the ham and mushrooms bought from the supermarket together, so there is no need to make separate dishes, it is delicious and convenient.While eating, I looked at the lighted harbor outside the window of the restaurant, and my mood finally calmed down.Just finished eating, the mushroom is still in the throat, the living room phone rang, startled me, who will call? "What are you doing?" was his voice. "Eat...eat." "Make food in my house?" "……yes." "I kill you!" Gosh, does that sound like a sick person's words?A few days ago he was still in the intensive care unit... "Just be careful, mess up the house, and see how I will clean you up when I come back!" He yelled on the phone, although his voice was still weak, but he still felt fierce.He has always been seldom warm to me, even if he is tender occasionally, it is mostly when I am dying, and I have been used to it for so many years. "How are you doing over there?" That's what worries me the most. "You can't die for the time being, you can still be tortured by me for a while." As soon as I heard this, my nose became sore, and my voice became choked up, "Mochi, you have to take care, come back no matter what, otherwise..." "What else?" "Otherwise how can I afford the charter fee." "Damn girl!" ... Just after September, Seattle has started its long rainy season again.Because of the influence of the warm Pacific Current, the winter here is not cold, with little snow, but continuous rain all day and all night. "It rains nine months a year." This is the classic line in "Sleepless in Seattle".In fact, from September until April of the following year, the entire Seattle area will be filled with continuous rain.On those rainy mornings after I moved out of Qi Shuli’s mansion, I stood by the side of the road waiting for the bus, watching the bus drive slowly towards me on the wet street through the rain and white mist, there was always an inexplicable feeling sentimental. No wonder the number of suicides in Seattle is always high every year, and many people suffer from depression. This has something to do with the hazy weather. Such bad weather will inevitably make people feel depressed.No, it has been more than half a month, and the drizzle is not heavy, but it is enough to drench you without shelter, and there is no sign of stopping at all, which brings a lot of inconvenience to people who commute to get off work every day.On such rainy days, you can always see all kinds of umbrellas on the streets of Seattle. The green trees in the streets and lanes seem to be washed, showing their green color. Seattle is a city surrounded by forests and lakes. Except for roads and parking lots, there is almost no bare ground. There are lush trees and green grass everywhere. Even the rain that floats around and the wind that blows gently, they all have a green color. This is the charming charm of Seattle. The location is a unique scenery that is difficult to see elsewhere. It's just that now I don't have the leisure to enjoy the style of Seattle, and the pressure of survival makes me breathless.Qi Shuli quickly froze the deposit in my account after I moved out, and even specially called me: "I froze the money in your account, if you need it, come to me!" I immediately hit back at him in broken English: "Thanks, I don't need it now. But, if I starve to death in the street, please tidy my body away and get a good rest in the heaven, OK?" (Thank you , I don’t need it yet, but if I starve to death on the street, you still have to collect my body for the sake of my compatriots, and let my soul return to my homeland, okay?)" "OK!" Qi Shuli readily agreed. will i go to himI have hands and feet, even if I go to a coffee shop to serve coffee, I will not starve to death!I immediately started looking for a job. I had no education and no work experience, so I could only serve coffee at coffee shops.I have lived in Seattle for two years and have no worries about food and clothing. I have never studied the value of the U.S. dollar. Now, I sell my labor at a low price in exchange for the U.S. dollar.I checked the accounts, and three of the four accounts were frozen, and the only one left was only more than two thousand dollars. Obviously, Qi Shuli hadn't killed me all, leaving some leeway, at least the money can last for a while before I find a job . But people are not as good as God, I haven't gone out to look for a job, but the money collector came to the door, the rent of Geng Mochi's houseboat is due, why didn't this guy say it earlier!The ghost who collects the money is a black man, tall and tall, with a grin, revealing a mouthful of dazzling white teeth, which reminds people of monsters in Hollywood horror movies.But he was very friendly and told me that Mr. Geng had prepaid the fee for three months. He asked me how long I was going to pay this time. I said to pay one month first. The black brother reported the number: "1,800 US dollars .” My legs trembled and I almost fell into the lake.But the words were already out of his mouth, and he couldn't take them back, so he obediently went back to the house to withdraw 1,800 dollars to the ghost with a big beard.I just drew that money from the bank, and it's not hot in my hand yet!I hurried back to the house and opened my wallet to count. There was less than four hundred dollars left. It was terrible. I didn’t know if I could last a month without eating bread every day. Seattle is a very rich city with a high level of consumption. No way, the top priority is to go out and find a job! It went well, and I found a job as a waiter in a large-scale coffee shop in the urban area, with several office buildings next to it.The boss is a Taiwanese with a big belly. He is very friendly and pays me by the hour.I agreed without even thinking about it. At this time, I have no right to be picky. There are coffee shops everywhere in Seattle, and Seattleites are famous for their coffee.This is the living habit brought by the rainy season to Seattle. Under the gray cloud and the water vapor all over the street, the whole road is full of dampness that cannot be shaken off. If you walk into a roadside cafe at this time, the room is full of steam The hot air and warm lights will make you temporarily forget the fatigue all over your body, and become comfortable and comfortable. Some ineffable emotions float in your mind, sometimes touching, sometimes sad, which make people nostalgic. The coffee shop where I work is doing very well. Every morning, many people who work in the building flock here. Like the other guys in the shop, I wear a white shirt, black trousers, and a big dark green apron. Shuttle between shiny silver coffee pots, at the end of the day, backache, dizziness, and tiredness when I got home, I couldn't even speak.It's not easy to support yourself. The boss and his family are all helping in the coffee shop. His sister, who is about my age, named Jenny, asked me where I lived when I got off work on the first day. I said I lived in a houseboat by the lake, and she immediately showed an unbelievable expression.Because people who live in houseboats or yachts in the Lake District are either rich or expensive, she probably can't imagine that I live in a luxurious houseboat but go to work in her coffee shop. When I got back to the houseboat from work that day, I lay down on the sofa to catch my breath as soon as I walked in.Before he could catch his breath, the doorbell rang.One question, water and electricity bills are charged.What does it mean that the house leaks and it rains all night, this is it! That's two hundred and seventy dollars missing, and I'm only left with one hundred and twenty dollars! For dinner, I made a cup of cereal and got by with a piece of bread.While eating bread, he scolded Geng Mochi, why did he live in such a luxurious boat house, how will he live in the future, there is not enough money for eating bread. The next day, I turned off my phone. On the third day, I found a part-time night job in a bar as a waiter. A week passed quickly, and I actually survived.Every night when I went back to the houseboat, after counting the banknotes, sometimes I didn’t even have the strength to take a shower, and fell asleep directly on the bed. One night, the phone rang suddenly, and it was from Geng Mochi. Wouldn't it be my life to call at this time? I complained: "It's so late, what are you calling?" "What's up, it's still daytime here." "What's up?" "It's okay, let's see if you are alive." "..." I don't know when Geng Mochi hung up the phone, I only know that when the alarm clock rang in the morning, I almost crawled out the door.When we got to the coffee shop, Jenny was already upset because I was more than half an hour late.Don't think that all Chinese can get extra attention.Here are the words she threw at me. It's winter in a blink of an eye, and the nighttime temperature in Seattle is close to zero.I decided to go to Qi Shuli's home, it was his home, not mine.First, I want to call my parents to report their safety. They are very careful and know the number. I dare not call outside. Second, I want to get some winter clothes by the way. When I came out in a hurry, I brought a few autumn clothes .进了门，茱莉娅很高兴地迎出来，“Sir hasn't come back yet.” “Oh, no problem,I'll make a phone call.”我说只打个电话。 祁树礼显然还没有将我们分手的事告诉爸妈，或者，他根本就不认为我们分手了，以为我只是耍耍小性子而已，挨不住了自然会回到他身边的。妈妈在电话里讲了一大堆的唠叨话，完了又说：“我最近找了一个老中医，很有名的，给你抓了点药，已经寄到你那边去了，不知道你收到没有……” “妈，我好好的吃什么药啊？” “还好好的呢，都两年多快三年了，还没怀上，你不急爸妈可急，树礼都是四十多岁的人了，膝下还无儿无女，这怎么行呢？你也是三十出头了，再不生还要等到什么时候？高龄产妇是很危险的……” “好了，好了，我知道了。” “知道就好，药到了要按时吃，我会让树礼监督你的。” 现在这种情况要我给他生孩子？how is this possible! 挂掉电话我就上楼拿衣服。打开衣橱，很吃惊，里面多了很多新装，连吊牌都没摘，都是顶好的牌子。显然这些衣服都是他准备的，他料到我要回来拿衣服。这让我心情复杂，他越是这样越让我觉得不能回头，他随便找个女人成家过日子都要比找我好，我不想拖累他一辈子。 “喜欢这些衣服吗？都是给你准备的。”身后突然传来温暖的问声。 I froze.他总是喜欢这样突然出现在别人身后！ 我扭头看向他，他冲我微微一笑，“知道你要过来拿衣服，所以提前准备了。” “你太费心了。” "I would." “谢谢，我现在没有机会穿这么华贵的衣服。”我随手拿出几件旧衣服，又拿了几件毛衣，还有两条披巾，放到床上，准备找东西装。 祁树礼拦在我面前，有股酒气，看样子刚喝过酒，他伸手抚摸我的脸，“我们谈谈吧。” 我拿开他的手，绕过去。他一把拽住我的胳膊，将我拉进他怀里，不由分说就吻了下来。我挣扎着推开他，“干什么，我们现在已经不是那种关系了！” “考儿！……”他满眼通红，低声叫了起来，“一定要这样吗？我们这两年不是过得很好吗？他一来，你就变了，我这么多年的付出难道仍然换不来你的爱？” “其实我从来就没变，从爱上他开始，我就是这个样子了。没有办法的事情，如果爱可以分出来，我早就分了，没有办法的事情……” 我拼命摇头，不争气的眼泪瞬间涌出眼眶。 "You are so stubborn!" “对不起，我不想害你，好好找个女人生儿育女吧，我不想你毁在我手里。”说着我抱起床上的衣服就要出去。 “考儿！”他在后面叫。 我没有回头，径直下楼。他站在楼梯上看着我出门，突然就咆哮起来：“我诅咒你们，你听好了，等他死了我再来收拾你！” 一句话刺穿了我的心。 我想我跟这个男人真的已经走到了尽头。 Monica从巴黎回来，又叫上我和英珠上她的公寓喝酒。一进门，英珠又要掐我，因为上次她约我到瑞尼尔俱乐部参加一个Party被我放了鸽子。我跟她从门口打到阳台，手脚并用，自从认识这丫头，我变得越来越粗鲁。Monica则视若无睹地在厨房准备水果沙拉，她跟我们不一样，典型的优雅淑女。 我们围坐在木地板上，一边吃水果沙拉，一边喝酒，Monica从法国带回来的葡萄酒。当她们得知我现在在咖啡店当服务生后大为吃惊，尤其英珠，充满同情地搂住我，抚摸我的脸蛋，“哦，可怜的乖乖，这么快就被甩了？” “什么话，肯定是Cathy甩人家好不好。”Monica大多时候都在帮我说话。她们都知道我跟一个华人富商同居，也见过祁树礼，对他的绅士风度印象很深刻。 “不是啦，觉得合不来就分开了。”我轻描淡写地说。 “那就搬过来住嘛，外面租房很贵，反正我男朋友去了巴基斯坦要半年后才回来。”Monica说。英珠连连表示赞同，还说也要搬过来住，三个人住一起热闹。 “不必了，我有地方住的。” “住哪儿？”她们异口同声地问。 “湖区。” “游艇？船屋？”她们又是异口同声地问。 我怯怯地点点头。 “你还有钱住船屋？！干吗要骗取我们的同情？！”英珠作势就要掐我，“死丫头，住船屋还去端咖啡，你活腻了吧，我的同情是这么好骗的吗？” 说的是韩语，整个一母夜叉。 但Monica还是信我的话，她建议我别端咖啡了，去餐厅弹琴，虽然也赚不到什么钱，但总比当服务生要好些，她有个朋友开了家法国餐厅，就在艾利略湾旁的码头区，最近正招个现场演奏师，她问我要不要去试试。这还有什么要考虑的吗？第二天我就在Monica的引荐下见到了她那位开餐厅的朋友，现场弹了首曲子给他听，虽然水准有限，但蒙蒙外行还是勉强可以的。毕竟我也学了几年，又在耿墨池这位大师的熏陶下强化训练了两个月，加上又是看在Monica的面子上，老板同意我留下来，也是按小时计酬。 艾利略湾旁的码头，游客很多，码头区是指70号码头到50号码头，在这两千多米的海岸休闲路上，尽是餐厅和卖纪念品的商店，可以眺望艾利略湾和帕克市场，连成一大片散步区。在这里开餐厅，生意通常都是很好的。码头区的游客挤满了大大小小的餐厅，路边也有很多卖运动衫的路边摊，有街头表演者，有流浪汉，公路上车子来来往往，高速公路有三层，看得人眼花缭乱，整个码头热闹非凡，跟我所住的宁静的湖区形成强烈对比。 在美国，只要四肢健全，不怕吃苦，好坏是可以混到一碗饭吃的。一个礼拜过去了，我应付得还算自如，没有出岔子。客人们其实很少会去认真听琴，他们更多的是享受这种悠然自得的氛围，跟朋友说笑聊天，钢琴对他们而言就像挂在墙上的画，只是个摆设而已，没有人会注意角落里有一个孤独的演奏者。 每天我大概会在餐厅待两到三个小时，我和另一个奥地利琴师轮流演奏。虽然钱赚得不多，但维持基本生活是没有问题了。为了保持好一点的状态，晚上我没有再去酒吧兼职。 雨还是在下，我差点都忘了晒太阳是什么感觉了。耿墨池偶尔也会来电话，日子过得很平静。但我不敢告诉他我在卖艺的事，我怕他知道了真要杀了我，因为我弹得最多的就是LOVE系列曲，拿他的曲子去卖艺讨生活，他会将我碎尸万段！ 这天是周末，餐厅的客人比平常多很多，我有些紧张，而那个奥地利演奏师却请假没来，让我一个人撑场面。两个小时不间断的弹奏，我已经把会弹的曲子都弹遍了，可老板还要我继续弹，说给我加薪水。我倒不是在乎他加不加薪水给我，而是我蒙人的水平已经发挥到头了，再弹下去只怕要露马脚，但是为了保住这份工作我只能硬着头皮继续演奏。我选了耿墨池教过我的一首新曲子，也就弹过几遍而已，疲劳、紧张，再加上曲子不熟，很快就乱套了，到后面完全不知道弹的是什么东西，台下开始有了嘘声。 弹到一半的时候，已经有人叫我下去了，我紧张得快要哭。 突然，从我身后伸过一双大手，将我从琴凳上提了起来，台下顿时一片惊叫。我被那双大手推到一边，惊魂未定，那家伙自己坐到了琴凳上，旁若无人地演奏起来，将刚才那首我弹得乱七八糟的曲子重新开始演奏。 大师啊，才一个过门，台下立即安静下来。 美好的东西总是能产生共鸣，我在这儿弹了这么多天的琴，从来没这么安静过，原来不是他们不在意琴声的悠扬与否，而是我根本就没弹悠扬过。 一曲弹毕，掌声四起。 很多人甚至是站起来鼓掌。老板也是。 我还愣着，耿墨池已经很有风度地站起身，然后气冲冲地拉起我就往店外拖，一直把我拖到店门外的街上，我转身又要进去，“别拉我，今天的钱还没结呢！” 耿墨池气坏了，“你弹成这个样子还好意思找人要钱？倒贴钱都没人听！气死我了，我教你弹琴是让你到这儿卖艺的吗？弹成这个鬼样子也敢出来卖艺，丢你自己的脸不要紧，把我的脸也丢尽了！居然还敢弹我的曲子，我的曲子是在这种乱七八糟的地方演奏的吗？音乐厅、剧场才是弹我曲子的地方！……” 他一路骂骂咧咧，我连还口的机会都没有。走到地下街入口处，他的火气还没消，又揪住我的耳朵吼：“你要是敢跟人说是我的学生，我杀了你！幸好我回来得及时，要晚点，我耿墨池一世的英名就全被你毁了！气死我了！简直气死我了！” 他一边骂还一边跺脚。 我瞅着他，突然没来由地着迷起来，他连发脾气的样子都这么帅！他回日本的这些日子，我没有一刻不想念他，住在他的船屋里，睡在他的床上，面对着灯火港湾，常常彻夜难眠。此刻日思夜想的男人突然出现在面前，我百感交集，激动得要昏厥。尽管他是在骂我，可我一个字也听不进去，看着他的嘴巴一张一合，仿佛他是在说着这世上最动人的情话。 还是太思念了！我不顾一切地扑上去，跳到他身上勾住他的脖子，动情地贴上了自己的嘴唇，他没有预料到我会有这一手，被我扑得倒退几步。我则像蛇一样地缠在他身上，贪婪地吮吸着他的味道和气息，仿佛整个世界都空了，只剩下我和他，此刻我真愿意和他化成一座雕像，在西雅图的天空下永远地展览我们的爱情。 浪漫的西雅图本来就是展览爱情的地方！ 这只凶恶的螃蟹开始是抗拒的，可是很快也开始回吻我，一只手搂着我的肩背，一只手放在我的脑后，唇舌交缠，忘乎所以。他尽可能地让我更贴近他，感受他的心跳，感受他的吻，铺天盖地都是他的气息，爱情是如此蛊惑人心！我不知道我们吻了多久，松开的时候我满脸都是泪，嘤嘤地哭着，捶着他的胸口骂：“你这个家伙，真不是个东西，把我一个人扔在这里，我不卖艺怎么办？会饿死的，你回来就只能给我收尸！” “不是叫你不要跟他怄气吗？” "Don't mention him!" “我最讨厌你这样，没头没脑！” “我什么时候有头脑过，从认识你开始就昏了头。” 他不说话了，看着我直摇头，“你手上很缺钱吗？沦落到这个地步……”他声音缓和了许多，伸手从口袋里掏出钱夹，取出一沓美元，“拿去吧，别在这儿丢我的脸了。” 一街的人望着我。 我的脸噌的一下就红了，这是什么地方啊，地下城的入口耶斯乐街，这里曾经是西雅图的鸦片馆、赌场的天下，当然还有暗娼。一个衣着体面的男人当街给一个落魄的女人美元，人家还以为我们在进行什么见不得人的勾当。我不知道耿墨池是真的不知道，还是故意让我难堪，这回轮到我发火了，我扯着嗓门叫：“耿墨池！……” 我们在联合湖区旁边的街上那家Athenian海鲜餐馆用晚餐，就是Tom Hanks在电影中用过餐的地方。耿墨池一直瞪着眼看我在吃。 “你几天没吃饭了？”他看着我的饿鬼相，眼中难掩心痛。 “反正你再不来，我就要成为本地第一个饿死在街头的华人。” “怎么回事？你叔叔把你赶出来了？” “不，是我自己把自己赶出来的。” “真不懂事！……” 这时候我刚刚吃完一大块三文鱼，抹了抹满嘴的油，伸手就冲他吆喝：“拿钱来！” “什么钱？”耿墨池愕然。 “你刚才在地下街入口不是要给我钱吗？” “那你刚才怎么不要？” 一听这话我就来火，“在那种地方给我钱，别人当我是什么？” “当你是什么？”他明知故问。 “废话少说，拿钱来！”我的手又伸了过去，才懒得跟他啰唆，帮他垫付了租船费和水电费，害我天天吃面包，这账还没找他算呢。 耿墨池没再说什么，掏出皮夹拿出一沓崭新的美元。我接过来，亲切啊，想我这些天不是在咖啡店来回奔波，就是在餐厅麻木地弹琴，为了什么，不就是为了这些可爱的美元嘛。我眉开眼笑，狠狠地亲了口钞票，亲得吧嗒直响。 耿墨池看着我的拜金样，若有所思地说：“其实我倒希望你世俗一点，你就是生活得太脱离实际了，世俗一点，也许你不会吃这么多苦。” 原来他还知道我吃了苦！ 可是回到船屋，他就大发雷霆，因为屋子里乱成一团糟，衣服袜子丢得到处都是，洁白的地毯上尽是污渍，吃剩的速食面，喝了麦片的杯子不是放在茶几上就是搁在窗台上，最离谱的是，一个没啃完的面包被我扔在高贵的钢琴上。这不能怪我的，每天在外面工作，一回来就倒头睡，哪有时间做保洁。但我知道这回耿墨池不会轻饶我，因为他一直有洁癖，最不喜欢屋子里脏乱，而且是一点都不能乱，连头发丝都不能看到一根的，岂容我把他的船屋弄成难民窟？ 果不其然，耿墨池大发雷霆，他把我扯到房中央，指着满屋的垃圾吼：“你看看，你给我看看，你把我的屋子弄成什么样了？这还是人住的屋子吗？！你还是人吗？就是只猫狗，也不会把自己的窝弄成这个鬼样子吧？！给我弄干净！马上去弄！今晚不睡觉你都要给我弄干净！”说着他又掐了我一把，“快点，搞卫生！让我找到一根头发丝我就要你的命！” 没办法，为了保住小命我只得下楼搞卫生。我搞卫生的时候，他出门去了，临走恶声恶气地说：“如果我回来你还没把屋子弄干净，今晚你给我睡大街！” 两个小时后，螃蟹回来了，只有一张床，他会让我睡哪儿呢？ 我睡卧室的地毯上，从他回来开始。 这浑蛋不仅不让我上床睡，连睡楼下的沙发都不准，理由是：“你知不知道那沙发很贵的，二十万美金你知不知道？睡烂了怎么办？！” 我想我真是疯了，不睡祁树礼豪宅的大床，跑到这儿来睡地板。第一个晚上，我们就为这事大吵一架，起因是他半夜去洗手间，没看到地上睡了个人，一脚没跨过去，绊倒了。他把我从睡梦中揪起来，我开始还以为在做梦，搞清楚不是梦时，我差点被他用被子捂死。 第二个晚上，又闹了一场。起因是我半夜去洗手间，出来的时候睡意正浓，眼睛都没睁，习惯性地跨过地毯上的被窝直接爬上了床。早上他醒来发现我睡在床上，掀开被子，就把我往床下拖，“你活腻了吧！竟然睡我的床！……”一边拖，一边还扯我的耳朵。 “我又不是没上过你的床！”我被他气得大哭。 “我现在对你没兴趣！”他冷面无情。 这下真刺激了我，我爬起来就往楼下跑，跑到船屋外坐在甲板上继续哭。已经冬天了，湖上的风很大，我穿着睡袍坐在冰冷的甲板上哭得肝肠寸断，可是他看都不出来看一下，当我已经死了似的。周围游艇上的邻居都在朝我好奇地张望…… 他还是没有出来。 “Baby,Can I do anything to help?” 隔壁游艇上的一个老太太探出窗户问我，很心疼的样子。因为我手脚都冻红了，嘴唇发乌，缩在甲板上抖成一团。一直到我哭得嗓子都哑了，冻得快死去的时候耿墨池才出来把我抱进了屋。我整个人已经处于半昏迷状态，他把我抱上楼，放到了床上，又给我盖上被子。 可我还在发抖，已经说不出话了。他俯身抱住我，将头放在我胸前，“对不起，我控制不住自己……”他紧紧地抱着我，亲吻我的脸，战栗着低语，“考儿，我不是故意的，我很想跟你亲近，可是我不能，我真的控制不住自己，我没想要这样的。” 我还在被子里发抖，泪水渗出眼角，滴落在枕头上。 他爬上床，在被子里紧紧抱住我，用体温来温暖我，一遍遍地用手摩挲我冰冷的身体，尽可能地给我更多的热量。 “我也不知道我这是怎么了，好像被魔鬼附了体，完全无法控制自己的情绪，可能是分开太久，我不知道该怎么跟你相处。这两年我过得很遭罪，每天就是不停地吃药，接受各种各样的治疗，如果不是因为思念，我早死了，我就是太思念，才硬撑着一口气没咽。我只知道我要见你，发了疯似的要见你，明知道你已经开始了新生活，我应该放弃，都是要死的人了，何苦还这么跟自己过不去。可是有什么办法，我就是个固执的人，我放不下你……” 说到这里，这个病弱却一直顽强挣扎的男人开始发抖，拥着我无力地哽咽，我知道他是想给我生命的热度，可是他现在还有这个能力吗？ 少顷，我听到他在我耳边叹气：“知道我为什么不让你睡床上吗？” 这正是我想知道的，我竖起了耳朵。 “因为我的身体！两年前动了手术后，医生就要我绝对地禁止性生活，我的心脏仅够维持我基本的生命机能，却无法提供那么强烈的激情负荷，这是医生再三强调的，否则我不死在床下，也要死在床上。可我毕竟是个男人，面对你，我很怕自己失控，带来灾难性的后果，所以我不敢过多地跟你亲近……” I see. “男人做到我这份上，真是不如死了算了！” 我在被子里翻了个身，依偎在他臂弯里，故作轻松地安慰他说：“没有关系的，螃蟹，能跟你在一起，我已经很满足了，其他的我不在乎。” “可我在乎！” "I do not mind." “你是女人，当然无所谓，我是男人！” “可我还是爱你，墨池。” “我也爱你，白痴！” 我小猫似的蜷缩在他怀里，就这么一句话，我满腹的委屈和愤恨统统都烟消云散了，世界末日也好，地老天荒也好，我只想让这一刻永恒。和他重逢这么久，这是他第一次给我如此深沉的怀抱，我几乎想都不愿去想，他是否会故态复萌。他是个病人啊，每天把药当饭吃，心里焦虑、脾气暴躁是难免的，我没有理由还跟一个时日不多的病人斤斤计较。 but-- 第二天早上一醒来，他又是老样子，在被子里狠狠地拿脚踹我，“还睡什么，赶紧弄早餐去，你想饿死我？！” 我从被子里爬起来，睡眼惺忪，不知道此刻是梦境，还是昨天他说的那些话是梦境，究竟哪个是真的呢？直觉告诉我，这一刻肯定是真的，因为他揪我的胳膊是这么的痛，做梦不会有这么疼，耳边的声音像炸雷，“还不快点，磨蹭什么！让你睡在床上，你就想偷懒吗？” 我乖乖地溜下床。 不抱希望了，他这臭脾气肯定是被他身边那些没脾气的人惯的，不要指望短期内他会有所改变。果然，此后他还是动不动就发火，不仅对我发火，还对他的助理发火。可怜他的日本助理千里迢迢跟他跑到这边来（不是上次的那个），没有一天不挨骂，最后不得不提出辞呈。据耿墨池亲口承认，这已经是他跑掉的第六个助理了。 “你当我的助理吧。”他跟我说。 当时我正在准备他午间吃的药，大大小小的瓶子摊在桌子上，猛听到这样的话，吓了我一跳，给他当助理？我不是找死吗？ 我装作没听见，没理他。 “我给你开薪水。”他开始利诱我。 “开薪水？” “当然，我不会让你白干活的。” “具体呢？具体是什么事？” “很简单的啦，就是帮我处理日常事务，比如演出邀请啊、交流活动啊，统统给我推掉。然后就是打理我的财务，签收一些报表、数据，并整理好记下来，没什么很复杂的事。”他和颜悦色地说。我还在思考中，他又加了句，“我每个月给你两万的薪水，做得好的话还会有奖励，怎么样，有兴趣吗？” “两万……” “美元！” 还是他了解我，知道我现在最喜欢的就是美元。 我答应了，想想我帮他做的事还少吗？打扫屋子，洗衣做饭，把他当爷似的伺候，可是没见他给过我一分钱报酬，顺便帮他处理一些工作上的事，就可以拿这么高的薪水，我还有什么不愿意的。万一哪天又流落街头了，总得有啃面包的钱吧？ 于是我在照顾他饮食起居之外，又多了些琐碎的事情要去做，正如他所说，并不复杂，把一些邀请推掉，再签收一些从香港那边传过来的账单报表，做好记录就OK了