Chapter 14 Chapter Thirteen

No matter what my future fate is, I must see him. After seeing him, I will live peacefully from now on, or die peacefully. I was hospitalized again.Not long after Geng Mochi went to Japan, my choked lungs were reinfected by a cold. I had a persistent high fever, then a cough and respiratory failure. I was hospitalized for a month before I was released.At this time, the year is coming to an end, and my parents called from my hometown, asking me to go home to celebrate the New Year no matter what. My mother choked up on the phone and said, "Pingping, we can hardly remember what you look like." But I entered the house on the front foot, and Qi Shuli followed me on the back foot. He called me and said that he was also coming, and wished the second elder a new year.

When I answered the phone, I was shopping with my sister in a big newly opened mall. I thought he was joking, cursed "You are sick" and hung up the phone.Unexpectedly, when my sister and I stepped into the house with big bags and small bags, Qi Shuli was sitting in the living room talking happily with his parents. When he saw me coming in, this gentleman stood up politely and nodded to me. Son!" In the next few days, he frequently came in and out of my house, giving gifts and making homely routines. He looked like the prospective son-in-law of the Bai family. In addition, he had a big scene, got in and out of luxury cars, and was accompanied by bodyguards everywhere. The most luxurious hotel in the small town can eat tens of thousands of eyes in one meal without blinking. Its style is absolutely at its peak in this closed small town. The neighbors in the neighborhood are all guessing that the boss of the Bai family has caught some big money, such a big posture!

"Don't you think you're going too far?" I couldn't bear it anymore, and stopped Qi Shuli when I walked out of the hotel after dinner, "Do you think I will accept you if you do this?" "You are so lucky to have such parents and family!" Qi Shuli looked at the sky and answered irrelevantly. "You just push your feet!" "Do you know, I haven't felt at home for a long time," Qi Shuli still looked up at the sky, and answered irrelevant questions, "Being with your family, I am so touched that I want to cry. After drifting abroad for so many years, I thought I There will never be such a warm feeling again, Kao’er, don’t be ignorant of your blessings.”

I ignored him. But I underestimated this guy's patience. No matter where I went in those days, he always followed me. Leaving early and returning late, he is busier than going to work. Qi Shuli is not only a super follower, but also has an important task to pay the bills.But he seldom participated in our chats, but sat patiently and listened silently.He didn't make a sound, but I knew he was very interested in my past, but my cronies and friends didn't shy away from suspicion, and revealed everything.I secretly read novels in class, blatantly read out the love letter I wrote to the teacher while reading composition in class, played tricks with my puppy boyfriend under the nose of the principal, and sneaked into the office before the final exam to steal papers and distribute them to the classmates... I It was so extraordinary that my plaything and despondency became a heroic deed under their embellishment. Qi Shuli admired this very much. On the way back that day, he smiled and said: "You are so naughty, I never thought you would have such a glorious life." history."

I squinted at him and said nothing. "It's very similar to my sister Xiaojing," Qi Shuli said suddenly, "She's just like you, always causing the teacher to come to the house to complain." I squinted at him again, he still can't forget his little Jing! "What a coincidence, Geng Mochi also has such a younger sister, who was also adopted." I suddenly thought of Annie, and joked, "Maybe she is your missing Xiao Jing." "Really? There is such a possibility." Qi Shuli drove the car with a careless expression on his face.After finishing, he said: "Don't go out to eat and drink tomorrow, I will take you to a place I haven't been to for a long time."

"Where?" "You'll know when the time comes." I have lived in this small city for more than 20 years, so I should be familiar with it, but I have never been to the place he took me to. In the urban-rural junction area, there is an endless vegetable garden, and the fresh smell of soil and vegetables blows my face. Come, a very rustic wilderness atmosphere.Qi Shuli led me straight forward with a calm expression.I don't understand how he brought me to such a country place, is he going to take me to visit someone?Sure enough, he stopped on a hillside full of wild chrysanthemums. I looked around and found a few bungalows with mud walls and red tiles in front of me. The sweet-scented osmanthus tree has a natural taste, and the corner without shade is covered with red peppers. A wrinkled old woman is using rice soup to swell the sheets in a large wooden basin.

"I was born here and grew up here." Qi Shuli said. I stared at him in surprise, wondering why Qi Shujie hadn't brought me here before, I always thought that their family had always lived in the city.How many things did Qi Shujie keep from me? "Why, didn't Ajie bring you here?" Qi Shuli noticed the change in my expression. "How could he bring me to this kind of place, here is his past, he would rather take his past into the grave than let me know." "He... must have a hard time, don't blame him." Qi Shuli never forgets to protect his brother.And the old woman heard our conversation, raised her head, recognized Qi Shuli at a glance, and quickly dropped the work in her hand and came straight over.

Coming out of the old house, Qi Shu continued to take me to relax with still more courtesy.We walked straight along the ridge of the field and climbed a mountain. After crossing the mountain and passing through a dense jungle, it suddenly became clear to me. What kind of place is this? There are wild grasses that can't be seen at a glance, and small flowers everywhere. mountain breeze. "How is it, beautiful?" "Where is this place? I have lived in this city for more than 20 years, and I don't know there is such a place?" "This is a valley, haven't you noticed?" Qi Shuli walked into the knee-high grass. I know that kind of grass. The locals call it thatch firewood. When there is no coal fire or gas, people use it as fuel to cook water and cook. .That kind of grass blades can grow up to half a person's height, and the leaf saw is very sharp. If you are not careful, you will scratch your hand. It is winter now, and the thatch is all yellow.

"This is called Immortal Valley. I heard from the old people that an old fairy once lived here, and there is a fairy cave in front of it. It is said that the old fairy has cultivated in this valley for thousands of years, and every time he practices the exercises, there will be strong winds. Now this old It is not clear whether the god is still there, but it is strange that there is a strong wind blowing in this valley all year round. Even if the leaves on the other side of the mountain are not moving, the wind is still blowing here, and there are thin flower seeds in the wind. It’s hard to get it out if you blow it into your eyes, and you always have to rub it until your eyes are full of tears. It is said that this is because the old god misses his hometown..."

I was dumbfounded. "I spent most of my childhood and youth in this valley," Qi Shuli said as he walked, feeling that he had fallen into a long memory. Playing in the valley, Xiaojing is the most mischievous, always hiding in the deep grass for us to find her... We never found her, every time she was bitten by the mosquitoes in the grass and stood up by herself..." Wait, my heart started to stir, Xiaojing?valley?Seems like someone has brought up this topic with me! "It's so windy here..." I stopped and looked at Qi Shuli's back thoughtfully. "It's very big." Qi Shuli didn't stop, and said to himself like a dream, "For so many years, the wind here has been blowing in my heart, and it never stops. The relationship between Ajie and Xiaojing The shadow is always looming in the wind... I remember that Xiao Jing was very beautiful at that time, and she always wore a hat every time she came to the valley. We told her many times that the wind in the valley could not wear a hat, but she refused to listen ..."

I widened my eyes, felt the blood rushing to my head, and my heartbeat suddenly accelerated, hat?wind? "But Xiao Jing is very smart. She sewed a rubber band under the hat herself, so that it would not be easily blown away by the wind when she was wearing it. Don't mention how beautiful she is when she wears that hat, like an angel... But One day, the rubber band on her hat suddenly broke, and a gust of wind blew over, and the straw hat that Xiao Jing regarded as her life flew away. She cried desperately, and Ajie and I chased the hat over a mountain, but still couldn't catch up. Xiaojing was sad for half a year, and then we found out that the hat was left to her by her biological parents..." I couldn't move anymore, the wind in the valley made me unable to open my eyes, I covered my chest, for fear that my beating heart would break through my chest, I forced myself to take a deep breath, try to keep calm as much as possible, and repeated in my heart over and over again, there would be no Such a coincidence, never, this kind of coincidence only exists in novels and movies! "Since then, Xiaojing has become unhappy. Of course, this may also be due to her growing up. We never brought her to this valley again for fear of her being sad, but she secretly kept it from us. Come on, still hopelessly looking for the impossible hat, several times she has not returned home after dark, it was Ajie who carried her out of the valley, and every time she carried her back home, she Already asleep, hands and legs are covered with bloodstains from blades of grass, one by one, it's particularly shocking..." "That straw hat has a wide brim," I said, following Anne's words, "with a pretty pink bow on it... the bow keeps fading, but the hat keeps getting darker and darker, beige at first, It gradually turns yellow beige, and when it is lost, it is almost light brown..." Qi Shuli turned around like an electric shock, and stared at me, the muscles on his face twitched, "How do you know? Have you seen that hat? Or have you seen Xiao Jing?" "Oh, that's right. I've read an article written by Shujie, which is similar to prose, so... I guess the hat he wrote in the article should be about this one." I made up nonsense, I was so nervous that my palms were sweating. "Really?" Qi Shuli looked at me suspiciously. "Of course it's true, don't you think I'm Xiaojing?" I glared at him. "Yes, how could you be Xiaojing?" He finally gave up the idea of ​​continuing to ask, and turned his gaze to the woods far away in the valley, "Things that are lost can never be found, Xiaojing is like that hat. I can't find it anymore, and I even doubted whether she is still in this world..." "Don't talk nonsense, of course in this world," I interrupted him resolutely, "she must be somewhere you can't see, living a life you can't imagine." Qi Shuli nodded, "I hope she can live well, she is a poor child, God should not be too harsh on her." He looked up at the sky, his eyes were deep, I suddenly liked his expression, so sad, yet so sad With the radiance of humanity, he has feelings, and he is so obsessed with his loved ones, his coldness is not born with him. When we left the valley and returned to the old house, the sun had already set, and the two old osmanthus trees in the courtyard were strangely peaceful and serene under the setting sun.I stared at the two sweet-scented osmanthus trees and felt overwhelmed. Anne also said that there were two sweet-scented osmanthus trees in front of the house she lived in when she was a child. The beautiful girl wandering around playing games, the girl named Annie who looks like an angel, she is Xiaojing! When I got home, I felt very tired, and my stomach was extremely uncomfortable from eating, drinking and having fun in the past few days.I didn't want to stay at home anymore, so I told my parents that I wanted to go back to Star City.My parents wanted to stay with me for a few more days, so I used the excuse that the radio station was urging me to go back.Qi Shuli didn't say anything when he heard it from the side, but he came to my house early the next morning in a suit and leather shoes, and said to my parents solemnly: "Uncle and aunt, I have nothing else to do today, and I will leave tomorrow. I went back with Kaoer, and there is something I want to ask the elders for their opinion before leaving." "What's the matter?" Dad asked with a smile. "I want to marry Kao'er, I propose marriage to the second elder..." I went back to Star City alone.Qi Shuli left before me and was scolded by me.He proposed marriage to my parents, I immediately turned my face, Qi Shuli lost all face, and slammed the door without looking back. When he was leaving, he gave me a hard look and didn't say a word, but that look Staring at me straight hair.Now that I think about it, I feel a little regretful about throwing his face. No matter what, he is a person of status. Even if he refuses to agree, he shouldn't be let down in front of his parents. I have a vague feeling that Qi Shuli will not let me off lightly this time. I went back to Yalan Residence nervously, the door of the next door near the water tower was closed, and there was no movement, so I immediately felt relieved, wondering if he could still eat me up.In the evening, I received a call from Gao Peng, saying that his photography exhibition was about to open, and he invited me to be a guest, and I readily agreed.Two weeks later, the exhibition was held as scheduled. Unfortunately, I happened to have a program that day and couldn’t leave, so I couldn’t attend the opening ceremony. However, I had already bought a lot of tickets from Gao Peng and gave them to my colleagues. I hope they all go join in. Gao Peng was also giving away tickets to the people around him, even Qi Shuli, I asked him why, Gao Peng said it was a neighbor, of course he had to give it away.He also said that he would not go on the opening day. I asked him what he would do if he did not go to the photo exhibition held by him. He said he had no courage, but he had already entrusted a few good buddies to help with the entertainment.He was just like this, with deep-seated inferiority complex, not as free and easy as he appeared on the outside, and he became more and more timid as he got to the end. In the end, even the arrangement of the exhibition hall was helped by those buddies. On the day of the opening, everything was normal. I was busy in the stage until very late before I got off work. I contacted Gao Peng to ask him about the situation of the photography exhibition, but he couldn’t get through the phone. He must be afraid that the photography exhibition would not be successful. Smoked a cigarette in the corner.But the fact is that the photography exhibition was an unprecedented success and caused a sensation. The sensation was not the exhibition itself, but a piece of work on display. It was a portrait of a human body. He is a celebrity in this province and a well-known host of a certain radio station. The next day, newspapers and the Internet were all over the place, all reporting the shocking nudity incident on the front page. I only found out when I went to work the next day, and all my colleagues looked at me with strange eyes. When I understood When I came here, it was too late. I called Gao Peng like crazy. Gao Peng was more crazy than me. He said that the layout of the exhibition hall was entrusted to his buddies. It came out and was kept alone, but when the work was transported to the exhibition hall, it was moved there by mistake... I scolded my face and said, "You are insane. You actually exhibited such a private thing. Didn't you agree at the time that I would keep it for old age? Who told you to take it out?" "I'm sorry..." Gao Peng couldn't say anything other than "I'm sorry". In fact, that work is not considered nude at all from an artistic point of view. When I took this photo, I turned my back to the camera, only showing a side face, with my hands naturally on my chest, and it was a bust. The photo was developed. After I came out, I went to see it once. It was very beautiful, and I didn't think it was too erotic.But after all, I have a special status, at least I can be regarded as a half-public figure. As soon as the incident happened, I knew very clearly that my life would be rewritten from then on.Sure enough, I was suspended from the radio station that day and ordered to go home and write a self-criticism.The head of the station, Cui, was ashen-faced at the meeting. This time he didn't protect me, and he couldn't, because I "ruined" the reputation of the station. I don't know how it happened like this, although I used to be "famous" often, but it has never been so thorough and embarrassing as it is now. This is how I am. When you get up, you can do anything when you get hotheaded, and you have been fooled for this. I don’t know how many times I still don’t know how to repent.My original intention was to take a photo like this while I was young and keep it as a souvenir. It will definitely be very meaningful when I look at it when I am old.I have been an emotional person since I was a child, and I think everything is beautiful, but I don’t know that in the secular world, not all people are so simple-minded. If this photo is taken by an ordinary model, it will be placed in the exhibition hall It's just to win a few compliments, and it will never attract overwhelming criticism like it is now. This is not the result I wanted, and what I didn't expect was that the person who came to the radio station to pick me up was actually Qi Shuli. There is no doubt that he also knew about it, and he didn't go on the day of the photography exhibition. It is said that he gave the ticket to his subordinates. Even if his subordinates did not tell him, the newspapers and the Internet would definitely tell him. Sitting in Qi Shuli's luxurious car, I didn't say a word, and neither did he.But his appearance was terrifying, his face was sullen, he didn't look at me, and the veins on his forehead were twitching lightly with restraint.When we arrived at Yalanju, he had no reason to restrain himself. He yelled at me with a ferocious look and wanted to tear me apart. I thought he would at least slap me twice, but he couldn't do it after all. It rained heavily at night, Qi Shuli slumped down on the sofa and smoked one cigarette after another, with a gloomy expression.Xiaosi turned on the water, and I went upstairs to take a shower. After the shower, I went into the bedroom and wrapped myself in the quilt, pretending that I was dead.When Qi Shuli came in, he had regained his composure, but his expression was exhausted. He sat on the sofa opposite the bed and looked at me, with cold pain and loss in his eyes. "Tell me, how can I make you happy? If falling makes you happy, I can fall with you, and I will take you to America, where is the paradise of the fallen. You can fall as much as you want, but why, why You want to choose to fool around with a scum like Gao Peng? Is that how you spoil yourself?" I stared at the ceiling, tears streaming down my pillow silently. When Qi Shuli said this, he stood up, walked to my bed, and looked down at me with tears in his eyes, "If no one loves you, I can give you love, my love is only open to you, why would you rather reject me? Love and want to hang on a tree? Is he so worthy of your sacrifice? Can you even make you fall for him and trample yourself for him?" "He" refers to Geng Mochi. I was so exhausted that I closed my eyes and didn't want to hear any more.What Qi Shuli said again, I have no memory of it anymore, I only know that when he finally left, he leaned down and kissed my forehead lightly, and said: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to treat you like this, I'm really sorry Love you." Then he touched my face and reluctantly left my room. When I went out, I seemed to hear him say, "I will never let that bastard go, just wait and see!" I was suddenly very worried about Gao Peng. He disappeared for several days after this incident broke out. Needless to say, he was deeply blaming himself for this incident.I'm really afraid that something will happen to him, because I know that he is weaker than me. Under his unrestrained and even cynical appearance, he hides a very sensitive and fragile heart. Can he get out of the shadow of this incident? I called his cell phone, it was turned off, and I called his studio and apartment, but no one answered, and I started to panic.I was about to look for him, but he came to me, instead of entering Yalanju, he called me and called me downstairs. It was night at that time, he was wearing a black leather jacket, and he was waiting for me under the sycamore tree by the lake with his hands folded.The wind was strong, and his hair was blown into a mess. Under the dim light, I felt that he was visibly thinner, and his expression was tired and vicissitudes.I asked him why he didn't come into the house, but he couldn't say anything, only a few words to me. "What do you want to say?" I looked at him with pity. "I'm sorry, Kao'er. I'm the one who hurt you. I'm really sorry. I know it's too late to say this now, but I..." He took a deep puff on his cigarette, looked down at the fallen leaves all over the ground, and still didn't dare to look at me . "Did I say anything to blame you? I'm an adult and capable of taking responsibility for my actions." "But, you lost your job..." "What does that matter, you can find it again if you lose your job." I looked at him with a smile, and talked to him in as relaxed a tone as possible, "I'm really fine, I'm fine now, but you, don't worry about me I'm worried, you didn't do it on purpose, you should cheer up, you promised me, work hard with me, we have to live well." Gao Peng looked at me in surprise, and couldn't believe that I could still say such things now. "We must live well, live better than ever before, no one loves us, we can only love ourselves and cherish ourselves, do you understand?" I held his cold hand and tried to think Give him comfort and encouragement. Gao Peng was so excited that he pulled me into his arms suddenly, "I promise you, I promise you will live well, we will all live well, I promise you, promise you..." It was late at night when Gao Peng left. I watched him leave in the wind of the night, and the leaves were flying. His figure was clear and his footsteps were steady. I was very relieved that there was no decadence or discouragement.I firmly believe that I am not mistaken, he left with hope, without any hint or sign of giving up, that early autumn night, the wind, the fallen leaves, and the street lamp are forever frozen in my heart... Two days later, Gao Peng sent someone to deliver a letter. At that time, I was sitting on a lounge chair by the lake basking in the sun. Since I lost my job, I only do two things a day, basking in the sun during the day and basking in the moon at night. I opened the letter and cried after reading the beginning. He said in the letter: "Kao'er, my dearest princess, please forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye. I dare not say goodbye to you. I am afraid that I will change my mind when I see your sad face. Because you are so weak and kind, people can't help but want to protect you." Love you love you. But I am not qualified, I can only be considered a whimsical frog at best, and the reason why frogs are still frogs is because they have not found true love and hope. So I left to find my own love And hope. Recently, I have been dreaming about the desert in the west. I wonder if God is suggesting to me that there is what I am looking for. Lop Nur, have you heard of it? It is called the desert of death, and that is where I want to go , don't think I'm looking for death, no, with your love and blessings, I will definitely walk out of Lop Nur, and thus get out of the living coffin that has imprisoned me for many years, and I will come to see you with a smile. Dear princess, maybe I will never be the prince in your heart, but it doesn't matter, I have always been grateful that you didn't treat me like a toad, please believe that no matter where I go, I will sincerely bless you, pray to God to bless you, and give you the world The most beautiful happiness, let you have no worries and sorrows from now on..." Gao Peng, you scoundrel, you promised, we need to support each other, and we will walk the road together in the future, how can you leave without saying goodbye?How can you go back on what you promised?You have always been a man of your word, why is it the only time you broke your word? ! I was so angry that I cried a lot.Lop Nur, Death Desert, God, how did he get to that kind of place? !But I have no way to keep him, just like there is no way to save him, the only one who can really save him is himself.Thinking about it this way, I feel better. Lop Nur, he should be able to come out. As he himself said, he will be truly liberated and free after walking out of Lop Nur. After being imprisoned by the painful past for so many years, he will find the place where he belongs. Own love and hope, I should trust him, shouldn't I? At this moment, Qi Shuli came back from the outside, dressed in a neat suit, held his head high, still looking domineering, saw me wiping my tears, walked straight over, stood in front of me like a giant, and asked, "Why are you crying here?" , Gao Peng left?" I was startled, "How do you know?" "I want him to go, I want him not to influence you anymore, to bring you down..." "I'm already bad, so I don't need him to make me bad!" "I'm doing it for your own good, and I don't want you to fall with him." "I have fallen!" "That's good, fall with me, and I will take you to America to fall." "Stop doing this!" I yelled at him with tears all over my face, "What happens to me is my own business, it has nothing to do with you! Gao Peng has no grievances with you, why do you treat him like this? Listen, if he makes a mistake, I will never forgive you! I swear I will fight you hard!" Qi Shuli didn't take it seriously, "What mistakes can he make for a big man?" "He went to Lop Nur, do you know?" "Oh, it's a bit far away, the Desert of Death." Qi Shuli looked indifferent. His indifference irritated me even more, and I shouted: "You know it's the desert of death, if he doesn't come back alive, Qi Shuli, listen, I will never forgive you in this life!" "Okay, I'll wait." "Okay, you wait!" The days passed slowly like a blocked river, and spring came in a blink of an eye, but there was still no news from Gao Peng.During this period, Qi Shuli went back to the United States, I really wish he never came back, lest I feel troubled when I saw him.Yingzhi persuaded me to calm down, saying that Qi Shuli is actually not a bad person, but he just thinks too much of me.But I can't be calm, my blood pressure rises when I face him. On Aqing's birthday, I came back from the dinner and saw Qi Shuli sitting on a chair by the lake basking in the sunset at the door of the house. The sun was about to set, so he Can only bask in the sunset.when did he come backSeeing him sitting there leisurely smoking a cigarette, and thinking that Gao Peng might still be trekking in the desert of Lop Nur, my teeth were itchy with hatred, and I walked straight into the house without even looking at him.Seeing that I ignored him, he took the initiative to greet me with a smile: "Kao'er, long time no see, where have you been?" I held my head up and answered, "Be a lady." I'm so mad at you! "How do you talk, do you want to be a lady that much?" He was a little displeased by the smell of gunpowder. I said coldly, "What can I do? I don't have a job, and I'm worried about the next meal. What can I do if I don't want to be a lady?" "Look at you, why are you so angry." I still ignored him and went into the house by myself.He followed me in, Xiao Si was overjoyed to see him, and rushed into the kitchen to make tea, this damn girl, Qi Shuli usually likes to get close to her when he has nothing to do, and even give her gifts, she has been bribed long ago, as soon as I have a little She immediately reported to Qi Shuli if something happened.When Xiaosi went to make tea, he was already sitting on the sofa like a mountain. When he looked up, he almost jumped up, because there was a body art photo on the wall facing him, it was none other than mine. . Maybe because of the influence of Gao Peng, I am more outrageous in my behavior than before. It is this photo that ruined my reputation, so I just hang this photo in the living room. Look, everyone, no matter what you think of me, Bai Kaoer is still Bai Kaoer, you take away my reputation, but you can't take away my insistence on free life and belief! But to be honest, this photo is really well taken. No matter from which angle you look at it, it is full of artistic brilliance. The woman in the photo, against the background of the green forest, with her jade back exposed, is happy, with beautiful curves and sideways The face is full of brows and eyes, and the hair as bright as silk is messy but scattered behind the head, hanging down like a waterfall, making the looming jade back even whiter, exuding infinite charm.I look at the photos several times a day, and the more I look at them, the more I like them. I can’t believe that the person in the photos is me. I really love Gao Peng, who took such a beautiful picture of me. Qi Shuli's eyeballs almost popped out staring at the photo. He looked at me and then at the photo. It seemed that it was difficult to connect the two. He must have guessed that this feat of mine was aimed at him. He was very interested. "Is that the picture?" he asked eagerly. "Exactly." I said triumphantly. "It's beautiful, like a fairy." "Exactly." "That kid is quite capable." "Exactly." He laughed, and his ambiguous eyes swept over me, "Kao'er, you are really different, but the photo here makes people feel a bit dreamy, haha..." "It's not like you haven't seen a woman naked before." "I've seen women naked, but I haven't seen you naked." Qi Shuli's expression was ambiguous, and he became whimsical, "If possible, can you send me this photo?" "Give it to you? It's a beautiful idea!" But he said it very seriously: "I'm serious. Whatever you want, as long as I have it, I can exchange it with you." "Forget it, I won't give it to you if I give it to anyone." "Then who are you going to hand it over to, Geng Mochi?" "..." These words set me on fire, and I pointed to the door, "You can go." I didn't say get out, I was already very polite.Unexpectedly, Qi Shuli didn't like this at all, and deliberately provoked me, "Hey, I haven't heard Mr. Geng play the piano for a long time, and I'm really not used to it." I teased, "Is that so, it looks like you miss him a lot?" "A little bit. My neighbor is actually a nice person. You can enjoy music for free if you live across the street from him. If it weren't for you, I might have already talked about heroes with him." "I really underestimated you, your heart is as broad as the sea." "You underestimated me, and my heart is all about you." As he said this, his eyes were drawn to the photo again, his expression was focused and affectionate, and his face showed infinite nostalgia. I heard him say: "Be careful, I might steal this photo some other day .” Two days later, I went to the hospital for a follow-up examination. As soon as I entered the door, I was so frightened by the empty wall opposite the sofa that I lost sleep.Ask Xiao Si, Xiao Si said that Qi Shuli took it away.I yelled, "Who asked you to let him take it?" "He took it by himself, he said he has already told you..." I ran to the next door aggressively, but Qi Shuli was not there, and the nanny said he would not be back until evening.I called again and yelled: "You bastard, why did you steal my photo?" He explained calmly: "It's not stealing, it's taking." "give me back!" "I'm very sorry, I have already sent the photo to the United States, if you want to see it, follow me to the United States..." "You are nothing!" "I'm nothing in the first place." He replied with Geng Mochi's words. In the evening, Xiao Si made delicious sweet and sour pork ribs. I had no appetite at all, so I went upstairs to take a shower and get ready for bed.With my wet hair on my head, I stood in front of the study window to comb my hair. The window was facing the near-water terrace, and Qi Shuli was also standing in front of the window over there. He was smoking a cigarette, staring at this side without moving.Because of the distance, I couldn't see his expression clearly. It felt like a hunter was aiming at the target... The phone rang, and I ran to answer it. Qi Shuli's voice came over coldly: "You better take care of your friend Li Yingzhi!" "Li Yingzhi? What happened to Li Yingzhi?" With a snap, the phone turned into a busy signal. I was baffled while holding the phone, and my heart became tense, should I care about Li Yingzhi?what does it mean?Do I have something to hold in his hand?What a joke, I don't steal or rob, and I'm afraid he'll hold something against me!But I was still a little uneasy. I tried to contact Yingzhi by calling, but no one answered the phone after calling several times. I must have gone on vacation with Zhou Youji, and I heard that she wanted to go out to play.I sent a text message to Yingzhi and asked her where she is now. The next day Yingzhi called from Kunming, Yunnan, saying that she would return to Star City in two days, and she and Zhou Youji went to Yunnan for tourism.I said angrily, "You'd better come back immediately, I'm going crazy, I don't even have anyone to talk to, if you don't come back, you'll have to collect the body for me." "It's okay to say such unlucky words, who provoked you?" Yingzhi was inexplicably scolded by me. "Okay, okay, come back soon!" "Of course I will. I will arrive at noon the day after tomorrow." "Where is Zhou Youji, come back with you too?" "No, I'll be back first, he has to go to Guangzhou to settle the bill." "What's the bill? You're being dumped by him carefully." "Bah, bah, crow's mouth, can't you say something nice?" "Then I wish you all a happy and happy life, okay?" "That's about the same." After I hung up the phone, I was still irritable and flustered for no reason, and I couldn't explain why I was flustered.At night I started to dream again, and recently I have been having nightmares. In my dreams, I was exhausted and sweated all over. Then the phone rang, and I was scared to death. Ever since Geng Mochi left, I was especially afraid of the phone ringing at night, afraid of hearing the news I didn't want to hear the most.The call was from a strange man. "Excuse me, is this Miss Bai Kaoer?" "I am, who are you?" "I'm Gao Peng's friend, we went to Lop Nur together..." Gao Peng is missing!According to his companions, they lost their way in Lop Nur, and then encountered sandstorms and strong winds, which almost buried them alive, and then Gao Peng disappeared.They trekked in the desert for more than ten days looking for him, but they only found one of his backpacks in the sand. A notebook inside contained my phone number, and they contacted me by phone. "If Gao Peng makes a mistake, I will fight you hard!" The words he said to Qi Shuli a few months ago rang in his ears again. Of course I want to find him desperately. If he didn't force Gao Peng away, how could he let Gao Peng die in the desert?Although it is missing, everyone knows what it means to be missing in the desert of death!After receiving the call, my whole body collapsed, and my mind was in a mess, full of Gao Peng's hearty laughter, "The reason why the frog is still a frog is because he hasn't found his love and hope..." Gao Peng啊，难道为了寻找你的爱和希望需要付出生命的代价吗？我知道过去痛苦的经历一直折磨着你，你想解脱，想自由，可是解脱的代价就是葬身沙漠尸骨无存吗？ “小姐，您怎么这么早就来了，祁先生还在睡呢。” 我一身睡衣幽灵般飘到近水楼台的时候，他的保姆还是睡眼惺忪，拼命地揉眼睛。外面天刚蒙蒙亮，客厅墙上的挂钟显示着时间：五点半。 “没关系，我在这儿等。” "How good is this?" “没事，我在家里睡不着，到这沙发上躺会儿。” “这个……那好吧。”保姆给我泡了杯茶，这才进厨房去忙了。 客厅里静得像坟墓。 我直直地坐在沙发上像尊雕塑。 过了大约一个小时，保姆弄好了早餐，问我要不要吃点。我表情呆滞地摇摇头，这时候祁树礼刚好下楼。“考儿，你怎么在这儿？”他看到我满脸泪痕地坐在沙发上吓了一跳。 “白小姐五点多就过来了，一直坐在沙发上。”保姆说。 “怎么了，出什么事了吗？”祁树礼连忙过来摸我的额头。我把他的手挥开，跳了起来，指着他的鼻子嚷道：“把高澎还给我！把高澎还给我！” “高澎怎么了？大清早的发什么神经？” “你还问他怎么了？你还好意思问他怎么了？”我的情绪一下就爆发到极点，跺着脚，好像身上有千万只虫子在爬一样，“他在罗布泊失踪了，你知不知道？他死了，被活埋了，埋在了沙漠里……你这个恶棍，都是你，都是你……” “你冷静点，有话好好说，他失踪了并不意味就死了嘛。” “在那种地方失踪，你说死了没有，要不你也去试试啊！” “考儿，生死有命，你怎么能把责任都推到我身上呢？” “是你逼走的他，当然怪你！” “我只是要他走，没说要他去那种地方。” “你还强词夺理，你就不怕遭报应吗？不，不，你已经遭报应了！”我挥舞着双手疯言疯语，完全不知道自己在说什么，“你老婆死了，你的亲弟弟不在了，你的妹妹到现在都没下落……你永远都不可能知道她的下落，除了我，没人知道她的下落……”话还没说完，我就打住了，我在说什么，在说安妮吗？怎么扯到她的头上来了？ “你……你说什么？你知道小静的下落？”祁树礼跳起来，猛地拽住了我的胳膊，将我半个身子都提了起来，“你知道小静的下落？她在哪儿？告诉我，她在哪儿！” 我惊恐万分，意识到自己说漏了嘴，但话已出口是收不回来的，我横下一条心决定跟这个男人决战到底了，反正事到如今我们已无修复的可能。 “我是知道她的下落，我见过她，不，岂止是见过，我们还是很好的朋友，但我不会告诉你她在哪儿，这辈子你都别想知道……我会把这个秘密带进坟墓，你就死了这条心吧，我不会对你透露半个字……” “考儿！”祁树礼野兽般地号叫起来，“你怎么能这样，我这么不顾一切地爱着你，你却这样回报我，你知不知道小静对我有多重要，我整整找了她十几年，她是我在这个世界最后的信念，我答应过阿杰的……” “别提他，你们两兄弟都是一个鼻孔出气，你们带给我一生一世的伤害，他我是报复不到了，但我可以报复你，我用一辈子报复你都不够！” 说着我神经质地大笑起来。 祁树礼松开我的胳膊，用一种陌生的眼光看着笑得浑身打战的我，泪水很清晰地从他的眼底渗出，他的嘴角剧烈地抽动着，“我做错了什么，让你这么对我，考儿，告诉我到底做错了什么？就算你不爱我，不接受我，你也别用这种方式惩罚我啊！告诉我小静在哪儿，我这辈子没求过人，考儿我求你，告诉我那可怜的妹妹在哪儿，只要你肯告诉我，你要我做什么都可以……” “晚了，已经太晚了，我不会告诉你她在哪儿的，我不想让她知道自己有你这么个哥哥！”这么说着，我自己已是泪流满面，祁树礼哀求的样子让我心里好生痛快，可是我为什么还要流泪，我本应该很高兴的，我为什么还要流泪？ 也许他是没做错什么，高澎的死不能全怪他，可我还是不能告诉他小静的下落，这出悲剧已经够惨烈的了，我不想安妮也卷入，还有耿墨池，如果他知道安妮就是祁树礼寻找多年的妹妹，他会怎么想？该承受的让我一个人来承受吧，老天，一切到此为止吧，放过无辜的人！ 这么一想，我平静了许多，看着他说：“我不告诉你自然有我的理由，你就不要再想这件事了，高澎是死是活，我也不再追究你什么了，不管了，我是真的受够了，到此为止吧，我们两个注定都是要孤独到死的人，各自去掘自己的墓吧。” 祁树礼看着我，痛不欲生，“小静，小静……她长成什么样了？” “她很美，大大的眼睛，像个天使……别再追问她的下落了，她现在过得很好，有人在关心她照顾她，让她平静地过她自己的生活吧。”我能告诉他的只有这些了。 后来他的保姆打电话告诉我说，他整晚都在哭泣，要我过去劝劝。我没有理会，无暇顾及。第二天我跑到外面买了很多冥纸回雅兰居，我要超度高澎的亡灵，其实超度他又何尝不是在超度自己，死去的人也许进了天堂，活着的人却在地狱！ 小时候就听长辈们说，鬼魂只在晚上才出来。我就一直等到晚上，抱着冥纸到了湖边，夜里的风很大，我点了半天才把冥纸点着。火光中，我神思迷离，恍惚间出现了幻觉，眼前狂风呼啸，高澎在漫天黄沙中艰难跋涉，他单薄的身子无法抵挡住恶魔一样的狂风跌倒在地，狂风立即卷起沙浪轰向他，他挣扎着想摆脱恶魔的控制，就像他一直努力想摆脱痛苦的往事一样，可是他无能为力，最后只能被活活掩埋，他自始至终都没有找到自己的爱和希望，只能带着遗憾离开…… 我掩面蹲在地上无声地哭泣着，高澎，是我害死了你，如果不是我，你怎么会葬身沙漠？该死的是我啊！ “我要回美国了。”祁树礼突然出现在我身后。 我没回头，还在哭。 “你这个样子，让我怎么放心你。”祁树礼俯身试图扶起我，被我拒绝了，他叹着气直摇头，可能是一宿没睡，声音嘶哑浑浊不清，“耿墨池已经走了，你一个人留在这里干什么，想死在这里吗？” “不要你管！” “李樱之回来了你知不知道。” “她回来了就回来了，有什么大惊小怪的！” “她现在在看守所。” "..." “她受周由己的唆使挪用工程款数百万，周由己事先得到风声逃到国外去了，卷走了所有的赃款……”祁树礼说这话的时候很平静，好像事不关己一样，尽管李樱之挪用的是他在医院的投资。 我站起身，瞪大眼睛看着他，直觉得天旋地转，“不可能，这不是真的，你骗我！” “我骗你干什么，不信你打电话啊，她现在就在看守所里。” "What do you want?" “什么叫作我想怎么样？” “想以此威胁要我嫁给你？” “考儿！在你眼里我有这么恶劣吗？” “我现在很乱，什么都不知道……” “事到如今你还是这么不信任我，无论我做什么，付出多少都无法赢得你的心吗？”祁树礼刚才还很平静，现在却激动起来，“没错，我是想娶你，做梦都想，但我不会用你说的这种卑劣的方式得到你，这是在侮辱我也是在侮辱你自己，告诉你吧，其实我早就知道李樱之在私自卷钱，我是看在你的面子上才没有揭穿他们，谁知我的不闻不问让他们的胆子越来越大，周由己跑了，现在李樱之就必须背负所有的罪责……” “你想把她怎么样？”我哭起来，“让她少坐点牢吧，她身体不好。” 祁树礼神色黯然，眼底泛滥着难以名状的恓惶，“这个不用你说，我已经给她找了最好的律师，如果有可能，希望可以办保外就医。” "Why did you do that?" “因为……我想赢得你的心，但我不会勉强你什么的，只是想带你去美国，在那里重新开始生活，我们忘掉这里的一切，我已经伤透心了，你不伤心吗？” “我伤心，很伤心……” “你伤心吗？”当我把李樱之的事告诉张千山的时候问他伤不伤心，事情落到这个地步还是因为旦旦的抚养权，樱之跟周由己在一起后又多次跟张千山提出要回孩子的抚养权，张千山狮子大开口提出要两百万就让孩子跟她，很明显张千山是负气的，男人嘛，总是要面子的，他不能接受樱之竟然选择了周由己，这对他来说是个莫大的羞辱，所以才开出两百万故意为难他们。 但樱之也是个犟脾气，为了筹到这笔钱她在周由己的唆使下不惜铤而走险挪用工程款，可是钱刚到她手里就被周由己拿去了，说是做生意周转一下，哪知道越陷越深，此后她又多次被周由己唆使挪用公款，数额越来越大，他们去云南旅游的时候，周由己听到了风吹草动，借口去广州结一笔账撇下樱之逃之夭夭了。 张千山在法院工作，知道得比我更详细，我问他伤不伤心，张千山捂着脸痛不欲生，“是我害了她，都是我的错！我不是真的想要她的钱，我是想要她回到我身边来的……” “回到你身边？”我大吃一惊。 “难道你以为我跟她离婚真的是因为在外边有人吗？不，你们都不了解，我其实是爱她的，大一的时候我就爱上了她！”张千山一脸悲怆，敲着桌子激动地说，“跟她结婚后，虽然她对我百依百顺，但我知道她从来就没爱过我，她只是在尽义务，她从不跟我争执，更别说吵架，我故意在外边找女人她也一声不吭，她就是做做样子跟我闹几句我心里也好受些吧，起码能让我安慰自己，她是在乎我的，但是她没有！一点愤怒的表示都没有！” “你爱她的方式就是在外边找女人？”我反唇相讥。 张千山低下了头。 “你自己没有好好经营婚姻，还怪罪樱之不爱你，你从一开始就错了，逼她拿出两百万的赎子款更是错上加错！樱之落到今天这个地步，你有不可推卸的责任！” “是，我没有否认自己有错，但你让她扪心自问，旦旦是不是我的孩子！” “什么，你怀疑孩子不是你的？”我惊得下巴都快掉地上。 张千山沉默片刻，终于道出内心隐藏多年的猜疑：“你也知道的，她跟周由己大学的时候好过，樱之毕业就跟我结了婚，旦旦刚好又是早产……” “就凭这？” 张千山没吭声。 “有亲子鉴定吗？” “我想过做，但没有这个勇气，我很爱这个孩子，他是我们全家的宝，我没办法去想象如果孩子真不是我的骨肉，我该怎么办！” “你简直荒唐！就凭这不着调的猜疑你竟然怀疑自己的妻子，还在外边找女人，你还觉得自己理所当然，你活该得不到她的爱！樱之是个善良的女人，她一定是受了很多委屈才毅然离开你，张千山，你现在看到结果了吧，你满意了吗？” 张千山的头埋得更低了。 我气得不行，生活果然是一出狗血的闹剧，没有最狗血，只有更狗血，我瞅着张千山的样子气归气，但转念一想现在这种时候最能帮到樱之的可能还是张千山，毕竟夫妻一场，他又在法院工作，很多事情还得他出面。 我叹了口气，语气缓和下来，“去看看她吧，听说她在里面几次想自杀。” “是的，几次都被发现了。” “怎么样才能减轻她的罪行？” “首先就得退赃。” "understood." 两个礼拜后，我贱价卖掉了韶山路的公寓，很快雅兰居也出手，而为了填上那个天大的窟窿这些还不够，正当我一筹莫展时张千山突然打电话给我，说被挪用的公款已经全部被填上，我问是谁填的，他说他也不清楚，是检察院的人告诉他的。 我只稍微想了下就猜到这个人是谁，当天晚上我就去近水楼台找到祁树礼，除了他，我认识的人里没有人有这样的实力，几百万随随便便就能拿出来。 我坐在沙发上，看着他说：“我不想欠你太多。” “我从来没想过要你欠我，都是心甘情愿的，没有办法。” “我还不起。” “我没说要你还。” “那你最想要什么？” “你的心。” “那可能要不到。” "why?" “我的心已经不属于我，给了别人。” “去了日本的那个人吗？” 我没有回答，也无须回答，只把卖房筹得的近三百万放到了他面前。 “你把房子卖了，住哪儿？”祁树礼问。 “回湘北，那边报社邀我过去当编辑。” 真实的情况是，那边晚报社的副刊部主任是我的高中同学，从小一起玩到大的，她知道我从电台离职后，竭力游说我进报社工作，报社的几个领导也都跟我很熟，也表示欢迎我加盟。我并没有给予那边肯定的答复，只是说先回去看看，跟家人商量下再说，而且我的身体状况不太好，能不能胜任还是个问题。 在跟祁树礼讲话的这当口我就一直在咳嗽，祁树礼看着我咳得气都快喘不上来的样子很忧心，“我送你回去吧。”我一边摆手一边还在咳嗽，祁树礼叹气，想了想又说：“有一件事我得告诉你。” "What's up?" “有人在罗布泊发现了一具被风干了的尸体。” 我脑子里嗡的一响，差点栽倒在地。祁树礼看着我不紧不慢地说：“你别紧张，经过技术部门鉴定，尸体……不是高澎的。” "you sure?" “是的，你要相信科学嘛，而且有人看见了活着的高澎。” "Where?" "Tibet." 从祁树礼家出来，夜色已深，我在湖边站了会儿不由自主地朝在水一方走去。雅兰居已经卖掉了，办完过户手续我就得搬走，回湘北陪伴父母。在水一方我并没有接受产权，因为我自认没有勇气居住在这里，这是他住过的房子，里面有太多他的气息，我怕我受不了。事实上，耿墨池去日本后不久，他的律师黄钟就来到星城找到我，拿出一堆文件要我签，我知道那些文件都跟财产有关，我没有签，因为那不是我要的。 每晚我依然为他在卧室留着一盏灯，明知道他已经不会再回来，但我还是固执地认为他一定可以看到这盏灯光，当内心被无边无际的苦痛折磨得不眠不休时，也只有借由这种象征性的安慰让自己可以继续每天的生活。只是自他走后，在水一方的房子我从未进去过，现在我要走了，总该进去看看吧，这一别，我不知道我还有没有勇气再来这座城市…… 没有了他的城市，连空气都是悲伤的，没有了他的房子，静如坟墓。我站住门外，泪眼婆娑地看着那张紧闭的门，久久无法迈动脚步。 再也没有了温暖的灯光。 再也没有了动人的琴声。 再也没有了隔岸深情的对望。 我抖抖索索地用他走前留给我的钥匙打开门，一股近似坟墓的潮气和霉味迎面扑来，我摸索着开了灯，霎时亮如白昼，房间内的家具都被罩上了白布，地毯已蒙上一层厚厚的尘土，墙上的挂钟、名画也都不是原来的样子，还有沙发和墙角的那架钢琴虽然同样被琴罩罩着，上面亦是被厚厚的尘土覆盖。我走到钢琴边，揭开琴盖，随便按了一下，嘣的一声闷响响彻房间，仿佛一记重锤，击得我五脏俱碎，泪如雨下。 这钢琴啊，如同他的爱，原本从高音到低音都有的，婉转缠绵，惊心动魄。可是现在，一切都远去了，这架钢琴没了主人，再也奏不出绝世的音乐，如同我们可怜的爱情，失去生存的土壤就只能隔海相望。从一开始我们的爱情就被世俗所不容，我们都想为对方好，以为彼此奉献毫无保留就能让爱继续，可是结果呢，命运阴差阳错，人生处处布满陷阱，我们最终逃脱不了劳燕分飞，正如同肖邦的那首曲子，离别就是宿命，一切的努力仿佛只是为了更彻底地钻进命运精心安排的圈套。我逃不出这圈套，他也逃不出。绕了一大圈，我们还是不属于彼此，守在他身边的不是我，守在我身边的也不会是他…… “考儿？”客厅的门突然被推开，祁树礼不知道什么时候跟过来了。 我没有回头，“你来干什么？” “我不放心你。”原来他一直跟着我。 “出去吧，他知道了会不高兴。” “考儿！”祁树礼走过来，站到我身后，长长的身影印在钢琴上，“你这是何苦呢？你明明可以生活得更好，偏要把自己困得这么死，我现在已经不奢望你接受我，我唯愿你能生活得好一点，健康一些，你看你现在瘦成了什么样子。” “不要你管！” “我不管你谁管，你父母说的你又不听。”说着他扳过我的身子，眼圈已经泛红，声音变得哽咽起来，“考儿，我把你带到美国，就是想让你忘了过去的一切重新开始，或许这对你很难，但总比你这样半死不活地消磨自己的青春要好吧？何况他已经结婚了，他有他自己的生活，你该死心了！跟我走吧，我们结束这儿的一切，加州温暖的阳光会让你健康起来的，我不会勉强你一定做我的女人，我只是希望你能像个正常人一样地生活，善待自己。请你相信我，只要有我在你身边，你一定不会是现在这样的命运……” “我相信……” 我点头，心里忽然变得混乱无主张。我当然相信这个男人，他无所不能，完全有可能改变我的命运，我从未怀疑他能给我幸福生活的可能，可当我被眼前这个男人描述的美好生活说得蠢蠢欲动的时候，另一个男人的面孔立刻在脑海中浮现，他一脸病容，却还是那么傲然独立，冷漠的表情掩饰不了他内心火一般的热情。他或许不会给我安定的生活，尖锐的个性会让我总是受伤害，可是有什么办法，我就是爱他，虽然我很清楚我们已经失去重聚的可能，但内心还是垂死挣扎着一线希望，就像一个坠落深井的求生者，盼望着黑暗的世界能悄悄射进一线光芒。 “跟你去美国可以，但必须先满足我一个愿望……”我鼓起勇气说。 “什么愿望，你说。” “我要去日本。” 回湘北后，我根本无法到报社去工作，病情急剧恶化，数次进出医院。日夜不休地咳嗽、发烧让我本就虚弱的身体越发不堪一击，好几次又出现呼吸衰竭的现象，稍微受点凉就感冒，加重病情。家人焦急不已，要送我去星城医治，我拒绝了，那座城市，我真的不想再回去。 这期间，祁树礼迅速结束国内的生意，准备启程返美了。临走前他来湘北看望自己的母亲，顺便也来跟我父母道别。对于我要去日本的事情，他的态度很明确，“我不会带你去日本，否则别人不会说你是疯子，会说我是疯子！” 他拒绝得很彻底，没有任何回旋的余地。这倒符合他一贯的风格，做事从不留余地，干净利落，绝无后患。所以我并没有太过央求他，我了解他的为人。只是我不甘心，我竟然快想不起耿墨池的样子了，越深刻地去想念一个人，那个人的样子反而越来越模糊，无论我的记忆如何追赶，还是赶不上他渐渐远离我梦境的速度，我绝望，无比恐慌，我怕我会跟安妮一样，会在追赶记忆的时候彻底丢失记忆，像删除文件一样地删除这段记忆。这太可怕了！ 那天晚上，家人都睡了，我一个人在楼下的院子里徘徊，惶惶不可终日一样。我又想他了，一念出他的名字，更加迷乱无措，感觉自己又像从前那样灵魂出了窍，我看看四周，站在家门口竟弄不清自己身在何处。恍惚间，我看见自己在空旷荒凉的心田里肆意狂奔，不顾一切地驱遣着记忆，呼唤着他的名字……可是他在哪儿呢，黑沉沉的原野吞没了我的声音，感觉不仅是隔着世界，还隔着时空的距离，那脸那心，越发的模糊不清，我在梦里已经彻底寻不到迷失了方向的记忆…… 第二天醒来的时候，我发起了高烧，又开始咳嗽，这一次来势凶猛，吃早餐时突然昏倒，爸妈赶紧将我送到了医院。 醒来时已是深夜，虽然发着高烧，但我的意识很清醒，我知道自己要做什么，我要去见一个人，一定要去见他，就算我要不久于人世，也要看他一眼后再入土。我知道我最终将从这个世界飘然而走，飞到另一个世界去寻求解脱，我怕在那个世界迷路，等到有一天他也去的时候，我会记不起他的样子！ 我逃跑了，一个人跑出医院，打辆车赶到祁树礼下榻的酒店，祁树礼开门时正在