Chapter 3 Chapter two

The man in front of me is a ray of sunshine, shining on me so warmly, for so many years, no one has ever made me feel so warm, never! But things in the world are really hard to tell. After only two months, I actually went to Shanghai for vacation with this brazen man. On the evening of December 31st, the Bund in Shanghai was crowded with people. Geng Mochi took me to watch the fireworks, welcoming the New Year with tens of thousands of people present.We are struggling to move forward in the sea of ​​people, and it feels like we are passing through a century.And he held my hand tightly all the time, as if he was afraid of losing me, and led me to charge into battle in the sea of ​​people, which moved me for a while.No matter what my past has been through, there is something so comforting about having a man on my arm now leading me into the new year.

The moment the New Year's bell rang, under the radiance of fireworks all over the sky, amidst the deafening cheers all around, Geng Mochi suddenly hugged me, kissed me deeply, and kissed me until the New Year. That kiss was more intoxicating than fireworks, more thrilling than overwhelming cheers. "Remember this day." Geng Mochi said affectionately among the crowd. "Of course I will remember, of course I will..." I hooked his neck and put the tip of his nose to the tip of his nose, and said sincerely, "Thank you, Geng Mochi, you brought me back to life."

"Me too!" He hugged me tighter. The two embraced and watched the fireworks together. In fact, I'm not very interested in fireworks. I don't like the false prosperity of fireworks, which are fleeting. Even if half of the sky in Shanghai is illuminated by the splendor of fireworks, I don't think the fireworks have much beauty. People have a sense of unreality.I also feel that the happiness in front of me comes too fast and too extreme, and all the wonderful feelings that can be contained between men and women are all vividly displayed at this moment, the same is unreal, and the same makes people worry about gains and losses.is this real?I kept asking myself in my heart.

"I hope it will last longer than fireworks..." I said faintly. Geng Mochi didn't know if he heard it, he kept looking up at the sky, the expression on his face was unpredictable in the flickering reflection of the fireworks, the boundless emptiness shining in his eyes made my heart more uneasy, the light was more uneasy than the fireworks in the sky Also illusory. Next, the weather in Shanghai was quite cold and humid, but it didn't affect Geng Mochi's interest at all.He took me through the high-rise buildings in Shanghai, eating, shopping, shopping, sightseeing...Every day is full of activities, from morning to night, almost leaving me no chance to breathe, even two people make out Very little time.I faintly feel that he is evading, covering up, and doing some kind of fierce resistance. During the few days in Shanghai, he bought me a lot of things, and I always caught a glimpse of his eyes when he frantically swiped his credit card. restlessness and restlessness.

At noon this day, we had lunch at a rather elegant western restaurant on Huaihai Road. "I booked a room at Hyatt. After dinner, we'll go there for a rest and massage," Geng Mochi said while arranging the afternoon's itinerary while eating. "It's exhausting enough to run all morning. Let's rest at noon. We have to go in the afternoon... " "Everyone says I got a big money, is it true? Are you rich?" I looked at him and asked suddenly. "My net worth is not rich in Shanghai at all, but... I live a relatively rich life." He sipped his red wine, glanced at me, and asked casually, "Do you like money?"

"No one doesn't like money, but talking about money in our current situation is too..." "Vulgar." Geng Mochi took my words and asked me, "Do you want to be noble?" I looked at him calmly, "I want to be real." "What is real?" Geng Mochi still didn't show any affection, "In my opinion, men and women are real when they take off their clothes. No one can say that they are real when they put on clothes. Self-preservation awareness, do you dare to say that you are real when you face me now?" My hand that held the knife and fork began to shake.The deep pain spread from the bottom of my heart to my fingertips.

"So we'd better not talk about such boring topics, as long as we are happy together, complicating the issue is not good for anyone, you are a smart person, you will not understand the truth that it is counterproductive." I didn't say a word all day. Geng Mochi was unusually lingering at night, and I reacted coldly.I know, it's time to end.I have already shown my original shape in front of him, and all my defenses and suspicions have been clearly seen by him. If I continue, I can only humiliate myself. I want to save my last bit of self-esteem in front of him. "Let's forget it." I leaned into his arms and said after the passion.

"Repent so soon?" His eyes instantly became cold, and he said mockingly, "Didn't you say that you want me to fall in love with you? You ran away before I fell in love with you?" I suddenly became irritable, "I'm not interested in games like love!" Geng Mochi stared at me for a long time, at that moment I couldn't figure out what he was thinking, his gaze was unfathomable. "Well, since you have already made up your mind, I can't force anything, I respect your choice." He sighed, "You women are troublesome, why make yourself so tired, you shouldn't even think about going Think, looking for trouble!"

"I'm sorry, I also want to relax myself, but..." I hugged him tightly and suddenly started crying. He patted my back gently like a baby, and said softly, "It's nothing." Yes, stay together if you think it suits you, forget it if it doesn’t suit you, no one owes anyone else, it’s a good choice to end up like this.” The next day, Geng Mochi booked an afternoon flight for me, and I had to rush back to work. "Shall we meet again?" He asked seriously. "Let's see." I prevaricate. "I'm a little bit reluctant to part with you." He said seriously, not sure if it was true or not.

But at the moment of walking towards the security check passage, he suddenly pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly for two minutes without saying a word. Without looking at him, I broke free from his arms and went straight to the security check.I didn't look back, but I felt that Geng Mochi's gaze pierced my chest from behind like a sharp arrow, hitting my heart.My heart ached for a while. The moment I took off, I felt that my heart followed the plane to an unknown height. Looking at the clouds hitting the plane outside the window, I was still very afraid of the plane falling. Before boarding the plane, he bought it. If you have insurance, the airline will pay 200,000 yuan if you fall, but who will buy insurance for this relationship?He won't, he made it very clear, I've tried my best, but you can't get used to it, so unfortunately, we still can't avoid the road of breaking up.

When the plane landed at Xingcheng International Airport, I suddenly realized that the most unsafe thing in the world is love, so no insurance company will insure love.I feel lucky that I survived the catastrophe, but fortunately I didn't continue to take risks, otherwise the consequences would be more terrible than the plane accidentally falling down.But somehow, when I walked out of the airport, I found my heart was still hurting. To my surprise, this "heartache" lasted for half a month without any relief. There was no news from Geng Mochi for half a month, and he suddenly disappeared from the world.I felt like I had a dream, and when I woke up there was nothing left. At this time, the Lunar New Year is here, and the unbearable year 1999 is finally coming to an end.The work of the radio station can finally come to an end. I received a call from my parents after work on the day of the holiday, asking me when I would go home for the New Year. I hesitated for a long time and did not say the exact time. Bar. "Pingping, what's going on with you over there?" My mother was very upset on the phone, she was still used to calling me by my old name, "Your dad and I have heard some bad rumors, you still have to Watch out for the impact..." It spread so fast that even the family knew about it!There is no doubt that the fact that I went to Shanghai with Geng Mochi for vacation has ruined my "virtuous" reputation that I have worked hard for for four years. "I know that Shujie is going to make you feel uncomfortable, but you are not young anymore, you have to think about the consequences first when you do something, and now the society is in chaos, you can't ignore your reputation and ruin it. dare you." I laughed secretly, when will my reputation be better? No way, in order to appease my parents, I have to go home for the New Year.It lasted until the twenty-eighth of the twelfth lunar month, and the Chinese New Year was only two days away. I couldn't wait any longer, so I had to pack my things and prepare to go home for the New Year.I stuffed things into the box indiscriminately, in a trance.In fact, I know what I'm waiting for, maybe it's just a phone call. After I packed my luggage, I went downstairs to fill my stomach. If I remember correctly, I haven’t touched rice for two days, and I only eat fruits and biscuits every day.Even eating is a hassle for me, and the days are getting worse and worse.But today I want to treat myself well, the new year is coming, let's toast to the past, and forget all the unpleasant things. I chose the best seat in a restaurant across the road and ordered a large table of dishes in a panic. The waiter who wrote the order looked at me suspiciously and asked, "Miss, are you alone?" "yes." "I'm afraid you won't be able to eat..." "I am willing!" I glared at the waiter, "Are you afraid that I won't pay you?" The waiter quickly took the list into the kitchen without saying a word. But after the dishes came out, I felt full after only a few bites, and I paid the bill without even touching a lot of dishes.A person climbed upstairs like a ghost, opened the door, and I fell headfirst on the sofa and fell asleep.As if I had a nightmare, I was awakened and looked at the clock on the wall, it was twelve o'clock.I was lying on the bed tossing and turning, I couldn't fall asleep, and I couldn't figure out why I got myself into such a situation! With my eyes open until two o'clock in the morning, I couldn't bear the torment of insomnia anymore, so I got up and found half a bottle of wine from the wine cabinet in the restaurant, turned on the stereo, put on a song of Butterfly Lovers, which I never tire of listening to, and sat on the sofa with a glass of wine. Cheers to myself. The wind was raging outside the window, and Liang Zhu's voice inside the room was dark and low, like weeping.Holding my glass of wine, I recalled little by little the people and things I experienced in these years, and I still felt that there was nothing worth nostalgic for me. The past was so dilapidated, until I met him... I felt that my eyes suddenly brightened, Under the influence of alcohol and music, Geng Mochi's voice and smile flowed out slowly like a movie.I suddenly felt like a knife was piercing my heart, so I quickly turned off the stereo, turned on the radio, and tuned to the radio station I was working on. It's so late, and the radio station's colleagues are still on duty, but instead of broadcasting news, they replay a daytime cultural program, which is a radio drama adapted from a famous book in the station. This is the highlight of the radio station during the Spring Festival every year, and it is very popular with the audience. The play is accompanied by the voice of the heroine Catherine.But after listening to it for a while, I couldn't take it anymore, and turned off the radio. Catherine and Heathcliff in the play are still so moving. These two tragic characters who have been shackled by love and hatred for a lifetime shocked me many years ago. After reading this novel many times, I am deeply moved by them every time. The unswerving love moved me to tears. It may be that I have read too many books of this kind, which makes me always feel disappointed in the love in reality.When loving and being loved run counter to each other, you can’t escape the hurt, but you can’t stop loving, especially for people like me whose spirit often wanders outside the real world. Reason has never overcome emotion... Sure enough, when I was so drunk again, it seemed to be a kind of potential, but I became strong without consciousness. I stumbled and grabbed the phone on the coffee table and dialed a series of familiar numbers. "Hello, who is it?" It was his voice! As if struck by lightning, I was so shocked that I almost fell to the ground, and the wine glass in my hand fell to the ground with a "wow".I threw away the phone and fell headfirst on the sofa, covering my face and crying. When did this man take advantage of it? It should start by studying this man. It is difficult to use an accurate word to describe Geng Mochi, sometimes he is very free and easy, sometimes he is unrestrained, sometimes he is terribly gloomy, and most of the time he is unfathomable.I tried my best to see through his mind, but I didn't. Instead, I was deeply attracted to this man without knowing it. This kind of attraction was produced in the process of constantly guessing him.His incomprehensibility makes people have a kind of research interest in him.And while I was studying him, he also seemed to be studying me, calling me frequently, spying on the military situation, and engaging in psychological offensives...Of course I fell for it, and gradually I no longer rejected him, because talking to him was a very important thing. Interesting things, at least you can feel good all day long. Geng Mochi seems to be very busy, we haven't seen each other since that drunken quarrel, we only communicate by phone, every day he always calls me once or twice, two lonely men and women with their own ghosts on the phone Chatting nonsense all over the place, maintaining a close relationship with each other on the phone.No one wants to go further, and no one expresses that they want to stop here. Both of them are watching the changes and waiting for opportunities. The key is to find a strategic position that is more beneficial to them. For a while the guy suddenly seldom called, and then he simply disappeared for a few days. I thought he had given up. I didn't want him to contact me again when Christmas was coming, and he always called in the dead of night harassment. "Hey, what are you doing?" He called again the night before Christmas Eve.I looked at the alarm clock next to the bed, it was twelve o'clock. "Sir, are you in such good spirits? Don't you sleep?" Actually, I didn't sleep either, and I was leaning on the bedside to read a book. "What do you sleep in broad daylight?" "Bright day? You are sleepwalking, do you see if it is day or night outside?" "Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot that this side is daytime and your side is nighttime. I'm in Paris now." The man must be in a hurry, so I didn't ask him, but he said to himself, "This side is not It’s a Chinese Culture Week, they want me to come too, so I’m here, it’s boring to be here alone, I miss my motherland and my hometown…” This man is really thick-skinned!But I am obviously in a good mood.I held back my laughter and teased him politely, "The people of the motherland also miss you very much, and welcome you back." "Including you? Do you miss me, a little bit, a little bit, do you?" This guy really never suffers from his mouth. I just teased him, and he blatantly teased me Well, in the middle of the night, when the moon is dark and the wind is high, he came to tease me even though he knew I was a widow, obviously with ulterior motives! I jokingly said, "Mr. Geng is surrounded by clouds of beauties, do I need to miss him?" In the end, he was not humble at all, and replied: "It's a beautiful woman like a wolf. I have to be careful of being molested at all times, especially the French women here. They are terrible, open and hot. National treasures like me The man here has no sense of security at all, Kaoer, you must not just ignore death." Shameless, shameless, shameless, I scolded in my heart, but my mouth was not forgiving. I threw a series of mean words, but he threw them back as I threw them. I found that I wasted my mouth on the radio for so many years, because this man More venomous than me.I couldn't fight, so I changed the subject, "Hey, you're going all the way to Paris, don't you want to bring me something?" "Okay, what do you want? Perfume, fashion, jewelry, or cosmetics?" "I want fashion." "OK, report your measurements to me." "..." I got angry, and prevaricated: "I, I have gained weight recently, I don't know how many measurements I have." "Then let me estimate for you, 34B, it should be about the same." This stinky man always does this, obviously taking advantage of it without showing any signs, he added solemnly, "I'm talking about the top." I even wanted to touch the knife, and I almost blurted out the word "rogue" because the number he said coincided with my yardage.I said angrily, "Are you teasing me?" He said forcefully, "You were the one who teased me first." "Okay, okay, I'm going to sleep, I won't talk to you anymore." "Look, you still said that you didn't tease me. A woman living alone told a man to sleep on such a full moon night. Didn't you mean to make me sleep badly?" "Geng Mochi!" "Don't shout, I chatted with you because I was afraid that you would be lonely." "My loneliness has nothing to do with you." "But women's loneliness is usually related to men. I am the man closest to you." "You are in Paris, sir!" "I'm back." "Is your soul back?" "It's really back. If you don't believe me, open the curtains and have a look." I jumped up from the bed, ran to the window and opened the curtains with a swish, God!The silver BMW was really parked by the flower garden downstairs, and Geng Mochi was leaning against the car door and waving at me gracefully.My mind went blank for a moment, and before I could think of how to deal with the situation, the doorbell rang. It was late at night, and I had no choice but to open the door for fear of disturbing the neighbors. As soon as Geng Mochi entered the door, he gave a French-style hug. I pushed him away, half-believing, "You just came back from Paris?" "Of course, I just got off the plane." Geng Mochi, as if he had arrived at his own home, put on his slippers and went straight to the living room.I said angrily, "What time is it now? What do you mean by coming here?" "It's not interesting. I came here directly after I got off the plane. Anyway, it's not interesting to go home alone. There's no one to talk to..." He sat down on the sofa, looking really tired. "But……" "Come on, do you have anything to eat? I haven't had dinner yet. The food on the plane is not for people to eat." Geng Mochi took off his light blue-gray windbreaker, revealing a navy blue sweater and casual clothes of the same color. pants.He is very good at dressing, and there is an indescribably chic look about any clothes on him.Seeing that I was standing still, he pretended to be pitiful, "Please, I'm really hungry, you can't be indifferent even if a beggar comes to beg for food, right? Besides..." He gave me a bad look. Said badly, "If a man is hungry, the women in front of him are usually dangerous..." I didn't say anything and hurried into the kitchen to make some noodles. I didn't want to feed myself to the wolves.Geng Mochi was obviously really hungry, a large bowl of noodles was wiped out by him in a few minutes, I asked him if he was full, and he said: "Reluctantly, you are not in danger for the time being." After that, he deliberately walked towards the bedroom After looking at it, he said sternly, "That's right, you're very well-behaved, you can set up a memorial archway, and there's no man to warm your bed in the cold weather..." "have you eaten?" "What for?" "Go back to your own home when you're full!" "You don't want to look like this," Geng Mochi pretended to be pitiful again, "Even if a beggar comes to shelter from the wind, you can't drive him outside, it's very cold outside..." "I'm not a charity here, please go back." I turned my face away, not wanting to talk to him again. "By the way, I brought you a lot of presents, you must like them." He pretended not to hear, and took out a few things from a beautiful paper bag.I looked, and there were two soft velvet hats, one was blue and the other was beige. Not bad, there are also two luxurious small packaging boxes, which may contain cosmetics such as perfume. The most unbelievable thing was the short black coat, with smooth and shiny mink fur, simple in style, and only one golden button in the whole coat, shining brightly under the reflection of the light. "How about it? Do you still like it? I don't have much time to go shopping. I just bought it in two stores next to the hotel. I only bought a coat for clothes. This style is not so picky about measurements, so it should fit well. " It’s okay if he doesn’t mention measurements, but when he mentions measurements, I feel embarrassed and quickly drop my clothes, “I, I have quite a lot of clothes, and they are so expensive, you should give them to someone else.” "Who else can I give it to?" He stared at me with inexplicably piercing eyes. "..." I couldn't answer. "Don't worry, I won't ask you for anything. I only ask you for a few things, and you think too little of me. If I deliberately approach a woman, then this woman must be extraordinary, not just a few things." Gifts can be bought," he saw through my mind, this man is really careful, his eyes are like X-rays, he looked at me with a faint smile on his lips, "I absolutely believe in my own eyesight, you are in my heart Absolutely priceless in my eyes.” "Thank you, but you really should go, I have to go to work tomorrow." "Can't I stay here for the night?" "No, don't even think about it." "You misunderstood. I didn't say I want to share the same bed with you. I sleep on the sofa. You want me to stay in a hotel at such a late hour. Are you too cruel?" "Don't you have a family?" "It's being renovated, you smashed it into that shape last time..." When he woke up the next morning, Geng Mochi was already awake, standing on the balcony smoking a cigarette.His back is facing the morning glow, which has a wonderful backlighting effect, and he looks lonely and preoccupied when he is shrouded in smoke.I didn't bother him because I knew we all needed to calm down.That's right, we all regard this as a game, since a game must have its rules, but can the rules control our hearts?I feel that the longer we get along, the more I fear out of control, and many things are slowly slipping into unpredictable tracks. I believe he is the same. When I went downstairs, I ran into the next-door neighbor, Sister Liu, who had bought something early and came back early. She looked at us as a couple in surprise.I said hello in embarrassment and ran downstairs. Just as I went downstairs, I ran into Uncle Li who lived upstairs and came back from his morning exercise. I didn't even dare to raise my eyelids and nodded indiscriminately. I didn't know why I was panicking. But I still realize the seriousness of the problem. A newly widowed woman leaves a man at home for the night, and nothing will happen. I got into Geng Mochi's car in full view. "It's over, my good reputation is ruined in your hands today." As soon as I got in the car, I complained to Geng Mochi angrily.When mentioning reputation, Geng Mochi immediately squeezed towards me, "Is your reputation good?" "What do you mean? My reputation may not be better than yours." "Maybe," he said honestly, and I was about to nod my head in agreement, when he threw out another sentence, "But like attracts like, the reputation of the woman I'm with must not be much better." "Geng Mochi!" I gritted my teeth. "Don't be angry, I haven't finished my sentence yet," he patted my shoulder, and continued his poisonous tongue to the end, "I am a person with social morality, and I would rather have my own reputation ruined than you ruin others' reputation... ..." Day by day, Geng Mochi and I have always maintained this stage of mutual exploration where you advance and retreat, and you retreat and advance, and we are addicted to playing the game of cat and mouse.On the last weekend before New Year’s Day, I reluctantly went back to Xiangbei to visit Mother Qi. Since Qi Shujie’s death, this was the first time I visited my former mother-in-law. The old woman said that she was once a family anyway, no matter how wrong Qi Shujie was, but the old man was not at fault, if you don't go to see it, you will poke people's spines and so on.I didn't take it seriously, thinking when did she treat me as a family member, but I had already promised my mother not to be afraid of being scolded by her. No one expected that it was this trip to northern Hunan that made my life turn around 180 degrees and completely out of control.At first, everyone was very friendly, and Mother Qi also showed rare enthusiasm for my visit, but when it was time to eat, Mother Qi suddenly seemed to have something to say, and she hesitated to speak, which made people feel very uncomfortable . "Mom, do you have something to say?" Qi's mother looked distressed, and hesitated, "It's something, it depends on whether you are willing or not." "What's the matter?" "That's it, Kao'er, you know Xibao, the son of Shujie's aunt in Xingcheng. He is getting married, but he can't afford to buy a house for a while, so his aunt will discuss with me to see if you can lend the house to Xibao. Bao lives for a few days, only a few days, and will move out when he finds a suitable house. Xibao's daughter-in-law has a belly and is in a hurry to get married. "Then where do I live?" My heart immediately became angry. I didn't expect that someone would come up with the idea of ​​my house within a few days of Qi Shujie's death.Mother Qi also saw my displeasure, and hurriedly said: "Come and live with me, anyway, there is no one around me, and your parents are here? I am getting old, and I am especially afraid of loneliness. You can be my company, of course, if you really feel embarrassed, forget it, just pretend I didn’t say anything.” "I'm coming here, what about my work?" "Doesn't your unit have a dormitory for singles? You usually live in the dormitory, and you will go back to Xiangbei on weekends." I looked at the old woman in disbelief, she actually wanted to kick me out of the house, I gave all my inheritance to her, and she even wanted to take away my only shelter!Immediately, I felt blood rushing to my forehead, my teeth were clenched, and I was about to explode, but then I thought that arguing with her would definitely tear my face, Qi Shujie is dead, I have nothing to do with her, there is no need to quarrel tidy. I put down the bowl and chopsticks heavily, swallowed hard, and said coldly: "Let's talk about it in a few days, I have to think about it." "That's fine, we have to think about it." Mother Qi saw hope. After a while, I was about to leave, and Mother Qi seemed to have something to say.When I asked what else was going on, Mother Qi tentatively said, "It's not a big deal, I've also heard that you have a relationship with that Ye Sha's husband, it seems that the matter is still quite big, and many people know about it." .” I was stunned. It's true that good things don't go out and bad things spread thousands of miles.Mother Qi's face was a bit ugly, and she said harshly: "You are now alone, and I have no right to intervene in your private affairs, but Shujie's body is still alive, so you should also consider him, after all, it is not right for such a thing to happen. How glorious, not to mention living with that Yesha man, we still have to show some face..." "Enough!" I couldn't bear it anymore, and immediately turned my face, "I don't want to show face, but Qi Shujie is not much better, he was the one who betrayed me first. If I want to think about him, does he think about me? Abandon me Die with another woman, has he considered my feelings?" "How can you say that? Why are you so cruel when you scold a dead person? No matter what, he is your husband!" Mother Qi also raised her voice. "Did he take me as his wife? If he takes me as his wife, he won't have an affair with other women!" "What kind of good do you think you are? Don't think that I don't know all the bad things about you outside. I know all the scandals in the past. If Shujie hadn't insisted, I would never have let you into the Qi family. Door!" "Am I a good guy? That's your son's choice. When he was chasing me, he knelt on the ground and begged me to marry him. If you want to blame, blame your good son!" "Oh, what crime did I do in my previous life? My family is so unfortunate that I married such a daughter-in-law..." Qi's mother beat her chest and clapped her hands, her nose and tears burst into tears, causing the neighbors to come and see what happened. I didn't want to stay for a minute longer, so I slammed the door and left. I regretted it to death. I knew I shouldn’t have come. It’s such a joke in the world. He Qi Shujie played with women outside behind my back, and now he wants me to keep the festival for him after he died. If you want to kick me out, is there any justice in the world! I was trembling with anger, although I was wronged when I was competing with that old woman before, but I have never completely collapsed like today. The unforgivable Qi Shujie and the complete disappointment in Qi's mother made the suppressed anger in my heart explode on the verge of breaking out. I am about to burn, wishing to burn immediately, it is best to turn into ashes, not even slag left... I originally thought of going to my parents’ house, but I lost my mood at all. I went directly to the train station and got on the train back to Star City. After getting off the train, the more I thought about it, the more I was angry. The noisy world around me became cloudy in my eyes. I can't see clearly, I can't see the road ahead, just crossing the road outside the train station square, I bumped into someone head-on, I didn't even look at it and shouted: "I don't have eyes!" "Miss, you hit me!" The voice was very familiar. I took a closer look and was startled, it was Geng Mochi standing in front of him with an aggrieved face. "What the hell, why is it you?" "Damn? Am I a ghost?" Geng Mochi stared at me, who was still angry, puzzled, "Who messed with you, and became so angry, I saw you rushing this way angrily from afar." I looked at him, Mother Qi's words rang in my ears again, and my mind flashed like a flash of light and flint. In just two seconds, I made up my mind, and suddenly changed my smiling face, punched him and said : "Hey, you are a big man wandering around on the street, what about your car, why didn't you see you driving?" "The car has been sent for maintenance." Geng Mochi was probably surprised that I changed my expression so quickly, "I mainly want to try my luck and see if I can meet you on the street. It seems that my sincerity has moved God, and it really touched me. met." I laughed nervously, laughing until Geng Mochi's heart shuddered, I knew that it was not the laughter of a normal person under normal circumstances.Good, good, I said to myself in my heart. "What's wrong with you? What are you smirking at?" He looked at me inexplicably, "Are you all right?" "It's okay." I waved my hand, looked around and said, "Why do you come and go in such a mess?" "Actually, I came to choose the piano. Thanks to you, I finally have a reason to change the piano. How about it, do you have time to accompany me to choose the piano? It's not far, just in front." "Okay, anyway, idle is idle." The owner of the piano shop obviously knew Geng Mochi, and came over to say hello as soon as he entered the door: "Hey, Mr. Geng, I haven't seen you for a while, why are you free to come over today?" "Come to buy a piano." Geng Mochi shook hands with the boss and asked, "What new products have arrived recently?" "Yes, yes, I just arrived, over there." The boss hastily led Geng Mochi to a brand new Steinway piano. Under the reflection of the light, the piano shone strangely, as if it was a holy object that fell from the sky , the temperament is natural, just waiting for someone who is destined to touch it, feel it, and finally take it away.And the person standing by the qin seems to be a perfect match for this qin. You see, he opened the cover of the qin, and just played a few notes casually, and there was a string of incomparably beautiful holy tones. "Well, good piano." He nodded repeatedly. "As expected of an expert, I don't need to tell you more, you know the goods." The boss was very proud. "I'll try again." He said and sat down on the piano bench, adjusted the tuning and started playing, which turned out to be Chopin's.My heart sank, how did he play this piece? But there is no doubt that he played it very well. Although it was an ominous piece, the customers in the store and passers-by outside the store were still infected by the melodious and sad sound of the piano, and applauded in unison.Only me sticking there like a log,?The first time I heard him play the piano, I actually played it. What do you mean? ! "What's wrong? Are you uncomfortable?" Geng Mochi looked at me with a dull expression and asked. "Why play this piece of music?" I asked absently. "Consolation to the dead." He looked straight at me and said calmly, "I hope they can rest in peace, because we will forget them and the past as quickly as possible. In the days to come, there will only be me and you..." "The future?" The corners of my mouth twitched, "I never thought I would have a future!" "Why not? As long as you make up your mind, the future is in front of you." I was speechless, and tears filled my eyes in an instant.I really have a future?Geng Mochi patted my shoulder, turned his face and told the boss, "That's all, send it to my apartment, and I'll pay you right away." "Okay, I'll arrange someone to deliver it to you right away, thank you for taking care of the business." The boss couldn't help but be overjoyed. "You're welcome, old friend." Geng Mochi said. Out of the store, I was speechless all the way.Geng Mochi walked beside me, looking at me from the corner of his eye from time to time, "Are you cold?" He shook my hand, presumably my temperature moved him to feel compassion, he stopped, and gently pulled my coat button one by one.When he did this, it was very natural, like buttoning himself, such a warm breath enveloped me in an instant. I felt like I was melting, as if in order to make me melt more thoroughly, he gently moved me into his arms naturally.He hugged me tightly, burying his head in my hair, reluctant to let go. I closed my eyes, and there was a tearing pain in my heart, how lonely I am in this world, living a human life, but living like a ghost, no joy, no sunshine, always deeply hurt by everything around me , and the man in front of me is a ray of sunshine, shining on me so warmly, for so many years, no one has ever made me feel so warm, never! So at that moment, I really hoped that time would stop, because the feeling of being together was so wonderful that when we parted, I was reluctant to put my hand in the pocket of his windbreaker, and was carried by him all the way, and finally reached a crossroad At the mouth, the direction of the two people is not the same, we must break up and say goodbye. "I'm sorry, I didn't drive today, so I can't take you off." He said with a smile. "It's okay, you can go back." I waved to him and walked to the other side of the road against the wind. He also seemed reluctant, and had no intention of leaving, and was still looking at me from the other side of the road.我又挥了挥手，他还是没动，目光穿过车辆人流在我的身上游离。两个人就都不动了，仿佛我们中间隔着的不是马路，而是一条奔腾的河，我们隔岸相望，虽然看不清对方面部的表情，但我们都不愿就此在对方的视线中消失，因为人世间有太多的变数，谁也不知道此刻消失后明天还能不能再相见。 而我看着马路对面的耿墨池，几秒钟的时间，突然就有了决定，我掏出手机给他发短信：“天气好冷，连个暖被窝的人都没有。” 他低头看着短信笑了起来，片刻后回信：“天气是很冷，我也差个可以抱着的暖炉。” 我心底涌起说不清的甜蜜，想了想，马上回过去：“那我们就相互取暖吧，一起过元旦？”他收到信息后显然喜出望外，立即回复：“OK！我们去上海！” 然后他就跑过来了，穿过车辆和人流，没等我张嘴说话就猛地抱住了我，深深地吻了下来，那吻狂风暴雨般让我喘不过气，一时间只觉天旋地转，山崩地裂，整个世界都在那一吻中颠覆了。 所以有时候想想，我觉得自己完全是咎由自取，明知道前面是火坑，还要往里跳，可是有什么办法呢？女人天生就有跳火坑的秉性，别人越阻拦，跳得越快，简直是义无反顾。现在好了，自己是跳下去了，都快烧成灰了，他却毫发无损，说不定此刻正若无其事地站在岸边看着我笑呢。 距过年还差一天的时候，我还是决定回家，爱情没着落，总不能连亲情也舍弃。我拖着笨重的行李箱来到火车站，人山人海的，候车大厅内根本没有坐的地方，我只好把行李箱放倒坐在箱子上。看着满眼的人群，我忽然想起了大学毕业那年去北京的情景，那个时候的我多么的天真，看见什么都觉得新鲜，也就是那次的远行在火车上认识了祁树杰，从而改变了我的一生。 现在想想看，如果那时候没有认识祁树杰，我的生活不知道又会是一种什么状况，比现在好吗？Hard to say.比现在差？maybe. 只是时间过得真快，恍惚间我已结婚四年，恍惚间祁树杰已到了另一个世界。 火车晚点，我等得疲惫不堪，坐在行李箱上就要睡着。不知道等了多久，感觉地老天荒了般，火车终于来了，我半梦半醒地拖起行李箱排队准备检票上车，突然有个人伸手把我拽出了人群，吓得我大叫一声，混乱中还没看清对方是谁，人就已经被拽出了候车厅。 “好险，差一点儿就赶不上了！” 耿墨池长嘘一口气，抹着汗，很庆幸的样子。 “你有病啊，你拉我出来干什么？”我瞪着眼睛吼。 “我上你家，你的邻居说你刚走，我就飞快地赶到这儿了，到处是人，我好不容易才找到你……” “你找我干什么，我要回家过年！” “你回家过年，我怎么办？”耿墨池瞪着眼睛，脾气比我还大。 “什么怎么办啊，你过你的，我过我的！” “我怎么过啊，我的家人全都在国外！” “你的家人在国外关我什么事？我不想见到你！”说着我转身又要去候车厅，耿墨池又一把拉住我，不由分说就拽着我往火车站广场外面拖，叫了辆的士，像塞棉花似的把我塞进车内，自己也跳上车重重地关上门，冲司机喊：“碧潭花园，开！” 我在车内又踢又打，耿墨池突然抱住我，粗暴地吻住我的唇。我只觉透不过气，被他钳制得动弹不得，但很快就全身酥麻，他的手已伸进了我的毛衣内。司机好奇地回头看了一眼，耿墨池马上用蹩脚的星城话骂：“看么子，开你的车撒！” 我笑了起来，这多稀罕啊，伟大的钢琴家耿墨池先生居然也会骂人，而且还是用这么烂的星城话骂。 我一笑，耿墨池也笑了，温柔地捧过我的脸，细细密密的吻落在我的唇畔和耳根。不可抑制的电流瞬间让我放下了所有的抵抗，我看着眼前这个从天而降的男人，无法掩饰内心的想念，是的，我想念。于是我伸出臂膀缠住了他的脖子，两人紧紧抱在一起，嘴唇一刻也没离开过。 Shameless!我黏在他身上时在心里骂自己。 但是晚上我躺在他怀里睡觉的时候，却有一种依靠而欣慰的快乐感。两个寂寞孤独的男女凑一块儿互相取暖也未尝不可，至于周围的人怎么看，管他呢，反正名声已经坏了，我再坚贞不渝也立不了牌坊。 至于不能回家过年，我的解释是单位临时要派我值班，没办法，别人都是有家有口，就我一人是单身，当然只能把团聚的机会让给其他同事了。老爷子居然也信了，连连说，工作上的事我们也就不好说什么了，单位需要你证明你在单位还有用，行，你忙你的工作吧，家里不用你牵挂。老爷子勤勤恳恳工作了一辈子，只要是工作需要，我怎么瞎掰他都信。 米兰知道我不回家过年后兴奋异常，在电话里嚷嚷道：“我就说嘛，你白考儿绝不可能把我一个人丢下自己跑回去过年的，太好了，总算有个伴了。” “对不起，我可能不能陪你，”我嘻嘻笑道，“这么重要的节日你也不需要我陪吧？” 米兰的狗鼻子忒灵敏，马上逼供，“有情况！说，你跟谁在一起？” “到时候你就知道了。”我存心要吊米兰的胃口，我知道她的八婆底子，明儿肯定要兴冲冲地来刨底，到时候我可以堂而皇之地敲她一顿法式大餐。上次被她敲了一顿望江楼的水煮鱼，这次我无论如何得扳本。身边的耿墨池正在剥橘子，塞了一块在我嘴里，堵住我的嘴。我包着满嘴的橘子问他：“哎，你还没给我个解释吧，破坏我跟家人团聚，你不解释下？” 耿墨池一脸心安理得，“天气太冷，想找个暖被窝的人。” “哟，你还怕没人暖被窝吗？” “我是怕你没人暖被窝。” 但是我的兴奋很快被情欲过后显现出来的无所适从所替代，两个人下了床后你看我我看你都觉得很不自在，话也说不到一块儿去，此前一切美好热烈的向往顿时显露了原形，竟是那么不真实。我悲哀地想，难道彼此那份热烈的吸引一旦被情欲充斥就真的如此不堪一击吗？我们到底是因为什么而彼此吸引？ 这种尴尬一直持续到大年三十，我们煞有介事地在酒店订了位子吃团圆饭。耿墨池点了一桌子菜，我说干吗点这么多，这么多菜我们一星期都吃不完呢。 “没关系，过年嘛。”耿墨池开了瓶红酒跟我碰杯。 “你怎么不去国外跟家人团聚呢？”我小心地问。 “我已经很多年没跟他们见过面了，没有团聚的意识了，”他夹了一大块鱼放到我碗里，“而且在国外，过年的气氛也很淡，没国内这么隆重。” 我还想问他家里的情况，他忙打断我，淡淡地说：“吃吧，咱们今天多吃少说话，过年话没讲好，一年都不吉利的。” 我忙住了嘴，疑惑他怎么也信这个。 耿墨池吃得很少，心事重重地打量我，不知道在想什么。看他的样子很懊丧，他是在后悔吗？后悔放弃数个重要演出任务赶过来给我暖被窝？还是后悔跟我这么个没品的女人玩这种无聊的游戏？是他期待我玩进去，还是他自己先玩进去了？我觉得后者的可能性不大，他看上去头脑清醒，目光清明，只是眼中流露出来的失望让我浑身不自在…… 我低头打量了下自己，又摸摸自己鸡窝似的蓬乱头发，粗糙暗黄的脸，是挺让人失望的，加上无精打采，昏昏欲睡，不用照镜子我也知道我的样子见不得人。可是他还朝我发什么愣啊，满大街的美女干吗非要盯着我看？我读不懂他的目光，忽然很讨厌他这种莫名表露出来的情绪，失落与冷漠夹杂着忧伤隔着桌子都能蔓延到我。他缘何如此忧伤？连带我也跟着忧伤起来…… 两个人的情绪一直很低落，吃完年夜饭回到碧潭花园的公寓看春节联欢晚会，谁都没说话。电视里热闹喜庆的画面跟屋内的沉闷窒息形成鲜明的对比。 终于，耿墨池按捺不住了，打破沉默道：“前天晚上，不，应该是凌晨，突然接到你的电话，我……激动了一个晚上，第二天一大早就赶过来了。” “是吗？没想到我们还能见面。”我冷冷地说。 “什么意思？”他很敏感，马上尖锐地反击，“你想到此为止？” “是你想到此为止吧？”我顿时变了脸。 他没出声，直直地看着我。 四目相对，足有两分钟谁都没动，但就是那两分钟又扭转了乾坤。耿墨池猛地把我重重地摔在了沙发上，扑在我身上恶狠狠地啃噬，我顽强地反击，跟他厮打在一起，从沙发上打到地毯上，在房间里滚来滚去，我头发散了，衣服也凌乱不堪。 我骑在他身上掐住他的脖子恶狠狠地叫：“别以为你不可替代，想跟我上床的男人排着队，你别给我摆出一副施舍叫花子的臭架子！你不喜欢我，不想玩了，大可以滚蛋，凭什么给我脸色看？你到底安的什么心，你说，你安的什么心！” 耿墨池被卡住脖子说不出话，但他毕竟是男人，一翻身就将我压在了身下，他也掐着我的脖子咆哮嘶吼：“你真是个无情无义没心没肺的烂女人！我大老远地跑过来就是看你给我发脾气的吗？你以为你是谁，想跟我上床的女人才真的是排着队，我的诚意居然一点儿都打动不了你，没错，我就是想玩弄你，你不也这么想的吗？我们都是一路货色！” 我张着嘴巴，呼吸困难，就要咽气了。 耿墨池猛的一惊，立即松了手，他惶恐地看着我，又看看自己的手，好像不相信刚才是他掐住了我。他赶紧扶我坐起来，拍我的背，“对不起，我……不是有意的……” 说着起身伸手拉我。 “啪”的一声，一记耳光甩在了他脸上，响亮清脆，震耳欲聋。他被这突然的举动打蒙了，捂住脸呆呆地看着泪流满面的我。 “为什么还来找我？”我突然崩溃了，歇斯底里地冲他吼，“你究竟要把我怎么样，你说，你要把我怎么样啊？” 耿墨池上前猛地抱住了我，下颌抵着我的头，动情地说：“我能把你怎么样呢，我就是想跟你在一起，我好孤独，没人陪，没人理……” “你……浑蛋……”我揪着他的衣领，委屈地大哭。 他紧紧箍着我，仿佛再也不能松开，声音发涩，“是，我是浑蛋，我自己都看不起自己。可是没办法，我很怕再也见不到你了，真的，我想你，做梦都想……不管你信不信，我发现我爱上你了，就在刚才，我是真的爱上你了……” 我在他的怀里一阵颤抖！老天，我跟他这么久，上了那么多次床，第一次听到他说他爱我。听清没有，他爱我！我难过地看着这个阴晴不定的男人，不知道是信还是不信，感情真是一件说不清道不明的事情，我原本是要放弃的！ 除了投降，我没有更好的选择。我在心里骂自己贱，但是没有办法，我就是不能控制地想他，喜欢他。到这个时候，我知道我们谁也没能玩得过谁，我们都把自己玩进去了。这算不算个意外？无所谓了，这个世界每天都有意外，每天都上演着生离死别，茫茫人海，芸芸众生，那么多张面孔，我们独独记住了对方，就怕一个转身消失在人海里，我们再也找不到彼此，于是只能在漫漫长夜去懊悔去想念。不，我不要这样的懊悔！ “如果你敢离开我，我还是会掐死你！”耿墨池抱着我说。这个浑蛋，装一会儿温柔都不行。我推开他，一脚踹过去，“去死！” 他却扑过来将我打横抱起，“入了洞房再死。”说着朝卧室走，我勾着他的脖子，扯他的耳朵，“你怎么这么无耻……” “无耻是一种美德。” "..." 接下来的几天，我们如胶似漆，耿墨池开车载着我满城兜风，甚至在年初六还载着我去了一趟湘北。但我不敢回家，爹娘都是安分守己的老实人，他们断不会接受我丧夫不到四个月就跟别的男人鬼混的事实，我还是不要刺激二老好了。所以我只能很小心地带着跟我鬼混的耿墨池游览小城的名胜古迹，虽然我极不情愿去那个葬送了彼此爱人的南湖，但是耿墨池却坚持要去，缠了半天，只得依了他。 因为天气很冷，南湖边游人稀少。这个湖是洞庭湖的一条支流，将不大的小城温柔地包围，远处青山绿水，近处野草闲花，风景相当秀丽，是本地人周末散心的好去处。我从小就喜欢这个湖，那时候每年端午节还有赛龙舟的传统，那个顶着烈日穿着花裙子在湖边人海里穿行的纯真年代早已一去不复返。祁树杰也是在湖边长大的，对这个湖有着特别的感情，生前有事没事都要带着我到湖边散步。至于他为什么会选择在这个湖里和叶莎结束生命，成了永远无法知晓的谜，他把这个谜带进了坟墓。 而耿墨池面对着这个平静却荡漾着无限悲伤的湖一句话也没说，他只是一根接一根地抽烟。我坐在湖边的休闲椅上看着他被烟雾笼罩的背影，忽然又有了那种迷失的感觉，潜意识里还是很想看清他，但是看得清吗？他会让我看清吗？ 我们当天就驾车离开了湘北，一路无话。但是晚上耿墨池却对我格外的恩爱，一遍遍吻着我的脸和唇，呢喃耳语，舍不得睡去，拽着我的手怎么也不肯松开。 半梦半醒间我听见他在我耳边说：“考儿，别离开我，我不想一个人……”当时他闭着眼，也不知道说的是梦话还是真话。我伏在他胸前，泪如泉涌。 第二天一清早，老妈就打来电话，开口就质问我是不是带了个男人去了湘北。当时我正在替耿墨池修指甲，镇定自若地回答道：“哪有这样的事嘛，我一直就在星城啊，一刻也没离开过。” “那我怎么接到了几个熟人的电话，都说你昨天跟一个开什么马车的男人在一起，还去了南湖……” 我差点笑出声，开什么马车？那是宝马好不好！ “没有啦，肯定是看错了，我真的在星城，没事上湘北干吗？”我睁眼说瞎话。 “一个人看错有可能，怎么几个都看错了呢？”老妈在电话里气得发抖，“你真是太不像话了，树杰死了才几个月你就跟别的男人鬼混，还把人带到这边来招摇！” “我说了没有嘛，要我怎么说你才信呢？”我一边装作很委屈地嚷，一边用指甲剪小心地替耿墨池修指甲。他的手真的很好看，修长而又不失阳刚，天生一双艺术家的手。耿墨池看着我暧昧地笑，把另一只修好了的手伸进了我的衣内。 “你别骗我就是，我跟你爸都这么大岁数了，你要想我们多活几年就规矩本分地过日子，别把名声搞坏了，以后……”老妈还在电话里苦口婆心地劝。 我却张着嘴不敢说话，耿墨池已把我抱在了身上咬住了我的耳朵，我听到母亲在电话里喊：“你听见我说的话没有？怎么不出声？” “妈，我昨晚吃坏了肚子，我……现在要……我待会儿再打给你好了。”说着我就挂掉了电话，跨坐在耿墨池的膝上狂热地跟他吻在了一起。 “你真是个不孝女！”耿墨池责怪道，自己却手忙脚乱地解我毛衣的扣子。 “没办法啦，自古忠孝难两全嘛。”我搂着他的脖子咯咯地笑。 春节很快就过完了，我初八要上班，耿墨池初七送我回韶山路的住处。他很专注地开着车，沉默得有些异常，我感觉他有话说。果然，在等一个红绿灯的时候他忽然说：“你搬过去跟我一起住吧，反正我们都是一个人，胡作非为也没人管。” 我立即明白他的意思，他要跟我同居！这已是他第二次提出这样的要求了，头一次当他是开玩笑，这次呢？“这个……好像不太好吧，”我迟疑着说，“你知道我是很看重名声的，把名声搞得太坏，我以后还怎么找人呢？” “你要不把名声搞坏怎么找得到人呢？”他一本正经的样子真是可恶，瞥了眼我，“你放心，我这人很能将就的，不介意你名声更坏。” "..." 看吧，这家伙就是一毒舌，跟他斗嘴皮子我很少能占到上风。但是我觉得他的提议很有建设性，既然两个都不是什么好东西，如果我们能走到一起有利于社会的和谐稳定长久发展，这种自我牺牲的大无畏精神绝对是新时代传统道德的标杆，所以那天我一回家就收拾东西，顺便给米兰打了个电话，要她以后蹭饭换地儿。 米兰以极其哀怨的语气在电话里嚎，“考儿，你抛弃了我！” “要不，你给我填房？” 话还没说完呢，我的耳朵就被耿墨池狠狠地揪住，“你给我试试看！”米兰在电话里听到，大声说：“考儿，告诉他，我们情比金坚爱比海深任谁也不能把我们分开，我们在天愿作比翼鸟，在地愿作连理枝……”耿墨池松开我的耳朵，不慌不忙地拿起电话，“这位小姐，要不，你给我填房？” “耿墨池！”我扑过去就要咬他。 他一边钳制着我，一边对着电话说：“很抱歉横刀夺爱，改天请小姐吃饭？” “好啊好啊！”米兰这个没骨气的，还不到一分钟就在电话里倒戈了，听筒就在我的旁边，我听到她用极其肉麻的声音说，“耿先生，你的声音好好听哦，我很欣赏你的勇气，也很放心把考儿交给你，你不来收拾她，就没人收拾她了……” 臭丫头，如果她此刻在我跟前我肯定掐死她。 没想到，两天后米兰亲自赶过来送行，我知道她的八婆底子，其实是想看看耿墨池，是白马呢，还是恐龙（当时她还不知道耿墨池的身份）。显而易见，耿墨池内敛的儒雅气息给了她很好的印象。上车的时候，她送给我一个小礼物，包装得很精致，“收下吧，一点儿小意思，祝贺你重新开始。” 我真受不了她这假正经，顿时警铃大作，平时这死丫头可是没这么客套的，每每月底混不过去了，就到处蹭饭吃，完了不仅不谢，还说是给我消灭粮食，免得我浪费。这会儿拿着她的礼物，我感觉就像拿了个炸弹，心里悬得慌。 “祝你们幸福，你们很般配，我跟樱之也说了这事，她也很高兴，还说改天要你们上她家吃饭。”米兰笑着说，那笑何止假正经简直太正经了，更加让我心里发毛。 “替我谢谢樱之。”我才不会谢谢米兰，这丫头太诡异了，谁知道她给我包的是什么礼物。而且我跟她之间如果正儿八经，反而感觉这个世界没有安全感，因为这丫头太能使坏了。 米兰走后，我拆开包装一看，还好，是一张影碟，奥斯卡的获奖影片《勇敢的心》。我当即就明白了这份礼物的含义，不愧是多年的死党，深懂我的心。 我想是的，此刻我就是凭着一颗勇敢的心去颠覆这个世界，我本来想说追求属于自己的生活，可这话太文绉绉了，因为从小到大我的追求就是颠覆世界。 后来米兰跟我如实招供，她其实原本打算送情趣内衣的，都买好了，就是那种穿了等于没穿的款式，但她想了很久觉得还是送影碟显得有文化，说白了，她怕耿墨池以为她是个女流氓。米兰在电话里矫情地说：“我这么纯洁，怎么能让他对我有不好的印象呢？” 我不得不承认，米兰的脸皮绝对可以去糊城墙。后来我把这事说给耿墨池听，他大笑，“其实我觉得送内衣比较有文化。”这个流氓！ 不久是我生日，耿墨池居然借了米兰的灵感，送了我一套内衣，就是那种穿了还不如没穿的款式，是他在香港出差时特意买的，牌子叫“维多利亚的秘密”，价格不菲。我咬牙切齿，问他怎么送我这东西，他说：“这样显得我有文化。” 我二话没说就把内衣扔衣柜里了，他当时瞅着我直摇头，“你看你，就是没文化。” 我：“……” 当然，这都是后话，搬家那天耿墨池很隆重，到了公寓楼下，执意要抱我上去。他一直将我抱到了门口才放下来，开了锁，牵我进去。 屋内窗明几净，满室都是温暖的阳光，洒满在乳白色的地毯上，温馨而惬意。特别是茶几上还特意摆上了我最爱的白玫瑰，洁白的花瓣在炫目的阳光下倾吐着醉人的芬芳。 “你是要让我爱上你吗？”不知是高兴还是忧伤，我脑子里晕晕乎乎的。白玫瑰是我最喜欢的花，我纳闷他怎么知道的？ “你会爱上我吗？”他轻吻一下我的额头，看着我的眼睛，“可是我已经爱上