Chapter 42 to say goodbye is to die a little bit

When several teachers from the Children's Palace arrived, the doctors just opened the door and came out.She looked in from the door, just in time to see Teacher Gu being "sucked" up from the hospital bed by the two big suction cups in the doctor's hand like a carp, and then fell back heavily. His thin and pale chest had distinct ribs, and Yu Zhou Zhou covered his mouth in fright, raised his head and looked at Chen An begging for help. "It's just an electric shock. Don't be afraid." Chen An was still very gentle, but at this moment Yu Zhouzhou suddenly felt that he was very similar to the moon he saw when he was a child. The moon in the afternoon was so faint that it was intangible, but it made people look up at him for a long time as if enchanted.

"Are the clothes ready?" A doctor who was sweating profusely from cardiopulmonary resuscitation asked the teachers while wiping his sweat. A female teacher handed him a bottle of Coke and said with a smile, doctor, this is just bought. Yes, drink some water and take a rest. It seemed that the people in front of him were not relatives of Mr. Gu. The doctor spoke very bluntly. He unscrewed the cap of the bottle and took two gulps. He wrinkled his nose and said, "It looks like we can't be saved. Let's get ready." This sentence seemed to be a signal to the god of death, Yu Zhouzhou ran to the door, leaned against the door and looked in desperately, unexpectedly saw Grandpa Gu opened his eyes and looked straight at her.

The last gleam of brilliance flashed in his dry eyes, and Yu Zhouzhou burst into tears instantly. "Grandpa Gu has something to say!" She turned around and shouted at Chen An, "Take off the mask on his face!" Chen An patted her on the shoulder comfortingly, "Zhou Zhou, calm down." But he had something to say, and he couldn't say it.Yu Zhouzhou burst into tears very quickly, she clutched Chen An's sleeve tightly, her eyes dimmed with tears, it seemed that the busy doctors and nurses had stopped, and removed all kinds of tubes and instruments from Teacher Gu's body , and then said a few words to the teachers next to me.

"Chen An, you watch this child wait outside, let's go in and clean up." Chen Yu hugged Yu Zhouzhou and patted her head gently. "Death is no different from going away, it's just that you will never see each other again. You will treat it as Grandpa Gu who is going away. Just like those friends when you were young, or classmates who are about to go to junior high school in other places, Everything just disappeared." "It's not the same," Yu Zhouzhou shook his head stubbornly, "Those people may or may not see them. But those who are dead, there is no possibility anymore."

Chen An was choked by her, and could only smile embarrassingly, "Maybe most of them are lies." About half an hour later, Teacher Gu's body had been tidied up and was about to be pushed to the mortuary. Yu Zhouzhou timidly walked to the bed, and was surprised to find that the person lying on the bed had such an unfamiliar face. "this is……" "People will change after death. You will understand when you grow up and learn more knowledge." Yu Zhouzhou's tears were taken back at once.Facing such an increasingly strange person, she couldn't cry. Yu Zhouzhou felt terrified of the fact that the tears were missing—not crying means cold-blooded, not crying is not filial, it is impolite, it is... this kind of anxiety made her squeeze out tears desperately, her mind The movie kept replaying back when Grandpa Gu helped her install the trimmer under the newly bought strings, bowing his body and smiling, and the hunched back standing infinitely lonely on the stage—she just crazily recalled, and Not reminiscing for reminiscence's sake, she just wanted to evoke her lost sadness.

Yu Zhouzhou lowered her head, Chen Yu's solemn side face made her very ashamed, so she didn't dare to look up and let him find her suddenly dry eyes. "If you can't cry, don't force your tears out." It's funny to say that these gentle words made Yu Zhouzhou burst into tears in an instant - it wasn't about remembering Grandpa Gu, Yu Zhouzhou was just crying anxiously. "Grandpa Gu can always understand your little thoughts, so he will understand you." Chen An was really good at inducing others to cry—after Yu Zhouzhou heard this provocative sentence, he looked at him tearfully and gratefully, and then at the stranger lying on the hospital bed.

When the funeral was held, the Children's Palace gave Grandpa Gu enough face, a sea of ​​crowded wreaths, and bustling students who were organized to attend the funeral, which proved that "the world is full of peaches and plums"... Yu Zhouzhou snuggled up to Chen An, tightly She hugged his arm tightly and lowered her head, for fear that others would find that she was not crying. Yu Zhouzhou found that some functions in his body were always temporarily malfunctioning, but they would all return home in an inadvertent moment and start working again.On another Sunday morning, when Yu Zhouzhou came to the empty rehearsal room of the orchestra early, put down his schoolbag and paced to stand in front of the already cold radiator, he suddenly felt a sense of disharmony in time and space.

She stretched out her hand, the back of the snow-white hand, with slender fingers, gently placed it on the heater, without feeling a trace of heat. Suddenly there was a creaking sound of the door opening from behind, Yu Zhouzhou turned her head suddenly, and a pair of big hands held her heart fiercely invisibly. The office door opened slowly, and Yu Zhouzhou breathed out nervously, staring at the faint light that came out of the door with wide eyes. "Let me tell you, if you put the child with me, you can let my sister-in-law feel at ease. Why are you being polite about our relationship..."

The new head of the regiment pushed the door open with a shy stomach and came out, talking loudly on his cell phone while walking towards the entrance of the hall. The rough voice faded away, and the door of the rehearsal field was slammed shut. Yu Zhouzhou stared blankly at the wooden door that was still creaking in the office, and suddenly felt a coolness on his chin. She reached out and wiped away tears. Finally, did you cry? No one would ask her with a doting look, hands behind their backs and a smile, "Zhou Zhou, didn't you practice the piano well last week?" No one would stand beside her to warm her hands on the radiator, hunched over and sighed at the ice flowers on the window.

Never again maybe. The person who went away never came back. -------------------------------------------------- ------------- "You have played the rosin for the fourth time, isn't the bow too harsh?" Yu Zhouzhou tilted her head and asked the girl next to her. She has been tossing her violin non-stop since an hour ago--checked the A string with the piano five or six times, and after pulling a few chords, she nervously wiped it with a dry cloth. Wipe off the rosin that fell from the bow to the body of the piano, and then immediately took out the small rectangular box, vigorously rubbing the somewhat yellowed ponytail on the bow back and forth.

The girl also turned her face to the side and smiled unnaturally, pointed at the bracket under Yu Zhouzhou's cello, and asked softly, "Aren't you afraid that during the exam, the stick will suddenly loosen before you finish playing the scale, and suddenly retracted, and..." Yu Zhouzhou's face also changed, "Can't you think of something good?" The girl cried and said, "I would like to, but I can't think of anything good." "Could it be your first time taking the grade test?" Yu Zhouzhou leaned over and twisted his violin stick several times while talking, and raised his head only after confirming that it was tightened. Nervousness is indeed contagious. "I'm not. Who have you met who took the tenth grade for the first time? Me, I'm..." The girl swallowed, "I'm going to take the music high school in S City this year. Today, among the three examiners, One of them is the teacher in charge of this year's enrollment in S. I have actually been a teacher with him, but my mother keeps telling me that it is all based on money, and she still hopes that I can leave it for others. Impression, I have been nagging all the way before coming to the exam, so I must play well this time, can I not be nervous?!" Yu Zhouzhou suddenly became interested, "You said... apprenticeship? Why? Don't you have a teacher?" The girl looked a year or two older than Yu Zhouzhou. She stood up, rolled her eyes pretending to be mature, and nodded Yu Zhouzhou's forehead, "You don't understand anything just by looking at it. The attached high school only needs to have a high level of playing the piano? Stupid. You have to clear up a lot of relationships. Back then, my mother scolded me for not being up to date while helping me with relationships, and I was so annoyed to death." Yu Zhouzhou sat up straight, smiled obsequiously, and asked innocently and ignorantly, "Sister, what do you mean by relationship?" "It's the person in charge of recruiting students. There are so many, and you have to get in touch with the teachers of the attached high school before the exam. If there is no one there, it won't work at all." The girl spoke happily, her tone was immature, but her demeanor already looked like an adult. Yu Zhouzhou bent down, cupped his face, and squinted his eyes with a smile, "Then what if your level is indeed very high? Do you still need to be like this?" The girl slapped Yu Zhouzhou on the head again, "If you say you are stupid, you will be stupid immediately. Do you think I am looking for a relationship for the sake of passing the exam? I am not for the sake of passing the exam, I am not for the sake of being caught by other related people." Squeeze people down! My mother said, this is called self-defense!" The white wooden door not far ahead opened, and the last child who had completed the assessment came out with a violin in hand. The girl paused, then sat down peacefully, picked up the rosin and continued to abuse her bow. The dark iron door beside the white wooden door also opened, and a boy who had finished the examination came out with his cello in his arms. Yu Zhouzhou stopped laughing and bent down and twisted the stick fiercely. "By the way, this kind of...self-defense you're talking about," Yu Zhouzhou lowered his head and asked the most crucial question in a low voice, "How much will it cost?" The girl grinned, "You mean a gift?" Yu Zhouzhou lowered his head and smiled softly, "Yes." "Cut, we don't give gifts anymore, we go directly to class, go to the admissions teacher for class, a class is forty-five minutes, 300 yuan, I spent more than 30,000 yuan just for 'classes' in the early stage." "Is this just the early stage?" "The money that needs to be spent is not only on this. If I really have to go to S City in the future, my mother will have to go with me, and the cost will be even greater then." "Then why do you want to...why do you want to enter the attached high school? Do you like the violin very much?" Finally, the condescending sense of superiority brought about by age no longer appeared on the girl's face. She was not in a hurry to answer Yu Zhouzhou's question, but just put down the bow and rosin in her hand, and stared out of the window with her face in her hands. "Of course I... have known for a long time that I am not Mozart." She said softly, suddenly smiling.