Chapter 4 small flying insect

Yu Zhouzhou often said that the name Benben is very good. At that time, a cartoon was playing on TV. The protagonist in it was a yellow car that looked like a bumper car. It was flat and cute as if it was blown up by a balloon.That car was also called Benben. The car and a boy traveled together to many places in the world in order to find his mother. Yu Zhouzhou didn't know how a confused mother could lose her child, so she sympathized with Benben.It was almost the first time that she felt that cartoons could really be nonsense. She looked at her mother who was buttoning herself, and thought, look, my mother will always be by my side.Thinking of this, he patted his chest gratefully, cherishing his happiness as if he was the rest of his life after a catastrophe.

But later she really met a Benben, a boy who was deliberately lost by her mother. When that cartoon had a happy ending, she happily ran to tell Benben, "You will find your mother too, for sure." When I was a child, Yu Zhouzhou always believed that the tragic things in cartoons were all nonsense—for example, Benben was lost by his mother; but the beautiful things must be true—for example, Benben finally found his mother, and in a flower garden The sea smiled brightly. When she grew up, she realized that it was correct to reverse this perception. Those sad and disappointed guys always make up a lot of beautiful things to deceive people.

Ben Ben is always very discouraged.He thought he might never get rid of his alcoholic dad for the rest of his life.Yu Zhouzhou laughed at him and asked him how he would know such a long time in a lifetime? Is a lifetime long?A very vicissitudes of wry smile appeared on Benben's face, which didn't match his age at all. At that moment, Yu Zhouzhou was stunned. She couldn't explain why. She liked his smile. It seemed very responsible and like an adult. However, after thinking about it carefully, she felt that it was better for Benben to cry—crying like a child. "Life is not so long. I was pushed by him, and my thigh hit the corner of the table. The next day I saw it was purple, and it turned black in a few days, and it was purple again in a few days. The last day The dots turn pale yellow and then disappear."

Yu Zhouzhou was puzzled, "What do you mean?" "That is to say, I counted the days when the bruises disappeared little by little. Before the last batch was counted, the next batch would hang on my body. I counted the days by this, and found that the days passed very quickly. Is a lifetime long?" Yu Zhouzhou almost forgot Benben's appearance later, but she will always remember that a boy told her that the passage of time is not just counted by calendars. Time can also be marked in units of cycles for a scar to heal. Yu Zhouzhou looked at Benben, and thought sadly—if she understood her emotions at that time were called sadness—the cartoons are so wonderful, the car Benben wants to find his mother, and he can set off immediately and travel around the world. Friends, don't worry about eating and drinking, don't worry about lack of gasoline, don't worry about the long distance, don't need to take the train (because it is a car)...

I heard brother Qiao from my uncle's family say "life is a blurred web" before, but Yu Zhouzhou didn't quite understand it, but at this moment, when I looked up and saw the thin spider web in the corner of the eaves, I thought, life is like a blurred web. are spider webs, so what are they?Is it a small bug that is stuck on the net and can only wait to be eaten? "My parents always quarreled, especially fiercely, and threw things at each other. The ink bottle was thrown on my head. En." Yu Zhouzhou made such a mistake by accident.In fact, she only met her father two or three times, and only once was her father and mother at the same time, and this time it was a quarrel. The two of them fought as if they were going to demolish the house. She didn't know that a quiet and gentle mother could have such strength .When she was a child, she learned two words from watching TV, one was called hysteria, and the other was called insanity. She thought that she could give these two words to her mother and father that day respectively.

Naturally, Yu Zhouzhou was not hit by the ink bottle, otherwise she would not be alive now.But she said it seriously, even a little proudly, just to comfort Benben. The best comfort in the world is not to tell the other party "everything will be fine", but to say with a bitter face, "cry, look, I'm worse than you". So Benben, who was successfully cured, said sincerely, "Zhou Zhou, I don't want my mother, I want you." The two pure and beautiful six-year-old children naturally couldn't understand how awkward this sentence was. Yu Zhouzhou continued to pat his shoulder righteously, vowing, "I will always be by your side."

This sentence is also learned from cartoons.They were all moved by themselves and each other, their friendship was flourishing, and the atmosphere was too good to be true. I will never leave you, what a beautiful and sad lie. Yu Zhouzhou later found out that the first lie in her life was thanks to cartoons.She believed a lot of wrong things, but she believed deeply. The life in the courtyard was spent peacefully day by day like this.Yu Zhouzhou still stays at home in a regular manner every day. Every night from 6:00 to 7:00 is the unshakable animation time. He goes to his grandma's house on weekends, and occasionally goes out at night when his mother is at home to play wildly with the children.

For the rest of the time, she lived in a small theater in her head.Sometimes I get a headache from fantasizing and run out of materials, so I quickly read a few stories to accumulate new inspirations - she only has three sets of books at home, "The Complete Works of Andersen". Full version with text, no illustrations.Yu Zhouzhou knew a lot of characters, and they followed the subtitles below while watching TV, basically just by familiarity.When she was reading the story book, she even guessed and swallowed it wholeheartedly, but she was very happy to read it. Text instead of comic strips, which fulfilled her imagination instead.Without the shackles of her predecessors' pictures, she painstakingly studied and described the scenes in "Little Ida's Flowers", and depicted the images of plants and foods that had never been heard before, and the copyright belonged only to Yu Zhouzhou. ...

So in the sixth grade of elementary school, when Lin Yang generously invited her to watch Disney's "Snow White" at home, she stared at the short-haired, blue-dressed Snow White with bright eyes and bright teeth on the screen, and said absentmindedly, no, no. "What's wrong?" Lin Yang gnawed on an apple and asked her with raised eyebrows. "She doesn't look like Snow White." "Ha," Lin Yang smiled, "Have you ever seen a live one?" She stopped talking to him and just stared at the screen. The little girl who was less than nine years old actually looked helplessly tired.

In short, the Snow White in her heart is not like that. Lin Yang gnawed on the apple, and she also had a little mouse in her heart, gnawing on the secret garden that only belonged to her. However, when Yu Zhouzhou was 6 years old, the most serious crisis she encountered was that the city TV station and the provincial TV station played two cartoons that she also liked at six o'clock at the same time.She had no choice but to frequently toss the remote control to change channels, which was extremely painful. When she grew up, she heard that a good friend was on two boats. The first thing she thought of was the frequent switching of TV screens when she was six years old.

She is sympathetic to good friends.She thought it must be very hard and boring. The good life ended with the goal that year. The youngest daughter of the westernmost family died. The body was found by the ditch not far from the courtyard, and it is said that it was strangled to death—of course, I also heard those women whispering, with secretive expressions, saying that they died naked and without clothes , tsk tsk, tsk tsk. Yu Zhouzhou didn't understand why the villains wanted to take her clothes away. Regarding that little aunt, the last scene she remembered was that a few days ago, this beautiful woman was wearing newly bought flared jeans, had her curly hair permed, and smiled at her mother when she walked to the door of Yu Zhouzhou's house.Mom said it was so beautifully dressed.She didn't pretend to be modest either, she chuckled, her bright red lips sparkling in the sun. It is indeed very beautiful, Yu Zhouzhou thought. At that time, Yu Zhouzhou already knew how to appreciate other beautiful women.And when she was very young, when she heard her mother and aunt praise a passing woman for being fashionable and beautiful, she would writhe and walk up to them unwilling to be lonely, pretending that she was also a passerby, then turned her head and pointed at her. I said to my mother, "Mom, mother, tell me quickly, this woman is so beautiful." The little aunt's family did not attend the funeral with much fanfare, and even cried very suppressed, as if it was a very embarrassing thing. Later, Granny Chen's house in the tofu shop was broken into again, and the two hundred yuan in the drawer was stolen.All of a sudden, people in this courtyard were in a state of panic. They didn't know whether it was a fugitive from outside or a ghost inside the courtyard. Everyone panicked.Mother no longer dared to leave Yu Zhouzhou alone at home. She worked during the day and always took the child with her. Yu Zhouzhou's mother failed the college entrance examination that year, so she was only admitted to the provincial medical college, majoring in traditional Chinese medicine.After a series of changes, she lost her job very early and opened a small clinic of traditional Chinese medicine massage and acupuncture. In fact, she was the only one busy inside and out.When doing physical therapy massage for customers, I often need to go to the customer's home alone to provide door-to-door service, so I spend most of the day riding a bicycle around the city. So now there is an extra Yu Zhouzhou on the back seat of the bicycle. Her mother is always very, very guilty of letting her daughter follow her to work too early. If she had a miserable childhood, it will reflect the mother's self-blame.However, Yu Zhouzhou was actually very happy.She felt like a little bug that had escaped from the spider web and flew up again, seeing a different world. There are three teachings and nine streams, the world is so big. She learned to deal with adults obediently, to speak when she should speak, and to be silent when she should be silent.Sometimes at home, the customer is worried that she will be bored by herself, so she always finds some toy comics for her to read, and sometimes there are fruit snacks to eat.But they didn't know that she didn't feel bored at all.Different people living in each different house can give her new inspiration.She has no way to perform arrogantly anymore, so she can only nest quietly in the corner, internalize the galloping imagination, and then travel to the sky with them. In winter, the roads in the north are always covered with a thick layer of ice.In addition to the fact that the main roads can clear the snow in time, the snow on many small streets has been compacted by passing vehicles. You have to be careful when walking in non-slip shoes, let alone riding a bicycle.Yu Zhouzhou started to walk with her mother, squeezed into the bus, and was sometimes pushed to the point where her feet were lifted off the ground and suspended in the air.But she likes to walk, because whenever she passes by a stall selling fragrant pancakes and fruit or a cart selling candied haws, her mother will always buy her something. She thought it was a windfall, and Mom took it as compensation. In that year, Yu Zhouzhou walked the longest road in her life. At the end of the road, she met Chen An.