Chapter 17 love in the city
How small, how small we are compared to the powers outside!But we just want to say: I will always be with you; we will never leave for the rest of our lives. —as if we were in charge of ourselves!
Marriage in troubled times is like turbulent waves, after all, it is not you and me who have the final say.Eileen Chang just wants to spend a lot of time and find peace in her dreams.She doesn't ask about the world, the world will come to ask her.She doesn't care about politics, and politics will care about her.But what she has decided cannot be changed.She is willing to take responsibility for love and is determined. Perhaps Zhang Ailing would not admit that she loved the wrong person, but this is an undoubted fact.The alluring love between her and Hu Lancheng, I don't know when it started, has become the object of divergent opinions in Shanghai.But she didn't care, and she always lived with Hu Lancheng in a life of love between men and women, watching the sun rise and then slowly set. Zhang Ailing still doesn't like to socialize with people, Hu Lancheng is a friend in the outside world, she hardly sees her.She calls all things related to the outside world chaos.Even though she was on the edge of the sword at this time, she was neither frightened nor frightened.Hu Lancheng is a person who has gone through vicissitudes of life. He likes Zhang Ailing's neatness, because he is unwilling to make too much practice and commitment for this unpredictable relationship.He didn't even think that there was no one else in this world who would love her so much like him.Therefore, he and Zhang Ailing communicated so affectionately, and he never felt guilty. Hu Lancheng asked Zhang Ailing about her thoughts on marriage, but Zhang Ailing said that she didn't think about it.She didn't think about who she fell in love with in the past, and she didn't even seem to have anyone to pursue, and even if there was, she didn't like it.However, when love comes, there is really no way to pick it.The same is true of marriage, which comes so quietly. "Aileen and I are just like this. There are mountains in the world that never get too high, and seas that never get too deep. The mountains and the sea can hardly be the love of children. Both of us rarely thought of getting married. But Yingdi divorced me, and we Cai also got married. I was thirty-eight years old and she was twenty-four years old. In order not to implicate her due to changes in the current situation in the future, I did not hold a ceremony, but only wrote a marriage letter. As a couple, I hope that the years will be quiet and the world will be stable. The first two sentences were written by Ai Ling, and the last two sentences were written by me, with Yanying as the matchmaker." These are Hu Lancheng's original words. If you really love someone, the marriage that you once thought should be prudent is so used to it.Hu Lancheng mentioned here that he divorced Yingdi, but I don't know how Quan Huiwen arranged it.His emotional world is too chaotic, not to mention other people, maybe even himself can't figure it out.Even so, Zhang Ailing didn't care.Their combination seemed quite logical.He didn't try his best to fight for the sky and land, and he didn't hurt others. He didn't even have a ceremony. He just wrote the marriage letter. What exactly does Eileen Chang want?As proud as she is, does she want such a vain title?Want an unknown agreement?Or can she really be sure that she will be Hu Lancheng's final destination?Or maybe she doesn't care about those things at all, the end of time is always a myth, how many happy endings have the men and women in her novels had?Holding hands is a form, and holding hands frankly is for letting go freely in the future. Even though Zhang Ailing is sober, why should she exchange her innocence for this wrong marriage.She once wrote in the book: "'Death and life are broad, enjoy each other with you, hold your hand, and grow old with you.' I think it is the saddest poem. Life, death and parting are all big things. We are not at our disposal. How small, how small, we are compared to external forces! But we insist on saying: 'I will always be with you; we will never leave us all our lives.'—as if we are in charge of ourselves Like!" Yes, no one can help.The boundless world, at a glance, is full of indistinguishable love and hatred.Those who walk forward do not know where the next stop will be.Hu Lancheng said: "Although we are married, it still seems like we have never been married. I don't want to make her life change a little bit because of me. The two of them don't look like husband and wife, but they are still golden. Tong, one is a jade girl." Sure enough, only Eileen Chang refused to change herself for anyone.Even though she is hopelessly in love and devotes herself to the dust and dust, her innate temperament will never change to the death.It is such Zhang Ailing that makes Hu Lancheng see himself and everything in her again.It is no longer the monotony of looking at mountains as mountains and water as water, but a more sober cognition.Without Zhang Ailing, Hu Lancheng would not have been able to write a text like "Mountains and Rivers". Hu Lancheng said: "Zhang Ailing was the person who took care of the water and flowers in the world of the Republic of China. When I read her articles, I felt that she knew everything. In fact, she had very little experience in the world, but everything in this era will come to negotiate with her, just like flowers. In the shirt, the shadow falls in the pool." Eileen Chang is also full of respect for all things in this world.She is not the kind of cynical woman.She said: "Even though modern things are wrong in every way, they belong to us after all, and we are close to them." Amidst the storms and waves, I wish the world will be peaceful and harmonious.After marriage, the two of them are like "looking at the front and back mirrors of flowers, and the faces of the flowers reflect each other." That's how they live together as fellow practitioners, share the same destiny, share the same vision, and see and know the same.Hu Lancheng likes to study and discuss with Zhang Ailing. In Zhang Ailing's place, ordinary things can break the sky and shock the world.The predecessors said that couples are like tuning a piano, and Hu Lancheng learned to tune the strings from Zhang Ailing. However, she seemed to be obedient to him, but she still refused to obey him when she refused, and she would not rebel, she just listened quietly.Zhang Ailing likes to peek at Hu Lancheng quietly outside the door of the room. She wrote: "He is sitting on the sofa alone, and there is a tranquility buried deep in gold powder and sand in the room. Outside, it is full of wind and rain, and the mountains and plains are full of today." Her deep affection makes Jiangshan magnificent and unspeakable.But her sobriety and calmness, which knows everything about the world and people, also made Hu Lancheng feel uneasy.No matter what she treats, she is not easy to use affection.What others think is moving, she does not feel moved.She couldn't shed tears when others wanted to cry.She is so rational in her use of emotion.So she will never be caught in disaster by inexplicable love affairs. Even so, so what.After all, he can't be an outsider, and after all, he falls into dust because of him.When the love is deep, how can others stop it?Zhang Ailing is willing to bloom for him in the white mountains and black waters, and live to death.If one day he wants to be widowed, she will resolutely turn around and have nothing to do with him. Hu Lancheng was half satisfied and half frightened.He knew that Zhang Ailing was willing to go through fire and water for him, and would not hesitate to do so, but he also knew that she was cold-hearted and would not follow blindly.So when we are together, there is always a thousand feelings, which are hard to describe.One day, the two were riding in a rickshaw in the rain.Zhang Ailing sat on Hu Lancheng's body. Hu Lancheng felt that she was so grown up and wearing a raincoat. He only felt uncomfortable in holding her, but it was also an unforgettable feeling.Perhaps this is how Zhang Ailing felt for Hu Lancheng. When they are together, they are always uncomfortable, but they are really unforgettable. During the days with Hu Lancheng, Zhang Ailing neglected to write, and it seemed difficult for her to write works that surpassed her previous ones.At that time, Zhang Ailing was serializing, and Fu Lei criticized the article. He said: "You can't escape the fate of dying as soon as you hit the ground." He felt that, apart from men and women, the world is still very vast after all. And Hu Lancheng also felt that Zhang Ailing's talent was about to rest for a while. "Her first love in life will one day pass away. At that time, there will be a feeling of loss that cannot be dismissed, and her talent will wither." It is impossible to wither, but a person who is obsessed with life and tasted fireworks will definitely not be able to It's been so long.Besides, it doesn't matter if it is withered, the country changes, and people are impermanent, who can continue as before in the mighty wind and smoke. Zhang Ailing has no fear of these.In troubled times, everything that is touched and far away is just passing clouds.Hu Lancheng had a premonition. He knew that the current situation was uncertain. One day, the husband and wife would fly separately when the time came.But he said: "I will definitely be able to escape, but I have to change my surname and name in the first two years. In the future, even though we are separated by the Milky Way, I will definitely see you." , or called Zhang Zhao, I will lead you to recruit you in every corner of the world." If he really wanted to leave, after only a few months of marriage, he would be traveling the world.On November 10, 1944, Wang Jingwei died of illness.Hu Lancheng was dealt with by the Japanese Ikeda, and Shen Qiwu, Guan Yongji and others went to Hankou to receive "Da Chu Bao".This time I went here not because of pure literary news, but because I expected another big achievement under the support of the Japanese military forces.People always keep pace with the times, Hu Lancheng has never been willing to be lonely. Where did the days when men gave up farming and women gave up weaving go?Where did those tung flowers and endless kindness go?In the end, he could not live a life of peace and tranquility, and the heart that yearned for soaring never disappeared.If he wanted to leave, she would not stay, not even a soft word. Pack your bags and hold on to that ticket.Putting on her favorite cheongsam, she walked with him in the dim light, misty misty rain filled her heart.Since then, when you go, what will happen later.She knows that endless time can easily change a person.She won't ask him to make a promise, because any promise can't be worth a moment of staying together.But after a long distance from the silver man, her heart could not rest in panic after all.
Marriage in troubled times is like turbulent waves, after all, it is not you and me who have the final say.Eileen Chang just wants to spend a lot of time and find peace in her dreams.She doesn't ask about the world, the world will come to ask her.She doesn't care about politics, and politics will care about her.But what she has decided cannot be changed.She is willing to take responsibility for love and is determined. Perhaps Zhang Ailing would not admit that she loved the wrong person, but this is an undoubted fact.The alluring love between her and Hu Lancheng, I don't know when it started, has become the object of divergent opinions in Shanghai.But she didn't care, and she always lived with Hu Lancheng in a life of love between men and women, watching the sun rise and then slowly set. Zhang Ailing still doesn't like to socialize with people, Hu Lancheng is a friend in the outside world, she hardly sees her.She calls all things related to the outside world chaos.Even though she was on the edge of the sword at this time, she was neither frightened nor frightened.Hu Lancheng is a person who has gone through vicissitudes of life. He likes Zhang Ailing's neatness, because he is unwilling to make too much practice and commitment for this unpredictable relationship.He didn't even think that there was no one else in this world who would love her so much like him.Therefore, he and Zhang Ailing communicated so affectionately, and he never felt guilty. Hu Lancheng asked Zhang Ailing about her thoughts on marriage, but Zhang Ailing said that she didn't think about it.She didn't think about who she fell in love with in the past, and she didn't even seem to have anyone to pursue, and even if there was, she didn't like it.However, when love comes, there is really no way to pick it.The same is true of marriage, which comes so quietly. "Aileen and I are just like this. There are mountains in the world that never get too high, and seas that never get too deep. The mountains and the sea can hardly be the love of children. Both of us rarely thought of getting married. But Yingdi divorced me, and we Cai also got married. I was thirty-eight years old and she was twenty-four years old. In order not to implicate her due to changes in the current situation in the future, I did not hold a ceremony, but only wrote a marriage letter. As a couple, I hope that the years will be quiet and the world will be stable. The first two sentences were written by Ai Ling, and the last two sentences were written by me, with Yanying as the matchmaker." These are Hu Lancheng's original words. If you really love someone, the marriage that you once thought should be prudent is so used to it.Hu Lancheng mentioned here that he divorced Yingdi, but I don't know how Quan Huiwen arranged it.His emotional world is too chaotic, not to mention other people, maybe even himself can't figure it out.Even so, Zhang Ailing didn't care.Their combination seemed quite logical.He didn't try his best to fight for the sky and land, and he didn't hurt others. He didn't even have a ceremony. He just wrote the marriage letter. What exactly does Eileen Chang want?As proud as she is, does she want such a vain title?Want an unknown agreement?Or can she really be sure that she will be Hu Lancheng's final destination?Or maybe she doesn't care about those things at all, the end of time is always a myth, how many happy endings have the men and women in her novels had?Holding hands is a form, and holding hands frankly is for letting go freely in the future. Even though Zhang Ailing is sober, why should she exchange her innocence for this wrong marriage.She once wrote in the book: "'Death and life are broad, enjoy each other with you, hold your hand, and grow old with you.' I think it is the saddest poem. Life, death and parting are all big things. We are not at our disposal. How small, how small, we are compared to external forces! But we insist on saying: 'I will always be with you; we will never leave us all our lives.'—as if we are in charge of ourselves Like!" Yes, no one can help.The boundless world, at a glance, is full of indistinguishable love and hatred.Those who walk forward do not know where the next stop will be.Hu Lancheng said: "Although we are married, it still seems like we have never been married. I don't want to make her life change a little bit because of me. The two of them don't look like husband and wife, but they are still golden. Tong, one is a jade girl." Sure enough, only Eileen Chang refused to change herself for anyone.Even though she is hopelessly in love and devotes herself to the dust and dust, her innate temperament will never change to the death.It is such Zhang Ailing that makes Hu Lancheng see himself and everything in her again.It is no longer the monotony of looking at mountains as mountains and water as water, but a more sober cognition.Without Zhang Ailing, Hu Lancheng would not have been able to write a text like "Mountains and Rivers". Hu Lancheng said: "Zhang Ailing was the person who took care of the water and flowers in the world of the Republic of China. When I read her articles, I felt that she knew everything. In fact, she had very little experience in the world, but everything in this era will come to negotiate with her, just like flowers. In the shirt, the shadow falls in the pool." Eileen Chang is also full of respect for all things in this world.She is not the kind of cynical woman.She said: "Even though modern things are wrong in every way, they belong to us after all, and we are close to them." Amidst the storms and waves, I wish the world will be peaceful and harmonious.After marriage, the two of them are like "looking at the front and back mirrors of flowers, and the faces of the flowers reflect each other." That's how they live together as fellow practitioners, share the same destiny, share the same vision, and see and know the same.Hu Lancheng likes to study and discuss with Zhang Ailing. In Zhang Ailing's place, ordinary things can break the sky and shock the world.The predecessors said that couples are like tuning a piano, and Hu Lancheng learned to tune the strings from Zhang Ailing. However, she seemed to be obedient to him, but she still refused to obey him when she refused, and she would not rebel, she just listened quietly.Zhang Ailing likes to peek at Hu Lancheng quietly outside the door of the room. She wrote: "He is sitting on the sofa alone, and there is a tranquility buried deep in gold powder and sand in the room. Outside, it is full of wind and rain, and the mountains and plains are full of today." Her deep affection makes Jiangshan magnificent and unspeakable.But her sobriety and calmness, which knows everything about the world and people, also made Hu Lancheng feel uneasy.No matter what she treats, she is not easy to use affection.What others think is moving, she does not feel moved.She couldn't shed tears when others wanted to cry.She is so rational in her use of emotion.So she will never be caught in disaster by inexplicable love affairs. Even so, so what.After all, he can't be an outsider, and after all, he falls into dust because of him.When the love is deep, how can others stop it?Zhang Ailing is willing to bloom for him in the white mountains and black waters, and live to death.If one day he wants to be widowed, she will resolutely turn around and have nothing to do with him. Hu Lancheng was half satisfied and half frightened.He knew that Zhang Ailing was willing to go through fire and water for him, and would not hesitate to do so, but he also knew that she was cold-hearted and would not follow blindly.So when we are together, there is always a thousand feelings, which are hard to describe.One day, the two were riding in a rickshaw in the rain.Zhang Ailing sat on Hu Lancheng's body. Hu Lancheng felt that she was so grown up and wearing a raincoat. He only felt uncomfortable in holding her, but it was also an unforgettable feeling.Perhaps this is how Zhang Ailing felt for Hu Lancheng. When they are together, they are always uncomfortable, but they are really unforgettable. During the days with Hu Lancheng, Zhang Ailing neglected to write, and it seemed difficult for her to write works that surpassed her previous ones.At that time, Zhang Ailing was serializing, and Fu Lei criticized the article. He said: "You can't escape the fate of dying as soon as you hit the ground." He felt that, apart from men and women, the world is still very vast after all. And Hu Lancheng also felt that Zhang Ailing's talent was about to rest for a while. "Her first love in life will one day pass away. At that time, there will be a feeling of loss that cannot be dismissed, and her talent will wither." It is impossible to wither, but a person who is obsessed with life and tasted fireworks will definitely not be able to It's been so long.Besides, it doesn't matter if it is withered, the country changes, and people are impermanent, who can continue as before in the mighty wind and smoke. Zhang Ailing has no fear of these.In troubled times, everything that is touched and far away is just passing clouds.Hu Lancheng had a premonition. He knew that the current situation was uncertain. One day, the husband and wife would fly separately when the time came.But he said: "I will definitely be able to escape, but I have to change my surname and name in the first two years. In the future, even though we are separated by the Milky Way, I will definitely see you." , or called Zhang Zhao, I will lead you to recruit you in every corner of the world." If he really wanted to leave, after only a few months of marriage, he would be traveling the world.On November 10, 1944, Wang Jingwei died of illness.Hu Lancheng was dealt with by the Japanese Ikeda, and Shen Qiwu, Guan Yongji and others went to Hankou to receive "Da Chu Bao".This time I went here not because of pure literary news, but because I expected another big achievement under the support of the Japanese military forces.People always keep pace with the times, Hu Lancheng has never been willing to be lonely. Where did the days when men gave up farming and women gave up weaving go?Where did those tung flowers and endless kindness go?In the end, he could not live a life of peace and tranquility, and the heart that yearned for soaring never disappeared.If he wanted to leave, she would not stay, not even a soft word. Pack your bags and hold on to that ticket.Putting on her favorite cheongsam, she walked with him in the dim light, misty misty rain filled her heart.Since then, when you go, what will happen later.She knows that endless time can easily change a person.She won't ask him to make a promise, because any promise can't be worth a moment of staying together.But after a long distance from the silver man, her heart could not rest in panic after all.