Chapter 16 Dust blossoms
Seeing him, she became very low, low into the dust.But her heart was joyful, and flowers bloomed from the dust.
I don't know whether it's too early to meet or too late to meet again, why there is a kind of sudden joy, but also a kind of coolness that passes by the clouds.Their love is like an old tree that has experienced wind and frost, and in the twilight, new green shoots bloom.At this moment, she was in a glamorous style, and his appearance made her feel a little melancholy like swifts flying together.He happened to be losing his sharpness, and her arrival made him feel a sense of peace that was waning. Years have actually treated Zhang Ailing well, and gave her a love at her best moment.No matter whether this man is worthy of her heart or not, she always needs such a man in her life.Otherwise, if you miss it, you can only blame Liu Guang for being incomprehensible and neglecting Hua Nian for no reason. After seeing Hu Lancheng, Zhang Ailing's heart could never go back to the past.That night, she leaned on the window sill alone, seeing the cold moonlight, and realized that she was just performing a one-man show these years.I thought that the mountains and rivers are not owed, and I can smile when I stay alone for a while and get drunk.Until Hu Lancheng's appearance, she knew that the life she wanted was, after all, to be like the characters in her writing, sharing fireworks. Frustrated in his official career, Hu Lancheng had to meet Zhang Ailing, and he felt that the world was so generous.On the road of love, Hu Lancheng can be said to be proud of his spring breeze. Besides his wife Quan Huiwen, Hu Lancheng also has an old friend, who was originally a singer of Paramount, and later committed himself to Hu Lancheng and stayed in Nanjing.But these women are not enough.In other words, no amount of women can stop Hu Lancheng's passionate heart.What's more, this time I met Zhang Ailing, who is popular in Shanghai's literary circles. For him, it should be a midnight surprise. The next day, Hu Lancheng visited Zhang Ailing again.This time, the door she had locked for many years was opened for him calmly.Zhang Ailing actually dressed up for him on purpose, with a sapphire blue silk jacket and glasses with bright yellow frames, which is very charming and enchanting.When Hu Lancheng stepped into her room, he began to feel uneasy.His uneasiness was due to the luxury in this room.And this luxury is not because of the preciousness of the furniture, but a kind of just right chic, a kind of modern freshness and bright, with boundless temptation and stimulation. "Outside the balcony is the whole of Shanghai in the sky, clouds, shadows and sunlight, and the trams below are coming and going." What kind of life is this, so that one's heart wants to let go instantly.In the Beijing opera, Liu Bei was timid when he went to Mrs. Sun's room, and Hu Lancheng also felt the same when he walked into Zhang Ailing's room at this time.So he can't help but say: "Your decoration here is very good. I have been to many exquisite places, but it is not as good as this place." However, Zhang Ailing said that everything here was arranged by her mother and aunt. If she, she might like it more. Intense colors, so warm and intimate. After all, she is not a cold and thin woman, her heart is so soft that she can't bear it.Seeing Hu Lancheng in front of her, talking about his life, his talents and knowledge, she just listened, she understood everything.Hu Lancheng later said: "Men and women are happy, one kind is like dancing, and the other is like fighting, and the male and female puppet dance carved on the old Chinese railings is brutal and fierce, just like Xue Rengui and Princess Daizhan meeting in front of the two armies. Dance is also like fighting." He never liked to fight, but now he saw Zhang Ailing, he wanted to fight, because he met an opponent in chess and he wanted to conquer. "But I used all my weapons, but her bare hands are not as good as hers." It can be seen how sharp and peerless Zhang Ailing is in Hu Lan's mind.The practice in her life is more than enough to travel the rivers and lakes, but when she comes to Zhang Ailing, she is so insignificant.But the clouds and water are vast, the fireworks and the willow moon, he is always unwilling to take into account many things, just saying this, he wants to make a promise, but keep the sky. The present moment is worth a thousand dollars.Hu Lancheng has no time to fight again, and he doesn't know how to continue this concern.He didn't know that in Zhang Ailing's heart, he was a beautiful man, as beautiful as a spring flower and as thin as autumn water.Perhaps Zhang Ailing had never met a man as suave and romantic as Hu Lancheng.Looking at Hu Lancheng's photos, he doesn't look very heroic, but he has an indescribable charm.It is this kind of charm that makes this young woman difficult to control. I don't know if people who fall in love always lose.Fate gave Zhang Ailing this opportunity, which satisfied her many deep desires for a man, and it was also a game.She broke out of the cocoon and became a butterfly. She used to dance very well in Shanghai, but she met a love, and her world changed innocently. Another long conversation, terminated when absolutely necessary.After Hu Lancheng went back, he immediately took the pen and paper, and wrote the first letter to Zhang Ailing. The content of the letter was written like a new poem in the May Fourth era, which was childish and ridiculous.Hu Lancheng has always had a self-righteous literary talent, but when it comes to Zhang Ailing, these seem poor and shallow.There is no comparison in talent, and with Hu Lancheng's experience, he would not be so cautious in front of Eileen Chang.But because of love, his maturity is no longer so deep. Zhang Ailing wrote back: "Because I understand, I am merciful." This sentence is full of Zen, and it is heartfelt.It seems that there is no need for too many words, as long as we understand each other in our hearts, it is the greatest mercy.Zhang Ailing is not indifferent or ostentatious, she understands that all beings are not easy, so she can be tolerant of world affairs and people's intelligence.So facing Hu Lancheng, who is more than ten years older than him, has a family, and has a complicated background, she is not cowardly, but chooses to have no hesitation.And Hu Lancheng later said that she was cold-hearted by nature, and that kind of incomprehension, isn't it cruel to her? In the following days, Hu Lancheng would visit Eileen Chang every other day.They drank big cups of black tea, ate exquisite snacks, talked about literature and art, and told stories in that beautiful and warm apartment.It's so congenial, like we've known each other for decades.Seeing this scene, Zhang Ailing's aunt felt that something was wrong.She thinks that Hu Lancheng's background is too unclean, and he has a wife and family. How can Zhang Ailing, such an innocent lady, get along with him intimately? Although Eileen Chang rebelled against the scriptures, she was still in the world of mortals and knew what people said was scary.This love was so unsatisfactory, which made her feel desolate and flustered.She sent a note to Hu Lancheng: "Don't come to see each other again." The proud Hu Lancheng believed that there would be no offense in this world, so he still went to see her, and Zhang Ailing still couldn't hide his inner joy .Love has come so far, how to ask cause and effect.My aunt is also someone who has loved before, so she doesn't understand, so she doesn't stop her anymore. From now on, we simply meet each other every day, every day is new, and every day our wishes come true.That day Hu Lancheng accidentally mentioned the photo of Zhang Ailing on "Heaven and Earth".The next day she took it out to him, and wrote on the back: "After seeing him, she became very low, low into the dust, but she was happy in her heart, and flowers bloomed from the dust." Since then, she let go of all her pride, lowered the dust for him, and thought about him endlessly.What kind of man can make Zhang Ailing willing to bloom flowers in the dust.Hu Lan made a glass of poisoned wine for her, and she toasted it with a smile, and drank it down.The road in the world of mortals, the heartbroken willows, her firmness, her no regrets, made the readers cry.From then on, whether to go on a smooth journey or drift away depends entirely on fate. Just like that, sinking in time, the water became hotter.During those days, Hu Lancheng mostly stayed in Nanjing, but he always went back to Shanghai once a month for eight or nine days.Every time I go back to Shanghai, if I don’t go home, I go to see Zhang Ailing first, and when I step into the door, I say: “I’m back.” So, the two of them stay in the room together, the man wastes farming and the woman wastes weaving, and they don’t even want to go out to play together. And there is no time.At that time, in their world, there was no morning and evening, no impermanence and karma, only gentle and affectionate each other. When two people are together, there is always something to talk about.But they are all men of trained minds, and they are all proud and conceited, so it is inevitable that they will be a little bit disapproving.Hu Lancheng said: "I'm not used to Aileen. She never sympathizes with others, never sympathizes with anyone, and has no compassion or charity. In her world, there is no exaggeration or grievance. She is very selfish. Cruel and merciless... But she is very obedient, and obedience is a joy to her. And she has countless apologies to the world, and she always feels like she has done something wrong. Swallow's soft words are not negotiable." I don't know whether this is a compliment or a derogation to Eileen Chang.Maybe Hu Lancheng is the one who really understands her, and the one who really loves her in this world.It's just that Zhang Ailing is too straightforward, too clean, and too bright, which sometimes makes Hu Lan feel panic.Her superiority made him dare not look at her closely, but she was so good that he felt uneasy.This kind of woman doesn't like to cause sorrow or hatred, and doesn't like to procrastinate. She is a flower appreciator on Moshang, and she is not a person who is willing. When we are together, we only care about the love between men and women, and after a few days of being together, we also struggle with each other.Hu Lancheng went to Nanjing, and Zhang Ailing also had time to write.Every time we say goodbye, there is no sorrow of parting. It seems that after the Lantern Festival, I feel a new meaning in ordinary life.If there is no sorrow for parting, she always feels sad alone at night, but she refuses to be lingering and weeping. And Hu Lancheng is also happy and at ease, even though he loves Zhang Ailing deeply, she is still a beauty in his family tree. Even though she is different from other women, there is no harm in the world.Hu Lancheng wrote in it: "I have a wife, and she doesn't care. I have many girlfriends, and even play with prostitutes, and she will not be jealous. She wants all the women in the world to like me." The taste in these words is actually melancholy and regretful.Perhaps Zhang Ailing was too confident. She knew that Hu Lancheng had many passers-by in her life, but she didn't think she was threatened. Instead, she felt that she would be his last.This reunion of golden wind and jade dew will not give her day and night after all, forever and ever.Zhang Ailing didn't know that the warm days were also the beginning of eternal doom.
I don't know whether it's too early to meet or too late to meet again, why there is a kind of sudden joy, but also a kind of coolness that passes by the clouds.Their love is like an old tree that has experienced wind and frost, and in the twilight, new green shoots bloom.At this moment, she was in a glamorous style, and his appearance made her feel a little melancholy like swifts flying together.He happened to be losing his sharpness, and her arrival made him feel a sense of peace that was waning. Years have actually treated Zhang Ailing well, and gave her a love at her best moment.No matter whether this man is worthy of her heart or not, she always needs such a man in her life.Otherwise, if you miss it, you can only blame Liu Guang for being incomprehensible and neglecting Hua Nian for no reason. After seeing Hu Lancheng, Zhang Ailing's heart could never go back to the past.That night, she leaned on the window sill alone, seeing the cold moonlight, and realized that she was just performing a one-man show these years.I thought that the mountains and rivers are not owed, and I can smile when I stay alone for a while and get drunk.Until Hu Lancheng's appearance, she knew that the life she wanted was, after all, to be like the characters in her writing, sharing fireworks. Frustrated in his official career, Hu Lancheng had to meet Zhang Ailing, and he felt that the world was so generous.On the road of love, Hu Lancheng can be said to be proud of his spring breeze. Besides his wife Quan Huiwen, Hu Lancheng also has an old friend, who was originally a singer of Paramount, and later committed himself to Hu Lancheng and stayed in Nanjing.But these women are not enough.In other words, no amount of women can stop Hu Lancheng's passionate heart.What's more, this time I met Zhang Ailing, who is popular in Shanghai's literary circles. For him, it should be a midnight surprise. The next day, Hu Lancheng visited Zhang Ailing again.This time, the door she had locked for many years was opened for him calmly.Zhang Ailing actually dressed up for him on purpose, with a sapphire blue silk jacket and glasses with bright yellow frames, which is very charming and enchanting.When Hu Lancheng stepped into her room, he began to feel uneasy.His uneasiness was due to the luxury in this room.And this luxury is not because of the preciousness of the furniture, but a kind of just right chic, a kind of modern freshness and bright, with boundless temptation and stimulation. "Outside the balcony is the whole of Shanghai in the sky, clouds, shadows and sunlight, and the trams below are coming and going." What kind of life is this, so that one's heart wants to let go instantly.In the Beijing opera, Liu Bei was timid when he went to Mrs. Sun's room, and Hu Lancheng also felt the same when he walked into Zhang Ailing's room at this time.So he can't help but say: "Your decoration here is very good. I have been to many exquisite places, but it is not as good as this place." However, Zhang Ailing said that everything here was arranged by her mother and aunt. If she, she might like it more. Intense colors, so warm and intimate. After all, she is not a cold and thin woman, her heart is so soft that she can't bear it.Seeing Hu Lancheng in front of her, talking about his life, his talents and knowledge, she just listened, she understood everything.Hu Lancheng later said: "Men and women are happy, one kind is like dancing, and the other is like fighting, and the male and female puppet dance carved on the old Chinese railings is brutal and fierce, just like Xue Rengui and Princess Daizhan meeting in front of the two armies. Dance is also like fighting." He never liked to fight, but now he saw Zhang Ailing, he wanted to fight, because he met an opponent in chess and he wanted to conquer. "But I used all my weapons, but her bare hands are not as good as hers." It can be seen how sharp and peerless Zhang Ailing is in Hu Lan's mind.The practice in her life is more than enough to travel the rivers and lakes, but when she comes to Zhang Ailing, she is so insignificant.But the clouds and water are vast, the fireworks and the willow moon, he is always unwilling to take into account many things, just saying this, he wants to make a promise, but keep the sky. The present moment is worth a thousand dollars.Hu Lancheng has no time to fight again, and he doesn't know how to continue this concern.He didn't know that in Zhang Ailing's heart, he was a beautiful man, as beautiful as a spring flower and as thin as autumn water.Perhaps Zhang Ailing had never met a man as suave and romantic as Hu Lancheng.Looking at Hu Lancheng's photos, he doesn't look very heroic, but he has an indescribable charm.It is this kind of charm that makes this young woman difficult to control. I don't know if people who fall in love always lose.Fate gave Zhang Ailing this opportunity, which satisfied her many deep desires for a man, and it was also a game.She broke out of the cocoon and became a butterfly. She used to dance very well in Shanghai, but she met a love, and her world changed innocently. Another long conversation, terminated when absolutely necessary.After Hu Lancheng went back, he immediately took the pen and paper, and wrote the first letter to Zhang Ailing. The content of the letter was written like a new poem in the May Fourth era, which was childish and ridiculous.Hu Lancheng has always had a self-righteous literary talent, but when it comes to Zhang Ailing, these seem poor and shallow.There is no comparison in talent, and with Hu Lancheng's experience, he would not be so cautious in front of Eileen Chang.But because of love, his maturity is no longer so deep. Zhang Ailing wrote back: "Because I understand, I am merciful." This sentence is full of Zen, and it is heartfelt.It seems that there is no need for too many words, as long as we understand each other in our hearts, it is the greatest mercy.Zhang Ailing is not indifferent or ostentatious, she understands that all beings are not easy, so she can be tolerant of world affairs and people's intelligence.So facing Hu Lancheng, who is more than ten years older than him, has a family, and has a complicated background, she is not cowardly, but chooses to have no hesitation.And Hu Lancheng later said that she was cold-hearted by nature, and that kind of incomprehension, isn't it cruel to her? In the following days, Hu Lancheng would visit Eileen Chang every other day.They drank big cups of black tea, ate exquisite snacks, talked about literature and art, and told stories in that beautiful and warm apartment.It's so congenial, like we've known each other for decades.Seeing this scene, Zhang Ailing's aunt felt that something was wrong.She thinks that Hu Lancheng's background is too unclean, and he has a wife and family. How can Zhang Ailing, such an innocent lady, get along with him intimately? Although Eileen Chang rebelled against the scriptures, she was still in the world of mortals and knew what people said was scary.This love was so unsatisfactory, which made her feel desolate and flustered.She sent a note to Hu Lancheng: "Don't come to see each other again." The proud Hu Lancheng believed that there would be no offense in this world, so he still went to see her, and Zhang Ailing still couldn't hide his inner joy .Love has come so far, how to ask cause and effect.My aunt is also someone who has loved before, so she doesn't understand, so she doesn't stop her anymore. From now on, we simply meet each other every day, every day is new, and every day our wishes come true.That day Hu Lancheng accidentally mentioned the photo of Zhang Ailing on "Heaven and Earth".The next day she took it out to him, and wrote on the back: "After seeing him, she became very low, low into the dust, but she was happy in her heart, and flowers bloomed from the dust." Since then, she let go of all her pride, lowered the dust for him, and thought about him endlessly.What kind of man can make Zhang Ailing willing to bloom flowers in the dust.Hu Lan made a glass of poisoned wine for her, and she toasted it with a smile, and drank it down.The road in the world of mortals, the heartbroken willows, her firmness, her no regrets, made the readers cry.From then on, whether to go on a smooth journey or drift away depends entirely on fate. Just like that, sinking in time, the water became hotter.During those days, Hu Lancheng mostly stayed in Nanjing, but he always went back to Shanghai once a month for eight or nine days.Every time I go back to Shanghai, if I don’t go home, I go to see Zhang Ailing first, and when I step into the door, I say: “I’m back.” So, the two of them stay in the room together, the man wastes farming and the woman wastes weaving, and they don’t even want to go out to play together. And there is no time.At that time, in their world, there was no morning and evening, no impermanence and karma, only gentle and affectionate each other. When two people are together, there is always something to talk about.But they are all men of trained minds, and they are all proud and conceited, so it is inevitable that they will be a little bit disapproving.Hu Lancheng said: "I'm not used to Aileen. She never sympathizes with others, never sympathizes with anyone, and has no compassion or charity. In her world, there is no exaggeration or grievance. She is very selfish. Cruel and merciless... But she is very obedient, and obedience is a joy to her. And she has countless apologies to the world, and she always feels like she has done something wrong. Swallow's soft words are not negotiable." I don't know whether this is a compliment or a derogation to Eileen Chang.Maybe Hu Lancheng is the one who really understands her, and the one who really loves her in this world.It's just that Zhang Ailing is too straightforward, too clean, and too bright, which sometimes makes Hu Lan feel panic.Her superiority made him dare not look at her closely, but she was so good that he felt uneasy.This kind of woman doesn't like to cause sorrow or hatred, and doesn't like to procrastinate. She is a flower appreciator on Moshang, and she is not a person who is willing. When we are together, we only care about the love between men and women, and after a few days of being together, we also struggle with each other.Hu Lancheng went to Nanjing, and Zhang Ailing also had time to write.Every time we say goodbye, there is no sorrow of parting. It seems that after the Lantern Festival, I feel a new meaning in ordinary life.If there is no sorrow for parting, she always feels sad alone at night, but she refuses to be lingering and weeping. And Hu Lancheng is also happy and at ease, even though he loves Zhang Ailing deeply, she is still a beauty in his family tree. Even though she is different from other women, there is no harm in the world.Hu Lancheng wrote in it: "I have a wife, and she doesn't care. I have many girlfriends, and even play with prostitutes, and she will not be jealous. She wants all the women in the world to like me." The taste in these words is actually melancholy and regretful.Perhaps Zhang Ailing was too confident. She knew that Hu Lancheng had many passers-by in her life, but she didn't think she was threatened. Instead, she felt that she would be his last.This reunion of golden wind and jade dew will not give her day and night after all, forever and ever.Zhang Ailing didn't know that the warm days were also the beginning of eternal doom.