Chapter 94 Auspicious signs appear outside the Hall of Qianqing

When the annual rewards were issued, I realized that there were still a few days left before the Spring Festival. The Chinese New Year has become a formality for me. There is no happiness or sadness, and it is no different from ordinary days.This year's annual rewards are even more than those of previous years. There are big boxes and big boxes of gifts, all of which are silk, jewels and jade. These things don't make any sense to me.I stayed in the palace all day, so I really didn’t need it. I gave a generous reward to the people in Yueyang Palace, and ordered them to carry the rest to the warehouse for storage.

It was as calm as ever, and none of the things that were going to happen seemed to happen. I don’t know if it didn’t happen, or it happened. I don’t know.I no longer ordered Xiao Xingzi to inquire about the news, and Chun Yi stopped talking about it every time he came to Yueyang Palace.My premonition felt that there was no big ups and downs, and everything was calm. The people of Yueyang Palace have been busy cleaning these few days. They have hung Ruyi lanterns all over the palace and pasted them with cut-out colored paper. Add some life to the dull days.Although to me it makes no difference.

The day before New Year's Eve, Feng Qingquan, the head of the Ministry of Internal Affairs, came to Yueyang Palace to pass the decree, as in previous years. On the eve of the new year, he will go to Qianqing Palace to participate in the inner court banquet hosted by the emperor and empress. I tipped Feng Qingquan, since there are a lot of silver taels anyway, it's better to be a favor, so that it will be easier to find them for anything in the future.Feng Qingquan was a sensible person. After receiving two gold ingots, he slowly hid them in his sleeves, and said with a smile, "Thank you, Empress Jieyu, for the reward. If there is anything I need to handle in the future, I will definitely do my best."

I smiled and said, "Director Feng, you are being polite, there are still many things that need to trouble you in the future." He saluted and said goodbye: "Thank you, ma'am, if you have something to do, just ask, the servant will leave first." I said politely, "Would you like to sit down and have a cup of tea?" He postponed and said: "Thank you for your kindness, the servant has to go to another palace to deliver a message, so I will leave first." After Feng Qingquan left, I fell into a daze without a clue, facing tomorrow's New Year's Eve family banquet, I had no mood at all.As usual, everyone gathered together to have fun, calling for the theater troupe that was kept in the palace on weekdays, the juggling troupe making a scene, singing and dancing, fireworks, and I really can't think of any other fun.I don't know if other people are like me, tired of such royal family banquets, but they have to go out to socialize, and they are well-dressed and well-dressed to socialize.

This night, I ordered Qiuxi and Hongjian to prepare plum blossom soup for me, and boiled snow water. Although it was a bit extravagant, I needed a good bath.Washing away the dust and hardship of a year, although I know that the next year will still be like this, I still long for a baptism, which makes me feel that I am still pure and pure, as crystal clear as white snow, and as clear as the fragrance of plum blossoms. I took off my clothes and lay in the water, a screen isolated me in the misty world, and the dense mist steamed my memory.I told myself that I should forget many things that I should forget, leaving myself a little blank.

Hong Jian gently wiped my snowy skin and praised: "Miss, you are still so beautiful." I smiled slightly: "What's beautiful, I've aged for another year, and I don't know what I'll look like in a few years." Hong Jian laughed and said, "How old can I be? No matter how old I am, I'm only eighteen years old. I'm only old. I'm twenty. Once a woman turns twenty, she becomes an old woman." I caressed the petals on my hand, the green plums, white plums, and pink plums, all of them were so bright, with a simple and elegant fragrance.Hearing Hong Jian's words, I couldn't help laughing and said: "Twenty is an old woman. In this way, there are many old women in the palace." Looking at Hong Jian's shy look, I felt a sigh in my heart. A twenty-year-old woman should be the child's mother, but Hong Jian stayed by my side. It was I who delayed her youth.I gently brushed the water and sighed softly: "Hongjian, would you let me decide for you and find a good family..." I didn't continue because I didn't know how to continue.

Hong Jian looked at me with a smile, very shy and charming in the misty smoke, she said: "Miss, Hong Jian has said many times that she will not marry and will serve Miss for life. Wherever you are, Hong Jian will be there. Don't talk about this anymore, Hong Jian's heart is sore after talking about it." I raised my hand to stroke her loose hair, and said with a smile: "Silly girl, why are you so sad, hasn't she been with me all the time? I'm just afraid of delaying your life. I'm too selfish to keep you like this." "Miss, Hong Jian doesn't say much, she only serves the lady with all her heart, and the rest will wait for the next life."

I laughed and said, "I don't know if there is an afterlife." "Whether you have it or not, it doesn't matter. In this life, I only serve Miss. Wherever Miss is, Hong Jian will be there. This is our friendship for more than ten years. Don't mention it again, Miss." Hong Jian The tone is firm, the heart has been decided, and a kind of emotion grows in the heart. My eyes were moist: "Let's not talk about this, tomorrow is New Year's Eve, we should be more happy." The words fell, and I thought of the smoke screen in my heart. The New Year is approaching, what will happen to her in another world?Tomorrow, I will pay homage to her in Yueyang Palace, for this short-lived master-servant relationship, for this fateful grace.

Put on plain clothes and sit down in front of the fire. I like the feeling of laziness after every bath. The outer shirt is loosely draped, and the long hair hangs down the waist. There is no need for light makeup. I am a girl. I know that this night, no one will come to Yueyang Palace, everyone is busy with their own affairs in their own palace.Tomorrow's court banquet, the concubines and concubines of the harem will be present, and there will be many princes and princes' children. Among them, there will be Chunzhen who I haven't seen for several months.I have no lovesickness or nostalgia for him, but only a faint embrace. For a woman who is lonely in the harem, does this kind of affection also become a kind of supernatural betrayal?If it's about betrayal, I won't admit it, because it's just a faint affection, and I definitely won't have any stories with Chunzhen.It's not that I don't dare to betray, but that I don't want to betray, and I don't bother to betray.Many people need such a distance. If they get close, this beauty will dissipate until there is nothing left. Chunzhen and I don't need to be so disappointed.I believe he thinks so too.

It has been snowing for a whole winter, and the snow outside the window has finally melted under the sunshine these days. When all the whiteness recedes, everything returns to its original appearance. Still alive.All things have their own seasons and climates, and people have their own ways of living.If you go in the opposite direction, you will only encounter greater storms. If you let nature take its course, you may be able to find the true meaning of life. Falling asleep in the cold moonlight, what haunted me all night was still a dream.After waking up, the weather was still fine, and I knew that this year's New Year's Eve would not bring me many surprises.

The people in Yueyang Palace have already been busy all day, preparing for me to go to the banquet. In fact, I don’t like such a solemn dress. It will attract criticism from them, saying that I am disrespectful to the emperor, or something else. In the afternoon, I sat in front of the mirror, and Hong Jian and Qiu Xi dressed me up meticulously.It must be fresh and natural, but also noble and elegant. This is my consistent style. Everyone in the harem has their own style, and this is my style.The me in front of the mirror is wearing a silk light red palace dress embroidered with plum blossoms, or the gold thread coat of peacock fur from the old year, and a golden phoenix hairpin bestowed by the emperor is inserted obliquely in the hair bun. Today, I am more beautiful than before. Noble and mature, freshness is just the unique charm. The palace chariot sent by the emperor was already waiting outside the Yueyang Palace, and I took Qiuxi and Liu Kuigui, the head of the inner prison, to the Qianqing Palace.I opened the car curtain and tried to take advantage of the cold moonlight to warm my mood, but only the cool breeze blowing head-on made me more sober, telling me soberly that I don't want to participate in such a lively banquet.I want to sit around and have a New Year's Eve dinner with the people in Yueyang Palace, even if they can't be happy, they are still comfortable.Afterwards, everyone gathered around the stove to watch the New Year, quietly looking forward to the arrival of the New Year. It took about the time of a cup of tea to arrive at the Qianqing Palace. Such a large banquet was arranged outside the spacious hall just like the old year.Although the decoration is different from the old year, the bustling and luxurious scene is the same.I should have known a long time ago that the palace would not be changed because of Chu Xianmo's appearance. Maybe it was Chu Xianmo who was lonely at this time, the so-called martial arts supreme who was sad alone in an unknown corner.Because the more noisy the scene, the more lonely he will be. I said that the loneliness among thousands of people is really lonely, because I also have such feelings.As for Chu Yu, this feeling should be deeper than mine, because he is lonely, and no one in the world can really understand him. As usual, I first salute the emperor and queen on the dragon seat and phoenix chair, and then return to my seat. I haven't changed anything for a year, and I am still the third-rank Jieyu. Because although I doted on the harem, I didn't get promoted again, which is somewhat of a comfort to them. So I paid attention to their eyes from the corner of my eyes. Although I still looked at me sideways, I didn't have the sharp jealousy or deep curiosity of the old year.More than a year will kill many people and things, even deep-seated hatred will fade away, let alone crazy jealousy. What makes me strange is that I have been in Zijin City for two years, but I have never seen the real face of the Queen Mother. I didn't see her on New Year's Eve last year, and it is still the same on New Year's Eve this year.That time I hurried back to Mingyue Villa because of her illness, and I didn't have the chance to meet her. It seems that she is really not used to such a noisy scene, or because she is too weak to withstand such a lively scene, or her mood is too much. Indifferent, don't want to see any strangers, or anything else.I never inquired about the Empress Dowager, because she is not a mystery to me, but an old man who is not necessary.The empress dowager's silence allowed me to live a stable life in the harem. If the empress dowager participated in the government, even if she was only in charge of the harem, I would not be so leisurely.Even many concubines in the harem were exempted every morning and evening, only the queen and a few concubines could go to meet her. When my eyes met Chunzhen, Prince of Ling, I stopped for a moment.He seemed to be much thinner than a few months ago. Although the brows were still heroic, they were more mature and vicissitudes.Xu was seriously injured because of the last assassination, and the recent political worries, even though he doesn't like to participate in political affairs, Daqi's country also has an inseparable relationship with him.He also looked at me, with a touch of joy and longing in his eyes, and both of them felt like reunion after a long absence.It's just that at such a banquet, any gaze may be spotted by others and used as a topic of framing. Sitting quietly in one's own seat, no longer paying attention to others, half-heartedly tasting the fine wine in the cup, but can't taste what it tastes like, it's clear and sweet, a bit like a moon, but not. The blooming of the first fireworks awakened the dream of the New Year and opened the prelude to the stage.These actors who have been rehearsing for several months are only for this moment to perform to their heart's content to please the emperor. The process of painstaking sweat is covered up, and what everyone can see is the perfection and splendor of this moment. Several performances are more majestic than the old years, showing the splendor of the palace, as if no power can destroy it. I believe that after watching these performances, anyone will feel emotional, such a magnificent , such a formation, such a country, how can it be easily shaken?Such a scene will dispel the panic and fear in everyone's hearts in the past few months, and once again indulge in the prosperity of Zijin City. My heart was filled to the brim, then emptied, and at the most full, it seemed to be gouged out by something, leaving me empty.I believe more and more that extremes must be reversed, but behind such an extreme, when will the hidden demise be?I think it should be very far away. This is a long process, and it is destined to be long from the beginning. The sky was full of fireworks, and I saw many happy smiling faces, as if in such an atmosphere, my emptiness was a sin.If I can, I hope I can drink and enjoy the theater and watch the new year with them. If not, I think I will escape quietly, just like the old year, choosing to leave alone and lonely.