Chapter 6 Chapter Six

The embarrassment of that night was never mentioned afterward, because the sensuality at that time was too intertwined like a dream, and no one wanted to compare the story in the dream with reality. At the end of November, Xiao Xun finally received an internship notice from a well-known bank, and before he even had time to celebrate with Sun Wanxiao, he hurriedly moved to the staff dormitory provided by the bank, and got busy in the dark. Xiao Xun's internship position is in the personal loan center, and his initial job is to write the mortgage contract.As it was near the end of the year, the personal loan center had accumulated too many contracts that needed to be processed, causing Xiao Xun to work overtime every day until the early hours of the morning.

Sun Wan felt sorry for Xiao Xun, and didn't want him to be distracted from contacting her while he was busy with work.Therefore, she took care of things like calling him to wake him up and saying good night to each other. Xiao Xun was very grateful for her thoughtfulness at first, and would occasionally make a phone call to care about her situation during the lunch break, but as time passed, he put the burden of maintaining the relationship on Sun Wan's shoulders with peace of mind, Let her play that active role. Sun Wan was afraid that the relationship between the two would fade, so she had to make a draft before each call, so that she could say more interesting things during the call and adjust the atmosphere of the conversation.

After one month, Sun Wan's "interesting stories" became more and more dry, and Xiao Xun's response became more and more absent-minded.One Friday, Sun Wan heard that he was taking a shower while turning his mobile phone into a loudspeaker, huh, huh, huh, huh, huh, huh, huh, huh, huh, she finally couldn't help but said to the other side coldly: "Xiao Xun, you are a super You bastard." Soon, Xiao Xun's casual voice came from the other end of the phone, "Well, yes." It was the first time that Sun Wan hung up on his phone without saying goodbye. She was worried and kept her eyes open until dawn, but she never waited for Xiao Xun's reply.

At dawn the next day, she made an exception and didn't call to wake him up. She just stared at the hour hand skipping seven o'clock and then eight o'clock, and finally closed her tired eyes in extreme disappointment.At that moment, she discovered that her meticulous care was only a dispensable form in his opinion. After being in a trance all day, Sun Wan finally couldn't bear the torment and called Xiao Xun when it was almost early morning, but before she could speak, Xiao Xun hurriedly stopped her and said, "Wan Wan, I I am rushing to make report analysis, and it is not convenient to answer the phone now."

Sun Wan said gloomily, "Are you resting tomorrow? Can I visit you?" Xiao Xun hesitated for a long time and said, "I may not be able to take care of you." Sun Wan understood his polite refusal, and said lightly: "Oh, then go ahead, I won't bother you. You... rest early." After hanging up the phone, she looked at his name in the address book with hot eyes, and suddenly felt that the distance between her and Xiao Xun was getting farther and farther. On New Year's Eve, Li Ya, on behalf of Zhuo Lincheng, invited all the girls from 403 to attend the New Year's Eve party in Wancheng tomorrow night.Jiang Mingzhu and Ma Rui have always been eager for this kind of excitement, and happily agreed.Seeing Sun Wan silently alone, Li Ya stepped forward and patted her on the shoulder, "Bring your family, Xiao Xun, together tomorrow."

Sun Wan shook her head, she had just received a call from Xiao Xun asking her to go to New Year's Eve together.This is the first time Xiao Xun has taken the initiative to ask her to meet her in a long time. Sun Wan hopes to use this date to warm up her relationship, so why would she go to someone else's party. Seeing her resolute attitude, Li Ya did not force her. On New Year's Day, Li Ya and the others had dressed up early, and before going out, Li Ya hurriedly threw a word to Sun Wan, telling her to call her whenever she changed her mind. After they left, Sun Wan wrapped the scarf that Xiao Xun woven with her own hands in a packaging bag, and took out all her clothes from the closet, and compared them one by one in front of the mirror.In the end, she settled on a white coat, paired with a brown skirt and knee-length boots.

She turned around a little complacently, and found the mascara and lip gloss from the drawer from the drawer, and began to paint lightly in front of the mirror.When she was done tidying up, she was blissfully looking at herself in the mirror in a trance. With her like this, he shouldn't be willing to ignore her anymore, right? Her thoughts leap forward to a few hours later, rehearsing their long-lost hug and kiss, her cheeks flushed because of this too sweet imagination, and even small beads of sweat appeared on the tip of her nose. Seeing that the sky was getting dark outside the window and the snowflakes were flying, she finally couldn't help but call Xiao Xun first. The moment the phone was connected, she complained coquettishly: "When will you come to pick me up? I'm waiting until all the flowers thank you It's..."

Xiao Xun said hastily: "You go to Houhai first, I will meet you later, I have something to deal with, so let's do this first." Sun Wan was about to speak, but hung up the phone hastily. The joy she had been carrying all day was knocked to the ground by his words.After being stunned for a moment, she picked up those joys little by little and put them back in her heart.But even she couldn't deny that the things she picked up again seemed to be different. Sullenly, she took her umbrella and MP3 and went out alone. She walked along the route agreed by the two of them, holding an umbrella and walking slowly on the snowy street, from the neon flashing street to the dimly lit place, and then into a deeper fiery tree, silver flowers and never-night sky.

Beside her, couples kept walking by, their sweetness made her extremely lonely at this moment. She rubbed her cold face, hinting optimistically to herself: Xiao Xun will appear soon, and soon she will become one of them.She raised her brows and eyes, and raised the corners of her mouth to look happy, but it was a pity that in the earphones, someone was singing so inappropriately, "Lonely lovers are most afraid of the festival, so they can only celebrate alone and try to get drunk. No one I love stays with me Spend the night with me lonely", she sang so disheartened and unhappy. Passing through Yandai Xiejie, when Sun Wan stood on the Houhai Arch Bridge, the time she had agreed with Xiao Xun had already passed, and her heart that had just floated up suddenly sank.

She was holding the phone, opening and closing it repeatedly, feeling irritable and wronged for no reason, why hasn't he called her yet?Are you caught up in another job?Or is the phone out of power?She found his name from the address book again and again, and with her finger on the dial key, she finally pressed it when the time skipped half past nine. The moment the phone was connected, Sun Wan suddenly felt a little reluctant to speak, so she stood silently on the bridge where people came and went, waiting for his explanation. After Xiao Xun said "wait a moment", he said a few words to someone, then picked up the phone again, and said apologetically, "Wan Wan, I'm sorry, I have something to do here, I can't come over for now, you How about going back to the dormitory first?"

Sun Wan's throat felt a little bitter, "What is it?" Xiao Xun hesitated for a moment, but did not answer directly, but said: "Wan Wan, I will explain to you later." Sun Wan lowered her left hand in disappointment, and silently closed the phone. She stood blankly by the bridge where people came and went. After a long time, she stretched out her index finger and wrote "Happy new year!" on the snow on the surface of the railing. I didn't know how long she stood, until her bones felt cold, and then she walked forward along the crowd in a daze.She is like a leaf floating in the sea of ​​people, where the crowds are surging, she will go there. When the traces of people thinned out, she followed her consciousness and walked indiscriminately.By the time she realized that the surroundings were becoming more and more deserted and dark, she was already lost in the depths of Shichahai's alleys. She turned around in a daze, looking at the similar curves in all directions, and suddenly felt a panic of being lost in a maze.She took off the headphone cable, and the eerie silence around her poured into her ears like water.Her legs were weak from the strange silence, and her body shivered slightly from the cold and fear.She took out her mobile phone and hurriedly tried to dial Xiao Xun's number, but just as her finger touched the dial key, she slowly slid away again. At this moment, she clearly wanted to ask him for help, but she resisted this idea. The conflict at this moment reminded her of what Ma Rui, who had just fallen in love, said not long ago.Ma Rui said that one day when she was studying in the study room, it suddenly snowed heavily outside, and she sent a text message asking her boyfriend to send her clothes.The boy refused her request because he was playing the game at a critical point.She had a cold war with him for a week, and finally made up.However, whenever she goes to self-study again, she will never forget to bring spare clothes.She said frankly that if this kind of thing happened again one day, she would rather die of cold than ask him for help. After listening to it at the time, Sun Wan still felt that Ma Rui was a little too proud. It wasn't until this moment that she realized that sometimes pride just doesn't want to make herself more disappointed. After taking a deep breath, Sun Wan judged the geographical location and boldly walked towards the street. In the silent alley, only the sound of my own footsteps and the rubbing of clothes can be heard.She clenched her fists tightly and walked forward quickly. However, the scenes of horror movies began to rotate in her mind. Just when her emotions were tense, there was a muffled sound of something falling to the ground behind her.She stopped suddenly and looked back suddenly, but there was nothing. She yelled, not caring about being proud or not anymore, while running forward desperately, she frantically dialed Xiao Xun's phone number. Her rapid breathing and the busy tone of the phone kept ringing in her ears. She seemed to have been running for a century during that journey, and the last light of hope in her heart was completely extinguished by the cold mechanical "the number you dialed is temporarily unanswered". . She breathed heavily, her heart was as cold as if she had sucked in ice and snow. She completely forgot to be afraid, and unconsciously slowed down her pace.She suppressed her bitterness and dialed Li Ya's phone number. After a few sounds of music, Li Ya's voice came from the other end, "I changed my mind." Sun Wan blinked, a line of tears fell down, "Yaya, I'm lost." "Why did you get lost? Where is Xiao Xunren? Are you crying? Where are you? I'll pick you up right away." Sun Wan walked to a place under the pale light, recognized the house number, and told her the name of a strange alley. Li Ya was quiet for a while before she said: "This is Di'anmen West Road...you go as far as possible to the main road, and I'll come to pick you up." Ten minutes later, Sun Wan finally walked onto the street.She looked at the road signs, sent the street name to Li Ya's mobile phone with shaking hands, then stood stiffly in the most conspicuous place on the street and waited. The wind rolled snowflakes and hit her.Snowflakes blurred the vehicles and colorful lights on the road.All this was reflected in her misty tearful eyes, distorted and distorted like a montage lens in a movie. In the middle of the night in Beijing, it was so cold that people's limbs were stiff. She breathed on her hands, and pressed them on her face after rubbing them to warm them up. On the street, there are occasional taxis passing by, but they are all full.She gave up hope, so she lowered her head and stomped her numb feet mechanically. Just when she was about to lose consciousness from the cold, a deep male voice suddenly came from behind, "Sun Wan!" She froze for a moment, thinking she had heard wrongly, and continued to stamp her feet.Then, a louder "Sun Wan" came.She turned her head in surprise, and saw a man in a black coat standing behind her through the snow. He frowned slightly and looked at her with a complicated expression. Sun Wan discerned for a long time, and when his eyebrows were more clearly reflected in her eyes, she moved her lips that were blue from the cold, and murmured in disbelief: "Zhuo Lincheng." The sockets of her eyes became hot, and a warm current flowed from the bottom of her heart to her frozen limbs. She stared blankly at his handsome face, and her fluttering heart gradually settled down. Zhuo Lincheng sighed from a distance, stepped forward quickly to take the umbrella from her hand, held her hand without hesitation, and led her to the car. "Why are your hands so cold?" Zhuo Lincheng's hands clenched tightly, "Why don't you stand in a place leeward of the wind." Sun Wan stared blankly at her hand that was being held tightly by him, and wanted to pull back awkwardly, but she didn't dare to move, for fear that a slight movement would make this move even more awkward. Just when she was thinking wildly, she was suddenly asked by him, so she could only reply in a low voice: "I'm afraid you won't find me." Zhuo Lincheng paused, "Don't do this next time, I will definitely find you." Sun Wan let out a soft oh, thinking to herself, what he said is too big, do rich people always think that they can do everything?He is not a GPS positioning system, let alone Google Maps, so why is he so full of words? He led her around to the front of the passenger cab, opened the door, and said simply and neatly, "Go up." Sun Wan tugged at the door frame, thinking with some hesitation, it seems that this seat is not for her, is it?But she didn't dare to refuse, lest he feel that she had too much to do. The warmth in the car quickly drove away the chill in her body, and she sneezed twice, she covered her mouth with her hands and looked at him in embarrassment.He stared ahead, held the steering wheel with one hand, and took out two tissues with the other and handed them to her. Sun Wan took it and said: "Thank you." Then asked: "Why didn't Yaya come?" "There is always someone to preside over the situation." She groaned and buried her face in the tissue. Zhuo Lincheng glanced at her through the car mirror, turned on the music, and Eason Chan's low, magnetic voice came out, which was half played. Sun Wan listened silently, the mood of the song made her a little sad.She rested her head on the car window sleepily, her eyes half-closed, lost in thought. Just after the two songs were sung, the speeding car stopped suddenly. Sun Wan sat up straight in a daze, "We'll be there so soon." Zhuo Lincheng got out of the car, went around to her side and opened the door, "No. First go down and eat some hot food to drive away the cold." Seeing that he was firm and did not refuse, Sun Wan forced a smile with a pale face, "Thank you." In the Jiangnan restaurant, Zhuo Lincheng quickly ordered several light-tasting health dishes, and ordered two cups of ginseng soup. While waiting for the food, Zhuo Lincheng's cell phone rang, he glanced at the calling number, and handed the phone to Sun Wan. Seeing the word "Li Ya", Sun Wan hastily told the other side that she has been picked up by Zhuo Lincheng, so they can rest assured. After hanging up the phone, the private room fell silent. Sun Wan was a little at a loss.I don't know why, but in front of Zhuo Lincheng, she always has a feeling of being prepared. She secretly regretted not rejecting his invitation just now, and was about to find some topic to chat with Zhuo Lincheng, when he gestured to her, got up and walked outside. Sun Wan breathed a sigh of relief, propped her chin, and drank the lemonade with peace of mind. Not long after he left, the waiter brought up the dishes one after another.Sun Wan, who had been hungry all night, looked at the dishes on the table eagerly, and couldn't move her chopsticks first, feeling depressed for a while. A few minutes later, Zhuo Lincheng walked in with a chill, and pushed a box of cold medicine in front of her, "Take the medicine first." Sun Wan's heart warmed up, but she just lowered her eyes calmly, took the medicine without saying a word, peeled off two pills and swallowed them. Zhuo Lincheng pointed to the ginseng soup on her right side, "Drink it while it's hot, just sweat a little." Sun Wan picked up the spoon with gratitude, and started to drink the soup. When she got back into the car, Sun Wan had been nourished by the delicious food and soup, and her face was glowing.When I heard Eason Chan's sad voice again, I couldn't seem to find the sad state of mind before. She quietly looked at the street scene outside the window, and suddenly felt that something was wrong, so she turned to Zhuo Lincheng who was driving and asked, "That...why are you driving so slowly." He drove the car calmly, and replied casually: "It's snowing. Of course you have to drive slowly." "But..." Sun Wan couldn't figure it out, "It's snowing a lot less now, and you drove very fast just now." Zhuo Lincheng didn't make a sound for a while, feeling that Sun Wan was still looking at her with curious eyes, turned her head, and slightly hooked the corner of her mouth, "You are very fast." Sun Wan was stopped by his words, "No...don't rush." The car is his, and how he likes to drive it is his business, she really has no objection. She didn't know how incomprehensible a woman would be to ask such a stupid question.He just wanted to stay together longer, longer, just like her state of mind when she and Xiao Xun were together. When they arrived at Wancheng, Li Ya was singing.Seeing them, she quickly put down the phone and came forward to ask their relatives. Ma Rui and Jiang Mingzhu stepped forward and patted Sun Wan on the shoulder, "It's all right." Sun Wan shook her head, "It's okay, it was a false alarm." Ma Rui pulled her to the sofa and sat down, and ordered Jiang Mingzhu, "Go and sing "One Night in Beijing" for her, and let her talk about how she got into the depths of flowers by mistake." After Sun Wan sat down, she looked around and saw some noble-dressed young men and women sitting in the dots of lights in the communication area. From their demeanor, it was not difficult to see that they were from Zhuo Lincheng's world. Li Ya took a cocktail from the waiter and handed it to Sun Wan, then turned and walked to Zhuo Lincheng.Sun Wan heaved a sigh of relief, and her eyes fell wearily into the swaying blue liquid. After the silence due to Sun Wan's appearance lasted for a while, a tall man in a black leather jacket walked to the stage area, grabbed the microphone and said, "Why are you so reserved? There are no songs, who will sing." A young woman with heavy makeup shouted, "Young master Zhuo! No one can match your strength." Zhuo Lincheng, who was talking to Li Ya, waved his hands, and there was a rare reservedness in his smile. Jiang Mingzhu whispered on the side: "I really can't tell, Zhuo Lincheng is still the master who can sing." A short-haired girl who was very close to them couldn't help but said: "That's a must. Don't look at how deep he is now. When he was sixteen or seventeen, he also formed a band and went to Lhasa. It is not typical. Literary youth." "I can't see..." Ma Rui answered, "What kind of blow has he suffered to become like this?" "Tch!" The girl pretended to be unable to communicate with her, and said a classic sentence, "Grow up." Sun Wan, who was about to drink, laughed out of nowhere. After slowly sipping the wine in the glass, Sun Wan took advantage of no one's attention, got up and walked out of the room full of radiance. Although the alcohol was low in alcohol, it made her dizzy. She walked straight along the splendid arc-shaped promenade until she turned into a transparent terrace, and she could no longer hear any hustle and bustle in her ears, and her impetuous heart calmed down. She pushed open a window hard, and a gust of cold wind rolled a few flakes of snow onto her face. The chill fell into the warm mansion made of pink and jade, and instantly softened into a pleasant coolness. Sun Wan leaned against the railing with her face up, looking at the dark night outside and the sea of ​​lights above the city in a daze. While she was in a daze, there was a sudden sound of footsteps behind her, she looked back in astonishment, and saw Zhuo Lincheng, who was lowering his head and lighting a cigarette, coming in from the corner. Her heart raised, and she squeezed out a smile, "Hi..." He looked up to see her, was stunned for a moment, and then extinguished the fireworks between his fingers. "You... come to smoke?" Sun Wan said without words. He walked across to her and said lightly, "How about you? Come and see the night scene." Sun Wan hummed, "Actually, you don't need to put out the cigarette, I don't mind." He didn't answer, but stared far ahead, for a long time, pointed to the place beside him and said, "This place has the best view at night." The implication is to let her pass.Sun Wan was startled, but didn't move, "Why?" He raised his wrist and looked at the time, "Come here, you will know the answer." His words had a deceptive magic power, and Sun Wan really moved towards him, and just as she got to his side, she heard a loud bang not far away.She covered her ears in fright, and subconsciously shrank towards him.Blinking her eyes, she followed the sound and looked out the window, only to see three huge silver fireworks blooming in the air.In just an instant, the three fireworks turned into dots of silver sand and fell from midair. "Still so timid." He chuckled lightly. As soon as he finished speaking, a large cloud of fireworks exploded in the air, and those fireworks fell slowly like meteors, drawing bright traces in the night sky. Sun Wan didn't have time to think about his words, put the hand next to her ear on the railing, stood on tiptoe and looked around, "It's so beautiful!" "Every year at this time, there is a half-hour fireworks display across the street." Sun Wan stared at that side without blinking, and answered absently, "At this time last year, I watched Faye Wong's "Little Things in Big Town" at the cinema..." She swallowed the second half of the words back into her stomach. Zhuo Lincheng took over what she hadn't finished saying, "At the end of the movie, Faye Wong and Liming also watched fireworks in a similar place. Do you feel like you are standing in a movie?" "how do you know." Sun Wan suddenly turned her head to look at him, but almost bumped into his face which was close at hand.His warm breath hit her cheek, making her shudder.She held her breath subconsciously, and the tips of her ears turned red unexpectedly. He lowered his head and stared into her eyes. With that gaze, Sun Wan suddenly recalled that kiss in a dream. This association was like a branding iron on her nerves. trembled. For some reason, she kind of wanted to run away, but reason held her back and thought of a decent reason to leave.She squeezed out a blunt smile, "I heard that you sing very well, please sing one later." His eyes were as deep as the darkest night, but there was a fiery light burning in that night, "Okay." Sun Wan didn't dare to look at him, her voice was a little trembling, "What are you singing? How about I go get you some." After thinking for a while, he leaned closer and whispered in her ear: "I just like you." There was another sound of fireworks exploding not far away, and Sun Wan's heart trembled violently with that sound, she said in a lower voice than his: "Okay... I, I'll go and order some." After finishing speaking, she turned around and hurried to the box. Just as Sun Wan sat down in the box, her cell phone, which had been quiet all night, suddenly rang.She picked it up and saw it was Xiao Xun.After a while, she still picked up the phone. "Wanwan, are you asleep?" On the other end of the phone, Xiao Xun's voice was a little tired.Seeing that Sun Wan didn't answer, he sighed quietly and said, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry... I actually miss you very much, and I really want to spend the holidays with you." Sun Wan's eye circles turned red immediately, she walked to a secluded corner, took a breath and asked, "Why are there cars, where are you?" "I'm in... Tofuchi Alley." Sun Wan's eyes lit up, "I remember it's not far from the Drum Tower." "It's very close. You can see the tip of the Drum Tower from here." Sun Wan glanced at the time and said quickly: "It will be twelve o'clock in fifteen minutes, if you can arrive at the Drum Tower before twelve o'clock, let me and you hear the New Year's Eve bell this year, I'm not mad at you anymore." Xiao Xun's decisive voice came from over there, "Okay, wait for me!" As soon as the phone was hung up, Sun Wan didn't even have time to say goodbye to Li Ya, so she grabbed her bag and ran downstairs quickly. Wancheng is only two stops away from the Drum Tower. If they run to the same place at the same time, it is possible that they will meet before the New Year's Eve bell rings. The more Sun Wan thought about it, the more excited she became.At this moment, she didn't want to worry about his neglect of her anymore, her love for him was enough to forgive all his mistakes.She ran wildly on the snow field desperately, the cold wind cut her face like a blade, and the heavy snow almost covered her eyes. She trudged through the snow with one foot deep and one foot shallow, with only one name in her heart——Xiao Xun. She ran so urgently, as if if she hesitated for a moment, they would miss each other's lives. When she was bending over and standing in front of the Drum Tower panting, the second hand was just approaching zero. She found Xiao Xun wearing a beige coat from the crowd in front of the square at a glance, and at the same time, her cell phone rang. She suppressed the excitement surging in her heart, pressed her chest, and connected the phone, "Xiao Xun, turn back." In the distance, Xiao Xun looked back in astonishment.The moment their eyes met, a majestic and melodious bell sounded on the red wall and vermilion fence behind him. Without a moment's hesitation, they all ran towards each other, and for a moment they hugged each other tightly, almost hearing the sound of each other's souls colliding. After a while, Sun Wan broke away from his embrace and looked up at him.After not seeing him for more than a month, she almost didn't dare to recognize him.He was so thin that his eye sockets were sunken, and his complexion was as pale as he hadn't seen the sun for a long time. Under the bright light, he could see the extra spots on his chin. When he looked over suddenly, Sun Wan had a feeling of seeing Xiao Xun three years later. illusion. But that strange feeling disappeared in just a moment, she buried her head in his chest again, and he also hugged her tightly.Her body ached from his bones, but her heart ached even more. She tried not to shed tears and said in a hoarse voice: "Xiao Xun, you are old." Xiao Xun let go of her, raised her chin, and looked at her unsatisfactorily, "I also suspected that I haven't seen you for a few years." Sun Wan stroked his facial contours with her index finger, and said with a tearful smile, "Fortunately, he's still so handsome..." Xiao Xun lowered his head and sealed her lips, their lips and tongues were intertwined with each other more passionately than ever before.At this time, she suddenly smelled the smell of hospital disinfectant from his clothes, as well as a little... the smell of tobacco.She was about to ask, but he blocked her back even more fiercely. Sun Wan hugged his waist in a dizzy way, and died on the spot with the little inattention left. The next day, Sun Wan, who was washing clothes in the dormitory, suddenly associated the smell of disinfectant with the smell of Xiao Xun's body last night. She felt surprised in her heart, and then became curious—why did Xiao Xun appear near the Drum Tower late at night? The more she thought about it, the more suspicious she felt, and couldn't help but grabbed the phone and dialed it, but even after calling twice, Xiao Xun's phone was still in a state of no one answering. Her mood suddenly became chaotic.During this period of time, she was really fed up with his neglect of not answering the phone, and worried that their rekindled love would wither like a flash in the pan.For the first time in her life, she lost her mind and called his number over and over again like all vexatious girls do. Just when she was about to give up, the phone got through, and she called nervously: "Xiao Xun..." But a strange man's voice came from over there, "He's not here, I'm his roommate." "But why is his mobile phone in your hand?" "He went to the hospital in a hurry and forgot to bring his mobile phone. I saw that you called in a hurry and worried about something, so I took the liberty to answer it for you." Sun Wan's heart tightened, "Hospital? What is he doing in the hospital?" "To see his mother. His mother has not been doing well these two days." Sun Wan's heart sank suddenly, "What's wrong with his mother." "Don't you know? His mother has terminal cancer and is being hospitalized at Gulou Hospital." Sun Wan was dizzy for a while, and cold sweat broke out in her hands. She tried to calm down, "Excuse me, when did her mother come to Beijing?" "It seems like half a month ago? I can't remember clearly." The other party's voice began to show a little impatience. "Oh," Sun Wan was in a daze for a long time, and it took a long time before she said "thank you" softly, and gently put down the phone. She slowly slid on the chair, for a long time, mechanically picked up the phone, and sent a text message to Xiao Xun's phone: Xiao Xun, I want to see you, be sure to call me back when you come back. In the evening, Sun Wan finally received a call from Xiao Xun. Her first sentence was: "Xiao Xun, in your heart, who am I?" Xiao Xun obviously already knew the source of Sun Wan's anger from his roommate.He said dryly, "Wan Wan, listen to me..." "Okay, tell me, I want to listen to you, why didn't you tell me about such a big thing about your aunt's terminal cancer? As your girlfriend, I didn't hear the truth from a stranger until today, will it It's a little too pathetic." "I don't want you to worry." Sun Wan laughed back in anger, "Then you are not afraid of my chilling." "Wanwan, calm down." Sun Wan shook her head, enduring the soreness at the base of her nose, "I don't want to hear this. Tell me which ward my aunt is in, and I want to see her." There was a long silence on the phone. Sun Wan's heart broke little by little in that silence, she held the phone tightly until her knuckles turned white, "Xiao Xun, why didn't you let me see auntie." Xiao Xun said wearily: "Because, there are some things that I don't want you to face. I'm very tired, don't force me anymore, okay?" Sun Wan sniffed, "Xiao Xun, I suddenly want to know, in your opinion, what is love." Before he could answer, she had already asked excitedly: "Looking at flowers together in spring, blowing the breeze together in summer, taking a walk in autumn, or stepping on the snow together in winter? No, Xiao Xun, I never I think this is love. You may not know that I grew up watching martial arts novels. I don’t like the kind of love written by Qiong Yao at all, and I don’t want my man to think that I can only live in a dream The love in my mind is like Qiao Feng and Ah Zhu who go through the wind and rain together, promise each other through life and death; it is Guo Jing and Huang Rong's kind of "life, I will carry you; death, I will carry you" never leave. I am not afraid of facing any difficulties, I am only afraid that you will hide something from me." After a long time, a complex sigh came from over there, "Wan Wan, that's your love. My love is not like this." At that time, Sun Wan didn't know that there was a kind of man who didn't need women to evolve into Athena to accompany them to face the destruction of the world, and they didn't need women like Liang Hongyu to throw their heads and shed blood for them. Attached to themselves like vines, when they stand upright, they act cowardly, cowardly, and cry weakly. The love of this kind of man is not about being in love with each other, not going through the wind and rain together, and it is not about life and death, but pity, pity, and everything that can prove their strength. If Sun Wan had known this earlier, maybe she wouldn't have made more mistakes and gone further. After hanging up the phone, Sun Wan made a decision.She bought a fruit basket in the supermarket, took a taxi and went straight to Gulou Hospital. When Sun Wan rushed to the hospital, it was already the time when the lights were on. After a lot of trouble, Sun Wan asked Xiao's mother for her ward number.She bypassed many corridors, walked through layers of gardens, and finally found an old building. She looked at the towering new inpatient building, and then at the old and dilapidated old inpatient building in front of her, feeling a little sad in her heart. Just as she was dazed, she saw Xiao Xun's stepfather coming from the opposite side with a pile of test papers and bills of payment. After half a year, his back became more stooped, so old and haggard that Sun Wan didn't dare to recognize him.While sighing, he passed by Sun Wan while muttering something. Sun Wan hurriedly called him to stop, and when he saw it was her, a trace of unexplained embarrassment flashed in his cloudy eyes, and he greeted embarrassingly, "Xiao Sun is here." Sun Wan approached him quickly, "Uncle! I'm so sorry, I should have come to see Auntie earlier." The old man even said it was all right, and led the way ahead, leading Sun Wan to a multi-person ward on the third floor. As soon as she walked into the ward, Sun Wan was almost nauseated by the strong smell of disinfectant and a sickness, smoke, and coquettish smell. Before her eyes, there were eight beds in a room less than 20 square meters. There are at least three people in each bed with a patient and an escort. Because of the recent heavy snowfall, the floor of the ward is covered with wet muddy footprints. Sun Wan frowned, and followed Xiao Xun's stepfather to the corner of the ward.Looking towards the bed in the direction of his finger, Sun Wan couldn't help but gasped: This is actually Xiao Xun's mother? Different from the thin and bony appearance of general terminal cancer patients, Xiao Xun's mother was swollen all over.At this moment, she was shivering all over in a semi-conscious state, and cold sweat was constantly breaking out from her forehead and face. Sun Wan asked sadly, "How did this happen?" Xiao Xun's stepfather said with difficulty in very poor Mandarin: "The doctor said her hydronephrosis was severe, and she was given injections for a few days. Who knew that after the injections, she developed a high fever and couldn't get rid of it. Xiao Xun is looking for a doctor today. In theory, the doctor said she had an infusion reaction." Sun Wan took the test report and payment form from Xiao Xun's father and looked at it. In addition to conventional drugs such as pethidine, fat emulsion, and albumin, there is also a special expensive special drug. Calculated according to the price of the drug, the cost of hospitalization for one day is I'm afraid it will cost their family half a month's income. Seeing Xiao Xun's stepfather bringing hot water to wipe Xiao's mother's body, Sun Wan took the towel with complicated emotions, and wiped her carefully. Seeing that Xiao Xun's mother wiped off a layer of cold sweat, and then a new layer came out again, Sun Wan, who had always been calm, collapsed, "It's all like this, why is the doctor still ignoring it? None of the salt water." The old man sighed, and couldn't help complaining: "Xiao Sun, you don't know how difficult it is to find a doctor. I went to the doctor at dawn today, and the doctor ordered me to take her to take a black and white B-ultrasound. The doctor said that black and white could not be seen clearly, and asked us to pay for the color Doppler ultrasound. After waiting all morning, when it was our turn, the doctor who took the color Doppler ultrasound said that there was something wrong with our list. He didn’t understand why the attending doctor asked us to stand The photo. Let us go back to the doctor to change it! Finally finished the correction and took a good film. The attending doctor refused to show it again, saying that we will get the result tomorrow. But I glanced at the film he was looking at, and the number was still There are dozens of people behind us!" Sun Wan bit her lip and looked at her aunt's sallow face, "Uncle, why don't you wrap a bigger red envelope for the doctor." An expression of self-blame and annoyance appeared on his face, "It's not that I don't want to pack... I don't have any money... I prepared the money for half a year, but I didn't expect it to be spent before a month arrives." He handed the form to Sun Wan again, "Look, I have to type out three pages of the form every day, and I am urged to pay the money every three days. To be honest, I don't even know where the money I have to pay tomorrow is. It’s too late to go back and borrow it! Fortunately, Xiao Xun said that he can find a way... Otherwise..." 孙菀心知萧寻的实习待遇虽然还算优厚，但一个月的月薪，只怕禁不起这里一个星期烧的，他一个毫无根基的穷学生，哪里承担得起这种经济压力？ 孙菀强忍着心疼问：“萧寻人呢。” “好像是去楼上打开水了。” 孙菀问清开水间的位置，起身朝外间走去。 她心情沉重地沿着逼仄的楼梯往上爬着，胸口压抑得几乎喘不过气来。 她轻轻地往开水间的方向走去，不料刚走到走廊的尽头，就一眼看见了那个熟悉的身影。 他颓废地靠在一扇窗户上，低着头，嘴里叼着一根烟，黑色的发丝挡住了他的眼睛。苍白的灯光下，他瘦削的侧脸上写满了忧悒、无助与凄惶。 像有什么狠狠在孙菀柔软的心上戳了一下，她顿时掩住几欲出声的嘴。 她忽然明白了他不想让她面对的是什么。 她本能地想掉头走掉，然而脚底的球鞋却在她转身的瞬间发出刺耳的摩擦声。 那边，萧寻悚然一惊，站直身体，朝她看去。在看清她面目的瞬间，他的表情，像是撞见了鬼。 孙菀张了张嘴，一颗心像从万米高空坠下。 不知怎的，她忽然想起《聊斋》里的一个故事：书生娶得了一个倾国倾城的女妖，两人琴瑟在御，情深意笃。但是书生总是好奇女妖的本来面目，于是在某天灌醉女妖，终于窥见了她丑陋的原形。女妖酒醒后，知道秘密被看破，不顾书生百般挽留、解释，决然离他而去。 这一瞬，孙菀有了种不祥的预感，觉得萧寻会像故事里的女妖般离开她，因为她撞见了他最不愿让她看见的一面。 孙菀几乎是逃回宿舍的。 一回到宿舍，她就将压在箱底的存折翻找了出来，紧紧捂在胸口。 她粗略地算了一下，又将目光落在自己的电脑上。 已经对萧寻的家事略有耳闻的厉娅忍不住劝说道：“菀菀，不要给他钱，否则你会后悔。” 孙菀完全听不进她的话，“那就让我后悔吧。阿姨的状况，实在太可怜了，我不能坐视不理。” 厉娅没有再说话，只是悲悯地看着她。 孙菀不甘地又去翻自己的柜子，末了，她转向厉娅，“娅娅，你有没有什么兼职渠道，能够让我很快赚到钱的？什么我都愿意做！” 孙菀知道，厉娅一直混迹时尚圈、演艺圈，早就积累了不少人脉资源，只要她愿意，随时都能给她指一条金光大道。 厉娅指了指她，颇有些无奈地说：“这个人——疯了！” 孙菀眼巴巴地看着她，“求你了。” 沉默了很久，厉娅回床上翻出一张名片递给她，“这是我认的姐姐，我一会儿跟她说说你的情况，你去给她做模特吧。这是来钱最快最及时的——但是，你要做好心理准备，可能会……” “我知道的！”孙菀没让她把话说完，那些尴尬的事情，彼此心照不宣就好，“谢谢你，娅娅。” 第二天一早，孙菀就取出所有的钱，自作主张地去医院帮萧寻把费用续上。她不敢面对萧寻，索性当鸵鸟，只要是他的电话、短信，一概都不接、不看。 下午，孙菀去西城区见了厉娅介绍的章姐。 章姐见了她，二话不说就让人带孙菀去更衣室换了比基尼。等孙菀从试衣间出来，章姐像看肉鸡一样打量了下她，随手拿了张A4纸放进她腿缝中，“站直。” 末了，她点点头，“仪态还不错，身材也马马虎虎，就是胸小了点。既然是娅娅介绍来的，我就卖她一个面子。” 她转向自己的助理，风风火火地说：“先去带她签个兼职合约，让Nicole带带她。明天先去拍组平面，看看感觉。” 章姐的模特公司虽然不大，资源却很好。短短几天内，孙菀就拍了一组宣传平面，走了一场婚纱秀，轻而易举地就赚回了萧妈妈一个礼拜的住院金。 孙菀趁萧寻不在的时候，又去了一次鼓楼医院。这次，她不但给萧妈妈带去了营养品，还特地给她的主治医生包了一个丰厚的红包。 出了医院，孙菀不禁在心里感叹，这名利场上的钱实在是太容易赚了，哪怕是做个边角余料，都比常人过得轻松。无怪那些美女，个个如过江之鲫往这里面钻，打死也不甘被遗忘了。 发完感慨，她在冷风里敲了敲脑袋，正了下自己的三观，把那点小小的虚荣心扼杀在摇篮里。 不知道是不是章姐体恤她，一个礼拜后，孙菀居然接到了一个大车展站车的机会。 第一天站车前，孙菀在化妆间里不断向旁边的专业车模打探各种注意事项，差点没被那个模特用白眼翻去火星。 化完妆，服装师送来服装，一套蓝白相间的比基尼，下面配了个可有可无的小短裙。孙菀望着这套工作服，面露难色。虽然这套衣服谈不上露骨，但是让她穿着这样的衣服暴露在众目睽睽之下，还要接受各种拍照，无疑太超出她的底线了。 她望着镜子里被化得浓墨重彩的陌生自己，怅惘地想：怎么一夕之间，她就被命运推到这么奇怪的境地来了？ 上午九点，孙菀和其他品牌的车模列队进了展览馆，各就各位站好，开始对着不同媒体、观展者摆不同的Pose。 不知是因为作为车模的孙菀太欠缺风情，还是她服务的国产车太差，他们这个展台前来的人很少。孙菀乐得轻松，但见身旁销售人员脸色难看，只好把心里那点窃喜藏了起来。 站了两个小时后，见这边实在没人，无聊的孙菀压低声音跟旁边的销售大哥攀谈道：“吴哥，你说会不会是因为我长得太丑了，所以才没人来看？你们老板会不会后悔请我。” 那个姓吴的销售叹了口气，“我们老板可不管这事儿。”顿了顿，他又瞄了眼孙菀，“再说，有没有人看车和模特好看不好看，关系不大。今天上午天气太差，来的人少点儿很正常。不过你放心，下午的时候，看你的人就会多起来。” 孙菀诧异地问道：“为什么啊。” 他神秘兮兮地指着后面的E5馆，“下午的时候，玛莎拉蒂、法拉利、宾利、兰博基尼、保时捷都要在后面那个馆开展，咱这个馆是通往那边的必经之路，你说，到时候人气会不会旺？” 孙菀不解地问：“人家看完名车，哪里还愿意看咱们的车。” “你傻啊？玛莎拉蒂、兰博基尼那类车根本不会跟咱一样请车模吸引眼球，看展的人看完车后就想看美女，到时候，他们肯定会就近来我们馆和美女拍照留念……”说到这里，他凑近孙菀，“我认真看过了，这个馆里的车模，就你真的好看。” 诚如他所言，到了下午，形势果然来了个大逆转，清纯可人的孙菀被E5馆回流的看展者用“长枪短炮”围了个水泄不通。面对着闪光灯、照相机、摄像机的扫射，又羞又窘的孙菀僵直地靠在车身上。那一刻，她真觉得自己像个即将就义的战士！ 随着围观的人渐多，一些猥琐的男人也开始借合影为名对孙菀毛手毛脚，更有甚者，居然拿着手机对着孙菀的裙子下、胸口处拍摄。 有观者不满孙菀的僵硬，大声叫嚣着：“换个姿势啊，S形不会摆啊。” 孙菀羞愤得想当场发飙，可是强烈的职业道德感不允许她做出这种事情。她只得紧紧咬着牙关，小心翼翼地挪开步子，换了个姿势，一只手搭在敞开的车上，一只手轻叉于腰间，身体略微斜靠在车身上。 闪光灯又闪起了新的高潮，一个更加得寸进尺的声音响了起来，“屁股再翘一点啊！” 孙菀搭在车门上的手紧了紧，指甲几乎刺进铁皮里。她的双腿止不住地打着冷战，就像此刻她正踩在刀尖之上。 那个吴姓销售有点同情孙菀，忙挡在她身前，大声介绍起这辆车的卓越性能来。 孙菀不动声色地往他身后躲了躲，紧绷的神经稍微松弛了下来，与此同时，她的余光瞬间捕捉到了一道看向她的强烈目光。她下意识往门口的方向看去，只见着一身正装的卓临城在一群人的簇拥下，正朝她这边走来。 四目相对的一瞬，孙菀惊愕得睁大了双眼。卓临城也是一怔，不禁顿在了原地，他匪夷所思地盯着她的脸，好像在判断自己是不是产生了错觉。 孙菀第一反应就是想抚额哀叹：天哪，这个卓临城到底是何方天魔？为什么总是在她最尴尬、最狼狈的时候出现？ 卓临城很快从她的表情中证实自己并非看错了人。他从头到脚地将她看了一遍后，抿了抿薄唇，漠然收回眼神，一边同身侧人寒暄，一边从容不迫地往前走去。 孙菀暗暗松了口气，目送着他往E5那边走去。 他的脚步刚刚要从孙菀他们前面越过，不知怎的，又停了下来，回头向她投去了一个凌厉而复杂的眼神。 孙菀一下子读懂了他的眼神，他在指控她自甘堕落。 孙菀涨红着一张脸，险些滚下眼泪来。在这种状况下遇见认识的异性，她本就羞耻得想死，然而这个人非但丝毫不照顾她的情绪，还那么赤裸裸地用眼神戳她的心。 她揪着颗心看他顿了顿后从她面前走过，就在她的眼泪溢出眼眶瞬间，那个本已经走到E5门口的身影再度顿住了脚步。 片刻后，他毫不犹豫地转身，快步朝着她的方向走去，忽然揪住一个胖且黑的男人，一拳将他打倒在地上。 人群里爆发出一阵尖叫，围观的人们迅速散离孙菀身边。 卓临城的身后，两个保镖模样的人飞快跟了上来，虎视眈眈地盯着地上那个男人。 卓临城朝保镖摆了摆手，上前将那人从地上拎了起来，劈手夺过他的相机，卸下里面的内存卡，举到他面前。卓临城目光冷厉地盯着他，一字一句地警告，“下次再让我看见你做这种事情，你就当着我的面一点点把它嚼烂吞下去！” 说完，他将那张内存卡丢给身后的保镖，“把它处理掉。” 他余怒未消地看向呆若木鸡的孙菀，良久，面色才渐渐缓和了下来。他走上前，脱下西装，将之裹在孙菀肩上，不由分说地揽住她的腰往外带。 身后，传来小心翼翼的议论声，“怎么回事儿？怎么打人啊。” “刚才那个男的拿相机拍人家姑娘的胸和裙底，我看到了。” “哦……那是该打！”