Chapter 35 Section VI

"Why did he say thank you to me just now?" The stars can already be seen in the sky. "Because I'm a guest?" "Oh, the teacher doesn't know either." There was silence, our footsteps bouncing off the walls of the house. On the way to the apartment, Dynasty said: "If Mommy has a new kid, I hope it's a younger brother." "Little brother is so cute." Chao Dai didn't look at me, and I looked ahead and answered her. "If you have a little brother, carrying him on your back like in "Red Dragonfly" will definitely become a good memory."

The "father and daughter" of the seal shop came to my mind. I try to imagine Dynasty carrying the little boy like the two did last night.They may also both look at the same branch.Chao Dai would also nod in response to the singing from behind.My younger brother and I are only three years apart. Strictly speaking, we have never recited my younger brother once except playing house games. I can't help but envy the dynasty. "Hold it on your back..." After speaking, Dynasty suddenly frowned. "Why "Red Dragonfly"?" She looked at me puzzled, the light of the street lamp reflected in her eyes.

"No reason." She smiled briefly and didn't ask any more questions. Walking side by side on the road, the footsteps of the dynasty beside them suddenly changed.I felt strange and looked at her side face.She looked at her toes with a slightly lonely look. "But I'm not a real sister." I laughed out loud. "What are you thinking about?" Chao Dai looked at me unhappy, but this time is my field of expertise.Not to brag, I know nursery rhymes pretty well. "It's the same in that song, the 'sister' in it is not the real sister." "yes?"

"The person who wrote the lyrics was brought up by a nanny, so 'sister' refers to the nanny." Dynasty looked up at the stars. "Then I can also..." That side face doesn't seem to be looking at any star, but it seems that it wants to take in all the stars in the sky. I also looked up at the sky like a dynasty. "Like in that song, if you get married at fifteen, you have to hurry up and have a little brother." "why?" "There are only five years left before I turn fifteen." If you get married, you will become very busy and have no time to go home. In this way, there will be fewer opportunities to carry your cute younger brother.But nowadays no one gets married at fifteen, not five years.

Probably because I felt something was wrong with what I said, Chao Dai didn't reply, I looked at her, she looked at Yinhe as if she was facing some problem. "what!" she exclaimed suddenly. "In that song, didn't my 'sister' get married when I was fifteen?" This time it was my turn to be surprised.It seems that Dynasty completely misunderstood the meaning of the lyrics.I couldn't help laughing, and when I wanted to correct her, the lyrics of "Red Dragonfly" came to my mind—— I tilted my head like Dynasty. "...Which one is it?"

"Which one is it?" "Never thought of that." "I do not know." After speaking, Chao Dai looked up at the sky again. "It always feels like something I don't understand." Really, it's all things I don't understand. Then the two of us walked in silence.Before arriving at Chao Dynasty's apartment, she asked in a low voice: "Teacher, have you ever seen a landscape glow?" I didn't understand for a moment, so I asked her with my eyes.What came to my mind was that wonderful image that I often saw recently.I looked at the ceiling, the ceiling, the walls, the windows were all glowing.There was the sound of metal touching behind my ears, and I felt the breath of something beside me——

"I felt that way today. The scenery glowed. The teacher talked to me at school. It wasn't about the kitten yesterday, but about the music class, about lunch, etc. The teacher was with me after that Let’s find a kitten, and walking on the road with the teacher holding the cat food, I always feel that the scenery is getting brighter little by little.” It seemed that the explanation was not accurate, Chao Dai closed his mouth and frowned. "I usually don't talk, but when I was looking for a cat with the teacher, I started talking, and I was shocked." Still frowning. "As I searched, it became dark. In fact, the scenery is getting darker, but I think it is getting brighter."

Then Dynasty was silent for a while.The silence this time did not come from impatience that could not be explained accurately, but that he had something to say and was confirming it in his heart.I waited for her to speak. "So I don't want to go home. I'll be sad when the light disappears when I get home." The words of the dynasties whose vocabulary is not rich enough are directly conveyed to my heart. For I remembered that I had also seen the landscape around me glow—everything glowed.And I don't know when I lost that light. Now I finally found the answer. The light seen in the depths of the mind—isn’t that white light a world full of unknowns?The world used to be bright even without the sunlight streaming in through the windows and the fluorescent lights hanging from the ceiling.It is full of unknowns, so it shines.I try to imagine.It was a morning.Nothing special, just an ordinary morning.I opened my eyes in bed.Behind the ears, under the pillow, I can hear the sound of my parents preparing to open the shop downstairs.They'll come and wake us up in a minute. By "we" I mean me and my little brother who is fidgeting around me.I lay looking at the ceiling, feeling the joy in my body, and thinking.What will happen today?How do you spend it?what to do?

When did the white light disappear? No, it might not disappear at all.The world hasn't changed.What has changed is me.At any time, it is people who change.Humans are not qualified to laugh at the red dragonflies laying eggs on the hood.Looking at the light that only exists in memory, I only wander in it, forgetting that there are brighter things in reality. Is it too late?Or will the world still shine on me like that? "Can I go home now?" I asked Dynasty. "Can." She replied immediately, and then she was a little uneasy but as if she saw the light of her destination, she raised her small chin and looked into the depths of the night.

"Will grandpa be there tomorrow?" "Old man Shigang?" "Well. I still want to apologize properly." "That's great, the teacher will accompany you too." "Teacher, you think I said that the stone actually missed, okay?" "I think it's fine. Where's Yabushita-san?" After thinking about it for a while, Dynasty said: "I think that's fine too." The autumn wind blows at night, we hold each other's hair blown by the wind. Suddenly, something like white petals flew by in the wind. "Teacher, butterfly!"

Chao Dai raised his voice and ran in three steps at a time.The white butterfly fluttered its wings in the dark as if fleeing or playing, and flew to the heights little by little.After chasing its figure, I finally lost sight of it in the light of the street lamp. I looked in the direction where the butterfly disappeared and stood there.Dynasty also stopped in front of me and looked up silently. What kind of scenery did the butterfly see?Is it a scene full of light?Or a landscape full of darkness and sorrow? I also wanted to be like the butterfly, looking from above at this moving world of light and shadow.Get a bird's-eye view of a world where everything is flowing, connected, always updating.What kind of scenery will it be?Someone who is crying, someone who is laughing, someone who is biting their lip, someone who is yelling - holding someone's hand, holding something important, looking up at the sky, looking straight down at the ground. For some reason, tears welled up suddenly.Can't cry.There is no reason to cry.When I hurriedly wanted to close my eyes—— The light from the street lamps in the field of vision diffuses. Snow-white, dazzlingly. I missed that light and even forgot to close my eyes. Tears flooded down his cheeks.