Chapter 32 third quarter

"She was looking in from the outside of the plant, I know. But, I think she just came to visit. After all, it was published in the newspaper. There are many people who come to visit, and there are also children inside." The old man Shigang spoke viciously, his face was flushed, I could only lower my head deeply.Overwhelmed by his momentum, I couldn't lift my head up at all. "So I didn't say anything at home. But I didn't expect her to throw stones. Not just one, but two." When it came to one or two yuan, old man Shigang hit his palm with his fist. Dynasty is by my side, and has been silent since just now.We stood in the courtyard of Tokioka's old man's house.In front of the wall illuminated by the setting sun, the brown long-haired bitch lowered her body and looked at us with a look of vigilance in her eyes. Occasionally, she stood up as if remembering something, and sniffed the ground as far as the rope tied around her neck allowed, probably Is it looking for a kitten that escaped?

What happened was that the dynasty suddenly threw stones from the gaps in the coral trees.Missed the first piece.But the second piece immediately hit the startled kitten on the head.The kitten ran away screaming, and the "surrogate mother" next to him immediately started screaming sharply, and the old man Shigang hurried out to catch Chao Dai. "I asked for the phone number at home, but no one answered. She said she didn't know the phone number of the parents' unit." So the old man Shigang asked the name of the dynasty school, and found the phone number through the directory inquiry station.

"Shouldn't be doing newspaper interviews. Seriously. Just don't let them put up pictures of the house. It's not right to have such a bad boy throwing stones." The last words seemed to be addressed to the kitten who had gone somewhere. "I'm really sorry, we came to look for the kitten, maybe we haven't gone far—" "No." Then, the old man Tokioka stared at me and said fiercely: "How can the teacher think like this. Just look for it, how is it possible. Let the child apologize, well. She didn't apologize at the beginning. Just keep her head down like that. It's just watching TV and playing games all the time. become so ignorant."

"Yubashita-san, please apologize." My voice is hoarse.After the old man Shigang heard the word "Tao Xia", his eyes sternly passed over my face, and then he stared at Chao Dai again like a needle prick. "Didn't you say that the surname is Muuchi?! Is that a lie? Are you trying to lie and run away?" He seems to have misunderstood.I hurriedly wanted to explain, but before I could say anything, Chaodai lowered his head and whispered, "It's Kiuchi." The old man Tokioka clenched his fists with a ferocious face. "Which one is it?!" "That, she—"

My voice was drowned out by Tokioka's roar. "Shut up! Let the kid answer!" Under the pressure of the other party, I couldn't make a sound.The air was as still as the bottom of the water, and the dog at the end of the line of sight moved slowly.Dynasty is still silent.I didn't speak either.Elder Shigang's breathing gradually became thicker. The regret of becoming a teacher spread all over my body at this time.That was the thought that I had deliberately avoided before it was forced before my eyes many times.I want to run away from here immediately.She even harbored resentment towards herself, who dreamed of being a female teacher when she was a child.The hands crossed in front of the body trembled with fear and helplessness.I clearly know what I should do as a teacher now, but I can't speak.The body remained motionless.It feels like my existence is slowly and silently sinking.

Old man Tokioka could be heard clicking his tongue loudly.The dynasty still bowed its head.On her face covered by bangs, a line of tears inadvertently left, dripping down her chin to the ground.With his lips tightly closed, Chao Dai was crying quietly. "I tell you, even if you can lie to others, you can't lie to yourself." There was anger and abandonment in the low voice, the old man Tokioka said. "Crying like this to fool around, you will regret it when you grow up, and even if you regret it, I tell you that twisted things can't come back straight!" Before the misunderstanding was solved, the old man Tokioka didn't even look at us again, and turned around to leave.He took off his slippers in front of the corridor and entered the house from the side.When I regained my composure and realized that I had to explain clearly to him and raised my foot, he turned his head back and closed the door and window with a blank expression.Like a child thrown into an unknown world, I watched him close the doors and windows and lock them from the inside.Thinking in my heart, I must contact Chao Dai's mother about this matter, she will probably bring Chao Dai to apologize later.Wouldn't it have been better for her mother to say the name thing then. ——My sense of responsibility is like a kitten, I don’t know where it went.

I leaned over to the window and tapped with my fingers, but there was no response.He walked around to the entrance and pressed the doorbell, but there was still no answer. Footsteps came from behind, and I looked back, Chao Dai was looking down at the ground and walking out of the gate. "Because I'm a small animal, I don't think about anything, just like that." I asked Chao Dai why she was throwing stones at the kitten, and she said in a voice that was barely audible. "That's it?" "It's obviously a cat, but it treats the dog as its mother, and is still lying down and sleeping next to it."

Maybe it was emotional because of being scolded, Chao Dai said so many words at once, he must be trying to convey something.As we walked towards Chao Dai's house, I was ashamed of myself for not being promising just now.In order to redeem this failure, I chewed her words over and over again.The sun set soon after leaving Shigang's house, and there was only a little afterglow around.Lights lit up in the square windows on the left and right of the path. "Don't you want your mother to remarry?" Probably so.When the mother remarried, the dynasty had a new father.She must be very disturbed about her relationship with her new father.So I feel jealous of kittens who treat their puppies as their mothers.When Elder Tokioka asked her name, it must be because of this that she answered with her old name.

"Mom married for me." Chao Dai, who had been silent for more than a minute, finally spoke. "In order to let me enter a good middle school. I want me to study harder. I think it's good to be alone with my mother all the time. Even if I'm poor, it's better to be two people. It's good to go to a public middle school. I don't have the money to go to high school. , just graduated from high school." "The new father is here, it must be very interesting for the three of us to be together." The question of money should not continue. "What kind of person is Dad?"

"Ordinary people, rich. Because I am the owner of the store where my mother works." "When will you start living together?" "Tomorrow. So today is my last day with my mother." Is that why dynasties would do that kind of thing?I'm going to live with my new father soon, so I feel like I'm being pushed. "It is said that we will move to a bigger place next year. The three of us will be together." I also lived in a single-parent family since the third grade of junior high school, but because my mother did not remarry, I couldn't fully grasp the mood of the dynasty.Understandable, but not empathetic.It makes me anxious.

"Mom and new dad will have kids, while they're still young." "So you have younger brothers and sisters." I tried to sound bright and festive.But the voice of the dynasty was as low as ever. "With kids, I think my mother will hate me." Hearing this, I was taken aback for the first time.Her troubles seemed much more real than I thought indifferently.Such a real problem seems to be around me.I still remember the awkward emotions in my heart when I knew I was going to have a younger brother more than 20 years ago.I haven't forgotten my childish envy of that lovely sleeping face, that slack neck, those stubby little fingers.But that was only for a short time.Indeed, in order to take care of my younger brother, my mother spends less time caring for me, but when my younger brother is sleeping, my mother will try her best to talk to me as compensation. "No mother hates her child, you don't have to worry about that." But the dynasty said: "If it's your own child." What's the meaning? I looked at her profile, and she said in a flat tone: "My mother is not remarried, it's her first marriage." "First marriage..." I was speechless for a while, not understanding what it meant.What I heard at school was that her parents divorced shortly after she was born.The same is written on the children's survey card provided by her guardian to the school.Although I haven't seen the enrollment notice sent by the city government to the school, the content of the two should be the same. "In order to prevent me from being bullied at school or being gossiped by my classmates, my mother asked the principal to keep it a secret when I entered school. Keep it a secret from my classmates and teachers." Dynasty suddenly stopped and looked at me.Although there was a smile on his lips, tears were about to flow from his eyes. "My mom — my real mom — was the sister of the current mom. Both the real mom and dad died on the highway. Only me was saved when I was born. Then the real mom's sister adopted Me, for me to grow up." "but--" My mouth froze.I didn't know what to say and could only look at her face.Like the kid who gets called in class and doesn't know the answer to the question.Dynasty's face was distorted.She was usually expressionless, gritted her teeth, and tried her best not to cry.Something has to be said.Dynasty expected me to say something before it revealed to me what had just happened.But before I could speak, she had turned and walked away. I tried to run after her, but she was moving very fast.I called her she should not.Almost running, she wiped her tears roughly once with clenched fists.Finally, I saw Chao Dai's apartment in front of me.There were hardly any lighted windows.She took out the key from the pocket of her skirt and climbed up the stairs with rusty handrails in one breath.When she opened the door and flew into the dark hallway, I finally caught up with her.But at this moment, the door slammed shut in front of me, and there was a sound of locking from inside. "Yubashita-san... open the door..." I said out of breath. "Teacher, I'm sorry to trouble you." There was a vague answer.That voice sounded to me like: I'm sorry for making you do more than you can handle.A burst of irritation passes through the inside of the nasal cavity.The old man Shioka and the dynasty—one old and one young—pointed out my incompetence almost at the same time, and I was almost abandoned by them at the same time. "Yubashita-san..." There was no answer again. I felt my breathing becoming shallower and quicker.I couldn't inhale a lot of air, so I could only touch the cold door with my left hand, struggling to get my head up.The door plate next to the door came into view, with the handwritten "Yabashita" on it. ——Because I’m a small animal, I don’t think about anything, just like that. —— This must have been her best answer.I didn't realize it until now.Throwing stones at the kitten is also an act of her doing her best.A bloodless mother, plus a bloodless father.What complex emotions swirl in her little chest.I mistakenly thought that I could solve it simply, and pretended to be a "female teacher", trying to solve it with a smiley face.Can this also be called a teacher?There are actually many "female teachers" in the dream when I was a child, but I can't do it myself, right?It's just that I didn't make it, did I? Deep in my mind, I don't know when that image surfaced again. White light can be seen from a distance.I can see white light, but the reality in my field of vision gradually becomes darker.The more you care about white light, the darker the reality will be.What is that light?I don't want to see lights that darken the scene.I widened my eyes, forced myself to take a deep breath, and rang the doorbell. Still no response. The phone rang.I went to the outside platform to answer the call. It turned out that it was the dean who asked me to go back to school and explain what happened afterwards. I left the apartment, walked for a while and looked back, the apartment where Chao Dynasty lived seemed to be entrenched on the ground in the setting sun.In fact, it's not that the dynasty gave up on me, but I gave up on her, didn't I?The thought hurts my heart.But now I have to go back to school and explain to the dean. On the way back to school, I passed by the place where the red dragonfly swayed just now.On the hood under the faint light of the door light, the eggs of red dragonflies shining white have dried up and turned brown.Their parents have disappeared.It felt as if it was my responsibility too. After explaining to the dean what happened at Tokioka's old man's house, I asked about the dynasty's family relationship. "According to the principal's judgment, we finally accepted Chao Dai's mother's request. As the school, we thought it would be better to at least let the class teacher know about it, but her mother refused." However, in fact, the dean secretly told Chao Dai's homeroom teachers from grades 1 to 3 the truth. "But, I totally—" "You're still a rookie." Hitting his forehead with his palm, the dean overshadowed my words. "During the family visit or interview, I accidentally told her mother what to do. Then the school will be found to have violated the agreement. And it is not easy for you to be the class teacher now." Simply put, it's just that the principal and dean don't trust me and think I can't afford it.I felt the sharp pain of my heart being clenched in my chest.In order to divert the conversation, the dean slowly straightened the tie with his right hand. When Chao Dai's mother came home, I called. Under the instructions of the teaching director, I did not involve her family relationship.Chao Dai's mother said that she would immediately go to Shi Gang's home to apologize.The words that I want to go with me welled up in my chest, but they shrank back.There was a coldness in his chest.In the quiet night, the sound of the phone being put down in the teacher's room was extremely loud.The dark and muddy emotions slowly enveloped the entire room in an unpleasant way.I kept facing the table, thinking of adding a little cold water to the glass that would not overflow due to the surface tension of the water. I thought about quitting my job for the first time that day. Walking on the way home with heavy feet, the sound of pots and pans being prepared for dinner came from the yellow windows of the house, which sounded like it was far away in the sky.On the way, I remembered the seal of the dynasty that I had completely forgotten, so I turned towards the seal shop, but the lights in the shop had already gone out. Nothing is going well. When I closed my eyes and wanted to go back to the way I came from, a slight singing sound came from nowhere. It sounded like a girl's voice, but it was an adult's accent.Walking in the direction of the singing, the side door of the small courtyard opposite the seal shop where the family lives and stores is shining brightly.Human figures can be seen in the dim light.The figure by the wall reminds me of the Bremen band I saw in picture books when I was a child.Donkeys, dogs, cats, and chickens are stacked together like an animal. The figure is actually two people.One carries the other.It is the old woman who is being carried on her back who sings like a girl.Her arms were wrapped around the neck of an elderly man as if she was acting like a baby to her father. The old woman sang while looking at the swaying bamboo leaves in front of her.That should be fine bamboo.It was too dark to see clearly.Anyway, the old woman stared at a point of the branches and leaves and sang. Can the old woman see the red dragonfly on that branch?The man behind her back nodded along with the song and looked at the same place.