Chapter 7 second quarter

When I walked out of the apartment, I found that the road surface was slightly damp. It seemed that it had rained last night.However, the rainfall does not appear to be high enough to create puddles. Just as he was about to enter the gate of the University Hospital, Yoichiro stopped in his tracks.He saw a box car with a TV station logo parked beside the university's outer wall, and there were more than one. A total of three TV stations came to interview. "Could it be that a new drug has been developed..." Yoichiro walked through the gate with a feeling of surprise. Walking into the medical building, passing staff and doctors expressed their condolences to him.Most of these people participated in the vigil or farewell ceremony, so I should have said enough condolences, but when I saw Yoichiro, I couldn't help but say it again.Yoichiro greeted everyone with a grateful heart, trying not to show a lonely expression on his face.

"From today on, you have to work hard." Yoichiro was walking in the corridor when suddenly someone patted him from behind.Looking back, it turned out to be Emi Takeuchi.The corners of her pretty mouth were raised, and she was smiling at him.The long tea chestnut hair hangs down on the shoulders of the white robe, and under the fluorescent lights on the ceiling, it exudes a shiny luster. "Ah, good morning!" Yoichiro greeted hurriedly.Takeuchi brought his face closer and stared into Yoichiro's eyes.She was about the same height as Yoichiro, and her tall nose was very close to Yoichiro's face.

"My Mao, your face is so bad, is there a way to work?" "Is it that... bad?" Yoichiro couldn't help reaching out and touching his face.Takeuchi raised his bangs while saying "Yes, yes, yes". "It's bad. People who don't know you must think you are sick when they see you." Takeuchi's speech is still so majestic, completely like a man, and his voice is quite masculine, probably more majestic than men these days. Takeuchi is a classmate of Yoichiro and Shuicheng in school days.After graduating from the graduate school, he worked in a research institute in Tokyo, but now returns to the Sagami Medical University Hospital as a psychiatrist.

"Did you sleep at night?" "Well, don't worry. I couldn't sleep for a while, but I'm fine now. I asked Teacher Tiandi to prescribe some Xinlexin for me." "Silver?" "Yes, Yin Han." Yoichiro took Halcion (0.25 mg per tablet), and the tin foil is silver, so it is commonly known as Yinhao.As for Hanlexin, which is only half the dose, it is wrapped in golden tinfoil, commonly known as Jinhan.However, this common name is only popular among young people who use drugs and university students who do not know the terrible power of these drugs.Takeuchi is probably the only one who uses this title among doctors.

"When reducing the dosage, you must gradually reduce it. If you quit suddenly, the withdrawal symptoms will make you unable to sleep at all. Teacher Tian Di should have told you?" "I know that too." "makes sense." Takeuchi smiled lightly, and the two arms under the white robe crossed in front of his chest.After a moment of silence, she avoided Yoichiro's gaze and said: "What happened to Sakueda, I'm really sorry." "Well... But, she didn't go too painfully at the last moment, so it's the only salvation." "Salvation..., to you?"

"Ah, uh..." It was just a question without deep meaning, but it pierced deeply into Yoichiro's chest.Yoichiro ruminated on the meaning behind what he said just now.Perhaps it was because of the morphine that Sakueda lay on the hospital bed with a very peaceful expression when he was dying, and he seemed to be in no pain at all.In such a state, at a certain moment, her heart suddenly stopped beating.The responsible physician said that perhaps this is the most ideal end-of-life approach for terminal cancer patients.Yoichiro remembers nodding his head in agreement. But for whom is this ideal?Without feeling the slightest pain, who is the salvation for?

"Sorry, I have no other meaning, forget what I just said." Takeuchi panicked rather rarely.Yoichiro smiled back at her. "It doesn't matter, don't mind..., being troubled by other people's words like this, it can be seen that the situation is much better. When Sakieda just died, I felt as if I was dead too. My head was so empty that I couldn't think about anything. .” "I feel like I'm dead too..." Takeuchi stroked his lips with his fingers, lost in thought. "At the crematorium where Sakueda was cremated, I remembered the patient with Cotta's syndrome. You should remember it? It was the patient who insisted that he was dead."

"Ah, that young female patient? The patient we met when Mr. Tian Di took us to visit the neurology department." "Yes, we were not doctors at that time, and we were all graduate students. The woman's eyes were completely dull, right? I thought it was incredible at the time, why a person would have that kind of eyes. But now, I seem to be able to understand When I was holding Sakie's ashes, I thought to myself that the look in that woman's eyes might come from my current mood." "I am Mao..." Takeuchi stared at Yoichiro, seemingly surprised.Her lips trembled slightly, but she hesitated to speak.It seemed that she wanted to say something, but held back.

"What's wrong?" "No...it's nothing." Takeuchi smiled lightly, shrugged and said, "However, Sakie lying in the coffin looks very beautiful." "Yeah, it looks like she's asleep. Thank you... for coming to the farewell ceremony. You haven't seen Sakie for so long, she must be very happy in the coffin." "Will she be... happy?" Takeuchi looked away with a wry smile, stared at the direction where there was nothing, and sighed emptily.Muttering in a barely audible voice: "I gave you to her in vain..." Takeuchi and Yoichiro once dated when they were students.When Sakie entered university, the two of them hadn't broken up yet, but at that time there was already a rift between the two, and it wasn't because of Sakie's relationship that they broke up.

"It's not a question of letting go or not." "Right." The two fell into silence.Yoichiro quickly changed the subject: "By the way, why are there three TV station interview cars parked outside the door?" "Ah, that's right. It seems that I'm here to cover some news. I'm new here too, so I don't know..." At this time, Tian Di walked quickly from the depths of the corridor and approached the two of them. "I'm Shigeru, Takeuchi." The appearance of the field looked quite panicked.He stopped beside Yoichiro and Takeuchi, put his bald head between them, and asked in a low voice:

"Have you heard..." Tada glanced at the two of them, but seemed to stay on Yoichiro's face for a long time.The two shook their heads blankly.Tian Di stroked his white beard, and said in a lower voice than before: "The wife of Shuicheng... committed suicide." Yoichiro was so surprised that he forgot to breathe.Hui died?committed suicide? "Jumped from the top of the university's research building last night." He was speechless, not knowing what to say. Takeuchi pointed at the wall with a questioning expression.On the other side of the wall is the direction of the five-story research building.Tian Di's jaw shrank, confirming her doubts.Tian Di, who always had a gentle expression and loose eyelids, now opened his eyes wide, and the whites of his eyes were bloodshot. "That guy..., where is Shuicheng now?" Yoichiro put his hand on Tianji's white robe and asked with a voice. "It should be at home, I don't know too well. It seems that he called the school this morning..." At this moment, Takeuchi's name sounded on the hospital radio.Takeuchi gave a soft "tsk", turned to Tiandi and said: "Sorry, Teacher Tian, ​​I have to go. If there is any news, please let me know. I will also ask my friends in the laboratory for details." "Understood...ah, Takeuchi, wait a minute." The field is close to Takeuchi. "Don't panic. As a doctor, you must remain calm at all times. Of course, I believe that with your strength, you shouldn't need others to worry about it." Takeuchi nodded slightly, turned and left.Tian Di stroked the white beard with his fingertips, silently watching her back. "I think Takeuchi shouldn't be too flustered. Although she and Shuicheng are good friends, she and Hui only met a few times when they were graduate students. What is worrying is..." Tada turned to look at Yoichiro with a worried expression. "You... don't matter? Don't your whole family have friendship with the Shuicheng family?" "I'm fine. But, Teacher Tiandi, I want to ask you for help." "What's up?" "I want to go to Shuicheng's house. I have already asked for a week's leave, and now I am making such a request. I am really sorry..." "Ah, it is indeed more appropriate to do so. You go and see him, I believe it can give him some encouragement." "I'll go now, okay?" "Don't worry, I'll explain it to you at the hospital." Yoichiro bowed deeply to Tada, and then quickly added two sentences: "As for my patients... Teacher Tiandi, I'm really sorry, can you please replace me for another day? Please rest assured that I don't have many patients, and there are no patients with complicated conditions." Hearing Yoichiro's words, Tada showed a puzzled expression for a moment. "Teacher Tian Di, please." "Well... I see." After a while, Tian Di nodded with embarrassment. "There is no other way. Anyway, go to Shuicheng's house to see him." Yoichiro bowed again to Tachi to express his thanks, and then ran towards the exit of the hospital hall.