Chapter 4 Section 4 Shuicheng Hui

Sunday, May 14, at 9:01 p.m. Standing on the top floor of the research building of Sagami Medical University, Kei let out a trembling breath.The stars in the night sky shone brightly overhead, and in Hui's eyes, these lights were so cold. Since when did you find yourself having the urge to commit suicide? No matter in the bathroom, toilet, on the train... Whenever I am alone, the picture of cutting my wrist with a knife will appear in my head.When did this phenomenon start? There is only one reason why Hui chose to end his life in this place.She wanted to leave a scar in someone's heart that would never heal.

How would Shuicheng feel after seeing the suicide note at home?It's a pity that I couldn't see his expression. "Are you looking for a man?" Her husband's words echoed in Hui's mind.That husband who completely disregarded his family and was still facing a desk in a certain room of this building. "Are you looking for another man?" Sometimes, Shuicheng would go home earlier than Hui, as if he was conducting a random inspection on Hui, seeing Hui who came back later than himself, Shuicheng would definitely say something like this—to find a man?Looking for a man again?

Megumi didn't look for any man at all, she just worked hard.But no matter how she explained, Shuicheng didn't even look at her, but the corners of his mouth drooped, showing a contemptuous expression. Hui couldn't take it anymore, and couldn't bear this kind of life anymore.She can survive until today, all because of her only daughter Aki, for herself, and for her friends who are fighting desperately with the disease and are getting thinner day by day. "Sakie..." If she is still alive, she must be willing to listen to Hui's complaints.Ever since she was a student, Sakieda has always been willing to talk to Hui at any time.Sakie always listens to every word of Hui with empathy, no matter how trivial the problem is, no matter how small the trouble is.Although Sakie won't express any clear opinions, her words can always soothe Kei's heart.Kei always hoped that her relationship with Sakieda would last forever.

However, the wind of impermanence blows brutally. The wind brought cancer cells and took away Sakie's life. "Are you reading again?" Hui thought back to visiting her in the ward a month ago.Sakie shyly picked up a well-worn library book next to the pillow, and handed it to Kei.The collection of short stories by Kenji Miyazawa is Sakieda's favorite book since he was a student.Sakieda once told Kei that whenever she felt tired or had something unsatisfactory, she would pick up this book and read it.And every time she reads, it is always this short story. "Actually, I almost memorized the content."

Sakieda showed a weak smile, which was even more distressing than a blank face.A bitter, pungent smell wafted from her mouth, which was the unique smell of a person whose internal organs had been eroded.Huishen believes that this peculiar smell is a proof that a person desperately wants to live. When she was a freshman in college, when she heard Sakieda talk about it for the first time, Megumi only had a slight impression of the title.Probably read it in a picture book when I was a child, or taught it by a school teacher.However, Kei could not remember the content of the story at all.After being recommended by Sakieda, Kei ordered a copy of the same collection of short stories from the sales department of the university.Soon, it became Hui's favorite story in this world.Hui keeps short story collections in the corner of the bookcase at home, and whenever he is unhappy, he will pick them up and read them.Every time, Hui can always soothe the pain in his heart, perhaps because he can feel the existence of friends behind the story.

Nightjar (よだか, yodaka) is a nocturnal bird smaller than a pigeon.It is said that the correct pronunciation should be yotaka.It is mentioned in the story that the nighthawk is very ugly, and other birds will feel disgusted as soon as they see the nighthawk's face, which makes the nighthawk have long been ridiculed and scorned by everyone.The green-eyed chick was rescued by nighthawks when it fell from the nest, but green-eyed snatched it back in a hurry, like a snatched child from a robber. One night, Nighthawk finally made up his mind that it wanted to let its body shine like a star in the night sky, even if it was burned to death, it would not hesitate.So, the Nighthawk kept circling in the sky, praying to the stars, but the stars didn't pay any attention.Every star thinks Nighthawk is a fool, and refuses to grant his wish.Finally, the nighthawk had to fold its wings and fell to the ground.However, just when the nighthawk was only a foot away from the ground, it suddenly flew straight into the sky, flying far, far away.Nighthawk looked up to the sky with tears in his eyes, and that was his last moment, knowing that he had become a beautiful blue light that was burning.

Since then, the Nighthawk star has been burning, burning forever and ever.Until now, it still continues to burn. This is the epilogue of the story, without any concrete ending, the moral is also ambiguous, and it is even questionable whether such a creature really exists.Even so, Hui still likes this story very much. It is precisely because it can be read from various angles that it has the charm that continues to shake the soul. "Nighthawk is finally happy, isn't he?" In the end, Nighthawk finally fulfilled his wish, away from the ruthless reality, and became a beautiful star.

Kei took a step towards the low railing in front of her. Just then— "Please take me away." Hui heard whispers from beside her. "Please take me to your side." Megumi turned her head and looked behind her. In the corner of her vision, the stars blurred by tears began to shake and flew in the opposite direction of her vision.At that moment, Hui Wanru saw countless shooting stars. A minute later, Kei's body fell from the top floor to the ground.