Chapter 11 second quarter

The autumn festival finally came, and that night we first gathered at the dark embankment as agreed.Then, I left S and the other three, walked alone across the nearby bridge, and headed to the bustling opposite bank lined up with vendors. The "Night Fox" at W Inari Shrine is in full swing.On two green bamboos more than ten meters high, two young men in white costumes were wearing the masks of a male fox and a female fox, performing dangerous stunts.As long as they show particularly thrilling moves, after a beat behind, there will be grand cheers all around.I put my hands in the pockets of my student trousers and walked quietly through it, with a plastic fox mask I bought from a street vendor hanging on my right wrist.When I really want to implement the plan, I am going to wear it so as not to reveal my appearance.Moreover, because I can't let the other party see that I am wearing a student uniform, I wear a dirty and old overalls over a white shirt.I stole it from a construction site near the Mikoshi warehouse beforehand.

Maybe, the owner of this overalls will happen to see me in the crowd and come to question me, and maybe beat me up depending on the situation, so I have to give up the idea of ​​carrying out the plan.My cowardly heart still seeks escape. I stopped suddenly. There is a girl in front of the line of sight. The girl was wearing a red yukata with a butterfly pattern, far away from the crowd, standing bored in a corner of the shrine.My heart was pounding inside my ribs, and I could almost hear it in my ears.The girl raised her head suddenly, and I immediately looked away, looking up at the actors of "Xiaohu".However, before I looked away—and before she met mine, I had a full view of her lovely face.She has a straight nose and big eyes. Although she looks mature, she should be only fourteen or five years old.The shoulder-length black hair, the red belt, and the clog laces of the same color that set off the bare feet are clearly imprinted in my mind.I stared at the white-clothed fox on the green bamboo doing all I could, and noticed that my legs were shivering from the cold.I pushed the girl down on the floor of the shrine cabin, sniffed the soft fragrance with my nose, pushed the girl's slender legs away from my body, and roughly pressed her mouth that was trying to call for help with my palm... I suddenly came back to my senses, and my sight was gone. Return to the girl.

She didn't pay attention to this side, nor did she watch "Xiaohu"'s stunts, she just let the autumn night wind blow her hair, and kept staring at her toes.what is she looking atWhat is she thinking?Soon, she suddenly raised her head and looked to the right.A girl of the same age in an orange bathrobe approached with a smile.The girl smiled back innocently, and the two chatted happily before leaving the shrine together and disappearing into the streets lined with vendors. I was sweating profusely. Impossible, I thought to myself. I can't do it. can't do it. The boring lectures at school, and the aunt serving beef stewed rice in the dormitory restaurant, for some reason, made me feel very nostalgic and far away.I don't want to do this, I'm so scared.

I flew away from the shrine, pushing past the crowd, passing one after another vendor.The surrounding noise became more and more blurred, and gradually condensed into a series of simple voices.In my heart, it was not a hustle and bustle of human voices, but closer to silence. Tell the truth to those three people waiting on the embankment!Tell them clearly that I can't do it, and honestly I can't do it anyway.There is no need to lie, there is no point in bluffing.On this day, for the first time, I realized that there is a line that cannot be crossed. However, to this day, I am still deeply moved, how I wish human emotions could be so pure.

Knowing that there is a line that cannot be crossed, he braked in time and did not do anything bad.How I wish such a logical, self-cleaning fairy tale could really happen that night. A line that cannot be crossed.That line has another meaning to me who just turned eighteen.On the way back to the dark side, I became aware that, with each passing second, the fantasies that had just arisen in the shrine were stirring in the deepest part of my sweaty, pale belly.I really can't contain this commotion, even if I try not to remember, even if I try to forget, I still can't do anything.Pressing the girl's slender body under me, the tender fragrance, the faint mourning, these unreasonable thoughts spread silently in my heart like a large group of black bugs, and soon densely covered the entire surface.Even so, the black worms with nowhere to go continued to proliferate, finally biting through a layer of membrane, gushing out from the inside.

I stopped abruptly in front of the bridge. Deep in the ears, blood vessels gurgled. The field of vision also flickers on and off. The hustle and bustle of the festival is far behind, and there is no one around. Except for the only blue bathrobe walking in front of my back. That's a woman.A slender figure of a woman is heading towards the darkness, and the slight sound of clogs slowly crosses the bridge.Don't go there, I cried in my heart.Can't go alone,.Where are you going?There was nothing on the other side of the bridge, not even pedestrians, only the unlucky kind of sedan chair.The woman didn't stop, she lowered her head and moved forward slowly.She didn't know that there was a young man with crazy blood behind him who had opened his eyes wide.

She was long-haired and slender, and seemed older than I was, but still very young. I turned around quickly.nobody,. The black worms in the body swarmed and spread their wings.The volume of the TV that seemed to be disturbed by snowflakes was turned up in one breath, and the sound of insects rustling their wings was deafening.I gritted my teeth and ran, roaring in a low voice, while covering my face with the fox mask hanging on my right wrist. Through the two small holes, the figure of the woman in the bathrobe quickly grew in size.When she noticed the approaching footsteps, she turned her head suddenly, and the astonished expression was already in front of my eyes.Her red lips, which were about to scream, were covered by my strength, and her thin legs, which were trying to escape, were forced to drag along the asphalt road by my brute force.Her fragile bones squeezed in my arms.

The Mikoshi storehouse is right next to it.I didn't care about S and the others who were watching from the dark embankment, and I just pushed her into the iron gate wholeheartedly.The crow on the roof flew away with a heavy flapping sound.I rushed into the warehouse. She was pressed on the dusty concrete floor, and she stopped resisting on the way, her head swayed weakly with my movements, her expressionless eyes like glass stared at mid-air, and her consciousness flew elsewhere.Even so, she still wanted to kill the crazy man twitching above her belly.The moonlight penetrated into the gap of the iron door at the entrance, lightly shining on her exhausted upper body.On the ring finger of her left hand, the ring inlaid with small gemstones shone slightly.

After returning to the dormitory that night, I realized one thing. When I committed the terrible crime in the mikoshi warehouse, S and his gang were not on the embankment.Long before I attacked the girls, they were discovered by patrolling teachers and brought back to the dormitory. I lied to them that I couldn't do it, that I didn't do anything because I didn't have the guts. They raised the corners of their mouths and made fun of me wordlessly. We didn't mention it again until graduation. Half a year later, I was admitted to a private university in Tokyo and worked in a small publishing house after graduation.

So, twenty years passed.