Chapter 26 Chapter 26 Female Heart

With a pale face, Yan Wan tightly hugged the child in her arms with a look of reluctance.She couldn't be more clear, from now on, if the emperor thinks of this child, he will visit Concubine Ying.It's better to be raised in Elder Brother's house, he can buy a lot of good words from the wet nurse, and attract the emperor to come to see him.If she went to Concubine Ying's place, which wet nurse would dare to speak out.In the end, my own blood became a wedding dress for others.She yelled sadly: "Impossible! Eunuch Li, please tell the emperor, Concubine Ying has never given birth since she was young, and she has to accompany Shengjia all the time, where is she going to have time to raise the child, she should stay here in this palace."

Li Yugong bowed his head, and said calmly: "The emperor wants to send the seventh princess to a high-ranking lady, just because he is afraid that the young master will lose face. Although the empress is the first mother, Mrs. Wei did those things. Why is the emperor willing to make it difficult for the empress to raise the young master's child. Even the three young masters, Concubine Chun, Concubine Qi, and Concubine Yu, waved their hands when they heard this, saying that they really didn't dare! Well, the emperor has a thousand choices, and he is worried about the princess. For the future, I chose Concubine Ying anyway. If you still think it is not possible, then the slave has to go back to the emperor, you can just listen to the emperor's disposition."

Yan Wan had been by the emperor's side for a long time, so she naturally understood the benefits and harms of Li Yu's words, so she endured and endured, so she could only mourn: "Eunuch Li, is there no other way?" Li Yu shook his head and said: "The emperor is willing to bother to find a adoptive mother for the Seventh Princess, that is his dedication." As soon as he lifted his chin, the two little maids knew how powerful they were, so they greeted her swiftly, and hugged Yan Wan from Yan Wan's arms After the baby, go to call the wet nurses to follow. When Yan Wan saw this, she wanted to cry.Li Yu smiled and said: "Don't worry, my lord. The ancestor set such a rule in the hope that the concubines can serve the emperor better and not be dragged away by the children's favor. You, don't cry, your eyes are damaged by crying. How do you serve the emperor?" After saying that, he hugged the princess and took his leave.

Yan Wan choked, wanting to cry but no tears.Grace, how can she expect grace, even the last way to win mercy has been taken away, and she has to bear such heart-wrenching words for life.She sobbed softly, looking at the sky speechlessly: "Emiang, I can't help it, I really can't do it..." Seeing that she was sad, Lan Cui hurriedly handed her a silk cloth to wipe her, and hurriedly persuaded her: "My lord, I have told you that you can't cry during the confinement period, it will hurt your eyes." As she spoke, she anxiously looked at Chun Chan beside her: "Usually you are the best at persuading the young master, why don't you make a sound today!"

Chun Chan stood by the door, and the dark red lacquered door outlined her figure in dark blue plain clothes, which was particularly eye-catching and tall.She stood on the sidelines: "The young master is now a strong man. It is painful for a strong man to break his wrist, but only pain can remind him that he is still alive. Have you forgotten the days when you and your servants suffered in the greenhouse? You have already survived the pain of flesh and blood. The pain of leaving the mourning, the little master will no longer be afraid." Yan Wan burst into tears: "A strong man cuts off his wrist?"

Chun Chan said firmly: "Yes. The young master is willing to give up his wife, the glory outside the palace, from the servants in the conservatory to the maids in the Qixiang Palace, and from the position of official lady, all for what? Not for others Yes, only for myself." She said firmly, "It's all for my own honor, which is also the reason why the servants are so determined to follow you, we all hope for your own well-being. Your natal family, your mother-in-law and younger brother, in fact, can't help you to put it bluntly I don't care about the little master, even my wife is partial, and she just spoils my uncle and young master blindly with the help of the young master."

Yan Wan murmured: "Yes. The emperor doesn't like the illustrious family of concubines the most, even if they are more publicized. Rather than this, it's better to break it cleanly." Her eyes gradually became clear, "Alone, no one to rely on, only then can you get married?" Stay close to the emperor." Chun Chan took a bottle of sapphire ointment from the ivory dressing table and handed it to Yan Wan, and said softly: "I heard from Mammy that women in confinement have both energy and blood deficiency, and their faces are puffy and their eyes are swollen. It's the same as before." She glanced at Lan Cui, "Lan Cui, don't you congratulate the young master?"

Lan Cui didn't know it, and said strangely: "Congratulations?" Chunchan said with a firm smile: "The little master has always wanted to have children and has spent many years on this. Now that he has fulfilled his wish and gave birth to a princess, we know that the little master is healthy and will have no problems in the future. And the folks say that first blooms and then bears fruit. If the Lord can give birth to a princess, he can give birth to a prince." Yan Wan's complexion gradually became firm: "That's right. As long as I can still get the emperor's favor, I will be able to give birth to a prince one day." She was suddenly discouraged, "But although the mother is charged with the crime, the emperor will not I will love me again."

Chun Chan took a small gilt-bronze plantain mirror to look at Yan Wan, and said with a smile: "Look at the mirror, although the princess was only three days old after giving birth to the princess, and she suffered from the loss of her mother, her appearance has not diminished. Zeng Chuchu is pitiful. The emperor loves this kind of weak beauty the most. As long as Xiong Azhu calms down and takes good care of her, she will definitely look better than before. As for the princess..." She smiled slightly, "Send it to Concubine Ying. Well, Concubine Ying doesn't have any children of her own, so she won't miss the princess, and she has a quick temper, so I'm afraid she has some busy work."

Yan Wan brushed aside the messy and drooping hair with her fingers, and her mind gradually settled down: "When a person is about to die, his words are also kind. What Er Niang said is right, the queen has cut off the glory of the palace and the hope of the family. Er Niang is dead. , the family is gone, but as long as I am left, it is not over!" Midsummer is over, and the weather is getting cooler.The emperor came to Yikun Palace for more and more days, and the days seemed to be back to the unsalty time before, just like those stormy waves and ups and downs, never happened. Looking up, the pink is in its prime, flowing in the red wall and green garden.

Hailan still often came to chat with Ruyi, and the two stood side by side under the verandah, overlooking the ridge and cornices of the palace, overlapping like light ink-colored distant mountains, watching the yellow leaves falling and falling. Hailan saw that the emperor was still so generous, humble and self-restraining, as if he had never experienced the embarrassment and embarrassment of the Punishment Department.She was so indifferent, the emperor felt a little embarrassed, rewarded her repeatedly, and cared for her and Yongqi.However, Hailan smiled at the dazzling array of rewards: "The concubine has served the emperor for many years, and sometimes her teeth are knocked on her tongue, let alone getting along for a long time. If the emperor doesn't mention it, the concubine will forget about it." In this way, the emperor respected Hailan even more besides talking about it. When there was no one around, Ruyi laughed at her: "Can you really be innocent and forget the pain of being wronged?" Hai Lan raised her eyebrows: "Of course not, I have never forgotten. All my hard work, glory and loneliness are all thanks to him. I must be grateful, engraved in my heart, and never forget it for the rest of my life." She looked at Ruyi, quite inquiring It means, "Since the death of the thirteenth elder brother, after the turmoil, the elder sister seems to be different to the emperor?" "How can it be different? It's just that I understand that your persuasion for many years will eventually come true. Many couples are ruthless and loveless, and they can live an ordinary life. To save love and entanglement, the more you care, the deeper the hurt." Ruyi stretched out her hand to catch a falling piece of land. The yellow leaves on the branches, the fragile touch that was about to shatter made her feel very sad, "We have been married for many years, sometimes the emperor is so suspicious, it is really chilling." "Couple for many years?" Hailan stared blankly. "It's cats and dogs. They have been raising them for decades, and they have some affection." Why did the emperor trust others because he has never been in bed and has nothing to do with the world? It is only because Yongqi has grown up day by day. .” Ruyi thinks of Yonghuang's untimely death, and she can't help but feel tears streaming down her eyes: "A tree that is beautiful in the forest, the wind will destroy it. Born in the royal family, it is not good to be too mediocre, but if you stand out, it is also a heart disease. " Hailan nodded and took Ruyi's arm: "Sister, I originally thought that I was born with a small surname and had no family background, so I wanted to marry a talented Fujin for Yongqi who was born in a family, which would be helpful. Come, I'm afraid it won't work." Ruyi was touched, and quickly said: "You are very right. The family background is too prominent, so it is inevitable to rely on the power of the mother's family, but if the family is too poor, Yongqi will be wronged. I understand your thoughts, it is nothing more than showing weakness to the emperor , which shows that Yongqi keeps his own place." Hailan sighed: "Although the emperor and I dare not call each other husband and wife, we are still concubines. I have to maintain our relationship in the way of a monarch and a minister, and I am really tired." She looked into Ruyi's eyes, "But I know , my sister is more difficult than me. My grievance is nothing more than being wronged, but my sister has really suffered the pain of bereavement, and is also neglected and suspected by the emperor. Can my sister really let it go? Otherwise, it will be hard work to force a smile every day. " Will it be hard?Ruyi didn't answer, but asked herself.When facing each other day and night, he and her are polite and gentle, more and more like a couple who have been together for a long time, understand each other's bottom line, and don't touch it lightly.That's because I know too well that many ulcers are rotten there, which can't be saved or cured, and a touch will hurt the bones and hurt the heart.I had to pretend not to see it, to pretend it didn't exist. Therefore, it is not considered a forced smile, but knowing that this is the only way to resist the gradual alienation and distrust after the pain. Yongzhen grew up gradually, and the emperor urged him more and more.After dinner, I have to do my homework in person, and every ten days, I will teach equestrian martial arts in person, and I am a loving father. In this way, people's hearts are more stable. Ever since Prince Duanhui and the seventh elder brother died early, the emperor loved the fourth elder brother, and even his biological mother, the imperial concubine Shujia, was very popular and turned upside down in the harem.Then the fourth elder brother fell out of favor, and the fifth elder brother Yongqi won the emperor's trust and reliance, and it was Ruyi who raised him under his knees, which attracted people's hearts and minds, and it was inevitable that he was regarded as the prince.Now that Ruyi's own son is taken care of by the emperor so carefully, it falls into the eyes of outsiders. After all, he was born in the middle palace.But as a biological mother, Ruyi knows that Yongzheng is young and weak. After experiencing the turmoil of bereavement and the warmth and coldness of human relations, the little child has become more taciturn, learning literary and martial arts, she is not as good as Yonghuang and Yongqi when they were young So smart and agile. When there was no one around, the husband and wife whispered on the pillow, and Ruyi couldn't help but sigh: "Speaking of civil and military talents, although Yongzheng has been carefully trained by the emperor, compared to Yongqi back then, his qualifications seem mediocre." The emperor stroked her face with a smile, and said gently: "Where is there such a mother as you, others are partial to your own son, and it's too late, but you praise others all the time, how big is Yongxi, and how old is Yongqi, you can't do it." It's like this!" Ruyi spat lightly, leaned in the emperor's arms, and let a strand of blue silk drag her: "Why are others not others, Yongqi, Yongxuan, which one is not the son of a concubine?" The emperor took her into his arms, and laughed loudly: "It is my blessing to have a queen like this." Ruyi saw that he was in high spirits, and it was the best time to talk, so he said, "Parents love their sons, and they have far-reaching plans. The emperor loves Yongzheng, and the concubine is certainly happy, but the concubine is his mother-in-law. Others know better. Yong Xi, his talent is not as good as Yong Qi, and even Yong Huang was not as talented back then." The emperor was quite surprised: "I love my son, why do you think so well?" Ruyi said with emotion: "The emperor loves him, and the courtiers are very happy, but they are afraid that they love him too much. The books that the courtiers read to Yongzheng these days are mostly the way of the king to govern the country. Yongzheng is still young. Not to mention, in the eyes of others, it would be regarded as the emperor's intention to establish a crown prince, but instead, a lot of unnecessary right and wrong came into being." The emperor also sighed when he heard the words: "When I was young, I thought about the benefits of my son, and thought that if there were many brothers, my son would be the most justified. Now that I am a father, I am getting older, but I also realize that it is right for the country to rely on the elder. But what is it? ..." Ruyi said softly: "The lessons of the old ancestors are the best, and the country depends on the elder. It is even better if the elders stand up to the virtuous." She said modestly: "Your Majesty, women are not allowed to interfere in politics, and concubines have no intentions." The emperor smiled and hugged her: "Ruyi, you didn't interfere in politics. You are the queen I chose, and you know how to say the most appropriate words and do the most appropriate things at the most appropriate time. I hope you will always be like this." Ruyi smiled gracefully: "So there is something that I have to mention." The emperor kissed her forehead lightly, and lazily said: "What's important, even the gentle whispers by the pillow can't be worth it." Ruyi half-raised her shoulders, avoiding the green beard stubble he was after: "Your Majesty, Yonghuang and Yonglian died young, Yongzhang and Yongxuan left the palace to build a mansion, and the other gave birth to an heir, but they have already married. Now that Yong Qi is an adult, it's time to start a family and start a business. Has the Emperor ever thought about what kind of Fujin he should choose for him?" The emperor frowned and looked at her with a smile: "Concubine Yu mentioned it to me once, saying that she came from a humble background and dared not marry a daughter-in-law of a noble family, as long as she has a good character. Yong Qi, what are your plans?" Ruyi smiled: "The emperor is a loving father, so there is no one who is not thoughtful enough, so he has to come to test the concubine." She pondered for a while, "The concubine doesn't like to listen to Concubine Yu's words, and her family background is often involved, and even Yongqi feels humble. According to my concubines, Fujin must be outstanding in virtue and speech to be worthy of Yong Qi. As for family status, it should be neither high nor low, as long as it is a good match." The emperor couldn't help laughing: "We are already the royal family, but we still need to be a good match. How can there be such a good family background? You, I still prefer Yongqi in my heart." Ruyi tilted her face, her blue silk drooping softly: "Your majesty's words don't like to be listened to by my concubines. Didn't my concubine and the emperor carefully select Yongzhang's Fujin? Concubine Chun is happy when she sees a few daughters-in-law." The emperor twisted her strands of black hair on his fingers, and said with concentration: "I have thought about Yongqi's marriage carefully, and I have already found an excellent candidate, the granddaughter of Ertai, the daughter of Ebi, governor of Sichuan, Xilin Jue. Roche." Ruyi was taken aback when she heard the words, and forced a smile: "E Ertai is the assistant minister left to the emperor by the late emperor. He was supposed to enjoy the Taimiao and enter the Xianliang Temple. If he hadn't been implicated by Hu Zhongzao, he would not have been withdrawn from the Xianliang I even lost the life of my nephew E Chang, and made the whole clan anxious." She quietly looked at the emperor: "Marrying the daughter of such a family..." The emperor smiled generously: "It's just right. Yongqi married Ertai's granddaughter, on the one hand, to show the magnanimity of the heavenly family and not to care about the past; Otherwise, such a family has very strict family precepts, and the daughters they teach must be good, and they will not be arrogant and arrogant." Ruyi thinks so, and has no choice but to admire the emperor's thoughtfulness.If it weren't for such a veteran, how could he be worthy of Yong Qi.Moreover, he is an old minister who has been suppressed before. Even if he is grateful for the finger marriage, he will not attach himself to the wing and form a clique for personal gain. He looked at his face with his eyes closed and meditating, and for a moment, he felt familiar and strange.It was still that face, she witnessed with her own eyes every detail of his gradual maturity and aging.But it is so strange, maybe she still loves this person, this skin, but his heart is no longer what it used to be.The former love gradually withered, just as she became more and more aware that maybe he is really the pride of the generation, but, he is really not a loving husband. Perhaps, this kind of understanding is also a kind of vigilance. She will grow old and estranged from him like this, and will no longer have the love and trust that she had when she was young. What age destroys is not only the full and abundant youth, but also everything that he and she once cherished most. The life in the palace is peaceful and uneventful, if one gets used to it, one day at a time, it is very easy to pass the day by day.But it is the most difficult for those who have been favored but lost. Nagato took one step at a time, refusing to return to the car temporarily.Even with the loneliness of the pool hall, the orchid chrysanthemum withered.So far, the palace chariot has passed by, and there is no more luck. Yan Wan, that's it. Her fall from favor, as the Seventh Princess was raised under Concubine Ying's knees, she turned into a steep rock protruding from the water, which was obvious to everyone.It's not that she didn't think of a way, but she was politely rejected by Jin Zhong: "Why bother to touch such a thorn, the young master, last time the slave accidentally mentioned a word, the emperor gave the slave a slap, luckily the master didn't hear it, and the empress was not around, Otherwise, the servant's life would have been gone long ago." It's not that she didn't ask the queen mother, she simply closed the door and disappeared, but it was Fu Jia who came out and sighed: "The queen mother keeps the young master, just to keep a gentle and talkative person by the emperor's side. Such a thing happened. As a result, the young master decided to do it on his own, and not only did it, but also did such a dirty trick, and worked with your foolish mother in the palace. The queen mother is now devoting herself to cultivating Buddhism, and she can't listen to such dirty things, young master You still don’t need to come to say goodbye.” Yan Wan also thought about singing the curling Kunqu opera again, to attract the kindness and pity of the past.But as soon as she sang, Concubine Ying still sent someone: "Concubine Ling wants to sing, don't do it at this time, your own daughter, Princess Seven, can't hear these movements. When you cry later, the emperor will blame you, but call our Concubine Ying What's the matter? My lord suffers for you, but you are happy, the emperor knows, how can he blame you?" Yan Wan listened to Mammy's righteous words, so she could only shut her mouth with a smile and said: "Sister Yingying has just brought up a child, so I'm afraid I won't be used to it, so I personally made some children's clothes, and asked Mammy to send them to the princess." Mother Pian smiled all over her face, but she was unwilling to accommodate: "Although the emperor didn't say it clearly, the Ministry of Internal Affairs has got the news. Although the young master is a concubine, some expenses in the palace are paid by the officials. The young master himself is very tight." Baba, why bother to worry about the princess, everything is for the concubine." If you bear it again, there will always be opportunities to find. After the Mid-Autumn Festival is Chongyang, it is the day when His Majesty Hegong sees to celebrate for the Empress Dowager, and the emperor will naturally come.She vaguely remembered that the former concubine Shu, Yehenara Yihuan, was singing a clear song when the chrysanthemums were blooming on the Double Ninth Festival, soaring above the clouds. Yan Wan got ready two days earlier, took out the new clothes she hadn't worn yet, and looked at herself in front of the gilded silver mirror.After trying on only two pieces, Chunchan persuaded: "My lord, these two new clothes were sanctioned last year and I haven't had time to wear them yet. This year's new ones, the Ministry of Internal Affairs has been delaying to send them." She could hear Chunchan's difficulties, because of her falling out of favor, the Ministry of Internal Affairs had already stopped sending out seasonal clothes and jewelry.The only two new clothes left are actually old clothes.The silk fabrics used in the palace are clouds that move around in the sky, and the wind blows the clouds away. Every day there are new stitches and bright patterns, which fascinate people's eyes and make them hard to see. After the death of Empress Xiaoxian, the women in the harem refused to be so simple.Even the emperor, who is also a man of extravagance, loves them like flowers blooming ostentatiously, each flower is hazy and blurred, and every day is better than yesterday's appearance.The same is true for Ruyi, she is a lady who grew up among the splendid brocades, she has never seen anything rare, she doesn't care about anything, and she rarely restrains concubines on clothing, jewelry, and utensils, so they meet each other every day , all inexhaustible ingenuity. Last year's clothes, if people see them, they will definitely make a joke. Women's competition for splendor is a matter of every penny and every penny.One inch long, one point short, small and trivial, but extremely serious and dedicated. Therefore, Yan Wan became more careful. Although the clothes are the same as the old ones, she is not afraid of Huadian jadeite, as long as the water is full and the color is transparent, people dare not underestimate it.And her current status, although she is still a concubine, is the role of an official woman, and she must not lose her appearance outside, but must not be publicized.It was so easy to choose a brocade gown with light orange petals, red buds and chrysanthemum stamens, and a silver-patterned brocade robe, all-colored tender green emerald twisted silk luan phoenix flower tin, dotted with scattered demantoid rice flower bead hairpins, but it is also so beautiful that it can be retracted freely and implicitly. Gentle. Waiting for Yan Wan to dress up appropriately, looking forward to the arrival of the chariot and sedan chair, it was Jin Zhong who was embarrassed.His boots rubbed against the entrance of the hall and refused to come any closer.Yan Wan happily said: "Jin Zhong, did the Emperor ask you to come pick me up?" Jin Zhong shook his head bitterly, looked at Yan Wan's beautiful makeup, and said, "Don't worry about it, my master, you don't have to go to the Double Ninth Night Banquet tonight." Yan Wan became anxious immediately, and the blush floated over the rouge, and she forced her to come out: "Why? Today is the day when His Majesty Hegong will see you. I will toast and kowtow to the Empress Dowager, and the Emperor will also come." Jinzhong's face became more and more yellow, Qiqi Ai said: "My lord, there is no seat arranged for you at the banquet tonight. You..." It's like pouring ice water on your head in the twelfth lunar month, it's bone-chillingly cold.The water-pink willow shade oriole flower pot under his feet became unsteady and nearly fell to the ground, but Jin Zhong quickly held it up: "Master, next time, there will always be a next time." Yan Wan still refused to give up, clutching Jin Zhong's sleeves, and asked foolishly: "Did the emperor specially ask you to tell this palace?" Jin Zhong shook his head: "No. The servant is afraid that you don't know, and if you lose it rashly, it will make people laugh." Yan Wan clung on to Jin Zhong, her eyes straightened: "Jin Zhong, is there any way, is there any? There is a three-point love when we meet, the emperor will forgive me when he sees Ben Gong. You think of a way, Let me go to the Chongyang Night Banquet, okay?" Jin Zhong red-browed and white-eyed, anxious and helpless: "My lord, this servant is just a servant, what can I do? The seating for the Chongyang Night Banquet was arranged by the empress for the purpose of the emperor, and the emperor had no objection at that time, you Going here is not to refute the emperor's intention." After he finished speaking, he hurriedly said: "I still have an errand, so I'm leaving first. If the emperor finds out that the slave has come to report the news, I will not be offended." Chun Chan quickly came up to support her, and Yan Wan sat on the imperial concubine's couch with nine passionflowers and purple velvet. Tears rushed out of her eyes, but she couldn't get up or down in one breath. They rushed to her throat, choked her and fainted.