Chapter 32 Chapter Thirty-Two

"Although it's the first time I've seen 'Traveler', I have knowledge about it." Dr. Paxang led the way up the stairs, walking staggeringly, "Can you use that kind of precious jade to go back and see what's going on in this world?" "yes." "To do this, you need the same pattern as engraved on the handle of the sword, right? If you want, there is also a pattern here. It's in the room where the observation instruments are placed. Follow me." Halfway up the gently curved staircase, there is an observation room, which is different from the rooms I have seen so far. The walls and floors are made of shining white translucent stone.The surface is polished delicately, and the light can be used as a guide.The room is circular, and the observation instruments are placed in the center.What had been seen at Sim Shensi's cabin was ten times larger here.On the pedestal is a giant telescope.The cylindrical part points to the translucent vaulted ceiling, which resembles a cannon.

"When the sun goes down, the ceiling becomes transparent." The doctor waved his hand and explained, "It turns white when exposed to light, and becomes transparent when the light disappears—it is made like this. This incredible stone is only produced in Ali. Kedar-specific mines." The Doctor stood directly under the long tube of the telescope. "Please come here." The doctor stood on the white stone and pointed, "There is a pattern here. But, I can't see it now. Because only the pattern part is built with the stone of the ceiling, so when there is sunlight, the pattern and the color of the floor stone are mixed. .When it gets dark, it becomes clear."

The doctor turned to him and said, "Before that, I have something to say to you. Thank you very much for saving my disciple just now. Greetings to you again." The doctor bowed deeply. "I've seen firsthand your bravery, your compassion and your directness." To be praised.But the doctor stared at Wataru with a serious expression. "However, I still have something to say, because I am sure you will understand." I can't help but restrain myself. "I said—the illusion world reflects your heart to change your appearance. In the same way, Rao also told you." The doctor said, "Think about it, what does this mean? If what happened in the illusion world It reflects your inner thoughts, so why is there racism? Why does it have to be human pillars?"

This is exactly the question of Gen.I'm here just to get the answer—— "Why do such unreasonable and cruel things exist in the fantasy world?" After repeating emphatically, the doctor continued slowly, "There is only one answer, do you understand, that is because in your heart, there are those Unreasonable things. I hate things that are not in line with myself, reject different ideas, dislike something, hate someone, hope that my own ideas are always better than others, hate things held by others, and want to take it for myself—— It is precisely because of you that you also have the desire to wish others to be happy for your own happiness. The appearance of the illusion is just to reflect these and make them take shape."

"Please, please wait a moment." Facing the unexpected criticism, Gen couldn't help shouting, "Those things——I..." "I know, I know." Dr. Paxang raised his hand to stop him, "You are very brave. You have compassion. You care about others. You care about others. You are very kind. But, in such a you, there is hatred, Jealousy, destructiveness. This is the unavoidable reality. The inescapable, inescapable reality." The shocking words made him dumbfounded, but he still remembered it.that feeling.It was like being suddenly woken up by a slap in the face.

The apparition seen in Swamp of Sorrows.A clone of Wataru who killed Yagom who resembled his father with a smile.Wataru, who killed his father's lover, was dismissed as a heartless murderer by the stone baby born in her womb, and ran away in a hurry. Isn't that also the real self?In that sense, it is not an illusion.That's part of it too.The things I have longed for in my heart appear in the fantasy world. "It's not just you, everyone is the same, without exception. There is no one with a pure good heart. If there is one, it is more evil than pure evil. If there is an illusion formed by reflecting such a mind, I would Wish I didn't have to go to that place."

"Doctor—" the knees were soft, "what do you mean, the hatred and resentment in my heart have taken the form of discrimination and human pillars, torturing people in the fantasy world? If so, if I leave, such suffering and resentment will The unreasonable situation will end, won't it?" "Not at all. That's not the case." "Then—what should we do?" Dr. Paxang took a step closer to Wat, and took Wat's hand with both hands as he did in the laboratory. "It all depends on your determination. The fantasy world appears by reflecting you. Go forward knowing this. How to reach the Tower of Destiny where the goddess is, you have to be confused and explore. That's 'walking on the right path' on the road'."

"I don't understand what you mean by that!" Gen wanted to withdraw his hand, but the doctor held on tightly. "You have discrimination, destruction, and hatred, but you also have love, compassion, and courage. You are anxious because you don't want to be a human pillar alone, and you are angry at the goddess who is to be chosen as a human pillar. You will discriminate against other races, want to You attribute all the injustices in the world to them, and you will help others regardless of your own safety. You have been on several adventures. Someone in the fantasy world wants to kill you. This is you too. But on the other hand, there are friends who don’t remember losing ground to help you and support you .That's you too."

Old men.The guillotine.He was an Anka youth who was talking nonsense that his group would soon rule the Southern Continent. Mina's singing.Ki Keema's smile. All are produced in the mind of Gen. "Please look at yourself. Hatred and anger, sympathy and courage, all belong to you. On the basis of facing them squarely, draw a conclusion: what is the so-called changing destiny? When you get the answer, the path to The way to the Tower of Destiny will be opened. When the way is opened, you will know what to ask the goddess. It is not that you will get the answer when you see the goddess. The "right way" to reach the goddess is your answer in itself .”

Gen shook his head: "What about the Renzhu? I can't accept such a thing. I don't agree. I hate being treated as a Renzhu! So, I even hope that as soon as possible, I will go to the Tower of Destiny and ask to stop the Renzhu incident." "Then you will return to the present world." Dr. Paxang said calmly, "Your fate has not changed, and you have not changed anything. Just go back like this. Once such a strong wish——to keep stepping into the fantasy world, is also Nothing." "What if I say it doesn't matter anyway?" "No problem now. Maybe a year. Maybe five years."

But what about the future? "In all your life, there will always be times when you regret it. You may hate yourself: succumbing to the fear of being chosen as a human pillar, succumbing to the anger at the cruel rules of the human pillar, and letting go of a chance to change your destiny. You I will hate my companions: just because I didn’t want that water man and cat girl to become human pillars, I actually gave up a great opportunity. If there were no such people, if there were no companions who were friendly to me in the fantasy world, I would not care who was killed. Choose to be a human pillar. You will hate it: as long as you are not a human pillar, quickly surpass another "passenger", change your destiny quickly, and return to the present world. All the misfortunes and bad luck that befall you in this world Let’s end with a decision in the fantasy world. And your heart—your hatred, hatred, and hurt in this world will be reflected in the fantasy world, and things that are far more cruel than racial discrimination and human pillars will happen.” I can't say - I won't be like that. "Understood, you haven't found the right path yet." Dr. Paxang's voice became more friendly, "So, all the decisions you make at this moment will betray your future self. You must betray. The elder of Sakawa is right. , might as well explain it like that, not a riddle or anything else. Find the right way and go to the goddess. I will only give the same advice. It can only be that advice." Dr. Paxang let go of Wat's hand and looked up at the vaulted ceiling. "When the sun goes down, you step on the pattern under the starry sky, and return to the present world for a while. I will not ask who you want to see or talk to. I will not ask you when you come back. You can do whatever you want. But, about the result , if you have come to the conclusion of giving up this trip, please come to my laboratory. Because I will send a letter to Instructor Rao so that you can pass the request." "So far, has any 'passenger' done this?" "Yes. It is not uncommon to see 'passengers' who interrupt their journey. It is clearly recorded in ancient documents. There are those who return to the real world, and there are also a few people who stay in the fantasy world. Maybe they live in a world that reflects their own thoughts as they are. Come on, it's easier to accept." He lowered his head.I can not do it.At this point I cannot escape back to the present world. "I'll go see my mother." He raised his head and said. Returning through the passage of light is still a ward.But this time it was not night, but dusk.Kuniko Sangu sat on the bed with his upper body bowed, shrouded in the light red afterglow.She stared blankly out the window. Heng came to the bedside from the passage of light, but Bangzi didn't notice it.In the sunlight, you could see the tear stains on her cheeks. Mom is much thinner and seems to have aged a lot suddenly.But she is still Wan's mother.For a moment, my throat choked, and my heart was full of attachment and guilt. "Mom." Gen called.But the weakness of the voice surprised even himself.At this moment, I must have the urge to speak from my mother, and I don’t want to see such a sad mother, and my mother doesn’t want to be seen like this—this feeling hits me like a raging wave, making me hesitant and frustrated.leave here?Wouldn't it be nice to just end everything like this and explain clearly when we return?Shouldn't you speak out when you haven't seen a way out, just to increase your worries? Reassuring himself like this, he almost left in a hurry.At this time, Bangzi suddenly raised his hand and wiped the corners of his eyes. She is still crying. This feeling shook Wataru.I can't let my mother cry alone, make her worry worse because of my absence, never do that.If you don't ask me at this time, before I come back, my mother will definitely think about her health and exhaust her energy. This adventure, this trip, is not for one person alone.And the things that Gen needs in the fantasy world are what Ke Shi needs to wait for his mother in this world. That is - hope. "Mother." This time, he shouted clearly and forcefully.With his head down, Bangzi's eyes widened, and then he turned his face with a "swipe". "Gen?" she murmured softly.As he took a step closer to the bed, Bangzi's shocked eyes shone brightly. "through!" Bangzi yelled, pushed aside the quilt and blanket with both hands, and was about to get out of bed.Gen stretched out his arms and rushed forward, hugging his mother tightly.It's been a long time since I hugged my mother like this.Gen also knows: in memory, my mother's body is stronger, not so thin. "Gen, Gen, is it Gen?" Bangzi smiled while shedding tears, hugged Gen tightly and shook, then let go of his arms, put his hands on Gen's face, and stared into Gen's eyes. "Oh, it's really Gen! You're back! Where did you go? Why did you disappear?" Bangzi cried loudly. "I'm sorry, Mom." Heng also cried.The heart fills the entire interior of the body, every finger, every hair tip, every toenail contains tears and joy. "Sorry to miss you. Sorry to leave you alone. But I think about Mommy all the time." "Where were you before? Who took you away? Did you escape? Were you not abused?" Gen tried to wipe away the teardrops on his face with his hands, let Jiu hold his mother's hand, and solemnly answered his mother's tearful question. "Mom, I'm traveling, and it's a trip to change my destiny." Of course, it was impossible for the mother to accept it immediately. "What did you say? What's the matter? Mother doesn't understand. You mean, where are you going by yourself?" As she spoke, she spread out her tightly held hands, and looked him over carefully from the top of his head to his toes. "Why are you dressed like this? Why are you wearing such strange clothes? Is it a sword around your waist? Why are you carrying such a dangerous thing? Where did you get it?" The opening time of the light channel is very short, so we must hurry.Gen controlled his excitement and said, "Mom should tell me first. How is your health? Have you been in the hospital? What did the doctor say is wrong?" "I don't care at all!" "No. Look, how energetic I am. Don't I? I'm fine everywhere. I'm fine. Momma smoked a lot more gas than I did?" Bangzi's skin, which was already pale, became even paler. "You—mother is so stupid—nearly killed you..." "It's okay. I'm not angry at all. Mom is tired. I'm tired of everything. There's nothing I can do. I'm fine. I'm much better than my mother. Because of the help of my friends. Mizuru Ashikawa helped. He brought I went to the fantasy world." "Fantasy world?" It's hard to tell right away.Gen's narration was repeated, and the content was intertwined. The more she talked, the more obvious the confusion on Bangzi's face became. She held Gen's shoulders tightly.As if afraid of being taken away by an unknown object. "I hope to change my destiny. Let my father not see Rikako Tanaka and not leave us. I hope to return to my previous life. For this reason, I want to go to the Tower of Destiny." During the trip, however, I confused myself. "I found that even if I changed my fate, I would remain the same. If I didn't change, no matter how I manipulated my fate, the sadness and hatred would not disappear. The illusion world let me see this. It will reflect my heart as it is Come out and let me see myself clearly." That's right, that's it.That's what happened.While explaining to his mother, Heng finally began to understand.Narrating in this way, I can feel the words of Dr. Paxang, the advice of Elder Sakawa, and the teachings of Teacher Rao, will become my own flesh and blood. "At first, I thought, if nothing happens, it will be fine. I can live a happy life again. But that idea is wrong. If it's just like this, when you encounter other sorrows and pains, it will be the same as before. The so-called changing fate is not to eliminate the annoying things. Because even if I can eliminate the fait accompli, it will not eliminate the obstacles in my heart." Even begging the goddess to make fun of the convention of the human pillar will not remove the frailty of the human heart—so long as you don't become a victim.Even if racial discrimination is canceled by the power of the goddess, it cannot eliminate this prejudice—bad things that will befall itself.Blame it on people who have certain inconsistencies (appearance, habits, etc.) with themselves.Same with these situations.The fantasy world reflects my mind.That's all. "through……" Although his cheeks were still wet, Bangzi no longer shed tears.Her bewildered, timid expression remained unchanged, but there was a new, hitherto unseen light in the way she looked at her son.Although it was only a small flame, it was indeed burning. What is this kid talking about?As if in a dream, delirious, as if I've gotten so involved in my favorite video game that I can't get out of it. Keshi—but this child...became strong after all. Bangzi wakes up: Although he speaks like falling into a dream, this child has indeed grown up. "I also have times of fear and times of sadness. There are too many things to be overwhelmed, and there will be some in the future. But, mother, I will continue to travel. I must find the right path and walk to the Tower of Destiny .There will definitely be something I want there. Although it is not what I wanted at the beginning, it will be what I really need. So, Mom, you wait for me. I will definitely come back, please wait for me to return from my trip." The powerful words made Bangzi let go of his son's hand and clasped his fingers tightly like praying.In Dr. Paxang's laboratory, Romi prayed to the goddess in the same posture. "Will you be able to come back?" "absolute!" "You—are you alone?" Gen shook his head vigorously: "I'm not alone, I have a partner!" "Traveling—you—really..." Bangzi stopped, eyes full of panic, "It's not only you who are missing, but also the child named Lu Chuan..." "I know. He is also in the fantasy world. However, I will find him and come back with him. We will definitely come back together." Heng's words, not the content, but the optimistic force contained in them, began to be passed on to Bangzi.Bangzi's heart began to be infected. "What should mom do?" "Trust me and wait for me." Gen said bluntly, with a smile on his face. There was a touching smile on Bangzi's face, like a flower that bloomed from the purest part of the soul when the mother sent the child away. "Is that all right?" "Ok!" From the passage of light came the sound of a bell urging the return.Ah, it's time. Gen hugged his mother tightly again, and said, "Get well soon. Tell grandma and Uncle 'Lu' that I'm fine." Bangzi also hugged Gen tightly.Through the natural bond between mother and child, new strength was injected into her. "Okay, I'm leaving." When Heng was about to leave the bedside, there was a knock on the door of the ward.A voice shouted: "Ms. Bangzi, are you awake?" We opened, and it was Uncle 'Lu' who appeared.Gen stopped walking towards the passage of light: "Uncle!" Uncle "Lu" stood blankly at the step into the room.He was dumbfounded, and the big paper bag in his hand fell to the ground. "This, this, this..." Uncle 'Lu' shouted several times before he came back to his senses, "Isn't this Gen!" Uncle "Lu" rushed over.But a bell rang in his ears.The bell was ringing much more urgently than before.At the entrance of the passage of light, it flickers on and off like a warning light. "Uncle." Genzhi stepped into the entrance of the passage and shouted loudly: "I'm fine! Uncle! Mom please! Please wait for me, I will definitely come back, I will definitely come back!" Jump into the channel. Uncle "Lu" threw his outstretched arm into the air. "I'm sorry, Uncle!" Gen rushed through the passage—the passage had already begun to disappear from under his feet, he turned his head and shouted: "I'm leaving!" As he ran in the aisle, new tears came out again.He ran without wiping.As he ran, the passage disappeared under his heels. The exit on the side of the phantom world appeared.Gen leaned forward, ran and ran, throwing off the chasing Chaos, and rushed to the exit. Hit something heavy.He caught Gen with a "Yo". "Hey! It's Wat—it's Wat." It's Kee Kimah.Everyone stands around the pattern.Mina is there too.Dr. Paxang, Captain Lummel, and Luo Mei are all there. "Great!" Mina rushed over, "The tunnel is about to disappear, so anxious!" Hug Ke Kema.His broad chest, strong shoulders and thick arms reminded Gen of Uncle "Lu" who had just left.Mina's kind and warm voice reminded him of his mother.Ah, that's it, that's it. Whether in this world or in the fantasy world, people share the same heart. "All right?" Dr. Paxan asked.His tone is insightful and comprehensible. "Yes, I'm fine." Park Sangbo Book Machine nodded in satisfaction. "I'm really worried about you, Wat." Ki Kima put Wat on the floor and rubbed his broad chest. "The emergency assembly has been activated," Mina said, her round eyes showing a firm light. "Our highland guards have received new instructions to rectify the chaos in the southern continent." Gen nodded.He met Captain Rummel's blue eyes, nodded solemnly and said, "Understood. Let's go!"