Chapter 14 Section VII

It was already eleven forty in the evening. After Mariko went to bed, it was difficult to fall asleep because of all kinds of things in her mind. There are some things that must be considered in detail, but Mariko doesn't know which things to consider. Since she couldn't sleep, Mariko simply got up, turned on the bedside lamp, and opened the diary.Mariko picked up a pen and started writing in the diary. Mariko looked at the words she wrote.Husband turned his back on me and hugged fat woman. Her husband asked her to forgive him, but she couldn't forgive him so easily based on these few words alone. She could reconcile with him for the sake of face, but the wound in her heart could not be healed, and casual compromise would only increase the hatred in her heart.

I have no idea! Mariko wrote this in her diary. Although she didn't understand, she had to come to a conclusion. Does the husband really feel responsible for his actions?Do you really beg me to forgive you?Or is it just talking?If it's just talking about it, I can't forgive him; and about I, my husband seems to look at me and I with strange eyes, if that's the case... Mariko wrote here, put down her pen and meditated. What do I think about Iseki?Mariko suddenly thought of this question. "I just brought him here as someone to talk to." Mariko said to herself, but she couldn't believe it.

When she hugged Jingguan and danced, did she just treat him as a conversation object?Mariko didn't have the courage to answer "yes". When she heard that Iseki left Tokyo three years ago because she loved her, didn't she feel a little sweet and sentimental in her heart?Was she not guilty of mental infidelity then?Mariko couldn't deny it. (What does Iseki think of me?) Iseki's mood is also a big problem. He is standing in the position of Tajima's friend and repeatedly persuades her to forgive her husband. She does not think that Iseki is lying. However, if the love for her three years ago has not disappeared, there is something wrong with Jingguan's words and mood. Maybe until now, he has restrained his feelings, but once this kind of feeling erupts, it will how is it?Maybe she will fall into Jingguan's arms soon.

It is also possible that the husband may hate Jingguan because he is afraid that his wife will be robbed by Jingguan. Mariko felt an ominous premonition. Hope nothing terrible happens.