Chapter 3 crack

The police launched a large-scale anti-drug operation, which immediately attracted widespread media attention.Newspapers even speculated whether the police's strict investigation of drug cases this time was an outpost for a new round of crackdown on gangsters.It became an instant hot topic. During that time, Chen Ziyu worked overtime every day and was so busy that he hit the back of his head with his heels. On this day, he held a work report meeting with his colleagues from the anti-drug team. At the end of the meeting, it was almost early morning. Chen Ziyu and Qian Mazi broke up after eating some breakfast at a soybean milk shop near the unit. They thought that his wife must still be sleeping at this time. Who would have thought that as soon as he entered the door, a TV remote control The weapon flew head-on.

"Hey!" Chen Ziyu couldn't dodge in time, covering his head and screaming.Looking again, Cheng Lin was wearing pajamas, sitting on the sofa in the living room, her hair was disheveled, and she glared at him with red eyes. "What are you doing?" Chen Ziyu was slapped for no reason, and was a little angry. "You still know to come back!" Cheng Lin's anger that had been brewing all night was no small matter, "I've been waiting for you all night! You're only coming back now!" "Work overtime in the bureau, hold a meeting!" "What did I tell you when you left yesterday? What did I tell you? I told you to come back early, can't you hear me?!" Cheng Lin had tears in her eyes, "You clearly know what day yesterday was. You sure It was on purpose! You did it on purpose!"

Chen Ziyu was taken aback for a moment, but when he got busy, he indeed forgot about it.No, maybe he really forgot on purpose, subconsciously not cooperating on purpose, because he was really sick of it. Cheng Lin is an assistant lawyer in a law firm, two years younger than Chen Ziyu, a thirty-year-old woman who is full of desire to have children.But the two had been married for three years, and there was no special contraception, but her stomach didn't move at all.Cheng Lin began to suspect that she or Chen Ziyu had a physical problem, so she went to the hospital for an examination.According to the results of the examination, Cheng Lin has mild polycystic ovaries, but relatively large eggs will still form every month. With the help of drugs, she can ovulate smoothly that month.Therefore, taking the basal body temperature every morning, measuring the ovulation period, taking medicine, and having sex again became the first major event in the married life of Chen Ziyu and Cheng Lin.Since then, it has become a nightmare in Chen Ziyu's life.

Chen Ziyu couldn't figure it out. When she was in love, she always advertised that she would never have children. How could her attitude take a 180-degree turn when she got married.It is not the day of ovulation, even if Chen Ziyu has the desire, she is not allowed to do it, because she heard that if a man does not have sex for a long time, if he does it once in a while, the sperm count will be more, she asked Chen Ziyu to recharge his energy; and when it is the ovulation period In those few days, no matter how late Chen Ziyu came back, no matter how tired or interested he was, he was required to do it.After a year of tossing, Chen Ziyu was absolutely disgusted with the obligations that must be fulfilled between husband and wife. He felt as if he had become a tool for this woman to reproduce.Sex is no longer a kind of enjoyment in life that can relax the spirit and completely forget oneself, but has become an annoying designated action.He privately called it the "Three Rules" - at the prescribed time, at the prescribed place, and at the prescribed action.

Cheng Lin became even angrier when she saw Chen Ziyu's expression. In fact, the content of her screams are all old-fashioned, asking Chen Ziyu not to be too selfish, crying and asking what is wrong with wanting a child, and asking Chen Ziyu with a sneer if there is someone outside, so she doesn't want to have a child with her some type of. Chen Ziyu is good at speaking outside, but when facing his wife, he always adopts only one attitude: don't speak. The more this happened, the more Cheng Lin became mad with anger, hitting him and pushing him, trying to force his words out.Chen Ziyu had a meeting all night, and now he just wants to sleep well with his head covered, but he can't find peace when he comes home.Seeing that it was past working hours, Cheng Lin was still crying at home, saying that her mother had told her not to marry Chen Ziyu, or that it was too late for her to regret it now, and Chen Ziyu felt exhausted.

Just then, the phone rang.After hearing this, Chen Ziyu just said "Okay, I'll be there right away", took the car keys and went out. Cheng Lin screamed behind him: "Chen Ziyu, stop! If we don't speak clearly today, we are not allowed to go anywhere!" But Chen Ziyu had already reached the elevator. "This time I really trouble you." Yuan Ye leaned on the hospital bed, watching Chen Ziyu help him pack his things and run in and out to complete the discharge procedures, feeling a little sorry. It was only a week after the operation, and Yuan Ye's body hadn't fully recovered. He couldn't do these things by himself, so he had to find someone to help. Only then did he realize that he didn't have any particularly close friends.

Since joining the police force, my classmates in primary and secondary schools have gradually lost contact.Occasionally, I received a phone call about a class reunion, but Yuan Ye never went.The students in the same class at the beginning didn't realize it when they were studying together, but after graduation they gradually separated into different classes.Just like a glass of stirred fruit juice, you will always see deep and shallow precipitation after calming down.The so-called class reunion is a place where people who are not as good as they want sit in obscurity and watch those old classmates who get along well.Yuan Ye has no interest in this.

The intersection and connection between people, if it is not related to crime, pursuit, and capture, somehow, he would not be interested in it at all. His colleagues in the Public Security Bureau privately thought he was a weirdo, a guy who was full of competition and only wanted to climb the ladder.In fact, Yuan Ye's ambition has nothing to do with his position. If he can, he hopes to keep doing front-line work. If the leader really puts him in the office one day, Yuan Ye will feel that life would be worse than death. He also had short-lived girlfriends, but none of them lasted more than three months without breaking up with him.Yuan Ye doesn't have any romantic talent, and the nature of his work makes him often disappear without any reason, not even a single text message.No woman can stand such a bored and workaholic.

For so many years, Yuan Ye has always felt that this kind of life is very comfortable.It wasn't until now that he was sick that he discovered to his surprise that it was impossible for a person to live alone and alone in the world.Human beings are inherently social animals that need to live in groups and help each other. But he couldn't think of a friend he could rely on, so he had to call Chen Ziyu. "Why are you being polite to me?" Chen Ziyu helped Yuan Ye throw his things into the back seat, "Honestly speaking, your phone saved my life." "Why?" Yuan Ye sat in the passenger seat, carefully adjusting his body to make it more comfortable.The wound still hurt, but he tried not to show it.

Chen Ziyu sighed: "Don't mention it." "Where were you when I called you?" "at home." Yuan Ye looked at Chen Ziyu's haggard face, and guessed that there was something wrong with his family again, so he didn't need to mention this kind of thing, so he changed the subject: "How is the anti-drug case? Is it going well?" "It's a bit of a breakthrough." Chen Ziyu started the car, "By the way, do you know Scar Huang? He is Baldy Li's son-in-law. During this time, we felt that Baldy Li was a little on the verge of moving. The boss said to keep an eye on them." Son. If you have a source over there, introduce me to one."

Yuan Ye looked out of the car window and said, "Okay." Chen Ziyu felt his indifference and was a little surprised, it was not like Yuan Ye. "Big head, is your operation okay?" Yuan Ye let out a "hmm". "Is there anything wrong with your body?" "fine." "That's good. Take a good rest and recuperate. When you recover from illness, we all count on you to come back and show your might." Yuan Ye smiled lightly. Listening to such things now, I just feel a burst of sadness.The feeling of anger and disappointment has disappeared, and I am no longer angry with myself like I was at the beginning, hating that my body has problems at critical moments, and I no longer complain about my bad luck.In other words, he has accepted reality. The reality is, the results of the slice test came out.Definitely lung cancer. Initially suspected to be peripheral lung cancer, it was discovered after surgery that it was small cell lung cancer.The tumor had spread to the left vertical and horizontal thoracic septum, and the recurrent laryngeal nerve was compressed, so the voice began to be hoarse.That is to say, there were symptoms a long time ago, but who would have noticed then. "Small cell carcinoma is one of the basic types of lung cancer and belongs to undifferentiated cancer. Its pathological types include oat cell type, intermediate cell type and compound oat cell type. About one-third of lung cancer patients in China are of this type , can be said to be quite common..." Yuan Ye put his hands on the table, leaned forward slightly, and tried his best to listen to a series of medical terms spoken by the chief physician wearing round glasses in front of him. He had already greeted the thin old man's mother a hundred times in his heart.I don't fucking care about barley wheat cells, can you get the fuck out of the way? "So, do I still need treatment?" Yuan Ye asked patiently. "Of course, chemotherapy is still advocated at present. Because small cell carcinoma is a kind of tumor with a high degree of malignancy, it is best to carry out systemic chemotherapy combined with radiotherapy. However, the postoperative biological behavior of small cell carcinoma It's bad, so no one can predict the prognosis..." "That is to say, even with radiotherapy and chemotherapy, it may not be cured well?" "Of course I hope to prolong the survival period of patients as much as possible and improve the quality of life..." "I'm not asking other patients, I'm asking myself. In my case, what is the chance of being cured by radiotherapy and chemotherapy?" Yuan Ye took a lot of effort and ordered himself to speak calmly as usual. "Any kind of lung cancer can be treated with radiotherapy and chemotherapy at a stage of its development. Small cell carcinoma should be treated with chemotherapy first. After three to four weeks, chemotherapy has achieved certain results, and then radiotherapy is considered. The way of combining Western medicine. I can also prescribe some anti-cancer drugs for you..." Yuan Ye finally lost his patience and yelled at the table: "Stop messing around with me! Just tell me, how long can I live?!" The situation was so frightening that everyone in the consulting room was stunned.It took a while for the old expert to come back to his senses. Under Yuan Ye's ferocious aura, he stammered and said, "If you don't treat it well, the survival period will be long...about three months." "What about treatment? Can it be cured?" "If chemotherapy is useful, it may prolong life for a while, but it's not very promising." "How long is a period of time? One year? Two years?" He didn't even understand why these experts and professors were biting their tongues, and it was really so difficult to explain his current situation clearly to the patient? A middle-aged female doctor next to her interjected: "What's your attitude! How did you talk to Professor Xie?" "None of your business!" Yuan Ye roared, "Shut up!" Although Professor Xie spoke hesitantly, his self-cultivation skills were good. He was not as knowledgeable as Yuan Ye, so he still said calmly: "In your situation, at most half a year, maybe less than three months, no one can say for sure. But the chances are less than 30 percent." Yuan Ye's heart sank: "Then my operation was done for nothing?" "If you don't open it and take a look, how will you know the exact situation?" "So what if you know? It's just a more painful death!" Yuan Ye suddenly raised his voice, "It's better not to know all the time, not to carry any burdens, and to act like a healthy person all the time, and then suddenly get sick and die suddenly! Like this It’s more enjoyable! It’s less suffering this way, isn’t it?!” "Of course that's okay, everyone has their own choice." There was a buzzing sound in Yuan Ye's head, as if all the blood was rushing up.This is talking about his life, how can this old man say it so easily? "Asshole!" He slammed the medical records and test reports on the ground with such force that the medical records were scattered all over the place.He turned around and walked out, and the patients who were curiously looking around at the door of the consulting room stepped aside after seeing this. Behind him, the old man closed the medical records put away by the little nurse and said, "Next." three months. ninety days. Just now, Yuan Ye personally confirmed his death sentence. Although I knew it was an incurable disease, I never thought... I never thought that I would have less than three months to live. No appeals, no pardons, just misery and despair, with the possibility of an early sentence at any time. When should the countdown start? Yuan Ye sat blankly in a small park in the center of the city, facing a green pool in front of him.At night, the pool will spray water, and many elderly people will gather around to dance.Yuan Ye always thought such things were ridiculous, but until today, he suddenly realized how lucky it is to be old.This means that they have escaped the attacks of diseases, accidents and disasters in life, and of course they should sing and dance happily to celebrate. He stared blankly at the continuous flow of vehicles coming and going on the viaduct in the distance.It is now three o'clock in the afternoon, and the early autumn sun is so steaming that the exhaust fumes of the cars suddenly intertwine into a cloud of stale air that cannot be dissipated, lingering in the air, making it difficult to breathe.After a summer, the sulfur dioxide emitted by the air conditioners in various buildings has not dissipated, intertwined with the exhaust of the cars, firmly covering the city, and the sky looks gray. But what kind of environmental pollution, what kind of greenhouse effect, have nothing to do with him. He was about to die, returning to nothingness.He had only three months to live.In these three months, the earth will not necessarily be destroyed. In fact, he wished that the earth would be destroyed immediately.All doctors and patients will die together. But this is impossible. After he died, the sun would still rise, the earth would still turn, and the world would still have spring, summer, autumn and winter.How precious is human life?It's just that it's precious to that person, but it's worthless to other people.There is no difference between losing a person in the world and losing a speck of dust.Why do people live in this world?What's the point of living like this? He rested his head on the back of his hands, thinking hard.These were questions about life that he had never thought about before. Yes, he insisted on asking.He has the right to know his physical condition.But I didn't expect it to be so bad. There are only three months of life left, and I was in a daze just now, which has reduced another three or four hours, right? The words I heard just now began to slowly form a real texture in my mind until now.It was as if a lump of marijuana had been stuffed in his chest, and it felt tight and painful. Yuan Ye gasped, stroked his cheek with his hand, tightly grabbed his hair, trembling all over. "Are you okay?" A hand suddenly touched his shoulder lightly. Yuan Ye suddenly raised his head, and suddenly froze. The person standing in front of him was actually Dr. Su from the thoracic department.She also recognized Yuan Ye: "It's you!" At this time, Yuan Ye's eyes were full of pain, and his cheeks were stained with tears. He felt embarrassed when he was exposed in front of others.In an instant, he was full of annoyance at himself and Su Qin who suddenly appeared. "I... I just passed by there, and I saw that you seemed to be in pain, and I thought you were not feeling well..." Su Qin asked tentatively, "Are you okay?" At this moment, the female doctor's care seemed extremely hypocritical to Yuan Ye, and he almost wanted to shout: "How can I be fine? I'm dying! I'm dying!" However, these doctors, who are used to seeing the life and death of patients, have already become insensitive! "Go away!" he said in a low voice. Su Qin originally wanted to leave, but after thinking about it, she stopped again.She has seen many patients who have learned that they are terminally ill. When they lose control of their emotions, they can do anything stupid.She looked at Yuan Ye's face, and said cautiously: "Cooperate well with the treatment, and don't give up hope." Yuan Ye couldn't bear it anymore.Compared with the shame of being seen crying, the comfort of being scratched made him more angry, coupled with the despair of the fact that he was about to die, all kinds of complex feelings were intertwined, making him like a ignited bomb: " What do you know! Stop putting on a doctor's face to teach me! Get out!" Su Qin took a step back in fright, looked at Yuan Ye's painful and distorted face, and suddenly realized that he had broken the man's most vulnerable moment, and his masculine dignity did not allow him to accept a woman's sympathy.She wrung her hands a little at a loss: "Yes...I'm sorry...I..." Yuan Ye suddenly stood up from the bench in the park, and walked away without looking back. He hated his momentary weakness, but the person he really wanted to beat up was himself.Manly man, why not be stronger?Life or death, stop crying like a coward! Deciding to give up treatment, Yuan Ye still came to work at the Public Security Bureau.No one in the criminal police team knew that Yuan Ye had just undergone an operation, and they were shocked when they saw him. "It's been a long time since I saw you. Why have you lost so much weight?" Almost everyone who met him said the same thing. Yuan Ye looks in the mirror every day, and he can clearly realize that he is losing weight rapidly.The clothes I used to wear now feel too big, the waist of my trousers is also loose, and the belt has two holes back.Every day when he shaves, he touches his cheeks, and the more he touches them, the more they feel sunken.He started to take some anticancer drugs, probably due to the side effects of these anticancer drugs, he often sweated for no reason, and rashes began to appear on his hands and body. He considers himself very lucky.I heard that many lung cancer patients are dying of pain, but so far, he has not felt too much pain.But he knew the pain would definitely start, it was just a matter of time.He often strokes his chest subconsciously, feeling like there is a time bomb there, which will explode at any moment. Loss of appetite, mental deterioration.At first, he thought that these were just signs that his body hadn't fully recovered after the operation, but then he thought, could this weak body be caused by the deterioration of its own cancer cells?The thought made him shudder. The criminal police team received a tip-off that the fashion show to be held at the International Convention and Exhibition Center tonight will have drug dealing activities. The porter is a man nicknamed Big Mosquito. After two years, they are still active in their circle. "The informant told me that Big Mosquito has close contacts with Dao Scarhuang. If you want to investigate Dao Scarhuang, he should be a breakthrough." Yuan Ye said: "I want to discuss with Zheng team and apply for a search warrant." "Hmm." Team Zheng raised his hand to look at his watch, "Tonight? Is it too late to apply now?" "I think it's better not to apply for a search warrant. It's better to scare the snake away." Chen Ziyu said, "Our police car here has just arrived at the gate, and the big mosquito over there has run away after getting the news. If you want me to say, just me Just two with Yuan Ye, change into plain clothes and sneak in." Qian Mazi said, "Without a search warrant, will they let you in?" Chen Ziyu said: "I don't have to go to the TV station to record police reports every week, so I know a few people, and I should be able to get an admission pass." "Well, Xiao Chen and Yuan Ye will take a look and find that big mosquito, and bring him back to the bureau. Sun Gang, go and check all the data of this big mosquito, there is Scar Huang, old man You still keep staring at Qian." After a pause, Team Zheng added: "This mission is very important. The people of the whole city are waiting to see everyone's performance, and you should work harder for me, you know?" Linglingluo sounded from below, and she replied indifferently: "Oh." "understood." "Ok." All the generals were ordered to adjourn the meeting one by one. At seven o'clock, Chen Ziyu drove to Yuan Ye's building.He changed out of his police uniform. He wore a black suit and a white open-collar shirt, strikingly like a model walking off a fashion magazine. Yuan Ye smiled when he got into the car: "You are dressed like this tonight, it looks like a beauty trick is going to be launched in the bureau." "You fucking hurt me." Chen Ziyu threw a plastic card to him, "Hold it, your admission pass." The newly-built convention and exhibition center, illuminated by silver-white lights, looks very modern in design.From afar, I saw the huge promotional posters of Fashion Week, the garage was full of cars, and the trendy people coming and going were all dressed up strangely.Some men looked like zombies with white powder on their faces, some wore leather vests and leather trousers, showing cross tattoos on their arms, some women wore evening dresses, some wore jeans, and only wore a cute dress on their upper bodies , with a ring on the navel. "What the hell is this place?" Yuan Ye pinned the admission card given to him by Chen Ziyu on the lapel of his shirt, and looked around, "It seems that everyone here should be locked up." "I think," Chen Ziyu walked into the venue with him, "it looks like they were just released. Either from prison or from a drug rehabilitation center." A waiter passed them by with a tray, and Chen Ziyu took a glass of lime soda.Yuan Ye didn't want to eat anything, but felt nauseated. He hesitated for a while, asked for a glass of orange juice, took a sip, and reluctantly swallowed it. Chen Ziyu held the napkin and soda in one hand, and put the other in his trouser pocket. His yuppie outfit looked stylish and stylish here. The two looked around. "Did you see it?" Chen Ziyu asked. "No." Yuan Ye said, "What about you?" "I do not have either." "There are too many people here, and it won't work if we keep looking for a needle in a haystack like this." Yuan Ye became a little anxious. "I have to find someone to ask." Chen Ziyu murmured. "The one over there, the one with the white shirt dropped out of the leather jacket, the one with the head like a chicken coop, I don't even believe he is from the Tao." Chen Ziyu looked over according to Yuan Ye's instructions, and just in time, the handsome man in a leather coat with messy Ye Shenyue hair was also looking at him.When he saw Chen Ziyu looking at him, his eyes suddenly became ambiguous. "He probably has his eyes on you." Yuan Ye commented calmly. "Do I look like that kind of person?" Chen Ziyu said, looking in another direction. "Uh... quite similar." Yuan Ye hesitated for a moment, and decided to tell the truth. "Damn it," Chen Ziyu gritted her teeth secretly, "you don't think this is a compliment, do you?" "Cough, there's no way, it's for work." Chen Ziyu made a smirk, and raised the cup in his hand in the direction of the handsome man. The man looked overjoyed. After a while, the handsome man approached Chen Ziyu mysteriously: "Are you a model? Or..." Chen Ziyu smiled and said vaguely, "I'm here to try my luck." "It's lucky that you met me." The man obviously misunderstood, "I know designers from several companies, and I will recommend you when the time comes. Based on your conditions, there is absolutely no problem." He looked at Chen Ziyu lustfully. "Really? Thanks in advance." Chen Ziyu moved closer and lowered his voice, "Then do you know where this is sold?" He made a gesture that poisonous insects are accustomed to. The man's eyes were immediately wary: "What do you mean? I don't understand." Seeing his vigilant look, Chen Ziyu knew that he had asked the right person.He raised his glass and took a sip as if nothing had happened: "It's fine if you don't understand. Do you know where there is a bathroom near here?" "Huh?" The handsome man was taken aback, not used to Chen Ziyu's rapid change of subject, "Do you want to go to the bathroom?" Chen Ziyu raised his eyes and said meaningfully: "You don't want to go?" Yuan Ye leaned against the door of the men's bathroom, lit a cigarette, and just after taking two puffs, he saw Chen Ziyu coming out of it. "So fast?" He was a little surprised. Chen Ziyu moved her knuckles and snorted, "You pervert, it's over if you don't say it." The big mosquito was hiding in the dressing room backstage, and a four-eyed eighth woman dressed like a man was guarding the gate, and no one else was allowed to enter.Chen Ziyu and Yuan Ye showed their police IDs and forced their way in. A long-haired man inside ran away when he saw something was wrong.Of course Yuan Ye started to chase instinctively, and was out of breath after running for less than five minutes, but he had no choice but to keep chasing.Seeing the big mosquito flying farther and farther, Yuan Ye wanted to scold his mother with hatred. At the same time, a burning sensation began to be felt somewhere in his chest.don't want!Yuan Ye thought desperately, not now, absolutely not now! The big mosquito stopped suddenly. At some point, Chen Ziyu got in front of the big mosquito and blocked his way. Yuan Ye arrived slowly with weak hands and feet, panting heavily. An indescribable fear appeared on Big Mosquito's face. He looked at Yuan Ye and Chen Ziyu, and suddenly pulled out a dagger from his arms. Chen Ziyu said: "Big mosquito, I warn you, you are assaulting the police." "It's dead anyway!" The big mosquito yelled in despair, and rushed towards Yuan Ye. At that moment Yuan Ye was stunned in shock. In the past, when he was partnering with Chen Ziyu, he had encountered such a situation many times, and without exception, Chen Ziyu was the target of those desperate lunatics who chose to fight to the death.It's very simple, everyone will pick the party that looks weaker.He is tall, strong, and fierce, while Chen Ziyu looks like a little boy and is easier to bully.But this time, among the two of them, the big mosquito actually chose him. Could it be that his weakness is so obvious that others can tell it at a glance? But there was no time for him to hesitate. He instinctively turned sideways to avoid the glaring dagger, while reaching out to lock the big mosquito's throat, and at the same time took a step forward, intending to use this throat lock to throw the guy to the ground, but the next Seconds he knew he was wrong.He never expected that the damn chest pain would actually break out at this moment!It was almost like a "stretch", as if a string in the body was broken, such a clear feeling, so terrifying.Then, a burst of unstoppable pain hit him suddenly, and he staggered and almost fell. Cold sweat instantly covered his forehead. My heart sank suddenly, and the time bomb exploded. He finally felt the incomparably sharp pain that the cancer cells in his body brought him for the first time. Didn't expect it to be at this time. The big mosquito had already broken free from him, and the dagger stabbed fiercely at his back. boom! There was a shot. Yuan Ye's mind went blank for a while. When he reacted, the big mosquito had already opened a bloody flower on his back, spread his hands and fell to the ground, and the ecstasy K pills scattered from his arms rolled everywhere. "Yuan Ye, what's the matter with you?!" Chen Ziyu retracted his gun and shouted angrily. Yuan Ye clutched his chest, his expression changed, he felt dizzy and couldn't stand up. Pain hit him like waves. Chen Ziyu's expression also changed: "Yuan Ye?" Like the tide under the moonlight, it slowly rises and recedes slowly. Yuan Ye leaned weakly on the back of the car seat, arched his body, and waited for the ebb tide. The pain gradually eased.A gentle numbness began to well up.Only then did he feel that the shirt on his back was drenched with cold sweat. Chen Ziyu turned to look at him: "Are you feeling better?" "Hmm." He replied vaguely. There was another long period of silence.He wondered if Chen Ziyu was angry.He didn't want to shoot at first, but the situation at that time no longer allowed him to choose.It's no wonder that Big Mosquito is desperate. The amount of drugs on his body is enough to be sentenced to life without death. Chen Ziyu broke the silence: "Big head, tell me the truth, is your illness not getting better?" Yuan Ye didn't speak. "What kind of sickness is this?" After a while, he said, "Lung cancer." There was another long silence. Yuan Ye guessed that Chen Ziyu didn't know how to react for a while, and he smiled: "It's okay, please sympathize with me, my self-esteem is not that strong, I can still bear it." "Actually..." Chen Ziyu said slowly, "If you didn't tell me, I would have guessed a little bit. It's just that I couldn't believe it." "Yes, I forgot, your reasoning has always been very good." "Don't be kidding. Didn't you look in the mirror yourself? In the past month, you've lost weight so quickly and so scary?" The forced smile disappeared from Yuan Ye's face. "...I know," he said. --Of course I know. There was a car shelter in front of Binjiang Highway, Chen Ziyu drove the car in and stopped. Yuan Ye was a little surprised: "What are you doing?" "Talk to you." Chen Ziyu lost his usual smile and looked very serious. "About what?" Chen Ziyu turned to him: "Then, are you undergoing radiotherapy or chemotherapy?" "I asked the doctor, radiotherapy and chemotherapy are not effective for me now, so forget it." Yuan Ye said quickly, "I'm going to die anyway, why bother to suffer." "Have you given up on treatment completely?" "That's right." Chen Ziyu looked at him in shock: "...how long?" Chen Ziyu didn't say how long it would be, but both of them knew it well. "The doctor said it's about three months away. But I hope it can be extended as much as possible." "Then why do you still come to work?" Chen Ziyu suddenly raised his voice and tapped heavily on the steering wheel, "Do you want to die quickly?" Yuan Ye looked at Chen Ziyu for a while, and laughed: "Are you caring about me? Should I be moved to tears? Like in a movie?" Chen Ziyu said with a sullen face: "I am concerned about you, that's right, we are buddies who grew up together, I have always regarded you as a friend, and I know you are too, otherwise you would not be able to call me when you were discharged from the hospital that day .didn't know what the fuck you thought was funny?" Yuan Ye avoided Chen Ziyu's gaze, opened the door and got out of the car, facing the distance. The water of the Yangtze River meanders silently not far from the overpass. At dusk, the sun that was about to set in the west hid behind the clouds, and the river sky was vast. ...there is nothing funny about it. He knew that Chen Ziyu was sincere, but Chen Ziyu would not understand. Not someone who faces death alone like him, the loneliness and fear of this one going to death.No one can understand.No one can bear it for him.Compared with this huge despair, any concern is as light as a feather. Chen Ziyu also got out of the car and came to him. Together they watched the twilight of the setting sun.Until it fades little by little. "...I don't want to sit and wait to die." After a while, Chen Ziyu shook his head slowly: "I don't understand. In the past, you worked so hard to solve the case, I thought you were for promotion. But, you are like this now, why do you still work so hard?" promotion?Yuan Ye turned around and looked at the handsome side face of the man beside him in the evening mist, unexpectedly he even looked at him like this. "No, I never thought about such a thing. I just like being a policeman in my life." Yuan Ye said, "This case may be the last thing in my life. I want to finish it." But he knew he screwed up.The big mosquito died on the way to the hospital. This line was cut off. Team Zheng would definitely be furious, and maybe force himself to report to the bureau to apply for sick leave. "Ziyu, help me." Yuan Ye rubbed his hair with his fingers. Chen Ziyu looked at him silently, and slowly turned his gaze to the boundless sky.He didn't know what to do to really help him. Things were as Yuan Ye expected. After learning of Yuan Ye's true condition, Team Zheng turned from losing his temper at the beginning to being stunned, and then he ordered Yuan Ye to retire from the illness immediately and take good care of the illness with a very strong attitude. "My illness can't be cured, Captain Zheng! I know it myself!" Yuan Ye said eagerly, "Go home and wait for death, I will only die faster!" Team Zheng looked at Yuan Ye in disbelief: "I see that you are not only physically ill, but also mentally abnormal! Your body is worn down, and it's not worth calling you a martyr!" "Just let me beg you, Captain Zheng, let me keep going!" "No! Think about it yourself, are you still competent?" "I can!" Chen Ziyu said from the side: "How about this, Team Zheng, hand him over to me. I will watch him and promise not to let him mess around. If I find that he can't continue, I will let him retire immediately." Yuan Ye's eyes lit up, and he looked straight at the captain.Zheng Zongtao met his gaze, and his heart suddenly softened.For so many years, Yuan Ye has been his most capable general, his right-hand man, if he wasn't sick, how could he be willing to let him go? "Okay, Chen Ziyu, you are in charge of Yuan Ye's work." Zheng Zongtao took a deep breath, and his tone became tough again: "If you find that his condition changes, send him to the hospital immediately!" "Okay, I promise!" Chen Ziyu said frankly, but lowered his eyes. He didn't want to see the silent gratitude in Yuan Ye's eyes. When they were very young, he had always looked at Yuan Ye with such eyes. I saw Su Qin again in the hospital. She was wearing a white coat and a mask, as if she didn't remember what happened that day at all. "Did the chest pain come on? How long did it last for the first time?" She wore a stethoscope and listened to Yuan Ye's breathing. Sometimes her fingers would touch Yuan Ye's skin during the examination, very professional, doctor's touch.But she never raised her eyes to meet Yuan Ye's eyes.Yuan Ye looked at her, only seeing her long, drooping eyelashes. Yuan Ye felt a little guilty.That day she saw a man shivering on a chair with his head in his arms from a distance. As a doctor, it was actually kind of him to come over to see him.I shouldn't lose my temper with her. He specially found the time when he was about to get off work, and after seeing the doctor, he sat on the bench in the aisle on the third floor and waited for her.After waiting until she got off work, Yuan Ye chased after her and patted her on the shoulder: "Su..." Su Qin turned her head abruptly, as if taken aback.她的反应之大，让袁野也感到意外。 见是袁野，她松了口气：“怎么是你？” “苏医生，那天的事……”袁野看着她，她的鼻尖和眼角发红，看起来好像刚哭过：“苏医生，你没事吧？” 苏琴后退了一步，那眼神像一只戒备的鹿：“我有什么事？” 其实袁野只是想跟她说一句对不起而已，但他突然注意到她的脸：“你这里怎么了？” "What, what?" “你这里，”袁野虚虚地指了一下她的嘴角，有一处淤血的痕迹，已经开始散了，但是在这种白色的日光灯下，还是可以看到一点：“怎么回事？” 这下到苏琴的脸变白了。 她很敏感的抬手抚摸：“我，我不小心撞到了。” 袁野怀疑的说：“不小心撞到嘴角？在哪里？” "kitchen." “厨房？什么地方？怎么撞到的？” 苏琴有点心慌意乱的说：“没什么事的话，我，我得走了……” 袁野拉住她。 “你这人干嘛！”苏琴猛地摔开他。 “你这里，不像是被撞的。” "Neuropathy!" “苏医生，说实话，我曾经动手打过不少混蛋。”袁野慢慢的说：“因为扇耳光，是警官们冲动起来，最容易犯的毛病。但是在他们要上庭之前，我们都很小心，有时还会给他们冰敷，希望他们的脸上尽量不要留下痕迹。所以我对这种打过的淤痕挺有心得。照我看，你嘴角这痕迹，不像是撞到了，倒像是被这样，”他做了个动作：“一耳光打过去留下的，对不对？” 苏琴眨着她漂亮的黑眼睛，说不出话，过了好一会儿，她终于想起怎么回答：“关你什么事？我又不是你的犯人！” 她转身开始跑起来。 袁野注视着她的背影。他敏感的觉察到，这个女人在隐瞒什么事。 第二天一早，苏琴就看到袁野站在医院门口等她。 这个人，到底想干什么呀？ 她低下头，想假装不认识的往里走，但袁野跟在她身边：“苏医生，你等一等！” 苏琴真的有点火了：“你干嘛老是缠着我？！” “你是不是有什么麻烦？” "what?" “你在隐瞒什么事？” “什，什么？我没有……”苏琴的脸一下子白了。 这个女人有点异常。袁野几乎可以肯定。 “做了十三年的刑警，这点眼神我还是有的。”袁野说：“是不是家庭暴力？” “你少胡说八道！”她的脸随即变得通红：“开什么玩笑！你的想象力也太丰富了吧！” “我只是想帮你。” “那就请你帮帮忙，别再缠着我了。”苏琴迅速的往周围看了一眼，他们正站在医院的大门口，还好没什么人留意他们。苏琴扔下袁野，迅速的往医院大楼里走去。 一口气跑进办公室，苏琴把皮包扔在桌面上，坐进自己的椅子里，大口喘气。 她的心在怦怦直跳。 她用手撑住自己的头，怎么办呢？那个警察，他注意到自己了。他还会再来找她吗？