Chapter 7 third quarter

When I came back to my senses, I found myself walking on the street... No, correct me, I can’t use the term of recovering from my senses once, and I’m not a sleepwalker.Yes, I know very well that this is my own will.It was 8:05 in the evening, the neon lights were flickering, people were passing by on the street, and the colorful lights shone on these people, but no one would be more blue than me now. I want to eat.I want to eat. The limit of fasting had already been reached yesterday...July 1st, and now it has surpassed the critical point, and I feel paralyzed. The stomach acid seems to corrode the entire stomach, which is terrifying.The countdown to becoming a mummy has already entered, and just facing the warm night wind blowing head-on, I feel as if my body is about to weather.

Hate!The blurred vision has worsened again. This is clearly the center of the metropolis, but I have to move forward in the mood of an explorer caught in a fog.The world in my eyes is ambiguous, even distorted, but whether the reason for the distortion lies in myself or in this world, I don't know. enough!Why do I have to encounter this kind of thing?I can no longer do what I used to do—eating chocolate sundaes, ramen, or going to a barbecue restaurant... These will never be realized, and the only food that can be eaten is human flesh.This is such a difficult setting, I feel like crying, because of this strange partial eclipse symptom, I have already been kicked out of my family, and the only doctor who treats me gently, Dr. Kurasaka, no longer exists in this world.I actually agree with the saying that people will live in their hearts after death, but there is no substance, just like a malfunctioning VCR, which makes people feel very uneasy. This feeling has already taken over my mind unconsciously. The body... the idea that it doesn't help.

Are you still not eating?The consciousness occupying my right half of my body was probably also generated during this process—moving and thinking arbitrarily, inciting me to eat human flesh, and then laughing at my right half of my body.Who is this right half?Is someone's soul living here in Chi?Or do I have a dual personality...anything goes. I move outward from the feed... no, the crowd, into the alley.If I was in the crowd like this again, I would definitely swing a kitchen knife and kill the people around me, and then I would eat their flesh. Uh?Did you just say a kitchen knife?What happened, I don't know.Bastard, I didn't prepare a kitchen knife at all, I didn't prepare, no, no, I shook my head desperately, desperately, desperately.

The worm in your stomach is telling you that the limit has been reached, if you don’t eat it, you will die!The right half of the body whispered in a disgusting voice: But you don't have to buy feed, so... you can only go hunting. Shut up!I can't say any more, I shouted in my heart, denying these words, I don't want to hear them, I can't hear them anymore. The seal was opened, it should have been sealed, the memory about the little girl began to wake up: the empty and deserted park, the hot weather, the red dress, the girl... No, don’t think about these things, it’s all in the past and the end - The past is over.

Resisting is also useless, useless, anyway, you still have to eat.The right side of the body said mockingly. I denied it, said there was no such thing, and that I could endure it. However, the right half of the body didn't stop laughing, and said contemptuously while laughing: You can only lie, you don't want to die at all. Although I am not reconciled, these words are not wrong-I don't want to die. All living things must sacrifice some other life in order to survive.Ordinary people break eggs or slaughter cows, but my subjects are human flesh - this has been emphasized again and again.The degree of sacrifice is different, and the weight of life is definitely not equal. It is a madman to compare quail chicks with human babies on the scale.

It doesn't matter which one is more important than others, life is meant to be consumed. Every time the right half of my body attacks my thoughts to pieces, it will definitely say such clever words.This is a kind of strategy, leather whips and candies... No, it's not so scheming. In short, this must be a psychological tactic to make me eat human flesh.I understand it in my head, but like a butterfly stuck on a spider's web, I can't escape those hypnotic words, which is also true. There's no need to worry so much, don't lions hunt as if nothing had happened? The right side of my body began to say sweet words, and these words flowed directly in my body, and it was useless to plug my ears.then……

I gave up resistance, I went to hunt prey, this is the behavior of obeying instinct, and it is the only way to survive.Just like humans in the Jomon period, hunting and slaughtering, the only options are: death or hunting, so of course - choose the latter. Ahh...is that what my resistance is all about?Is it only to this extent?It's too embarrassing, and there's nothing you can do about it, and the thought of being powerless is also embarrassing. Then come on!Left a line on the right side of his body, and sank into the deepest part of his spiritual consciousness again. Then, I finally realized that I was carrying a large Spalding sports backpack on my shoulders, which contained kitchen knives and dissection tools... Ah, I didn't put it here, it must be prepared for the right side of my body.While rubbing my blurred eyes, I walked back into the crowd again, and then recalled the hunting knowledge I had cultivated since ancient times, and began to search for prey, observing which one seemed easier to catch, easier to kill, and more fleshy. tasty……

It's a pity that the streets are full of middle-aged people who have been eroded by tobacco and alcohol, or fat mothers with a high percentage of fat, and I still can't find the prey I hoped for.Of course there are still young people, but they are all skin and bones without flesh, or guys who have injected drugs to stretch their muscles too exaggeratedly.Even if I don't check the body shape in detail, from the smell and complexion of each person, I can have a certain degree of understanding of the proportions and state of their muscles, even if they haven't eaten human flesh for many years.

While searching for prey, I walked into the commercial area unknowingly, there were many office workers who had just been released from overtime work, and I saw many women with messy footsteps, and then—— Then I spotted a fantastic couple, man and woman, in overly embellished, ostentatious clothes.I focused my blurred vision to look carefully. Among them, the girl was about my age, wearing revealing clothing that seemed to come out of a cartoon country, while the male was about twenty years old, wearing a full set of crimson armor from head to toe like a samurai , These two people stood in front of the entrance of the building, their strange clothes made me feel at a loss.

What is that? Did these two people come from some distant planet?At least the clothes on them are not what people in the real world would wear (the man is even armor).However, I haven't studied the clothing so seriously. Now I don't care about such minor things as clothing. What I pay attention to is the inside of the clothing—yes, the meat. that man.Although it was hidden behind the lineless armor, his muscles were of a high level. Just looking at his vigorous expression, it was as clear as touching with hands—qualified.It seems that the right side of the body is also very happy, and the area around the shoulder is convulsing.

I want to eat.I want to eat. If you don't close your mouth carefully, the saliva will flow out. At this moment, I have already regarded that young man in armor as food.That's right, it's too slow to convince myself now, I want to eat him, cut off his flesh, and take in the nutrients inside.My cannibalism has nothing to do with the acquisition of spiritual power, or any religious thoughts. I just want to eat. The girl in revealing dress and the young man in armor seemed to be looking for someone. After talking for a few words, the girl went into the building, leaving only the young man outside. This is called an opportunity, so don't procrastinate.The right side of my body calmly advised. The hot night wind is stirring me, and the sounds from the street cannot reach my ears.I really feel that sanity crumbles as easily as a Lego castle.My stomach is growling, if I don't fill up quickly, I will really starve to death. I took the first step to survive and approached the young man in armor. "Uh..." There is no strategy, it is completely play by ear. "Excuse me." "Huh?" The young man looked at me clumsily like a robot with few joints: "What—" I immediately fell in front of him, one third was acting, one third was true love, and one third was instinct. "You... are you alright?" The young man hurriedly wanted to pick me up, but he still looked like a robot lacking joints. He couldn't even do this, so he quickly but carefully took off the armor on his upper body , patted my cheek, and shook my shoulder. "Ah." I opened my eyes slightly, and muscular arms were surrounding my neck. "Uh--" "You... are you okay? Hey——" the young man shook me again, and the oversized sports backpack with the kitchen knife slipped from his shoulders, making the sound of metal impacting.In front of me is the broad chest of the young man, his body odor stimulates my nasal cavity - the smell of meat, my saliva is almost overflowing, and my appetite surges like sexual desire. "I'm fine..." I whispered deliberately. "I'll take you to the hospital right now." After he finished speaking, he was about to pick me up, but I stopped him. "I'm sorry, this...it's not a serious matter, it's just anemia." I left his arm, the young man responded a little bit, and asked again if it's really all right. "Well, it's fine." Now I am an acting actress, I was about to take a step forward, but I staggered deliberately, and then pressed my breasts against the young man's left arm. "This... is there something wrong with it at all." The young man's reaction was like that of an innocent child. He probably hadn't even touched a girl's breasts before, so he might still be a virgin. "It's better to take you to the hospital." "Excuse me—" I stared at him with weak eyes: "Can you please take me home? If it's not troublesome." If there was no lustful reaction from the other party, I would have given up, but the young man nodded and agreed without even showing any hesitation.Really, boys are really simple, why do men like sex more than women?It doesn't matter, anyway, thanks to this, I can easily catch prey. "Ah, wait a minute, I'll come as soon as I tell everyone." "Let's leave in silence." I firmly held the young man's hand, and of course, pressed it against his chest. "Don't tell anyone, okay?" "Ah... ah——" The young man looked at me with a surprised expression. I'm afraid he has never encountered such a thing as being seduced. He doesn't look so bad, but does he have no relationship with the opposite sex at all?Forget it, whatever. "Ah, wait a minute, I'm going to get the car keys and wallet." After he finished speaking, he let go of my hand and walked towards the opposite direction of the entrance with the armor in his hand. He must have entered and exited through the back door. Hey, you have the ability to be a slut, you can catch prey in this way. The right half of my body criticized me in a cold tone. This guy is really rude. When a woman uses a woman's weapon against the opposite sex, she will not feel any guilt or shame. Everyone should know this well. , I am disillusioned with the uneducated right side of my body. I waited in front of the building for about five minutes, and the young man came back in a hurry, wearing a shirt and jeans. "The car is parked in the parking lot opposite." He looked a little at a loss. "Then...then let's go?" Alas, why did it go so smoothly?There must be a god or something controlling my fate, that's all I can think of, isn't it? The young man and I walked to the parking lot, and we hardly spoke on the way. If we wanted to talk, we only introduced ourselves to each other. The young man is twenty-two years old and is said to be a Libra, but I only disclosed my name.He was driving a BLUEBIRD, and I sat in the passenger seat, putting my sports bag with my dissection tools at my feet, and the seat was so hard it felt ugly.At the same time as the car started, I found that the springs were almost useless, my buttocks and back were hurting, and my stomach was vibrating. The ride was extremely poor, and it couldn't be compared with Dr. Kurasaka's Mercedes-Benz. I felt even more frustrated. . "By the way, where is your home?" "Please drive to Fengping District first." "Is that Fengping? Okay, Fengping, Fengping..." The young man peeked at me with squinting eyes: "Uh, that...do you live alone?" "Yeah." I didn't lie. "My hometown is in Tokachi, so I live alone in an apartment." This is a lie.My parents also live in Sapporo, but I was forced to live alone, and they told me to get out of the house bluntly saying that they would pay the living expenses in full. "oh, I see……" "what does that mean?" "Yeah? Ah, no, it's not interesting." The young man turned the steering wheel vigorously, and the centrifugal force made my empty stomach shake. In order to avoid the pain, I could only look at his hand holding the steering wheel with a blurred vision.Ah, I really want to eat it quickly, I really want to bite and swallow that hand, digest it, ingest it, think about it...I feel my saliva is full, and I haven't eaten for two years I got fresh meat. I have only eaten frozen food and dry food for the past few years. Now I can eat young and fresh meat that has just lost its life and its internal organs are still alive... Thinking about it again, the worms in my stomach I started screaming, and I quickly interrupted my thoughts. The old and broken blue bird car entered Fengping District. Compared with the city center, the buildings and entrances here are very sparse. It is really a rural area. There are no neon lights, so it is very dark, and you can even count the stars in the night sky ——It is really the best environment tailor-made for killing. "That..." I put my resolution into action. "what?" "Not far from the road ahead, there is a park. Do you want to take a rest there first?" "Well, okay." He nodded clumsily. People with clumsy personalities are easier to deal with, which is beneficial to me. I directed him to drive into the park, arrived, got off, and there was no one around.The warm wind still surrounds me, the night air can make people feel at ease, the eyes gradually get used to the darkness, and the blurred vision subtly brings a comfortable feeling.I have a hunch that it will be completed smoothly. This may be an illusion, but if it is about confidence, it doesn't matter if it is an illusion at this moment. We walked into the small sports room, and I put my backpack beside me. The cold floor relieved my tension, the surrounding walls also calmed my nerves, and the darkness of the room made me even more enlightened.The right half of my body was saying something, but now is not the time, I opened the zipper of the backpack, checked that the kitchen knife was inside, and kept it ready to be taken out at any time. "This is for you." The young man handed me a can of Coke, probably bought from the vending machine in front of the park. "Thanks." "Is this the place you said you were going to rest?" he asked me.The gym room was darker than the night sky, and it took some effort to confirm his outline, especially for my blurred vision. "Don't you like swinging?" "Well, because I get dizzy." "Is it more dizzy than Zakk Wylde playing electric guitar?" "what?" "Then let's sit on a bench in the park, at least no one will get dizzy from sitting on a bench." "Sorry, I don't like the evening breeze." There is a possibility of being witnessed outdoors. "You don't even hate Coke, do you?" "Ah, no, I just don't want to drink now." "That backpack...in fact, it's fine to put it on the car." The outline of the young man moved slightly. "Is there anything important in there?" "Yeah." I nodded.At this moment, suddenly... my hands began to tremble, very strong spasms - trembling trembling trembling trembling trembling.Uh?How is this going? "That..." the young man whispered, as if he hadn't noticed my abnormal condition yet. "Ok?" "You, don't you mind that?" "What does that refer to?" The trembling of the hand couldn't stop, could it be... Is my reason resisting the upcoming behavior?For me who is about to cross the line, this is the last defense in my heart. It is for my own good, but it also causes me trouble. "That—it's that." He looked a little embarrassed, and from the blurred outline, he could see that he was shrinking his shoulders, as if someone had discovered his embarrassment. "That's right, my outfit just now." "Ah—" I understand. "You mean the armor, right? It's a bit eye-catching." "Well, that one is called COSPLAY." "Puzzle the general class?" You can call it whatever you want, but what is more important than that, and what is more important than anything else, is the confusion in my heart.Why?The weight of life is irrelevant, because all are equal in value as food, meat is meat, didn't I just define it? "Well, it is to order the clothes of cartoon animation or novel characters to wear, and imitate the appearance in them. By the way, the one you saw just now is an animation called "Legend of Armor". I pretended to be in it—" When the young man said this, he suddenly stopped talking. "Ah... do you think I'm a weirdo?" "Eh? No, it's okay, you tell me." "Really? That's great. COSPLAY, ah, has not been accepted by the public in society, and occasionally appears on TV, and is also viewed with colored eyes, saying that we are imitating the appearance of artists, although it is not too big. difference." "That's it..." It's tiring to respond to the other person's words, I hope he can shut up, because I'm already busy convincing myself.There is nothing wrong, yes, there is nothing wrong with my thinking, what is wrong with catching prey?Prey are meant to be caught. "And if it's in Tokyo, it doesn't matter. In Hokkaido, it's just in its infancy. No, I mean for the general public. Fortunately, recently, it feels like it has been extended to more..." My ears got farther and farther away, and I could no longer hear the voice of the young man, and then...the right half of my body appeared, to break my resistance. The right side of the body spoke: Eat it, eat it, just like back then, eat it. "What's the matter?" Looking from his breath, he felt the outline of the young man approaching. "Just now, was it Xiao Xiao who was shaking? Is it my illusion?" "Ah, it's okay." I gritted my teeth and nodded, pretending to be calm. "Really? Ah... Well, are you interested in cosplay? I think you will be very suitable." "I don't know much about cartoon animation and stuff like that." "It's okay, it's okay, you don't need to know such details, um, then, do you have any clothes that you want to wear?" The young man with only outlines left began to get hot from his own eyes: "Sure enough, I still want Chinese clothes or clothes. Nurse uniforms are king, but nurse uniforms are... um? Did you shake your head just now? Why did you shake your head so hard?" "Nothing, I'm not interested, and I don't have any clothes I want to wear." I put my head in my hands and replied quickly. "Oh, so...it's a pity that you are not interested. Ah, I don't mean anything else, please don't misunderstand...thinking?" He raised his voice suspiciously: "Sure enough, you are shaking your head, aren't you? What's the matter, it's shaking so badly—" I sliced ​​the young man's throat with a kitchen knife.He made noises like "cracking" and "cuckling", and fell back. The warm liquid violently splashed on my face. I didn't need to confirm it to know it was blood.I seem to have succeeded in severing his entire carotid artery, and the youth should have died swiftly. I took out the flashlight in my backpack to shine on his face, and I already rolled my eyes, that expressionless face was stained red with my own blood.My clothes and hair are also covered with the same red liquid, let's take a good shower when I get back.Instead of procrastinating, I immediately set about dissecting the prey.The first thing is to take off his whole body clothes. As I expected, there is a fit body with well-proportioned limbs, which is great! I confirmed that his throat was injured and he couldn't make a sound, so I stabbed the kitchen knife under his belly button, only cut a little bit, it was still fresh, I felt nostalgic, and I wanted to cry for some reason.Then I put my right hand into his body to confirm the position of the internal organs, it was still warm, as long as my hand moved, he would twitch slightly when he just became a corpse.I'm content with this response indicating freshness.Pulling out his intestines, the intestines wriggled fiercely as if surprised by the outside world, reminiscent of animal tentacles. I cut his stomach even further, then took out the hammer from the backpack, and hit his ribs with all my strength. There was a pounding sound in the body, and fat and blood flowed from the split skin. come out.Then I took out the broken rib rather than the broken one, inserted the small knife in it, and carefully severed the blood vessels leading to the heart, and pulled out the whole heart cleanly. A red and black piece of meat is in front of my eyes, ahhh - it's the heart!My stomach is growling, my saliva is flowing out, I really want to eat, I really want to eat.The prey has been caught, and finally there is a sense of reality, the dinner I haven't seen for a long time, and the fresh human flesh I haven't seen in two years.The smell of blood and meat filled the gymnasium, surrounded by meat, meat—it was meat. I took out all the internal organs, liver and kidneys, nothing was left, then the limbs, and then I cut off the head.I aimed the small saw at the thigh, and sure enough, it was difficult to cut the meat that had not been frozen. The meat was too soft, and there was yellow subcutaneous fat stuck to it. The saw teeth kept sliding away. The fatigue level of this project was the same as that of sawing wood ( No, I haven't sawed wood), I'm sweating, my arms are numb, and even then I won't put down the saw to rest my hands, why?Because the taste of meat depends on freshness. In order to cut off the hands, feet and head, I used two saws, and then I cut off part of the abdomen, chest and buttocks, and put them in plastic bags, and the severed limbs and head, I put them in sports bag.I packed up the dissection tools, and the whole operation took less than an hour. What was left in the gym room was only a part of the body. Maybe I was a little too greedy. I put on the prepared shirt, put away the blood-dripping clothes, and picked up the sports backpack. I took it for granted that my ears were very heavy, and I was really too greedy.I poked my head out of the sports room and checked the surroundings. It doesn't matter. There is no human breath. It is very safe. Don't worry.I picked up my backpack and tiptoed out of the park with clumsy turtle speed.I didn't leave fingerprints on his car, anyway, at least that sort of thing would come to my mind first. After returning to the apartment and taking a shower, come and enjoy the fresh heart.Just by imagining myself eating a fresh heart, I feel like a movie is about to start playing, and I want to fly to the end of the night sky.Thank God, thank you for the joy of having something to eat, and everything else... What a reality.I couldn't help but smile wryly, just before the hunt, I was obviously still arguing about this and that in my head, but after I cut the young man's throat, I don't know if it was because I intuitively felt that I had meat to eat, and all the original struggle disappeared. After swallowing the throat, it doesn't matter what it is, is that the case?So, are all my struggles in vain?Is the pain for ten days meaningless? A little lost, a little empty...