Chapter 8 seven

We paid the price in blood for this ambush in the cold wind. My left hand was scratched on the ground, and the blood flowed profusely.Xiao Han asked Kang Cheng displeasedly: "What are you doing here? This matter has nothing to do with you." Kang Cheng said expressionlessly: "Is this possible? Hurry up and get in the car!" Kang Cheng's sudden appearance exceeded our expectations .The four of us got into the front silently, the car was walking in the night, the four of us looked at each other, and each buried our heads.Kang Cheng suddenly sighed and said, time flies so fast, half a year has passed.No one answered Kang Cheng's words, and the car returned to silence.The night became thicker, and a northerly wind blew outside the window.The taxi driver drove for a while and thought of asking where we were going, Xiao Han said to drive you!The driver continued along Chang'an Avenue.

"What's the date tomorrow? It's New Year's Day!" I suddenly remembered that tomorrow is New Year's Day.What happened to Kang Sung made us lose track of time. "It's New Year's Day!" said the fat taxi driver. Kang Cheng took a breath and said, "Let's watch the flag raising!" "Good idea!" I quickly agreed with Kang Cheng's proposal, then looked at Xiao Han and Li Jun and said, "I haven't seen the flag raising in Beijing for so long!" Xiao Neither Han nor Li Jun said a word, Kang Cheng said to the driver: "Master, you go to Tiananmen Square!" The road was clean at night, and the car arrived at Tiananmen Square very quickly. We got off the car and went straight to the square.We were stopped by the police while walking on the side of the Chairman Mao Memorial Hall. They asked us what we were doing. We said we were looking at the flag raising. The police asked us what kind of flag was being raised at 1:00 a.m. and asked us for ID cards. None of the four of us had ID cards, and Kang Cheng was still covered with gauze, like an enemy who loves to engage in sabotage activities, the police told us to go with him.

"Comrade policeman, do you think we look like bad guys? We just have nothing to do at night and want to watch the flag raising early." I begged the fat policeman sincerely. The policeman said: "Stop talking nonsense. When I saw you, you seemed to have nothing to do. You stayed at home when you had nothing to do. You didn't stay at home at night in winter, and you were still injured. What do you think you are doing?" I want to argue again, the police Said: "Stop talking nonsense, let's talk about it later." Kang Cheng said: "I..." "Stop talking nonsense!" We all felt that what we said was nonsense, let him tell you, probably not Big problem.But when I heard "inside", I panicked. I had a cousin who played at our house until 12 o'clock and came home at night. He was arrested by the police on the street in his hometown and locked up for one night.The next day their family called our family to ask for someone. We said he had gone back a long time ago, and his mother was so anxious that he went back with mosquito bites all over his face.The problem we face is that it’s okay for one night, but in winter, if there is no heating inside, our fate will be worse than mosquito pimples. If we get frostbite, I’m not sure that I will remember this midnight wandering experience for the rest of my life.We obediently followed behind the policeman with a big belly. I felt uneasy, and fumbled in my pockets as I walked, hoping to find evidence to prove our identity. In the end, I was found in the inner layer of the leaky pocket of the cotton-padded jacket, which ran almost to the back. work permit.

I told the police that I had my papers.The policeman stopped and said, "If you have a certificate, we will talk about it tomorrow morning. We would rather wrong a good person than a bad person. This is to be responsible to the people." If he wants to be responsible to the people, we have nothing to do.None of us spoke or thought any more. We were taken into a police car on duty, and the fat policeman went with the police car.The siren sounded when the police car drove halfway, Xiao Han suddenly laughed in the car, and whispered: I guess he hasn't even caught a chicken in half a year, otherwise he wouldn't be so excited.We also laughed.The fat policeman turned his head from the passenger seat in front of the car and said, "Be serious, no jokes are allowed." Our faces tensed immediately.

The car soon arrived at a police station, and we got out of the car solemnly.Immediately, several policemen on duty came out of the house, and asked the fat policeman nonchalantly: "Catch four!" The fat policeman said: "Four mental patients, lock them up first, and wait until dawn." We were then taken outside a temporary prison room with iron bars, and filled out our names, ages, and jobs on a form. Work unit, marriage... I'm afraid this is the evidence for committing crimes in the future.After I finished filling it out, I said with a sincere and serious face: "I have a certificate, and we are definitely very law-abiding people." There was still an element of dissatisfaction in my voice.The fat policeman glanced at me, stretched out his hand and said: Show me!I took my work card out of my pocket and handed it to him.He took my work card.He glanced at my work permit, then at me, back and forth several times, like an old hen eating, and finally confirmed that it was my work permit.

The fat policeman handed me his work permit and yelled, "If you don't do a good job, what are you doing out at night?" We mumbled that we had too much to drink. "I think you all seem to be drinking too much, so stay here to sober up." I quickly muttered, "Why don't you let me go back and get their ID cards?" The fat policeman thought for a few seconds and said, "They stay, You go to get your ID card first, how far is it?" "Half an hour, it will take half an hour to come back." "Stop talking nonsense, you go!" The fat policeman waved his hand at me.

Several other people were locked in the iron fence. I made a face for them outside and hugged my fists and said: "Brothers, take care, I will be back soon." Li Jun scolded: "You traitor! Get out of here !" I took my ID card and came back to lead them out. Before releasing us, the fat policeman earnestly taught us young people to learn well. Watching Kang Cheng, he also said that a dog that is good at fighting can't lose a good dog skin.We were all silent and hurried out when he said we could go. It was already 4 o'clock in the morning, and people started to move on the street. The cold was overwhelming and our chest hurt. We started to run on the street.When we arrived at Tiananmen Square, there were already many people watching the flag raising gathered around the flagpole.We took a position that we thought was good.

After waiting for a long time, the soldiers from the national flag class came out. Our feet were already sore from the cold, and others’ feet were also sore from the cold, so everyone started stomping their feet, and there was a crackling sound in the square.Everyone knew that it was not time to raise the flag, but they still looked up at the top of the flagpole from time to time, showing different attachments.Many people came from other places, and they seemed to be very well prepared for watching the national flag raising, covering their faces, wearing thick clothes, and carrying video cameras and cameras.

Suddenly the sound of stomping stopped, and we hurriedly looked towards the entrance of Tiananmen Gate, and a neat square formation appeared in front of us in the morning light.Walking in front was a tall flag bearer, followed by two flag bearers, followed by a phalanx not far from the three in front. Every time they took a step, they made a uniform stepping sound, the sound was thick, firm, and decisive, as if the drumbeat was beating on my heart, and under the more and more intense beatings, I was like a flag rising higher and higher, forgetting People around him don't even know they exist.From the heights, I seem to see a great era is coming, and I devote myself to the great cause of selflessness. At this solemn moment, I imagine the sun rising on the sea level in the east, and the vast light dispels the dense clouds, and I feel bright in my heart. , Some tiny wishes and inferiority complex evaporated with the clouds, leaving only a piece of blue in my heart.

Kang Cheng stood beside me. His head wrapped in white gauze was particularly eye-catching in the crowd. It was stubbornly raised high, watching the rising of the national flag motionless, without even blinking its eyelashes. Breathing made his chest rise and fall, his lips moved slowly, as if he was reciting a hymn silently, and his Adam's apple stood there like a high mountain.I saw a moist luster on his face, and a line of clear tears slowly flowing to the corner of his mouth. After watching the national flag raising, the crowd has already started to disperse to Tiananmen Square, looking for their own scenic spots.This is a place full of dialectics.When I first came here, I was shocked by its grandeur. I stood in the center of the square for a long time, and I couldn't describe the emotion in my heart with words.For a melancholy period I came once a day, until I was in it as I was anywhere else.For a long time, I have forgotten her, until today I discovered that her charisma has never changed, only myself has changed.Every day, people with different skin colors come from all over the world to see not the scenery, but to feel a kind of power.This kind of power is very vague, whether you are proud or frustrated in life, you can feel the power you need from this square.

We wandered along the road home, neither of us spoke.The sky began to drift some fine snow graupel.When we got to Liubukou, Kang Cheng said thoughtfully, I should leave.He uttered words very slowly, as if he was thinking while speaking, and the words he spoke were more indisputable. "What did you say?" I pressed. "I want to be quiet for a while, and then leave this place." The meaning of Kang Cheng's words was very vague, as if he didn't think clearly about what he wanted to say. "You mean leaving Beijing?" I was secretly startled. "No, I won't leave Beijing. I don't know this place yet, how could I leave so easily?!" Kang Cheng seemed to be justifying, with an unyielding expression on his face. "Then what do you mean by leaving?" "Leaving the factory!" "Why?" "Dignity is threatened!" Kang Cheng was competing with someone in his heart, and his tone was heavy and exaggerated.I connected his expression when watching the flag raising, and felt that his decision to leave the factory was not made on impulse. Goose feathers and heavy snow were flying all over the sky, Xiao Han and Li Jun walked in front with their heads bowed in silence, leaving behind two white backs.Kang Cheng shrugged his shoulders slightly, taking every step carefully to avoid slipping.Looking at the heavy snowflakes flying all over the sky, I began to think about what it means to have my dignity threatened?What is Dignity Threatened?Lines of clear footprints seem to be an answer sheet full of words, making me nostalgic for the era of college scholar business.Dignity threatened?I rarely have such profound rhetorical questions, only some specific complaints. Kang Cheng threw this sentence into the snow, as if it was broken into thousands of snowflakes, flying all over the sky. Although I can’t see their specific shapes clearly, I can feel it. A state of mind where dignity is threatened is not a specific event, but a feeling that oppresses the person, makes you feel breathless, slow to move, unable to express yourself, you can only be an adverbial expressed by others, And it will be deleted when appropriate. I stepped up to catch up with Kang Cheng, and asked, "Do you mean that I have very little initiative?" "No." Kang Cheng continued to take big steps in the snow. "Self-esteem is threatened, it is very insecure, and it is possible to be trampled at any time. This trend is very obvious, but you can't stop it, and you can't meet it, so your dignity is threatened. This pressure is greater than anything else." "You mean no sense of security?" "No sense of dignity and security!"...Maybe Kang Cheng has a strange understanding of dignity. I just vaguely perceive that dignity rarely surfaced on the surface of life, and more often It is self-esteem that is hurt. Self-esteem is not as serious as dignity. Self-esteem is less likely to be hurt when you do not emphasize yourself. Watching the flag raising at Tiananmen became a symbol of Kang Cheng's stage life.Later, he recuperated endlessly in the dormitory, often meditating with Dante's "Divine Comedy" in his arms.I took the "Divine Comedy" from him and read it carefully. I feel that I don't have the talent to appreciate this kind of high-end literary works. It is a very bad way to gather all the contradictions in it to show people, and such Poetry is really not for ordinary people who lack high-level complaints, but Kang Cheng read it with relish. I asked Kang Cheng what is the benefit of watching "The Divine Comedy" for dignity. Kang Cheng said that watching "The Divine Comedy" can strengthen people's beliefs. The significance of his watching "Divine Comedy" goes beyond the pleasure of reading itself.I began to feel that my dignity was threatened by Kang Cheng. I didn’t dare to talk about abstract topics with Kang Cheng easily. He lived in very abstract concepts. I would feel very inferior when discussing topics such as dignity or meaning with him. Feeling of threat. By the time spring came and the flowers bloomed, Kang Cheng's injury had healed early, and his body had obviously gained weight.At this time, Kang Cheng was ready to leave the factory for work.He drafted three resumes and let us evaluate which one was better.We carefully read Kang Cheng's resume, secretly learned how to write a resume, and knew that an English resume is called RESUME.Kang Cheng copied many copies of the Chinese and English RESUME, his graduation certificate, degree certificate and many award certificates into a medium-sized kraft paper envelope, and then opened the recruitment notice of "Beijing Youth Daily".During a period of time, he bought a lot of "Beijing Youth Daily" and only read the recruitment notices on them.In his logic, "Beijing Youth Daily" is expensive to advertise, and those who can place job advertisements on it must be big companies or companies with strong strength, and it is precisely such companies that he wants to go to. Kang Cheng’s dormitory has the feel of a correspondence university or a literary grand prix. The table is full of opened and unopened envelopes. He will carefully screen every incoming letter, hoping to read more valuable information from it. , as the basis for him to judge whether he can join the company.His ideal is a large company with modern enterprise management methods and loose interpersonal relationships.So he believes in joint ventures or foreign companies. Soon, Kang Cheng took a fancy to a company that provides Internet access services, and they called themselves ISP.Although Kang Cheng has never been on the Internet, he has heard about Internet and is full of expectations for such a new industry.The most important thing is that the company's letter made Kang Cheng feel dignified and respected, because this was the first time that Kang Cheng was called "Mr." in a very formal text.The letter is reproduced as follows: Dear Mr. Kang Cheng: Hello!We have carefully read your letter, and through your self-introduction, we have learned some basic information about you, and we deeply feel that you are exactly the career fellow we need very much.In order to let you have a more detailed understanding of our business, and to enable us to have more in-depth communication, we sincerely invite you to come to our company on March 8th. IHW Corporate Human Resources Department March 1, 1996