Chapter 19 5. He relied on the spirit of Lei Feng to support his inhuman fate for decades

"Old landlord, a manure tank in the production team broke today, go down and fix it!" The first time someone called him Landlord, Chen Yuepan said, "I have a name." He was taken aback for a moment and said, "You are Landlord, what can't you call him? Go and do the work!" Chen Yuepan breathed a sigh of relief, but after finishing the work, she was so exhausted that she forgot about the breath. Instead, she summed up happily: "I have taken another step on the long march of being a farmer." "Old landlord, today is New Year's Day, and the members of the commune are on holiday. The sows in the production team are going to give birth, and no one will take care of them. You can move to the pig shed to take care of them!" The production team leader didn't even have a tone of discussion when he said this. , is entirely imperative.Chen Yue was on the verge of talking, and wanted to say that he also hoped to visit his grandson at his son's place during the New Year's Day holiday, but when he just opened his mouth to speak, the other party had already disappeared.

"Old landlord, there has been a word recently that you 'four types of members' will have to ask for leave when you go out, and you don't have to go to the morning market in the town every day." Another notice said. Chen Yuepan stood there wanting to say something but didn't know what to say, because he felt more and more that only others were constantly giving him various orders and restrictions, and he had no chance to express his opinions, even if he could utter half a sentence , People don't listen or answer at all. Landlord?Am I really a landlord?Why do landlords have to be subject to so many restrictions?Why is it so restrictive to me?

"Why? Just because you are a big landlord. Why do you say? A joke." One day Chen Yuepan would be able to speak, but people just answered him like this. This time Chen Yuepan was really angry. When he got home, he picked up a pen and wrote a letter to the student who had been his student and worked in underground work during the Anti-Japanese War and who was now the leader of the Changshu County Party Committee. One day passed, ten days passed, one month and two months passed, and Chen Yuepan still did not expect a reply from the county magistrate.Once Chen Yuepan heard that the student surnamed Zhong came to the brigade to inspect the work, Chen Yuepan took the opportunity to go to the front of the inspection team, and wanted to ask his student face to face, but when he saw the "old landlord" walking towards him from a distance, He asked the commune's armed minister next to him: "How do you manage the 'four types of elements' (that is, the author's note from the rich and anti-evil)?" Opened: "You old landlord, why are you so wicked? Go back and punish me as a coolie for three days!"

Chen Yuepan, in grief and indignation, wrote letter after letter to his acquaintances, classmates, and comrades-in-arms who were now leaders in the government and the army. He thought: So many people who fought with him in the past There are always a few people who know me, Chen Yuepan, so they should come out and speak some justice for me, right?So he waited and waited, and suddenly one day, the battalion commander of the brigade militia found him, holding a large stack of letters in his hand, threw it at Chen Yuepan unceremoniously, and said with a straight face: "In the future, you should hand in the letters to outsiders first." We, and then we will see if we should send it out."

That day, after Chen Yuepan heard this, she didn't recover from her shock for a long time: Why, I don't even have the right to write letters? From then on, he never wrote a letter of appeal to any colleague, comrade-in-arms, or classmate who had participated in the revolution with him or was saved by him in the past.He said in his heart: You have high eyes, but I, Chen, have high hearts. Afterwards, Chen Yuepan, who knew the world well, made an important decision: Wife and children, you should never associate with me again. I live alone, and you all live your own lives. Leave me alone as a "landlord"!

Chen Yuepan has 3 sons and 3 daughters, the eldest son is also from the underground party, and the others are educated.Those who participated in the revolution and did revolutionary work kept away from him. This time he issued a "family rule" to the children telling them not to "foul", otherwise they would not have the surname Chen. The most difficult decision for Chen Yuepan was his cowardly wife who had depended on each other for life in the past.I am already in my 50s, what kind of love is there for my son and daughter: "You have a long way to go, just go down as you want." He said unfeeling words to his wife.But when his wife bid him farewell with tears, Chen Yuepan couldn't help but burst into tears this time... As the saying goes, when you are in your early 50s, you are entangled with serious illnesses.The tragedy of life is nothing more than living alone in old age.But for an "old landlord", what else should others worry about?Chen Yuepan looked at the back of his virtuous wife, and the past suddenly appeared in front of her eyes——

His wife's name is Yucai, and she is a virtuous woman.4 years younger than Chen.At that time, their marriage was arranged by adults. Chen Yuepan was only 17 years old when they got married, and she was still studying in Suzhou.Due to the influence of the new trend of thought, Chen Yuepan had the idea of ​​escaping marriage at first.Three days before the wedding, he was still wandering in Shanghai. Later, he thought that his father died when he was 9 years old. It was not easy for his mother to bring him up. If he wanted to escape the marriage after becoming a groom, his mother would definitely jump into the river and commit suicide. Due to his filial piety, Chen Yuepan reluctantly accepted the marriage, but on the night of entering the bridal chamber, Chen Yuepan blamed the little lady for accepting the arranged marriage in a rather angry tone.He wants her to leave him and find happiness elsewhere.Then the bride cried.Chen You coaxed and said, "Let me think of a way for you: After I go to school, you can sneak out of our Chen family, just leave a note. Then I can send half of the dowry to your natal family."14 The young bride, Yucai, heard what the "little official" said, and felt that he was kind and amiable, so when Chen went to school, she not only did not leave, but also became the daughter-in-law of the Chen family in a serious manner.Half a year later, when Chen Yuepan returned home after graduating from Suzhou, she saw that marriage had become an unchangeable trend, so she died of that desire.From then on he taught his wife how to read.When Chen Yuepan was the principal of a primary school in the countryside, his wife also became a teacher in the school.Since then, Chen Yuepan has been participating in revolutionary work outside, and his wife took the children and took care of her mother-in-law, and stayed in a small town near her hometown to teach.It was during the days when Chen Yuepan returned to the countryside from Shanghai after failing to instigate against Xiong Jiandong, his wife and children lived in the town all the time, but moved in with Chen when the holidays came.Those days were warm to Chen Yuepan, but now everything has to change, and it will change forever...

Chen Yuepan felt a heart-wrenching pain.But what can I do, because I am the target of the dictatorship of the proletariat, and I am a hated landlord element! Farewell, all love between sons and daughters, and all the inconsistencies in the world, will all go with the hat on my head that says "landlord divides evenly".The autumn wind was bleak, Chen Yue squatted on the grass-covered field ridge with the sound of frogs on both sides, facing the cold moon hanging in the sky, her heart was full of infinite fear.He knew that what he was facing would be one after another severe cold and one storm after another that he could never imagine.

I don't know when it started, even Chen Yuepan himself didn't understand that he, who has always regarded himself as a revolutionist and an "enlightened landlord", can no longer find the feeling of himself before. It was an unusually cold time."Resolutely suppress the class enemy" was shouted all day long from the loudspeaker! Slogans such as "completely smash Chiang Kai-shek's conspiracy to counterattack the mainland".From the piercing broadcast, Chen Yuepan finally understood what was going on. It turned out that the Lao Jiang devils entrenched in Taiwan daydreamed to counterattack the mainland!Hmph, this "Damn Jiang" is not giving up!

One day, Chen Yuepan approached the production team leader and said, "I know the Kuomintang very well, and I know a little about Chiang Kai-shek's temper. He is talking about counterattacking the mainland. It is just talk, it is absolutely impossible, don't believe him." Unexpectedly, the production team leader's eyes widened, and he asked, "How do you know that Lao Jiang will not attack the mainland?" Within a few days, Chen Yuepan was called to a meeting of members of the brigade.He was escorted to the front by two militiamen, who ordered him to bow his head.

Chen Yuepan didn't understand, and asked why did you make me bow my head? Without saying a word, the militiaman took a step forward and pressed his head down hard: "You old landlord, if you are told to bow your head, just keep it!" Later, after cadres and representatives of commune members came to the stage to speak, Chen Yuepan realized that he had become a "ghost and snake spirit" who "paralyzed the fighting spirit of the masses and tried to help Chiang Kai-shek counterattack the mainland"! That day, Chen Yuepan felt that it was the most humiliating day for him.Facing the sky, Chen Yuepan shouted: "God, you testify, I have been an enemy of Chiang Kai-shek since the 1920s, and treat him as an enemy. How could I join forces with him? God, You will testify against me! Ah, speak! One by one" God is silent. Chen Yuepan knelt on the ridge of the field in grief, unable to get up for a long time... "Then came the 'Four Cleanups Movement', and I became a typical class enemy who corrupted cadres." Chen Yuepan pointed to my father and said, "Your father has the most experience during these days." I turned to ask my father, who was removed from power during the Four Cleansing Movement. Smoking a cigarette, my father said to me with a wry smile: "At that time, one of my main 'crimes' was that the class line was not clearly drawn. To say that we reuse the old landlord means to reuse Mr. Chen." "What's going on? Tell me, or else I've been wronged for nothing after being the child of a 'resigned cadre' for so many years." I half-truthfully asked my father who was sitting on the side. "Actually, it's just a little shit." It can be seen that my father's inner anger is still stuck in his chest. "At that time, the county called on all communes to write a small history of local chronicles. After our brigade accepted the task, we felt that we should find someone who understands history and some cultures. People came to do this. When I lined up, I felt that Mr. Chen Yuepan was the only person in the production brigade who knew our history here and was the most educated person in the brigade, so I decided to ask him to write a short history of local chronicles. Later, the short history was completed and published. After the 'Four Cleanups Movement' started, this incident became a major issue of class struggle. They said that I, as the captain of the brigade, had no concept of class struggle at all, which gave the landlords a loophole to write a change of account, and said that the small history actually changed. It became Chen Yuepan and his group of class enemies who set up a monument for themselves. So I was knocked down because my class position was unstable and I had serious political problems.” Chen Yuepan took over and said: "The conscience of heaven and earth, in order to write that short history, I spent a lot of time looking up the information, and then proofread it year by year and person by person. The thing about 'changing the sky' also harmed your father and several main cadres of the commune. It's justified and I can't explain it clearly. Alas, it's so sad." Needless to say, in the days to come, Chen Yuepan became an out-and-out class enemy, and a "very dangerous enemy". He completely lost the freedom and dignity of being a human being. "At that time, I seemed to be living like a zombie..." The old man lowered his head in pain.After a long time, he raised his head, his face returned to normal, and said: "That year, I was moved by the story of learning from Lei Feng on the radio. I heard Lei Feng's story over and over again, and I thought this little comrade Lei Feng was amazing! He Although he can only do some good deeds, it may seem that he does good deeds for others regardless of any gain or loss, and is willing to do good deeds for others from the bottom of his heart. This is not easy! I thought, I am an old landlord, and I used to do good deeds for the new China I have made some contributions and done some good deeds. Now I am regarded as a bad person, but as long as I don’t regard myself as a bad person or a bully in my heart, I can still do some good things for this society. Being able to do good deeds is a kind of happiness! After that, I calmed down, and I did whatever the production team asked me to do. After the farm work was done, I would help neighbors and some people in the production team who lack labor. Be a good person! Once I become a good person, people will no longer treat me as a bully... This is how a new day begins." But Chen Yuepan didn't expect that it would be difficult for him to be a good person. Immediately afterwards came the stormy "Cultural Revolution" movement.As the only landlord in the production brigade, Chen Yuepan was the first to be the target of all kinds of criticism and parades.The following shots are what I saw with my own eyes as a member of the "Red Little Soldier"—— Shot 1: In the brigade warehouse, Chen Yuepan, wearing a black padded jacket, stood on the criticism stage, with the signboard of "Bully Landlord" with an "X" on his chest; From time to time, I chanted slogans such as "Down with the bully landlord Chen Yuepan" and "Chen Yuepan, a landlord who will never stand up", until finally he was escorted by a group of rebels to tour the village... Shot 2: Early in the morning, in the mighty parade, the "land rich and anti-corruption" of each production brigade were ranked behind the "capitalist roaders", and each held a paper-made comparison to himself Cows, ghosts, snakes, and gods are twice as tall.Chen Yuepan was the only landlord in my production brigade, so he was paraded in the streets every time. Chen was originally small, and he wore a pair of glasses and hugged a "bison" twisting with socialism. , so it looks funny and funny.According to the needs of the street parade, every time they come to a lively street center or intersection, the "ghosts and snake gods" such as the "capitalist roaders" and Chen Yuepan will shout slogans to defeat themselves a few times, and then hug each other to show "go." "Capitalists" and ghosts and monsters are a group of bad guys.It stands to reason that my father, as a "capitalist roader", would also be included in the parade. Since he was young at the time and had no problems in history, it was not his turn to parade.But Uncle Ruikang, who worked side by side with my father for more than ten years as the branch secretary of the brigade, was miserable. I heard that he was a security chief before liberation, so he was dragged out time and time again to parade around the streets with Chen Yuepan and his "ghosts and snake gods". criticize.I saw with my own eyes that the rebels insisted that Uncle Ruikang and Chen Yuepan hug each other, but I didn't realize that these two were both in distress;This is not bad!The rebels "through the living reality" from Yuepan and Uncle Ruikang "saw that the capitalist roaders and the landlord class are the enemies of the people who vent their anger". Both Chen Yuepan and Uncle Ruikang later became the "Cultural Revolution" The center focused on guarding and denouncing the targets, and they were tortured and persecuted. The old man couldn't help but gently pressed his wrinkled hands to his chest, and then massaged clockwise. I saw it and felt that the old man seemed to be stroking the wound that was still bleeding... "But you miraculously survived, and lived a healthier and longer life than others!" I intentionally changed the atmosphere. Chen Yuepan, who was about to turn 100 years old, had a sudden smile on her face when she heard this: "No, I lived almost the entire 20th century for 100 years, and I also experienced all the ups and downs of the 20th century, but I lived well, He is still deaf and blind. If you don’t believe me, take a look.” He said, he stepped out of the threshold of my house, jumped a few times in the yard, and turned around a few times, and then asked me repeatedly: “Look I can't die, can I?" "Definitely!" My father and I happily helped Mr. Chen into the room and sat down again.When serving him a cup of tea, I sincerely asked the old man: "You have gone through so many hardships, why are you still so healthy and long-lived? Is there really a secret recipe for health preservation passed down from your ancestors?" "Hahaha"..."Yes, yes, of course!" Mr. Chen stroked his beard and laughed heartily.Then he told me mysteriously: "It's the 'landlord elements' passed down to me by my ancestors!" My father, my father and the "old landlord" suddenly laughed together.Unexpectedly, Chen Yuepan is an optimist today! Speaking of this, Mr. Chen reached into his pocket and took out two thin small books, "This is my collection of poems. I know that you are a writer in the capital, so I brought it to you specially. I will find the book first. A little poem, and I’ll give you the book again.” The old man flipped through it seriously, and then read it to me with gusto: "This is a five-character poem titled "Laiyou". On the road, listen to the sound of wild birds. The haze is very lonely, and the shadows of the stream are also diverse; the bridge stands beside the parting bridge, and the gurgling water goes down to the river..." "Good, full of poetic and picturesque flavor." I applauded and couldn't help snatching Mr. Chen's poetry collection. "Most of these 200 poems were written while I was wearing the title of 'landlord'. It's a pity, if the rebels hadn't copied them during the 'Cultural Revolution', I would have left nearly 2,000 poems. The only thing left in the world." Chen Yuepan's sudden melancholy, which only cultured people have, deeply infected me.A well-known cultural celebrity, after the great revolution of the national liberation movement, did not become a hero of the revolution, but instead was labeled as a "landlord" for decades.But fate made him live tenaciously for nearly a century after being tortured and tortured. An intellectual and a loyal revolutionary, after decades of being a "bad guy" and becoming a pure farmer Isn't it worth exploring what kind of life mentality should be at that time? It must be wonderful, and it must be mysterious. When I opened the two collections of mimeographed poems describing the life trajectory of this "old landlord", I fully confirmed my curiosity. Mr. Chen's two collections of poems are titled "Riding a Bull Collection" and "Wild Polygonum Collection" respectively.It was his 90th birthday when it was compiled, and I didn't fully understand the titles of his two collections of poems, but after reading "Postscript", I knew that the inner world of this "old landlord" was as bright and broad as a mirror. The "Postscript" of the collection of poems reads: ... When he returned to his hometown after participating in the revolution, he was already 43 years old.I am confident that I can learn to farm, not afraid of the cold wind and scorching sun, and become a hardworking and simple Chinese farmer.I wanted to "plow hard" a long time ago, and recite lovely pastoral poems like Tao Yuanming; I especially noticed that Chen Yuepan's "Postscript" was signed with "Ajizi" at the end. This pen name that has accompanied him for nearly a hundred years made me reassert the "bully landlord" who had been a "bully landlord" for nearly half a century. famous cultural person. What kind of century is the 20th century? The 20th century is a century of splendid culture for mankind.The cultural people created the most glorious century in the history of mankind, but the 20th century was the century when the Chinese cultural people became the most painful group of lonely people.Perhaps Chen Yuepan is a typical representative of the most painful and lonely among countless cultural people. When I was thinking so hard, he came to me on crutches again: "I have been alone at home for decades, and I can't stay any longer. I want to relive the experience of being a cultural person in the limited time of my life." Feeling. Oh, how long ago!" Due to the particularity of his identity, I admire and even find it incredible how the old Mr. Chen Yuepan, who has been an "old landlord" for decades, can face adversity, calm his life with a broad mind and a mirror-like state of mind.From the "Land Reform Movement" in the early days of liberation to the early 1980s, five or six years before that, Chen Yuepan was disarmed and returned to the farmland after failing to instigate the rebellion against Xiong Jiandong. During these long years of frustration, as a literati, he was able to write a lot of poems praising the new society and new life, and many of them were about how to learn from Lei Feng to do good deeds... After reading his poems, you can never imagine that they were written by a "class enemy of socialism", because only those who are full of yearning and enthusiasm for a new life from the bottom of their hearts can have this kind of passion. And what was Chen Yuepan's situation when he wrote these poems? We are silent.I couldn't help but feel a chill in my heart, because I remembered the night when I participated in the raid on his house, and I didn't dare to confess the truth to the old man...but I felt extremely guilty. Fortunately, the old gentleman turned the topic away first: "In fact, most of my poems are descriptions and lyricisms of the pastoral life in my hometown. The scenery in our Jiangnan water town is so beautiful, and labor is also beautiful. This kind of natural beauty and labor beauty are The source of life for my poems can also be said to be the source of life for me to survive and live long, believe it or not?" Of course I do.Otherwise, I can't think of any other power that can make such a century old man who has suffered humiliation, devastation, and ups and downs live a peaceful life and live a long life. Chen Yuepan had 7 children in total, the fourth of whom died shortly after he adopted others while participating in revolutionary work.The remaining 3 sons and 3 daughters are all very promising. They are either Communist Party cadres or teaching at universities.However, it is precisely this identity that made them unable to take care of the elderly normally during the decades when their father was a "bully landlord" and almost deprived them of the possibility of walking around. Chen Yuepan's wife is young and beautiful, but such a "landlord wife" is not allowed to exist. During the "Cultural Revolution", he was tortured to death by the rebels, and finally had to commit suicide, and left his wife forever without saying hello... "It's better to have love than to have no love. The more you are grateful, the more you will be annoyed. In the end, you will be separated from life to death, and you will feel more sorry for the lonely old man." Chen Yuepan wrote this poem "Ruthless" for his deceased wife.He said that he knew that his wife would commit suicide sooner or later, because how could a movement like the "Cultural Revolution" make a good-looking woman cling to a half-dead "old landlord"?Besides, in the eyes of those "revolutionaries", what kind of affection and sustenance does an "old landlord" want? "Everything is impossible. Landlords are ghosts and ghosts. If they are ghosts and snakes, they are not human. If they are not human, what emotions and desires do they need? In those years, as a landlord, I completely lost my due humanity. I was just like a lonely puppet. It's just a lonely puppet that still has life." Chen Yuepan said to herself. "From a revolutionary to an enemy suppressed by the dictatorship of the proletariat, from an intellectual to a pure peasant, don't you really feel a lot of regret and hatred in your heart?" I asked the old man an extremely sharp question. He laughed heartily.Then he said clearly: "You may not believe me, but I don't have any regrets, let alone any hatred, and some are just a little pity. What is it a pity? It's a pity that those who once mistook me for a class enemy and tried their best to punish me Many people died too early. If only they could live to see the current Communist Party's policy of seeking truth from facts. The ancients said: Ren lives the longest. Although my life has almost experienced the entire 20th century and my fate has been rough, I To become a centenarian, the most important thing is that I am willing to be a farmer who is self-sufficient and self-sufficient in the second half of my life for nearly 60 years. What is the happiest thing in life? Labor, what can live the longest in life? Peace of mind—— What is the most fulfilling? The ancients said: Kindness is the most beautiful. This kindness is to behave like Lei Feng, always thinking of others in your heart, selflessly doing good things for others, and doing good deeds without thinking about any rewards. Every good deed is a kind of accumulating virtue. If you accumulate more virtue, you can become a good person, a kind person. The spirit of Lei Feng can make all bullies and bad people in the world into good people!" On this day, my father was ready to invite Mr. Chen to have a meal at my house, but the guest refused. "When I was studying and participating in revolutionary work, my family was a landlord and rich man, and others couldn't afford me; after I became a landlord after liberation, no one dared to invite me to eat; after the Third Plenary Session of the Eleventh Central Committee, I picked Mao, I was over 80 years old at that time, and no one dared to invite me to eat easily, so I have been taking care of myself all my life. You are welcome. I have to go home quickly. The rice I washed in the morning is still in the bamboo basket! "Old Mr. Chen Yuepan stood up and left, no matter how much he dragged him.I've heard people say that he still doesn't want anyone to take care of him, and even his children and grandchildren don't want to take him to the city. He still wakes up at dawn every day, cleans the yard, cleans the pots and cooks, and his hands and feet are so nimble. Everyone in the village is amazed. ;For such a person who has been used to living independently for nearly a hundred years, I know that it is useless to keep him, so I said to my father, let the "old landlord" go. Under the sunset, on the long grassy field leading to the distance, the old man's steps are like a moving shadow.However, I feel that he stepped on that field ridge, because that field ridge belongs to China, and it is China's 20th century field ridge.It is the 20th century field ridge in China that a little person walks through... Mr. Chen Yuepan passed away a few years ago, and he lived to be nearly a hundred years old (93 years old).A little guy with no outside attention except me.However, in such a small person, I seem to see the great power and light of Lei Feng's spirit.Therefore, I often think: If each of us can learn a little bit of Lei Feng's spirit and understand the basic principles of life, how much better this society and this world will be!Maybe there will be no distinction between good and bad people, and the world may be much more peaceful!