Chapter 58 Appendix Every word is the tremor of life

Li Ximin is forthright and enthusiastic, good at writing and drinking, has a bad temper and has the shortcomings of a man.In my eyes before, he was just a good friend, nothing to hide.But this time the undisguisedness was shocking.Although I already knew how he was suppressed in the earthquake and how he was rescued, tears still flowed out when I read it.I'm not usually one to cry easily. This book is different from all of Li Ximin's books, and it is also different from all the texts describing earthquakes.This is the thinking of a writer in darkness and despair. It is the thinking of a person on the verge of death about life, friendship, and family affection... The most valuable point is personal experience.

Every word is true, every word is a vibration of life.So it also makes readers tremble. After Li Ximin was rescued, I was very curious. During those 76 long hours, he didn't sleep, so what was he thinking about?I tried to ask him, but he was not in good physical condition at the time, and his spirit had not recovered, so I didn't say much.Now I finally see that he used that depressing and suffocating time to recall the gloom and bright spots in his life, the people who brought him happiness, and the hatred he once had.When he was rescued by friends and soldiers, he tolerated suffering and cherished happiness even more.This is what the god of death who walked by made him realize.I think his kind of mood is difficult for others to understand, and some words cannot be said in daily life.But put it in that environment at that time, and reproduce that scene, everything went with the flow and came from the heart.

Everyone has fear, and Li Ximin has described fear many times in his novels and blogs.What is fear?Fear is not actually a worry about sudden death, nor is it a resistance to bloody scenes.True fear comes from despair, from knowing that you are in a corner while you are still sane, from having to endure torture when life or death are impossible.In the novel, Xi Min truly told about this fear. Several times he knew that the people who tried to save him had no choice but to leave. Several times he was tortured by pain and hunger and almost gave up.This process must be the most difficult in life.

Fortunately, when he was suffering, when he was about to give up, he thought of his wife, daughter, and his friends many times.He once said that his wife and daughter supported his survival.Once, I regarded such words as words of gratitude from a rescued person.Anyone who has come back from the brink of death will say that.But after reading it, I don't think so anymore. It really supports a person's belief that he will not give up, just like a person said that water, air and food are necessary for people to survive. He did not describe himself as a legendary hero who returned from a narrow escape, as the media did.Like ordinary people, he is helpless, painful, fearful, desperate and even ashamed.Even after his return, he was often awakened by nightmares, dreaming that he was still buried under the ruins.Living in a bustling city, I often feel lonely and helpless.

I think it is this most basic emotion that forms the shock of this book. Li Ximin said at the end of the book that the way to reject nightmares is to calm the mind, but it is not easy to do so.indeed so. What I want to say after reading it is that we should cherish every meeting together and cherish even the slightest happiness in life.Cherish talking and spending time with your loved ones, cherish the reunion with your parents, cherish the friendship with your friends, and don't embarrass yourself or them. We have to speak our love in time.No need to hide, don't be afraid to be abrupt.Life is like a fleeting moment, maybe there will be a disaster at some time, we must tell others about our inner feelings in time.

We must be tolerant. Tolerance is the best memory, the best remembrance of the years of suffering and the people who died.After experiencing the pain of death and life, what is there in life that cannot be tolerated? "You are a lucky life, you are still alive, you can still eat, you can still drink water, you can also see the high sky and the world, you can also reach out to others and hold others, feel the warmth and silence of the human body Love……" This sentence was written by Li Ximin. In fact, we are all the lucky ones, and every day we pass, we should be grateful for this kind of luck.