Chapter 56 Appendix Life Narrative of "Born to Die"

Destiny itself is always full of suspense and elusive.Li Ximin, a suspense and horror novelist, conceived countless virtual horrors, but personally experienced the most real horror for 76 hours - in the 5.12 earth-shattering earthquake, Li Ximin was buried deep in the ruins, and hundreds of thousands of victims A journey through the tunnel of death in despair.Unable to move his hands and feet, bleeding profusely, hope and despair stimulated every nerve in him on the verge of collapse. This is the 76 hours Li Ximin endured.After reading it, my heart was completely shocked.The understanding of the value of life in the experience of death, the power of life radiated in the struggle of fate, the universal meaning of life realized by facing death, those details and situations, all made me feel Li Ximin’s struggle with blood, corpses, The most beautiful and tragic life gestures are shown in the ruins built by rubble.

The narrative unfolds in the way of life time, and nearly 50,000 characters are condensed in 76 hours of tragedy and heaviness.Like all literary works depicting disaster themes, the first thing to show us is the beautiful homeland before the disaster: gorgeous sunshine, beautiful mountains and rivers, butterflies of various colors flying in groups, and girls with crisp laughter.However, all these beauties were buried under the ruins in an instant, and all that remained was the horror in the dark.Li Ximin has depicted fear many times in his novels and blogs.In fact, the most authentic and realistic fear is not the disgusting stumps and broken arms or hideous ghosts with disheveled hair and blood-red tongues in horror movies, but the unpreparedness in the face of death in a sudden disaster.The fear of death is the eternal fear of human beings. Death cuts off the continuation of life and shatters the inner desire of life beyond limited individuals to achieve eternity.The whole narrative of Li Ximin runs through the theme of death: the fear of facing death; the desire for life reflected in the meditation of death; the reflection on the value of life; , all flowing out from his rough pen.Here, for the writer's writing, this kind of narrative is not only a kind of release, but also a quality improvement.

Death is an eternal theme in literature and philosophy, and countless philosophical and literary works have described death.Heidegger put forward the philosophical proposition of "living to die".He believes that death is not an external relationship to life. People do not walk step by step towards death that is still far away, but death is already present in our "walking" itself. The way of dying and living" exists.It is in his legendary description that Li Ximin "lives to death" in a "countdown" way, examines and positions his own life, seeks a reasonable trend of positive life values, and finally surpasses the limit of life and overcomes fear and death.At the moment when he fell into the darkness, Li Ximin heard the approaching footsteps of the god of death, he was terrified and at a loss, and then a ray of light ignited the hope in his heart, and the hoarse question of the proprietress above the ruins was even more like the sound of nature The sound strengthened his power to survive.However, what followed was the long wait in the dark, the torment of pain, hunger and thirst, and the fatal blow of being completely given up by the proprietress.He was angry, cursing the injustice of fate in the ruins; he lamented, "Human life is so fragile, sometimes it is not as good as an ant"; When grandpa died, he saw his tough mother, stubborn father, and his beloved wife and daughter; An indestructible pillar of life was built in meditation, memory, joy, and painful death experience, and finally chose to persist.He wrote: "...how foolish it is to give up. Although the aftershocks of the demons in the ground may strike at any moment to take my life! I persisted in shouting: 'Help me—'".This is the power of "living to death"!For those who "live to death", the spirit of human life can transcend the existence of life and the existence of death, and it rises into the sky, just like the dazzling sunlight that enables people to obtain the indestructible will to live.

Li Ximin is not a high-profile person. He did not describe himself as a legendary hero who regards death as home. He just hopes to convey a kind of thinking about death and an understanding of the pain of life.His narration is not a grand narrative with full perspective and big themes, nor does he deliberately pursue a deep sense of historical depth, but only perceives real human nature in real scenes, helplessness, pain, fear, despair, and even hope, strength, and strength. Jumping and stirring between the lines, it composes a soul-stirring hymn to life.Obviously, this is not only the experience of a writer who is sensitive to life, but also the tenacity of a real life resisting the darkness of existence.What's more valuable is that he wrote this test of life and death as a touchstone of human nature.Some people hesitated in the face of fear and chose to flee to protect themselves, but more people expressed the brilliance of humanity in the face of disasters-friends came to rescue with pain and overcame many difficulties; On the ruins, they have long forgotten their own safety; and the soldiers of the Air Force have pushed their sense of mission and great dedication to the extreme.People have condensed into majestic landscapes in the trials and baptisms of suffering.

Li Ximin typed it out word by word on the hospital bed.I feel that a person who has really experienced the tempering of life and death will never fall into the narrow space of personal interests and gains and losses to caress his own pain, but will re-perceive and examine his own soul after great grief and joy.The contemporary philosopher Steiger Muller said: "Death appears as something that leads others to the highest peak of life and makes life fully meaningful for the second time." Everything is frank and without regret.The value of Li Ximin lies in the fact that he engages in the cause of the world with a spirit of being born out of the world, and publicizes the mainstream discourse context of our era with a serious sense of social responsibility, a strong sense of urgency and a conscious participation spirit.It can be said that it delicately reproduces the huge human disaster scene that shocked the earth on 5.12. While conveying the true spiritual value of people, it also shows the beauty and kindness of human nature in plain and simple words. Let us Realize the inner tenacity, softness and nobility, holiness and dignity of life.