Chapter 35 1. Two light-hearted short essays

In 1957, China's political and literary circles were truly turbulent and unpredictable.In spring, the sun is shining brightly and warm, but in early summer, there will be strong winds and strong winds, and in autumn and winter, all trees will wither, creating a chilling scene. For Ding Ling, 1957 was a year when she encountered a major turning point, a year when she suffered a catastrophe.This year, she has been floating in hope and disappointment. She started with hope and ended with complete despair. At the beginning of 1957, Ding Ling was full of expectations.What is she looking forward to?

Her historical issue has been reviewed by the Central Propaganda Department. This conclusion, together with her opinion, has been submitted to the Organization Department of the Central Committee. She expects that the Organization Department of the Central Committee will pay attention to her opinion and adopt it. The issue of "Ding Ling and Chen Qixia's small anti-Party clique" was basically rejected after investigation by the research group of the Central Propaganda Department. She looks forward to seeing the conclusion of the investigation as soon as possible, to vindicate this wrong case as soon as possible, and to restore her political innocence.

She also obtained the right to create and publish works. The 50,000-character "In a Severely Cold Day" published in the October 1956 issue of "People's Literature" was an extraordinary move for her. , gave her an affirmation.The editor's words in the previous paragraph of the article are clearly telling readers that Ding Ling is still living normally, writing normally, and publishing works normally.That paragraph by no means represents the opinion of the magazine, or it is by no means an opinion that the magazine can make. At such a time, the evaluation of such an important sensitive person and his work must at least go through the Chinese The approval of the Party Group of the Writers Association and even the Central Propaganda Department.Therefore, when the majority of readers increased their trust in Ding Ling from that issue of "People's Literature", Ding Ling herself also saw the attitude of the "superior" towards her from those words.She looks forward to completing this novel as soon as possible and realizing her long-cherished wish.

When her mood improved, her body also improved.The severe pain in her head was not so frequent, and she had the interest and desire to write again.The problem is being solved, and she can't completely settle down to continue writing her long novel, so let's write something short, not only to promote the early resolution of the problem, but also for the readers who care about her and pay attention to her. Writing needs a life, but she has not lived for more than a year. Her life is just explaining problems, writing complaints and inspections.Her whole life was shrouded in a leaden atmosphere, and she felt great depression every day.But she finally had a little life again, and she took a trip to the Southwest, where she met old friends, met new people, saw new things, and triggered some new feelings.Just write this, writing can dispel the troubles in her heart and bring her pleasure.

In February 1957, she wrote "Watching Sichuan Opera <Dahongtai"", which was her impression of watching the opera in Chengdu on the night of September 30 last year.The article is written lively and smooth, with coherent thoughts and written in one go. The plot and the performance of veteran artist Peng Haiqing are described vividly, with a relaxed and joyful mood between the lines.The article was published in Wen Wei Po on March 1. On April 5, the epistolary "A Glimpse of Chongqing" was published in the fourth issue of "Literary Monthly". This article is richer and more intense, with a bold and unrestrained style, which restores the usual characteristics of Ding Ling's articles.She wrote about her feeling before the "People" ship docked at Chongqing Chaotianmen Wharf, saying: "The wooden boat with white sails was going up and down between the waves, and I suddenly felt as if I fell into a sea wave. It overwhelmed me, I lost myself, but I tried to hold on to something so that I could have a little bit of mastery. I felt a sudden force in me again, and I thought: 'Isn't it okay for people to live here? It’s easy, everything is at stake!’” She wrote about her feelings when she visited the Eighth Route Army Office at No. 50 Zengjiayan: “I was always wandering in these houses, lingering, unwilling to leave, I couldn’t express my feelings clearly, My thoughts are indeed too chaotic, love, touch, respect, many lofty emotions arise from my heart, but despicable, nasty, hateful, all angry enemies are also intertwined, just like the Yangtze River and the Jialing River, two torrents There is a rush in my chest. But the reality of life is a great irony to that mouse-like figure. Our comrades, those who persist in fighting in these small rooms, are like the bright moon in the sky, clear and clear, their wisdom , Witty, brave, and resolute are definitely beyond the imagination of ordinary people and people who have experienced ordinary struggles." She also wrote her own circumstances and moods.Judging from these two articles, Ding Ling gradually resumed her creative state.

She was no longer worried that she would hurt others, and felt that there was nothing to worry about, so she started to visit a few friends and gradually resumed contact.She went to see Feng Xuefeng with Chen Ming, and felt that his life was very lonely, with no entertainment but only work, so she bought four theater tickets, gave them two, kept two for herself, and went to the theater together.Xuefeng and his wife were sitting in the front row downstairs, while Ding Ling and Chen Ming were sitting upstairs. They were still a little worried, afraid of being seen and misunderstood.They also went to see Xiao San.Friends appeared in her courtyard again. Around March 20, Ba Jin, Jin Yi and Kong Luosun, who came to Beijing from Shanghai to participate in the creative planning meeting of the Chinese Writers Association, came to visit her together and asked her to write a book for the upcoming publication in July. Writing manuscripts for major literary publications.

She wrote a letter to Kang Zhuo, which was "quite nostalgic", which was the language Kang Zhuo used when reporting to Guo Xiaochuan.Kang Zhuo still has lingering fears and remains vigilant in his relationship with Ding Ling.