Chapter 147 Pan Dakui's Son Sends Memoirs of His Father

Mr. Pan Bichun, the chairman of the Sichuan Provincial Committee of the China Democratic League and the son of Pan Dakui, the so-called "backbone member of the Zhangluo Alliance", wrote to the author on January 30, 1996 : "I know from your book that you visited my father in 1984. My father passed away in 1991. In the last two years of his life, the old man wrote a book about his life experience, The title of the book is "Ninety Years of Wind and Rain". The book was published by Chengdu Publishing House. I think it may be useful to you, so I send you a copy as a souvenir.

"I am also a loyal reader of yours. Thank you for speaking up for the wronged intellectuals in 1957." The author carefully read the memoirs written by Mr. Pan Dakui in his later years, in which he talked about his experience in 1957, and wrote about Zhang Naiqi's magnanimity and candor in the face of "criticism": "In this group meeting of the National People's Congress, anti-rightists were launched from the very beginning. Comrade Zhu De was organized in our Sichuan group. At that time, there were two rightists in our group. Zhang Naiqi was the first, and I was the second. At first, everyone concentrated firepower on Zhang. Zhang Du responded with extremely brief language without hesitation, and counterattacked the other party with words such as 'slander', 'reformation', and 'despicable'; he neither defended nor answered the accusations raised by others. I secretly admire and praise his strengths. I remember that when Comrade Zhu De was resting, he asked him if he could stand it. He replied: "Nothing".

"But when it was my turn, I was a little at a loss. It was an unwarranted matter, but it became more and more unclear. Some people criticized my inspection as 'one step forward and two steps back' (later in the Sichuan criticism meeting , some said that my review was similar to that of a habitual offender in the old society.) A famous historian was also in my group. When I burst into tears during a certain review, he put my Tears were like braids, he pointed at me and said, "You want to soften the struggle!" I really couldn't accept this very sharp and harsh criticism. But after the meeting, he came to apologize to me and asked me to Forgive him for what he said just now, which made me laugh even more.

"Facing the criticisms that fly all over the sky, on the surface I have no choice but to accept them. It would be a lie to say that I have no grudges in my heart. As for Zhang Naiqi's attitude of not caring and acting like no one else, I am ashamed of myself." Yes. Finally, the National People’s Congress held a speech at the General Assembly. Zhou Xinmin, Deng Chumin, and Zhang Youjiang (he is a counselor of the State Council, not a representative) were very concerned about me and asked me to make a profound, painful and sincere review speech at the General Assembly. , to make some issues known and thus clarified.

"Zhou Xinmin read my speech first, and thought it was well written. After I spoke, many people applauded to show their approval. Both Zhou Xinmin and Deng Chumin said that the review was more profound, and they could pass the test after returning to Sichuan... ..." Facing the unfortunate experience, Pan Dakui even thought of committing suicide: "On the way back to Sichuan, I once had the idea of ​​jumping into the Yangtze River, but I was afraid that I would bear the notoriety of committing suicide in fear of crime, which would add misfortune to my family, so I had no choice but to endure the humiliation and live on."

When Pan Dakui returned to Chengdu from Beijing, what he was greeted by was a storm of "anti-rightist struggle": "I know that when I returned to Chengdu, the wind and rain became more violent. The struggle against me by the Provincial People's Congress and the criticism by the Democratic League organization all intensified. It seemed that I had committed a heinous crime. I took it to 'knock the sand jar (kill my head)', otherwise, it would be hard to please him... "Some people say that Li Jingquan (formerly the first secretary of the Sichuan Provincial Party Committee of the Communist Party of China) is very powerful in carrying out the 'leftist' line in Sichuan, but it can be proved to me that at least he was merciful to me in the anti-rightist struggle I took care of it. If he hadn’t said to me at an anti-rightist meeting: “Don’t be afraid, you have a lot of posts, the party’s policies must be covered, and a few posts will be reserved for you,” I really couldn’t worry .

"When he said that at the time, I thought it would save me from 'knocking on the sand jar'. This is like a reassurance for me. My nervousness has been slightly relieved since then."