Chapter 58 Chapter 56 Casting

Ian glared at the three of us angrily, and Sunny trembled.It's incredible - it's as if Kyle and Ian have switched faces.Except for one thing, Ian's face was still perfect and unscathed, and even when he was angry, his face was still very handsome. "Ian?" Kyle asked suspiciously, "Any questions?" Ian said through gritted teeth. "Xiao Man!" He growled and stretched out his hand.He seems to be struggling to spread his palms, trying to restrain himself from clenching into fists. Ouch.Mel thought. There is a pang in my heart, I don't want to say goodbye to Ian, but now I have to.Of course I have to.I can't sneak out in the night like a thief and say good-bye to Melanie alone.

Ian couldn't wait to grab my arm and pull me up off the ground.Sunny seemed to be walking with me, she was still close to me, Ian shook me and she let me go. "What's wrong with you?" Kyle demanded him. Ian came back and kicked Kyle hard in the face with his foot. "Ian!" I protested to him. Sunny ran up to Kyle, trying to protect him with her petite body.Kyle put his hands to his nose and struggled to get up from the ground.Sunny's touch knocked him off balance, and he fell back on the ground, making noises of pain. "Come here," Ian yelled, pulling me away from them without even looking back.

"ian" He twisted my arm roughly the whole way, and I was in so much pain that I couldn't speak.That's fine, I don't know what to say. I saw everyone's shocked expressions flash by quickly, and I was worried that he would startle the unknown woman, who was not used to scenes of anger and violence. Suddenly we stopped and Jared blocked the exit. "Ian, are you crazy?" he asked, surprised and annoyed. "What did you do to her?" "Did you know about this?" Ian retorted, pushing me toward Jared, shaking me.There were people crying behind us and he made them feel scared.

"You're going to hurt her!" "Do you know her plan?" Ian growled. Jared stared at Ian, closed his eyes suddenly, and he didn't answer. For Ian, that was obvious. Ian's fist hit Jared so fast I couldn't stop it - I just felt his body lean and saw Jared stagger backward in the dimly lit hall. "Ian, stop it," I begged him. "Shut up!" he yelled back at me. He dragged me through the arch, into the tunnel, and pulled me south again, and I almost ran to keep up with his strides. "Damn it!" Jared yelled after us. "I'll hurt her?" Ian turned his head and shouted at this bastard!Now there is only silence and darkness behind us.follow his steps.Without stopping, would I?You little me tripped a few times in the dark, and after struggling to follow at this moment, I felt the pulse in Ian's hand.His hand was wrapped around my upper arm like a tourniquet, and his long fingers easily wrapped around more than enough.My hands are going numb.

He dragged me forward, picking up speed suddenly, and I moaned, almost a wail of pain, a little out of breath. This made Ice stagger, and he stopped.In the darkness, his breathing was rough and hoarse. "Ian, Ian, I..." I choked, unable to speak.Imagining his furious expression, I don't know what to say. Suddenly, his arms grabbed me, lifted my legs, and held my shoulders when I was about to fall.He started running forward again, now with me in his arms.His hands were not as rough and angry as before, and he gently hugged me to his chest. He walked straight across the empty square, ignoring the surprised and even suspicious faces around him.Recently, too many surprising and sad things have happened in the cave.Here in the plaza were Violetta, Geoffrey, Andy, Paige, Aaron, Brant, and others whose faces I couldn't see clearly as I wobbled by.These people are easily frightened. Seeing Ian's furious and ferocious appearance, and seeing him rushing past with me in his arms, they felt uneasy.

We quickly left them behind.He didn't stop until we reached the front door of his and Kyle's room.The door leaned against the entrance to the room, and he kicked open the red door—it fell with a loud echo on the stone floor—and threw me into the mattress on the floor. Ian looked down at me, his chest heaving with exhaustion and anger.He left for a short while, put the door in its original position, and with a light flip, the door returned to its original shape.Then he stared at me fiercely again. I took a deep breath, got up, and knelt on my knees.I held out my hand, palm up, hoping that some magic would appear in my hand.Something I could give him, something I could say, but my hands were empty.

"You-don't-promise-leave-away-me." His eyes were like torches, and there seemed to be blue flames burning in his eyes, which were brighter than anything I had ever seen. "Ian," I whispered, "you have to understand, I can't stay, you have to understand." "NO!" he yelled at me. I flinched back, and suddenly Ian fell forward and dropped to his knees on top of me.He rested his head on my stomach, his arms wrapped around my waist.He was shaking, shaking violently, and a piercing, hysterical cry burst from his chest. "No, Ian, no," I begged him, and it was scarier than his angry look, "Don't do this, please. Please, don't do this."

"Xiao Man." He said sadly. "Ian, please. Don't be so sad, don't be like this. I'm sorry, please." I was crying too, and I was shaking, though it was possible he was shaking me. "You can't go." "I have to go, I have to go." I whimpered. Afterwards, we were relatively speechless and cried for a long time. He cried out his tears before I did.Finally, he stood up, took me in his arms again, and waited for me to speak. "Sorry," he whispered, "I have a bad temper." "No, no, I'm sorry. I should have told you when you didn't guess. I just couldn't, I didn't want to tell you—to hurt you—to hurt myself, I was so selfish. "

"We have to talk about this, Xiaoman. It's not a foregone conclusion, we can't do this." "Irreversible." He shook his head and clenched his teeth: "How long? When did you start planning this?" "Since catching the hunter." I replied in a low voice. He nodded, seeming to guess the answer: "You feel compelled to give up your secret in order to save her, I understand, but that doesn't mean you have to go elsewhere. Just because now the doctor knows it doesn't say anything .If I had ever thought of the implications, that one action was equal to another, I wouldn't be standing there for you to demonstrate to the doctor. No one can force you to lie on the damn operating table! Who dare touch it You, I'll break his hand!"

"Ian, please." "They can't force you, Man! Did you hear what I said?" He raised his voice again. "No one forced me. I didn't show the doctor how to do the separation operation to save the hunter." I said softly, "The arrival of the hunter just made me make a quicker decision. I did it to save Mei. Son, Ian." He dilated his nostrils and said nothing. "Ian, she's stuck here, it's like a prison - worse than a prison. I can't even describe it, she's like a ghost, but I can free her, I can give her her body back .” "Xiao Man, you should also have the right to life, you should stay."

"But I love her, Ian." He closed his eyes, and his dull lips grew pale. "But I love you," he whispered, "isn't it important?" "Of course it's important, it's so important. Don't you understand? That just makes this decision all the more necessary." He opened his eyes suddenly: "I love you, does it make you so unbearable? Is that so? I can shut up, Xiaoman, and I won't say it again. You can be with Jared, if you That's what I thought, as long as you stay." "No, Ian!" I cupped his cheek in both hands—his skin was taut and wrapped tightly around the bone, "No, I love you too. Worm, but my body doesn't love you, it can't love you. Ian, I can never love you in this body, it's tearing me in two, I can't take it." I could have tolerated it, but just watching him suffer because of the limitations of my body?Can't. He closed his eyes again, and tears wet his thick black lashes, and I saw them glisten. Oh, come on, Mel sighed, just do what has to be done.I'll hide in another room.she added calmly. thanks. I put my arms around his neck and moved closer until my lips touched his mouth. He bent his arms and pressed me tightly against his chest.Our lips moved together, melting, as if they would never part, as if separation wasn't inevitable, and I tasted the salty taste of our tears - his and mine. Something is starting to change. When Melanie's body touched Jared's, it was like a raging fire in the wilderness—the fire spread rapidly across the desert, and no grass grew anywhere it passed. It's a different feeling with Ian, very different, because Melanie doesn't love him as much as I do.So when he touched me, it felt deeper and slower than fire in the wilderness, like lava flowing far below the surface of the earth.Too deep to feel the heat, yet it flows inexorably onward, gradually changing the structure of the deep layers of the Earth. My reluctant body was a fog between us—like a thick curtain, but transparent enough that I could see across and see what was happening. It changed me, not her.This process, similar to metal smelting, happened deep in my heart. This process has already started and is about to be completed.The long kiss puts the finishing touches on the calcined, angular unfinished product—it pushes the scalding new thing into the cold water to harden it into its final shape, indestructible. I cried again, and I realized it must have changed him too, a man who was as good as a soul but possessed a strength that only a human being can achieve. He put his lips to my eyes, but it was too late, it was a foregone conclusion. "Don't cry, Xiaoman. Don't cry. You will stay with me." "Eight full lives," I breathed on his jaw, my voice trembling, "eight full lives, and I've never found a single planet worth stopping for, nor Find someone who is willing to go away with you. I never found a lover. Why now? Why you? You are not of my kind, how can you be my lover?" "It's a wonderful universe," he murmured. "It's not fair," I complained, repeating Sunny's words.It's not fair, why am I finding it, finding love now, in these last moments?Why do I have to give it up?Is it fair that my soul and body don't fit together?Why do I love Melanie the same, is that fair? Ian is going to suffer, is that fair?If other people have a right to happiness, he has the same right.It's not fair, it's not right, it's not even reasonable, how can I do this to him? "I love you." I whispered. "Don't say it like you're saying goodbye." But I had to do this: "I, the soul named Wanderer, love you, Ian the human being. That will never change, no matter what I become." There is no lie, "It doesn't matter if I become a dolphin, a bear or a flower. I will always love you, always remember you, you are my only love." His arms stiffened and he hugged me harder, and I felt the anger in his movements again, and it was hard to breathe. "You're not allowed to go anywhere, you have to stay here." "ian" His voice became brusque—annoyed, yet deadpan: "It's not just for me, you're part of this group and you can't be kicked out without a discussion. You mean too much to all of us." — even for those who never admit it, we need you." "Ian, no one is going to kick me out." "No, not even yourself, wanderer." He kissed me again, slightly rough with resentment.He pulled my hair back in his fist, and my head was thrown back an inch from his face. "Feeling good?" he asked sharply. "good." "Same as I thought," he growled. Kiss me again.His arms were tightly wrapped around my ribs, and his lips pressed against mine so hard that after a while, I was dizzy and out of breath.He let go of his arm a little and slid his lips to my ear. "Let's go." "Where? Where are we going?" I know, and neither will I, IIIUL, yet, my heart pounding at the thought of going somewhere, anywhere with Ian.He was mine, Jared never was, just like this body was never his. "Xiao Man, don't trouble me anymore, I'm going crazy." He pulled me to stand up. "Where are you going?" I asked persistently. "Follow the east tunnel, through the fields, to the end." "Recreation Room?" "Yes, you have to stay there until I find everyone." "Why?" He sounded crazy.Does he want to play a game?Like last time, to relieve tension? "Because this matter must be discussed, I intend to call a court, Wanderer, and you must abide by our decision."