Chapter 13 Chapter 12 A Dialogue with a Life Form

That diamond had an extremely soft pink brilliance.That kind of pink is almost imperceptible, but it can be seen at a glance that it does have pink.It was a natural pink diamond that was clearly of the highest quality. Dante held the diamond: "Please forgive my selfishness, I... hid this diamond, it... is so beautiful, now, I will give it to you, to your wife, I believe it is here Among the thousands of gemstones, the best one." I smiled and said, "You can keep it, I'll just pick one." Dante's expression was so sincere that he almost cried: "If you refuse, it means that you will not forgive my mistakes."

Hearing him say this, I can no longer refuse: "Okay, I want this one." I put my hand in his palm and took the diamond, but Dante slowly withdrew his hand.I hold the diamond in my hand. "How long have we been in the cave? Get all these gems out." Dante hurriedly said: "Yes, yes." He untied the bag made of sheepskin from his waist.He was very confident of finding the treasure, so he kept the empty sheepskin bag tied around his waist. I was not so confident, so I had to take off my coat and tie two knots at the cuffs. We grab all kinds of gems one by one.When the two sleeves of my coat could no longer fit, the sheepskin bag in his hand was also full.

Dante was still using the flashlight to shine around, and he didn't let go of the gemstones in the corner of the cave. He didn't let go until he was sure that all the gemstones in the cave had been installed. I followed behind him, thinking about how exciting this wonderful experience was, and thinking that when I gave the pink diamond to Bai Su, I would definitely hear her admiration.While thinking about it, I asked, "Dante, can we publish this experience?" Dante said: "No, no, there is no need, let everyone in the world speculate on the origin of these treasures."

I said: "It's a pity that you disagree. You still remember the weirdo Gent. He connected treasures with human souls. It's a bit nondescript." Dante didn't respond to my words, he just snorted.As we talked, we walked out and entered a very narrow part of the mountain crevice. I have repeatedly emphasized the narrowness of the mountain gap, because what happened next has a lot to do with a narrow space.The gap in the mountain we were walking in was narrow. Fortunately, the human body is soft and can be squeezed through, but the head of the person is hard, and the width of the gap is just enough for a person to move forward slowly with his head sideways.At that time, Dante was in front, and before moving his body, he had to try to push the big bag of jewels forward first, so that his body could move with it.

It's the same with me, so we're moving pretty slowly, and the distance between me and Dante is very close.Something happened in this narrowest mountain crevice.At that time, we couldn't hold flashlights in our hands, and we were advancing in the dark, so there was absolutely no way to prevent Dante's actions before the accident. I was struggling to move my body when I suddenly heard a "chi" sound, and then a strong smell of anesthetics came to my nostrils.In less than a tenth of a second, it was already judged what happened: someone was spraying anesthetic gas on my face.

When someone sprays something in your face, the instinctive reaction must be to turn your head away from it.At this time, my reaction was like this.However, I forgot that I was in an extremely narrow space, I could only turn my head sideways, and couldn't turn my head at all. I opened my mouth to scream, but it was too late.I've inhaled the anesthesia gas that was sprayed at me.In the split second before I passed out, I only had time to think of the word "Dante". I don't know how long I lost consciousness. When I gradually regained consciousness, I only felt a headache, thirst, and an indescribable sense of oppression all over my body.

I soon became aware of my position, and, as was immediately certain, I had never been in a worse position in my life. I was still huddled in the crevice of the mountain. It seemed that I hadn't moved since I lost consciousness. This wasn't bad at all, but when I stretched my hand forward, I touched many stones, blocking my front. I moved forward immediately, took out the flashlight with all my strength, and shone it forward. All the way out was blocked by stones. That, of course, was the result of an explosion. Even if my head hurts more, I can understand what happened.Someone sprayed my face with a strong anesthetic, making me unconscious, and then he detonated rocks to block the way out.I'm trapped in the belly of the mountain!In such an inaccessible place, I am trapped in the belly of the mountain!

The person who did this was, of course, Dante. In less than ten seconds, I thought about all the swear words I knew, and in the eleventh second, I knew that even if I was proficient in all the swear words in the world, it would not work. I should think of a way, what should I do? First of all, I feel that squeezing in the crevice of the mountain is not the solution. I moved slowly, no longer forward, but backward.The way back was not blocked, and I returned to that cave not long after. In that cave, Dante begged me to forgive him with the utmost sincerity and asked me to accept the diamond he hid.

The diamond, of course, was taken away by him too.Only then did I realize how stupid I was. After giving me the diamond, the outstretched hand retracted so slowly, which showed how reluctant he was! Of course, Dante had premeditated dealing with me like this. That is why when he heard that I said that I didn’t want to share the gems with him, he immediately thought of the reason why I wanted to keep it alone, because he wanted to keep it alone. I resented myself for trusting Dante so credulously, I reached into my pocket, and unexpectedly, the pink diamond was still there.what is this?Is it the funeral object that Dante left me?I immediately dismissed the idea, Dante wouldn't have kept it for me.The reason why this diamond is still in my pocket is because it is placed in my pocket on the other side. In that narrow mountain crevice, I believe that Dante must have gone through a lot of hard work and couldn't squeeze his hand anymore. Passing over my body and taking out this diamond from my pocket, that's why I was forced to give up.

I hold this diamond in my hand, and I don't know what it feels like.Shine it with a flashlight, and the brilliance of the diamond is extremely dazzling.This diamond, in the market, at least can make people worry-free money for a lifetime, but here, a brilliant stone is worth no more than a piece of bread. Soon, I found that it was impossible to find another way out of this cave, and there was no way out of the cave.I re-evaluate whether my physical strength can support the removal of the rocks blocking the cracks in the mountain, so that I can see the sun again? This is impossible to estimate, in fact, it seems the only way.As I thought, I took a deep breath and turned off the flashlight to save some power and, at the same time, calm me down in the dark.

I fully understand that in a desperate situation, all efforts may not improve the situation at all.But I have to, because if I don't, I'm going to die. I know that I have many flaws in my character, but one thing is certain: I will not wait to die.After resting for five minutes, I walked towards the exit of the cave. When I got to the place where stones blocked the way out, I tried my best to remove the stones one by one, hoping that there would be a way out. I decided to do it, and I started to do it, and after about three or four hours, I realized that it was really useless.In these three or four hours, I was exhausted, and I probably removed hundreds of stones, but there may still be thousands or tens of thousands of stones in front of me.I've squeezed out every ounce of energy I have, and after moving a few hundred dollars, I've barely moved forward.Although I am extremely unwilling to give up on this, I know that I must give up.I didn't even have the strength to open my eyes again. I closed them and let the sweat flow from my eyelids and down. I suddenly thought: the officers and soldiers on the "Heavenly Kingdom" received orders from their superiors to die for their country. Are they also desperate? I am very surprised why I suddenly thought of this point. I am different from the officers and soldiers on the Heavenly Kingdom. The officers and soldiers on the Heavenly Kingdom have a vast sea and sky. They are in a desperate situation. It is just their belief that they must die. And I don't want to die at all, it's just that I'm trapped in the mountainside, so I have to die. I couldn't help but wryly smiled, and thought again: the officers and soldiers on the Tianguo, how they felt before they died—I don't want to think about the officers and soldiers on the Tianguo, but I think about it again and again, which makes me feel extremely weird. And this strange feeling immediately made me tremble: I didn't want to think about the officers and soldiers on the Tianguo, but someone was thinking about it, and I felt that he was thinking about it.In other words, there is some power that forces me to think. This weird feeling made me feel that I was on the verge of death and I couldn't even control my thoughts. Next, my thoughts became even more uncontrollable. I told myself: I don't want to think about the Heavenly Kingdom anymore. But I thought: So many officers and soldiers on the Tianguo died, there is no soul, and no soul can be found. I told myself: don't think about the fucking soul. But I immediately thought: Qiao Sen is dead, Qiao Sen died in order to seek his own soul, but he has no soul either. I told myself: I am dying too. I thought: do you have a soul? This gave me a jolt, I should have thought "Do I have a soul?" Instead I thought "Do you have a soul?" It wasn't like I was thinking, it was like someone was asking me. I feel someone is asking me: in this cave, there is no one but me, it is impossible for anyone to ask me a question. At that moment, my thoughts were really chaotic.A person suddenly has thoughts that he doesn't even want to think about. What kind of situation is this?I can't describe this situation in words. However, the questions I don't want to think about are still coming to me. It's like some spirits suddenly entered my brain, stimulating my brain nerves with their wishes, making me Constantly thinking about their problems, on the contrary, is something I want to think about, and I can't achieve the purpose of thinking. (Afterwards, it occurred to me that this situation can be compared with a phenomenon.) (My brain was originally receiving my own thoughts, like a radio, which has been receiving a fixed station. But suddenly, a strong electric wave invaded and pushed out the original electric wave. In such a In this case, the radio will hear two stations, one of which is external interference.) (My situation at the time was roughly like this.) The kind of questions that do not belong to my own thoughts are still coming. Every question seems to be urging my soul to appear quickly.These many questions, entangled with the disordered thoughts that I can't answer myself, almost drove me crazy. I couldn't bear it anymore, and suddenly shouted: "Don't ask me any more." After I yelled, I suddenly woke up from a semi-crazy state. But after a short period of silence, the problem came again. This time the question is: "Why don't you ask again? Is it that you don't have a soul at all?" Once I couldn't help shouting: "I don't have it, do you have it?" I naturally called out like this, and when the words came out of my mouth, I was suddenly shocked again, and I felt that I must do my best, concentrate my will, and think about it.No matter how bad my situation is, I still have to think about it. The sentence I called out just now: "I don't have it, do you have one?" This sentence, Qiao Sen has repeatedly called out.When Johnson was yelling like this, his assistant thought he was talking in his sleep, and I thought he was talking with some mysterious person. It wasn't until now that I realized that it wasn't at all. Qiao Sen's situation at the time was the same as mine!He is being assailed by problems that are not his own thoughts.Gent must have known, he said Jossen was "suffering a little bit."I didn't know how terrible this "obsession" was until now. Qiao Sendao was troubled like this, and all his strange behaviors were understandable.On several occasions he disappeared, and when he reappeared, sweaty and exhausted, he looked as if he had done long hours of hard labor.He must have hid in some small bar, trying to anesthetize himself with alcohol. He even used drugs to anesthetize himself, trying to drive away thoughts that did not belong to him. Joseon didn't tell me about the situation.In fact, even if he told me, it was not easy for me to understand until I experienced it myself.It is impossible to tell anyone about this situation. Joseon finally took a decisive approach and ended his own life. I can absolutely understand Joson doing that, because no one can endure another thought for long.And what's more terrible is that this other kind of thinking keeps asking if you have a soul. Who will admit that he has no soul?However, who can show their souls to others. Qiao Sen has finally embarked on the path of ending his own life, and he really must do so.He hoped that by the end of life, the soul would appear so that there would be an answer to that question. My current situation is roughly the same as his.The difference is: he ended his life by himself, but I, circumstances forced my life to end! I quickly changed my mind, and the problem that did not belong to my mind had never stopped. I couldn't help panting and hoarse——I didn't understand why my voice became so hoarse. To be honest, I was extremely tired: "Don't I asked, everyone thinks they have a soul. Or, when life is over, the soul will appear. You don’t have to be impatient. My life is about to end, and my soul may appear to satisfy your curiosity! " After I shouted at the top of my lungs, words that did not belong to my thoughts sounded in my own head again, full of mockery: "Everyone thinks that after the end of life, the soul will appear. But no, The end of life does not lead to the appearance of souls. None of the many officers and soldiers on the Heavenly Kingdom appeared, and Qiao Sen's life ended, and no souls appeared. I am afraid that after you die, no souls will appear either. It has been a long time, Going and going for a long time, I don’t know how many people’s lives have ended, but not a single soul has appeared. Why refuse to admit that there is no soul at all?” I sat feeling extremely weak, and my sweat was cold and thick, like frozen paste.I waved my hand: "Okay, we don't have souls, no!" The idea that is not my own still refuses to let me go, and the mockery is even more serious: "You are the first to admit that you have no soul, does that make sense? You have been singing since you have culture The soul, thinks that the body is only a temporary phenomenon, and the soul is eternal, but you have no soul. If everyone understands, what is the value of your life, and how is it different from any lowest creature? ?” I gasped.At this time, I understood why Aoki deliberately concealed a part of his experience of being questioned by that mysterious halo in his statement.It was a pain, and few people wanted to talk about it. The purpose of this kind of question after question is to reduce the value of human life to a status equal to that of a hydra. However, we are human beings, and any human being in such a situation will do everything in his power to elevate his status, at least above that of a hydra. But what's the use of struggling?No one can make his own soul appear, the soul is not a real thing.The soul is not a handkerchief that can be pulled out of your pocket to be seen.Even if he ended his life like Qiao Sen did, it still wouldn't prove anything. I thought of Aoki, and it reminded me of Dante's grandmother in her narrative, who mentioned that she had a wonderful feeling, that mysterious aura, speaking to her, but she didn't actually listen. To the sound, just to feel the sound. I didn't understand what she meant by that description at the time, but now I understand that she was in the same situation as me. My current situation is the same as what Aoki once encountered, the same as what Dante’s grandmother once encountered, and it may also be the same as what Qiao Sen once encountered.But what about that mysterious aura?Why have they all seen that mysterious aura, but I haven't? As I thought about it, I struggled, with all my strength: "Where are you? Let me see you." I screamed, trying to open my eyes. At this time, the thick sweat had already blurred my vision. When I opened my eyes, the cave was pitch black and I couldn't see anything.I pressed the switch of the flashlight, and the flashlight shot out light, which shone on the opposite mountain wall, and a ball of light appeared on the mountain wall, which looked like a halo. I laughed "haha": "This is you? You don't even have a body, and it seems that you don't even have a soul." My mental state at this time was almost half crazy, so I kept waving my hands while talking.This action is completely meaningless. I waved and shouted, but suddenly I stopped and waved again. The flashlight was in my hand, I waved my hand, shot out from the flashlight, and the light shining on the opposite mountain wall should follow suit.I suddenly found that my arm was moving and the flashlight was moving, but the ray of light on the opposite mountain wall did not move at all. I waved my arm again, but the ray of light on the mountain wall remained motionless. I hurriedly looked through the flashlight in my hand, and found that the light from the flashlight was extremely weak, just a faint yellow point. The electricity has run out.It is impossible for such a weak flashlight to shine on the mountain wall more than ten meters away. So, that ray of light on the mountain wall is... I was suddenly shocked: that's... that's that mysterious halo, that's it! The shock I felt was so strong that the flashlight fell out of my hand.At this moment, I saw the halo leave the stone wall, move forward, and stop in mid-air: a halo, slowly rotating. At the same time, I felt it talking, it must have been there.The thoughts and questions in my head that are not my own are simply what it has been talking to me.As early as a few days ago, the light I saw, the one that made my hair shine, was of course them. They came early and watched me and Dante's actions. I tried my best to gather my mind, I have been hoping to get in touch with this mysterious halo, but I only achieved my goal under such circumstances! I struggled and stood up.I felt it saying, "Form? What's the point of form? You have perfect form, and your form is too complex to understand, but what's the use of that?" I listened to it accusing people, and I didn't intend to refute it. The human body is indeed extremely complicated, but they have no body at all, so what is this? When I thought of this, a thought flashed through my mind like lightning: "Yes, no form may be better than any complex form. The human soul may be a kind of existence without form at all." , is an anti-life that is completely opposite to life. No one knows what kind of existence the soul is. Maybe it is not in the space where our body exists at all. Maybe its existence does not need space at all. If you can’t find it, just Can't say it doesn't exist!" I spoke in one breath, and a moment of inspiration liberated my thoughts from the extreme disorder, and I became able to talk freely again without shouting hoarsely. The halo hanging in front of me, suddenly big and small, turned rapidly, and gave off wonderful color changes. Then, I "heard" it say again: "This is a kind of sophistry. Anything that does not exist can use this sophistry to disprove its existence." I took a deep breath.Aoki, Qiao Sen, I don’t know how many people have lost after this mysterious aura came to the earth to search for people’s souls. I don’t admit defeat so easily. I immediately said: "You can never deny that people have thoughts. Everyone has his thoughts, whether he is good or evil, or his thoughts are profound, or childish and ignorant, but everyone has thoughts. Can you Ask a person to take out his thoughts to see creation? But, can you deny that everyone has thoughts?" The halo turned rapidly again: "You mean: a person's thought is a person's soul?" I didn't even think about it: "In a way, you could say that." The rotation of the halo became more urgent: "What do you mean?" I straightened myself up: "People, as long as you have a mind, and you are sure that you have a soul in your own mind, you have a soul. It is unnecessary and impossible to show your soul to others, let alone be seen by you... .” I originally wanted to say "you don't need to be seen by monsters like you", but I changed it temporarily. The rotation of the halo was more rapid, and during the rapid rotation, I "heard" the conversation. "This is the first time we've heard this statement." "Yes, it may be true. Humans must have souls, but we have not been able to search for them. It may be because human souls are simply another form of life. No, they are not a form of life at all, and they are not even a form at all. .” "So how about it, our search has achieved results?" I "heard" this, and couldn't help saying loudly: "Your search will never yield results." The halo stopped moving, and I continued: "People themselves can't be sure whether they have a soul. Everyone thinks that they have a soul, and they have it; if they think they don't, they don't. The soul, but it disappears when it is no longer needed, is an elusive anti-life phenomenon, how can you specifically find it out?" I spoke with great emotion, and when I was done, I felt several sighs. I said again: "Don't think that I have already studied the soul. In fact, like everyone else, I have absolutely no knowledge. What I just said is what I thought of suddenly. However, I believe that this can Explain why you can never succeed." I heard a few more sighs, and the halo slowly turned again, and I gathered myself together: "What are you guys, can you tell me?" The rotation of the halo became rapid. For a long time, I didn’t “hear” anything. It seemed that my question was not easy to answer. After a while, I “heard” the voice of the halo: “What are we? a form of life." I screamed, "Is it a halo?" "Halo? We don't know what it looks like, halo? Maybe we look like a halo to you, but that's just an image that we gather some of the energy on the earth and display. There is no Meaning. Just like you, if you have two hands and two feet, even if you have eight hands and eight feet, the appearance is very different, but the essence of your life will not change much. .” I stayed for a while, and for a while, I didn't understand the meaning of these words. I also want to ask them why they are so interested in the souls of people on earth, but I haven't asked them yet, but after thinking about it, I "heard" their voices again: "Your curiosity is so strong, this question You can wait, don't you want to leave this cave?" Ever since I answered that "halo", I have been so delusional that I completely forgot that I was dying.As soon as I heard them remind me like this, I couldn't help saying "ah": "Do you have the power to save me from desperation?" The halo turned a few times: "Of course, we can easily use energy." I swallowed a mouthful of saliva: "For example, murder? Kill those two guards in the palace, and kill the officers and soldiers on the Heavenly Kingdom?" "Yes, that can be said to be our mistake. We always thought that when a person dies, the soul will appear. The officers and soldiers on the Heavenly Kingdom are about to die. We hope that under our arrangement, the soul and the body of the person can be separated. , the result failed. Although the telegram ordering them to die for the country also came from our ideas, it made no difference. Under the circumstances at that time, the officers and soldiers on the Kingdom of Heaven could no longer survive." I smiled bitterly: "You at least killed Qiao Sen." "That's none of our business. Qiao Sen wants to prove that he has a soul, but his method is wrong and he failed. His actions are not as convincing as your words. It is believed that the human soul is combined with money. , the human soul is in the treasure, now it seems that it is also wrong." I took a breath: "It's not necessarily completely wrong. I really don't know how many people have changed their minds because of financial interests, and their souls have disappeared. For example, Dante, because of You want to steal the gems for yourself, but you want to put me to death." "You mean, the soul represents a person's virtue and kindness?" "I don't know, I can't answer your question specifically, but I would never say that when a person does all kinds of bad things, he still feels that he has a soul in his mind." My answer is quite mysterious, but that It does represent what I think. The halo didn't "say" anything, it just moved outward quickly. When it moved towards the exit of the cave, I saw a burst of light and heard a burst of rumble. I hurriedly walked out, and when I reached the narrow mountain crevice, all the stones blocking the crevice had been scattered.I stepped on the gravel and squeezed out, the halo was always in front of me. When I finally squeezed out of the mountain crevice, I realized that it was dark outside, and I didn't know how late it was.In the darkness, the halo stopped in front of me, and it seemed even clearer. I took a deep breath and stared at the halo: "You have never answered me why you are so interested in collecting the souls of people on Earth?" The halo moved slowly, and I heard their voices again: "You can't imagine that the forms of life in the universe exist in many different ways. It is impossible for you to understand our life forms, or in other words, formless and formless, In order to pursue the root of our own life, we search for answers in the endless universe, and come into contact with various forms of life..." I stood there blankly, looking up, the dark sky was full of stars.I thought about their words, imagined their contact with all kinds of life in the endless universe, and couldn't help being fascinated, not knowing where I was. "We have come into contact with many lives. The strange thing is that every kind of life has the same trouble. We don't know where our own life comes from. A long time ago, we met a kind of life, which told us that our This form is exactly the opposite of a life on a planet, this planet is the earth, and the life form that is exactly the opposite of ours is you, the people of the earth." I was in a daze, and said: "Are you anti-life?" After I said this, I couldn't help but trembled, remembering what Gente said, and said in a voiceless voice: "If this is the case, then you may be people from the earth soul." My words went unanswered for a long time, and then I felt a few sighs and their words: "Who knows!" What else do I want to say, the aura is rapidly fading away, and suddenly, it disappeared. I was still standing there in the dark, thinking about all kinds of conversations with "Halo", thinking about each sentence several times. It was dawn, and I should have been extremely tired, but I felt very excited.The lake was shining brightly in the sun, I walked along the lake, not far away, I suddenly heard a noise, not far in front of me. I found a small mound, hid my body, and looked forward. What I saw really surprised me.I saw about 17 or 18 people standing by the lake, throwing things into the lake, as if they were competing to see who could throw the farthest.Those things that were thrown out gave off dazzling lights of various colors before passing through the air and falling into the lake. Those people looked like local nomads.The nomads in this area are fierce by nature. If things are in their favor, they have no moral standards of a civilized society at all. At the same time, I also saw the overturned jeep, and Dante under the jeep, his blood stained the loess red.Dante is apparently dead.Did he die from a natural car overturn, or was he attacked by these people?I won't investigate any more, I just watched those people making noise, throwing all kinds of precious stones into the lake one by one. I backed away quietly, rounded the mound, chose another road, and left the lake. The gems that Dante got from the cave all sank to the bottom of the lake. When will they reappear? Don't think that like other stories, there is nothing left in the end.No, I still have that big pink diamond, brought it home, and gave it to Bai Su.Bai Su turned to look at the light it emitted: "Whether a diamond is valuable or not depends on its being traded. This situation is a bit like the relationship between a person and a soul." I stared: "It's too mysterious for you to say that." Bai Su said: "It's not mystical at all. Diamonds have always been kept in the safe, exactly the same as ordinary stones. No one knows what is going on with their souls until the moment of a real test." I didn't say anything more, but I still thought her words were too mysterious.what do you think? A few days later, I tried to contact Aoki, but to no avail. I also kept trying to contact Gent, but also to no avail. Whenever I am in a crowd of people, I think: We are life, and it is absolutely unimaginable for an anti-life that is completely opposite to life.