Chapter 16 Chapter Fifteen No Betrayal at All

That night, Junhua buried her head in the past, and Gan Tiesheng and I drank up the big bottle of unknown bad wine (there must be alcohol). The next day, Junhua's eyes were red: "I watched it all night, and there is no new material." Gan Tiesheng said indifferently: "Even if there are new materials, they are all old materials." Gan Tiesheng's words were very interesting, but Junhua obviously didn't think so, she stared at him: "You don't have any hatred for him anymore?" Gan Tiesheng was stunned for a moment, and for a moment, his expression was extremely bewildered for a moment, but then he returned to normal, as if he was very unfamiliar with the word "hate".

Then, he stopped for a while and smiled: "It should have been gone a long time ago, until now, it's too late." Jun Hua sighed: "I can't, maybe... the relationship between me and him... has deepened?" In this case, in their entangled and deformed relationship, Gan Tiesheng should be very jealous after hearing this, but at this time, Gan Tiesheng seemed to be an outsider, and he responded casually: "Maybe, you have had In such a short and happy day, if he abandons you, your...feeling for him will naturally be much stronger!" Junhua looked at Gan Tiesheng as if she were a stranger. After decades, she found Gan Tiesheng in the mountains. Junhua could recognize him right away.

But now, Junhua felt that he was unfamiliar—it was naturally because Gan Tiesheng had a great understanding after changing his entire thinking and concept, and even his eyes and temperament had a natural and great change. Gan Tiesheng clapped his hands at this moment: "Don't look at me like this. To be honest, if you weren't in good spirits, I wouldn't want to go to Fang Tiesheng at all. I found it and asked why. What's the difference? What happened has already happened. What is the use of knowing why and never changing the facts?" Junhua's voice sounded very sharp: "At least I know what it is for, otherwise... otherwise... I will really die!"

Gan Tiesheng smiled: "Is it that serious?" Junhua said "yes" seven or eight times in one breath, and then said: "Whenever I think about it, it's like a knife stabbed in my heart, a bloody wound that will never heal, I can't think about it, but I can't do it , I thought that time would heal the wound, but it has been decades, and whenever I think about it, blood will burst out, I must figure out why he betrayed." Gan Tiesheng was obviously talking ironically: "Yes, after you figure it out, the wound will heal quickly!" Junhua's voice was extremely high: "I know it won't, but it hurts not to understand, but it still hurts to understand. For me, there is no loss, only benefits, because, I understand!"

Gan Tiesheng stopped talking. When they were arguing, because it involved their "feelings" back then, it was inconvenient for me to intervene. I was really impatient.Junhua's mood is really easy to understand—Fang Tiesheng's betrayal of her can be included in the scope of love betrayal, which is not quite the same as Fang Tiesheng's betrayal of Gan Tiesheng. Betrayal in love, the betrayed party always wants to know the reason, wants to know why, and will pursue the answer at all costs.Although the chances of actually knowing the truth are slim. Moreover, in many cases, it is better not to get the real answer. The real answer is sometimes extremely cruel. If there are many examples, there can be many.Because the truth of the facts is mostly cruel, but usually, it is covered up by various appearances.

Seeing that they stopped talking, I hurriedly said, "It's time to go to Wuyi Mountain." Jun Hua said bitterly: "I can't wait to fly away!" I laughed out loud: "Even if you have wings, you can't fly faster than the wings of an airplane." The wings of an airplane can change the concept of time and distance. It took at least one month for ancient people to travel this distance.Now, although all kinds of red tape, unreasonable rules and regulations, and frustrating work attitude have slowed down the time a lot, two days later, the four of us entered Wuyi Mountain, and , and a rather lively young man who was our guide, who belonged to the local tourist office, met us and gave us excellent news.

During these two days, I didn't talk much with Gan Tiesheng, but I got a better understanding of the change in his mentality. In his own words: "It's like having a dream. When you wake up, Whether everything in the dream is good or bad, whether it is bitter or sweet, who would care about it? So what if you care about it?" He didn't mince words about Fang Tiesheng. When he mentioned it, he sometimes sighed and sometimes smiled. He even said: "Fang Tiesheng betrayed, of course there was a reason. Maybe I did something wrong to him first, which made him feel disgusted."

When he said this, Junhua snorted angrily: "I think you are going to surpass the saints of ordinary people! How can you blame yourself, you are so kind to him, you picked him up from the garbage dump, you are so kind to him it is good……" When Junhua talked about the excitement, she couldn't help sobbing. Gan Tiesheng didn't go to comfort her either, his expression was very bewildered, and in the bewilderment, he also had a slightly enlightened expression. His expression at that time was a bit strange, so it was quite impressive to me. He then shook his head again, but said nothing.

I knew he must have thought of something, but felt that it was impossible, that's why he acted like this. When the guide saw us, he gave us good news: "Four, I grew up in the Wuyi Mountains. I was a wild child. At that time... life was difficult. Don't look at my young age. Every day I fight in the mountains. With a turn, you can get something to eat and fill the stomachs of the whole family!" When he talked about this, he lowered his voice and said mysteriously: "When I was wandering around the mountains, I met the person you are looking for, and I have a very good relationship with him, and I have a lot of life in the mountains. knowledge, he taught me."

We looked at each other, both very excited.Before we came, we sent a telegram to ask the local tourism agency for assistance, explaining that our purpose was to find a person like Fang Tiesheng. people we need. Jun Hua hurriedly said: "Great, when was the last time you saw him?" The guide raised his eyebrows: "Well... It's been eight or nine years.". In 1989, the time is much closer than in 16 years, but after all, it has been such a long time, and Junhua asked anxiously, "In your opinion, is he still here?" The guide laughed: "It must be there. He is extremely strong and powerful. Even though he is old, ten or eight young people are no match for him. He can even beat a tiger to death!"

Junhua took a deep breath, with an uncertain expression, Gan Tiesheng reached out and stroked his hair, "He has always been like that, there is some reason to suspect that he is an alien." When the young man who was the guide heard this, he was very interested and asked many questions. We were so annoyed that we had to stop him: "The matter is very complicated, if you don't understand it, don't ask any more!" Although the young man didn't ask any more questions, he had an uncontrollable curiosity on his face, which made people feel unbearable. However, everyone can know that it is an extremely complicated story, even if you want to tell him, you don't know where to start. In the mountains, it is much easier to travel with someone leading the way.We set off early in the morning, camped in the mountains that night, and set off the next morning. Before noon, we had arrived in front of a very high cliff. In that area, there are towering ancient trees, and there are no mountain roads at all. It is believed that Chen Changqing lost his way here at that time - he saw Fang Tiesheng flying down the cliff like a character in myths and legends.But when we looked up, we could see some objects jumping on the cliff tree. Of course, they were not people, but monkeys. The guide pointed to the cliff: "After climbing up, on a relatively low mountain, there is a small Taoist temple where the man lived. I don't know when and who built the Taoist temple!" Climbing the cliff is not very difficult. There are many vines on the cliff, and you can hold hands everywhere. The rocks are rugged and easy to step on. Even Junhua doesn't think there is any difficulty. After climbing over the cliff, you can already see the small Taoist temple on the hill not far away. It looks like it was built out of building blocks.Surrounded by clouds and mist, appearing and disappearing from time to time, it is completely in the realm of swordsman novels. At that time, it was noon.Driving in the mountains, that's it, it looks very close, the straight-line distance may only be 300 meters.But to get there, I don't know how far I have to walk. When we arrived at the small Taoist temple, it was already five hours later. The sun was setting, and the mountains were covered with golden red. All the stones, grass, trees, and houses were reflecting the afterglow of the setting sun, which was extremely spectacular. . The door of the small Taoist temple was ajar, and the appearance of the whole Taoist temple seemed dilapidated. The guide took a step forward, and the door of the small Taoist temple was suddenly opened. There was a man with disheveled hair, a bearded face, a tall, inexplicably mighty man , has stepped out in one step, and stands as the door. He was so tall, so when he stepped out of the door, he lowered his head, and when he stood in front of the door, his head was far above the lintel. Bai Su and I involuntarily clenched our hands, our eyes were fixed on the big man, and we couldn't look away. The rays of the setting sun shone on the big man's hair and beard, and reflected the blood-red setting sun in his piercing eyes. He stood motionless, and his chest could be seen under his tattered clothes. The ups and downs of his emotions can be seen. At that moment, what I thought in my mind was: I have entered another realm of novels again. If the big man in front of me is holding a knife in his hand, then he is the golden lion king among the four great Dharma kings of Mingjiao! We looked at the big man, and the expression on the big man's face was not very clear (the beard was too thick, covering most of his face), but when his very energetic eyes stared at Junhua The muscles on his face were visibly beating. All of a sudden, he raised his hand—because of his extremely tall stature, when he raised his hand, his aura was very intimidating. I was closest to him, and when I entered, I almost couldn't help it. I wanted to take a step back to avoid the attack. Drive his kind of compelling force. He pointed at Junhua—it was quite a scary thing to be pointed at by such a big man, but Junhua was very calm, and before she could ask a question, she said, "I had sex reassignment surgery!" Fang Tiesheng (the majestic man is of course Fang Tiesheng) repeated hesitantly: "Gender reassignment surgery?" Jun Hua paused every word: "Yes, I changed from a man to a woman. In fact, I was originally a woman, but I have been misunderstood as a man since I was a child. Of course, there are some mistakes. Anyway, I am a woman now!" I was on the sidelines, thinking to myself, it's not just "a bit of a mistake", it's just a mess, it's a mess! Fang Tiesheng listened attentively, and his eyes showed extreme curiosity. Of course he was no longer young at this time, but he was still dark with shaggy hair and beard, and he didn't seem to be an old man. Among them, there is even a bit of naughtiness, which is enough to prove that he is a very lively person. He was still looking at Junhua, and after half a minute, his eyes flicked to me, Bai Su and the guide, and stopped on Gan Tiesheng.When Gan Tiesheng first saw him, he was agitated for a moment, but then he recovered calm. Only then did Fang Tiesheng look at him, and he smiled and said in a very calm voice, "Hello, little brother!" As soon as Gan Tiesheng uttered these words, everyone except the guide and himself was shocked, and Fang Tiesheng was even more shocked. His hands suddenly clenched into fists, and his thick knuckles rattled! (Decades ago, when Gan Tiesheng first met Fang Tiesheng, his first words were: "Little brother, come here!" (From that sentence, they got to know each other, and Fang Tiesheng's life changed, which led to the current situation. Now, Gan Tiesheng called "little brother" again, but why is Fang Tiesheng so excited?) Fang Tiesheng waved his fist vigorously, he yelled loudly, with an inexplicable grief and indignation, he was yelling: "Ask! Just ask, I know you will find me, you will Ask me...why!" When he said the last three words "why", his voice became hoarse, and it sounded like his heart and lungs were ripped apart. He is a betrayer. After so many years, when he saw the victim back then, he didn't seem to feel ashamed or remorseful at all, but he was righteous. This kind of expression shocked me and Bai Su, We held hands tightly, and I naturally thought about how to deal with this monstrous man in case of a scene that requires force to fight! Gan Tiesheng spoke first, and his voice was calm: "I didn't intend to ask you like this, but she still wants to ask." Junhua immediately picked it up, slurred every word, gritted her teeth, and spit out all the anger, hatred, ignorance, and suspicion that had accumulated in her chest for so many years in these three words: "Why?" That was really heart-shattering, and the question was earth-shattering! If Junhua's question was a thunderbolt from the nine heavens, then Fang Tiesheng's answer was like thousands of volcanoes on the ground erupting at the same time, ejecting countless magmas that could destroy everything! Fang Tiesheng started to answer, the scene was a bit chaotic, Fang Tiesheng couldn't control himself, and couldn't stop talking. During this period, I, Junhua, and Bai Su all rushed to ask some questions loudly, but Gan Tiesheng remained silent from beginning to end, as if he didn't care at all. Same thing with him. Because of the chaos of the scene, I used a special method to describe the situation at that time. In the following large paragraph, except for the words in brackets, Fang Tiesheng’s words were all burst out—although the method is a bit special, but Still easy to understand. Why?You do not understand?You really don't understand?Why?Because I have to do this, I must do that, I have to do that, I have been thinking about it for a long time, and finally I have the courage to do it!I for myself!Who doesn't do it for themselves?Pick me out from the garbage dump and cultivate me to be an excellent soldier, is it all for me?Nothing for yourself? What have I become?I don't know what I have become, I only know that I am no longer a human being!people!people!I'm not human!Treat me well, take care of me, even if I am a person, I am no longer myself, I am a clay figurine made out of other people's hands-look, I made it, look good, look beautiful! Do you know how much stress I'm under?I have to behave according to pinching my hands, this is okay, that is not, how good life is now, how hard it was in the past! Honestly, within a year, I'd rather go back to the garbage dump!I came from the dump, let me go back to the dump, it's only fair, but can I go back?In all directions, I don’t know how many hoops and nets there are, hooping, netting, and pressing me tightly. Do you know that I will breathe heavily in the middle of the night?Know that I can only breathe well when I'm sure there's no one around?But even such opportunities are rare, there is no chance of being alone, what a pity!Until now, for so many years, I have been alone, but I still have nightmares, thinking of that terrible day, what to do, what to do, it has been properly arranged, starting from the deputy platoon leader, as long as I can’t find death , a straight road that allows you to see the deputy commander-in-chief several years later!Am I brave in battle?fart!I want to court death on the battlefield! nice to me?Of course it's good to me, I didn't say anyone was bad to me, but can I refuse?Can I not accept it?I can't repay, never can, and I don't want to repay, because I don't want to.Yes, my timing is very despicable. In war, you either lose or win. If you win, they will lose. If you lose, they will win. If you lose or win, you will die. Besides, what other possibility do I have to escape?He was so kind to me, when he gave you to me too, I knew that if I didn't run away, I would just be a person without a meal in my life! after?I have never regretted it at all. From now on, I will walk one by one in the deep mountains, completely by myself. Finally, I choose this place. Does it look like a garbage dump? It is so free and happy, and no one will look at it like a monkey. You, no one ever praises you, encourages you, and asks you to keep doing what others want you to do! Of course I have the right to do so, everyone has the right to do with their life the way they like!Yes, I have killed some people. Among the victims, some were very kind to me. As I said, I planned for myself, and I couldn't bear it for a moment. In that cave, I suddenly, There is a decision. What?The influence of external forces?Of course not, it was all an explosion of my inner world.betray!A complete betrayal, betraying a false self, and getting back the real self.Let me tell you, you are not qualified to accuse me of being a traitor. No one can accuse another of being a traitor, because everyone has faith in their hearts, and no one can be an exception. It is human nature, and people have a traitorous nature. See when it happens! What?Alien?What kind of alien, I am a human, don't look at me tall and powerful, of course I am a human, what kind of alien is an alien, what the hell are you talking about! Do you understand now, don’t betray, I can’t live that kind of life, everyone will see it, think I’m living a happy life, only I know the suffering, even you don’t understand, think I’m really happy, You shouldn't go down the mountain with me, you should stay on the mountain with him, I will attack desperately and die in front of you, and you shouldn't give him up to me, it makes me even more unbearable, you don't treat me as a Equal people regard me as a person who wants to do everything in his power to treat him well! There is nothing wrong, of course there is nothing wrong with you who give, but for me, the recipient, I want to refuse, and I want to shout loudly: Enough is enough!enough!Will you listen? Fang Tiesheng grabbed the door frame of the Taoist temple with both hands, and shook it vigorously. With a sound of "crash", the door frame was pulled down completely. He bent it hard, and bent the wooden frame into pieces. Junhua's face was pale, and Gan Tiesheng walked away with his hands behind his back, looking up at the sky with an indifferent expression.Bai Su and I looked at each other, all our assumptions were in vain, only one of them was relatively close, I once said: Fang Tiesheng may not have betrayed at all! Fang Tiesheng certainly did not betray. For himself, he did not admit that it was betrayal. He only admitted that his behavior was to release himself from the net of many hoops! Of course he can do that, everyone has the right to do that.But his situation was so special that his behavior, in anyone's eyes, was an extreme betrayal! Everyone has different ideas, which can lead to such huge differences in opinions. What is right, what is wrong, what is good, what is bad, how can there be a unified standard? After Fang Tiesheng's hissing stopped, the mountain became surprisingly quiet, and the panting of several people could be clearly heard. Gan Tiesheng turned around slowly: "It's my fault—" Fang Tiesheng roared: "Hello! You are so kind, and now you are so kind that you say you are not good!" Gan Tiesheng said indifferently: "There is no difference. You are you, I am me, and he is him. At least I understand this truth!" Fang Tiesheng turned around and walked into the Taoist temple. Junhua wanted to say something and raised her hand. Gan Tiesheng grabbed her raised hand: "I know why, it's time to go!" Junhua finally couldn't help it, tears streaming down her face: "I still don't understand—" Gan Tiesheng interrupted her: "I will understand, I will always understand. If you still don't understand, let him not understand!" The story of "betrayal" is over. Hey, didn't you say that there is still half of my betrayal story?Yes, I have already said it, or rather, Fang Tiesheng said it for me. Everyone has a potential sense of betrayal in their hearts, let's see when it happens! Understand?It doesn't matter if you don't understand, because you will understand, you will always understand, if you still don't understand, let it not understand! (full text)