Chapter 20 Chapter Nineteen

Both Bai Su and I were waiting for her to explain further, but she suddenly laughed, although there was a bit of helplessness in her smile, it was still very bright and bright: "It sounds ridiculous, but I actually don't believe it at all. But there is also a strong feeling that that terrible illusion will one day become a reality!" At that moment, Bai Su and I felt an extreme chill, and we were speechless for a while—it was naturally because Jin Meili's words shocked us to a considerable extent. Although she didn't believe it, she still had a strong feeling that her terrifying hallucinations would become reality!

I believe that Bai Su, like me, must have a disordered mind: What does Jin Meili mean by saying this?Could there really be a huge "meat grinder" that grinds her body into a pulp, leaving only one head?Or is it symbolic, symbolizing that she will suffer great pain, which is equivalent to being strangled?Bai Su and I were speechless. This kind of reaction was beyond Jin Meili's expectation. She smiled and said, "What's the matter? You two, don't you really think that I will be crushed by a meat grinder?" ?” I took a breath: "How do you feel? Is it really crushed, or is it symbolic?"

Jin Meili turned her head and thought for a while: "I can't say it... But this feeling is very unpleasant. I tried my best to get rid of this feeling, but I couldn't get rid of it. I know it's a very ridiculous illusion, but... But I am very afraid of its coming!" Bai Su and I looked at each other, and Bai Su said: "Maybe it's what the psychiatrist said, everyone has psychological pressure──" With a wave of my hand, I interrupted Bai Su's conversation - at the beginning, Bai Su and I had obvious differences in our attitude towards Jin Meili (rarely, almost never), at this time I said loudly: "Don't listen to the psychiatrist's nonsense, Miss Jin, do you believe in retribution?"

Jin Meili trembled abruptly. For a moment, she was confused for a very short time, but then she couldn't help laughing "haha".Her laughter was unaffected, which showed that she was really amused by my question. Jin Meili smiled and pointed at me: "Mr. Wei, aren't you saying that I have done something bad, so I will suffer retribution like being chopped into pieces?" During this period, Bai Su winked at me frequently, but I ignored it, and looked at Jin Meili with a cold face. Although I didn't say anything, my attitude clearly showed a straightforward attitude!

Jin Meili still smiled and shrugged her shoulders relaxedly: "Mr. Wei, I just celebrated my 21st birthday. In my memory, I didn't do anything bad. Although there are many wishful boys who say they love me , If I can’t get my love, I will commit suicide, and there are a few who have put it into practice, but the result is still a comedy ending, why should I suffer such harsh retribution?” Jin Meili's question was almost impossible to answer. If Chen Lixue hadn't told me about her experience of returning to ancient times, I would also be unable to answer it.I still looked at her: "You may not have committed any crimes in this life, but in your previous life, and then the previous life, there must have been a period when you committed great evil."

Bai Su sighed, I know, she does not disagree with my words, but she knows that my words must not be accepted by modern youths such as Jin Meili with an educational background! Sure enough, when Jin Meili heard this, she laughed wantonly.She was originally sitting, she was laughing, but she suddenly stood up, waving her hands widely, laughing non-stop, and walked towards the door of the room. When she reached the door of the room, she said, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry for disturbing you two!" Still smiling, she walked out of the study, turned around, glanced at me, and I said in a deep voice, "If you have any criticisms against me in your heart, just speak up!"

Jin Meili waved her hand again, and a look of disdain appeared on her beautiful face: "I'm afraid it's my fault, it's none of your business, I thought there could be a reasonable explanation for you, but in the end, I Just heard the most nonsense I've ever heard in my life!" I sneered: "Please point out the specific nonsense in what I just said!" Jin Meili was stunned for a while, she couldn't speak for a moment, I walked to the door: "You deny that people have past lives and afterlife?" Jin Meili raised her head: "This is a question that will never come to a conclusion if it continues to be debated."

I pointed at her: "Don't argue, if you're not sure of this, what happened to you can never be explained!" Jin Meili looked at me for a moment, and then said word by word: "Okay, so what bad things did I do in my previous life, the previous life, or the next life? Murder and arson, rape women, is it a flower picker, or a mistake? The traitors of the country, but to receive such retribution?" She was aggressive, so I naturally couldn't answer, so I had to say: "I don't know the details yet!" Jin Meili is not forgiving when she is in power: "Probably?"

I was so frustrated, Chen Lixue only saw her taking a bath in a wooden tub in her ancient experience, and didn't know anything else!So I had no choice but to say: "I don't know either!" Jin Meili's expression was full of mockery: "Isn't that too unfair?" Jin Meili said again: "One day, I will watch my body being smashed into pieces, but I don't know why I will suffer such terrible retribution!" I was at a loss for words—in my life experience, such a situation rarely occurs, but at this time I really don't know what to say, because I myself also don't know what it is about retribution!

However, at that very moment, a sentence came out of my mouth—when I said it, I even felt that I didn't say it, or I didn't think of it at all, but I said it suddenly.What I said was: "Good and evil will always be rewarded in the end, and then you will know!" As soon as the words came out, all three of them were stunned (including myself), and Jin Meili suddenly raised her eyebrows: "What's the basis?" I smiled wryly again, still those three words: "I don't know!" Jin Meili imitated me: "I don't know! I don't know! I don't know anything. What's the answer?"

I suppressed my anger: "That's the answer. If you don't know, you don't know. If you don't know, that's the most correct answer!" Jin Meili saw that I was very angry, but she didn't show weakness at all (I admire her very much): "So, when and under what circumstances will you 'know'?" My original answer was still "I don't know", but when I was about to say these three words, I swallowed these three words forcefully, because I thought that Jin Meili was under great psychological pressure, She won't be in the mood to appreciate verbal humor! And on her beautiful face, under the stubborn expression, I have already seen the fear and sorrow hidden deep in her heart, which also makes people feel very sympathetic to her, so I sighed: "Now I can't Definitely, but according to some information provided by your father—” As soon as I said this, Jin Meili became extremely nervous, even her voice changed, and she asked anxiously, "What information did my father provide?" I looked at Bai Su and asked her opinion: Do I want to tell Jin Meili about her father? Bai Su sighed lowly: "I've already said so much, why don't I say it together!" Jin Meili has obvious intentions, with an expression of "see what you can make up".At this time, my mood also changed a lot. Just now, I was very disgusted with Jin Meili, but at this moment, I feel very sympathetic to her, and don't care about her disgust! (Remember Chen Lixue's emotional changes? She was very excited suddenly, almost cruelly talking about retribution, but suddenly, she didn't know how cruel she said.) (My situation at this time was roughly the same—that was the feeling at the time. Later, I realized that it was not "roughly the same", but exactly the same!) I made a gesture to Jin Meili: "I would like to know if your father has told you about some of his experiences?" Jin Meili shook her head: "No, I know he has great mental pressure but I don't know what it is." She paused for a while when she was talking: "It's like he doesn't know that I also have such terrible hallucinations that I will be grinded by a meat grinder To pieces!" Jin Meili is very smart, she suddenly asked: "What is my father's hallucination? Is it scary?" I nodded slowly, and relayed everything Jin Dafu told me. The more Jin Meili listened, the more her hostility decreased, and eventually, it was replaced by a look of horror. After I finished speaking, she couldn't help shaking her body, and after a while, she raised her head and shook her head, looking very excited: "It's so unfair! It's so unfair! It's a lifetime, or even more, It's too unfair to count the things that happened in the present world!" I sighed: "I'm afraid that the power that presides over the retribution in the dark will not calculate like you. They calculate the general ledger, and write down one by one. When it is time for retribution, we will calculate it together!" Jin Meili waved her hand vigorously: "I don't believe it, I don't believe it at all!" My answer was naturally beyond Jin Meili's expectations. I said, "I agree with you not to believe it. You'd better not believe it at all. From the bottom of your heart, treat everything as an illusion. Then, your pressure will naturally be too much." Disappeared!" Jin Meili opened her eyes and looked at me for a long time, then asked, "Mr. Wei, do you believe in retribution or not?" Immediately I replied, "I believe—but there are many things I don't understand, so don't ask me any further!" Jin Meili lowered her head and didn't move for a while, her posture looked very lovely, Bai Su was beside her, and couldn't help stroking her hair gently. When she finally raised her head again, she had the composure she had managed to achieve: "There are two questions, I still have to ask." I didn't respond because I knew that the only answer to her question might be "don't know". But Bai Su encouraged her to ask, Bai Su said: "Please tell me, we can think about it together." Jin Meili took a deep breath: "If there is a force in the dark that is presiding over karma uprightly, then it should be unavoidable for everyone?" Bai Su whispered: "Not only all people, but all living beings are inevitable!" Jin Meili suddenly raised her voice: "Then, why are only us father and daughter suffering from such torture?" Bai Su and I sighed at the same time, which proves that we reacted in the same way after hearing Jin Meili's question.I was impatient, so I rushed to say: "Others have such mental torture, how do you know, everyone has a mental burden, everyone will have quite terrifying hallucinations more or less, how do so many mental patients come from?" What? The neurasthenics in the city account for more than half of the total number!" Bai Su went on to say: "The hallucinations of you father and daughter may be particularly strong, there is nothing special about it, there are always some typical examples of any phenomenon, but it just happened to you." Suddenly, my sympathy for Jin Meili disappeared again, and what I said was a bit cruel. "Perhaps the evil you father and daughter have committed is particularly great, and the evil consequences you have planted are particularly deep, so this situation has happened!" I said. Jin Meili's pretty face was pale, and she raised her head: "The second question is, what is that deaf and dumb woman...? Why did my father and I have such hallucinations when we saw her?" I snorted: "For that deaf and dumb woman, she has more hallucinations about you. She entered the ancient times in the hallucinations and saw you and your father." At that moment, Jin Meili showed an extremely confused expression, and waved her hands vigorously. After a while, she returned to normal, smiled, and brushed her hair: "I'm really sorry, Mr. Wei, Mrs. Wei, I'm taking my leave, and I find that we... can't continue talking." I knew what she meant, and immediately said: "Yes, we have completely different ideas about some things." Jin Meili looked excited: "I stand on the standpoint of modernity and science, but you are just the opposite." I sneered: "For the facts that obviously exist, instead of devoting all our efforts to researching them, we only call them unscientific. This attitude is unscientific." Jin Meili's voice was very sharp: "What is an obvious fact? Could it be that my body will really be reduced to pieces?" My voice was even colder: "My father was in that place, and he has clearly seen the fate of many people." Jin Meili turned around and walked out quickly. When she reached the door, she didn't turn around, and her voice was still very high-pitched: "Mr. Wei, I found that your mind is a little abnormal." I was taken aback for a moment, I don't know how many accusations I have received, but it was the first time that I was accused of being "mentally abnormal". Originally, in terms of my personality, I would at most laugh at such accusations, especially girls like Jin Meili, and even find it very funny, but at this time, I have a tendency to not The reason was so violent that I actually shouted: "Tell the truth!" Jin Meili suddenly turned around and pointed at me, "You are actually just Wesley, alone! But psychologically, you think you are a God who has power, a God of Retribution who rewards good and punishes evil. " I don't care about Jin Meili's attitude towards me, but I can't ignore Jin Meili's accusations.I wanted to open my mouth to refute, but at that moment, my thoughts were so disordered that I couldn't even utter a word.After Jin Meili finished speaking, she turned around like a whirlwind, walked out of the door, and closed the door heavily.After she left, my thoughts still haven't returned to normal.I thought about her accusation very quickly, and at the same time I asked myself: Did I really put myself in the position of a "god" who has the power to reward good and punish evil and control and execute retribution? Of course I don't have such a status, but why, emotionally, I suddenly showed that I completely agree with Chen Lixue's opinion?Why is it so certain that there will be terrible retribution that will fall on Jin Dafu and Jin Meili?Why can't I control myself when I have such emotions? I have asked Chen Lixue (and Bai Su also) several times what kind of role and identity she is in her experience of returning to ancient times. Chen Lixue's answer was very vague and not specific—it was the same as my current mental disorder.She said that at that time, she seemed to have some kind of power, and she hated people who did evil deeds very much. So, is she the God of Karma responsible for retribution? At that moment, my thoughts were messy and too much, until I couldn't help taking a few breaths, and then I came to an end, raised my head, and found that Bai Su was looking at me, I hurriedly said: "This little girl's accusation... No wonder people didn't have time to answer." Bai Su forgives: "I'm afraid that the current accusation is more or less in line with the facts." I pointed to the tip of my nose: "How could I think I am a god?" In the past minute or two, Bai Su must have thought of the same question as me, so her answer was: "Chen Lixue doesn't think she is a god, but she has a magical feeling, I think, it is a Some unknown force has affected your brain activity, causing you to produce many new and weird physiognomy." Bai Su's explanation was very easy to accept, and I agreed: "And this power is the real god of retribution!" Bai Su said "hmm": "It can be said that it doesn't matter what you call it. In short, it is a force that grasps retribution." Since there is retribution, there must also be a power dedicated to running retribution, and that power naturally does not belong to the category of humans, but to the category of gods. At this time, I was already very calm. If Jin Meili was still in front of me, I would definitely answer her like this: "You are wrong, I don't think that I am the god who controls the power of retribution psychologically, but this power is so powerful. Powerful and irresistible, it infects me and makes me feel that I should act according to its will, which is even the law of many things in the universe. If there is no such law, all laws will no longer exist. , there will be no more order!" Jin Meili has already left, so I naturally didn't say these words, but just recited them silently in my heart. For Bai Su, she could predict what I thought of, and our thoughts were close, so she naturally thought of the same conclusion, so she nodded naturally. I suddenly wondered: "This force was originally concentrated... in an unknown situation. Could it be that some accident suddenly leaked out and affected a few particularly sensitive people? For example, Chen Lixue, Jin Dafu and his daughter, me?" Bai Su thought for a while, and she thought it was very serious: "It is possible, originally, the operation of all retribution has nothing to do with people, but is manipulated by another force. Someone felt it." I waved my hand vigorously: "Then, the place Jin Dafu mentioned──" Bai Su immediately picked it up: "It can't be called an alien base, it should be called—" I also immediately interfaced: "It should be called the Palace of the God of Retribution!"