Chapter 4 Chapter 3 Why Happy

However, after waiting for a long time, there was no sign of Condor's resurrection at all.Reaching out to touch his cheek, it was still cold and lifeless. At this time, what made me feel strange was why the body of the condor was left alone in this chicken coop?Where did Bai Su and Hong Ling go?Why do they not care about Shenying's current situation and are not by Shenying's side? All kinds of questions have no answers. Under such circumstances, I have some understanding of the difference between reality and fantasy.In reality, no matter how clueless you are, there is always something you can grasp, or at least the feeling of grasping.But in the illusion, not only is there nothing that can actually be grasped, but even the feeling is empty and completely untouchable, as if the whole person is floating in the universe.

Faced with all kinds of doubts at that time, I can be sure that I am in an illusion. Since I can't grasp anything, the body of the condor in front of me is the only real object that I can see in the illusion. I have already experienced that people and objects can disappear in front of my eyes at any time in the illusion, and I don't want to connect with the gods. Eagle's body also disappeared suddenly, so he never took his eyes off him. And I think, as long as Shenying's body is here, Bai Suo and Hong Ling will appear here sooner or later.Regardless of whether Condor is dead or alive, his body needs to be dealt with, there is no reason to just put it in a wooden box.

So I took another stupid method - I tore off a piece of the white cloth that wrapped Condor's body, and wrapped it around my wrist.I mean this way, no matter where the body of the condor goes, I can go with it. After doing this, I can finally close my eyes and rest for a while—I almost didn't dare to blink just now, lest the Condor's body suddenly disappear, and even the only solid thing would be gone. When I closed my eyes, I thought of the metaphor I just made—being in an illusion is like floating in the universe, which is really very appropriate.It can be said that in reality, there is nothing that can be grasped, just like floating in the sea, at least you can feel that there are real things such as sea water, air, blue sky and white clouds in the sky.However, floating in the universe, there is nothing. Even if you can see the stars, they are still out of reach. It is impossible to be sure whether it is an actual existence or a Luxiang.

I thought for a while, and was about to open my eyes when I suddenly heard a burst of laughter coming from outside. As soon as the laughter hit my ears, I jumped up and shouted: "Hong Ling!" That hearty and loud laughter, apart from Hong Ling, will never be the second one! As I screamed, I rushed out. In an instant, I forgot that the white cloth was still wrapped around my wrist. After I rushed two steps, the white cloth that was entangled almost fell down. I pulled hard and broke the white cloth. , rushed out. With Hong Ling's laughter, Condor's body is no longer important!I mean, being able to see Hong Ling is of course more important than guarding the dead Condor.

I rushed out in such a hurry that I knocked open the door of the chicken coop with my shoulder. As soon as I got out of the chicken coop, Hong Ling's laughter could be heard more clearly, not far from my left, I ran to follow the sound and shouted at the same time. There was no response to my yelling, and I figured it was still the same hallucinatory situation—I could see her and feel her presence, while she was in her own hallucination, unable to know of my existence. In this situation, it's like I'm watching a stereoscopic projection. Of course, it's just an "image". I could reach out and touch the body of the condor just now, but it is absolutely impossible to touch the visible image when watching the stereoscopic projection.

I have already made up my mind, if I see Hong Ling this time, I must reach out and touch her to see if I can touch her—does she still feel nothing if I touch her? I ran a few steps, and I was sure that Hong Ling's voice came from another chicken coop. I ran faster, and suddenly my legs gave way and I almost fell! Because at that time, I heard Bai Su's voice again! I seem to have not heard Bai Su's voice for a century, so when Bai Su's voice suddenly entered my ears, I felt extremely stimulated, and all my brain activities tended to analyze the source of the sound, so that I couldn't control the movement of my limbs for a while, so I almost fell down.

For the same reason, I only heard Bai Su say something while smiling, but I couldn't hear what she said clearly. I stood firm, took a breath, and told myself: Don't be nervous!They must be all right--this was confirmed by their laughter, which would never have been possible had they been in trouble. After I regained my composure, the castration became faster, and I turned around the chicken coop in no time, and saw Bai Su and Hong Ling at the same time. The moment I saw them, the joy in my heart was indescribable. I naturally raised my hands and shouted at the same time. They didn't respond, however.

At this time, I didn't care if they reacted or not. Seeing them was already a big turning point. I still screamed to myself and ran towards them. When I was about ten steps away from them, I suddenly stopped and shook my head involuntarily, because I really couldn't believe that what I saw was the real one! I feel that what I see is most likely just my hallucination! I see them...they... What they are doing is simply unacceptable! To be more specific, there is actually nothing special about what they do. What is unacceptable is the attitude they show when doing this! I could see very clearly that a pit was dug in the ground in front of them, and a rectangular wooden box was placed beside the pit.

Even if I didn't have the experience in the chicken coop just now, seeing this situation, I can know that they are going to put the wooden box into the pit and bury it. And after I had the experience just now, I was even more certain immediately that they were burying the body of Condor. (I didn't want to call Condor's icy body a corpse, but since Bai Su and Hong Ling were going to bury him, of course it was already a corpse.) Burying Shenying's body was not a big deal, but what made me dumbfounded was the attitude of Hong Ling and Bai Su when they did it. They showed great joy!

Seeing them laughing and talking, they are not only relaxed, but also very happy! But the matter was related to Shenying's death - when I kicked open the wooden box and saw Shenying's body, I was shocked, not because of Shenying's death, but because Hong Ling would be extremely sad , so I feel that things are not trivial. It was beyond her wildest dreams that when Hong Ling buried Shen Ying, she would not only not be sad at all, but also be so happy! This is indeed something that "you can't even imagine in your dreams", so I know that the scene I saw at this time is not an illusion, but something that really happened-an illusion is a bit similar to a dream, and it is absolutely unexpected. Happened in hallucinations.

(What really happened is in many cases even more bizarre than hallucinations, much less believable than fact!) However, I really can't accept this fact! Even if Hong Ling is young and doesn't know how to be sad, Bai Su shouldn't behave like this! Condor died in the process of changing his life form, Bai Su should at least feel frustrated and disappointed, and it should be normal to feel heavy. So what I saw made me feel like I had entered a maze, and I couldn't find any reason to explain it at all. I called out again: "What's wrong with you?" They still didn't respond, at this time Hong Ling had already walked over, smiling, and picked up the wooden box. With easy steps, she came to the pit, put the wooden box into the pit, and then used her hands and feet to lift the box beside the pit. Send the soil into the pit and bury the wooden box. This series of actions is not unexpected, what is unexpected is the happy attitude of the two of them. I strode forward, walked a few steps, and suddenly thought that because I had seen the body of the condor in the wooden box just now, so when I saw this situation, I naturally believed that they were burying the condor.But in fact, what they are burying is just a wooden box. If there is no condor in the wooden box, then their attitude is very normal. Thinking of this, I breathed a sigh of relief and continued to move forward, but after only one step, Hong Ling said loudly: "Condor Condor, rest in peace, die, die, die!" It's time to die!" The last two sentences are almost like singing. I couldn't help but stopped again, feeling very sad in my heart. From Hong Ling's words, it is absolutely certain that she is indeed burying Shenying. In terms of her relationship with Shenying, the death of Shenying did not bring her any sadness. Could it be that her nature is so cold? This is what makes me sad. Hong Ling sang and said, her hands and feet were quick, and she had already filled the hole. She jumped back and forth on the newly filled soil to make the soil firm, and she kept humming the tune. Bai Su also kept looking at her with a smile on the side. Not only did I feel sad, but I was also very angry. I rushed forward a few steps, even though I knew they couldn't hear me, I still couldn't help questioning them. But before I said that, I heard Hong Ling say: "It's a pity, Dad is not here." When I heard her say that, I stopped in my tracks. At that moment, I think my state of mind also became a little weird because of the abnormal situation I saw.I actually thought that now I can see their actions and hear their words, but they don't feel my presence. It's like I am an invisible person. Why don't I take this opportunity to hear what they have to say? Originally, this kind of thinking should not exist among the family, so I said that it is weird for me to have this kind of thinking. At that moment, I saw Bai Su's eyebrows knotted after hearing what Hong Ling said, as if he was thinking about something he couldn't figure out. Hong Ling said again: "If Dad is with us, he will be happy." When I heard it, I was both happy and sighed. Happily, Hong Ling was happy herself and thought of me, hoping that I would be happy too.Sigh, she thought I'd be happy about Condor's death. I muttered to myself: "I won't be happy!" At this time, Bai Su suddenly sighed, and said to Hong Ling: "Do you think your father knows where we are?" Seeing the question, Hong Ling was stunned for a moment. It seemed that although the question was simple, she didn't know how to answer it for a while. I was at the side and couldn't help but shouted loudly: "I know! You are in an illusion!" They didn't respond to my words, Bai Su was still frowning, her expression seemed to be more worried, she continued to ask another sentence, which surprised me. What she asked was, "Where are we now?" Bai Su's question was surprising enough, but Hong Ling's expression of not knowing how to answer her was even more surprising! This proves that they do not know that they are in an illusion! I thought they had already found a way to enter and exit the illusion at will, so they stayed in the illusion for a long time—this idea is obviously wrong, they cannot freely enter and exit the illusion at all! Since the Condor will die in the illusion, it can be seen that there is a great crisis in the illusion, and this crisis can befall them at any time.Don't they know this?Otherwise, why would they be so happy? Thinking of this, I felt a chill run through my body—was their joyous attitude so abnormal the result of their brain activity being controlled by an outside force? As I was thinking about it, Bai Su sighed again, and said, "We seem to have bumped into another space by mistake, which is different from the space we used to live in..." Bai Su looked hesitant, obviously she was not sure about her speculation. Hong Ling's expression was very strange, she looked silly, and she said: "It's not too late to study this issue after the matter is over." These few words made me very puzzled, it sounded like Bai Su and Hong Ling didn't know that they were in an illusion. This has happened to me too. But their situation seems to be different. They don't know what the environment they are in, and of course they don't know how they came to this environment.Yet they have something to do in this environment.This matter is obviously very important, so important that Hong Ling thinks that she can put aside the important matter of studying where she is, and do this matter first. Although the matter is complicated, there is always a reason to follow - I can easily guess that what they want to do is to change the life form of the condor and turn the condor into a human! But now they are burying the condor's body! Now that Condor is dead, what else do they have to do? More importantly, why did they appear so elated about Condor's death? Thinking of this, I couldn't bear it any longer, walked towards them, reached in front of them, stretched out my hands, one on each side, to grab their hands. When I made such an action, at that moment, I also forgot that I was in an illusion. They didn't know my existence at all. I just thought that since I could actually touch the condor just now, I should also You can get in touch with them. But when I stretched out my hand, my fingers clearly touched their hands, and I could see it clearly from my vision, but in terms of the feeling of my fingers, I never felt like I touched anything. Although they exist in my vision, they only exist visually. To be clear: they are just phantoms! All of a sudden, apart from shaking my head, I couldn't even take my outstretched hand back, and my whole body felt extremely stiff. After a while (during this period, Bai Su and Hong Ling talked a few more words, but I was shocked by the strange situation that I could see them but not be able to meet them, so I didn't hear what they said clearly ), I staggered back a few steps, and then I heard Hong Ling saying: "I want to go and see, but I don't know what's going on now?" But Bai Su shook his head: "Don't worry, until now, things are still going smoothly, but I don't like that we can't control the development of things, and we can't even fully understand what happened!" Hong Ling whispered: "I'm sorry..." Bai Su smiled: "You didn't do anything wrong, why do you have to apologize?" Although Bai Su is smiling, but the smile is very lonely, clearly preoccupied, this can also be seen from her eyes. Although I can't have any contact with her at this time, but after getting along with her for many years, I know that she must have countless questions in her heart that cannot be solved, and she can't change her situation, and she can't actively contact me, which means she can't leave the illusion Back to reality.She herself is not sure that she is in an illusion, but she also knows that the situation is not very good, so she behaves like this. I am confident that my analysis of her is not wrong, but what I don't understand is that in such an environment, there are obviously things that can make them happy, because just now they buried the condor, and at the same time they were undoubtedly happy ! Under the circumstances at that time, I had no choice but to observe their words and deeds carefully to judge what happened. Hong Ling walked over, hugged her mother, and still said in an apologetic tone: "I always start things, so I want to say sorry." Bai Su laughed—this time the smile was very happy, and she patted Hong Ling's head: "There is something weird in the chicken farm, we have to come and study it, this is agreed by all of us." Hong Ling also laughed: "But I am the one who most wants the eagle to transform into a human!" I know what they are discussing at this time. I have known for a long time that they spent a lot of time in the chicken farm, the purpose is to make the creature possible in the special environment of the chicken farm, and Hong Ling very much hoped that the eagle could become a sperm and become a human, so she did so. But at this time, judging from the tone and expression of their conversation, it seems that the matter of the eagle becoming a spirit has already achieved great results. If this was the reason for their high spirits, it would be easy to understand.But they just buried the body of Condor! How can this be explained? I was full of doubts in my heart, so I had to listen to their conversations carefully in order to find the truth in what they said. Hong Ling danced and danced, extremely happy: "It's very good now!" Bai Su didn't say anything, but Hong Ling couldn't detect the hidden worry between her brows, but I knew it at a glance. I guess that although Bai Su doesn't know her situation exactly, she also feels that the situation is very strange, and she has no way to connect with reality, which is the main reason for her worry. But Hong Ling didn't care about her situation. She kept saying "very good", but what was the good thing?Condor died during the life form change, and she even said it was very good! Bai Su didn't express her worries in front of Hong Ling, and seeing Hong Ling so happy, she was also infected—in fact, although I couldn't find any reason for Hong Ling to be happy, but in Hong Ling's bright smile , I also feel as if no matter what the situation is, it's not worth worrying about. Hong Ling danced on the freshly filled soil for a while, then bounced forward. Behind Hong Ling, Bai Su shook her head and sighed secretly. I saw all these scenes, and I was in a voyeuristic situation at this time. I never knew what Bai Su and Hong Ling were doing in the chicken farm, and now I am not sure that seeing their actions like this is morally right. Not a problem. But to be honest, even if there is a problem, it is absolutely impossible for me not to watch it. Bai Su followed Hong Ling, and I followed Bai Su, walking forward.After a while, Hong Ling came to the front of the house, which was He Keren's residence before, and it was the place where I discussed things with Wen Baoyu and Lansi before entering the illusion. These days, I am very familiar with this house. The most special thing about the house is of course that there is nothing in it, it is empty. I am well aware that this is "before" my time, and that there may not necessarily be nothing in the house. Hong Ling has already reached the door, as long as she opens the door, she can see the situation in the house. But when Hong Ling reached the door, she didn't push the door. She stood at the door, showing a look of wanting to go in. She stretched out her hand a few times, but retracted it again, as if she had some scruples.Then she tilted her head and put her ear against the door. It is impossible for her to have any other purpose other than to hear what's going on inside the door. That made me feel weird—she wanted to know what was going on inside the door, why didn't she go in and see, instead of eavesdropping outside the door? And why she just listened and didn't look in - the window was right by the door! Thinking of this, I naturally glanced at the window, only to notice that there are black curtains hanging inside the window. The black curtains seem to be very thick and have good light blocking performance. I am absolutely sure that when I, Wen Baoyu and Lansi were in this house, there were no curtains on the windows! Why do houses have curtains?Is there something dark in there? Looking at the situation of Bai Su and Hong Ling, they obviously know what happened in the house. Referring to their conversation just now, it seems that what happened in the house cannot be disturbed, so Hong Ling is only outside the door, wanting to hear what is going on inside the house. What's happening. My curiosity was aroused to the extreme, and I suddenly thought that my existence at this time is very strange, I can see everything, but in fact I don't exist.Under such circumstances, if I go into the house, can I see the situation in the house without interfering with what is happening in the house? Thinking of this, I walked towards the door. When I got to the door, I paused for a while, then pushed the door and walked in. The room was pitch black, and when I first entered, I couldn’t see anything. At that moment, I felt that this situation was completely unreasonable—because I opened the door, there should be light coming in, and it shouldn’t be so dark. But at the time, I didn't think about it carefully, I just closed my eyes first so that my eyes could adapt to the darkness. Just as I was closing my eyes, there was a strange sound not far away. The sound sounded like panting or moaning. Unexpected to the extreme! What I saw was actually not strange at all, it was just completely unexpected. What I saw was the dark room just now, but now it is very bright, and I can see everything. The room is still empty, and there are no black curtains on the windows at all! In front of me, within reach is Wen Baoyu, and behind Wen Baoyu is Lansi, and they are looking at me with strange expressions. When seeing this completely different scene at the first glance, it is natural that there will be a very short time and it is difficult to adapt. But then I understood what was going on. The moment I closed my eyes and heard that strange voice, I left the illusion and returned to reality. And judging from the expressions of Wen Baoyu and Lansi, I can be sure that I entered the illusion just now, it was just the entry of thoughts, my body has been in the room at all, the two of them must have been watching me for a long time, no I know what I'm doing, that's why I have such a weird look. Wen Baoyu spoke first: "Are you awake?" I found myself standing against the wall, straightened up quickly, and shook my head: "I'm not asleep!" Wen Baoyu opened his mouth wide, obviously he had already thought that I had entered an illusion just now, but because he was too surprised, he was speechless for a moment. I nodded to him: "Yes, I just came back from the illusion—this time I entered the illusion, which belongs to the situation where only thoughts enter." We have discussed in detail the different situations of entering the illusion, so when I said this, Wen Baoyu and Lansi immediately understood and nodded together. Wen Baoyu immediately asked: "What did you see?" I calmed down, thought about the scene in the illusion just now, and asked: "How long have you been in? Do you see anything strange about me?" Wen Baoyu said: "I just came in, I only saw your puzzled face, I thought you were asleep and dreaming!" I smiled wryly: "It's similar to dreaming, but dreams are illusions." I described in detail the experience I had just had in the illusion. Wen Baoyu shook his head as he listened: "It doesn't make sense, it doesn't make sense, if Shen Ying dies, Hong Ling will cry for at least three days and three nights, and she won't smile for three years!" Although Wen Baoyu's words are always exaggerated, I quite agree with him. I said: "However, I did see the body of the condor and touched it. Bai Su and Hong Ling were indeed burying the condor." Wen Baoyu couldn't help shaking his head, obviously he knew something was wrong, but he couldn't think of what was wrong - this was exactly the same as my thoughts. After a while, he thought the same thing that I thought, and he asked a question that I had also thought about.