Chapter 7 Chapter 5 Branding

She repeatedly emphasized that there is an earth-shattering big secret to tell us, but suddenly she discusses Shi's father irrelevantly, so as to amplify the general's accent!Although some people like to chatter, but like Sai Guanyin, I am afraid that there will be no one before, and there will be no one to come after. So she looked a little helpless, and could only follow her mother's words: "Yes, my father is from Guizhou, maybe the accent in Guizhou is like this." Sai Guanyin shook his head: "Although he said he is from Guizhou, he is not a Han, but a Yi from the Daliang Mountains, and he was born Yi. Before he was sixteen years old, he could not speak Chinese at all. He learned it later. It’s fluent, but it’s always a bit strange. At that time, the Yi nationality was a slave society, and the slavery system was stricter in the society where the Yi people were born. Your father was a slave from birth. When he was sixteen years old, in order to protect his two younger sisters, Injured a slave owner, he fled with his two younger sisters, and escaped the hunt of the wolf-like slave owner, but he could not escape the mouth of a real tiger. His two younger sisters died in the mouth of a tiger, and he himself He was bitten and wounded all over his body. Relying on his young age and strong body, he struggled to get out of Daliang Mountain. His life was undeserving. He met a troop that happened to be marching past, rescued him, and took him in. From then on, he Became a revolutionary soldier."

When Sai Guanyin said this, she paused for a moment. Although I don't know if what she said has anything to do with the so-called secret, I listened carefully.Because she was talking about the deeds of the well-known General Yu Zang in his early years. Although what she said just now was simple and her tone was very calm, there was already a lot of blood and tears in those words! So with an "ah", he said: "When I was young, my father always showed me the scars on his body, pointing to the scars and saying: This one was given by the Japanese devils, this one was given by the reactionaries, this one was bitten by a tiger... I always I thought the tiger biting was just a joke, but it turned out to be true."

Sai Guanyin took a deep breath and wanted to say something, but she didn't make a sound.So it continued, her voice was emotional and her expression was a little excited. She said: "Dad is really great. He dedicated himself to his ideal and career, and completely integrated himself into his ideal. It is really great!" Originally, it is natural for a daughter to worship her father, so it is not surprising.But at this time, when Yu Yu said this, she didn't look at her mother at all. It was obvious that while she was praising her father, she was criticizing her mother in her heart.

I have long felt that Yu's attitude towards her mother is very respectful and close on the surface, but contemptuous and distant on the inside. I thought my feeling was wrong, but now seeing such a situation, I no longer have any doubts. Not only did I feel this, but watching Sai Guanyin's reaction, I knew that this situation had existed for a long time, because Sai Guanyin could feel it immediately, so while praising his father, the subtext was dissatisfaction and contempt for his mother. This situation is quite special. Although I was sure of this at the time, it was difficult to understand the reason.It wasn't until later that I discussed with Bai Su and several psychologists that I came to a certain conclusion—ordinary psychologists could hardly explain this phenomenon. Fortunately, one of the psychologists who participated in the discussion had There is a special study of modern history, and it specializes in the deep psychological impact of the madness of that decade, so he can tell a certain truth.

Originally, when I was narrating the story, I rarely said off-topic words, so as not to affect the compactness of the story.However, what I will say next is not irrelevant to the story. If readers are not interested, you can skip it and not read it, and the loss will not be great.If you read it, at least you will gain a certain degree of understanding of the background of the story. The psychologist made it very thorough. He said: "Because of the environment from childhood to adulthood, there is a terrible phenomenon-everyone has an invisible imprint. This invisible imprint is called' Family background'. 'Birth background' is simply and idiotically divided into good and bad. Like General Yu Fang, it belongs to Genzheng Miaohong's good background; while Sai Guanyin's bandit background belongs to the worst One. A person with a good birth is revered and treated well, and can become a new power in politics; a person with a bad background will always be the target of liquidation and struggle, and is the bottom of society, so he is naturally despised. The impact of this brand on psychology, It far exceeds the traditional family relationship, so in that environment, children and parents often have the so-called "drawing the line" this kind of obedient behavior."

At that time, I pointed out: "Although Sai Guanyin was a bandit, her background is definitely not a landlord and capitalist. She must have come from a poor background, and it is conceivable that she must have been bullied and oppressed. I don't know how much blood and tears were involved." After intertwining, she embarked on the road of being a bandit, not to mention that she and Yu Fang apparently joined the road of fighting for idealism, so is this brand of bandit lifelong?" The answer I got was: "Having said that, good or bad branding is an idiotic dichotomy—there's no thought process at all to bother with it."

I think of what happened to many people in that environment, and I have to admit that the psychologist's analysis is correct. Because of this, I immediately said: "That's not right, General Yu Fang's background is so good, why was he treated so cruelly that he died a miserable death?" When I was in the hospital ward, when she talked about her father's greatness, because she showed contempt for her mother, I was disgusted with it. I thought of her father's tragic end (the whole world knows the fate of this great general. How terrible), so I couldn't help saying: "Your father has completely integrated himself into the ideal, but the ideal doesn't seem to treat him kindly!"

Then her face turned pale—this was a normal reaction, but she glanced at her mother at the same time, and her eyes were not friendly. At that time, I didn't quite understand why she did this. I didn't know the truth until I heard the analysis of a psychologist. The psychologist answered my question: "The reason why the general fell from the sky to the ground is of course because he married a bandit. He was implicated by his wife's bad background, so he could easily fall in the storm of power struggle." Go on. Their daughter naturally suffers when her father and mother suffer misfortune—the suffering she has suffered is beyond what outsiders can imagine! Especially since she is an exceptionally beautiful woman, the experience must be a hundred times worse She decided that this terrible experience was due to her father marrying a bandit as his wife, so she blamed her mother."

After the psychologist analyzed why Yu would have such an attitude towards her mother, he continued to comment on Yu's behavior, saying: "This lady is also very ignorant. Fortunately, she still studies modern history, and she doesn't even know that the storm of power struggle Among them, if there are bandit wives, of course they will be liquidated, but if there are no bandit wives, it will be the same if they want to be liquidated. If you add any crimes, you can torture them to death at will, even those who have the status of heads of state are not spared. what." I agree with this statement very much, as to whether I will finally understand it, of course I have no way of knowing.

Back in the ward, the body language of Yu who looked down on her mother was so obvious that even I couldn't help being sarcastic, and of course Sai Guanyin knew it.Moreover, she had been treated like this by her daughter for a long time, and by this time, she had reached the limit of her tolerance. She stared at her daughter, her face was bloodless and gradually turning blue, her eyes were full of extreme helplessness and sadness, her voice trembled, and Xiang said: "You have only seen the scars on your father's body , I have never seen the scars on your mother's body, let you see it now!"

I noticed that at that moment, there was a look of disdain, and it was clear that she was saying in her heart: What kind of scars will you have—even if there are, they are probably left when you were a bandit! Even I could see what was going on in my mind. Of course, Sai Guanyin knew her daughter better than I did. She immediately raised her voice excitedly: "This injury is not left by a bandit, it is to complete the organization. The tasks assigned to you, without regard to your own life, not afraid of sacrifice, follow your father's words, it was given by the Japanese devils!" She had just finished speaking when she suddenly moved quickly, sat up straight, and lifted her shirt. Her movement was sudden. Although she was nearly a hundred years old, she was a woman after all. I immediately turned my head away, but because her movement was so fast, my eyes caught some scenes while turning my head. It's hard for me to say what exactly I saw, but in that glance, what I saw was definitely not a certain part of a human body, not a human breast, let alone a female breast, but something indescribable, no Knowing what it was, it was indescribably messy! Now that I have turned my head, of course I can't look back, I just feel that the body part of the person will become like this, and the extent of the injury at that time can be imagined. Only hearing Yu let out an exclamation, Bai Su suddenly took a breath.From the reactions of the two of them, especially Bai Su, who was always calm, would also be surprised, which shows that the scene in front of him is terrifying. Later I asked Bai Susai what happened to Guanyin's scars, Bai Su shook her head and said, "I can't describe it—I can't even imagine how she survived with such injuries." Bai Su said it was indescribable, so of course I couldn't ask further. But at that time, I heard the voice of Bai Su walking over, and Bai Su said: "Come on, let me tidy up your clothes for you." I knew it was Bai Su telling me to turn around. I turned my head and saw that Sai Guanyin was very excited, and Bai Su was beside her, patting her on the back lightly.And so he stood there, dumbfounded, just panting with his mouth wide open. Sai Guanyin calmed down, and said: "This is to complete the task, and also to save your father during the task. Your father was also seriously injured at that time. If I hadn't sacrificed my life to save him, he would not have stopped. One arm and one blind eye have already been sacrificed. I tell you this, not to show that I have meritorious service. My life was also saved by your father. When we became husband and wife, we may be a bit reluctant, but after we become husband and wife , but really love each other, and love to share life and death. At the beginning of ten years of turmoil, the organization told him that as long as he kicked me away, he would not be burdened by my bad background. He knew what it would be like to disobey the organization The terrible consequences, but still resolutely refused to leave me, this true love is really worthy of heaven and earth, Zhao Riyue, I know you have suffered a lot in those ten years, so you blame me for being tired of you, but you know the relationship between me and your father True love is deeper than the sea." She said it in one breath, coupled with the excitement, it was inevitable that she would pant again and again. So he lowered his head and said in a deep voice: "When everyone criticizes Dad, it means that he was a revolutionary soldier at the time, and he knew that you were a bandit leader, so he shouldn't marry you—even if he had a good impression of you, he lost it." At that time, you were willing to follow Dad, obviously to use Dad's identity to cover yourself and avoid sanctions!" The pimples between their mother and daughter obviously had a long history, and when it was time to erupt, they didn't even care about the presence of outsiders. When I was describing this story, I thought about whether I could omit this passage.The result of consideration is to keep and simplify as much as possible. The reason for keeping it is that passage, which shows Sai Guanyin's past experience, especially the matter between her and General Yu Zao.In this story, Sai Guanyin is the main character, and everything about her past is naturally related to the whole story. And this period of experience, the environment in which it happened, and people who have never been in contact with this environment, especially young people, will feel baffled, and cannot imagine how such an environment exists in human society──If you want to understand this kind of situation so far There is still an environment that is just covered with some makeup. If you want to know more about it, you can read more books about it. There are many literary works that use this environment as the background. They are all good-looking novels, which are worth reading. . Said that when Sai Guanyin heard her daughter say that, she raised her head to the ceiling, and I could clearly see that her eyes were full of tears. The tears were already full, but they never flowed down.It can be seen from this that although she is terribly sad, she insists on not shedding tears because of her extremely strong character. She took a deep breath, and said to herself first: "Brother, I have punished me and vowed not to tell this matter, but now that our daughter says this about me, I will meet you soon, I think you have to say it, when your daughter was clamoring to draw a line with me, didn't you almost say it too?" Her words were clearly addressed to her deceased husband, we heard them very clearly, but we couldn't understand the content for a while. When Sai Guanyin said this, she stopped, paused for a while, and suddenly called out softly, saying: "Daughter, you rushed in with a group of young people and forced me to marry your father. Your father arrived, do you still remember what your father said to you at that time. " So he took a breath: "Remember." Sai Guanyin said: "Okay, tell me." So he said: "Dad said that to protect you at that time!" Sai Guanyin repeated: "Speak out!" So he said in a deep voice: "At that time, my father said: 'You all made a mistake. It wasn't that she wanted to marry me back then, but that I did something wrong to her. She...she...', when it comes to this, you didn't let me go. He goes on." Sai Guanyin's voice was very calm: "You have never doubted these words? Didn't you think about what your father did to apologize to me?" Then there was no reaction - it was obvious that she did not think that the father she adored could make any mistakes. Sai Guanyin sighed softly, and said to himself: "That was the second year after the Japanese devils came in. Many friends from all corners of the world joined the army to fight the Japanese devils. At that time, the force I led was the strongest. There are more than a thousand people, more than 800 guns, and many messy armies want me to lead my men and cooperate with them, and I completely refuse." Sai Guanyin suddenly started talking about her own past. I didn't know if it was related to the so-called big secret she wanted to tell us, so I didn't dare to interrupt her. I glanced at Bai Su, and Bai Su answered me with his lips: If you come, you will be safe. I had to be patient and listen. And at this time, what disgusted Sai Guanyin said was not me, but So.I was right next to her, and I heard her talking to herself in a very low voice: "In order to maintain my power, I don't even want to beat the Japanese devils!" Judging from her attitude, she can't understand her mother's background as a bandit to the extreme. Sai Guanyin didn't know whether she heard what she said and pretended not to hear it, or really didn't hear it at all. Looking at her situation at this time, she was completely immersed in memories—from what she said next, her words were still the same. Yes was talking, but her eyes were not on Shi's body at all, but showed a very scattered and dazed gaze, completely out of focus, and didn't know where to look.Perhaps at this time, her eyes also looked towards the past along with the memories, this situation is very peculiar. She continued: "Until your father brought the troops down the mountain. Although your father was only twenty years old at that time, he was already the commander of a battalion. He was not only in their own troops, but also in the enemy and other troops. , everyone also knows that there is a baby battalion commander who is not afraid of death in war." When she said this, she paused for a while before continuing: "Of course I have heard the name of this baby battalion commander for a long time, but I didn't expect him to have such a big influence on the hearts of the brothers. Attacking us is just shouting from the bottom of the mountain, asking us not to be bandits anymore, and go with him to fight the Japanese devils, drive out the invaders, and save the country and the people!" When I describe this story now, I try to simplify Sai Guanyin's narrative at that time. Otherwise, just the acquaintance process and some things that happened between her and Yu Fang can be a novel. At that time, she said that Yu Fang used shouting to recruit surrender, so she repeated the content of the shouting she heard back then in detail, I believe it was so detailed to the point of not changing a word, and her tone was excited, saying that the country will Bai Su and I can't help being infected when we don't rise up to fight against the enemy, and our children and grandchildren will all be subjugated slaves.From this we can see how excited the people who heard it at that time would be. Sai Guanyin continued: "On the first day of the chanting, more than a hundred brothers rushed to the team of the baby battalion commander. I was shocked and angry. On the second day, the chanting was like a curse, and another two brothers were yelled away. More than a hundred people, and they all threw guns over there!" So when I heard this, I cheered sincerely: "Good!" Not only did she hear her father's deeds back then, she yearned for it, even I was fascinated when I heard it. This shouting tactic is exactly the psychological tactic used by Yu Fang's army on the battlefield. It uses all kinds of beautiful slogans, which are exciting and make the opponent lose the will to fight. It is one of the genius creations of many military geniuses. This kind of psychological tactic was used by Battalion Commander Battalion Baby when he dealt with the bandits in Funiu Mountain. There are records of the accelerated disintegration of the army, so it must not be taken lightly. Sai Guanyin also said: "Good! That's great! On the third day, more people left, and many people were conscientious. When they left, they left their guns behind. For seven consecutive days, there were only thirty-two people left by my side. However, twenty-seven people are women. The remaining thirty-two people are all brought back from the gate of hell by me, and they will never leave me. I know that they also want to go to the army to fight the Japanese devils in their hearts. But they will not leave me. On the eighth day, the content of the propaganda changed, saying that if we don’t surrender, we will launch an attack!”——so he muttered in a low voice: “It’s really reactionary to the end!” Sai Guanyin didn't seem to hear it at all, she said: "If the army attacked as soon as it arrived, we would have enough defensive power. But now 99% of the people have left, and the army will definitely use the people who surrendered to the past to play the vanguard , these people originally went down the mountain, and they are very familiar with the terrain on the mountain. We people on the mountain, even if we want to hide, we can't hide. There is really only one dead end. This baby battalion commander has already forced the thirty-three of us We've reached a desperate situation!" So this time I couldn't help it, and raised my voice: "Why don't you surrender, is it true that being a bandit is really addictive?" So saying this is really too much, even Bai Su frowned, Sai Guanyin paused, although she still didn't look at it, but she reacted to the yes, she took a deep breath, He paused every word and said: "Why didn't I surrender? Because I don't trust officials! I don't trust officials, and I don't trust officials!" When she said these words, she didn't gnash her teeth, but it could make people feel the deep sadness and pain in her heart. Sai Guanyin didn't say why she didn't trust the government or the army so much at that time and later, and I didn't have a chance to ask, so I still don't know the details.But it is conceivable that it must be related to the extremely painful experience between her and the government. And it is speculated that it has a lot to do with Sai Guanyin's process from a good girl to a bandit. Of course, the process is intertwined with blood and tears, and it is the pain of innocent people, not the pain of the government. So after hearing her mother's confession, she was not moved at all, and immediately said, "You don't know right from wrong! You confuse revolutionary organizations with reactionary regimes, your understanding is vague, and you have no position at all!" Originally, I didn't have a good impression of yes, but now I heard a series of words that she blurted out naturally without having to go through the brain, and I was even more disgusted by the language that was only used in the struggle meetings of so-called revolutionary organizations. Before Sai Guanyin responded, I said coldly: "It's right not to believe in the government—no matter what kind of government it is, you can't believe it. I think those who went down the Funiu Mountain and joined the army, Out of one hundred, ninety-nine and a half will not have good results because they have the brand of 'been a bandit' on their bodies. Who will remember the good things they said when they asked them to surrender." Sai Guanyin responded very quickly this time, she suddenly laughed, the laughter was far from pleasant, she said: "Even the people who said good things back then, they were like bodhisattvas crossing the river, and they were beaten to death by their own people. The fate of the others can be imagined. To die in the hands of the enemy on the battlefield is a great fortune, and at least you can be a martyr. But their martyrs are different from real martyrs──When I talked about the big secret When the time comes, I will explain in detail." Hearing Sai Guanyin's last words, I couldn't help being dumbfounded.Dare to talk about it for a long time, and the big secret she wants to tell has not been touched yet! According to this, how long will it take to get to the secret she wants to tell!Although I was very interested in listening to everything she said, I was afraid that her life would end before she got to the point—the doctor had already said that she might die at any time. I was thinking quickly in my mind how to skillfully remind her of this, but Bai Su gave me a wink, signaling that I would let her continue. During that moment of hesitation, Sai Guanyin continued to talk, and I didn't even have a chance to intervene. Sai Guanyin continued: "No one died on the battlefield: they all fell in one movement after another. In the end, there were no more than five people who escaped the ten years of madness. They all died at the hands of their own people. , These people are all good men who listened to the propaganda back then, rushed to victory, and dedicated themselves to the country and the people!" As she spoke, she let out a long sigh, and Bai Su and I sighed together - died at the hands of the enemy, dedicated our blood to our country and nation, our soul is a ghost hero, this life is not in vain!But to die at the hands of one's own people, and to be cruelly abused by one's own people more than the enemy's, I really don't know what the name is, just like General Yu Zoom-in, he really can't die with peace of mind.Now come to a redress, how can we compensate for the pain when the general died at that time in case!And the most ironic thing is that the culprit who launched the madness is still in the palace in a big way, enjoying the temple sacrifices. Everyone is silent, and they dare not even bring it up for discussion. The slavishness of a nation is so indistinguishable from right and wrong. , I really can't think of any phenomenon more tragic and uncultivable than this! Like Yu, who specializes in modern history, should be very clear about all this, but she doesn't pursue the root of evil, and still cares about her mother's background, which is a typical example. When I was disgusted, I suddenly felt like Yu, who had been in that environment since birth and had no chance to contact the outside world. He didn't know how to be a person at all. He only knew that he should listen to the organization's orders, and he was completely lost. Losing myself, how pitiful it is! But everyone thinks differently, you think he is pitiful, he may think you are inexplicable.At this time, Bai Su and Sai Guanyin, I, and I were all very emotional, and then looked disdainful, as if thinking that those people should have such an end. She snorted: "You more than 30 people are ready to resist to the end." Sai Guanyin seems to be responding to this question, or not, her voice is still very calm: "I told them at that time, I will not go down the mountain, but they, I don't want them to die when the army is attacking, I ordered them to go down the mountain , They all cried bitterly and bid farewell to me... Although many of them died terribly later, after all, they lived for many years... When everyone went down the mountain, I thought the army would leave, who knows In order to establish his prestige and to be able to incorporate the bandit troops more smoothly in the future, the baby battalion commander insisted on refusing to let me go. In front of all the officers and soldiers, he claimed that he would capture me down the mountain alive, and that he would act alone and go up the mountain alone to arrest me... …He really didn’t take anyone with him, and he came up the mountain by himself. The warning line on the mountain issued a warning. I knew that someone had gone up the mountain. I didn’t face him until the fourth day. We had a gun battle first, and then moved Knife, right at the end with bare hands..." It must be explained that when Sai Guanyin narrated that experience, she explained in great detail that she and Yu Fang had fought in various forms for five days on the mountain, fighting for life and death almost every minute and every second. Ten thousand points: Sometimes, her life hangs by a thread, and sometimes, Yu Fang has one foot into the gate of hell.Sai Guanyin spoke very vividly. Although we knew that the two of them were fine, when we listened to it, we were still worried and sweated for them. However, I don’t intend to describe all this according to what Sai Guanyin said, because it will cost at least one hundred and eighty thousand words, and it is a completely different story. You may wish to imagine the twists and turns in it, which is very interesting. . I will simply talk about what happened on the last day. It was midsummer at that time. Seeing such weather and environment, she thought it was God who helped her, so she designed to lure Yu Fang to the edge of a cliff, where she was going to make a move. She counted very well, when she did it, there was a half chance Yu Fang would step on the air by herself and fall off the cliff, and there was a half chance that she would be able to knock Yu Fang off the cliff. Sure enough, Yu Fang fell into the trick and was led to the pre-designed place by Sai Guanyin.She was very careful, because in the dark, she was just as dangerous.