Chapter 4 Chapter 2 Numbness

In this story, she does not officially appear, but she is a key character.Her identity is the leader of a group of bandits in Funiu Mountain──that's why she sighed that "bad deeds travel thousands of miles". When I came into contact with this story, I never thought that I would meet the daughter of such a character in the future, so I felt very strange at the time. At this time, Bai Su asked: "May I ask your father--" When mentioning her father, she naturally showed a proud expression and said, "My late father was named Yu Fang, and he was a soldier." From the introduction of Tie Dan, we have already guessed the legendary general, and now that it is confirmed, we are not too surprised.

However, at this moment, I was extremely puzzled.Because one is a bandit leader who occupies mountains and becomes king, robs houses, distributes large sums of money, and drinks in large bowls; How two absolutely opposite characters can come together and become a husband and wife is simply incredible! I can be sure that there must be very twists and turns in this story. I am very interested in all the twists and turns, and I made up my mind at that time to try to figure out what happened. Because General Yu Fang was brutally tortured to death by the organization he was loyal to all his life, everyone knows that General Yu Fang’s wife did not suffer from the persuasion or pressure of the organization like the spouses of other liquidated persons , divorced Jiang Shan, and made the so-called "drawing the line" behavior.

Because of this, of course she was also treated horribly at the same time──the horrific degree was probably far beyond anyone's imagination.It was not easy for her to survive. And she would rather suffer than leave her husband, of course, because of her love for him. From this we can see how steadfast and great this female mountain king is in her love for her husband! For this alone, she is a respectable woman! As for how such a beautiful woman became the leader of the bandits, I'm afraid it will be another story with twists and turns. As I thought about it, I responded: "Your father's name is as loud as thunder... When his accident happened, you mother and daughter suffered a lot, right?"

On Yu's face, there was a very painful expression for a moment, but it was fleeting. She said with a faint expression and a faint voice: "It's all over." Although she seemed completely innocent, I could feel that experience was her eternal sorrow! Not only Bai Su and I felt this way, even Hong Ling knew this, she came over suddenly and hugged her tightly, so of course she also knew why Hong Ling acted like this, there were tears in her eyes, But she didn't show further sadness, and immediately took out the business card and gave it to Bai Su and me. Taking the business card, I saw that her title was "Researcher of Modern History at the National Institute of History".

I asked, "Do you study modern Chinese history?" So she nodded. At this time, Bai Su obviously knew what I wanted to say next, so she touched me heavily, gave me a hard look, and rushed to say: "I don't know what kind of food we can provide." help?" Given Bai Su's stop like this, of course I didn't say what I wanted to say at the time.Later I asked Bai Su: "Why did you stop me?" Bai Su asked back: "What were you going to say at that time?" I said: "I am going to point out a fact to her: there is no such thing as modern history - all history can be tampered with at will, even the people in the photos can be made to disappear at will, there is no truth at all, it is all up to the authority The will of the author determines, what is the research value of such a so-called history!"

Bai Su took a breath: "Perhaps because of this, she wants to study, in order to restore the true face of history." I laughed out loud: "You are so naive, those in power have their own history, if they don't want their true colors, the true colors will never appear!" Bai Su sighed: "Although it is so, since she is a researcher, she must understand this point. You don't need to remind her. If you say it, it will only make the atmosphere worse at that time. Why bother!" Although I still disagree with Bai Su's idea, I didn't continue to say anything, because I agree with her that those in power determine history.

But at that time Bai Su asked: "I don't know why you came to see us?" So she took a deep breath, as if her request was hard to say, she hesitated for a moment before saying: "My mother is suffering from lung cancer, and it has reached the terminal stage──" When she said this, I couldn't help but frown, thinking that she wanted to come and beg me to go to Lerman Hospital for her mother. So I immediately said: "Is Lingtang's longevity over eighty?" What I mean is very clear: people are always going to die, and they should accept the natural arrangement, and should not force anything.

So she was taken aback for a moment, obviously not understanding what I meant, but she still answered my question: "She just passed her ninety-sixth birthday." I also want to further remind her that it should be enough for a person to live to the age of ninety-six, and there is no need to want to live any longer.But before I opened my mouth, Bai Su stopped me from speaking, and she asked, "What about the medical treatment?" So he took another breath: "The hospital said that from now on, life will end at any time, at most one month away." Bai Su comforted her: "Don't be too sad, people will always be like this."

So he said calmly: "I won't be sad. My mother is more open-minded, saying that her life experience is definitely not in vain. It's just that if she doesn't complete one thing before she dies, she will die with regret." Hearing this, I knew I had made a mistake. The old man was ready to face death, but there was still one thing to do. The key, of course, lies in what she is going to do. Bai Su and I asked at the same time: "What is it?" So she looked at us and said, "She wants to meet with Mr. and Mrs. Wei." I was stunned for a moment, and looked at Bai Su, only to see that her expression was also inexplicable. I wondered why this old lady, whose life was full of legends, wanted to meet us—such a dying request can be said to be extremely weird .

Seeing that Bai Su and I were hesitant, she thought we would not agree, and she hurriedly said: "My mother said that she has a big secret in her heart, and she wants to tell the two of you. World." At this time, my thoughts were quite disordered. First of all, I didn't mean to refuse, because this old lady is definitely a person worth meeting. If she doesn't invite me, I will ask for it.But after hearing what he said, I couldn't help but shook my head and smiled wryly, and said, "If the secrets known to you are to be handed down through my records, then it is really untrustworthy to the extreme—even if my accounts are 100% true No one will believe it, they all think it is nonsense, extremely absurd nonsense!"

So she smiled, obviously she didn't necessarily think my account was true, she said: "My mother said so, so I will repeat it." I looked at her with a questioning look, and she shook her head and said, "I don't know what her so-called big secret is all about. But I can be sure that although she is old and her body is extremely weak, her mind is still very clear , definitely not talking nonsense." Hearing what she said, I couldn't help sighing. When the body dies, the mind also dies. It's really unfair. If a good body is given to the mind, which is still very good and full of memories, life can continue to exist! So I said this, of course, to show that her mother would not want to see us for no reason, but she definitely had something to say to us. I had no intention of refusing the request, but at this time I was about to agree, when I suddenly thought of a question, I immediately asked: "Which hospital is Lingtang now?" So he slowly revealed the name of a hospital, which is named after four numbers, which is different from ordinary hospitals.Of course, I knew that this hospital belonged to the military, and it only accepts senior officers above generals—don’t think that there will be no class distinctions in a society piled up with beautiful slogans. In fact, in such a society, class distinctions Stricter than anything else! In a hospital like this that is only used by senior personnel, it is a crime for ordinary people not to mention going in to see a doctor, even if they look around at the door.It belongs to the upper class of the privileged class, and even the middle and lower classes of the privileged class can only look at the door and sigh, and ordinary people don't even have to think about it! So's mother is the wife of General Yu Fang. After the death of General Yu Fang, his reputation has been restored, and naturally the family members have also been treated as a privileged class, so they can enter such a hospital. I have always hated this kind of situation, so when I heard the name of this hospital, I frowned naturally. Of course Bai Su knew why I frowned, she was thinking about how to tell me, but Hong Ling didn't know the details, so she rushed to say: "The name of this hospital is so strange!" I was just about to make a big impact on Hong Ling's words, so I said first: "That is a hospital specially set up for a high-level privileged class—the existence of such a hospital or other similar places proves that this place is far away from human beings." The ideal state of civilization, equality, and freedom is still far away." I didn't expect to make such an explanation-even if I were to play, I couldn't give a better explanation. So he turned to me again: "I know that Mr. Wei is not very willing to go to a place like this environment, but in order to fulfill my mother's wish, I still have to bite the bullet and make a request to the two of you: Please go and see her old man, Listen to what she has to say." Bai Su didn't say anything: she just looked at me - although she hated that environment as much as I did, she wasn't as persistent as me, so the problem was on me. I thought for a while, and said: "If you just listen to her, it's the same if Bai Su goes alone." So he smiled bitterly: "I have known Mr. Wei's position for a long time, so I mentioned to my mother that Mrs. Wei is the same, but when I am old and stubborn, there is no way. She insists on Mr. Wei, even if Mr. Wei is alone. You can go too." So she spoke quite directly. She said this, not only offending Bai Su, but also like saying that I "get older and more stubborn", and I don't know how to accommodate! I snorted. Although I didn't say anything, I clearly expressed my dissatisfaction. Bai Su said: "Is it possible to make Wesley hear what she said through the phone?" So he looked bitter: "Because I already know that Mr. Wei is not easy to invite, so I have already made various assumptions. What my mother said she wanted to tell Mr. Wei is a rare big secret in human history. Only the two of you and I can get it." Listen, if you use the phone, it will leak." I shook my head: "This is self-contradictory—her purpose is to let me hear her secret and turn it into my account, so that the world can know. If this is the case, why worry about the phone being eavesdropped?" So he said: "I also asked this question. She said that if she wants to talk about something, she only needs to tell the beginning, and if people hear it, there will be absolutely no chance to continue talking, and she will be silenced immediately." I couldn't help being annoyed and funny when I heard this, and before I protested, Hong Ling actually realized something was wrong, she said loudly: "It's such a serious matter, asking parents to listen to such a secret, wouldn't it make them Are you in danger of being silenced at any time?" Hong Ling questioned so well, even Bai Su nodded. I looked at Shi Shi to see how she argued, but unexpectedly she said: "Yes, it is true, and because of this, Mr. Wei and Mrs. Wei are needed, because only they can cope with the dangerous and dangerous environment." I couldn't help being angry and funny, there is such a thing in the world.This is tantamount to pushing a person into a crocodile pool on the grounds that he should be able to cope without being eaten. This is so ridiculous that I can only shake my head—I really don't know what to say. So he said: "My mother originally wanted to invite Mr. Bai to come and listen to this secret. In her mind, Mr. Bai is an indomitable hero who will not be afraid of anything." She actually wanted to stimulate me with words, which made me laugh out loud: "Yes, I am far behind Mr. Bai! He stands up to the sky, and when I stand on the ground, I can't even reach the ceiling of the room!" So he sighed: "But I found Mr. Bai, but he refused, and tried his best to introduce you, Mr. Wei, saying that only you can replace him. What he can do, Mr. Wei, you can certainly do. " I snorted, "That's why you came to me - it's called 'last resort,' isn't it?" So he didn't answer directly, he was just dumb, and there was an acquiescence.I'm not angry, I just think it's funny, because I'm definitely not as good as Boss Bai, so even though he deliberately belittles me, I don't care. I said: "Actually, there is only one thing that Mr. Bai can do, and I can do it too, that is—" So she is not only beautiful, but also extremely smart. Before I finished speaking, she sighed and said, "Just reject my request!" I smiled and said, "That's right!" So I was very disappointed. At this time, I estimated that she should be at least fifty years old, but when she showed a disappointed and sad expression, she was still extremely touching and soft-hearted, and she would accept her request.However, because her request was too much for me to accept, I had no choice but to shake my head. Bai Su followed her and sighed: "We are asked to go in and hear a big secret that a person who knows the secret will be silenced at any time, so ma'am, this is really something we can't agree to. You know, Wesley can't go in secretly, as long as he enters , he will be noticed immediately, and his actions will be under strict surveillance. Under such circumstances, Lingtang will not be able to meet and talk with him in secret, and the only result will be an unexplained death!" So after listening to Bai Su's sincere analysis, he was not moved at all, but opened his eyes wide, feeling very dazed, as if he didn't know what Bai Su was talking about. Bai Su said: "Is it because I didn't understand clearly enough?" So he said: "It's not that you don't understand what you said, but I don't understand." At this time, not only Bai Su and I didn't know what she meant by saying that, Hong Ling was even more puzzled, and said loudly: "What don't you understand?" So he said in a hurry: "I don't understand why Mr. Wei wants to go in publicly with his true colors--I read all Mr. Wei's descriptions. Both Mr. Wei and Mrs. Wei have superb makeup skills, and there are ghosts How does the ability to walk in and out of any place without knowing it, to dress up as anyone, to visit a dying patient, get any attention?" When Bai Su and I heard what she said, we really couldn't laugh or cry, we didn't know how to react.If she hadn't been introduced by Boss Bai and Tie Dan, I'm afraid that if I don't make a move, no matter how well-bred Bai Su is, I can't help but throw her out! What she said made people feel extremely awkward──you can't say that she was wrong, Bai Su and I have indeed had many such experiences.But this does not mean that we have done this before, so we have to take the same risk for you.But she felt that she was justified and did not understand why we refused. Although I have dealt with various types of earthlings and even various types of aliens, but now I really don't know how to respond to this beautiful woman in front of me. Bai Su obviously felt the same way as me, so she also had a strange look, and she had nothing to say for a while. Only Hong Ling, a naive savage, clapped his hands and said, "Yes! Dad and Mom really have such abilities, no matter how bad the environment is, they will definitely not be able to stop them!" Hong Ling danced and said, completely ignoring that I was staring at her fiercely, which really made me angry and funny. So she walked over, took Hong Ling's hand, and shook it gently. Although she didn't speak, her body language was very clear.Hong Ling was even more excited, looking at us, she seemed to be possessed by an evil spirit, and said: "Mom and Dad, just go and show your supernatural powers once, not only can you have a new experience, but you can also know a big secret, killing two birds with one stone, isn't it? Is it a great deal?" I'd like to go over and give her a couple of hard gouges on the head to clear her head! With a daughter like this, sometimes I really don't know whether to be happy or sad. Bai Su was very calm: she smiled and said, "I'm afraid it's impossible for us to sneak in, because the whereabouts of Ma'am are probably already in the hands of relevant parties. So Ma'am, after you go abroad, I went to meet my father, I went to meet General Tiedan, and now I come to meet with us again. Do you think that no one is paying attention to your actions? After paying attention to your actions, you will naturally think that the matter has something to do with Lingtang , I am afraid that Lingtang has already received special care, anyone who approaches Lingtang will be noticed, and it is useless to pretend to be any person." I don't know if this lady is a real idiot or a fake idiot, Bai Su said, but she shook her head and disagreed with Bai Su's analysis, saying: "I am not a big shot, the country has so many things to do, how can I pay attention to it?" to me. As for my mother, she is dying, and no one will pay attention to her." I was angry: "Don't forget that your mother has a big secret, and she knows that this secret will make her silenced!" So he said: "But apart from a few of us, no one else knows that my mother has a secret in her heart—even if she knows, she doesn't know what it is. Most of them will think that it is the nonsense of the old man before she died. That's all." I couldn't bear it anymore, and raised my voice: "You want us to risk our lives just because of your own assumptions?" So the answers were fluent: "You assume that life will be in danger, and you take it for granted—the fact is so terrible—or there used to be such a fear, but it is obviously different now." Looking at her beautiful face, I shook my head slowly, feeling sad in my heart: how can people be so numb! Not to mention how tragic her father's death was, she herself must have gone through nearly ten years of inhuman life.During that period, unless she was a dead person, she must have reflected on her environment.But when she regained her identity and entered the privileged class again, she used her own method of deceiving herself and joined the ranks of making lies. After she had deceived herself, she also hoped to deceive others: it was different now. It is different now, or it will be different in the future. There are too many words like this, and others may have enough wisdom not to believe them, but the people who say them will believe them.It was a terrible and sad situation.From a psychological point of view, only those who have experienced great grief will subconsciously demand such numbness, escape in the numbness, and dare not face the past or face reality at all. If this phenomenon only occurs in a few individuals, although it is terrible, it is not a big deal, but if the whole nation is immersed in such a numb mental state, then I don’t know what kind of tragedy it is! For this kind of numbness, I found that no matter how loudly I shouted, it would not be effective-the numb mind has lost the function of feeling the outside world. I have always despised and felt sorry for this kind of situation. At this time, I think this lady is a typical example. I didn't bother to talk to her anymore, so I just sneered, Bai Su has a good temper, she smiled and said: "It's useless to tell us what you said. You should tell Ling Tang, tell her that things are different now, just say what you have to say , there will be nothing, let alone such terrible things as murder and silence, let her tell all the secrets in her heart, and nothing will happen, that would be great!" Bai Su's words were repeated and typed very fiercely, so she couldn't answer for a while, and her expression was very awkward——because she is such an outstanding beauty, any expression on her face looked very awkward. pleasing to the eye. Obviously because of this reason, Hong Ling didn't take our quarrel very seriously. She said loudly, "What are you arguing about?" I immediately told her: "We are discussing whether the cannibals have progressed, become more civilized, are different from before, and know how to eat people with knives and forks. Is it acceptable?" Hong Ling was taken aback for a moment, but said nothing more. So the lady smiled bitterly and said, "It seems that we have some things that are not speculative." I said: "There are more than a few, it's almost to the extreme!" The lady who had been sitting in a very elegant posture slowly stood up, took a breath, and said, "In that case, I'm taking my leave, sorry to bother you." She walked towards the door, Bai Su and Hong Ling sent her out, at the door, she stood for a while, then turned to me and said: "It seems that my mother's wish is hard to come true, and she will die with regret." I said: "Who can finish all the things to be done in one lifetime?" So she paused, and said again: "Mr. Wei, don't you want to know the big secret she said?" I immediately said: "I really want to know──I'm very curious. But I don't think it's worth taking this level of risk, and I don't want to go to an environment where I can't even breathe smoothly──Maybe You are used to this environment and have long been numb, but I am very sensitive, so I had to give up." So when he heard these words, he turned his head and thought for a while, and said, "I understand." At that time, I didn't know what she meant by saying that, and I didn't expect that things would develop unexpectedly later. Before I could react, she had already walked away.Bai Su only delivered it to the door, but Hong Ling kept sending it out, and came back after a while, with a sullen expression on her face.We know that she was very impressed with being this beautiful aunt, so she was not happy because she couldn't get help. It is very difficult to explain to her the reason why we refused Shi's request. How can a child like Hong Ling understand this kind of thing-even Shi Shi, who clearly knows what's going on: he is still lying to himself, so much People are either ignorant or shameless, and there is really no way to explain it. So let's ignore Hong Ling for the time being, and I asked Bai Su: "Do you think Boss Bai knows why Ms. Sai Guanyin Dou Qiaolan, who is lying in the hospital, is looking for him?" Bai Su thought for a while: "At most, he is just like us, knowing that Sai Guanyin has a big secret to tell him." I smiled wryly: "This old lady goes around saying that she has a big secret, and sooner or later she will get killed!" Bai Su sighed: "She is already ninety-six years old, and she only has a lifespan of one month at most, so she doesn't care about anything." I said: "It's just weird. Since she doesn't care about anything, she can disclose the so-called secrets. Why do she need to find a special person to listen to it?" Bai Su glared at me: "That's why I made this question very clear, and you didn't listen carefully. The old lady wants everyone in the world to know this secret. But if it is made public in a normal way, in that abnormal place, it must be It cannot be spread. She may not be afraid of being silenced, but she is afraid that the secret in her heart will become an eternal secret!" I thought in my heart, this legendary figure, I don’t know what the secret is, but this is something that cannot be imagined at all, so I just thought about it and let go. Hong Ling has a bright personality, and by the next day, her unhappiness disappeared, and we never mentioned it again. Five or six days later, Lansi suddenly called, and the first words she said were: "Cousin, there is a head-down master named Hulusheng, do you remember?" It was not long ago that I went to Europe with this gourd birth master, and after we left, Bai Su and I mentioned him, because the portrait of Sai Guanyin painted by Boss Bai was in the he there.Back then Sai Guanyin summoned 3,000 people from all walks of life to celebrate his birthday for him. Although he was only a teenager at the time, he had a crush on her for many years like countless people who had seen Sai Guanyin. To him, that portrait was Incomparably precious baby. All this is also described in this story.