Chapter 126 God hurts-they are guilty of life and guilty of death

On August 27, 1966, Qian Jiaju bought a bottle of Erguotou wine, took a bus to Xiangshan, and decided to commit suicide by jumping off a cliff at "Ghost Seeing Sorrow".As a result, he was discovered by the Red Guards in the middle of the mountain, and he was forced to go down the mountain. He jumped off a cliff on the way and was rescued without dying.He was picked up by a car sent by the Industrial and Commercial Bureau.After the family members learned about the suicide, the wife said in tears, "I was beaten to the ground by the Red Guards this time, and I didn't shed a single tear. I really cried when I heard you committed suicide. How could you die?" After you die, what shall we do? You still have an old mother, me, and children, how can you teach us how to live?" Qian Jiaju regretted it very much: "Originally, ants are greedy for life, and a person is extremely helpless. , who would want to die! I am not a narrow-minded person, and I would never have made such a decision if it hadn't been out of deep sorrow and indignation. However, during the Cultural Revolution, senior cadres and senior intellectuals who were forced to commit suicide Molecules, famous professors, famous actors, famous doctors, famous writers, famous reporters, and more than thousands. Among my close friends are Lao She, Jian Bozan and his wife, Fan Changjiang, Jin Zhonghua, Deng Tuo, Meng Qiujiang... Waiting for others. Who has no parents, who has no brothers, who has no children, who has no relatives and friends, what crimes are they in life, and what crimes are they in death!"

In August 1966, Zhang Naiqi was dragged to Wangfujing by a group of Red Guards to participate in the "group beating" meeting. Because he refused to plead guilty and had a bad attitude, he was beaten to pieces, blood dripping, and there was no good meat on his body.The Red Guards ransacked his house and beat his new wife, Wang Wangxiang, to death in front of his face.A tricycle driver saw that he was still breathing, so he dragged him into the cart and drove him home.Everyone who saw him said he would not survive three days.But Zhang Naiqi is indeed a tough guy, relying on qigong and willpower, he survived.None of the cadres from the Central Committee of the Democratic National Construction Association and the All-China Federation of Industry and Commerce paid any attention to him or sympathized with him.It turned out that a driver from the grain department quietly placed a drawer of hot steamed buns at the door of his house every few days.That's how he got through.

In his later years, Yin Haiguang was lonely and desperate.But the students loved him, and the old friends wanted to forgive him.Once, Fu Lecheng euphemistically mentioned to him the bold words of "turning the universe" that the two had said at the Southwest Associated University. Yin Haiguang was speechless for a while, and finally closed his eyes and shook his head and said: "Now I am exhausted. " The most distressing thing for Wang Yunsheng in his later years was the "Old Ta Kung Pao from 1926 to 1949" he wrote in the 1960s.From the drafting to the finalization of this document, important officials of the CCP urged it into chapters. This is his long letter of repentance.He said he was "digging his own grave".

Hu Sheng said in his later years: "I have five out of ten ambitions to learn, at thirty I stand up, at forty I am confused, and I am confused for thirty years. I know a little bit of destiny in my seventy and eighty, and I have a glimpse of the door in the 21st century. Ten hopeless, alas, alas, let's enjoy." Gao Ertai said: "Perhaps Cui Jian and his rock music are the only cultural forms in China that can be enlightened." When summing up the way to live a long life, Shi Zhecun said: "I have been watching all my life, only watching but not participating. So I didn't die at all." He advocated that intellectuals only write "Historical Records" to record history, which is very good, and there is no need to directly Participate in social change.

Zhang Yuanshan once had a short teaching career. One day when he was in class, he asked the students, please give a sad experience in life.No one answered for a long time, then a girl stood up and said slowly: "When I was studying modern Chinese history."