Chapter 66 The fourth quarter gap

Lack of love is just a personal pain for ordinary people, no one cares, no one cares, he can only lick his wounds alone in the dark night, deceiving himself in vain: tomorrow is a new day, everything will be fine .His libido creeps inward, taking pleasure in hurting himself. But for the emperor, lack of love, his libido is flaunted outwards, vented and transferred on the empire, and the whole country is forced to listen to his groans, bear his misfortune, and accept his struggle. For Yingzheng, there is nothing impossible to get, but love is hard to find.He is already the supreme king, who can love him, who dares to love him, who is qualified to love him?The child inside him will never be hugged or comforted.The child was crying in his heart.This caused Yingzheng to have a strong illusion, as if he had never grown up, he was not a noble king living in the palace of Xianyang, he was still that poor wandering beggar.

He was afraid that the child in his heart would become reality again and take away everything he had now.He is in such a psychological crisis all the time: maybe when he wakes up one day, he suddenly finds himself back on the streets of Handan, with nothing and being bullied by others.This serious psychological crisis was not resolved until he wiped out Zhao Guo and killed all his childhood enemies. At this time, Ying Zheng was less trustworthy and suspicious, and extremely insecure.To gain a sense of security, he must strengthen himself and eliminate all those who pose a threat to him until he becomes invincible.Therefore, there must be a battle between him and Lu Buwei.Even if Lu Buwei doesn't have the heart to rebel, he already has the strength to rebel. As a king, Yingzheng must always prepare for the worst.For him, the later the battle with Lu Buwei came, the better.He needs to buy time to cultivate and strengthen his own strength, but at the same time, he must keep a low profile so as not to alarm Lu Buwei too early, in case he jumps over the wall in a hurry.What's more, besides Lu Buwei, his enemy also has Lao Ai.

Right now, Lai Ai and Lu Buwei are fighting so happily that they have no time or care for Ying Zheng for the time being.But Yingzheng is unwilling to sit back and wait for profit.He knows that only by holding the sword in his own hands can he hold his destiny in his own hands. With Lao Ai and Lu Buwei controlling the overall situation of the government, it is no less difficult to cultivate one's own lineage than to save private money behind the back of his wife.It is better to start a new stove than to snatch food from a tiger's mouth.In places where Lao Ai and Lu Buwei are not as powerful, they will open up land and open up wasteland.Thus, there was this newly established secret service under the control of Li Si.This secret service department is the hidden sharp claws, sharp fighters in the dark.It is called foreign affairs, but once something happens in the country, it can immediately turn the blade, fight for Yingzheng, and die for Yingzheng.

Although it was just a long history, Li Si didn't feel unbalanced in his heart.He can think about it.He knew that if he came to Xianyang ten years earlier or later, with his talent and ability, he could become a senior minister or even a prime minister just like Zhang Yi, Fan Ju and others.But he came to Xianyang at this time, and met Ying Zheng at this time.The current Yingzheng, sandwiched between Lai Ai and Lu Buwei, has limited power in his hands, and he has done his best to make Li Si a long history.As the saying goes: I don't have much, but I would like to give you the best.The amount of affection in the official position of Chang Shi is by no means lower than that of Prime Minister Shangqing more than ten years ago.