Chapter 48 Chapter 3 The Bachelor

For many years, Yao Jia has been in exile, living in no fixed place, almost blind.Home is supposed to be the warmest place in the world, even traffickers can have one, but he doesn't have one.Why doesn't he want to settle down, run a family of his own, watch his children spit, and draw willow eyebrows for his wife and concubine?However, how could he settle down?In the first half of his life, he traveled around all day long, lobbying the princes, but he was possessed by the poor god, and he never managed the second half of the property.He doesn't want to be like those traffickers and pawns, "I sincerely know that everyone has this hatred, and poor and lowly couples are sad about everything." He is proud and arrogant, and it is too late for him to be alone. How dare he build a family, which not only restrains himself, but also drags down his wife ?

Yao Jia suppressed his yearning for his family and confronted the world alone, which also kept him in a state of numbness and sub-happiness.When he goes in and out of the palaces of the Six Kingdoms, he is not happy.He is not happy until he surrenders to the Lord.When he spends money like water, he is not happy.When he bosses around, he's not happy.He was also puzzled, could it be that he has lost the function of happiness? Until today, Yao Jia saw Li Si and his family, saw Li Si's slightly fat body, and also saw Li Si's calmness, and he finally understood.He wants a home, he needs a home.He felt a hunger, a calling.But where is his home?

Odysseus overcame all kinds of hardships and dangers in his miraculous journey.And when Odysseus was wandering in despair, what kept him from falling?It is the belief in home and the love for home.As for Yao Jia, where is his home?Where is the direction of his journey?Over the years, he is like the great beatles sang in the song "nowhere man": "He's a real nowhere Man, Sitting in his Nowhere Land, Making all his nowhere plans for nobody. Doesn't have a point of view, Knows not where he's going to...」 Yao Jia was envious and even jealous of Li Si.Li Si is only four years older than him. However, in the so-called "self-cultivation, family harmony, state governance, and world peace", at least Li Si is already far ahead of him, and even left him far behind. behind.Even if the world falls apart, Li Si still has a home, but what about Yao Jia?No one has ever tied his hair in the early morning, no one has ever held the door open for him late at night, no one has ever comforted him when he is depressed, and no one has ever shared him with him when he is proud.He is forever in the dark wilderness, on two legs, alone.

Yes, he lived a crippled life, and who is to blame for that?He has always firmly believed that he will become rich, and in his consciousness, only then should he settle down, promise happiness to his wife, and future to his children.And he lobbied everywhere, seeking profit and fortune, just adding bricks and tiles to that future home.He also knows that other people's evaluation of a lobbyist like him is that he is unfaithful, unjust, mercenary, and extravagant to ward off evil.However, among those noble critics and gentlemen, which one has experienced the desolation of the four walls of the house, and which one has tasted the feeling of eating the last meal without the next meal?Mencius said that those who have a permanent property have perseverance, and those who do not have a permanent property have no perseverance.As a typical proletarian, why should he be persistent?Besides, he doesn't regard loyalty as nothing, and he actually doesn't want to be poked at the back and scolded him for having no taste or style. Jia thinks he deserves) salary.Why is he loyal?Why is he righteous?You want the horse to run, but you also want the horse not to eat grass, how can there be such a reason!

But this time, he was expelled from Zhao Guo, and all the wealth he had accumulated with great difficulty was ruthlessly borrowed by Zhao Wang.He went bankrupt, he became a pauper, again!When he entered Hangu Pass from Zhao State and the officials of Qin State asked him to declare his belongings for tax collection, he could only point to his head like Wilde and said mockingly, except for my genius, no one else There is nothing else to declare.