Chapter 7 Chapter 6 Youth is a song full of sorrow

Li Li got his wish and entered Fuxing Middle School, Han Yichen was admitted to Hongkou Middle School, and Pei Shangxuan also entered the Finance Vocational School with the lowest admission line.It's like a movie with a happy ending. Pei Shangxuan asked Li Li to go swimming in summer vacation.Li Li is a landlubber, extremely afraid of water, and a person who wears a lifebuoy and is afraid of drowning.In the summer of the second year of junior high school, he taught Li Li to hold her breath and breaststroke, but for some reason she sank while holding her breath. After a period of turmoil, he fished her ashore, and Li Li didn't dare to go into the water again.

On the day of going to school to get the report card, Pei Shangxuan and Li Li happened to meet at the entrance of the alley, and they walked side by side towards the school as usual.As if he didn't mean to, he said that this might be the last time he went together. Li Li felt sad all of a sudden.Once they get together, the wind is gone in a blink of an eye. Compared with the ignorance and ignorance when they graduated from elementary school, the fifteen-year-old boy and girl have a deeper experience of the sadness of parting.The companions who get along day and night will be separated one day.In the vast sea of ​​people, there will always be new faces in the future life to replace the old ones. Who can guarantee that they will remember every face around them for the rest of their lives.

In the last class meeting before the senior high school entrance examination, the recorder played the last album of the Little Tigers before they disbanded. Every song was a blessing for the reunion tomorrow, but at the same time, they had no choice but to admit that the separation was inevitable.No matter what their daily relationship is, this group of peers held hands in tears and sang "Li Ge" and "Flying at ease", laughing away their grievances. After school that day, Han Yichen's mother took her to a relative's house for dinner, and Pei Shangxuan took Li Li to Huangpu Park to have a wind.

He opened his schoolbag, dumped all the things confiscated by the teacher on the grass, and lay down on his back. "Girl, will you pretend not to know me in the future?" "Why do you ask such a strange question?" Li Li was puzzled, and slowly picked up the scattered debris for him, and stuffed them back into his schoolbag. Without saying a word, he picked up the harmonica that had fallen aside, and randomly wiped the ashes on his lips.Gently blowing out a note, Pei Shangxuan grinned at Li Li: "I'll give you a piece of music, just for you." The setting sun was setting, and the sparkling water reflected the afterglow of the setting sun. She listened quietly to the melodious and mournful tune of "Auld Lang Syne" whispered in her ear, and he played the harmonica quite well.The music teacher once said when they were teaching them to play this piece, that in Scottish pubs, bands used it as the end of the night.After each section is completed, a group member will extinguish the candles in front of him, and wait until the candles are all extinguished, which heralds parting.

That day, she understood the message he conveyed to her through music—our friendship will last forever! There is no wind in summer, and the sun is like fire.Pei Shangxuan turned to face her, taking advantage of his height to mess up her short hair. "Li Li, let's go swimming, I must teach you this year." She raised her head, his fingers ran through her hair, and when she left, one or two strands of hair were pulled out together with his fingers, and the pulling was very painful. "Okay." Li Li replied succinctly. They went to the swimming pool at Hongkou Stadium, and there was a long queue.Li Li hugged the goose-yellow life buoy, as if she was holding on to a life-saving straw and refused to let go.

"If you rely on the life buoy, you will never learn to swim." Pei Shangxuan frowned and looked for the valve of the life buoy, intending to let it go. Li Li noticed his attempt, and quickly turned the valve to her chest, pressing tightly to prevent him from doing anything. "Pei Shangxuan, do you want to murder me?" "It's unreasonable. The elementary school students next to you are more courageous than you." He folded his arms and snorted coldly, mocking her for going to the doll pool for a while.Li Li rolled her eyes and ignored it. She didn't have a swimming license, so she went to the physical examination office to check her body.The woman in a white coat who looked like a doctor rolled her eyelids and stamped her on the spot to make sure there was no trachoma.Li Li walked back to Pei Shangxuan in bewilderment with the current swimming certificate, and asked suspiciously what problems such a physical examination could find out.

"Why do you care so much? Hurry up and change into your swimsuit. I'll wait for you outside the locker room." Pei Shangxuan kicked Li Li into the door of the women's locker room. Li Li's swimsuit was purchased last summer when her uncle's girlfriend accompanied her to the sporting goods store. Yan Liming picked out a swimsuit with pink and white flowers on a pink background. She only wore it once and put it away. Taking off her clothes and stuffing herself into a swimsuit, Li Li felt embarrassed looking at the protrusion on her chest.Last year, she just developed, and she couldn't see the clues yet, but this year is quite different.The tight-fitting swimsuit was no looser than usual, which clearly outlined the outline of her chest.

Li Li looked around and secretly compared girls who were about the same age as herself, and found that everyone was basically curvy, so she was a little relieved. After getting wet, Li Li ran out of the locker room wearing a life buoy. Pei Shangxuan was waiting impatiently, thinking that Li Li would have to scold her like a tortoise when she came out later, when a bright peach red suddenly appeared in front of her eyes. He took a closer look to make sure that the girl was really Li Li.The fifteen-year-old boy was stunned, and for the first time noticed the physical changes in the girl who was regarded as his best friend.

Han Yichen's development was earlier than Li Li's. When he and Yichen swam last year, he already understood the changes that would happen to a woman's body.It's just that he never thought that Li Li would change, and there were undulating lines without him noticing. "Pei Shangxuan?" Seeing him staring straight at her, Li Li blushed like a boiled shrimp.She almost wanted to flee back to the dressing room and change out of this shameful bathing suit quickly. "Oh." The boy came back to his senses after being called, he scratched his hair in embarrassment, took her hand and ran towards the swimming pool.The concrete floor under the sun was burning the soles of their feet, and the two ran fast.

"Plop" and "Plop", Pei Shangxuan jumped into the pool first, while Li Li fell down due to inertia and his force. "Help!" Li Li closed her eyes and waved her hands wildly, forgetting that she couldn't drown with a life buoy. Pei Shangxuan grabbed her life buoy and laughed, she quietly opened a slit to make sure she was safe, saw his triumphant expression and felt mischievous, picked up a handful of water and poured it on his face. Unprepared, he was thrown in the face, baring his teeth and yelling for revenge.Li Li hurriedly kicked her legs and waved her hands to paddle the water, trying to escape as soon as possible.

Pei Shangxuan grabbed Li Li, pressed her head into the water and taught her to hold her breath again.She struggled twice, then raised her head and said mournfully, "Pei Shangxuan, in case I die, remember to come and pay your respects to me." "Fuck you." He couldn't help but swear, and cursed. Li Li was unexpectedly serious about learning to swim this time, she stuck her head in the water and didn't lift it up for a long time.He panicked, and just about to dive down to see if she was okay, but she suddenly raised her head out of the water. "Pei Shangxuan." Li Li reached out and hugged his neck tightly, the water on his face was not clear what kind of liquid it was. "Pei Shangxuan, we are still friends, right?" There was a strange feeling in his heart, he understood what Li Li was afraid of, and this was also his unspeakable worry.That day when he was by the Huangpu River, he could only use the harmonica to express the depression in his heart. Are they still friends after parting?The fifteen-year-old boy hugged the trembling girl, and deliberately said in a rough voice in order to conceal his true emotions: "Fool, I will never change in my life." The swimming pool was full of voices, and the moment he spoke, Li Li's ears were cut off from all the noise. These words entered her ears very clearly, and then engraved into the depths of her soul. In mid-August, Li Li received the admission letter from Fuxing Middle School and went to report and participated in the military training, and had initial contact with the students who were about to spend three years together.The whole class used to be almost all top students from the schools in the district, and no one was convinced when they got together.Li Li waited and watched silently, without Pei Shangxuan, she lost interest. During ten days of military training, Li Li became acquainted with a girl named Li Jun.They are about the same size, so they naturally line up together when they line up.Li Jun is a cheerful girl, fatter and delicious than Li Li.During the military training breaks, each person had a meat bun as a snack, and she yelled that she was only three-thirds full after eating one, so she might as well not eat it. Li Li always thinks that fat people are usually not bad people, and there is no scientific basis, so she thinks so.She has a chubby figure, and her chubby face can never lose weight. Strictly speaking, she can be regarded as a chubby person.Anyway, she is not bad-minded, and she feels that all fat people think about eating more and sleeping more all day long, so how can they have free time to think about the whole thing?So Li Li and the chubby Li Jun got to know each other well during the military training days, and they naturally sat together when they arranged the same table. The military training report was held in Hongkou Stadium, and all the high schools in Hongkou District were there.Li Li found Han Yichen in the crowd, Hongkou Middle School and Fuxing's attire, white shirt and blue line pants.Many years later, Pei Shangxuan turned to Li Li's first group photo in high school, looked at her outfit during military training, and commented disdainfully - the dirt is too dregs. She didn't tell him that Han Yichen also wore the same outfit that day, but this outfit did not diminish her beauty in the slightest.She clearly remembered that on the day of the military training performance, the long-sleeved trousers made her sweat profusely and complain, and she fanned herself desperately with her hand as a fan.Therefore, looking at the beautiful girl who seems to be indifferent to the hot weather from a distance, Li Li's unhappiness increased to a higher level, thinking that even God will bully people who are not slender.She subconsciously hid behind Li Jun who was as hot and smoking as herself, hoping that Han Yichen didn't see her. Han Yichen saw Li Li and walked towards her through the crowd.She could feel the commotion from the boys in the same square as her, so she sighed helplessly and walked forward consciously. Li Li has recognized the reality since she was a child. External beauty is easier to be seen than internal intelligence, so beauties must be more popular than talented women. Han Yichen exaggeratedly gave Li Li a hug. She didn't need to worry about words like image and temperament that had nothing to do with her, so she rolled her eyes generously.She didn't know if Han Yichen knew about Pei Shangxuan taking her to swim that day, and she felt guilty. "Our contest starts today." Han Yichen said. Li Li blinked, feeling guilty and out of breath.She liked Pei Shangxuan, and even hugged him in the swimming pool. Although it was just the most common way of hugging among friends, she still felt like stealing his boyfriend.Even though she knew Pei Shangxuan much earlier than Han Yichen, Li Li still felt sorry. Later, she gradually understood: In the war of love, the thick-skinned people have the upper hand. Han Yichen stuck out his tongue at her playfully, and said with a bright smile, "How about it, do I imitate the teacher's tone?" Li Li remembered what the class teacher said similarly on the first day of registration, and burst out laughing. Han Yichen's classmates were calling her to go back, she beckoned and turned around to look at Li Li with far-reaching eyes. "Li Li, there is something I forgot to tell you, I like Pei Shangxuan very much." Li Li admits in private that she is jealous of Han Yichen, not only because of her beautiful appearance, but also because she can say the word "like" without any scruples.Fortunately, Pei Shangxuan praised her for being brave, but she didn't even have the courage to confess. "I know." Li Li responded blankly. She walked back to her queue, and Li Jun asked curiously if that pretty girl was her friend.Li Li raised her eyelids and glanced at the phalanx of Hongkou Middle School, the corner of her mouth curved into a mocking smile. "No." She denied it.Han Yichen came to declare her sovereignty, and she couldn't say the words about the contest for no reason.For a moment Li Li almost laughed at the other party for making a fuss out of a molehill. Pei Shangxuan just taught him how to swim a few times, but he could make the beautiful and confident Han Yichen feel like a formidable enemy? Li Li looked at Li Jun, raised her hand to pinch her cheek, and sighed slowly: "Women, once you fall in love, you will become neurotic." There are a lot of myopia in Li Li's class. Every time there is a sound of opening glasses cases in class, the gray-haired math teacher stands on the podium and says with a smile that the reflection below is very dazzling. Li Li straightened up and looked around, and sure enough, they were all spectacles like herself, and she couldn't help feeling like she had found the same kind.Many years later, when she recalled her youthful years, Li Li thought that maybe she had drawn an invisible boundary first: she was looking for a companion while following the rules, and she stubbornly believed that he was a bird flying recklessly.She decided that it was impossible for their worlds to overlap, so she gave up trying. The boy who always said that she looks ugly wearing glasses is no longer with her. Her deskmate is Li Jun, a good student who listens more carefully than her in class.Li Li opened the book silently, forcing herself to forget Pei Shangxuan. Her high school studies have been very busy from the very beginning. On the one hand, Fuxing Middle School's astonishing rate of admission to the college entrance examination is due to the teaching of experienced teachers, and on the other hand, it also requires the cooperation of the students themselves. The marriage of Li Guoqiang and Yan Liming was also on the agenda.Li Li has been staying at her grandmother's house since her mother got married. Now that her uncle is getting married, it is obviously inconvenient for her to continue living. Li Guoqiang was a little embarrassed, reluctant to part with his beloved niece since childhood, but he had the characteristics of a Shanghai man in his bones-the big wife is the biggest.Yan Liming can bear to live with her mother-in-law, but she can't accept that Li Guoqiang's married sister leaves her child to live with her. She also has the characteristics of a Shanghai woman-smart and narrow-minded. The housing problem became the beginning of the Li family's disputes. Li Meiqing was angry with Liu Qianren a lot in the open and secret of her husband's house. The daughter stays at her natal home.Li Guoqiang's attitude was vacillating at first, but Li Meiqing's snark made his stubborn temper come up. He insisted on driving Li Li to live with his brother-in-law's house, and threatened his mother to stand by him with "there are three ways to be unfilial, and the greatest is to have no offspring". . Li Li watched silently, uninterested.Standing at the door, Pei Shangxuan, who came to see her to catch up, frowned when he heard the cursing voice inside.She walked through the kitchen as fast as she could and came out, closing the door with too much movement and a loud bang. "Let's go." Li Li raised his head, without any haze on his face, and smiled heartily. He felt that she was not happy, as if she was suppressing something.Love makes a careless boy delicate, even caring for his best friend. Pei Shangxuan stopped and pressed Li Li's shoulder to ask her to raise her head.She obeyed and waited for him to speak. "Li Li, we are good friends, aren't we?" The young man looked serious. She nodded, "Yeah".The words "good friend" make Li Li both happy and sad. She is happy that the friendship has not faded, but also sad because of the relationship that cannot be changed. "So Li Li, stop pretending in front of me." Distress flashed in bright eyes, and he wondered if this girl had been hiding her sadness with a smiling face, even crying in a corner where no one was around?Just like the silent classroom that day, she shed tears alone.That image of loneliness is deeply rooted in his heart, and he can't forget it even if he wants to, so he thinks it's a revelation from God: as Li Li's good friend, he has an obligation to make her happy. Li Li understood what he was talking about, she couldn't want Pei Shangxuan's tenderness, it would make her more and more dependent on him.The adult woman examines the fifteen years she has passed, and is surprised to find that there are rare moments of true feelings.So I smiled in a daze, like a flower blooming in loneliness. "I don't know the so-called idiot." She raised her head stubbornly, and the corners of her mouth widened, "Pei Shangxuan, have you talked too much with Han Yichen?" Unexpectedly, Pei Shangxuan did not refute, but stretched out his arms to embrace her.He put his hands on Li Li's head and pressed it to his chest, as he did when he taught her how to swim.Li Li struggled for a while, then suddenly gave up resistance, hugged Pei Shangxuan's waist and wept softly. She intermittently told him about the family kicking her around like a ball recently, and the boy clenched his fists impulsively. "It's too much, Li Li, how could they treat you like this! Especially your mother, you are her daughter!" As he spoke, he was about to turn around and rush to Li Li's house, to argue with those unreasonable adults . Li Li hugged Pei Shangxuan tightly, "Idiot, what are you crazy about! I want you to meddle in your own business!" She clenched her fist with her right hand and slammed Pei Shangxuan hard, causing him a lot of pain.Pei Shangxuan pressed his hands on his chest and looked at Li Li angrily. "Don't bite Lu Dongbin, you don't know a good heart. I don't bother to care about other people's affairs." Shaking off her hand, the boy strode away without turning his head. He is angry.Li Li bit her lips as she watched the young man's back striding towards the setting sun.If he looked back, he would definitely say "Why are you abusing yourself again", but Pei Shangxuan didn't look back. What Li Li didn't know was that after this farewell, it took a long time before she saw him again.But when they met again, everything was different again. Li Li heard about Pei Shangxuan's accident from Deng Jianfeng.Deng Jianfeng, a self-motivated master, entered the same vocational school as Pei Shangxuan, and because of being in the same class in junior high school, his relationship is stronger than ordinary people.The gangsters around the school had seen how well these two teamed up, so they were willing to follow them. Li Li is busy arranging her books and clothes, and she will move to Liu's house to live with her mother before the Spring Festival.After discussing with Liu Zhixian, Li Meiqing closed the balcony outside the living room and set up a small room for Li Li with a bed and a small two-tiered wardrobe.As for her reading and writing homework, she had to go to Liu Qianren's room to share a desk with him. Li Li accepted this decision without saying a word, and secretly reminded herself that she had to finish her homework in school in the future.Her silence made Li Guoqiang very guilty, feeling that his niece was suddenly alienated from him. In order to try his best to make up for the rift caused by his future wife's unreasonableness before Li Li left, Li Guoqiang deliberately took Li Li to the street to buy sports shoes on his off day.They met Deng Jianfeng at the Nike counter of Shibaiyi Store. Li Li and Deng Jianfeng were not close, and she only had a good relationship with Pei Shangxuan among the boys in the same class in junior high school.Seeing Deng Jianfeng, Li Li greeted him with a smile, remembering that Pei Shangxuan hadn't seen him for a long time, she asked him how he was doing recently. Deng Jianfeng looked surprised, "You don't know? You and Pei Shangxuan are so close that you don't even know about it?" Her heart beat faster and faster, with a sense of foreboding. "I haven't seen him for a long time, what the hell happened." "I don't know the exact reason. Pei Shangxuan was arrested, and I heard that he will be sent to a youth education center." Li Liru was struck by lightning, and she didn't even hear her little uncle calling her.She couldn't remember how she said goodbye to Deng Jianfeng, and how she followed Li Guoqiang back home. There was only one thought in her mind: It's only been a month and a half, how could it have become like this? The first thing Li Li did after returning home was to run through the four alleys to Pei Shangxuan's house.She rang the doorbell, afraid that the people upstairs would not hear her, and at the same time knocked hard on the door and called his name loudly. Soon, someone came downstairs and opened the door, it was Father Pei. "Li Li." He called her name, moved his lips to say something, but finally sighed with a serious expression. "Uncle, where's Shang Xuan? I heard that something happened to him. He was fine last time I saw him." Seeing Father Pei's hesitant to speak, Li Li's heart sank, so "what if?" It's a joke" has been shattered.She burst into tears. "Let's go up and talk about it. By the way, you can persuade Auntie not to be too sad." Father Pei had a look of resentment.Li Li panicked, and rushed upstairs in three steps at a time.Pushing open the door, the handsome and tall boy was not in the room. "Xiao Li." Seeing Li Li, Pei's mother held her in her arms, whimpered with snot and tears and said, "What can I do, I worked so hard to raise him, and now I'm going to be sent to jail .” The word "prison" made Li Li's heart tremble suddenly.She asked eagerly what had happened. "That little vixen, I don't think she's a good person. Shang Xuan is about to get killed by her." Mother Pei gritted her teeth.Who is she?Han Yichen?Li Li was at a loss. The matter is not complicated. Pei Shangxuan and Han Yichen were discovered by Han Yichen's father when they tasted the forbidden fruit, and he insisted on calling the police.Because Han Yichen was still a minor, Pei Shangxuan's behavior was deemed rape. After understanding the ins and outs, her mind went blank, and she couldn't tell where the feeling of emptiness in her heart came from.The fifteen-year-old girl knew little about "sex", and she hurriedly brought up the part about sexual assault in the "Regulations on the Protection of Youth" in the class meeting. She really didn't understand how Pei Shangxuan and Han Yichen's apparent love was related to rape?She had heard this charge mentioned in the news, and it was quite serious. Li Li used the toothache as an excuse to ask for sick leave, and went to Hongkou Middle School to find Han Yichen.Calling her home, Han Yichen hung up the phone as soon as he heard her voice, without giving Li Li a chance to speak. Li Li had no choice but to find the school.She showed the school badge of Fuxing Middle School to the gate guard, claiming that she was here to contact work, and entered the school smoothly. She didn't know what class Han Yichen was in, so she asked a random male student in the corridor of the first grade.Beautiful girls are the most eye-catching existence on campus, and sure enough, the boy told her that Han Yichen is in Class 5. At the door of the classroom, she saw Han Yichen staring out the window in a daze.Li Li yelled, and Han Yichen turned his head. Her face was very white, bloodless white.Looking at this face, Li Li was filled with fear.She had a premonition that Han Yichen would not be able to save Pei Shangxuan. "I can't do anything." Han Yichen said softly, his beautiful face was like a lifeless doll, omitting all expressions. "I begged Dad, but it didn't work." "You can't treat Shang Xuan like this. Did you forget that you told me that you like him very much?" Li Li desperately grabbed her shoulder and shook her desperately, "Han Yichen, you go and tell the police that he didn't do anything bad. You go what!" Han Yichen's hair was disheveled by the shaking, she waited indifferently for Li Li to lose strength.Li Li's hope was wiped out bit by bit, the beautiful girl with empty expression in front of her made her despair, she let go of her hand and took a step back. "Li Li, I'll give him back to you. I hurt him. Say sorry for me." After she finished speaking, she turned around and walked towards the teaching building. Li Li stood on the playground of Hongkou Middle School, the ringing of the class bell made her eardrums ache.She seemed to be standing on an isolated island, surrounded by a boundless sea, hoping for sails of hope to appear on the sea level. Flocks of wild geese fly across the sky, and the migration season is here again. The powerless frustration hit Li Li in an instant, and she squatted down on the unfamiliar campus and cried loudly.