Chapter 61 four

After Aylay's death, I seldom went back to Orynburg in Samarkand, and spent most of my life in Cesia Cave.In addition to Ulugh Beg's annual birthday, I only went back three times in the year 827 (about 1424) and year 830 (about 1427) of the Islamic calendar for other things. The first and second times were because of Sodu The couple passed away successively in 827, and the third time was because of the birth of Buzain, the son of Omar and the grandson of Milansha. Omar was sick and asked me to bless the newborn.When I held the baby in my arms, I saw that his face was straight, exactly like his mother's.

I told Omar that this child will become the hope of the Milansha family. I don't mean to say that, my feelings are accurate every time.This is the enlightenment given to me by Changshengtian, and Changshengtian will never deceive me. Sure enough, as I expected, the arrival of the little life sent his father to the road to heaven. Before he died, Omar confidently entrusted Buzain to his cousin Ulugh Beg who came to visit him.The past grievances and grievances dissipated, and after that, Bu Sayin grew up under the careful care of his uncle Ulugh Beg, and gradually grew into a young man with a dignified character and great ambitions.Many years later, when Ulugh Beg was killed by his own son and the empire fell into unprecedented turmoil and chaos, it was Buzain who was brought up by Ulugh Beg who worked hard to unify the area in the river and cut off the empire. The thread of life continued again.

What is even more valuable is that Buzain left behind an excellent grandson. This grandson, Babur, is predicted by me to become a great king of a generation. In December 850 of the Muslim calendar (March 1447), I was urgently summoned to Harleigh by Uluh Beg.The reason for going to Harleh this time was because Shah Ruh was seriously ill. Shah Rug told Ulugh Beg that I should see him alone.Therefore, when Ulugh Beg personally led me to the door of the bedroom, he whispered to me: "Cesia, please." I nod.Ulugh Beg just asked me to make his father's journey easier and more enjoyable. I think I will try my best to do this.

I walked into the bedroom, and a court lady respectfully led me to Shahru's bed.The maid left quietly, and I looked down at Shaharu's face. Shahru lay alone on his wide carved wooden bed.I designed the pattern and pattern of this carved wooden bed for him.In fact, in the courts of Shahru and Ulug Beg, they are used to using many things I designed for them, from beds to desks to mirrors to toilet utensils, etc. My love for nature and The unique aesthetic taste is everywhere.Their habits have not changed much over the years, and the reason why they are so is not entirely because everything I design is impeccable, but more importantly, my later designs are full of sentimentality and nostalgia , Such emotions can just resonate with their father and son.

Shaharu seemed to be asleep, with his eyes slightly closed.His cheeks are sunken, his hair is completely white, and the years are relentless, and the handsomeness and vitality of the past have all been worn away by the years. I stared at him silently until he opened his eyes and saw me. "Cesia, did you just come in?" "It's been a while." "Really? Could it be that I fell asleep again?" "Of course, you have felt too much since you were a child." "You've been sitting next to me and looking at me?" "Yes, you are much older."

He smiled at me: "But you haven't aged at all. You look like you are thirty years younger than me. It must be the Saintess Spring that keeps you youthful." "Yeah, otherwise they would call me the old goblin." Shaharu smiled with difficulty. I have always managed to make him happy, even when his life is coming to an end. "Cesia, do you know that I've been thinking about you all the time, and I'm worried that you won't come to see me off in time, and you will regret it—like I did back then, and I will regret it for the rest of my life." "I will definitely catch up."

"That's true. You have always been physically strong, not weak like Ouella." The sadness of looking back on the past suddenly flashed in Shaharu's eyes. I stroked his hand lightly, and he held my hand in his.His hands were as old as his own, and had lost their former strength. "Shaharu, I want to ask you something." I seriously found something to say to Shaharu, I hope he will not be too lonely when he leaves. "what?" "That time, when you came back from Halle, if it wasn't because the princess fell ill suddenly, would you have come to visit her? Before you came, the little concubine came here first, and she told the princess about your situation, and the princess was very worried. She promised the little concubine that she would persuade you well. But I didn't have a clue at the time. I know your personality too well. If you don't want to, I'm afraid I won't be able to invite you at all. Tell me, if the princess didn't get sick accidentally, you Will you come?"

"meeting." "real?" Shaharu sighed slightly, his memory was as clear as yesterday. "Ceccia, it's been almost two years. After all, it's been almost two years since I parted from her. When I left, I forced myself to let go of everything. I also thought that distance and time could help me let go of everything. But I Wrong. In the two years since I was separated from her, you will never understand how lonely I am when I suddenly left her far away in Persia! Sometimes, I miss her almost to the point of going crazy. Every night I I dreamed of her, and she was always the same as when I first saw her, with a childish face and a gentle light in her eyes. God, I have never seen a woman who loves children like her , but if it wasn't for the accident of fate, I would rather not be a child brought up by her personally, but a man who can protect her for the rest of her life. To tell you the truth, when I was ordered to return to the palace to meet King Timur, Before I saw her, I imagined meeting her again and again. I guessed what she would say to me, and what I would say to her. At least, I felt that I was no longer the wayward boy I was two years ago. I will treat her like a real man. But it turned out that my childishness remained the same. The moment I saw her, I suddenly found that all my previous preparations were useless, my knees were trembling, and I I thought, if it wasn't for your support, I'm afraid that everyone would have seen my gaffe. I saw her like this, so you think I can still be determined enough to refuse her request?"

"So that's what you think in your heart. But, you know, your arm around me was shaking all the time. At that time, I was worried that you would not dare to see her." A warm smile appeared on Shaharu's face again: "Are my arms shaking too?" "Shaking so badly, I can hear your heartbeat, boom-boom-like a drum beating." "When? When I was talking to Oeira?" "Yes. However, you actually said to her coldly: Hello." "Really? I don't even know what I said. I just pay attention to her, but I dare not let others see how much I care about her. I am so conflicted that I don't remember many things."

"It's a good thing I remember everything." "Because of this, are you worried?" "Ok." "Worried about me hurting her?" "yes." "But you should know that no one can really hurt her. Her heart is as wide as a boundless grassland, and my love and hate are just small rivers flowing in her heart. She accommodates my existence, and I The existence of her will not change her vastness." "She loves you, Shahru." "I know, but it's not the love between men and women you said. Cecia, I also want to ask you something."

"go ahead." "Did you really never blame me?" "For your behavior that time?" "That time, that time I... I don't know what happened, the feeling was so strong that I couldn't restrain it, I think I must be crazy." "Nothing. I'm glad." "Happy?" "Princess, you, me, Ailai, we are a family. We love each other deeply, but the way and expression of love are different. Shah Ru, in my mind, I never regarded you as my The man who wants to marry, I know that your sensitive heart can only accommodate one person, and one person is enough. So, how could I be so stupid as to use your impulsiveness to punish my life's happiness. " "If that's the case, why don't you marry Ayilai? I know better than anyone else that he has always loved you deeply while he was alive." "The princess told me that Changshengtian is not a belief, but a belief. But after the princess left me forever, Changshengtian became my only belief, and I can't change it for Ayilei." Shaharu sighed slightly again: "It's really stupid." "It seems like we're all stupid." "But no regrets." "Yes, no regrets." A smile flashed across Shaharu's face, and he closed his eyes wearily. "To be honest, Cecia, I have been waiting for this day for too long. I have never felt so relaxed in my heart. I have no regrets in my heart, and there is nothing I can't let go of. These days For ten years, Ulugh Beg has been assisting me in governing the country, and his talent proves that he will become a monarch supported by the people." I silently thought, you have indeed given birth to a good son who is kind to the people and good at governing the country. The question is, can you and Milansha's ambitious grandsons reassure you?I'm afraid it will be difficult.I thought about it, but didn't say anything. Perhaps, Shahru didn't know about it, he just didn't want to think about it.As he said, he had waited too long for this day, since the moment the princess left him, he had been waiting for this day to come.For nearly forty years, he kept his promise to the princess, handed over the power of the country to Ulugh Beg, took care of all of us, and lived strong. Now, he's tired and he needs to rest. What will happen to the future after he is gone?I seem to hear the princess sighing softly: We Mongolians always beat ourselves. Because of beating themselves, the huge Mongolian Empire has already fallen apart, like the Timurid Empire with fireworks in full bloom, presumably it will not escape the same fate in the end. Seeing me, Shahru fulfilled his last wish and fell asleep peacefully.He hasn't said anything to anyone since.The next day was December 25th (that is, March 13th in the Gregorian calendar), and he passed away suddenly.I am not too sad for his passing. It is a blessing for him that he left when the Timurid Empire was incomplete but still strong. He did not have to witness the later decline and fall of the Timurid Empire like I did. . Shah Ruh's funeral was full of great honor.Because, I have seen many scholars including writers, poets, historians and artists express their condolences to him in their own way. Shah Ru's policy of inclusiveness and peaceful rule of the country has achieved the Timurid Empire for forty years Cultural splendor, this is one of his merits.What's more important than this is that I saw countless people mourning and weeping for his death, and their tears fell on the ground like pearls, which are the most noble funeral objects in the world. Shahru, who was brought up by the princess, shouldered the fate of the country's prosperity, and went to a distant place, where was the paradise he longed for all his life. Ulugh Beg and I stood in front of Shahru's tomb for a long time, neither of us wept.When we saluted his resting soul for the last time and turned to leave, Uluh Beg walked by my side and put his hand on my arm. He whispered in my ear, "Secia." I smiled: "Ulugh Beg, do you have something to say to me?" Ulugh Beg pondered and asked, "Do you think my father can see the princess in the sky?" "Yes. In fact, what does everything matter? Regardless of life or death, the princess is always by our side." "But I still hope..." "Hope? What?" "Father's life is very unhappy. How I wish his free soul is happy. Besides, I can only imagine that his departure is to be with the princess so that I won't be sad. I only hope that my father's incomplete dream Be complete by the princess's side." My eye circles were red, and then, tears rushed out of my eyes.My longing is like a flooding river flowing in front of Ulugh Beg. I am alive, but I have lost Aya, Shanai, Princess Oeira, my mother, my sister, Ailai, and now, I have lost Shaharu, only me, I am still alive. I must live, live as long as two people. Ulugh Beg put his arms around my shoulders tenderly. I stood still and turned my head, remembering that I still had one important thing to say to Shahru. Sorry!This is an apology I have hidden for thirty-eight years. Yes, after Shaharu has left, I have no reason not to apologize to him, I want to say "sorry" to him, and guard the lie for me for thirty-eight years. Thirty-eight years ago, Princess Oeira passed away suddenly.At that time, Shahru returned to Samarkand, and he failed to see the princess for the last time.After the princess was buried, he asked me what she said when she was dying, and there was one thing—and only one thing—that I lied to him.During the last brief coma, the princess kept calling for a person, and that person was actually——her mother. At that time I told Shah Ruh that that person was him. At the time, I had to say that.I know that only in this way can I help Shah Ru find a reason to keep him going. I don't regret it.I apologize not because I regret it but because Shah Ruh is about to meet the princess and I know she will help me keep this a secret.