Chapter 21 Chapter 21 For whom do I perish

Nearly eight o'clock in the evening, the plane landed smoothly, slowed down and taxied along the runway.Looking at the brightly lit terminal building outside the window, Tang Linglin thought, that high profile should be the worst thing she ever did. When Xiang Xinyang took the card back and handed it back to her, he just said: "Let's get married, and don't bother her anymore." She was a little surprised, but she just shrugged her shoulders and didn't take it as a big deal.From her standpoint, she could understand Xie Nan's stubbornness.After all, it's a pure first love, and it's hard for ordinary girls to settle down with a sum of money.

Xiang's company has overcome the initial difficulties. They have already set a date for their marriage and decided to set up a branch in other places to open up new markets after marriage. Xiang Xinyang also made it clear that he would be a good husband. Everything is as she expected, she thinks, an ex-girlfriend who refuses monetary compensation, just turns the page, leaving nothing but a good-looking gesture, sooner or later it will be indifferent in memory, and it is impossible to have any relationship with them . Looking back now, this is really a hundred secrets and one sparse, too underestimating the enemy.She never expected that a good-looking gesture would be so indelible in the eyes of a man who was reluctant to let go of the past.

And the house that she didn't pay attention to also became a fuse. As soon as Xiang Xinyang returned to the local area, the conflict between them was ignited, and it became more and more intense. If she had used her brain a little at the beginning, bought the house directly, and then sold it, it would not be difficult.In that way, Xie Nan's last impression left in Xiang Xinyang's heart is just a vulgar woman who can comfort the sad with money, so she won't rise to the sacred position in front of her, which is almost inhuman; even if Xiang Xinyang is nostalgic, There is no sustenance, it is impossible to go straight to a place to visit the old love, and now it is even more blatant to directly spend money to arrange a garden for her.

Tang Linglin opened the door, and the room was on with the lights on, but it was very quiet. Xiang Xinyang was standing by the window smoking a cigarette. He was not surprised to see her come in: "Why don't you call the driver to pick you up at the airport? Have you eaten yet?" She kicked off her high heels and said with a smile: "I didn't intend to make a surprise attack and go home to catch an adulterer. I don't think you would humiliate me like this. However, I am still a little surprised that you are so calm." Xiang Xinyang frowned: "What's wrong?"

Tang Linglin took out the credit card statement from his bag and threw it in front of him. He picked it up and glanced at it: "Now we need to reconcile the account every month. Do I ask you for approval in advance every time I use a sum of money?" She laughed angrily: "Xiang Xinyang, are you insulting the IQ of both of us?" She grabbed the bill and pointed to one of the lines, "Since when did you start paying her?" "Oh, this." Xiang Xinyang said with an unchanged expression, "I said to myself, I went to find her a gardening company to decorate the yard, she didn't know beforehand, and immediately returned the money to me afterwards."

Tang Linglin sneered: "You are indeed insulting your own personality, and at the same time insulting my IQ. How can a married man rush to pay a woman's bills and face his wife calmly after being rejected? What title?" "It's because I didn't think carefully. I promised her that this kind of thing will never happen again." "You promised her? So what do you use to answer my question?" "Ling Lin, the amount of money is not large. If I want to hide it from you, I'll just pay the cash and it's over. I never thought of acting sneaky like that, and then making up excuses to deal with you."

The current Xiang Xinyang did not know when, he had a calm posture, as if nothing would surprise or curious him.Tang Linglin thought, the person next to her pillow in front of her became more and more unfamiliar, she really failed to get home. "That said, I seem ridiculously wretched. Should I calmly accept that you pay her the bill? You should know that money, no matter how big or small, is not in my eyes, but I certainly cannot accept my The husband goes to take care of another woman, whether it's aboveboard or surreptitious." "As I said, I'm meddlesome. She has a boyfriend now and doesn't need me to take care of her at all."

"So, if she doesn't have a boyfriend, will you automatically put yourself in a backup position without considering my feelings at all?" "I just thought it was almost spring and her yard was still empty, so I asked someone to clean it up. I think I've explained it. Let's stop talking about it, shall we?" "Then what else can we talk about? The weather is good today, and it seems to be sunny tomorrow; the progress of the project in the west of the city should be accelerated; the bidding documents for this bid should be revised..." Tang Linglin's sarcasm was evident Out of desolation, "This is the standard content of our conversations, but is this a normal conversation between husband and wife?"

Xiang Xinyang looked at her with pity in his eyes: "Don't think too much, I will never break my promise to you. You probably haven't eaten dinner, go take a bath first, I'll go Next, I will buy some porridge for you to eat." He took the keys and went out. Tang Linglin looked at the neatly tidied living room. This is the wedding gift given to them by her father Tang Jiye. It is a high-rise apartment in the city center. All decorations are done by well-known designers, but they live here Time is numbered.At this time, the French windows were half open, and the wind gently blew the window screens. On the tea table, there were financial weekly magazines and newspapers that Xinyang often read. Five or six filter cigarette butts were thrown in the ashtray, and a bone china was placed beside it. The teacup, with the lid on the side, was half a cup of tea left in it. She didn't have to go to see it to know that it must be Maojian produced somewhere in the province.

Not long after marriage, she discovered Xiang Xinyang's hobby of drinking tea.She has gastritis and doesn't usually drink tea. She specially bought a tea set and several kinds of famous tea, and tried to brew them for him. The kind in the tea box at hand. At first she didn't think about it at all, but one day when he called and asked a friend to buy a certain kind of tea and send it to him, she wondered: "What's so special about this kind of tea?" Xiang Xinyang replied flatly: "I just got used to it." She turned her head to the Internet to search for information on this kind of Maojian. It is produced in this province, the output is not big or small, the price is neither high nor low, and the evaluation is neither bad nor bad.

According to her understanding, Xie Nan was born in that prefecture-level city, not the tea-producing mountainous area under the jurisdiction of that city, so it is far-fetched to speculate that Xiang Xinyang used tea to reminisce about his old love. But Xiang Xinyang has been drinking this kind of Maojian for several years, just like the Richard Clayderman piano music in his car that made her tired, reminding her that this man insisted on his own I don't mind her associations and speculations. Tang Linglin turned and went into the bathroom, but didn't take a shower. She looked at herself in the mirror. The woman in the mirror was still young, with firm skin. The short haircut, which was permed with little or no ripples, was very suitable for her face shape and temperament, and made her capable And comely.But she knew that, going back ten years, she had never had a charming posture, and now she came back from a long distance with resentment, and after the attack, she was even more tired and pale, with sharp eyes.If a man can show pity for this appearance, then he really has made himself very embarrassed. But when has she ever needed pity from others?And the pity from her husband, especially she couldn't accept it. Since when did Xiang Xinyang start looking at her like this? It seemed that it was she who went out of her way to say how much she had always liked him, and everything changed. "I think I'll be forever grateful for everything you've done for my family, for whatever purpose. But I think we'd probably get along better if it was just a business marriage where we each did what we could and took what we needed. But speaking of Love has never been something you give in return, you have made me difficult, Ling Lin." His calm voice has been echoing in her ears all this time.She almost couldn't believe that this man who she once regarded as a little weak would talk about her feelings that she took the courage to reveal in such an objective and indifferent tone, but thinking about it again, she shouldn't be surprised at all. After seven years of marriage, she clearly saw the changes in Xiang Xinyang. His eyes were no longer as clear as they used to be, and she no longer saw the carefree smile on his face that was almost flattened.What's more, almost from the moment he got married, he gave up his previous playfulness and idleness, and suddenly turned himself into a man who devoted himself to work. The two went to other places to open a branch company. At first it was very hard. Xiang Xinyang studied hard and took over a large part of the work quietly. Tang Linglin took the initiative to propose to him that he might as well go out for fun together in his free time.She has no special hobbies since she was a child. Apart from studying and working, she sometimes feels that her life is boring. She really wants Xiang Xinyang to take her out to play and see a different life.She even vaguely hoped that one day she would be able to be so intimate with him until late at night, and return home exhausted, with his back on her back, whispering intimately while going home - thinking of this, she couldn't help but blush and heartbeat. However, Xiang Xinyang always said that he was not in the mood with a tired face. Whether it was entertaining customers to sing for entertainment, or accompanying her to the movies at her request, he was a little absent-minded.On weekends, apart from going to the gym, he spends his time at home reading books and surfing the Internet.He was obviously very quiet, although she wouldn't directly say that her presence would hinder him, but she could feel that if she left him alone, he would be happier. While Tang Linglin was surprised, she couldn't help being a little confused. She originally thought that it would be very difficult for her to change Xiang Xinyang. She even carefully collected various expert advice on how to get along with each other according to her usual rigor. . However, Xiang Xinyang's change came consciously and quickly, and she was never given a chance to reform. Seeing his slightly frowning expression on reading documents and concentrating on business affairs, she often felt distressed and almost wanted to say: "Let me do it." She suppressed this impulse and secretly laughed at herself for her motherhood.She realized that, in fact, her inexplicable stubbornness towards Xiang Xinyang really tinged with maternal color. She clearly remembered the naughty and cheerful boy who came from childhood to adulthood, she remembered all the secret attention she paid to him, watching him jumping up and down, despising and secretly envious at the same time.She has already done enough psychological construction and is willing to tolerate all Xiang Xinyang's childishness, but the husband who appeared in front of her is a serious and steady adult man, who is more selfless than her when working. She has always admired a responsible and enterprising man like her father, but she couldn't explain why she liked Xiang Xinyang, who was a completely different type from her father in the past, nor was she sure whether she liked what happened to Xiang Xinyang. Mysterious changes. The only thing she needs to tolerate is his nostalgia for the past. In a foreign place, his thoughts are very secretive, just drinking tea from a certain place of origin and listening to a certain tune. Of course she doesn't like it, but she rationally reminds herself not to interfere, and successfully plays the role of a tolerant and generous man. A rational and calm wife, he also fully accepted the way the two get along. Why does such a man who is completely different from the past let a part of his mind stubbornly stay in the past and refuse to grow up? Tang Linglin resisted his aching stomach, but what appeared in front of his eyes was another youthful and delicate face, with a pointed chin, big eyes filled with water vapor, and a smile as sweet as honey.Seven years have passed, and she should be 28 years old. Does she still have that innocent expression like a frightened rabbit? During the Spring Festival, Xiang Xinyang suddenly disappeared. She stayed up all night. In a fit of rage, she asked Xu Yan for Xie Nan's number and called her. Xie Nan responded quickly and was not polite. She was slightly taken aback.Thinking about it again, she felt relieved. If she was still acting like a weak girl at the age of 28, it would not be ridiculous, but she would really be scheming. Xie Nan should not be the same as before. No one can win against time. But she couldn't deal with a man who was obsessed with memories, especially if he was not even willing to make any effort to love her. Xiang Xinyang gently knocked on the half-open bathroom door: "Ling Lin, come out and have some porridge." What he bought back was glutinous rice porridge with red dates, which is said to have the effect of nourishing the stomach, and served with steamed buns. All along, he has been considerate to her, whether it is going out to eat and ordering food, or ordering the part-time workers at home to cook, the food is mainly in line with her taste.He usually takes care of her stomach and reminds her to eat regularly. If she feels unwell, he will remind her to take medicine or go to the doctor. Of course, she didn't get the love she expected, so she was impatient and sometimes ignorant.But a woman who has always behaved rationally seems to have automatically given up the privilege of being willful. Seeing his calm appearance, she can only calm herself down in frustration, and then she can't help asking herself: Is it worth it? One night, she had acute stomach cramps and curled up in pain. Xiang Xinyang got up, put her clothes on, and drove her to the hospital for emergency treatment. The doctor said that after the temper tantrum injection, he would eat some hot porridge at the end. He didn't say anything Said, drove out and wandered around the city in the middle of the night for a long time before finding an all-night restaurant and bought porridge for her. She was eating porridge, watching him leaning against the bed wearily, dozing off with his head on his hands, his brows were habitually frowned, it was at that moment that her heartache overwhelmed her stomach discomfort. In that city, both of them were outsiders, fighting alone, relying on each other, opening up the situation little by little, and slowly expanding the career that belonged to them. He may not have worked hard to respond to her love, but he has worked hard for their marriage, she thought, just for this, she was also moved. Tang Linglin sat down at the dining table, put a small spoonful of sweet porridge into his mouth, and then looked at Xiang Xinyang who was sitting on the sofa in the living room not far away, reading a newspaper.She admitted that she had never given up on her love that was so puzzling to herself at the beginning, and at the same time, she did not intend to give up their marriage or his presence in her life. "I plan to discuss with my father tomorrow and ask him to send Vice President Li to the branch office in other places to take charge of the business, and I will come back to work." Xiang Xinyang looked up, slightly surprised, but only nodded: "I don't have time to take care of things over there. You work too hard alone. Old Li's experience should be enough. You can discuss it with your father." His performance was impeccable, and he didn't have the slightest hope that she would stay in the field and set him free.Tang Linglin let out a deep breath, and continued to eat the porridge. The warm porridge slipped into her stomach, and the discomfort was relieved. She realized that she no longer had the anger to sit on the plane back. As for whether or not this was a low request, she could only smile wryly, and began to think about the next step in her mind. When eating breakfast this morning, Yu Mucheng said to Xie Nan: "If you have time tonight, let's have dinner together." "Why are you free today?" Xie Nan didn't care, but Yu Mu Cheng was very busy recently, not to mention that he didn't have time to eat with her, and he would often come home after she fell asleep. "My sister and brother-in-law have completed the immigration procedures. They are here to meet friends and do some small things by the way. They want to see you." Xie Nan held the milk in a daze and remained silent. "It's just a meal, it's not so scary." Yu Mucheng thought it was funny. "Oh, good." Xie Nan also felt that he had overreacted just now, and continued to drink milk, and suddenly remembered something, "I'd better move down, otherwise it would be inconvenient." "That's not necessary. They have a villa across the lake, so they live there directly." Xie Nan gets nervous when she thinks about the night, she has always been a little afraid of dealing with strangers, let alone seeing Mu Cheng's family for the first time.She ate breakfast quickly, said goodbye to Yu Mucheng, and ran downstairs to her home to change clothes.However, what she hangs in her closet is either commuter clothes that she wears around, or sports and leisure clothes that she wears on weekends. , with a red striped shirt inside, and then hurried out. At noon, Xie Nan was still uneasy, so he called Gao Rubing for advice during his lunch break.Gao Rubing laughed. "Hey, it's developing well. It's time to meet my family." "It's just a meal together." "Who has nothing to invite an irrelevant person to have dinner with your family." Gao Rubing took a bite of an apple and thought for a while, "Don't be nervous, as usual, just be generous and polite." "I... just nervous." "You, I said earlier that your courage is useless in normal places. You don't run away when you see cockroaches and mice, and you are completely speechless when you see strangers. It's really strange." "How did you behave when you first met Guo Ming's family?" Gao Rubing was triumphant: "Of course he is gentle and calm, neither humble nor overbearing, always answering every question, reserved and reserved." Xie Nan was defeated by her: "This sixteen-character policy is really... so talented, I will write it down and memorize it right away." "Seriously, just don't be nervous, just be the same as usual." Gao Rubing threw the apple core into the trash can. You need to be a little nervous." See mother-in-law?Xie Nan's imagination didn't go that far: "The professional attire I wear shouldn't look too serious." "It's okay, you can just put on some light makeup after get off work, don't scare yourself. Tell you to relax, I finally don't vomit very much recently." "That's great, you should eat more, you must ensure nutrition." Xie Nan knew that Ru Bing had been annoyed by morning sickness for the past month, "Hey, is the baby moving yet?" "Common sense, common sense, it usually takes four and a half months to move. I've only been here for less than three months. Guo Ming can't wait to lie down and listen to it every day. I'm afraid of him." Xie Nan laughed straight, feeling a lot more relaxed. Xu Xu told her not to eat spicy food, to avoid facing the computer, to drink more water, to eat more fruits, and to drink more milk, until Gao Rubing begged for mercy: "I remember it all, grandma, I am also afraid I'm sorry, let me go, I really can't listen to you and Guo Ming's nagging anymore." Near the end of get off work, Manager Mo of the Finance Department called his subordinates for a meeting.Recently, there are rumors that the next branch of the head office will focus on the development of the central and western markets. The general manager of the central China region may change positions, and each business area will make major adjustments. Unexplainable anxiety. The finance department has always been relatively stable, and everyone is just guessing privately, and it is not too affected.Manager Mo is a native of the south. He has been working here since the establishment of Huazhong Company. He has undergone several changes in the general manager's personnel. He is considered a veteran here.He is mature and prudent, so naturally he would not bring up this topic at the meeting. He only summed up his recent work and implicitly reminded everyone to check their work status. The meeting was rather brief and to the point. Xie Nan drove out. The traffic was congested and the main road in the city was slow. She could only stop and go, patiently moving forward.When I arrived at the restaurant that Yu Mucheng had made an appointment with, it was already a little later than the time of appointment.It is close to the riverside, facing the Jiangtan Park. The area inside is quite large, and the business has always been booming. She found a parking space under the guidance of the waiter, got down and locked the car and entered the restaurant. Just as she was about to go to the private room on the second floor, a voice called out. To her: "Xie Nan." She turned her head and saw that it was Xu Yan, an old classmate, wearing a white silk top and a dark blue narrow skirt, with a dark blue suit and uniform top on her hand.No matter how much she doesn't like the other party, of course she can only nod politely: "Hi Xu Yan." Xu Yan didn't seem to have a clue, and said with a smile: "What a coincidence, I met you here. A few days ago, the manager of the financial department of the head office came to our bank to apply for a loan, and I received it." Xie Nan had to think for a while before she could pair Yu Zong and Yu Mucheng she said, and smiled perfunctorily: "I have an appointment, so I go up first, and talk later." "I also made an appointment, and I happened to go up together. Do you know who invited me?" Xu Yan went up the stairs side by side with her, staring at her with flickering eyes, and said slowly, "Our senior sister, Tang Linglin." This name surprised Xie Nan, but Xu Yan's expression made her even more annoyed. She didn't speak, knowing that Xu Yan must have something to say.Sure enough, Xu Yan smiled and said, "I was surprised that she suddenly asked me to meet. Oh, by the way, I heard that Mr. Yu's company is developing well, and the industrial park is going to be expanded in the second phase." "I don't know about this. We have never talked about work matters." The two had already reached the second floor, and Xie Nan was about to leave when Xu Yan said first, "She hasn't come yet, let's sit here." Xie Nan never had the ability to refuse directly, so he had no choice but to follow her to the sofa in the rest area and sit down. Xu Yan looked at her, and her eyes fell on the leather bag she was carrying: "This bag belongs to Chloe, it's so beautiful .” Since Xie Nan knew the price of this Valentine's Day gift from Yu Mucheng, she has been very awkward and has never recited it very much. Today, she recited it because she wanted to meet a guest. She said vaguely: "Thank you, your bag is also very beautiful." "I bought this Gucci at a discount in Hong Kong, and I paid the bill myself. It feels different." Xu Yan said with a bit of unconscious sourness. Xie Nan didn't know what to say: "Xu Yan, is there anything you want to tell me?" Xu Yan smiled: "There is really something wrong. My husband, Xia Bin, met Mr. Yu two months ago. He is very willing to work with Mr. Yu. Now the head office should be in need Man, I would like to ask you to help me and make an appointment for them to meet and talk." She spoke lightly, and Xie Nan couldn't help being puzzled.Literally understood, Xu Yan seemed to want to ask her for help, but her tone was polite and arrogant, without any hint of asking. "Well, it's nothing to talk to Mu Cheng, but as I said just now, we rarely talk about work, so I may not be able to help you with anything else." "Tang Linglin called me during Chinese New Year," Xu Yan changed the subject again, "She asked me for your phone number." Xie Nan remembered the unpleasant phone call during the Spring Festival, and felt that she couldn't keep up with her jumping thinking: "There is nothing else, then I will go in first." "Why was she in such a hurry to find you?" Xu Yan stared at her with burning eyes, completely ignoring her farewell. Xie Nan stood up, looked down at her, and smiled: "Aren't you going to meet her soon? Just ask her." Xu Yan also laughed, and stood up, she was a little shorter than Xie Nan, but the corner of her mouth was like a smile, and her momentum seemed not low: "Yes, I guess she came to me suddenly, she must have a lot of things to tell me .Although my mother works as a financial manager in her father's company, I don't know her very well. Every time I call or meet, I always talk about you. You see, I didn't mean to pay attention to you. It's really about Your news automatically found me." "Although I feel that my life is so boring that it is really not worthy of attention, but what others think, I can't help it." "Don't think I'm asking for your help, Xie Nan. I will thank you if you can help with my husband's matter; if you can't help, it doesn't matter, God help those who help themselves. Anyway, I should have a lot of opportunities to meet Mr. Yu .” The meaning behind her words was so clear, Xie Nan could only smile wryly: "It would be more straightforward for you to talk to him yourself." The smile on the corner of Xu Yan's mouth turned cold, "Okay, let me tell you one more thing directly. Mr. Yu probably didn't go back to tell you. We had dinner together last weekend. Of course, he mainly invited us The vice president of the branch in charge of credit, I just went with our supervisor. Originally, the vice president didn't have to attend this kind of dinner, but he went anyway to save face, and specially introduced one of my colleagues, Zhang Jiayi, to Mr. Yu , Zhang Jiayi is 26 years old this year. She has outstanding appearance and knowledge. She has just returned from studying in the United States, and she has another background. She is the daughter of the director of the Municipal Development and Reform Commission. Anyone with a discerning eye can see the intention of the governor. Zhang Jiayi and Mr. Yu hit it off, and they got along very well. Come." This news really made Xie Nan startled, she smiled helplessly: "The scope of your gossip is getting wider and wider, is there anything else you want to tell me?" "That's all for now. You're lucky, Xie Nan. But being lucky at the beginning doesn't mean you'll have the last laugh. I believe you understand this truth better than I do." The two looked at each other, Xie Nan was about to speak, when a voice called out: "Xu Yan." The two turned their heads together, and the tall woman standing a few steps away, wearing a gray satin shirt and pencil skirt, was Tang Linglin. When she met Xie Nan's eyes, she couldn't help being surprised. Xie Nan nodded slightly to them, said: "Excuse me." Turned around and left.