Chapter 24 fourth quarter

The official didn't just make a wish indiscriminately, but seriously insisted on his request for ten years, that is, to take her, a degraded singing girl, into the palace and canonize her as imperial concubine. It has never been heard in real life, and it is unique in history.After the test of time, it has been proved that his wish is quite sincere.In this regard, Shi Shi has to give him serious consideration, and must be ready to give him a formal answer at any time. When the official made this request hastily for the first time, she refused on the spot without hesitation.Now, after a lapse of ten years, he has wisely changed his approach, using various hints, insisting on the same request.She has fully understood his stubbornness and resilience, and after repeated and careful consideration, the answer she can give him is still a "no".

The reason why the official designer is so stubborn is probably because of the word "cold" in her character.All the women he touches are hot, and if they aren't hot enough, he can make them as hot as he needs them, and hotter than he needs them, so hot that he suffers. The unbearable temperature forced him to take cooling measures.But this Li Shishi is a stubborn rock that cannot be burned, and it is precisely this stubborn rock that refuses to nod that attracts him so much that he cannot extricate himself. Yes, if you just look at it from the surface, Shi Shi's character does have a very "cold" side.The officials summed up her entire personality as "cold", and even deified her. This is obviously a one-sided and superficial view, but there is some truth to it.

As a very flamboyant singer, her life, interests, and hobbies can almost be said to be quite simple.She doesn't like to dress herself up with gold, jade and jewelry, just like when the officials saw her for the first time.She usually does not wear makeup or jewelry. She always wears a black shirt at home. When she goes out occasionally, she only changes into a half-new moon-white shirt.Not only does she not like to show off, but she is also ashamed of those vulgar ladies who show off their heads and like to show off in strange clothes.But since she started wearing it, the Yuebai shirt has suddenly become the most "glamorous" fashion among women in Tokyo.The noble ladies in Tokyo lack the imagination and attractiveness in this area, so they have to follow the courtesans to do tricks.But no beautiful woman has such confidence as her, daring to walk out the door with no makeup on.

She is often taciturn and doesn't like to make jokes. For rich and powerful visitors, she hates them from the bottom of her heart and avoids them.Sometimes she is honest with officials.In doing so, she seemed to be compensating for her humiliating status as a courtesan.On this point, she is obviously very sensitive and very self-respecting.She will never allow anyone to treat her and her peers as inferior.She never pleases anyone, but only allows others to please her.These actions of hers have indeed enhanced her status and status in this industry. Also, she loves to read passionate poems, loves to sing sad songs, is willing to help those who are in trouble, and does not easily forget friends in times of trouble... All of these are due to her bleak childhood. Because of the deep imprint.

Judging from the current enviable living status and social relations, she has increasingly deviated from the childhood life she was born in, and has gone so far.Her involuntary and constant sucking into the upper classes did not please her, but made her bitter, dissatisfied, and disgusted.She tries to struggle and resist, and her "cold" character actually reflects a special form of her struggle and resistance. Her struggle and resistance reached its climax in the contact with the officials, so the officials saw her cold side more, but did not think that she also had a hot side.In fact, it is impossible for a person who can teach others and not forget the past to not have a hot side, but the officials can't see this, and they can't think of it.

She hadn't made love to the guest, and she was serious and earnest about it.But this is not because she holds a particularly strict moral standard, it is precisely because her profession is to create "love", and she has no appetite for her finished products, just like a pastry master who doesn't like to eat herself Do the same with pastries.But she couldn't refuse the guests who came to visit her, and had to sacrifice her skills to win the tang.When she is happy, she can also be very active, even flirting inevitably.When the officials entangled her, she once had a sense of vanity that overwhelmed her peers...In any occupational field, if this person does not have the usual occupational diseases, it is impossible for this person to stand out in his industry.If Shishi didn't have this or that kind of weakness, it would be impossible for her to get involved in Tokyo's geisha scene, let alone become a glamorous and well-known contemporary geisha.

The Tokyo people made her popular not because of her perverse temperament and unique behavior, but because she also had weaknesses that they could understand and accept.People can only love what they can understand and accept.It wasn't until after he made her popular that he suddenly discovered that she still had many unique behaviors and incomprehensible and unattainable natures, so he worshiped her.Fragile Tokyoites can easily find some unconventional things in real life to satisfy their worship fanatics.Worship is also an urban disease. It is precisely because Shi Shi also has such and such weaknesses, therefore, she does not completely disregard being an imperial concubine herself, nor can she completely reject that bit of vanity.But there is a force from the depths of her soul that opposes her becoming an imperial concubine, and this force is the most precious thing in her body.It made her see the differences between her and the official family, and made her fundamentally realize that he and she did not have a common emotional basis.It was one thing to be a frequent visitor, quite another to tie her fate to him.

Officials regard their palaces as Langyuan fairyland, fairy caves (there is only a lack of a fairy to manage).However, Shishi regarded it as a stagnant water that could drain her source of life, a deep trap.She knows very well that once she enters the court, the officials will indeed dote on her very much, treat her as a rare and famous painting, personally inscribe the label and postscript, seal it with "Xuanhe Tianzi Yulan Treasure", and then treasure it in the The east and west prefaces of the Baohe Hall are in order to display the treasures at any time.In this way, it is a famous painting that has lost its vitality, and can no longer be passed on to the world for real appreciators to appreciate, observe and admire.Shi Shi, who attaches great importance to the freedom of personal identity, is unwilling to sacrifice it to repay the kindness of officials.She respects herself, and a crown of imperial concubine cannot buy her, even if it is made of pure gold.Of course, there are still many people who succumbed to power, sacrificed everything, bowed to the crown, and even used it to make a fortune.Shishi thinks this kind of people are very shameful, and will never be in tune with them.

Furthermore, from her personal experience as a courtesan, she deeply knows that if she stays in her own home, she can put the official family in a position to compete with others for her; on the contrary, if she wants to enter the palace, she will make herself In a position to compete with others for his position.Shishi, who has always been proud, disdains and does not want to put herself in such a humiliating position. Thirty-year-old Li Shishi has experienced the hardships and hardships of the world and has rich life experience.As for the official, she can neither abandon him decisively (this will block her way to the upper class), nor is she willing to submit to him docilely (so she will lose everything she has saved with great difficulty).She didn't want to be kind, nor did she want to complain, and it was difficult to explain to the officials the reasons for all these repeated and repeated considerations in her mind.But she has a variety of tactics, she is more than enough to block his offensive.In this offensive and defensive battle, she has always mastered the braking power.

Last night, she returned the imperial concubine's crown and unceremoniously kicked the clown Zhang Di out of the gate.She predicted that the officials might come to her Zuixing Tower as uninvited guests today to launch a new offensive.In this regard, she has made full preparations and is ready to fight in thought, language, and action.